Imagine, if you can, what the rest
of the evening was like. How they crouched by
the fire which blazed and leaped and made so much of
itself in the little grate. How they removed
the covers of the dishes, and found rich, hot, savory
soup, which was a meal in itself, and sandwiches and
toast and muffins enough for both of them. The
mug from the washstand was used as Becky’s tea
cup, and the tea was so delicious that it was not
necessary to pretend that it was anything but tea.
They were warm and full-fed and happy, and it was just
like Sara that, having found her strange good fortune
real, she should give herself up to the enjoyment
of it to the utmost. She had lived such a life
of imaginings that she was quite equal to accepting
any wonderful thing that happened, and almost to cease,
in a short time, to find it bewildering.
“I don’t know anyone in
the world who could have done it,” she said;
“but there has been someone. And here we
are sitting by their fire and and it’s
true! And whoever it is wherever they
are I have a friend, Becky someone
is my friend.”
It cannot be denied that as they sat
before the blazing fire, and ate the nourishing, comfortable
food, they felt a kind of rapturous awe, and looked
into each other’s eyes with something like doubt.
“Do you think,” Becky
faltered once, in a whisper, “do you think it
could melt away, miss? Hadn’t we better
be quick?” And she hastily crammed her sandwich
into her mouth. If it was only a dream, kitchen
manners would be overlooked.
“No, it won’t melt away,”
said Sara. “I am eating this muffin,
and I can taste it. You never really eat things
in dreams. You only think you are going to eat
them. Besides, I keep giving myself pinches;
and I touched a hot piece of coal just now, on purpose.”
The sleepy comfort which at length
almost overpowered them was a heavenly thing.
It was the drowsiness of happy, well-fed childhood,
and they sat in the fire glow and luxuriated in it
until Sara found herself turning to look at her transformed
bed.
There were even blankets enough to
share with Becky. The narrow couch in the next
attic was more comfortable that night than its occupant
had ever dreamed that it could be.
As she went out of the room, Becky
turned upon the threshold and looked about her with
devouring eyes.
“If it ain’t here in the
mornin’, miss,” she said, “it’s
been here tonight, anyways, an’ I shan’t
never forget it.” She looked at each particular
thing, as if to commit it to memory. “The
fire was there”, pointing with her finger,
“an’ the table was before it; an’
the lamp was there, an’ the light looked rosy
red; an’ there was a satin cover on your bed,
an’ a warm rug on the floor, an’ everythin’
looked beautiful; an’” she
paused a second, and laid her hand on her stomach
tenderly “there was soup an’
sandwiches an’ muffins there was.”
And, with this conviction a reality at least, she
went away.
Through the mysterious agency which
works in schools and among servants, it was quite
well known in the morning that Sara Crewe was in horrible
disgrace, that Ermengarde was under punishment, and
that Becky would have been packed out of the house
before breakfast, but that a scullery maid could not
be dispensed with at once. The servants knew
that she was allowed to stay because Miss Minchin could
not easily find another creature helpless and humble
enough to work like a bounden slave for so few shillings
a week. The elder girls in the schoolroom knew
that if Miss Minchin did not send Sara away it was
for practical reasons of her own.
“She’s growing so fast
and learning such a lot, somehow,” said Jessie
to Lavinia, “that she will be given classes soon,
and Miss Minchin knows she will have to work for nothing.
It was rather nasty of you, Lavvy, to tell about
her having fun in the garret. How did you find
it out?”
“I got it out of Lottie.
She’s such a baby she didn’t know she
was telling me. There was nothing nasty at all
in speaking to Miss Minchin. I felt it my duty” priggishly.
“She was being deceitful. And it’s
ridiculous that she should look so grand, and be made
so much of, in her rags and tatters!”
“What were they doing when Miss Minchin caught
them?”
“Pretending some silly thing.
Ermengarde had taken up her hamper to share with
Sara and Becky. She never invites us to share
things. Not that I care, but it’s rather
vulgar of her to share with servant girls in attics.
I wonder Miss Minchin didn’t turn Sara out even
if she does want her for a teacher.”
“If she was turned out where
would she go?” inquired Jessie, a trifle anxiously.
“How do I know?” snapped
Lavinia. “She’ll look rather queer
when she comes into the schoolroom this morning, I
should think after what’s happened.
She had no dinner yesterday, and she’s not to
have any today.”
Jessie was not as ill-natured as she
was silly. She picked up her book with a little
jerk.
“Well, I think it’s horrid,”
she said. “They’ve no right to starve
her to death.”
When Sara went into the kitchen that
morning the cook looked askance at her, and so did
the housemaids; but she passed them hurriedly.
She had, in fact, overslept herself a little, and
as Becky had done the same, neither had had time to
see the other, and each had come downstairs in haste.
Sara went into the scullery.
Becky was violently scrubbing a kettle, and was actually
gurgling a little song in her throat. She looked
up with a wildly elated face.
“It was there when I wakened,
miss the blanket,” she whispered
excitedly. “It was as real as it was last
night.”
“So was mine,” said Sara.
“It is all there now all of it.
While I was dressing I ate some of the cold things
we left.”
“Oh, laws! Oh, laws!”
Becky uttered the exclamation in a sort of rapturous
groan, and ducked her head over her kettle just in
time, as the cook came in from the kitchen.
Miss Minchin had expected to see in
Sara, when she appeared in the schoolroom, very much
what Lavinia had expected to see. Sara had always
been an annoying puzzle to her, because severity never
made her cry or look frightened. When she was
scolded she stood still and listened politely with
a grave face; when she was punished she performed her
extra tasks or went without her meals, making no complaint
or outward sign of rebellion. The very fact
that she never made an impudent answer seemed to Miss
Minchin a kind of impudence in itself. But after
yesterday’s deprivation of meals, the violent
scene of last night, the prospect of hunger today,
she must surely have broken down. It would be
strange indeed if she did not come downstairs with
pale cheeks and red eyes and an unhappy, humbled face.
Miss Minchin saw her for the first
time when she entered the schoolroom to hear the little
French class recite its lessons and superintend its
exercises. And she came in with a springing step,
color in her cheeks, and a smile hovering about the
corners of her mouth. It was the most astonishing
thing Miss Minchin had ever known. It gave her
quite a shock. What was the child made of?
What could such a thing mean? She called her
at once to her desk.
“You do not look as if you realize
that you are in disgrace,” she said. “Are
you absolutely hardened?”
The truth is that when one is still
a child or even if one is grown up and
has been well fed, and has slept long and softly and
warm; when one has gone to sleep in the midst of a
fairy story, and has wakened to find it real, one
cannot be unhappy or even look as if one were; and
one could not, if one tried, keep a glow of joy out
of one’s eyes. Miss Minchin was almost
struck dumb by the look of Sara’s eyes when she
made her perfectly respectful answer.
“I beg your pardon, Miss Minchin,”
she said; “I know that I am in disgrace.”
“Be good enough not to forget
it and look as if you had come into a fortune.
It is an impertinence. And remember you are
to have no food today.”
“Yes, Miss Minchin,” Sara
answered; but as she turned away her heart leaped
with the memory of what yesterday had been. “If
the Magic had not saved me just in time,” she
thought, “how horrible it would have been!”
“She can’t be very hungry,”
whispered Lavinia. “Just look at her.
Perhaps she is pretending she has had a good breakfast” with
a spiteful laugh.
“She’s different from
other people,” said Jessie, watching Sara with
her class. “Sometimes I’m a bit frightened
of her.”
“Ridiculous thing!” ejaculated Lavinia.
All through the day the light was
in Sara’s face, and the color in her cheek.
The servants cast puzzled glances at her, and whispered
to each other, and Miss Amelia’s small blue
eyes wore an expression of bewilderment. What
such an audacious look of well-being, under august
displeasure could mean she could not understand.
It was, however, just like Sara’s singular obstinate
way. She was probably determined to brave the
matter out.
One thing Sara had resolved upon,
as she thought things over. The wonders which
had happened must be kept a secret, if such a thing
were possible. If Miss Minchin should choose
to mount to the attic again, of course all would be
discovered. But it did not seem likely that she
would do so for some time at least, unless she was
led by suspicion. Ermengarde and Lottie would
be watched with such strictness that they would not
dare to steal out of their beds again. Ermengarde
could be told the story and trusted to keep it secret.
If Lottie made any discoveries, she could be bound
to secrecy also. Perhaps the Magic itself would
help to hide its own marvels.
“But whatever happens,”
Sara kept saying to herself all day “Whatever
happens, somewhere in the world there is a heavenly
kind person who is my friend my friend.
If I never know who it is if I never can
even thank him I shall never feel quite
so lonely. Oh, the Magic was good to me!”
If it was possible for weather to
be worse than it had been the day before, it was worse
this day wetter, muddier, colder.
There were more errands to be done, the cook was more
irritable, and, knowing that Sara was in disgrace,
she was more savage. But what does anything matter
when one’s Magic has just proved itself one’s
friend. Sara’s supper of the night before
had given her strength, she knew that she should sleep
well and warmly, and, even though she had naturally
begun to be hungry again before evening, she felt
that she could bear it until breakfast-time on the
following day, when her meals would surely be given
to her again. It was quite late when she was
at last allowed to go upstairs. She had been
told to go into the schoolroom and study until ten
o’clock, and she had become interested in her
work, and remained over her books later.
When she reached the top flight of
stairs and stood before the attic door, it must be
confessed that her heart beat rather fast.
“Of course it might all
have been taken away,” she whispered, trying
to be brave. “It might only have been
lent to me for just that one awful night. But
it was lent to me I had it. It
was real.”
She pushed the door open and went
in. Once inside, she gasped slightly, shut the
door, and stood with her back against it looking from
side to side.
The Magic had been there again.
It actually had, and it had done even more than before.
The fire was blazing, in lovely leaping flames, more
merrily than ever. A number of new things had
been brought into the attic which so altered the look
of it that if she had not been past doubting she would
have rubbed her eyes. Upon the low table another
supper stood this time with cups and plates
for Becky as well as herself; a piece of bright, heavy,
strange embroidery covered the battered mantel, and
on it some ornaments had been placed. All the
bare, ugly things which could be covered with draperies
had been concealed and made to look quite pretty.
Some odd materials of rich colors had been fastened
against the wall with fine, sharp tacks so
sharp that they could be pressed into the wood and
plaster without hammering. Some brilliant fans
were pinned up, and there were several large cushions,
big and substantial enough to use as seats. A
wooden box was covered with a rug, and some cushions
lay on it, so that it wore quite the air of a sofa.
Sara slowly moved away from the door
and simply sat down and looked and looked again.
“It is exactly like something
fairy come true,” she said. “There
isn’t the least difference. I feel as
if I might wish for anything diamonds or
bags of gold and they would appear!
That wouldn’t be any stranger than this.
Is this my garret? Am I the same cold, ragged,
damp Sara? And to think I used to pretend and
pretend and wish there were fairies! The one
thing I always wanted was to see a fairy story come
true. I am living in a fairy story.
I feel as if I might be a fairy myself, and able to
turn things into anything else.”
She rose and knocked upon the wall
for the prisoner in the next cell, and the prisoner
came.
When she entered she almost dropped
in a heap upon the floor. For a few seconds
she quite lost her breath.
“Oh, laws!” she gasped. “Oh,
laws, miss!”
“You see,” said Sara.
On this night Becky sat on a cushion
upon the hearth rug and had a cup and saucer of her
own.
When Sara went to bed she found that
she had a new thick mattress and big downy pillows.
Her old mattress and pillow had been removed to Becky’s
bedstead, and, consequently, with these additions Becky
had been supplied with unheard-of comfort.
“Where does it all come from?”
Becky broke forth once. “Laws, who does
it, miss?”
“Don’t let us even ask,”
said Sara. “If it were not that I want
to say, ‘Oh, thank you,’ I would rather
not know. It makes it more beautiful.”
From that time life became more wonderful
day by day. The fairy story continued.
Almost every day something new was done. Some
new comfort or ornament appeared each time Sara opened
the door at night, until in a short time the attic
was a beautiful little room full of all sorts of odd
and luxurious things. The ugly walls were gradually
entirely covered with pictures and draperies, ingenious
pieces of folding furniture appeared, a bookshelf
was hung up and filled with books, new comforts and
conveniences appeared one by one, until there seemed
nothing left to be desired. When Sara went downstairs
in the morning, the remains of the supper were on
the table; and when she returned to the attic in the
evening, the magician had removed them and left another
nice little meal. Miss Minchin was as harsh and
insulting as ever, Miss Amelia as peevish, and the
servants were as vulgar and rude. Sara was sent
on errands in all weathers, and scolded and driven
hither and thither; she was scarcely allowed to speak
to Ermengarde and Lottie; Lavinia sneered at the increasing
shabbiness of her clothes; and the other girls stared
curiously at her when she appeared in the schoolroom.
But what did it all matter while she was living in
this wonderful mysterious story? It was more
romantic and delightful than anything she had ever
invented to comfort her starved young soul and save
herself from despair. Sometimes, when she was
scolded, she could scarcely keep from smiling.
“If you only knew!” she
was saying to herself. “If you only knew!”
The comfort and happiness she enjoyed
were making her stronger, and she had them always
to look forward to. If she came home from her
errands wet and tired and hungry, she knew she would
soon be warm and well fed after she had climbed the
stairs. During the hardest day she could occupy
herself blissfully by thinking of what she should see
when she opened the attic door, and wondering what
new delight had been prepared for her. In a
very short time she began to look less thin.
Color came into her cheeks, and her eyes did not seem
so much too big for her face.
“Sara Crewe looks wonderfully
well,” Miss Minchin remarked disapprovingly
to her sister.
“Yes,” answered poor,
silly Miss Amelia. “She is absolutely fattening.
She was beginning to look like a little starved crow.”
“Starved!” exclaimed Miss
Minchin, angrily. “There was no reason
why she should look starved. She always had
plenty to eat!”
“Of of course,”
agreed Miss Amelia, humbly, alarmed to find that she
had, as usual, said the wrong thing.
“There is something very disagreeable
in seeing that sort of thing in a child of her age,”
said Miss Minchin, with haughty vagueness.
“What sort of thing?” Miss
Amelia ventured.
“It might almost be called defiance,”
answered Miss Minchin, feeling annoyed because she
knew the thing she resented was nothing like defiance,
and she did not know what other unpleasant term to
use. “The spirit and will of any other
child would have been entirely humbled and broken
by by the changes she has had to submit
to. But, upon my word, she seems as little subdued
as if as if she were a princess.”
“Do you remember,” put
in the unwise Miss Amelia, “what she said to
you that day in the schoolroom about what you would
do if you found out that she was ”
“No, I don’t,” said
Miss Minchin. “Don’t talk nonsense.”
But she remembered very clearly indeed.
Very naturally, even Becky was beginning
to look plumper and less frightened. She could
not help it. She had her share in the secret
fairy story, too. She had two mattresses, two
pillows, plenty of bed-covering, and every night a
hot supper and a seat on the cushions by the fire.
The Bastille had melted away, the prisoners no longer
existed. Two comforted children sat in the midst
of delights. Sometimes Sara read aloud from her
books, sometimes she learned her own lessons, sometimes
she sat and looked into the fire and tried to imagine
who her friend could be, and wished she could say to
him some of the things in her heart.
Then it came about that another wonderful
thing happened. A man came to the door and left
several parcels. All were addressed in large
letters, “To the Little Girl in the right-hand
attic.”
Sara herself was sent to open the
door and take them in. She laid the two largest
parcels on the hall table, and was looking at the address,
when Miss Minchin came down the stairs and saw her.
“Take the things to the young
lady to whom they belong,” she said severely.
“Don’t stand there staring at them.
“They belong to me,” answered Sara, quietly.
“To you?” exclaimed Miss Minchin.
“What do you mean?”
“I don’t know where they
come from,” said Sara, “but they are addressed
to me. I sleep in the right-hand attic.
Becky has the other one.”
Miss Minchin came to her side and
looked at the parcels with an excited expression.
“What is in them?” she demanded.
“I don’t know,” replied Sara.
“Open them,” she ordered.
Sara did as she was told. When
the packages were unfolded Miss Minchin’s countenance
wore suddenly a singular expression. What she
saw was pretty and comfortable clothing clothing
of different kinds: shoes, stockings, and gloves,
and a warm and beautiful coat. There were even
a nice hat and an umbrella. They were all good
and expensive things, and on the pocket of the coat
was pinned a paper, on which were written these words:
“To be worn every day. Will be replaced
by others when necessary.”
Miss Minchin was quite agitated.
This was an incident which suggested strange things
to her sordid mind. Could it be that she had
made a mistake, after all, and that the neglected
child had some powerful though eccentric friend in
the background perhaps some previously
unknown relation, who had suddenly traced her whereabouts,
and chose to provide for her in this mysterious and
fantastic way? Relations were sometimes very
odd particularly rich old bachelor uncles,
who did not care for having children near them.
A man of that sort might prefer to overlook his young
relation’s welfare at a distance. Such
a person, however, would be sure to be crotchety and
hot-tempered enough to be easily offended. It
would not be very pleasant if there were such a one,
and he should learn all the truth about the thin, shabby
clothes, the scant food, and the hard work.
She felt very queer indeed, and very uncertain, and
she gave a side glance at Sara.
“Well,” she said, in a
voice such as she had never used since the little
girl lost her father, “someone is very kind to
you. As the things have been sent, and you are
to have new ones when they are worn out, you may as
well go and put them on and look respectable.
After you are dressed you may come downstairs and
learn your lessons in the schoolroom. You need
not go out on any more errands today.”
About half an hour afterward, when
the schoolroom door opened and Sara walked in, the
entire seminary was struck dumb.
“My word!” ejaculated
Jessie, jogging Lavinia’s elbow. “Look
at the Princess Sara!”
Everybody was looking, and when Lavinia
looked she turned quite red.
It was the Princess Sara indeed.
At least, since the days when she had been a princess,
Sara had never looked as she did now. She did
not seem the Sara they had seen come down the back
stairs a few hours ago. She was dressed in the
kind of frock Lavinia had been used to envying her
the possession of. It was deep and warm in color,
and beautifully made. Her slender feet looked
as they had done when Jessie had admired them, and
the hair, whose heavy locks had made her look rather
like a Shetland pony when it fell loose about her
small, odd face, was tied back with a ribbon.
“Perhaps someone has left her
a fortune,” Jessie whispered. “I always
thought something would happen to her. She’s
so queer.”
“Perhaps the diamond mines have
suddenly appeared again,” said Lavinia, scathingly.
“Don’t please her by staring at her in
that way, you silly thing.”
“Sara,” broke in Miss
Minchin’s deep voice, “come and sit here.”
And while the whole schoolroom stared
and pushed with elbows, and scarcely made any effort
to conceal its excited curiosity, Sara went to her
old seat of honor, and bent her head over her books.
That night, when she went to her room,
after she and Becky had eaten their supper she sat
and looked at the fire seriously for a long time.
“Are you making something up
in your head, miss?” Becky inquired with respectful
softness. When Sara sat in silence and looked
into the coals with dreaming eyes it generally meant
that she was making a new story. But this time
she was not, and she shook her head.
“No,” she answered. “I am
wondering what I ought to do.”
Becky stared still respectfully.
She was filled with something approaching reverence
for everything Sara did and said.
“I can’t help thinking
about my friend,” Sara explained. “If
he wants to keep himself a secret, it would be rude
to try and find out who he is. But I do so want
him to know how thankful I am to him and
how happy he has made me. Anyone who is kind
wants to know when people have been made happy.
They care for that more than for being thanked.
I wish I do wish ”
She stopped short because her eyes
at that instant fell upon something standing on a
table in a corner. It was something she had found
in the room when she came up to it only two days before.
It was a little writing-case fitted with paper and
envelopes and pens and ink.
“Oh,” she exclaimed, “why
did I not think of that before?”
She rose and went to the corner and
brought the case back to the fire.
“I can write to him,”
she said joyfully, “and leave it on the table.
Then perhaps the person who takes the things away will
take it, too. I won’t ask him anything.
He won’t mind my thanking him, I feel sure.”
So she wrote a note. This is what she said:
I hope you will not think it is impolite
that I should write this note to you when you wish
to keep yourself a secret. Please believe I do
not mean to be impolite or try to find out anything
at all; only I want to thank you for being so kind
to me so heavenly kind and making
everything like a fairy story. I am so grateful
to you, and I am so happy and so is Becky.
Becky feels just as thankful as I do it
is all just as beautiful and wonderful to her as it
is to me. We used to be so lonely and cold and
hungry, and now oh, just think what you
have done for us! Please let me say just these
words. It seems as if I ought to say them.
Thank you thank you thank
you!
The little girl in the attic.
The next morning she left this on
the little table, and in the evening it had been taken
away with the other things; so she knew the Magician
had received it, and she was happier for the thought.
She was reading one of her new books to Becky just
before they went to their respective beds, when her
attention was attracted by a sound at the skylight.
When she looked up from her page she saw that Becky
had heard the sound also, as she had turned her head
to look and was listening rather nervously.
“Something’s there, miss,” she whispered.
“Yes,” said Sara, slowly.
“It sounds rather like a cat trying
to get in.”
She left her chair and went to the
skylight. It was a queer little sound she heard like
a soft scratching. She suddenly remembered something
and laughed. She remembered a quaint little intruder
who had made his way into the attic once before.
She had seen him that very afternoon, sitting disconsolately
on a table before a window in the Indian gentleman’s
house.
“Suppose,” she whispered
in pleased excitement “just suppose
it was the monkey who got away again. Oh, I
wish it was!”
She climbed on a chair, very cautiously
raised the skylight, and peeped out. It had
been snowing all day, and on the snow, quite near her,
crouched a tiny, shivering figure, whose small black
face wrinkled itself piteously at sight of her.
“It is the monkey,” she
cried out. “He has crept out of the Lascar’s
attic, and he saw the light.”
Becky ran to her side.
“Are you going to let him in, miss?” she
said.
“Yes,” Sara answered joyfully.
“It’s too cold for monkeys to be out.
They’re delicate. I’ll coax him in.”
She put a hand out delicately, speaking
in a coaxing voice as she spoke to the
sparrows and to Melchisedec as if she were
some friendly little animal herself.
“Come along, monkey darling,”
she said. “I won’t hurt you.”
He knew she would not hurt him.
He knew it before she laid her soft, caressing little
paw on him and drew him towards her. He had felt
human love in the slim brown hands of Ram Dass, and
he felt it in hers. He let her lift him through
the skylight, and when he found himself in her arms
he cuddled up to her breast and looked up into her
face.
“Nice monkey! Nice monkey!”
she crooned, kissing his funny head. “Oh,
I do love little animal things.”
He was evidently glad to get to the
fire, and when she sat down and held him on her knee
he looked from her to Becky with mingled interest
and appreciation.
“He is plain-looking, miss, ain’t
he?” said Becky.
“He looks like a very ugly baby,”
laughed Sara. “I beg your pardon, monkey;
but I’m glad you are not a baby. Your mother
couldn’t be proud of you, and no one would
dare to say you looked like any of your relations.
Oh, I do like you!”
She leaned back in her chair and reflected.
“Perhaps he’s sorry he’s
so ugly,” she said, “and it’s always
on his mind. I wonder if he has a mind.
Monkey, my love, have you a mind?”
But the monkey only put up a tiny
paw and scratched his head.
“What shall you do with him?” Becky asked.
“I shall let him sleep with
me tonight, and then take him back to the Indian gentleman
tomorrow. I am sorry to take you back, monkey;
but you must go. You ought to be fondest of
your own family; and I’m not a real relation.”
And when she went to bed she made
him a nest at her feet, and he curled up and slept
there as if he were a baby and much pleased with his
quarters.