The bell in the tower of St. John’s
pealed forth its summons to the house of prayer, and
one by one, singly or in groups, the worshipers went
up to keep this first solemn day of Lent-true,
sincere worshipers, many of them, who came to weep,
and pray, and acknowledge their past misdeeds; while
others came from habit, and because it was the fashion,
their pale, haggard faces and heavy eyes telling plainly
of the last night’s dissipation, which had continued
till the first hour of the morning. Mrs. Howard
was there, and Mrs. Miller, too, both glancing inquiringly
at Judge Markham’s pew and then wonderingly at
each other. Ethelyn was not there. She had
breakfast in her room after Richard left, and when
that was over had gone mechanically to her closet and
drawers and commenced sorting her clothes-hanging
away the gayest, most expensive dresses, and laying
across chairs and upon the bed the more serviceable
ones, such as might properly be worn on ordinary occasions.
Why she did this she had not yet clearly defined, and
when, after her wardrobe was divided, and she brought
out the heavy traveling trunk, made for her in Boston,
she was not quite certain what she meant to do.
She had been sorely wounded, and, as she thought, without
just cause. She knew she was to blame for not
having told Richard of Frank before she became his
wife, but of the things with which he had so severely
charged her she was guiltless, and every nerve quivered
and throbbed with passion and resentment as she recalled
the scene of the previous night, going over again
with the cruel words Richard had uttered in his jealous
anger, and then burning with shame and indignation
as she thought of being locked in her room, and kept
from attending the masquerade, where her absence must
have excited so much wonder.
“What did they say, and what
can I tell them when we meet?” she thought,
just as Mrs. Howard’s voice was heard in the
upper hall.
Church was out, and several of the
more intimate of Ethie’s friends had stopped
at the Stafford House to inquire into so strange a
proceeding.
“Come to see if you were sick,
or what, that you disappointed me so. I was vexed
enough, I assure you,” Mrs. Miller said, looking
curiously enough at Ethelyn, whose face was white
as ashes, save where a crimson spot burned on her
cheeks, and whose lips were firmly pressed together.
She did not know what to say, and
when pressed to give a reason stammered out:
“Judge Markham wished me to
stay with him, and as an obedient wife I stayed.”
With ready tact the ladies saw that
something was wrong, and kindly forbore further remarks,
except to tell what a grand affair it was, and how
much she was missed. But Ethie detected in their
manner an unspoken sympathy or pity, which exasperated
and humiliated her more than open words would have
done. Heretofore she had been the envy of the
entire set, and it wounded her deeply to fall from
that pedestal to the level of ordinary people.
She was no longer the young wife, whose husband petted
and humored her so much, but the wife whose husband
was jealous and tyrannical, and even abusive, where
language was concerned, and she could not rid herself
of the suspicion that her lady friends knew more than
they professed to know, and was heartily glad when
they took their departure and left her again alone.
There was another knock at her door,
and a servant handed in a card bearing Frank Van Buren’s
name. He was in the office, the waiter said.
Should he show the gentleman up?
Ethie hesitated a moment, and then
taking her pencil wrote upon the back of the card,
“I am too busy to see you to-day.”
The servant left the room, and Ethelyn
went back to where her clothes were scattered about
and the great trunk was standing open. She did
not care to see Frank Van Buren now. He was the
direct cause of every sorrow she had known, and bitter
feelings were swelling in her heart in place of the
softer emotions she had once experienced toward him.
He was nothing to her now. Slowly but gradually
the flame had been dying out, until Richard had nothing
to dread from him, and he was never nearer to winning
his wife’s entire devotion than on that fatal
night when, by his jealousy and rashness, he built
so broad a gulf between them.
“It is impossible that we should
ever live together again, after all that has transpired,”
Ethelyn said, as she stood beside her trunk and involuntarily
folded up a garment and laid it on the bottom.
She had reached a decision, and her
face grew whiter, stonier, as she made haste to act
upon it. Every article which Richard had bought
was laid aside and put away in the drawers and bureaus
she would never see again. These were not numerous,
for her bridal trousseau had been so extensive that
but few demands had been made upon her husband’s
purse for dress, and Ethelyn felt glad that it was
so. It did not take long to put them away, or
very long to pack the trunk, and then Ethie sat down
to think “what next?”
Only a few days before a Mr. Bailey,
who boarded in the house, and whose daughter was taking
music lessons, had tried to purchase her piano, telling
her that so fine a player as herself ought to have
one with a longer keyboard. Ethie had thought
so herself, wishing sometimes that she had a larger
instrument, which was better adapted to the present
style of music, but she could not bring herself to
part with Aunt Barbara’s present. Now,
however, the case was different. Money she must
have, and as she scorned to take it from the bank,
where her check was always honored, she would sell
her piano. It was hers to do with as she liked,
and when Mr. Bailey passed her door at dinner time
he was asked to step in and reconsider the matter.
She had changed her mind, she said. She was willing
to sell it now; there was such a superb affair down
at Shumway’s Music Room. Had Mr. Bailey
seen it?
Ethie’s voice was not quite
steady, for she was not accustomed to deception of
this kind, and the first step was hard. But Mr.
Bailey was not at all suspicious, and concluded the
bargain at once; and two hours later Ethie’s
piano was standing between the south windows of Mrs.
Bailey’s apartment, and Ethie, in her own room,
was counting a roll of three hundred dollars, and
deciding how far it would go.
“There’s my pearls,”
she said, “if worst comes to worst I can sell
them and my diamond ring.”
She did not mean Daisy’s ring.
She would not barter that, or take it with her, either.
Daisy never intended it for a runaway wife, and Ethelyn
must leave it where Richard would find it when he came
back and found her gone. And then as Ethie in
her anger exulted over Richard’s surprise and
possible sorrow when he found himself deserted, some
demon from the pit whispered in her ear, “Give
him back the wedding ring. Leave that for him,
too, and so remove every tie which once bound you
to him.”
It was hard to put off Daisy’s
ring, and Ethelyn paused and reflected as the clear
stone seemed to reflect the fair, innocent face hanging
on the walls at Olney. But Ethie argued that
she had no right to it, and so the dead girl’s
ring was laid aside, and then the trembling fingers
fluttered about the plain gold band bearing the date
of her marriage. But when she essayed to remove
that, too, blood-red circles danced before her eyes,
and such a terror seized her that her hands dropped
powerless into her lap and the ring remained in its
place.
It was four o’clock in the afternoon,
and the cars for Olney left at seven. She was
going that way as far as Milford, where she could take
another route to the East. She would thus throw
Richard off the track if he tried to follow her, and
also avoid immediate remark in the hotel. They
would think it quite natural that in her husband’s
absence she should go for a few days to Olney, she
reasoned; and they did think so in the office when
at six she asked that her trunk be taken to the station.
Her rooms were all in order. She had made them
so herself, sweeping and dusting, and even leaving
Richard’s dressing-gown and slippers by the
chair where he usually sat the evenings he was at home.
The vacancy left by the piano would strike him at once,
she knew, and so she moved a tall bookcase up there,
and put a sofa where the bookcase had been, and a
large chair where the sofa had been, and pushed the
center table into the large chair’s place; and
then her work was done-the last she would
ever do in that room, or for Richard either.
The last of everything is sad, and Ethie felt a thrill
of pain as she whispered to herself, “It is
the last, last time,” and then thought of the
outer world which lay all unknown before her.
She would not allow herself to think, lest her courage
should give way, and tried, by dwelling continually
upon Richard’s cruel words, to steel her heart
against the good impulses which were beginning to suggest
that what she was doing might not, after all, be the
wisest course. What would the world say?-and
dear Aunt Barbara, too? How it would wring her
heart when she heard the end to which her darling
had come! And Andy-simple, conscientious,
praying Andy-Ethie’s heart came up
in her throat when she thought of him and his grief
at her desertion.
“I will write to Andy,”
she said. “I will tell him how thoughts
of him almost deterred me from my purpose,”
and opening her little writing desk, which Richard
gave her at Christmas, she took up her pen and held
it poised a moment, while something said: “Write
to Richard, too. Surely you can do so much for
him. You can tell him the truth at last, and let
him know how he misjudged you.”
And so the name which Ethie first
wrote down upon the paper was not “Dear Brother
Andy,” but simply that of “Richard.”