Jimbo’s governess ought to have
known better but she didn’t.
If she had, Jimbo would never have met with the adventures
that subsequently came to him. Thus, in a roundabout
sort of way, the child ought to have been thankful
to the governess; and perhaps, in a roundabout sort
of way, he was. But that comes at the far end
of the story, and is doubtful at best; and in the
meanwhile the child had gone through his suffering,
and the governess had in some measure expiated her
fault; so that at this stage it is only necessary
to note that the whole business began because the
Empty House happened to be really an Empty House not
the one Jimbo’s family lived in, but another
of which more will be known in due course.
Jimbo’s father was a retired
Colonel, who had married late in life, and now lived
all the year round in the country; and Jimbo was the
youngest child but one. The Colonel, lean in
body as he was sincere in mind, an excellent soldier
but a poor diplomatist, loved dogs, horses, guns and
riding-whips. He also really understood them.
His neighbours, had they been asked, would have called
him hard-headed, and so far as a soft-hearted man
may deserve the title, he probably was. He rode
two horses a day to hounds with the best of them,
and the stiffer the country the better he liked it.
Besides his guns, dogs and horses, he was also very
fond of his children. It was his hobby that he
understood them far better than his wife did, or than
any one else did, for that matter. The proper
evolution of their differing temperaments had no difficulties
for him. The delicate problems of child-nature,
which defy solution by nine parents out of ten, ceased
to exist the moment he spread out his muscular hand
in a favourite omnipotent gesture and uttered some
extraordinarily foolish generality in that thunderous,
good-natured voice of his. The difficulty for
himself vanished when he ended up with the words,
“Leave that to me, my dear; believe me, I know
best!” But for all else concerned, and especially
for the child under discussion, this was when the
difficulty really began.
Since, however, the Colonel, after
this chapter, mounts his best hunter and disappears
over a high hedge into space so far as our story is
concerned, any further delineation of his wholesome
but very ordinary type is unnecessary.
One winter’s evening, not very
long after Christmas, the Colonel made a discovery.
It alarmed him a little; for it suggested to his cocksure
mind that he did not understand all his children
as comprehensively as he imagined.
Between five o’clock tea and
dinner that magic hour when lessons were
over and the big house was full of shadows and mystery there
came a timid knock at the study door.
“Come in,” growled the
soldier in his deepest voice, and a little girl’s
face, wreathed in tumbling brown hair, poked itself
hesitatingly through the opening.
The Colonel did not like being disturbed
at this hour, and everybody in the house knew it;
but the spell of Christmas holidays was still somehow
in the air, and the customary order was not yet fully
re-established. Moreover, when he saw who the
intruder was, his growl modified itself into a sort
of common sternness that yet was not cleverly enough
simulated to deceive the really intuitive little person
who now stood inside the room.
“Well, Nixie, child, what do you want now?”
“Please, father, will you we wondered
if ”
A chorus of whispers issued from the other side of
the door:
“Go on, silly!”
“Out with it!”
“You promised you would, Nixie.”
“... if you would come and play
Rabbits with us?” came the words in a desperate
rush, with laughter not far behind.
The big man with the fierce white
moustaches glared over the top of his glasses at the
intruders as if amazed beyond belief at the audacity
of the request.
“Rabbits!” he exclaimed,
as though the mere word ought to have caused an instant
explosion. “Rabbits!”
“Oh, please do.”
“Rabbits at this time of night!”
he repeated. “I never heard of such a thing.
Why, all good rabbits are asleep in their holes by
now. And you ought to be in yours too by rights,
I’m sure.”
“We don’t sleep in holes,
father,” said the owner of the brown hair, who
was acting as leader.
“And there’s still a nour
before bedtime, really,” added a voice
in the rear.
The big man slowly put his glasses
down and looked at his watch. He looked very
savage, but of course it was all pretence, and the
children knew it. “If he was really
cross he’d pretend to be nice,” they whispered
to each other, with merciless perception.
“Well ” he
began. But he who hesitates, with children, is
lost. The door flung open wide, and the troop
poured into the room in a medley of long black legs,
flying hair and outstretched hands. They surrounded
the table, swarmed upon his big knees, shut his stupid
old book, tried on his glasses, kissed him, and fell
to discussing the game breathlessly all at once, as
though it had already begun.
This, of course, ended the battle,
and the big man had to play the part of the Monster
Rabbit in a wonderful game of his own invention.
But when, at length, it was all over, and they were
gathered panting round the fire of blazing logs in
the hall, the Monster Rabbit the only one
with any breath at his command looked up
and spoke.
“Where’s Jimbo?” he asked.
“Upstairs.”
“Why didn’t he come and play too?”
“He didn’t want to.”
“Why? What’s he doing?”
Several answers were forthcoming.
“Nothing in p’tickler.”
“Talking to the furniture when I last saw him.”
“Just thinking, as usual, or staring in the
fire.”
None of the answers seemed to satisfy
the Monster Rabbit, for when he kissed them a little
later and said good-night, he gave orders, with a
graver face, for Jimbo to be sent down to the study
before he went to bed. Moreover, he called him
“James,” which was a sure sign of parental
displeasure.
“James, why didn’t you
come and play with your brothers and sisters just
now?” asked the Colonel, as a dreamy-eyed boy
of about eight, with a mop of dark hair and a wistful
expression, came slowly forward into the room.
“I was in the middle of making pictures.”
“Where what making pictures?”
“In the fire.”
“James,” said the Colonel
in a serious tone, “don’t you know that
you are getting too old now for that sort of thing?
If you dream so much, you’ll fall asleep altogether
some fine day, and never wake up again. Just
think what that means!”
The child smiled faintly and moved
up confidingly between his father’s knees, staring
into his eyes without the least sign of fear.
But he said nothing in reply. His thoughts were
far away, and it seemed as if the effort to bring
them back into the study and to a consideration of
his father’s words was almost beyond his power.
“You must run about more,”
pursued the soldier, rubbing his big hands together
briskly, “and join your brothers and sisters
in their games. Lie about in the summer and dream
a bit if you like, but now it’s winter, you
must be more active, and make your blood circulate
healthily, er and all that sort
of thing.”
The words were kindly spoken, but
the voice and manner rather deliberate. Jimbo
began to look a little troubled, as his father watched
him.
“Come now, little man,”
he said more gently, “what’s the matter,
eh?” He drew the boy close to him. “Tell
me all about it, and what it is you’re always
thinking about so much.”
Jimbo brought back his mind with a
tremendous effort, and said, “I don’t
like the winter. It’s so dark and full of
horrid things. It’s all ice and shadows,
so so I go away and think of what I like,
and other places ”
“Nonsense!” interrupted
his father briskly; “winter’s a capital
time for boys. What in the world d’ye mean,
I wonder?”
He lifted the child on to his knee
and stroked his hair, as though he were patting the
flank of a horse. Jimbo took no notice of the
interruption or of the caress, but went on saying what
he had to say, though with eyes a little more clouded.
“Winter’s like going into
a long black tunnel, you see. It’s downhill
to Christmas, of course, and then uphill all the way
to the summer holidays. But the uphill part’s
so slow that ”
“Tut, tut!” laughed the
Colonel in spite of himself; “you mustn’t
have such thoughts. Those are a baby’s
notions. They’re silly, silly, silly.”
“Do you really think
so, father?” continued the boy, as if politeness
demanded some recognition of his father’s remarks,
but otherwise anxious only to say what was in his
mind. “You wouldn’t think them silly
if you really knew. But, of course, there’s
no one to tell you in the stable, so you can’t
know. You’ve never seen the funny big people
rushing past you and laughing through their long hair
when the wind blows so loud. I know several
of them almost to speak to, but you hear only wind.
And the other things with tiny legs that skate up
and down the slippery moonbeams, without ever tumbling
off they aren’t silly a bit, only
they don’t like dogs and noise. And I’ve
seen the furniture” he pronounced
it furchinur “dancing about in the
day-nursery when it thought it was alone, and I’ve
heard it talking at night. I know the big cupboard’s
voice quite well. It’s just like a drum,
only rougher....”
The Colonel shook his head and frowned
severely, staring hard at his son. But though
their eyes met, the boy hardly saw him. Far away
at the other end of the dark Tunnel of the Months
he saw the white summer sunshine lying over gardens
full of nodding flowers. Butterflies were flitting
across meadows yellow with buttercups, and he saw the
fascinating rings upon the lawn where the Fairy People
held their dances in the moonlight; he heard the wind
call to him as it ran on along by the hedgerows, and
saw the gentle pressure of its swift feet upon the
standing hay; streams were murmuring under shady trees;
birds were singing; and there were echoes of sweeter
music still that he could not understand, but loved
all the more perhaps on that account....
“Yes,” announced the Colonel
later that evening to his wife, spreading his hands
out as he spoke. “Yes, my dear, I have
made a discovery, and an alarming one. You know,
I’m rarely at fault where the children are concerned and
I’ve noted all the symptoms with unusual care.
James, my dear, is an imaginative boy.”
He paused to note the effect of his
words, but seeing none, continued:
“I regret to be obliged to say
it, but it’s a fact beyond dispute. His
head is simply full of things, and he talked to me
this evening about tunnels and slippery moonlight
till I very nearly lost my temper altogether.
Now, the boy will never make a man unless we take him
in hand properly at once. We must get him a governess,
or something, without delay. Just fancy, if he
grew up into a poet or one of these these ”
In his distress the soldier could
only think of horse-terms, which did not seem quite
the right language. He stuck altogether, and kept
repeating the favourite gesture with his open hand,
staring at his wife over his glasses as he did so.
But the mother never argued.
“He’s very young still,”
she observed quietly, “and, as you have always
said, he’s not a bit like other boys, remember.”
“Exactly what I say. Now
that your eyes are opened to the actual state of affairs,
I’m satisfied.”
“We’ll get a sensible
nursery-governess at once,” added the mother.
“A practical one?”
“Yes, dear.”
“Hard-headed?”
“Yes.”
“And well educated?”
“Yes.”
“And er firm with children.
She’ll do for the lot, then.”
“If possible.”
“And a young woman who doesn’t
go in for poetry, and dreaming, and all that kind
of flummery.”
“Of course, dear.”
“Capital. I felt sure you
would agree with me,” he went on. “It’d
be no end of a pity if Jimbo grew up an ass.
At present he hardly knows the difference between
a roadster and a racer. He’s going into
the army, too,” he added by way of climax, “and
you know, my dear, the army would never stand that!”
“Never,” said the mother quietly, and
the conversation came to an end.
Meanwhile, the subject of these remarks
was lying wide awake upstairs in the bed with the
yellow iron railing round it. His elder brother
was asleep in the opposite corner of the room, snoring
peacefully. He could just see the brass knobs
of the bedstead as the dying firelight quivered and
shone on them. The walls and ceiling were draped
in shadows that altered their shapes from time to
time as the coals dropped softly into the grate.
Gradually the fire sank, and the room darkened.
A feeling of delight and awe stole into his heart.
Jimbo loved these early hours of the
night before sleep came. He felt no fear of the
dark; its mystery thrilled his soul; but he liked the
summer dark, with its soft, warm silences better than
the chill winter shadows. Presently the firelight
sprang up into a brief flame and then died away altogether
with an odd little gulp. He knew the sound well;
he often watched the fire out, and now, as he lay
in bed waiting for he knew not what, the moonlight
filtered in through the baize curtains and gradually
gave to the room a wholly new character.
Jimbo sat up in bed and listened.
The house was very still. He slipped into his
red dressing-gown and crept noiselessly over to the
window. For a moment he paused by his brother’s
bed to make sure that he really was asleep; then,
evidently satisfied, he drew aside a corner of the
curtain and peered out.
“Oh!” he said, drawing
in his breath with delight, and again “oh!”
It was difficult to understand why
the sea of white moonlight that covered the lawn should
fill him with such joy, and at the same time bring
a lump into his throat. It made him feel as if
he were swelling out into something very much greater
than the actual limits of his little person.
And the sensation was one of mingled pain and delight,
too intense for him to feel for very long. The
unhappiness passed gradually away, he always noticed,
and the happiness merged after a while into a sort
of dreamy ecstasy in which he neither thought nor
wished much, but was conscious only of one single unmanageable
yearning.
The huge cedars on the lawn reared
themselves up like giants in silver cloaks, and the
horse-chestnut the Umbrella Tree, as the
children called it loomed with motionless
branches that were frosted and shining. Beyond
it, in a blue mist of moonlight and distance, lay the
kitchen-garden; he could just make out the line of
the high wall where the fruit-trees grew. Immediately
below him the gravel of the carriage drive sparkled
with frost.
The bars of the windows were cold
to his hands, yet he stood there for a long time with
his nose flattened against the pane and his bare feet
on the cane chair. He felt both happy and sad;
his heart longed dreadfully for something he had not
got, something that seemed out of his reach because
he could not name it. No one seemed to believe
all the things he knew in quite the same way
as he did. His brothers and sisters played up
to a certain point, and then put the things aside as
if they had only been assumed for the time and were
not real. To him they were always real.
His father’s words, too, that evening had sorely
puzzled him when he came to think over them afterwards:
“They’re a baby’s notions....
They’re silly, silly, silly.” Were
these things real or were they not? And, as he
pondered, yearning dumbly, as only these little souls
can yearn, the wistfulness in his heart went out to
meet the moonlight in the air. Together they
wove a spell that seemed to summon before him a fairy
of the night, who whispered an answer into his heart:
“We are real so long as you believe in us.
It is your imagination that makes us real and gives
us life. Please, never, never stop believing.”
Jimbo was not quite sure that he understood
the message, but he liked it all the same, and felt
comforted. So long as they believed in one another,
the rest did not matter very much after all. And
when at last, shivering with cold, he crept back to
bed, it was only to find through the Gates of Sleep
a more direct way to the things he had been thinking
about, and to wander for the rest of the night, unwatched
and free, through the wonders of an Enchanted Land.
Jimbo, as his father had said, was
an imaginative child. Most children are more
or less; and he was “more,” at least, “more”
than his brothers and sisters. The Colonel thought
he had made a penetrating discovery, but his wife
had known it always. His head, indeed, was “full
of things,” things that, unless trained
into a channel where they could be controlled and
properly schooled, would certainly interfere with his
success in a practical world, and be a source of mingled
pain and joy to him all through life. To have
trained these forces, ever bursting out towards creation,
in his little soul, to have explained, interpreted,
and dealt fairly by them, would perhaps have been the
best and wisest way; to have suppressed them altogether,
cleaned them out by the process of substitution, this
might have succeeded too in less measure; but to turn
them into a veritable rout of horror by the common
method of “frightening the nonsense out of the
boy,” this was surely the very worst way of
dealing with such a case, and the most cruel.
Yet, this was the method adopted by the Colonel in
the robust good-nature of his heart, and the utter
ignorance of his soul.
So it came about that three months
later, when May was melting into June, Miss Ethel
Lake arrived upon the scene as a result of the Colonel’s
blundering good intentions. She brought with her
a kind disposition, a supreme ignorance of unordinary
children, a large store of self-confidence and
a corded yellow tin box.