Now we may omit a great deal from
Godfrey’s youthful career. Within a few
days he received a letter from his father forwarded
to him from the hotel, that was even more unpleasant
than the majority of the paternal epistles to which
he was accustomed. Mr. Knight, probably from honest
conviction and a misreading of the facts of life, was
one of those persons who are called Pacifists.
Although he never carried out the doctrine in his
own small affairs, he believed that nations were enjoined
by divine decree to turn the other cheek and indeed
every portion of their corporate frame to the smiter,
and that by so doing, in some mysterious way, they
would attain to profound peace and felicity.
Consequently he hated armies, especially as these involved
taxation, and loathed the trade of soldiering, which
he considered one of licensed murder.
The decision of his son to adopt this
career was therefore a bitter blow to him, concerning
which he expressed his feelings in the plainest language,
ending his epistle by intimating his strong conviction
that Godfrey, having taken the sword, was destined
to perish by the sword. Also he pointed out to
him that he had turned his back upon God Who would
certainly remember the affront, being, he remarked,
“a jealous God,” and lastly that the less
they saw of each other in future here he
was referring to himself, not to the Divinity as the
context would seem to imply the better
it would be for both of them.
Further there was a postscript about
the disgraceful conduct of the woman, Mrs. Parsons,
who, after receiving the shelter of his house for
many years, had made a scene and departed, leaving
him in the lurch. His injunction was that under
no circumstances should he, Godfrey, have anything
more to do with this violent and treacherous female
who had made him a pretext of quarrel, and, having
learned that he had money, doubtless wished to get
something out of him.
Godfrey did not answer this letter,
nor did his father write to him again for quite a
long while.
For the rest, on the appointed Monday
he presented himself at Garrick Street, and began
his course of tuition under the general direction of
the wise Mr. Scoones, “cramming” as it
was called. This, indeed, exactly describes the
process, for all knowledge was rejected except that
which was likely to obtain marks in the course of an
examination by hide-bound persons appointed to ascertain
who were the individuals best fitted to be appointed
to various branches of the Public Service. Anything
less calculated to secure the selection of suitable
men than such a system cannot well be imagined.
However, it was that which certain nebulous authorities
had decreed should prevail, and there was an end of
it, although in effect it involved, and still involves,
the frequent sacrifice of those qualities and characteristics
which are essential to a public servant, to others
that are quite the reverse. For instance, to
a parrot-like memory and the power of acquiring a
superficial acquaintance with much miscellaneous information
and remembering the same for, say, six months.
Although he hated the business and
thought with longing of his studies, stellar and other,
in the Kleindorf observatory, Godfrey was quite clever
enough to collect what was needed. In fact, some
three months later he passed his examination with
ease about half-way up the list, and duly entered
Sandhurst.
He found the establishment at Garrick
Street just such a place as its owner had described.
In it were many charming but idle young men, often
with a certain amount of means, who were going up for
the Diplomatic Service, the Foreign Office, the Indian
Civil, or various branches of the army. Of these
a large proportion enjoyed life but did little else,
and in due course failed in their competitive encounters
with the examiners.
Others were too stupid to succeed,
or perhaps their natural talents had another bent,
while the remainder, by no means the most brilliant,
but with a faculty for passing examinations and without
any disturbing originality, worked hard and sailed
into their desired haven with considerable facility,
being of the stuff of which most successful men are
made. For the rest, there was the opportunity,
and if they did not avail themselves of it Scoones’
was not to blame. It was, and perhaps still remains,
a most admirable institution of its sort, one, indeed,
of which the present chronicler has very grateful recollections.
Among the pupils studying there was
a young man named Arthur Thorburn, an orphan, with
considerable expectations, who lived with an aunt in
a fine old house at Queen Anne’s Gate.
He was a brilliant young man, witty and original,
but rash and without perseverance, whom his guardians
wished to enter the Diplomatic Service, a career in
which, without doubt, had he ever attained to it,
he would have achieved a considerable failure.
In appearance he was of medium height, round-faced,
light-haired, blue-eyed, with a constant and most charming
smile, in every way a complete contrast to Godfrey.
Perhaps this was the reason of the curious attachment
that the two formed for each other, unless, indeed,
such strong and strange affinities have their roots
in past individual history, which is veiled from mortal
eyes. At any rate, it happened that on Godfrey’s
first day at Scoones’ he sat next to Arthur
Thorburn in two classes which he attended. Godfrey
listened intently and made notes; Arthur caricatured
the lecturer, an art for which he had a native gift,
and passed the results round the class. Godfrey
saw the caricature and sniggered, then when the lectures
were over gravely reproved the author, saying that
he should not do such things.
“Why not?” asked Arthur,
opening his blue eyes. “Heaven intended
that stuffy old parrot” (he had drawn this learned
man as a dilapidated fowl of that species) “to
be caricatured. Observe that his nose is already
half a beak. Or perhaps it is a beak developing
into a nose; it depends whether he is on the downward
or upward path of evolution.”
“Because you made me laugh,”
replied Godfrey, “whereby I lost at least eighteenpennyworth
of information.”
“A laugh is worth eighteenpence,” suggested
Arthur.
“That depends upon how many
eighteenpences one possesses. You may have lots,
some people are short of them.”
“Quite true. I never looked
at it in that way before. I am obliged to you
for putting it so plainly,” said Arthur with
his charming smile.
Such was the beginning of the acquaintance
of these two, and in some cases might have been its
end. But with them it was not so. Arthur
conceived a sincere admiration for Godfrey who could
speak like this to a stranger, and at Scoones’
and as much as possible outside, haunted him like
a shadow. Soon it was a regular thing for Godfrey
to go to dine at the old Georgian house in Queen Anne’s
Gate upon Sunday evenings, where he became popular
with the rather magnificent early-Victorian aunt who
thought that he exercised a good influence upon her
nephew. Sometimes, too, Arthur would accompany
Godfrey to Hampstead and sit smoking and making furtive
caricatures of him and Mrs. Parsons, while he worked
and she beamed admiration. The occupation sounds
dull, but somehow Arthur did not find it so; he said
that it rested his overwrought brain.
“Look here, old fellow,”
said Godfrey at length, “have you any intention
of passing that examination of yours?”
“In the interests of the Diplomatic
Service and of the country I think not,” replied
Arthur reflectively. “I feel that it is
a case where true altruism becomes a duty.”
“Then what do you mean to do with yourself?”
“Don’t know. Live
on my money, I suppose, and on that of my respected
aunt after her lamented decease which, although I see
no signs of it, she tells me she considers imminent.”
“I don’t wonder, Arthur,
with you hanging about the house. You ought to
be ashamed of yourself. A man is made to work
his way through the world, not to idle.”
“Like a beetle boring through
wood, not like a butterfly flitting over flowers;
that’s what you mean, isn’t it? Well,
butterflies are nicer than beetles, and some of us
like flowers better than dead wood. But, I say,
old chap, do you mean it?”
“I do, and so does your aunt.”
“Let us waive my aunt.
Like the poor she is always with us, and I, alas!
am well acquainted with her views, which are those
of a past epoch. But I am not obstinate; tell
me what to do and I’ll do it anything
except enter the Diplomatic Service, to lie abroad
for the benefit of my country, in the words of the
ancient saying.”
“There is no fear of that, for
you would never pass the examination,” said
the practical Godfrey. “You see, you are
too clever,” he added by way of explanation,
“and too much occupied with a dozen things of
which examiners take no account, the merits of the
various religious systems, for instance.”
“So are you,” interrupted Arthur.
“I know I am; I love them.
I’d like to talk to you about reincarnation
and astronomy, of which I know something, and even
astrology and the survival of the dead and lots of
other things. But I have got to make my way in
the world, and I’ve no time. You think me
a heavy bore and an old fogey because I won’t
go to parties to which lots of those nice fellows
ask me. Do you suppose I shouldn’t like
the parties and all the larks afterwards and the jolly
actresses and the rest? Of course I should, for
I’m a man like others. But I tell you I
haven’t time. I’ve flouted my father,
and I’m on my honour, so to speak, to justify
myself and get on. So I mean to pass that tomfool
examination and to cram down a lot of stuff in order
to do so, which is of no more use to me than though
I had swallowed so much brown paper. Fool-stuff,
pulped by fools to be the food of fools that’s
what it is. And now I’m going to shove
some spoonfuls of it down my throat, so light your
pipe, and please be quiet.”
“One moment more of your precious
time,” interrupted Arthur. “What is
the exact career that you propose to adorn? Something
foreign, I think Indian Civil Service?”
“No, as I have told you a dozen times, Indian
Army.”
“The army has points possibly
in the future it might give a man an opportunity of
departing from the world in a fashion that is generally,
if in error, considered to be decent. India, too,
has still more points, for there anyone with intelligence
might study the beginnings of civilisation, which,
perhaps, are also its end. My friend, I, too,
will enter the Indian Army, that is if I can pass the
examination. Provide me at once with the necessary
books and, Mrs. Parsons, be good-hearted enough to
bring some of your excellent coffee, brewed double
strong. Do not imagine, young man, who ought,
by the way, to have been born fifty years earlier
and married my aunt, that you are the only one who
can face and conquer facts, even those advanced by
that most accursed of empty-headed bores, the man or
the maniac called Euclid.”
So the pair of them studied together,
and by dint of private tuition in the evening, for
at Scoones’ where his talent for caricature was
too much for him, Arthur would do little or nothing,
Godfrey dragged his friend through the examination,
the last but one in the list. Even then a miracle
intervened to save him. Arthur’s Euclid
was hopeless. He hated the whole business of
squares and angles and parallelograms with such intensity
that it made him mentally and morally sick. To
his, as to some other minds, it was utter nonsense
devised by a semi-lunatic for the bewilderment of
mankind, and adopted by other lunatics as an appropriate
form of torture of the young.
At length, in despair, Godfrey, knowing
that Arthur had an excellent memory, only the night
before the examination, made him learn a couple of
propositions selected out of the books which were to
be studied, quite at hazard, with injunctions that
no matter what other propositions were set he should
write out these two, pretending that he had mistaken
the question. This Arthur did with perfect accuracy,
and by the greatest of good luck one of the two propositions
was actually that which he was asked to set down,
while the other was allowed to pass as an error.
So he bumped through somehow, and
in the end the Indian Army gained a most excellent
officer. It is true that there were difficulties
when he explained to his aunt and his trustees that
in some inexplicable manner he had passed for Sandhurst
instead of into the Diplomatic Service. But when
he demonstrated to them that this was his great and
final effort and that nothing on earth would induce
him to face another examination, even to be made a
king, they thought it best to accept the accomplished
fact.
“After all, you have passed
something,” said his aunt, “which is more
than anyone ever expected you would do, and the army
is respectable, for, as I have told you, my grandfather
was killed at Waterloo.”
“Yes,” replied Arthur,
“you have told me, my dear Aunt, very often.
He broke his neck by jumping off his horse when riding
towards or from the battlefield, did he not? and now
I propose to follow his honoured example, on the battlefield,
if possible, or if not, in steeplechasing.”
So the pair of them went to Sandhurst
together, and together in due course were gazetted
to a certain regiment of Indian cavalry, the only
difference being that Godfrey passed out top and Arthur
passed out bottom, although, in fact, he was much
the cleverer of the two. Of the interval between
these two examinations there is nothing that need be
reported, for their lives and the things that happened
to them were as those of hundreds of other young men.
Only through all they remained the fastest of friends,
so much so that by the influence of General Cubitte,
as has been said, they managed to be gazetted to the
same regiment.
During those two years Godfrey never
saw his father, and communicated with him but rarely.
His winter vacations were spent at Mrs. Parsons’
house in Hampstead, working for the most part, since
he was absolutely determined to justify himself and
get on in the profession which he had chosen.
In the summer he and Arthur went walking tours, and
once, with some other young men, visited the Continent
to study various battlefields, and improve their minds.
At least Godfrey studied the battlefields, while Arthur
gave most of his attention to the younger part of
the female population of France and Italy. At
Easter again they went to Scotland, where Arthur had
some property settled on him for he was
a young man well supplied with this world’s goods and
fished for salmon and trout. Altogether, for
Godfrey, it was a profitable and happy two years.
At Sandhurst and elsewhere everyone thought well of
him, while old General Cubitte became his devoted friend
and could not say enough in his praise.
“Damn it! Sir,” he
exclaimed once, “do you mean to tell me that
you never overdraw your allowance? It is not
natural; almost wrong indeed. I wonder what your
secret vices are? Well, so long as you keep them
secret, you ought to be a big man one day and end up
in a very different position to George Cubitte called
a General who never saw a shot fired in
his life. There’ll be lots of them flying
about before you’re old, my boy, and doubtless
you’ll get your share of gunpowder or
nitro-glycerine if you go on as you have
begun. If I weren’t afraid of making you
cocky, I’d tell you what they say about you
down at that Sandhurst shop, where I have an old pal
or two.”
Shortly after this came the final
examination, through which, as has been said, Godfrey
sailed out top, an easy first indeed a position
to which his thorough knowledge of French and general
aptitude for foreign languages, together with his
powers of work and application, really entitled him.
All his friends were delighted, especially Arthur,
who looked on him as a kind of lusus naturae,
and from his humble position at the bottom of the
tree, gazed admiringly at Godfrey perched upon its
topmost bough. The old Pasteur, too, with whom
Godfrey kept up an almost weekly correspondence, continuing
his astronomical studies by letter, was enraptured
and covered him with compliments, as did his instructors
at the College.
All of this would have been enough
to turn the heads of many young men, but as it happened
Godfrey was by nature modest, with enough intelligence
to appreciate the abysmal depths of his own ignorance
by the light of the little lamp of knowledge with
which he had furnished himself on his journey into
their blackness. This intense modesty always
remained a leading characteristic of his, which endeared
him to many, although it was not one that helped him
forward in life. It is the bold, self-confident
man, who knows how to make the most of his small gifts,
who travels fastest and farthest in this world of ours.
When, however, actually he received
quite an affectionate and pleased letter from his
father, he did, for a while, feel a little proud.
The letter enclosed a cutting from the local paper
recording his success, and digging up for the benefit
of its readers an account of his adventure on the
Alps. Also, it mentioned prominently that he was
the son of the Rev. Mr. Knight, the incumbent of Monk’s
Abbey, and had received his education in that gentleman’s
establishment; so prominently, indeed, that even the
unsuspicious Godfrey could not help wondering if his
father had ever seen that paragraph before it appeared
in print. The letter ended with this passage:
“We have not met for a long while,
owing to causes to which I will not allude, and
I suppose that shortly you will be going to India.
If you care to come here I should like to see you
before you leave England. This is natural,
as after all you are my only child and I am growing
old. Once you have departed to that far country
who knows whether we shall ever meet again in this
world?”
Godfrey, a generous-hearted and forgiving
person, was much touched when he read these words,
and wrote at once to say that if it were convenient,
he would come down to Monk’s Abbey at the beginning
of the following week and spend some of his leave
there. So, in due course, he went.
As it happened, at about the same
time Destiny had arranged that another character in
this history was returning to that quiet Essex village,
namely Isobel Blake.
Isobel went to Mexico with her uncle
and there had a most interesting time. She studied
Aztec history with her usual thoroughness; so well,
indeed, that she became a recognised authority on the
subject. She climbed Popocatepetl, the mysterious
“Sleeping Woman” that overhands the ancient
town, and looked into its crater. Greatly daring,
she even visited Yucatan and saw some of the pre-Aztec
remains. For this adventure she paid with an
attack of fever which never quite left her system.
Indeed, that fever had a peculiar effect upon her,
which may have been physical or something else.
Isobel’s fault, or rather characteristic, as
the reader may have gathered, was that she built too
much upon the material side of things. What she
saw, what she knew, what her body told her, what the
recorded experience of the world taught these
were real; all the rest, to her, was phantasy or imagination.
She kept her feet upon the solid ground of fact, and
left all else to dreamers; or, as she would have expressed
it, to the victims of superstition inherited or acquired.
Well, something happened to her at
the crisis of that fever, which was sharp, and took
her on her return from Yucatan, at a horrible port
called Frontera, where there were palm trees and zopilotes a
kind of vile American vulture which sat
silently on the verandah outside her door in the dreadful
little hotel built upon piles in the mud of the great
river, and mosquitoes by the ten million, and sleepy-eyed,
crushed-looking Indians, and horrible halfbreeds, and
everything else which suggests an earthly hell, except
the glorious sunshine.
Of a sudden, when she was at her worst,
all the materiality if there be such a
word which circumstances and innate tendency
had woven about her as a garment, seemed to melt away,
and she became aware of something vast in which she
floated like an insect in the atmosphere some
surrounding sea which she could neither measure nor
travel.
She knew that she was not merely Isobel
Blake, but a part of the universe in its largest sense,
and that the universe expressed itself in miniature
within her soul. She knew that ever since it had
been, she was, and that while it existed she would
endure. This imagination or inspiration, whichever
it may have been, went no further than that, and afterwards
she set it down to delirium, or to the exaltation that
often accompanies fever. Still, it left a mark
upon her, opening a new door in her heart, so to speak.
For the rest, the life in Mexico City
was gay, especially in the position which she filled
as the niece of the British Minister, who was often
called upon to act as hostess, as her aunt was delicate
and her cousin was younger than herself and not apt
at the business. There were Diaz and the foreign
Diplomatic Ministers; also the leading Mexicans to
be entertained, for which purpose she learned Spanish.
Then there were English travellers, distinguished,
some of them, and German nobles, generally in the
Diplomatic Service of their country, whom by some
peculiar feminine instinct of her own, she suspected
of being spies and generally persons of evil intentions.
Also there was the British colony, among whom were
some very nice people that she made her friends, the
strange, adventurous pioneers of our Empire who are
to be bound in every part of the world, and in a sense
its cream.
Lastly, there were the American tourists
and business men, many of whom she thought amusing.
One of these, a millionaire who had to do with a “beef
trust,” though what that might be she never quite
understood, proposed to her. He was a nice young
fellow enough, of a real old American family whose
ancestors were supposed to have come over in the Mayflower,
and possessed of a remarkable vein of original humour;
also he was much in love. But Isobel would have
none of it, and said so in such plain, unmistakable
language that the millionaire straightway left Mexico
City in his private railway car, disconsolately to
pursue his beef speculations in other lands.
On the day that he departed Isobel
received a note from him which ran:
“I have lost you, and since I am
too sore-hearted to stay in this antique country
and conclude the business that brought me here, I
reckon that I have also lost 250,000 dollars.
That sum, however, I would gladly have given for
the honour and joy of your friendship, and as much
more added. So I think it well spent, especially
as it never figured in my accounts. Good-bye.
God bless you and whoever it may be with whom you
are in love, for that there is someone I am quite
sure, also that he must be a good fellow.”
From which it will be seen that this
millionaire was a very nice young man. So, at
least, thought Isobel, though he did write about her
being in love with someone, which was the rankest
nonsense. In love, indeed! Why, she had
never met a man for whom she could possibly entertain
any feelings of that sort, no, not even if he had
been able to make a queen of her, or to endow her
with all the cash resources of all the beef trusts
in the world. Men in that aspect were repellent
and hateful to her; the possibility of such a union
with any one of them was poisonous, even unnatural
to her, soul and body.
Once, it is true, there had been a
certain boy but he had passed out of her
life oh! years ago, and, what is more, had
affronted her by refusing to answer a letter which
she had written to him, just, as she imagined though
of course this was only a guess because
of his ridiculous and unwarrantable jealousy and the
atrocious pride that was his failing. Also she
had read in the papers of a very brave act which he
had done on the Alps, one which filled her with a pride
that was not atrocious, but quite natural where an
old playmate was concerned, and had noticed that it
was a young lady whom he had rescued. That, of
course, explained everything, and if her first supposition
should be incorrect, would quite account for her having
received no answer to her letter.
It was true, however, that she had
heard no more of this young lady, though scraps of
gossip concerning Godfrey did occasionally reach her.
For instance, she knew that he had quarrelled with
his father because he would not enter the Church and
was going into the army, a career which she much preferred,
especially as she did not believe in the Church and
could not imagine what Godfrey would look like in a
black coat and a white tie.
By the way, she wondered what he did
look like now. She had an old faded photograph
of him as a lanky youth, but after all this time he
could not in the least resemble that. Well, probably
he had grown as plain and uninteresting as
she was herself. It was wonderful that the American
young man could have seen anything in her, but then,
no doubt he went on in the same kind of way with half
the girls he met.
Thus reflected Isobel, and a little
while later paid a last visit to the museum, which
interested her more than any place in Mexico, perhaps
because its exhibits strengthened her theories as to
comparative religion, and shook off her feet the dust
of what her American admirer had called that “antique
land.” It was with a positive pang that
from the deck of the steamship outside Vera Cruz she
looked her last on the snows of the glorious peak
of Orizaba, but soon these faded away into the skyline
and with them her life in Mexico.
Returning to England via the
West Indies in the company of her uncle who was coming
home on leave before taking up an appointment as Minister
to one of the South American republics, she was greeted
on the platform at Waterloo by her father. Sir
John Blake had by this time forgotten their previous
disagreements, or, at any rate, determined to ignore
them, and Isobel, who was now in her way a finished
woman of the world, though she did not forget, had
come to a like conclusion. So their meeting was
cordial enough, and for a while, not a very long while,
they continued to live together in outward amity, with
a tacit understanding that they should follow their
respective paths, unmolested by each other.