But Miss Lake did not always accompany
him on these excursions into the night; sometimes
he took long flights by himself, and she rather encouraged
him in this, saying it would give him confidence in
case he ever lost her and was obliged to find his
way about alone.
“But I couldn’t get really
lost,” he said once to her. “I know
the winds perfectly now and the country round for
miles, and I never go out in fog ”
“But these are only practice
flights,” she replied. “The flight
of escape is a very different matter. I want
you to learn all you possibly can so as to be prepared
for anything.”
Jimbo felt vaguely uncomfortable when
she talked like this.
“But you’ll be with me
in the Escape Flight the final one of all,”
he said; “and nothing ever goes wrong when you’re
with me.”
“I should like to be always
with you,” she answered tenderly, “but
it’s well to be prepared for anything, just
the same.”
And more than this the boy could never get out of
her.
On one of these lonely flights, however,
he made the unpleasant discovery that he was being
followed.
At first he only imagined there was
somebody after him because of the curious vibrations
of the very rarefied air in which he flew. Every
time his flight slackened and the noise of his own
wings grew less, there reached him from some other
corner of the sky a sound like the vibrations of large
wings beating the air. It seemed behind, and
generally below him, but the swishing of his own feathers
made it difficult to hear with distinctness, or to
be certain of the direction.
Evidently it was a long way off; but
now and again, when he took a spurt and then sailed
silently for several minutes on outstretched wings,
the beating of distant, following feathers seemed
unmistakably clear, and he raced on again at full
speed more than terrified. Other times, however,
when he tried to listen, there was no trace of this
other flyer, and then his fear would disappear, and
he would persuade himself that it had been imagination.
So much on these flights he knew to be imagination the
sentences, voices, and laughter, for instance, that
filled the air and sounded so real, yet were actually
caused by the wind rushing past his ears, the rhythm
of the wing-beats, and the tips of the feathers occasionally
rubbing against the sides of his body.
But at last one night the suspicion
that he was followed became a certainty.
He was flying far up in the sky, passing
over some big city, when the sound rose to his ears,
and he paused, sailing on stretched wings, to listen.
Looking down into the immense space below, he saw,
plainly outlined against the luminous patch above
the city, the form of a large flying creature moving
by with rapid strokes. The pulsations of its
great wings made the air tremble so that he both heard
and felt them. It may have been that the vapours
of the city distorted the thing, just as the earth’s
atmosphere magnifies the rising or setting of the moon;
but, even so, it was easy to see that it was something
a good deal larger than himself, and with a much more
powerful flight.
Fortunately, it did not seem this
time to be actually on his trail, for it swept by
at a great pace, and was soon lost in the darkness
far ahead. Perhaps it was only searching for
him, and his great height had proved his safety.
But in any case he was exceedingly terrified, and at
once turned round, pointed his head for the earth,
and shot downwards in the direction of the Empty House
as fast as ever he could.
But when he spoke to the governess
she made light of it, and told him there was nothing
to be afraid of. It might have been a flock of
hurrying night-birds, she said, or an owl distorted
by the city’s light, or even his own reflection
magnified in water. Anyhow, she felt sure it
was not chasing him, and he need pay no attention to
it.
Jimbo felt reassured, but not quite
satisfied. He knew a flying monster when he saw
one; and it was only when he had been for many more
flights alone, without its reappearance, that his
confidence was fully restored, and he began to forget
about it.
Certainly these lonely flights were
very much to his taste. His Older Self, with
its dim hauntings of a great memory somewhere behind
him, took possession then, and he was able to commune
with nature in a way that the presence of the governess
made impossible. With her his Older Self rarely
showed itself above the surface for long; he was always
the child. But, when alone, Nature became alive;
he drew force from the trees and flowers, and felt
that they all shared a common life together.
Had he been imprisoned by some wizard of old in a tree-form,
knowing of the sunset and the dawn only by the sweet
messages that rustled in his branches, the wind could
hardly have spoken to him with a more intimate meaning;
or the life of the fields, eternally patient, have
touched him more nearly with their joys and sorrows.
It seemed almost as if, from his leafy cell, he had
gazed before this into the shining pools with which
the summer rains jewelled the meadows, sending his
soul in a stream of unsatisfied yearning up to the
stars. It all came back dimly when he heard the
wind among the leaves, and carried him off to the
woods and fields of an existence far antedating this
one
And on gentle nights, when the wind
itself was half asleep and dreaming, the pine trees
drew him most of all, for theirs was the song he loved
above all others. He would fly round and round
the little grove by the mountain lake, listening for
hours together to their sighing voices. But the
governess was never told of this, whatever she may
have guessed; for it seemed to him a joy too deep
for words, the pains and sweetness being mingled too
mysteriously for him ever to express in awkward sentences.
Moreover, it all passed away and was forgotten the
moment the child took possession and usurped the older
memory.
One night, when the moon was high
and the air was cool and fragrant after the heat of
the day, Jimbo felt a strong desire to get off by
himself for a long flight. He was full of energy,
and the space-craving cried to be satisfied.
For several days he had been content with slow, stupid
expeditions with the governess.
“I’m off alone to-night,”
he cried, balancing on the window ledge, “but
I’ll be back before dawn. Good-bye!”
She kissed him, as she always did
now, and with her good-bye ringing in his ears, he
dropped from the window and rose rapidly over the elms
and away from earth.
This night, for some reason, the stars
and the moon seemed to draw him, and with tireless
wings he mounted up, up, up, to a height he had never
reached before. The intoxication of the strong
night air rose into his brain and he dashed forward
ever faster, with a mad delight, into the endless
space before him.
Mile upon mile lay behind him as he
rushed onwards, always pointing a little on the upward
slope, drunk with speed. The earth faded away
to a dark expanse of shadow beneath him, and he no
longer was conscious of the deep murmur that usually
flowed steadily upwards from its surface. He
had often before risen out of reach of the earth noises,
but never so far that this dull reverberating sound,
combined of all the voices of the world merged together,
failed to make itself heard. To-night, however,
he heard nothing. The stars above his head changed
from yellow to diamond white, and the cold air stung
his cheeks and brought the water to his eyes.
But at length the governess’s
warning, as he explored these forbidden regions, came
back to him, and in a series of gigantic bounds that
took his breath away completely, he dropped nearer
to the earth again and kept on at a much lower level.
The hours passed and the position
of the moon began to alter noticeably. Some of
the constellations that were overhead when he started
were now dipping below the horizon. Never before
had he ventured so far from home, and he began to
realise that he had been flying much longer than he
knew or intended. The speed had been terrific.
The change came imperceptibly.
With the discovery that his wings were not moving
quite so easily as before, he became suddenly aware
that this had really been the case for some little
time. He was flying with greater effort, and
for a long time this effort had been increasing gradually
before he actually recognised the fact.
Although no longer pointing towards
the earth he seemed to be sinking. It became
increasingly difficult to fly upwards. His wings
did not seem to fail or weaken, nor was he conscious
of feeling tired; but something was ever persuading
him to fly lower, almost as if a million tiny threads
were coaxing him downwards, drawing him gradually nearer
to the world again. Whatever it was, the earth
had come much closer to him in the last hour, and
its familiar voices were pleasant to hear after the
boundless heights he had just left.
But for some reason his speed grew
insensibly less and less. His wings moved apparently
as fast as before, but it was harder to keep up.
In spite of himself he kept sinking. The sensation
was quite new, and he could not understand it.
It almost seemed as though he were being pulled
downwards.
Jimbo began to feel uneasy. He
had not lost his bearings, but he was a very long
way from home, and quite beyond reach of the help he
was so accustomed to. With a great effort he
mounted several hundred feet into the air, and tried
hard to stay there. For a short time he succeeded,
but he soon felt himself sinking gradually downwards
again. The force drawing him was a constant force
without rise or fall; and with a deadly feeling of
fear the boy began to realise that he would soon have
to yield to it altogether. His heart beat faster
and his thoughts turned to the friend who was then
far away, but who alone could save him.
She, at least, could have explained
it and told him what best to do. But the governess
was beyond his reach. This problem he must face
alone.
Something, however, had to be done
quickly, and Jimbo, acting more as the man than as
the boy, turned and flew hurriedly forward in another
direction. He hoped this might somehow counteract
the force that still drew him downwards; and for a
time it apparently did so, and he flew level.
But the strain increased every minute, and he looked
down with something of a shudder as he realised that
before very long he would be obliged to yield to this
deadly force and drop!
It was then for the first time he
noticed a change had come over the surface of the
earth below. Instead of the patchwork of field
and wood and road, he saw a vast cloud stretching
out, white and smooth in the moonlight. The world
was hidden beneath a snowy fog, dense and impenetrable.
It was no longer even possible to tell in what direction
he was flying, for there was nothing to steer by.
This was a new and unexpected complication, and the
boy could not understand how the change had come about
so quickly; the last time he had glanced down for
indications to steer by, everything had been clear
and easily visible.
It was very beautiful, this carpet
of white mist with the silver moon shining upon it,
but it thrilled him now with an unpleasant sense of
dread. And, still more unpleasant, was a new sound
which suddenly broke in upon the stillness and turned
his blood into ice. He was certain that he heard
wings behind him. He was being followed, and this
meant that it was impossible to turn and fly back.
There was nothing now to do but fly
forwards and hope to distance the huge wings; but
if he was being followed by the powerful flyer he had
seen a few nights before, the boy knew that he stood
little chance of success, and he only did it because
it seemed the one thing possible.
The cloud was dense and chill as he
entered it; its moisture clung to his wings and made
them heavy; his muscles seemed to stiffen, and motion
became more and more difficult. The wings behind
him meanwhile came closer.
He was flying along the surface of
the mist now, his body and wings hidden, and his head
just above the level. He could see along its white,
even top. If he sank a few more inches it would
be impossible to see at all, or even to judge where
he was going. Soon it rose level with his lips,
and at the same time he noticed a new smell in the
air, faint at first, but growing every moment stronger.
It was a fresh, sweet odour, yet it somehow added
to his alarm, and stirred in him new centres of uneasiness.
He tried vainly to increase his speed and distance
the wings which continued to gain so steadily upon
him from behind.
The cloud, apparently, was not everywhere
of the same density, for here and there he saw the
tops of green hills below him as he flew. But
he could not understand why each green hill seemed
to have a little lake on its summit a little
lake in which the reflected moon stared straight up
into his face. Nor could he quite make out what
the sounds were which rose to his ears through the
muffling of the cloud sounds of tumultuous
rushing, hissing, and tumbling. They were continuous,
these sounds, and once or twice he thought he heard
with them a deep, thunderous roar that almost made
his heart stop beating as he listened.
Was he, perhaps, over a range of high
mountains, and was this the sound of the tumbling
torrents?
Then, suddenly, it came to him with
a shock that the ordinary sounds of the earth had
wholly ceased.
Jimbo felt his head beginning to whirl.
He grew weaker every minute; less able to offer resistance
to the remorseless forces that were sucking him down.
Now the mist had closed over his head, and he could
no longer see the moonlight. He turned again,
shaking with terror, and drove forward headlong through
the clinging vapour. A sensation of choking rose
in his throat; he was tired out, ready to drop with
exhaustion. The wings of the following creature
were now so close that he thought every minute he
would be seized from behind and plunged into the abyss
to his death.
It was just then that he made the
awful discovery that the world below him was not stationary:
the green hills were moving. They were
sweeping past with a rushing, thundering sound in regular
procession; and their huge sides were streaked with
white. The reflection of the moon leaped up into
his face as each hill rolled hissing and gurgling
by, and he knew at last with a shock of unutterable
horror that it was THE SEA!
He was flying over the sea, and the
waters were drawing him down. The immense, green
waves that rolled along through the sea fog, carrying
the moon’s face on their crests, foaming and
gurgling as they went, were already leaping up to
seize him by the feet and drag him into their depths.
He dropped several feet deeper into
the mist, and towards the sea, terror-stricken and
blinded. Then, turning frantically, not knowing
what else to do, he struck out, with his last strength,
for the upper surface and the moonlight. But
as he did so, turning his face towards the sky he
saw a dark form hovering just above him, covering his
retreat with huge outstretched wings. It was
too late; he was hemmed in on all sides.
At that moment a huge, rolling wave,
bigger than all the rest, swept past and wet him to
the knees. His heart failed him. The next
wave would cover him. Already it was rushing
towards him with foaming crest. He was in its
shadow; he heard its thunder. Darkness rushed
over him he saw the vast sides streaked
with grey and white when suddenly, the owner
of the wings plucked him in the back, mid-way between
the shoulders, and lifted him bodily out of the fog,
so that the wave swept by without even wetting his
feet.
The next minute he saw a dim, white
sheet of silvery mist at his feet, and found himself
far above it in the sweet, clean moonlight; and when
he turned, almost dead with terror, to look upon his
captor, he found himself looking straight into the
eyes of the governess.
The sense of relief was so great that
Jimbo simply closed his wings, and hung, a dead weight,
in the air.
“Use your wings!” cried
the governess sharply; and, still holding him, while
he began to flap feebly, she turned and flew in the
direction of the land.
“You!” he gasped at last. “It
was you following me!”
“Of course it was me! I
never let you out of my sight. I’ve always
followed you every time you’ve been
out alone.”
Jimbo was still conscious of the drawing
power of the sea, but he felt that his companion was
too strong for it. After fifteen minutes of fierce
flight he heard the sounds of earth again, and knew
that they were safe.
Then the governess loosened her hold,
and they flew along side by side in the direction
of home.
“I won’t scold you, Jimbo,”
she said presently, “for you’ve suffered
enough already.” She was the first to break
the silence, and her voice trembled a little.
“But remember, the sea draws you down, just as
surely as the moon draws you up. Nothing would
please Him better than to see you destroyed by one
or the other.”
Jimbo said nothing. But, when
once they were safe inside the room again, he went
up and cried his eyes out on her arm, while she folded
him in to her heart as if he were the only thing in
the whole world she had to love.