When I first met the heroine of this
tale, Marie, she was twenty-three years old, yet had
lived enough for a woman of more than twice her age;
indeed, few women of any age ever acquire the amount
of mental experience possessed by this factory hand
and servant girl. She had more completely translated
her life into terms of thought than any other woman
of my acquaintance. She had been deeply helped
to do this by a man of strange character, with whom
she lived. She had also been deeply helped by
vice and misery. The intensity of her nature showed
in her anæmic body and her large eyes, dark and glowing,
but more than all in the way she had of making everything
her own, no matter from what source it came.
Everything she said, or wrote, or did, all fitted into
her personality, had one note, her note. But
perhaps the most intense quality of all was and
is this never-failing though gracefully
manifested energy, resulting in unity of character
and temperament in expression. To keep everything
in tone is a quality of art; it is also a sign of
great, though not always obvious, energy.
Marie was born in a Chicago slum in
1884. Her mother, half French and half German,
was endowed with cruelty truly international.
Her father was a drunken machinist of German extraction,
generally out of a job. Both the parents beat
the little girl, the mother because she was cruel,
the father because he was a beast.
Her earliest memories are connected
with the smoky streets of the West Side. The
smell of the Stock Yards suggests her youth to her,
as the smell of walnuts brings back to the more fortunate
country man the rich beauty of a natural childhood.
The beatings she received from her parents and the
joy of her escape to the street these are
the strongest impressions derived from her tender
years. To her the street was paradise; her home,
hell. She knew that when she returned to the house
she would find a mother half crazy with poverty and
unhappiness and a father half crazy with drink; and
that, if for no other reason than for diversion and
relief, they would beat her.
The authorities finally succeeded
in forcing the little girl’s parents to send
her to school, where she remained only two years.
She was not quite ten years old at the time, and the
memories she has of her school life are only a trifle
less unpleasant than those of her home. The last
day in school especially lives in her recollection;
and she thus described it in a letter to me:
“It was a warm morning toward
the end of May, and room seven in the Pullman School
was pervaded with an intense excitement. For soon
examination day would come and the pupils were being
prepared for the occasion. The children fidgeted
uneasily in their seats and even the teacher became
nervous and impatient, glancing often at the big clock
which ticked so monotonously and slowly. Soon
it would be twelve o’clock and teacher and pupils
would have a respite for a few hours. If only
those stupid children would solve those problems in
arithmetic, the most difficult study, they would not
have to stay after school. But it happened just
as the teacher had feared: A dozen children, of
whom two were boys, did not give correct answers.
After the school was dismissed the stupids were ordered
to go to the blackboard, and stay there until they
saw the light.
“Meanwhile the teacher sat at
her desk with a despairing look on her face and the
general air of a martyr, as she noticed the futile
efforts of those stupid children. But she was
evidently determined not to help them out of their
difficulty. After a while, one of the boys solved
the problem and was dismissed. The other children
looked at his work and quickly copied it before the
teacher could erase it from the blackboard. Not
I, however, for I was at the other end of the room
and my eyes were weak. I enviously watched the
other children leaving the room, until I was alone
with the teacher. I tried the terrible, senseless
problem again and again and became so confused and
nervous that I was on the verge of tears. All
the little knowledge I had of mathematics left me
completely. Finally the teacher lost her patience
and showed me how to get the answer.
“‘You stupid girl!’
she said, ‘you will never pass the examination.’
“But I did not care. I
ran from the school-house, and on my way home kept
saying to myself: ’I don’t have to
pass, for I’m going to work next week, and I’m
so glad. Then I’ll never, never have to
study arithmetic any more. Oh, how I wish next
week were here already.’ I was not quite
twelve years old and I would have been working even
then if my prospective employers had not instructed
my parents to secure a certificate showing that I
was fourteen years old.
“The next Monday morning, bright
and early, with this new certificate, which was sworn
to by my mother and duly attested by a notary, I presented
myself at the office of Messrs. Hardwin & Co., in South
Water Street. They were wholesale dealers in
miscellaneous household supplies, from bird-seed and
flavouring extracts to bluing and lye, the latter the
principal article. Mr. Hardwin, a benevolent looking
old gentleman with a white beard and a skull-cap,
glanced at the certificate, and patting stupid me
kindly on the head, hired me for two dollars a week,
and sent me upstairs where I was put to work washing
old cans collected from the ash barrels and alleys
of the city. After being cleansed, they were
filled with lye, and new covers sealed on them.
Then they were covered with neat white labels, and
packed in cases and delivered to all parts of the
United States.
“This sort of work was not what
I had expected to do. But I was told by my mother
that all people who worked for their living had to
start in that way, and gradually work themselves upwards.
So I waited patiently for the time when I might, perhaps,
secure the position of labelling. Then, too,
I thought that great place would bring an increase
of salary, for I had already learned that the lighter
the work, the heavier the pay.
“About this time the firm received
large orders for lye, and all hands were put to work
filling the cans with this corrosive material, for
which purpose rubber gloves were used. As I was
the latest addition to the factory, and the greenest
girl in the place, it was easy for the older and more
experienced girls to secure the best gloves for the
work. The old, worn out ones, which were full
of holes, fell to me, who was too young and timid
to rebel against these conditions. After a week
of this work my hands were all eaten by the lye and
it was torturing agony to move them in any way.
At night my mother used to put salve and bandages
on them, but this treatment was of little avail because
the next day my hands would be covered with that horrible
stuff which ate deeper and deeper, until the pain
became unbearable.
“So, one morning, I went to
Mr. Hardwin and begged him, with tears in my eyes,
to let me work at something else until my hands were
healed. He looked at my swollen fingers and said:
’My poor girl, you certainly shall work at something
else. I will give you a nice easy job making
bird-seed boxes.’
“I was immediately put at my
new work, which seemed really delightful to me, but
I was rather lonely, as I was the only girl on that
floor. I made thousands and thousands of those
boxes, which were stacked in heaps upon the shelves
above my head. Directly behind me was a great
belt, connected with the cutting machine up-stairs,
which all day long cut out the round pieces of tin
needed to cover the cans of lye after they were filled.
This belt as it whirled round and round made a great
noise. But I soon grew quite used to it.
I became like a machine myself. All alone I sat
there, day after day, while the great belt whirred
out the same monotonous song. I kept time to
its monotony by a few movements of the hands endlessly
repeated, turning out boxes and boxes and boxes, all
alike. I saw, heard, and felt almost nothing.
My hands moved unconsciously and instinctively.
At this time, I think, the first feeling of profound
ennui came to me, that feeling which to shake off I
would at a later time do anything, anything, no matter
how violent and extreme it was. Only at noon
time when the whistle shrieked did I seem alive, and
then I was dazed and trembling.
“The great belt then stopped
whirring for half an hour and I sat and ate my frugal
meal, listening eagerly to the talk going on about
me. Sometimes the girls made me the butt of their
jests, for they were envious of me, because of my
easy job, and hinted that I was not getting this snap
for nothing. All of this I did not in the least
understand, for I was not much more than twelve years
old.
“One morning I was surprised
and delighted to see Mr. Hardwin come in and ask me
how my hands were, and if I still suffered much pain.
I was so grateful that tears came to my eyes as I
answered. That night I told my mother what an
extremely kind and good man Mr. Hardwin was. He
repeated these visits several mornings in succession,
always asking me how I was getting along, and patting
me on the head or shoulder as he went away. I
had been working perhaps two months at this job, when
one morning it happened that I was the first one of
the employees to arrive at the factory. While
I was in the dressing-room removing my wraps, a knock
came on the door, and Mr. Hardwin entered. Quickly
seizing me in his arms, he covered my face with kisses,
and did not quit until he heard someone approaching.
He left hastily, saying ‘Don’t tell!’
the only words he uttered during the scene. I
was so amazed that I did not even scream. Nor
did I understand, but I did feel troubled and ashamed.
All that morning I was uneasy and nervous, and the
following day I waited outside until some of the girls
came, so that I should not have to go into the factory
alone. The day following I received an envelope
with my pay, and was told that my services were no
longer required.
“I got a beating at home as
a result of my discharge, but as I soon found another
job, my parents became comparatively kind to me again.
This new work was in a candy factory, where I was both
startled and amazed at the way the beautiful, sweet
candies were made. I remained there about six
months, when I was discharged because I had been late
several times in one week. The next job was in
a brewery, where I labelled beer bottles. This
was the cleanest and most wholesome place I ever worked
in. We had a whole hour for dinner, and the boys
and girls were all so jolly. Nearly every day
after lunch we played on mouth organs and danced on
the smooth floor until the whistle blew for work again.
Oh, there, it was good to work! Three times a
day each employee received a bottle of nice cold beer,
which, after several hours of hard work, tasted lovely.
The people there seemed to think it was not evil to
be happy, and I naturally agreed with them against
the good people outside. But one ill-fated day
my parents heard that a brewery was an immoral place
for a young girl to work in, and that if I remained
there I might lose my character and reputation.
So I was taken away and put to work in another place
and then in another, but I am sure that I never again
found a place that I liked half as well as the dear
old bottled beer shop.”