On returning home late one evening
from Mariya Viktorovna’s I found waiting in
my room a young police inspector in a new uniform;
he was sitting at my table, looking through my books.
“At last,” he said, getting
up and stretching himself. “This is the
third time I have been to you. The Governor commands
you to present yourself before him at nine o’clock
in the morning. Without fail.”
He took from me a signed statement
that I would act upon his Excellency’s command,
and went away. This late visit of the police
inspector and unexpected invitation to the Governor’s
had an overwhelmingly oppressive effect upon me.
From my earliest childhood I have felt terror-stricken
in the presence of gendarmes, policemen, and
law court officials, and now I was tormented by uneasiness,
as though I were really guilty in some way. And
I could not get to sleep. My nurse and Prokofy
were also upset and could not sleep. My nurse
had earache too; she moaned, and several times began
crying with pain. Hearing that I was awake, Prokofy
came into my room with a lamp and sat down at the
table.
“You ought to have a drink of
pepper cordial,” he said, after a moment’s
thought. “If one does have a drink in this
vale of tears it does no harm. And if Mamma were
to pour a little pepper cordial in her ear it would
do her a lot of good.”
Between two and three he was going
to the slaughter-house for the meat. I knew I
should not sleep till morning now, and to get through
the time till nine o’clock I went with him.
We walked with a lantern, while his boy Nikolka, aged
thirteen, with blue patches on his cheeks from frostbites,
a regular young brigand to judge by his expression,
drove after us in the sledge, urging on the horse in
a husky voice.
“I suppose they will punish
you at the Governor’s,” Prokofy said to
me on the way. “There are rules of the trade
for governors, and rules for the higher clergy, and
rules for the officers, and rules for the doctors,
and every class has its rules. But you haven’t
kept to your rules, and you can’t be allowed.”
The slaughter-house was behind the
cemetery, and till then I had only seen it in the
distance. It consisted of three gloomy barns,
surrounded by a grey fence, and when the wind blew
from that quarter on hot days in summer, it brought
a stifling stench from them. Now going into the
yard in the dark I did not see the barns; I kept coming
across horses and sledges, some empty, some loaded
up with meat. Men were walking about with lanterns,
swearing in a disgusting way. Prokofy and Nikolka
swore just as revoltingly, and the air was in a continual
uproar with swearing, coughing, and the neighing of
horses.
There was a smell of dead bodies and
of dung. It was thawing, the snow was changing
into mud; and in the darkness it seemed to me that
I was walking through pools of blood.
Having piled up the sledges full of
meat we set off to the butcher’s shop in the
market. It began to get light. Cooks with
baskets and elderly ladies in mantles came along one
after another, Prokofy, with a chopper in his hand,
in a white apron spattered with blood, swore fearful
oaths, crossed himself at the church, shouted aloud
for the whole market to hear, that he was giving away
the meat at cost price and even at a loss to himself.
He gave short weight and short change, the cooks saw
that, but, deafened by his shouts, did not protest,
and only called him a hangman. Brandishing and
bringing down his terrible chopper he threw himself
into picturesque attitudes, and each time uttered
the sound “Geck” with a ferocious expression,
and I was afraid he really would chop off somebody’s
head or hand.
I spent all the morning in the butcher’s
shop, and when at last I went to the Governor’s,
my overcoat smelt of meat and blood. My state
of mind was as though I were being sent spear in hand
to meet a bear. I remember the tall staircase
with a striped carpet on it, and the young official,
with shiny buttons, who mutely motioned me to the
door with both hands, and ran to announce me.
I went into a hall luxuriously but frigidly and tastelessly
furnished, and the high, narrow mirrors in the spaces
between the walls, and the bright yellow window curtains,
struck the eye particularly unpleasantly. One
could see that the governors were changed, but the
furniture remained the same. Again the young
official motioned me with both hands to the door,
and I went up to a big green table at which a military
general, with the Order of Vladimir on his breast,
was standing.
“Mr. Poloznev, I have asked
you to come,” he began, holding a letter in
his hand, and opening his mouth like a round “o,”
“I have asked you to come here to inform you
of this. Your highly respected father has appealed
by letter and by word of mouth to the Marshal of the
Nobility begging him to summon you, and to lay before
you the inconsistency of your behaviour with the rank
of the nobility to which you have the honour to belong.
His Excellency Alexandr Pavlovitch, justly supposing
that your conduct might serve as a bad example, and
considering that mere persuasion on his part would
not be sufficient, but that official intervention
in earnest was essential, presents me here in this
letter with his views in regard to you, which I share.”
He said this, quietly, respectfully,
standing erect, as though I were his superior officer
and looking at me with no trace of severity.
His face looked worn and wizened, and was all wrinkles;
there were bags under his eyes; his hair was dyed;
and it was impossible to tell from his appearance
how old he was forty or sixty.
“I trust,” he went on,
“that you appreciate the delicacy of our honoured
Alexandr Pavlovitch, who has addressed himself to me
not officially, but privately. I, too, have asked
you to come here unofficially, and I am speaking to
you, not as a Governor, but from a sincere regard
for your father. And so I beg you either to alter
your line of conduct and return to duties in keeping
with your rank, or to avoid setting a bad example,
remove to another district where you are not known,
and where you can follow any occupation you please.
In the other case, I shall be forced to take extreme
measures.”
He stood for half a minute in silence,
looking at me with his mouth open.
“Are you a vegetarian?” he asked.
“No, your Excellency, I eat meat.”
He sat down and drew some papers towards him.
I bowed and went out.
It was not worth while now to go to
work before dinner. I went home to sleep, but
could not sleep from an unpleasant, sickly feeling,
induced by the slaughter house and my conversation
with the Governor, and when the evening came I went,
gloomy and out of sorts, to Mariya Viktorovna.
I told her how I had been at the Governor’s,
while she stared at me in perplexity as though she
did not believe it, then suddenly began laughing gaily,
loudly, irrepressibly, as only good-natured laughter-loving
people can.
“If only one could tell that
in Petersburg!” she brought out, almost falling
over with laughter, and propping herself against the
table. “If one could tell that in Petersburg!”