The beginning of all this difficult
business was a little speech which Mrs. Thresk fell
into a habit of making to her son. She spoke it
the first time on the spur of the moment without thought
or intention. But she saw that it hurt.
So she used it again to keep Henry in his
proper place.
“You have no right to talk,
Henry,” she would say in the hard practical
voice which so completed her self-sufficiency.
“You are not earning your living. You are
still dependent upon us;” and she would add with
a note of triumph: “Remember, if anything
were to happen to your dear father you would have
to shift for yourself, for everything has been left
to me.”
Mrs. Thresk meant no harm. She
was utterly without imagination and had no special
delicacy of taste to supply its place that
was all. People and words she was
at pains to interpret neither the one nor the other
and she used both at random. She no more contemplated
anything happening to her husband, to quote her phrase,
than she understood the effect her barbarous little
speech would have on a rather reserved schoolboy.
Nor did Henry himself help to enlighten
her. He was shrewd enough to recognise the futility
of any attempt. No! He just looked at her
curiously and held his tongue. But the words were
not forgotten. They roused in him a sense of
injustice. For in the ordinary well-to-do circle,
in which the Thresks lived, boys were expected to be
an expense to their parents; and after all, as he
argued, he had not asked to be born. And so after
much brooding, there sprang up in him an antagonism
to his family and a fierce determination to owe to
it as little as he could.
There was a full share of vanity no
doubt in the boy’s resolve, but the antagonism
had struck roots deeper than his vanity; and at an
age when other lads were vaguely dreaming themselves
into Admirals and Field-Marshals and Prime-Ministers
Henry Thresk, content with lower ground, was mapping
out the stages of a good but perfectly feasible career.
When he reached the age of thirty he must be beginning
to make money; at thirty-five he must be on the way
to distinction his name must be known beyond
the immediate circle of his profession; at forty-five
he must be holding public office. Nor was his
profession in any doubt. There was but one which
offered these rewards to a man starting in life without
money to put down the Bar.
So to the Bar in due time Henry Thresk
was called; and when something did happen to his father
he was trained for the battle. A bank failed and
the failure ruined and killed old Mr. Thresk.
From the ruins just enough was scraped to keep his
widow, and one or two offers of employment were made
to Henry Thresk.
But he was tenacious as he was secret.
He refused them, and with the help of pupils, journalism
and an occasional spell as an election agent, he managed
to keep his head above water until briefs began slowly
to come in.
So far then Mrs. Thresk’s stinging
speeches seemed to have been justified. But at
the age of twenty-eight he took a holiday. He
went down for a month into Sussex, and there the ordered
scheme of his life was threatened. It stood the
attack; and again it is possible to plead in its favour
with a good show of argument. But the attack,
nevertheless, brings into light another point of view.
Prudence, for instance, the disputant
might urge, is all very well in the ordinary run of
life, but when the great moments come conduct wants
another inspiration. Such an one would consider
that holiday with a thought to spare for Stella Derrick,
who during its passage saw much of Henry Thresk.
The actual hour when the test came happened on one
of the last days of August.