The dinner-party at Little Beeding
was a small affair. There were but ten altogether
who sat down at Mr. Hazlewood’s dinner-table
and with the exception of the Pettifers all, owing
to Dick Hazlewood’s insistence, were declared
partisans of Stella Ballantyne. None the less
Stella came to it with hesitation. It was the
first time that she had dined abroad since she had
left India, now the best part of eighteen months ago,
and she went forth to it as to an ordeal. For
though friends of hers would be present to enhearten
her she was to meet the Pettifers. The redoubtable
Aunt Margaret had spoilt her sleep for a week.
It was for the Pettifers she dressed, careful to choose
neither white nor black, lest they should find something
symbolic in the colour of her gown and make of it an
offence. She put on a frock of pale blue satin
trimmed with some white lace which had belonged to
her mother, and she wore not so much as a thin gold
chain about her neck. But she did not need jewels
that night. The months of quiet had restored
her to her beauty, the excitement of this evening
had given life and colour to her face, the queer little
droop at the corners of her lips which had betrayed
so much misery and bitterness of spirit had vanished
altogether. Yet when she was quite dressed and
her mirror bade her take courage she sat down and wrote
a note of apology pleading a sudden indisposition.
But she did not send it. Even in the writing
her cowardice came home to her and she tore it up before
she had signed her name. The wheels of the cab
which was to take her to the big house rattled down
the lane under her windows, and slipping her cloak
over her shoulders she ran downstairs.
The party began with a little constraint.
Mr. Hazlewood received his guests in his drawing-room
and it had the chill and the ceremony of a room which
is seldom used. But the constraint wore off at
the table. Most of those present were striving
to set Stella Ballantyne at her ease, and she was
at a comfortable distance from Mrs. Pettifer, with
Mr. Hazlewood at her side. She was conscious
that she was kept under observation and from time
to time the knowledge made her uncomfortable.
“I am being watched,” she said to her
host.
“You mustn’t mind,”
replied Mr. Hazlewood, and the smile came back to her
lips as she glanced round the table.
“Oh, I don’t, I don’t,”
she said in a low voice, “for I have friends
here.”
“And friends who will not fail
you, Stella,” said the old man. “To-night
begins the great change. You’ll see.”
Robert Pettifer puzzled her indeed
more than his wife. She was plain to read.
She was frigidly polite, her enemy. Once or twice,
however, Stella turned her head to find Robert Pettifer’s
eyes resting upon her with a quiet scrutiny which
betrayed nothing of his thoughts. As a matter
of fact he liked her manner. She was neither
defiant nor servile, neither loud nor over-silent.
She had been through fire; that was evident. But
it was evident only because of a queer haunting look
which came and went in her dark eyes. The fire
had not withered her. Indeed Pettifer was surprised.
He had not formulated his expectations at all, but
he had not expected what he saw. The clear eyes
and the fresh delicate colour, her firm white shoulders
and her depth of bosom, forced him to think of her
as wholesome. He began to turn over in his mind
his recollections of her case, recollections which
he had been studious not to revive.
Halfway through the dinner Stella
lost her uneasiness. The lights, the ripple of
talk, the company of men and women, the bright dresses
had their effect on her. It was as though after
a deep plunge into dark waters she had come to the
surface and flung out her arms to the sun. She
ceased to notice the scrutiny of the Pettifers.
She looked across the table to Dick and their eyes
met; and such a look of tenderness transfigured her
face as made Mrs. Pettifer turn pale.
“That woman’s in love,”
she said to herself and she was horrified. It
wasn’t Dick’s social position then or the
shelter of his character that Stella Ballantyne coveted.
She was in love. Mrs. Pettifer was honest enough
to acknowledge it. But she knew now that the danger
which she had feared was infinitely less than the
danger which actually was.
“I must have it out with Harold
to-night,” she said, and later on, when the
men came from the dining-room, she looked out for her
husband. But at first she did not see him.
She was in the drawing-room and the wide double doors
which led to the big library stood open. It was
through those doors that the men had come. Some
of the party were gathered there. She could hear
the click of the billiard balls and the voices of women
mingling with those of the men. She went through
the doors and saw her husband standing by Harold Hazlewood’s
desk, and engrossed apparently in some little paper-covered
book which he held in his hand. She crossed to
him at once.
“Robert,” she said, “don’t
be in a hurry to go to-night. I must have a word
with Harold.”
“All right,” said Pettifer,
but he said it in so absent a voice that his wife
doubted whether he had understood her words. She
was about to repeat them when Harold Hazlewood himself
approached.
“You are looking at my new pamphlet,
Pettifer, The Prison Walls must Cast no Shadow.
I am hoping that it will have a great influence.”
“No,” replied Pettifer.
“I wasn’t. I was looking at this,”
and he held up the little book.
“Oh, that?” said Hazlewood,
turning away with disappointment.
“Yes, that,” said Pettifer
with a strange and thoughtful look at his brother-in-law.
“And I am not sure,” he added slowly, “that
in a short time you will not find it the more important
publication of the two.”
He laid the book down and in his turn
he moved away towards the billiard-table. Margaret
Pettifer remained. She had been struck by the
curious deliberate words her husband had used.
Was this the hint for which she was looking out?
She took up the little book. It was a copy of
Notes and Queries. She opened it.
It was a small periodical magazine
made up of printed questions which contributors sent
in search of information and answers to those questions
from the pens of other contributors. Mrs. Pettifer
glanced through the leaves, hoping to light upon the
page which her husband had been studying. But
he had closed the book when he laid it down and she
found nothing to justify his remark. Yet he had
not spoken without intention. Of that she was
convinced, and her conviction was strengthened the
next moment, for as she turned again towards the drawing-room
Robert Pettifer looked once sharply towards her and
as sharply away. Mrs. Pettifer understood that
glance. He was wondering whether she had noticed
what in that magazine had interested him. But
she did not pursue him with questions. She merely
made up her mind to examine the copy of Notes and
Queries at a time when she could bring more leisure
to the task.
She waited impatiently for the party
to break up but eleven o’clock had struck before
any one proposed to go. Then all took their leave
at once. Robert Pettifer and his wife went out
into the hall with the rest, lest others seeing them
remain should stay behind too; and whilst they stood
a little apart from the general bustle of departure
Margaret Pettifer saw Stella Ballantyne come lightly
down the stairs, and a savage fury suddenly whirled
in her head and turned her dizzy. She thought
of all the trouble and harm this young woman was bringing
into their ordered family and she would not have it
that she was innocent. She saw Stella with her
cloak open upon her shoulders radiant and glistening
and slender against the dark panels of the staircase,
youth in her face, enjoyment sparkling in her eyes,
and her fingers itched to strip her of her bright frock,
her gloves, her slim satin slippers, the delicate
white lace which nestled against her bosom. She
clothed her in the heavy shapeless garments, the coarse
shoes and stockings of the convict; she saw her working
desperately against time upon an ignoble task with
black and broken finger-nails. If longing could
have worked the miracle, thus at this hour would Stella
Ballantyne have sat and worked, all the colour of her
faded to a hideous drab, all the grace of her withered.
Mrs. Pettifer turned away with so abrupt a movement
and so disordered a face that Robert asked her if
she was ill.
“No, it’s nothing,”
she said and against her will her eyes were drawn
back to the staircase. But Stella Ballantyne had
disappeared and Margaret Pettifer drew her breath
in relief. She felt that there had been danger
in her moment of passion, danger and shame; and already
enough of those two evils waited about them.
Stella, meanwhile, with a glance towards
Dick Hazlewood, had slipped back into the big room.
Then she waited for a moment until the door opened
and Dick came in.
“I had not said good-night to
you,” she exclaimed, coming towards him and
giving him her hands, “and I wanted to say it
to you here, when we were alone. For I must thank
you for to-night, you and your father. Oh, I have
no words.”
The tears were very near to her eyes
and they were audible in her low voice. Dick
Hazlewood was quick to answer her.
“Good! For there’s
need of none. Will you ride to-morrow?”
Stella took her hands from his and
moved across the room towards the great bay window
with its glass doors.
“I should love to,” she said.
“Eight. Is that too early after to-night?”
“No, that’s the good time,”
she returned with a smile. “We have the
day at its best and the world to ourselves.”
“I’ll bring the same horse round.
He knows you now, doesn’t he?”
“Thank you,” said Stella.
She unlatched the glass door and opened it. “You’ll
lock it after me, won’t you?”
“No,” said Dick. “I’ll
see you to your door.”
But Stella refused his company. She stood in
the doorway.
“There’s no need!
See what a night it is!” and the beauty of it
crept into her soul and stilled her voice. The
moon rode in a blue sky, a disc of glowing white,
the great cedar-trees flung their shadows wide over
the bright lawns and not a branch stirred.
“Listen,” said Stella
in a whisper and the river rippling against its banks
with now a deep sob and now a fairy’s laugh sang
to them in notes most musical and clear. That
liquid melody and the flutter of a bird’s wings
in the bough of a tree were the only sounds. They
stood side by side, she looking out over the garden
to the dim and pearly hills, he gazing at her uplifted
face and the pure column of her throat. They
stood in a most dangerous silence. The air came
cool and fresh to their nostrils. Stella drew
it in with a smile.
“Good-night!” She laid
her hand for a second on his arm. “Don’t
come with me!”
“Why not?”
And the answer came in a clear whisper:
“I am afraid.”
Stella seemed to feel the man at her
side suddenly grow very still. “It’s
only a step,” she went on quickly and she passed
out of the window on to the pathway. Dick Hazlewood
followed but she turned to him and raised her hand.
“Don’t,” she pleaded;
the voice was troubled but her eyes were steady.
“If you come with me I shall tell you.”
“What?” he interrupted,
and the quickness of the interruption broke the spell
which the night had laid upon her.
“I shall tell you again how
much I thank you,” she said lightly. “I
shall cross the meadow by the garden gate. That
brings me to my door.”
She gathered her skirt in her hand
and crossed the pathway to the edge of the grass.
“You can’t do that,”
exclaimed Dick and he was at her side. He stooped
and felt the turf. “Even the lawn’s
drenched. Crossing the meadow you’ll be
ankle-deep in dew. You must promise never to go
home across the meadow when you dine with us.”
He spoke, chiding her as if she had
been a mutinous child, and with so much anxiety that
she laughed.
“You see, you have become rather
precious to me,” he added.
Though the month was July she that
night was all April, half tears, half laughter.
The smile passed from her lips and she raised her hands
to her face with the swiftness of one who has been
struck.
“What’s the matter?”
he asked, and she drew her hand away.
“Don’t you understand?”
she asked, and answered the question herself.
“No, why should you?” She turned to him
suddenly, her bosom heaving, her hands clenched.
“Do you know what place I fill here, in my own
county? Years ago, when I was a child, there
was supposed to be a pig-faced woman in Great Beeding.
She lived in a small yellow cottage in the Square.
It was pointed out to strangers as one of the sights
of the town. Sometimes they were shown her shadow
after dusk between the lamp and the blind. Sometimes
you might have even caught a glimpse of her slinking
late at night along the dark alleys. Well, the
pig-faced woman has gone and I have taken her place.”
“No,” cried Dick. “That’s
not true.”
“It is,” she answered
passionately. “I am the curiosity.
I am the freak. The townspeople take a pride
in me, yes, just the same pride they took in her,
and I find that pride more difficult to bear than all
the aversion of the Pettifers. I too slink out
early in the morning or late after night has fallen.
And you” the passion of bitterness
died out of her voice, her hands opened and hung at
her sides, a smile of tenderness shone on her face “you
come with me. You ride with me early. With
you I learn to take no heed. You welcome me to
your house. You speak to me as you spoke just
now.” Her voice broke and a cry of gladness
escaped from her which went to Dick Hazlewood’s
heart. “Oh, you shall see me to my door.
I’ll not cross the meadow. I’ll go
round by the road.” She stopped and drew
a breath.
“I’ll tell you something.”
“What?”
“It’s rather good to be
looked after. I know. It has never happened
to me before. Yes, it’s very good,”
and she drew out the words with a low laugh of happiness.
“Stella!” he said, and
at the mention of her name she caught her hands up
to her heart. “Oh, thank you!”
The hall-door was closed and all but
one car had driven away when they turned the corner
of the house and came out in the broad drive.
They walked in the moonlight with a perfume of flowers
in the air and the big yellow cups of the evening
primroses gleaming on either side. They walked
slowly. Stella knew that she should quicken her
feet but she could not bring herself to do more than
know it. She sought to take into her heart every
tiniest detail of that walk so that in memory she might,
years after, walk it again and so never be quite alone.
They passed out through the great iron gates and turned
into the lane. Here great elms overhung and now
they walked in darkness, and now again were bathed
in light. A twig snapped beneath her foot; even
so small a thing she would remember.
“We must hurry,” she said.
“We are doing all that we can,”
replied Dick. “It’s a long way this
walk.”
“You feel it so?” said
Stella, tempting him oh, unwisely!
But the spell of the hour and the place was upon her.
“Yes,” he answered her.
“It’s a long way in a man’s life,”
and he drew close to her side.
“No!” she cried with a
sudden violence. But she was awake too late.
“No, Dick, no,” she repeated, but his
arms were about her.
“Stella, I want you. Oh,
life’s dull for a man without a woman; I can
tell you,” he exclaimed passionately.
“There are others plenty,”
she said, and tried to thrust him away.
“Not for me,” he rejoined,
and he would not let her go. Her struggles ceased,
she buried her face in his coat, her hands caught his
shoulders, she stood trembling and shivering against
him.
“Stella,” he whispered. “Stella!”
He raised her face and bent to it. Then he straightened
himself.
“Not here!” he said.
They were standing in the darkness
of a tree. He put his arms about her waist and
lifted her into an open space where the moonlight shone
bright and clear and there were no shadows.
“Here,” he said, and he
kissed her on the lips. She thrust her head back,
her face uplifted to the skies, her eyes closed.
“Oh, Dick,” she murmured,
“I meant that this should never be. Even
now you shall forget it.”
“No I couldn’t.”
“So one says. But oh, it would
be your ruin.” She started away from him.
“Listen!”
“Yes,” he answered.
She stood confronting him desperately
a yard or so away, her bosom heaving, her face wet
with her tears. Dick Hazlewood did not stir.
Stella’s lips moved as though she were speaking
but no words were audible, and it seemed that her
strength left her. She came suddenly forward,
groping with her hands like a blind person.
“Oh, my dear,” she said
as he caught them. They went on again together.
She spoke of his father, of the talk of the countryside.
But he had an argument for each of hers.
“Be brave for just a little,
Stella. Once we are married there will be no
trouble,” and with his arms about her she was
eager to believe.
Stella Ballantyne sat late that night
in the armchair in her bedroom, her eyes fixed upon
the empty grate, in a turmoil of emotion. She
grew cold and shivered. A loud noise of birds
suddenly burst through the open window. She went
to it. The morning had come. She looked across
the meadow to the silent house of Little Beeding in
the grey broadening light. All the blinds were
down. Were they all asleep or did one watch like
her? She came back to the fireplace. In the
grate some torn fragments of a letter caught her eyes.
She stooped and picked them up. They were fragments
of the letter of regret which she had written earlier
that evening.
“I should have sent it,”
she whispered. “I should not have gone.
I should have sent the letter.”
But the regret was vain. She
had gone. Her maid found her in the morning lying
upon her bed in a deep sleep and still wearing the
dress in which she had gone out.