Sophie came at seven to dress me:
she was very long indeed in accomplishing her task;
so long that Mr. Rochester, grown, I suppose, impatient
of my delay, sent up to ask why I did not come.
She was just fastening my veil (the plain square
of blond after all) to my hair with a brooch; I hurried
from under her hands as soon as I could.
“Stop!” she cried in French.
“Look at yourself in the mirror: you have
not taken one peep.”
So I turned at the door: I saw
a robed and veiled figure, so unlike my usual self
that it seemed almost the image of a stranger.
“Jane!” called a voice, and I hastened
down. I was received at the foot of the stairs
by Mr. Rochester.
“Lingerer!” he said, “my
brain is on fire with impatience, and you tarry so
long!”
He took me into the dining-room, surveyed
me keenly all over, pronounced me “fair as a
lily, and not only the pride of his life, but the desire
of his eyes,” and then telling me he would give
me but ten minutes to eat some breakfast, he rang
the bell. One of his lately hired servants, a
footman, answered it.
“Is John getting the carriage ready?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Is the luggage brought down?”
“They are bringing it down, sir.”
“Go you to the church:
see if Mr. Wood (the clergyman) and the clerk are
there: return and tell me.”
The church, as the reader knows, was
but just beyond the gates; the footman soon returned.
“Mr. Wood is in the vestry, sir, putting on
his surplice.”
“And the carriage?”
“The horses are harnessing.”
“We shall not want it to go
to church; but it must be ready the moment we return:
all the boxes and luggage arranged and strapped on,
and the coachman in his seat.”
“Yes, sir.”
“Jane, are you ready?”
I rose. There were no groomsmen,
no bridesmaids, no relatives to wait for or marshal:
none but Mr. Rochester and I. Mrs. Fairfax stood in
the hall as we passed. I would fain have spoken
to her, but my hand was held by a grasp of iron:
I was hurried along by a stride I could hardly follow;
and to look at Mr. Rochester’s face was to feel
that not a second of delay would be tolerated for
any purpose. I wonder what other bridegroom
ever looked as he did so bent up to a purpose,
so grimly resolute: or who, under such steadfast
brows, ever revealed such flaming and flashing eyes.
I know not whether the day was fair
or foul; in descending the drive, I gazed neither
on sky nor earth: my heart was with my eyes; and
both seemed migrated into Mr. Rochester’s frame.
I wanted to see the invisible thing on which, as
we went along, he appeared to fasten a glance fierce
and fell. I wanted to feel the thoughts whose
force he seemed breasting and resisting.
At the churchyard wicket he stopped:
he discovered I was quite out of breath. “Am
I cruel in my love?” he said. “Delay
an instant: lean on me, Jane.”
And now I can recall the picture of
the grey old house of God rising calm before me, of
a rook wheeling round the steeple, of a ruddy morning
sky beyond. I remember something, too, of the
green grave-mounds; and I have not forgotten, either,
two figures of strangers straying amongst the low
hillocks and reading the mementoes graven on the few
mossy head-stones. I noticed them, because,
as they saw us, they passed round to the back of the
church; and I doubted not they were going to enter
by the side-aisle door and witness the ceremony.
By Mr. Rochester they were not observed; he was earnestly
looking at my face from which the blood had, I daresay,
momentarily fled: for I felt my forehead dewy,
and my cheeks and lips cold. When I rallied,
which I soon did, he walked gently with me up the
path to the porch.
We entered the quiet and humble temple;
the priest waited in his white surplice at the lowly
altar, the clerk beside him. All was still:
two shadows only moved in a remote corner. My
conjecture had been correct: the strangers had
slipped in before us, and they now stood by the vault
of the Rochesters, their backs towards us, viewing
through the rails the old time-stained marble tomb,
where a kneeling angel guarded the remains of Damer
de Rochester, slain at Marston Moor in the time
of the civil wars, and of Elizabeth, his wife.
Our place was taken at the communion
rails. Hearing a cautious step behind me, I
glanced over my shoulder: one of the strangers a
gentleman, evidently was advancing up the
chancel. The service began. The explanation
of the intent of matrimony was gone through; and then
the clergyman came a step further forward, and, bending
slightly towards Mr. Rochester, went on.
“I require and charge you both
(as ye will answer at the dreadful day of judgment,
when the secrets of all hearts shall be disclosed),
that if either of you know any impediment why ye may
not lawfully be joined together in matrimony, ye do
now confess it; for be ye well assured that so many
as are coupled together otherwise than God’s
Word doth allow, are not joined together by God, neither
is their matrimony lawful.”
He paused, as the custom is.
When is the pause after that sentence ever broken
by reply? Not, perhaps, once in a hundred years.
And the clergyman, who had not lifted his eyes from
his book, and had held his breath but for a moment,
was proceeding: his hand was already stretched
towards Mr. Rochester, as his lips unclosed to ask,
“Wilt thou have this woman for thy wedded wife?” when
a distinct and near voice said
“The marriage cannot go on:
I declare the existence of an impediment.”
The clergyman looked up at the speaker
and stood mute; the clerk did the same; Mr. Rochester
moved slightly, as if an earthquake had rolled under
his feet: taking a firmer footing, and not turning
his head or eyes, he said, “Proceed.”
Profound silence fell when he had
uttered that word, with deep but low intonation.
Presently Mr. Wood said
“I cannot proceed without some
investigation into what has been asserted, and evidence
of its truth or falsehood.”
“The ceremony is quite broken
off,” subjoined the voice behind us. “I
am in a condition to prove my allegation: an
insuperable impediment to this marriage exists.”
Mr. Rochester heard, but heeded not:
he stood stubborn and rigid, making no movement but
to possess himself of my hand. What a hot and
strong grasp he had! and how like quarried marble
was his pale, firm, massive front at this moment!
How his eye shone, still watchful, and yet wild beneath!
Mr. Wood seemed at a loss. “What
is the nature of the impediment?” he asked.
“Perhaps it may be got over explained
away?”
“Hardly,” was the answer.
“I have called it insuperable, and I speak
advisedly.”
The speaker came forward and leaned
on the rails. He continued, uttering each word
distinctly, calmly, steadily, but not loudly
“It simply consists in the existence
of a previous marriage. Mr. Rochester has a
wife now living.”
My nerves vibrated to those low-spoken
words as they had never vibrated to thunder my
blood felt their subtle violence as it had never felt
frost or fire; but I was collected, and in no danger
of swooning. I looked at Mr. Rochester:
I made him look at me. His whole face was colourless
rock: his eye was both spark and flint.
He disavowed nothing: he seemed as if he would
defy all things. Without speaking, without smiling,
without seeming to recognise in me a human being, he
only twined my waist with his arm and riveted me to
his side.
“Who are you?” he asked of the intruder.
“My name is Briggs, a solicitor of –
Street, London.”
“And you would thrust on me a wife?”
“I would remind you of your
lady’s existence, sir, which the law recognises,
if you do not.”
“Favour me with an account of
her with her name, her parentage, her place
of abode.”
“Certainly.” Mr.
Briggs calmly took a paper from his pocket, and read
out in a sort of official, nasal voice:
“’I affirm and can prove
that on the 20th of October A.D. –
(a date of fifteen years back), Edward Fairfax Rochester,
of Thornfield Hall, in the county of –,
and of Ferndean Manor, in –shire,
England, was married to my sister, Bertha Antoinetta
Mason, daughter of Jonas Mason, merchant, and of Antoinetta
his wife, a Creole, at – church,
Spanish Town, Jamaica. The record of the marriage
will be found in the register of that church a
copy of it is now in my possession. Signed, Richard
Mason.’”
“That if a genuine
document may prove I have been married,
but it does not prove that the woman mentioned therein
as my wife is still living.”
“She was living three months ago,” returned
the lawyer.
“How do you know?”
“I have a witness to the fact,
whose testimony even you, sir, will scarcely controvert.”
“Produce him or go to hell.”
“I will produce him first he
is on the spot. Mr. Mason, have the goodness
to step forward.”
Mr. Rochester, on hearing the name,
set his teeth; he experienced, too, a sort of strong
convulsive quiver; near to him as I was, I felt the
spasmodic movement of fury or despair run through his
frame. The second stranger, who had hitherto
lingered in the background, now drew near; a pale
face looked over the solicitor’s shoulder yes,
it was Mason himself. Mr. Rochester turned and
glared at him. His eye, as I have often said,
was a black eye: it had now a tawny, nay, a bloody
light in its gloom; and his face flushed olive
cheek and hueless forehead received a glow as from
spreading, ascending heart-fire: and he stirred,
lifted his strong arm he could have struck
Mason, dashed him on the church-floor, shocked by
ruthless blow the breath from his body but
Mason shrank away, and cried faintly, “Good God!”
Contempt fell cool on Mr. Rochester his
passion died as if a blight had shrivelled it up:
he only asked “What have you
to say?”
An inaudible reply escaped Mason’s white lips.
“The devil is in it if you cannot
answer distinctly. I again demand, what have
you to say?”
“Sir sir,”
interrupted the clergyman, “do not forget you
are in a sacred place.” Then addressing
Mason, he inquired gently, “Are you aware, sir,
whether or not this gentleman’s wife is still
living?”
“Courage,” urged the lawyer, “speak
out.”
“She is now living at Thornfield
Hall,” said Mason, in more articulate tones:
“I saw her there last April. I am her brother.”
“At Thornfield Hall!”
ejaculated the clergyman. “Impossible!
I am an old resident in this neighbourhood, sir,
and I never heard of a Mrs. Rochester at Thornfield
Hall.”
I saw a grim smile contort Mr. Rochester’s
lips, and he muttered
“No, by God! I took care
that none should hear of it or of her under
that name.” He mused for ten
minutes he held counsel with himself: he formed
his resolve, and announced it
“Enough! all shall bolt out
at once, like the bullet from the barrel. Wood,
close your book and take off your surplice; John Green
(to the clerk), leave the church: there will
be no wedding to-day.” The man obeyed.
Mr. Rochester continued, hardily and
recklessly: “Bigamy is an ugly word! I
meant, however, to be a bigamist; but fate has out-manoeuvred
me, or Providence has checked me, perhaps
the last. I am little better than a devil at
this moment; and, as my pastor there would tell me,
deserve no doubt the sternest judgments of God, even
to the quenchless fire and deathless worm. Gentlemen,
my plan is broken up: what this lawyer
and his client say is true: I have been married,
and the woman to whom I was married lives! You
say you never heard of a Mrs. Rochester at the house
up yonder, Wood; but I daresay you have many a time
inclined your ear to gossip about the mysterious lunatic
kept there under watch and ward. Some have whispered
to you that she is my bastard half-sister: some,
my cast-off mistress. I now inform you that she
is my wife, whom I married fifteen years ago, Bertha
Mason by name; sister of this resolute personage,
who is now, with his quivering limbs and white cheeks,
showing you what a stout heart men may bear.
Cheer up, Dick! never fear me! I’d
almost as soon strike a woman as you. Bertha
Mason is mad; and she came of a mad family; idiots
and maniacs through three generations! Her mother,
the Creole, was both a madwoman and a drunkard! as
I found out after I had wed the daughter: for
they were silent on family secrets before. Bertha,
like a dutiful child, copied her parent in both points.
I had a charming partner pure, wise, modest:
you can fancy I was a happy man. I went through
rich scenes! Oh! my experience has been heavenly,
if you only knew it! But I owe you no further
explanation. Briggs, Wood, Mason, I invite you
all to come up to the house and visit Mrs. Poole’s
patient, and my wife! You shall see what
sort of a being I was cheated into espousing, and
judge whether or not I had a right to break the compact,
and seek sympathy with something at least human.
This girl,” he continued, looking at me, “knew
no more than you, Wood, of the disgusting secret:
she thought all was fair and legal and never dreamt
she was going to be entrapped into a feigned union
with a defrauded wretch, already bound to a bad, mad,
and embruted partner! Come all of you follow!”
Still holding me fast, he left the
church: the three gentlemen came after.
At the front door of the hall we found the carriage.
“Take it back to the coach-house,
John,” said Mr. Rochester coolly; “it
will not be wanted to-day.”
At our entrance, Mrs. Fairfax, Adele,
Sophie, Leah, advanced to meet and greet us.
“To the right-about every
soul!” cried the master; “away with your
congratulations! Who wants them? Not I! they
are fifteen years too late!”
He passed on and ascended the stairs,
still holding my hand, and still beckoning the gentlemen
to follow him, which they did. We mounted the
first staircase, passed up the gallery, proceeded to
the third storey: the low, black door, opened
by Mr. Rochester’s master-key, admitted us to
the tapestried room, with its great bed and its pictorial
cabinet.
“You know this place, Mason,”
said our guide; “she bit and stabbed you here.”
He lifted the hangings from the wall,
uncovering the second door: this, too, he opened.
In a room without a window, there burnt a fire guarded
by a high and strong fender, and a lamp suspended from
the ceiling by a chain. Grace Poole bent over
the fire, apparently cooking something in a saucepan.
In the deep shade, at the farther end of the room,
a figure ran backwards and forwards. What it
was, whether beast or human being, one could not,
at first sight, tell: it grovelled, seemingly,
on all fours; it snatched and growled like some strange
wild animal: but it was covered with clothing,
and a quantity of dark, grizzled hair, wild as a mane,
hid its head and face.
“Good-morrow, Mrs. Poole!”
said Mr. Rochester. “How are you? and how
is your charge to-day?”
“We’re tolerable, sir,
I thank you,” replied Grace, lifting the boiling
mess carefully on to the hob: “rather snappish,
but not ’rageous.”
A fierce cry seemed to give the lie
to her favourable report: the clothed hyena rose
up, and stood tall on its hind-feet.
“Ah! sir, she sees you!”
exclaimed Grace: “you’d better not
stay.”
“Only a few moments, Grace:
you must allow me a few moments.”
“Take care then, sir! for God’s
sake, take care!”
The maniac bellowed: she parted
her shaggy locks from her visage, and gazed wildly
at her visitors. I recognised well that purple
face, those bloated features. Mrs.
Poole advanced.
“Keep out of the way,”
said Mr. Rochester, thrusting her aside: “she
has no knife now, I suppose, and I’m on my guard.”
“One never knows what she has,
sir: she is so cunning: it is not in mortal
discretion to fathom her craft.”
“We had better leave her,” whispered Mason.
“Go to the devil!” was his brother-in-law’s
recommendation.
“’Ware!” cried Grace.
The three gentlemen retreated simultaneously.
Mr. Rochester flung me behind him: the lunatic
sprang and grappled his throat viciously, and laid
her teeth to his cheek: they struggled.
She was a big woman, in stature almost equalling her
husband, and corpulent besides: she showed virile
force in the contest more than once she
almost throttled him, athletic as he was. He
could have settled her with a well-planted blow; but
he would not strike: he would only wrestle.
At last he mastered her arms; Grace Poole gave him
a cord, and he pinioned them behind her: with
more rope, which was at hand, he bound her to a chair.
The operation was performed amidst the fiercest yells
and the most convulsive plunges. Mr. Rochester
then turned to the spectators: he looked at them
with a smile both acrid and desolate.
“That is my wife,”
said he. “Such is the sole conjugal embrace
I am ever to know such are the endearments
which are to solace my leisure hours! And this
is what I wished to have” (laying his hand on
my shoulder): “this young girl, who stands
so grave and quiet at the mouth of hell, looking collectedly
at the gambols of a demon, I wanted her just as a
change after that fierce ragout. Wood and Briggs,
look at the difference! Compare these clear
eyes with the red balls yonder this face
with that mask this form with that bulk;
then judge me, priest of the gospel and man of the
law, and remember with what judgment ye judge ye shall
be judged! Off with you now. I must shut
up my prize.”
We all withdrew. Mr. Rochester
stayed a moment behind us, to give some further order
to Grace Poole. The solicitor addressed me as
he descended the stair.
“You, madam,” said he,
“are cleared from all blame: your uncle
will be glad to hear it if, indeed, he
should be still living when Mr. Mason returns
to Madeira.”
“My uncle! What of him? Do you know
him?”
“Mr. Mason does. Mr. Eyre
has been the Funchal correspondent of his house for
some years. When your uncle received your letter
intimating the contemplated union between yourself
and Mr. Rochester, Mr. Mason, who was staying at Madeira
to recruit his health, on his way back to Jamaica,
happened to be with him. Mr. Eyre mentioned the
intelligence; for he knew that my client here was
acquainted with a gentleman of the name of Rochester.
Mr. Mason, astonished and distressed as you may suppose,
revealed the real state of matters. Your uncle,
I am sorry to say, is now on a sick bed; from which,
considering the nature of his disease decline and
the stage it has reached, it is unlikely he will ever
rise. He could not then hasten to England himself,
to extricate you from the snare into which you had
fallen, but he implored Mr. Mason to lose no time
in taking steps to prevent the false marriage.
He referred him to me for assistance. I used
all despatch, and am thankful I was not too late:
as you, doubtless, must be also. Were I not morally
certain that your uncle will be dead ere you reach
Madeira, I would advise you to accompany Mr. Mason
back; but as it is, I think you had better remain in
England till you can hear further, either from or of
Mr. Eyre. Have we anything else to stay for?”
he inquired of Mr. Mason.
“No, no let us be
gone,” was the anxious reply; and without waiting
to take leave of Mr. Rochester, they made their exit
at the hall door. The clergyman stayed to exchange
a few sentences, either of admonition or reproof,
with his haughty parishioner; this duty done, he too
departed.
I heard him go as I stood at the half-open
door of my own room, to which I had now withdrawn.
The house cleared, I shut myself in, fastened the
bolt that none might intrude, and proceeded not
to weep, not to mourn, I was yet too calm for that,
but mechanically to take off the wedding
dress, and replace it by the stuff gown I had worn
yesterday, as I thought, for the last time.
I then sat down: I felt weak and tired.
I leaned my arms on a table, and my head dropped on
them. And now I thought: till now I had
only heard, seen, moved followed up and
down where I was led or dragged watched
event rush on event, disclosure open beyond disclosure:
but now, I thought.
The morning had been a quiet morning
enough all except the brief scene with
the lunatic: the transaction in the church had
not been noisy; there was no explosion of passion,
no loud altercation, no dispute, no defiance or challenge,
no tears, no sobs: a few words had been spoken,
a calmly pronounced objection to the marriage made;
some stern, short questions put by Mr. Rochester;
answers, explanations given, evidence adduced; an
open admission of the truth had been uttered by my
master; then the living proof had been seen; the intruders
were gone, and all was over.
I was in my own room as usual just
myself, without obvious change: nothing had smitten
me, or scathed me, or maimed me. And yet where
was the Jane Eyre of yesterday? where was
her life? where were her prospects?
Jane Eyre, who had been an ardent,
expectant woman almost a bride, was a cold,
solitary girl again: her life was pale; her prospects
were desolate. A Christmas frost had come at
midsummer; a white December storm had whirled over
June; ice glazed the ripe apples, drifts crushed the
blowing roses; on hayfield and cornfield lay a frozen
shroud: lanes which last night blushed full of
flowers, to-day were pathless with untrodden snow;
and the woods, which twelve hours since waved leafy
and flagrant as groves between the tropics, now spread,
waste, wild, and white as pine-forests in wintry Norway.
My hopes were all dead struck with a subtle
doom, such as, in one night, fell on all the first-born
in the land of Egypt. I looked on my cherished
wishes, yesterday so blooming and glowing; they lay
stark, chill, livid corpses that could never revive.
I looked at my love: that feeling which was my
master’s which he had created; it
shivered in my heart, like a suffering child in a
cold cradle; sickness and anguish had seized it; it
could not seek Mr. Rochester’s arms it
could not derive warmth from his breast. Oh,
never more could it turn to him; for faith was blighted confidence
destroyed! Mr. Rochester was not to me what he
had been; for he was not what I had thought him.
I would not ascribe vice to him; I would not say
he had betrayed me; but the attribute of stainless
truth was gone from his idea, and from his presence
I must go: that I perceived well.
When how whither, I could not
yet discern; but he himself, I doubted not, would
hurry me from Thornfield. Real affection, it
seemed, he could not have for me; it had been only
fitful passion: that was balked; he would want
me no more. I should fear even to cross his path
now: my view must be hateful to him. Oh,
how blind had been my eyes! How weak my conduct!
My eyes were covered and closed:
eddying darkness seemed to swim round me, and reflection
came in as black and confused a flow. Self-abandoned,
relaxed, and effortless, I seemed to have laid me down
in the dried-up bed of a great river; I heard a flood
loosened in remote mountains, and felt the torrent
come: to rise I had no will, to flee I had no
strength. I lay faint, longing to be dead.
One idea only still throbbed life-like within me a
remembrance of God: it begot an unuttered prayer:
these words went wandering up and down in my rayless
mind, as something that should be whispered, but no
energy was found to express them
“Be not far from me, for trouble
is near: there is none to help.”
It was near: and as I had lifted
no petition to Heaven to avert it as I
had neither joined my hands, nor bent my knees, nor
moved my lips it came: in full heavy
swing the torrent poured over me. The whole
consciousness of my life lorn, my love lost, my hope
quenched, my faith death-struck, swayed full and mighty
above me in one sullen mass. That bitter hour
cannot be described: in truth, “the waters
came into my soul; I sank in deep mire: I felt
no standing; I came into deep waters; the floods overflowed
me.”