On reaching Moscow after her meeting
with Rostov, Princess Mary had found her nephew there
with his tutor, and a letter from Prince Andrew giving
her instructions how to get to her Aunt Malvintseva
at Voronezh. That feeling akin to temptation
which had tormented her during her father’s
illness, since his death, and especially since her
meeting with Rostov was smothered by arrangements
for the journey, anxiety about her brother, settling
in a new house, meeting new people, and attending to
her nephew’s education. She was sad.
Now, after a month passed in quiet surroundings, she
felt more and more deeply the loss of her father which
was associated in her mind with the ruin of Russia.
She was agitated and incessantly tortured by the thought
of the dangers to which her brother, the only intimate
person now remaining to her, was exposed. She
was worried too about her nephew’s education
for which she had always felt herself incompetent,
but in the depths of her soul she felt at peace a
peace arising from consciousness of having stifled
those personal dreams and hopes that had been on the
point of awakening within her and were related to
her meeting with Rostov.
The day after her party the governor’s
wife came to see Malvintseva and, after discussing
her plan with the aunt, remarked that though under
present circumstances a formal betrothal was, of course,
not to be thought of, all the same the young people
might be brought together and could get to know one
another. Malvintseva expressed approval, and the
governor’s wife began to speak of Rostov in Mary’s
presence, praising him and telling how he had blushed
when Princess Mary’s name was mentioned.
But Princess Mary experienced a painful rather than
a joyful feeling her mental tranquillity
was destroyed, and desires, doubts, self-reproach,
and hopes reawoke.
During the two days that elapsed before
Rostov called, Princess Mary continually thought of
how she ought to behave to him. First she decided
not to come to the drawing room when he called to see
her aunt that it would not be proper for
her, in her deep mourning, to receive visitors; then
she thought this would be rude after what he had done
for her; then it occurred to her that her aunt and
the governor’s wife had intentions concerning
herself and Rostov their looks and words
at times seemed to confirm this supposition then
she told herself that only she, with her sinful nature,
could think this of them: they could not forget
that situated as she was, while still wearing deep
mourning, such matchmaking would be an insult to her
and to her father’s memory. Assuming that
she did go down to see him, Princess Mary imagined
the words he would say to her and what she would say
to him, and these words sometimes seemed undeservedly
cold and then to mean too much. More than anything
she feared lest the confusion she felt might overwhelm
her and betray her as soon as she saw him.
But when on Sunday after church the
footman announced in the drawing room that Count Rostov
had called, the princess showed no confusion, only
a slight blush suffused her cheeks and her eyes lit
up with a new and radiant light.
“You have met him, Aunt?”
said she in a calm voice, unable herself to understand
that she could be outwardly so calm and natural.
When Rostov entered the room, the
princess dropped her eyes for an instant, as if to
give the visitor time to greet her aunt, and then
just as Nicholas turned to her she raised her head
and met his look with shining eyes. With a movement
full of dignity and grace she half rose with a smile
of pleasure, held out her slender, delicate hand to
him, and began to speak in a voice in which for the
first time new deep womanly notes vibrated. Mademoiselle
Bourienne, who was in the drawing room, looked at
Princess Mary in bewildered surprise. Herself
a consummate coquette, she could not have maneuvered
better on meeting a man she wished to attract.
“Either black is particularly
becoming to her or she really has greatly improved
without my having noticed it. And above all, what
tact and grace!” thought Mademoiselle Bourienne.
Had Princess Mary been capable of
reflection at that moment, she would have been more
surprised than Mademoiselle Bourienne at the change
that had taken place in herself. From the moment
she recognized that dear, loved face, a new life force
took possession of her and compelled her to speak
and act apart from her own will. From the time
Rostov entered, her face became suddenly transformed.
It was as if a light had been kindled in a carved
and painted lantern and the intricate, skillful, artistic
work on its sides, that previously seemed dark, coarse,
and meaningless, was suddenly shown up in unexpected
and striking beauty. For the first time all that
pure, spiritual, inward travail through which she had
lived appeared on the surface. All her inward
labor, her dissatisfaction with herself, her sufferings,
her strivings after goodness, her meekness, love,
and self-sacrifice all this now shone in
those radiant eyes, in her delicate smile, and in
every trait of her gentle face.
Rostov saw all this as clearly as
if he had known her whole life. He felt that
the being before him was quite different from, and
better than, anyone he had met before, and above all
better than himself.
Their conversation was very simple
and unimportant. They spoke of the war, and like
everyone else unconsciously exaggerated their sorrow
about it; they spoke of their last meeting Nicholas
trying to change the subject they talked
of the governor’s kind wife, of Nicholas’
relations, and of Princess Mary’s.
She did not talk about her brother,
diverting the conversation as soon as her aunt mentioned
Andrew. Evidently she could speak of Russia’s
misfortunes with a certain artificiality, but her brother
was too near her heart and she neither could nor would
speak lightly of him. Nicholas noticed this,
as he noticed every shade of Princess Mary’s
character with an observation unusual to him, and
everything confirmed his conviction that she was a
quite unusual and extraordinary being. Nicholas
blushed and was confused when people spoke to him about
the princess (as she did when he was mentioned) and
even when he thought of her, but in her presence he
felt quite at ease, and said not at all what he had
prepared, but what, quite appropriately, occurred to
him at the moment.
When a pause occurred during his short
visit, Nicholas, as is usual when there are children,
turned to Prince Andrew’s little son, caressing
him and asking whether he would like to be an hussar.
He took the boy on his knee, played with him, and
looked round at Princess Mary. With a softened,
happy, timid look she watched the boy she loved in
the arms of the man she loved. Nicholas also
noticed that look and, as if understanding it, flushed
with pleasure and began to kiss the boy with good
natured playfulness.
As she was in mourning Princess Mary
did not go out into society, and Nicholas did not
think it the proper thing to visit her again; but all
the same the governor’s wife went on with her
matchmaking, passing on to Nicholas the flattering
things Princess Mary said of him and vice versa, and
insisting on his declaring himself to Princess Mary.
For this purpose she arranged a meeting between the
young people at the bishop’s house before Mass.
Though Rostov told the governor’s
wife that he would not make any declaration to Princess
Mary, he promised to go.
As at Tilsit Rostov had not allowed
himself to doubt that what everybody considered right
was right, so now, after a short but sincere struggle
between his effort to arrange his life by his own sense
of justice, and in obedient submission to circumstances,
he chose the latter and yielded to the power he felt
irresistibly carrying him he knew not where. He
knew that after his promise to Sonya it would be what
he deemed base to declare his feelings to Princess
Mary. And he knew that he would never act basely.
But he also knew (or rather felt at the bottom of his
heart) that by resigning himself now to the force
of circumstances and to those who were guiding him,
he was not only doing nothing wrong, but was doing
something very important more important
than anything he had ever done in his life.
After meeting Princess Mary, though
the course of his life went on externally as before,
all his former amusements lost their charm for him
and he often thought about her. But he never thought
about her as he had thought of all the young ladies
without exception whom he had met in society, nor
as he had for a long time, and at one time rapturously,
thought about Sonya. He had pictured each of those
young ladies as almost all honest-hearted young men
do, that is, as a possible wife, adapting her in his
imagination to all the conditions of married life:
a white dressing gown, his wife at the tea table, his
wife’s carriage, little ones, Mamma and Papa,
their relations to her, and so on and these
pictures of the future had given him pleasure.
But with Princess Mary, to whom they were trying to
get him engaged, he could never picture anything of
future married life. If he tried, his pictures
seemed incongruous and false. It made him afraid.