“You’ve been gone so long,”
he shouted above the wind, “I thought something
must have happened to you.”
But there was that in his tone, and
a certain look in his face as well, that conveyed
to me more than his usual words, and in a flash I understood
the real reason for his coming. It was because
the spell of the place had entered his soul too, and
he did not like being alone.
“River still rising,”
he cried, pointing to the flood in the moonlight,
“and the wind’s simply awful.”
He always said the same things, but
it was the cry for companionship that gave the real
importance to his words.
“Lucky,” I cried back,
“our tent’s in the hollow. I think
it’ll hold all right.” I added something
about the difficulty of finding wood, in order to
explain my absence, but the wind caught my words and
flung them across the river, so that he did not hear,
but just looked at me through the branches, nodding
his head.
“Lucky if we get away without
disaster!” he shouted, or words to that effect;
and I remember feeling half angry with him for putting
the thought into words, for it was exactly what I
felt myself. There was disaster impending somewhere,
and the sense of presentiment lay unpleasantly upon
me.
We went back to the fire and made
a final blaze, poking it up with our feet. We
took a last look round. But for the wind the heat
would have been unpleasant. I put this thought
into words, and I remember my friend’s reply
struck me oddly: that he would rather have the
heat, the ordinary July weather, than this “diabolical
wind.”
Everything was snug for the night;
the canoe lying turned over beside the tent, with
both yellow paddles beneath her; the provision sack
hanging from a willow-stem, and the washed-up dishes
removed to a safe distance from the fire, all ready
for the morning meal.
We smothered the embers of the fire
with sand, and then turned in. The flap of the
tent door was up, and I saw the branches and the stars
and the white moonlight. The shaking willows
and the heavy buffetings of the wind against our taut
little house were the last things I remembered as sleep
came down and covered all with its soft and delicious
forgetfulness.
Suddenly I found myself lying awake,
peering from my sandy mattress through the door of
the tent. I looked at my watch pinned against
the canvas, and saw by the bright moonlight that it
was past twelve o’clock the threshold
of a new day and I had therefore slept a
couple of hours. The Swede was asleep still beside
me; the wind howled as before; something plucked at
my heart and made me feel afraid. There was a
sense of disturbance in my immediate neighborhood.
I sat up quickly and looked out.
The trees were swaying violently to and fro as the
gusts smote them, but our little bit of green canvas
lay snugly safe in the hollow, for the wind passed
over it without meeting enough resistance to make
it vicious. The feeling of disquietude did not
pass, however, and I crawled quietly out of the tent
to see if our belongings were safe. I moved carefully
so as not to waken my companion. A curious excitement
was on me.
I was half-way out, kneeling on all
fours, when my eye first took in that the tops of
the bushes opposite, with their moving tracery of leaves,
made shapes against the sky. I sat back on my
haunches and stared. It was incredible, surely,
but there, opposite and slightly above me, were shapes
of some indeterminate sort among the willows, and as
the branches swayed in the wind they seemed to group
themselves about these shapes, forming a series of
monstrous outlines that shifted rapidly beneath the
moon. Close, about fifty feet in front of me,
I saw these things.
My first instinct was to waken my
companion, that he too might see them, but something
made me hesitate the sudden realization,
probably, that I should not welcome corroboration;
and meanwhile I crouched there staring in amazement
with smarting eyes. I was wide awake. I remember
saying to myself that I was not dreaming.
They first became properly visible,
these huge figures, just within the tops of the bushes immense,
bronze-colored, moving, and wholly independent of
the swaying of the branches. I saw them plainly
and noted, now I came to examine them more calmly,
that they were very much larger than human, and indeed
that something in their appearance proclaimed them
to be not human at all. Certainly they were not
merely the moving tracery of the branches against
the moonlight. They shifted independently.
They rose upwards in a continuous stream from earth
to sky, vanishing utterly as soon as they reached
the dark of the sky. They were interlaced one
with another, making a great column, and I saw their
limbs and huge bodies melting in and out of each other,
forming this serpentine line that bent and swayed and
twisted spirally with the contortions of the wind-tossed
trees. They were nude, fluid shapes, passing
up the bushes, within the leaves almost rising
up in a living column into the heavens. Their
faces I never could see. Unceasingly they poured
upwards, swaying in great bending curves, with a hue
of dull bronze upon their skins.
I stared, trying to force every atom
of vision from my eyes. For a long time I thought
they must every moment disappear and resolve themselves
into the movements of the branches and prove to be
an optical illusion. I searched everywhere for
a proof of reality, when all the while I understood
quite well that the standard of reality had changed.
For the longer I looked the more certain I became
that these figures were real and living, though perhaps
not according to the standards that the camera and
the biologist would insist upon.
Far from feeling fear, I was possessed
with a sense of awe and wonder such as I have never
known. I seemed to be gazing at the personified
elemental forces of this haunted and primeval region.
Our intrusion had stirred the powers of the place
into activity. It was we who were the cause of
the disturbance, and my brain filled to bursting with
stories and legends of the spirits and deities of
places that have been acknowledged and worshipped
by men in all ages of the world’s history.
But, before I could arrive at any possible explanation,
something impelled me to go farther out, and I crept
forward on the sand and stood upright. I felt
the ground still warm under my bare feet; the wind
tore at my hair and face; and the sound of the river
burst upon my ears with a sudden roar. These things,
I knew, were real, and proved that my senses were
acting normally. Yet the figures still rose from
earth to heaven, silent, majestically, in a great
spiral of grace and strength that overwhelmed me at
length with a genuine deep emotion of worship.
I felt that I must fall down and worship absolutely
worship.
Perhaps in another minute I might
have done so, when a gust of wind swept against me
with such force that it blew me sideways, and I nearly
stumbled and fell. It seemed to shake the dream
violently out of me. At least it gave me another
point of view somehow. The figures still remained,
still ascended into heaven from the heart of the night,
but my reason at last began to assert itself.
It must be a subjective experience, I argued none
the less real for that, but still subjective.
The moonlight and the branches combined to work out
these pictures upon the mirror of my imagination,
and for some reason I projected them outwards and made
them appear objective. I knew this must be the
case, of course. I took courage, and began to
move forward across the open patches of sand.
By Jove, though, was it all hallucination? Was
it merely subjective? Did not my reason argue
in the old futile way from the little standard of the
known?
I only know that great column of figures
ascended darkly into the sky for what seemed a very
long period of time, and with a very complete measure
of reality as most men are accustomed to gauge reality.
Then suddenly they were gone!
And, once they were gone and the immediate
wonder of their great presence had passed, fear came
down upon me with a cold rush. The esoteric meaning
of this lonely and haunted region suddenly flamed up
within me, and I began to tremble dreadfully.
I took a quick look round a look of horror
that came near to panic calculating vainly
ways of escape; and then, realizing how helpless I
was to achieve anything really effective, I crept back
silently into the tent and lay down again upon my sandy
mattress, first lowering the door-curtain to shut
out the sight of the willows in the moonlight, and
then burying my head as deeply as possible beneath
the blankets to deaden the sound of the terrifying
wind.
As though further to convince me that
I had not been dreaming, I remember that it was a
long time before I fell again into a troubled and restless
sleep; and even then only the upper crust of me slept,
and underneath there was something that never quite
lost consciousness, but lay alert and on the watch.
But this second time I jumped up with
a genuine start of terror. It was neither the
wind nor the river that woke me, but the slow approach
of something that caused the sleeping portion of me
to grow smaller and smaller till at last it vanished
altogether, and I found myself sitting bolt upright listening.
Outside there was a sound of multitudinous
little patterings. They had been coming, I was
aware, for a long time, and in my sleep they had first
become audible. I sat there nervously wide awake
as though I had not slept at all. It seemed to
me that my breathing came with difficulty, and that
there was a great weight upon the surface of my body.
In spite of the hot night, I felt clammy with cold
and shivered. Something surely was pressing steadily
against the sides of the tent and weighing down upon
it from above. Was it the body of the wind?
Was this the pattering rain, the dripping of the leaves?
The spray blown from the river by the wind and gathering
in big drops? I thought quickly of a dozen things.
Then suddenly the explanation leaped
into my mind: a bough from the poplar, the only
large tree on the island, had fallen with the wind.
Still half caught by the other branches, it would
fall with the next gust and crush us, and meanwhile
its leaves brushed and tapped upon the tight canvas
surface of the tent. I raised a loose flap and
rushed out, calling to the Swede to follow.
But when I got out and stood upright
I saw that the tent was free. There was no hanging
bough; there was no rain or spray; nothing approached.
A cold, grey light filtered down through
the bushes and lay on the faintly gleaming sand.
Stars still crowded the sky directly overhead, and
the wind howled magnificently, but the fire no longer
gave out any glow, and I saw the east reddening in
streaks through the trees. Several hours must
have passed since I stood there before watching the
ascending figures, and the memory of it now came back
to me horribly, like an evil dream. Oh, how tired
it made me feel, that ceaseless raging wind! Yet,
though the deep lassitude of a sleepless night was
on me, my nerves were tingling with the activity of
an equally tireless apprehension, and all idea of repose
was out of the question. The river I saw had
risen further. Its thunder filled the air, and
a fine spray made itself felt through my thin sleeping
shirt.
Yet nowhere did I discover the slightest
evidence of anything to cause alarm. This deep,
prolonged disturbance in my heart remained wholly
unaccounted for.
My companion had not stirred when
I called him, and there was no need to waken him now.
I looked about me carefully, noting everything; the
turned-over canoe; the yellow paddles two
of them, I’m certain; the provision sack and
the extra lantern hanging together from the tree; and,
crowding everywhere about me, enveloping all, the willows,
those endless, shaking willows. A bird uttered
its morning cry, and a string of duck passed with
whirring flight overhead in the twilight. The
sand whirled, dry and stinging, about my bare feet
in the wind.
I walked round the tent and then went
out a little way into the bush, so that I could see
across the river to the farther landscape, and the
same profound yet indefinable emotion of distress
seized upon me again as I saw the interminable sea
of bushes stretching to the horizon, looking ghostly
and unreal in the wan light of dawn. I walked
softly here and there, still puzzling over that odd
sound of infinite pattering, and of that pressure
upon the tent that had wakened me. It must have
been the wind, I reflected the wind bearing
upon the loose, hot sand, driving the dry particles
smartly against the taut canvas the wind
dropping heavily upon our fragile roof.
Yet all the time my nervousness and
malaise increased appreciably.
I crossed over to the farther shore
and noted how the coast-line had altered in the night,
and what masses of sand the river had torn away.
I dipped my hands and feet into the cool current,
and bathed my forehead. Already there was a glow
of sunrise in the sky and the exquisite freshness
of coming day. On my way back I passed purposely
beneath the very bushes where I had seen the column
of figures rising into the air, and midway among the
clumps I suddenly found myself overtaken by a sense
of vast terror. From the shadows a large figure
went swiftly by. Someone passed me, as sure as
ever man did....
It was a great staggering blow from
the wind that helped me forward again, and once out
in the more open space, the sense of terror diminished
strangely. The winds were about and walking, I
remember saying to myself, for the winds often move
like great presences under the trees. And altogether
the fear that hovered about me was such an unknown
and immense kind of fear, so unlike anything I had
ever felt before, that it woke a sense of awe and
wonder in me that did much to counteract its worst
effects; and when I reached a high point in the middle
of the island from which I could see the wide stretch
of river, crimson in the sunrise, the whole magical
beauty of it all was so overpowering that a sort of
wild yearning woke in me and almost brought a cry
up into the throat.
But this cry found no expression,
for as my eyes wandered from the plain beyond to the
island round me and noted our little tent half hidden
among the willows, a dreadful discovery leaped out
at me, compared to which my terror of the walking
winds seemed as nothing at all.
For a change, I thought, had somehow
come about in the arrangement of the landscape.
It was not that my point of vantage gave me a different
view, but that an alteration had apparently been effected
in the relation of the tent to the willows, and of
the willows to the tent. Surely the bushes now
crowded much closer unnecessarily, unpleasantly
close. They had moved nearer.
Creeping with silent feet over the
shifting sands, drawing imperceptibly nearer by soft,
unhurried movements, the willows had come closer during
the night. But had the wind moved them, or had
they moved of themselves? I recalled the sound
of infinite small patterings and the pressure upon
the tent and upon my own heart that caused me to wake
in terror. I swayed for a moment in the wind
like a tree, finding it hard to keep my upright position
on the sandy hillock. There was a suggestion here
of personal agency, of deliberate intention, of aggressive
hostility, and it terrified me into a sort of rigidity.
Then the reaction followed quickly.
The idea was so bizarre, so absurd, that I felt inclined
to laugh. But the laughter came no more readily
than the cry, for the knowledge that my mind was so
receptive to such dangerous imaginings brought the
additional terror that it was through our minds and
not through our physical bodies that the attack would
come, and was coming.
The wind buffeted me about, and, very
quickly it seemed, the sun came up over the horizon,
for it was after four o’clock, and I must have
stood on that little pinnacle of sand longer than
I knew, afraid to come down to close quarters with
the willows. I returned quietly, creepily, to
the tent, first taking another exhaustive look round
and yes, I confess it making
a few measurements. I paced out on the warm sand
the distances between the willows and the tent, making
a note of the shortest distance particularly.
I crawled stealthily into my blankets.
My companion, to all appearances, still slept soundly,
and I was glad that this was so. Provided my
experiences were not corroborated, I could find strength
somehow to deny them, perhaps. With the daylight
I could persuade myself that it was all a subjective
hallucination, a fantasy of the night, a projection
of the excited imagination.
Nothing further came in to disturb
me, and I fell asleep almost at once, utterly exhausted,
yet still in dread of hearing again that weird sound
of multitudinous pattering, or of feeling the pressure
upon my heart that had made it difficult to breathe.
The sun was high in the heavens when
my companion woke me from a heavy sleep and announced
that the porridge was cooked and there was just time
to bathe. The grateful smell of frizzling bacon
entered the tent door.
“River still rising,”
he said, “and several islands out in mid-stream
have disappeared altogether. Our own island’s
much smaller.”
“Any wood left?” I asked sleepily.
“The wood and the island will
finish tomorrow in a dead heat,” he laughed,
“but there’s enough to last us till then.”
I plunged in from the point of the
island, which had indeed altered a lot in size and
shape during the night, and was swept down in a moment
to the landing-place opposite the tent. The water
was icy, and the banks flew by like the country from
an express train. Bathing under such conditions
was an exhilarating operation, and the terror of the
night seemed cleansed out of me by a process of evaporation
in the brain. The sun was blazing hot; not a
cloud showed itself anywhere; the wind, however, had
not abated one little jot.
Quite suddenly then the implied meaning
of the Swede’s words flashed across me, showing
that he no longer wished to leave post-haste, and had
changed his mind. “Enough to last till
tomorrow” he assumed we should stay
on the island another night. It struck me as
odd. The night before he was so positive the
other way. How had the change come about?
Great crumblings of the banks occurred
at breakfast, with heavy splashings and clouds of
spray which the wind brought into our frying-pan, and
my fellow-traveler talked incessantly about the difficulty
the Vienna-Pesth steamers must have to find the channel
in flood. But the state of his mind interested
and impressed me far more than the state of the river
or the difficulties of the steamers. He had changed
somehow since the evening before. His manner
was different a trifle excited, a trifle
shy, with a sort of suspicion about his voice and
gestures. I hardly know how to describe it now
in cold blood, but at the time I remember being quite
certain of one thing that he had become
frightened?
He ate very little breakfast, and
for once omitted to smoke his pipe. He had the
map spread open beside him, and kept studying its markings.
“We’d better get off sharp
in an hour,” I said presently, feeling for an
opening that must bring him indirectly to a partial
confession at any rate. And his answer puzzled
me uncomfortably: “Rather! If they’ll
let us.”
“Who’ll let us? The
elements?” I asked quickly, with affected indifference.
“The powers of this awful place,
whoever they are,” he replied, keeping his eyes
on the map. “The gods are here, if they
are anywhere at all in the world.”
“The elements are always the
true immortals,” I replied, laughing as naturally
as I could manage, yet knowing quite well that my face
reflected my true feelings when he looked up gravely
at me and spoke across the smoke:
“We shall be fortunate if we
get away without further disaster.”
This was exactly what I had dreaded,
and I screwed myself up to the point of the direct
question. It was like agreeing to allow the dentist
to extract the tooth; it had to come anyhow in the
long run, and the rest was all pretence.
“Further disaster! Why, what’s happened?”
“For one thing the steering paddle’s
gone,” he said quietly.
“The steering paddle gone!”
I repeated, greatly excited, for this was our rudder,
and the Danube in flood without a rudder was suicide.
“But what ”
“And there’s a tear in
the bottom of the canoe,” he added, with a genuine
little tremor in his voice.
I continued staring at him, able only
to repeat the words in his face somewhat foolishly.
There, in the heat of the sun, and on this burning
sand, I was aware of a freezing atmosphere descending
round us. I got up to follow him, for he merely
nodded his head gravely and led the way towards the
tent a few yards on the other side of the fireplace.
The canoe still lay there as I had last seen her in
the night, ribs uppermost, the paddles, or rather,
the paddle, on the sand beside her.
“There’s only one,”
he said, stooping to pick it up. “And here’s
the rent in the base-board.”
It was on the tip of my tongue to
tell him that I had clearly noticed two paddles a
few hours before, but a second impulse made me think
better of it, and I said nothing. I approached
to see.
There was a long, finely made tear
in the bottom of the canoe where a little slither
of wood had been neatly taken clean out; it looked
as if the tooth of a sharp rock or snag had eaten
down her length, and investigation showed that the
hole went through. Had we launched out in her
without observing it we must inevitably have foundered.
At first the water would have made the wood swell
so as to close the hole, but once out in mid-stream
the water must have poured in, and the canoe, never
more than two inches above the surface, would have
filled and sunk very rapidly.
“There, you see an attempt to
prepare a victim for the sacrifice,” I heard
him saying, more to himself than to me, “two
victims rather,” he added as he bent over and
ran his fingers along the slit.
I began to whistle a thing
I always do unconsciously when utterly nonplussed and
purposely paid no attention to his words. I was
determined to consider them foolish.
“It wasn’t there last
night,” he said presently, straightening up from
his examination and looking anywhere but at me.
“We must have scratched her
in landing, of course,” I stopped whistling to
say. “The stones are very sharp.”
I stopped abruptly, for at that moment
he turned round and met my eye squarely. I knew
just as well as he did how impossible my explanation
was. There were no stones, to begin with.
“And then there’s this
to explain too,” he added quietly, handing me
the paddle and pointing to the blade.
A new and curious emotion spread freezingly
over me as I took and examined it. The blade
was scraped down all over, beautifully scraped, as
though someone had sand-papered it with care, making
it so thin that the first vigorous stroke must have
snapped it off at the elbow.
“One of us walked in his sleep
and did this thing,” I said feebly, “or or
it has been filed by the constant stream of sand particles
blown against it by the wind, perhaps.”
“Ah,” said the Swede,
turning away, laughing a little, “you can explain
everything.”
“The same wind that caught the
steering paddle and flung it so near the bank that
it fell in with the next lump that crumbled,”
I called out after him, absolutely determined to find
an explanation for everything he showed me.
“I see,” he shouted back,
turning his head to look at me before disappearing
among the willow bushes.
Once alone with these perplexing evidences
of personal agency, I think my first thoughts took
the form of “One of us must have done this thing,
and it certainly was not I.” But my second
thought decided how impossible it was to suppose,
under all the circumstances, that either of us had
done it. That my companion, the trusted friend
of a dozen similar expeditions, could have knowingly
had a hand in it, was a suggestion not to be entertained
for a moment. Equally absurd seemed the explanation
that this imperturbable and densely practical nature
had suddenly become insane and was busied with insane
purposes.
Yet the fact remained that what disturbed
me most, and kept my fear actively alive even in this
blaze of sunshine and wild beauty, was the clear certainty
that some curious alteration had come about in his
mind that he was nervous, timid, suspicious,
aware of goings on he did not speak about, watching
a series of secret and hitherto unmentionable events waiting,
in a word, for a climax that he expected, and, I thought,
expected very soon. This grew up in my mind intuitively I
hardly knew how.
I made a hurried examination of the
tent and its surroundings, but the measurements of
the night remained the same. There were deep hollows
formed in the sand I now noticed for the first time,
basin-shaped and of various depths and sizes, varying
from that of a tea-cup to a large bowl. The wind,
no doubt, was responsible for these miniature craters,
just as it was for lifting the paddle and tossing
it towards the water. The rent in the canoe was
the only thing that seemed quite inexplicable; and,
after all, it was conceivable that a sharp point had
caught it when we landed. The examination I made
of the shore did not assist this theory, but all the
same I clung to it with that diminishing portion of
my intelligence which I called my “reason.”
An explanation of some kind was an absolute necessity,
just as some working explanation of the universe is
necessary however absurd to
the happiness of every individual who seeks to do his
duty in the world and face the problems of life.
The simile seemed to me at the time an exact parallel.
I at once set the pitch melting, and
presently the Swede joined me at the work, though
under the best conditions in the world the canoe could
not be safe for traveling till the following day.
I drew his attention casually to the hollows in the
sand.
“Yes,” he said, “I
know. They’re all over the island.
But you can explain them, no doubt!”
“Wind, of course,” I answered
without hesitation. “Have you never watched
those little whirlwinds in the street that twist and
twirl everything into a circle? This sand’s
loose enough to yield, that’s all.”
He made no reply, and we worked on
in silence for a bit. I watched him surreptitiously
all the time, and I had an idea he was watching me.
He seemed, too, to be always listening attentively
to something I could not hear, or perhaps for something
that he expected to hear, for he kept turning about
and staring into the bushes, and up into the sky, and
out across the water where it was visible through
the openings among the willows. Sometimes he
even put his hand to his ear and held it there for
several minutes. He said nothing to me, however,
about it, and I asked no questions. And meanwhile,
as he mended that torn canoe with the skill and address
of a red Indian, I was glad to notice his absorption
in the work, for there was a vague dread in my heart
that he would speak of the changed aspect of the willows.
And, if he had noticed that, my imagination could no
longer be held a sufficient explanation of it.