When Clelia May set forth, as she
did three and four times in the week, to hurry through
the half-mile of pine woods between her house and
Sabrina Thorne’s, the family usually asked her,
with the tolerant smile accorded to old jokes, whether
she was going to see her intimate friend. Clelia
always answered from a good-natured acceptance of the
pleasantry, and went on, not in the least puzzled
by the certainty that although she was but twenty-three
and Sabrina was sixty, they were in all ways companionable.
It had begun when Clelia, a child of ten, had had a
temper-fit at home, and started out to join the Shakers.
She had met a turkey-gobbler at Sabrina’s gate,
and, ashamed to cry but too obstinate to run, had
stood in blank horror until Sabrina came out and routed
the foe. Then Sabrina had taken her in to eat
honey and spend an enchanted afternoon. After
that Sabrina’s house was the delectable land,
and Clelia fled to it when she was happy or when the
world was against her.
To-day she walked swiftly through
the warm incense of the pines. It was hot weather,
and insects vexed the ear with an unwearied trill.
But the heat of despair was greater in the girl than
any such assault. Her cheeks had each a deep
red spot. Her eyes were dark with feeling, and
on the long black lashes hung fringing drops.
She walked lightly, with springing strides. Beyond
the pine woods, in the patch of sunny road bordered
by dust-covered hardhack and elder, she paused for
a moment, to dash the tears from her eyes. There
in the open day she felt as if some prying glance
might read her grief. The woods were kinder to
it.
Sabrina’s house was at the first
turning, a gray, weather-beaten dwelling of mellow
tones, set within a generous sweep of green. It
had a garden in front. Sabrina herself was in
the garden now, weeding the balm-bed. Sometimes
Clelia thought the garden was almost too sweet after
Sabrina had been there stirring up the scents.
At least a third of it was given to herbs, and even
the touch of a skirt in passing would brush out fragrance
from it. There were things there that strangely
seemed to have no smell at all; but grown in such
rank masses, they contributed mysteriously to the
alembic of the year.
Sabrina, risen to her feet now, had
a look of youth touched by something that was not
so much age as difference. She was slender, and
still with a girl’s symmetry, the light-footed
way of moving, the little sinuous graces of a body
unspoiled and delighting in its own uses. Her
face had a rounded plumpness, and her cheeks were
pink. People said now, as they had in her youth,
that Sabrina Thorne had the skin of a baby. One
old woman, chiefly engaged in marking down human commodities,
always added that it was because of that heart trouble
Sabrina had; but nobody listened. Sabrina seemed
to have made no concession to time, save that her
waving hair was white. In its beauty and abundance,
it was a marvel. It sprang thickly up on each
side of her parting, and the soft mass of it was wound
round and round on the top of her head. She was
a beautiful being, neither old nor young.
She stood there smiling at Clelia’s approach.
“How do?” she said softly;
but when the girl was near enough to betray the trouble
of her face, she added, “Whatever is the matter?”
“Come into the house, Sabrina,”
said Clelia, in a muffled voice. “I can’t
tell it out here.”
Sabrina dropped her trowel on a heap
of weeds, and cast her gardening gloves on the top.
She led the way to the house, and when they were in
the coolness of the big sitting-room with its air of
inherited repose, she turned about and spoke again
in her round, low voice. “Well?” There
was anxiety in the tone.
Clelia, facing her, began to speak with a hard composure.
“Richmond - Richmond
Blake - ” and her voice broke.
She threw herself forward upon Sabrina’s shoulder
and clasped her with shaking hands. “He
has given me up, Sabrina,” she moaned, between
her sobs. “It is over. He has given
me up.”
Sabrina led her to the great chair
by the window, and forced her into it. Then she
knelt beside her and drew the girl’s head again
to her shoulder. She patted her cheek with little
regular beats that had a rhythmic soothing.
“There, there, dear,” she kept saying.
“There, there!”
Presently Clelia choked down her sobs,
and raised her face, tempestuous in its marks of grief.
“I’d just as soon tell
you,” she said, with a broken hardness, a composure
struggled for and then lost. “I’d
just as soon anybody would know it. I don’t
feel as if I’d any use for myself, now he don’t
prize me. Well, Sabrina, he don’t want
me any more.”
“You sure, dear?” asked Sabrina.
“You better be sure.”
“We got talking about the land,” said
Clelia, in a high voice.
“The ten-acre lot?”
“Yes. I said to him:
’There’s that man from New York. He’s
offered you two hundred dollars for it. Why don’t
you take it?’”
“What’s the man from New
York want it for?” asked Sabrina, with what
seemed a trifling irrelevance.
Clelia answered impatiently.
“I don’t know. To
build a summer cottage, I suppose. That’s
what Richmond asked me, and I said I didn’t
know. Then he said he wasn’t going to sell
till he knew what he was selling for.”
“Well, I call that kinder long-headed,
myself,” said Sabrina.
“So you might; but the New York
man went away that afternoon. ‘Well,’
says he, before he went, ‘that’s my offer.
Take it or leave it.’”
“But that’s nothing to be mad about.”
“We didn’t stop there.
I reminded Rich how far that money would go towards
building, and his jaw got set, and he said he couldn’t
help it. Then I told him I’d be switched
if ever I lived with his folks - ”
“Oh, dear, dear!” lamented
Sabrina. “You didn’t say that, did
you? Now you mustn’t, dear. You mustn’t
say things folks can’t forget.”
A gush of tears flooded the girl’s cheeks.
“Oh, I didn’t mean to!”
she cried, in the bitterness of remembering a battle
lost. “He knew I didn’t mean to.
But I got sort of crazy, Sabrina. I did.
And I told him at last - ” Her eyelids
dropped under their weight of tears.
“What did you tell him?”
“I told him he could choose between his folks
and me.”
“What did he say?”
“He said, ‘I’ll
choose now. It’s over.’ He got
up and walked out of the room. He turned at the
door. ‘It’s over, Clelia,’ says
he. ’Don’t you ever call me back,
for I sha’n’t come.’ And he
won’t. He ain’t that kind.”
“Oh, me! oh, me!” moaned Sabrina.
She, too, knew he was not that kind.
They sat in silence for a moment,
the girl looking straight before her in a dull acquiescence,
and Sabrina’s pink face settled into aging lines.
Suddenly the girl spoke sharply.
“But I can’t bear it,
Sabrina, I can’t bear it. It will kill me - if
I don’t kill myself.”
Sabrina rose slowly, and took a chair
at the other window.
“Yes,” said she, “you
can bear it. Other folks have gone through it
before you, an’ other folks will again.
It’s a kind of a sickness there’s goin’
to be as long as the earth turns round. You’ve
got to bear it.”
Her voice struck sharply, and Clelia,
called momentarily out of herself, glanced at her
with a sudden interest. For the first time since
their intimacy, Sabrina looked her age.
Little fine lines seemed to have started
out upon her cheeks and forehead. Her eyes had
the look of grief. But Clelia’s thoughts
went back at once to her own trouble. She spoke
gravely now, like an older woman.
“It’s not because we’ve
quarreled, Sabrina. I’d say I was sorry
this minute. But he wouldn’t take me back.
It shows he don’t care. If he’d cared
about me, he’d have thought ’twas a little
thing; but he’s chosen between us, and he won’t
go back.”
“Well,” said Sabrina conclusively,
“however it turns out, it’s here an’
you’ve got to face it. Clelia, I’ve
a good mind to tell you somethin’ I ain’t
ever told anybody.”
“Yes,” said Clelia indifferently,
her mind upon herself. “Yes, tell me.”
Sabrina folded her hands upon her
lap and set her gaze straight forward, and yet with
a removed look, as if she had withdrawn into the past.
“I don’t know as you ever
knew, Clelia,” she said, and Clelia at once
thought that it was as if she were reading from a book,
“but when I was about your age, I come near
bein’ married.”
“Father said you were much sought
after,” said Clelia, with a prim shyness not
like her own stormy confession. Sabrina, with
her white hair and her young face seemed somehow set
apart from love and the sweet uses of it.
“I guess he never knew about
that particular one. Nobody knew that. I
had as good a time as you’ve had, Clelia.
I liked him the same way. I’ve thought
of it, day in, day out, when I’ve seen you with
Richmond Blake. I’ve never been so near
livin’ since as I have when I’ve seen you
an’ Richmond together out in that gardin, laughin’
an’ jokin’ in amongst the flowers.
Well, he give me up, dear. He give me up.”
Her hands took a firmer hold on each
other. Her face convulsed into a deeper grief;
and Clelia, who had never seen her moved with any emotion
that concerned herself alone, gazed at her in awe,
with her own passion quieting as she confronted that
of one so old, yet living still.
“Did you - have words?” she ventured.
“No, dear, no. I guess
we couldn’t have had, I felt so humble towards
him. I never forgot a minute how good it was to
have him like me. No. There was somebody
else. You see he was terrible smart. He put
himself through college, an’ then he met her,
an’ she was just as smart as he was. Lively,
too, I guess. I never see her. But I hadn’t
anything but my good looks - I was real pretty
then. I had that an’ a kind of a way of
keepin’ house an’ makin’ folks comfortable.
Well, I found out he didn’t prize me; so I give
him his freedom. An’ he was glad, dear,
he was glad.”
She rocked back and forth for a moment,
in forgetfulness of any save the long-past moment
when she was alive.
“O Sabrina!” breathed the girl.
It recalled her. She straightened,
and resumed the habit of an ordered life.
“Now this is what I was comin’
to,” she said, “the way to bear it.
It ain’t a light thing. It’s a heavy
one. A lot o’ folks go through with it,
an’ they take it different ways. Sometimes
their minds give out. Folks say they’re
love-cracked. Sometimes they die. Yes, Clelia,
often I’ve thought that would be the easiest.
But there’s other ways.”
Clelia’s tears were dried.
She sat upright and looked at the woman opposite.
It suddenly seemed to her that she had never known
Sabrina. She had seen her nursing the sick or
in the garden, smiling over her gentle tasks; but
she had not known her. Sabrina spoke now with
authority, as if she were passing along the laws of
life into hands outstretched for them.
“When it happened to me, mother
was sick. She had creepin’ paralysis, an’
I had to be with her ’most every minute.
When I got my letter, I was in the gardin, right there
by the spearmint bed. You see I’d written
him, dear, to offer him his freedom; but I found out
afterwards I must have thought, in the bottom of my
heart, he wouldn’t take it. Well, I opened
the letter. ’Twas a hot summer day like
this. He took what I offered him, dear, - he
never knew I cared, - an’ he was pleased.
The letter showed it. I spoke out loud.
‘O God,’ I says, ’I don’t believe
it!’ Then I heard mother’s voice callin’
me. She wanted a drink o’ water. I
begun steppin’ in kind o’ blinded, to get
it for her. Seemed as if ’twas miles across
the balm-bed. ‘I mustn’t fall,’
I says to myself. ‘I mustn’t die
till mother does.’ And then somethin’
put it into my head I needn’t believe it nor
I needn’t give up to it, not till mother died.
Then ’twould be time enough to know I’d
got a broken heart.”
It almost seemed as if she had never
faced her grief before. She abandoned herself
to the savor of it, the girl forgotten.
“Well, mother died, an’
that night after the funeral I set down by the window
where I’m settin’ now an’ says, ‘Now
I can think it over.’ But I knew as well
as anything ever was that when I faced it ’twould
take away my reason. So I says, ’Mother’s
things have got to be put away. I’ll wait
till then.’ So I packed up her things, an’
sent ’em to her sister out West. Some o’
her common ones ’t I’d seen her wear, I
burnt up, so ’t nobody shouldn’t have
’em. I put her old bunnit into the kitchen
stove, an’ I can see the cover goin’ down
on it now. ’Twas thirty-eight year ago
this very summer. Then says I, ‘I’ll
face it.’ But old Abner Lake had a shock,
an’ there wa’n’t nobody to take care
of him less’n they sent him to the town farm,
an’ folks said he cried night an’ day,
knowin’ what was before him. So I had him
moved over here, an’ I tended him till he died.
An’ so ‘twas with one an’ another.
It begun to seem as if folks needed somebody that
hadn’t anything of her own to keep her; an’
then, spells between their wantin’ me, I’d
say, ’I won’t face it till I’ve
cleaned the house,’ or ‘till I’ve
got the gardin made.’ An’, Clelia,
that was the grief that was goin’ to conquer
me, if I’d faced it; an’ I ain’t
faced it yet! I ain’t believed it!”
A sense of her own youth and her sharp
sorrow came at once upon the girl, and she cried out:
“I’ve got to face it.
It won’t let me do anything else. It’s
here, Sabrina. I couldn’t help feeling
it, if I killed myself trying.”
Sabrina’s face softened exquisitely.
“I guess ’tis here,”
she said tenderly. “I guess you do feel
it. But, dearie, there’s lots of folks
walkin’ round doin’ their work with their
hearts droppin’ blood all the time. Only
you mustn’t listen to it. You just say,
‘I’ll do the things I’ve got to do,
an’ I’ll fix my mind on ‘em.
I won’t cry till to-morrow.’ An’
when to-morrow comes, you say the same.”
Clelia set her mouth in a piteous
conformity. But it quivered back.
“I guess you think I’m
a coward, Sabrina,” she said. “Well,
I’ll do the best I can. Maybe if ’twas
fall I could get a school, and set my mind on that.
I can help mother, but she’d rather manage things
herself.”
Sabrina bent forward, with an eager gesture.
“Dear, there’s lots o’
things,” she said. “The earth’s
real pretty. You concern yourself with that.
You say, ’I won’t give up till I’ve
seen the apple-blows once more. I won’t
give up till I’ve got the rose-bugs off’n
the vines.’ An’ every night says you
to yourself, ’I won’t cry till to-morrow.’”
Clelia rose heavily.
“You’re real good, Sabrina,”
she said. Then she added, in a shy whisper, “And
I - I won’t ever tell.”
“You sit right down,”
returned Sabrina vigorously, rising as she said it.
“I’ll bring you the peas to shell.
They’re late ones, an’ they’re good.
You stay, an’ this afternoon we’ll go out
an’ pick the elderberries down on the cross-road.
I’ve got to have some wine.”
That week and the next Clelia made
herself listlessly busy, and Sabrina was away, nursing
a child who was sick of a fever. Clelia was pondering
now on her own hurt, now on the story her friend had
told her. It seemed like a soothing alternation
of grief, sometimes in the pitiless sun-glare of her
own loss, and again walking in a darkened yet fragrant
valley where the other woman had lived for many years.
But on an evening of the third week, she had news
that sent her speeding through the Half-Mile Road
and in at the door where Sabrina sat resting after
a hard day. Clelia was breathless.
“Sabrina,” she cried,
“Sabrina, Richmond’s mother’s sick
and he’s away. He’s gone to New York,
and she’s left all alone with aunt Lucindy.”
“What’s the matter with
her?” asked Sabrina, coming to her feet and
beginning to smooth her hair.
“She’s feverish, and aunt
Lucindy says she’s been shaking with the cold.”
“You sent for the doctor?”
Sabrina was doing up a little bundle
of her night-clothes that had lain on the chair beside
her while she rested.
“No.”
“Well, you do that, straight
off. An’ when he comes, he’ll tell
you what to do an’ you do it.”
“Can’t you go, Sabrina?
Can’t you go? Aunt Lucindy wanted you.”
“No,” said Sabrina, tying
on her hat, and taking up her bundle. “I
only come to pick me up a few things. That little
creatur’ may not live the night out. But
I’ll walk along with you, an’ step in an’
see how things seem.”
Once only in the Half-Mile walk did
they speak, and then Clelia broke forth throbbingly
to the accompaniment of a sudden color in her cheeks.
“I don’t know as I want
to go into Richmond’s house when he’s away,
now we’re not the same.”
“Don’t make any difference
whether it’s Richmond’s house or whether
it ain’t, if there’s sickness,”
returned Sabrina briefly. But at the doorstone
she paused a moment, to add with some recurrence of
the intensity the girl had seen in her that other
day: “Ain’t you glad you got somethin’
to do for him? Ain’t you glad?
You go ahead an’ do what you can, an’
call yourself lucky you’ve got it to do.”
And Clelia very humbly did it.
Then it was another week, and the two friends had
not met; but again at twilight Clelia took her walk,
and this time she found Sabrina stretched out on the
lounge of the sitting-room. There was a change
in her. Pallor had settled upon her face, and
her dark eyebrows and lashes stood out startlingly
upon the ashen mask. Clelia hurried up to her
and knelt beside the couch.
“What is it, Sabrina?” she whispered.
“What is it?”
Sabrina opened her eyes. She
smiled languidly, and the girl, noting the patience
of her face, was thrilled with fear.
“How’s Richmond’s mother?”
asked Sabrina.
“Better. She’s sitting
up. I sha’n’t be there any more.
He’s coming home to-night.”
“Richmond?”
“Yes. The doctor said there
wasn’t any need of sending for him, and I’m
glad we didn’t, now. Sabrina, what’s
the matter?”
“I had one of my heart-spells,
that’s all,” said Sabrina gently.
“There, don’t you go to lookin’
like that.”
“What made you, Sabrina? What made you?”
Sabrina hesitated.
“Well,” she said, at length,
“I guess I got kinder startled. Deacon
Tolman run in an’ told what kind of doin’s
there was goin’ to be to-morrow. He was
full of it, an’ he blurted it all out to once.”
“About Senator Gilman coming?”
“Yes.”
“And their trimming up the hall
for him to speak in, and his writing on it was his
boyhood’s home and he shouldn’t die happy
unless he’d come back and seen it once more?”
“Yes. That’s about it.”
“Well,” said Clelia, in
slow wonder, “I don’t see what there was
about that to give anybody a heart-spell.”
Sabrina looked at her for a moment
in sharp questioning, followed by relief.
“No,” she said softly,
“no. But I guess I got kinder startled.”
“I’m going to stay with
you,” said Clelia tenderly. “I’ll
stay all night.”
“There’s a good girl.
Now there’s somebody round, I guess maybe I could
drop off to sleep.”
At first Clelia was not much alarmed;
for though Sabrina was known to have heart-spells,
she always came out of them and went on her way with
the same gentle impregnability. But in the middle
of the night, she suddenly woke Clelia sleeping on
the lounge beside her, by saying in a clear tone: -
“Wouldn’t it be strange, Clelia?”
“Wouldn’t what be strange?” asked
the girl, instantly alert.
“Wouldn’t it be strange
if anybody put off their sorrow all their lives long,
an’ then died before they got a chance to give
way to it?”
“Sabrina, you thinking about those things?”
“Never mind,” answered
Sabrina soothingly. “I guess I waked up
kinder quick.”
But again, after she had had a sinking
spell, and Clelia had given her some warming drops,
she said half-shyly, “Clelia, maybe you’ll
think I’m a terrible fool; but if I should pass
away, there’s somethin’ I should like
to have you do.”
Clelia knelt beside her, and put her
wet cheek down on the little roughened hand.
“There was that city boarder
I took care of, the summer she gi’n out down
here,” went on Sabrina dreamily. “I
liked her an’ I liked her clo’es.
They were real pretty. She see I liked ’em,
an’ what should she do when she went back home,
but send me a blue silk wrapper all lace and ribbins,
just like hers, only nicer. It’s in that
chist. I never’ve wore it. But
if I should be taken away - I ’most
think I’d like to have it put on me.”
The cool summer dawn was flowing in
at the window. The solemnity of the hour moved
Clelia like the strangeness of the time. It hushed
her to composure.
“I will,” she promised.
“If you should go before me, I’ll do everything
you want. Now you get some sleep.”
But after Sabrina had shut her eyes
and seemed to be drowsing off, she opened them to
say, this time with an imperative strength: -
“But don’t you let it spile their good
time.”
“Whose, Sabrina?”
“The doin’s they’re
goin’ to have in the hall. If I should go
in the midst of it, don’t you tell no more’n
you can help. But I guess I can live through
one day anyways.”
That forenoon she was a little brighter,
as one may be with the mounting sun, and Clelia, disregarding
all entreaties to see the “doings” at the
hall, took faithful care of her. But in the late
afternoon while she sat beside the bed and Sabrina
drowsed, there was a clear whistle very near.
It sounded like a quail outside the window. Clelia
flushed red. The sick woman, opening her eyes,
saw how she was shaking.
“What is it, dear?” she asked.
“It’s Richmond,”
said Clelia, in a full, moved voice. “It’s
his whistle.”
“You go out to him, dear,”
urged Sabrina, as if she could not say it fast enough.
“You hurry.”
And Clelia went, trembling.
When she came back, half an hour later,
she walked like a goddess breathing happiness and
pride.
“O Sabrina!” She sank
down by the bedside and put her head beside Sabrina’s
cheek. “He was there in the garden.
He kissed me right in sight of the road. If ’t
had been in the face and eyes of everybody, it couldn’t
have made any difference. ‘You took care
of mother,’ he said. ‘I like your
mother,’ I said. ’I’d like to
live with her - and aunt Lucindy.’
And he said then, Sabrina, he said then, ‘We
sha’n’t have to.’ And Sabrina,
he’s been on to New York to see if he could find
out anything about the railroad that’s going
through to save stopping at the Junction; and he saw
Senator Gilman, and that’s how the senator came
down here. He got talking with Richmond, old times
and all, and he just wanted to come. And the
railroad’s going through the ten-acre pasture,
and Richmond’ll get a lot of money.”
Sabrina’s hand rested on the girl’s head.
“There, dear,” she said
movingly. “Didn’t I tell you?
Don’t cry till to-morrow, an’ maybe you
won’t have to then.”
Clelia sat up, wiping her eyes and laughing.
“That isn’t all,” she said.
“Senator Gilman wants to see you.”
“Me!”
Sabrina rose and sat upright in bed.
The color flooded her pale cheeks. Her eyes dilated.
“Yes. He told Richmond
you used to go to school together, and he’s
coming down here on his way to the train. And
sick or well, he said, you’d got to see him.”
Sabrina had put one shaking hand to
her hair. “It’s turned white,”
she whispered.
But Clelia did not hear her.
She had opened the chest at the foot of the bed, and
taken out a soft package delicately wrapped. She
pulled out a score of pins and shook the shimmering
folds of the blue dress. Then she glanced at
Sabrina still sitting there, the color flooding her
cheeks again with their old pinkness.
“Oh!” breathed Clelia,
in rapture at the dress, and again at the sweet rose-bloom
in Sabrina’s face. Then she calmed herself,
remembering this was a sick chamber, though every
moment the airs of life seemed entering. She
brought the dress to the bedside. “You put
your arm in, Sabrina,” she coaxed.
Sabrina did it. She moved in
a daze, and presently she was lying in her bed clothed
in blue and white, her soft hair piled above her head,
and her eyes wide with some unconfessed emotion.
But to Clelia, she was accustomed to look vivid; life
was her portion always. The girl sped out of
the room, and came back presently, her arms full of
summer flowers, tiger-lilies, larkspur, monkshood,
and herbs that, being bruised, gave out odors.
Sabrina’s eyes questioned her. Clelia tossed
the flowers in a heap on the table.
“What you doin’ that for?” asked
Sabrina.
“I don’t know,”
answered the girl, in a whisper. “There’s
no time to put ’em in water. I want to
have things pretty, that’s all. You take
your drops, dear. They’ve come.”
But Sabrina lay there, an image of
beauty in a sea of calm.
“I don’t want any drops,”
she said. “I shouldn’t think o’
dyin’ now.”
Clelia went out, and presently Sabrina
heard her young voice with its note of happiness.
“In this way, sir,” she
was saying. “Yes, Rich, you stay in the
garden. I’ll be there.”
Senator Gilman, bowing his head under
the low lintel, was coming in. He walked up to
the bedside, and Sabrina’s eyes appraised him.
He was a remarkable-looking man, with the flowing
profile of a selected type, and thick gray hair tossed
back from his fine forehead. He sat down by her.
“Well, Bina,” said he.
This was not the voice that had filled
the hall that morning or jovially greeted townsmen
all the afternoon. It was gently adapted to her
state, and Sabrina quieted under its friendliness.
“Couldn’t go away without
seeing you,” said Senator Gilman. “They
told me you were sick. I said to myself, ’She’ll
see me. She’ll know ’twould spoil
my visit, if I had to go away without it.’”
Sabrina was looking him sweetly in
the face, and smiling at him.
“How much time you got?” she asked, like
a child.
He took out his watch.
“My train is at five forty-five,” he said.
“Then you talk fast.”
“What you want to know?” asked her friend.
He had fallen into homely ways of speech, to fit the
time.
“You’ve done real well, ain’t you?”
asked Sabrina eagerly.
The senator nodded.
“I have, Bina,” said he.
“I have. I’ve made money, and I own
a grown-up son. He’s got all the best of
me and the best of all of us, as far back as I can
remember - and none of the worst. I’ll
send him down here to see you.”
“He must be smart,” said Sabrina.
“I’ve read his book.”
“You have? Didn’t
know there was a copy in town. Nobody else here
has heard of it.”
“I see it noticed in the paper.
I sent for it. I never spoke of it to anybody.
I guess I was pretty mean. Folks borrow books,
an’ then they don’t keep ’em nice.”
“Bina, you’re a dear.
They’ve been telling me how you take care of
the whole town. Richmond Blake - he’s
a likely fellow; he’ll get on - he said
you were the prettiest woman in the township.
Said his father told him you were the prettiest girl.”
Sabrina’s little capable right
hand went out and drew the sheet over her blue draperies
up to her chin.
“You’re not cold?”
asked the senator solicitously; but she shook her
head and answered: -
“You’ve seen foreign countries, ain’t
you?”
“Yes. I’ve seen India
and I’ve seen the Pyramids. I thought about
you those times, Bina - how we recited together
in geography; and I was the one that went and you
were the one to stay at home. But near as I can
make out, you’ve carried the world on your shoulders
down here, while I’ve tried to do the same thing
somewhere else - and not so well, Bina - not
so well.”
Her sweet face clouded. She was
jealous of even a hint of failure for him.
“But you’ve come out pretty
fair?” she hesitated anxiously.
“Pretty fair, Bina. It’s
been a good old world. I’ve enjoyed it,
and I don’t know as I shall want to leave it.
But now I feel as if I were working for the next generation.
The little I’ve done I can pass over to my son,
and I hope he’ll do more.”
He laid his hand on the garnered sweets
beside him. The herbs were uppermost. “Spearmint!”
he said. Sabrina nodded, and he ate a leaf.
Then one after another he took up the herbs, southernwood
and all, and bruised them to get their separate fragrance.
It was a keen pleasure to him, and Sabrina saw it
and blessed Clelia in her heart. Presently he
sat back in his chair and regarded her musingly.
A softened look came into his eyes. A smile,
all sweetness, overspread his face. It gave him
his boyhood’s mien.
“I’ll tell you what, Bina,”
he said, “in that first rough-and-tumble before
I made my way, you did me a lot of good.”
Sabrina lay and looked at him.
Even her eyes had a still solemnity.
“You wrote me a little note.”
More color surged into her face, but she did not stir.
“I was pretty ambitious then,”
he went on musingly. “My wife was ambitious,
too. That was before we were engaged, you understand.
We got kind of carried away by people and money and
honors - that kind of thing, you know.
Well, that little note, Bina. There wasn’t
anything particular in it, except at the end you said,
’I sha’n’t ever forget to hope you
will be good.’ It was queer, but it made
me feel kind of responsible to you. I thought
of you down here in your garden, and - well,
I don’t know, Bina. I showed that note
to my wife, and she said, ’Bina must be a dear.’”
Sabrina’s eyes questioned him.
“Yes,” he said frankly.
“She’s a dear, too - only different.
It’s been all right, Bina.”
“Ain’t that good!” she whispered
happily. “I’m glad.”
He had pulled out his watch, and at
that moment Richmond’s voice sounded clearer,
as the two out there in the garden came to summon him.
“By George!” said Greenleaf Gilman, “I’ve
got to go.”
He rose, and took her hand. He
stood there for a moment, holding it, and they looked
at each other in a faithful trust.
“You take some southernwood,”
counseled Sabrina, and he laid her hand gently down,
to select his posy.
“I wish your wife could have
some,” Sabrina went on, in a wistful eagerness,
“I don’t seem to have a thing to send her.”
“I’ll tell her all about
it,” said her friend. “I’ll
tell her you’re a dear still, only more so.
She’ll understand. Good-by, Bina.”
When his carriage had left the gate,
and Clelia came in with that last look of her lover
still mirrored in her eyes, Sabrina lay there floating
in her sea of happiness.
“Why, dear,” said the
girl, drawing the sheet down from the hidden finery.
“You cold?”
“I guess not,” said Sabrina, smiling up
at her.
“Did you keep that pretty lace all covered up?
What made you, Sabrina?”
“I don’t know ’s
I could tell exactly,” said Sabrina, in her gentle
voice. “Now, dear, I’m goin’
to get this off an’ have my clo’es.
I’m better.”
“You do feel better, don’t you?”
assented Clelia joyously, helping her.
That night they supped together at
the table, and when the dusk had fallen and Sabrina
sat by the window breathing in the evening cool, she
said shyly, like a bride: -
“Don’t you see, dear,
sometimes we put off grief an’ we don’t
need to have it after all.”
“I see about me,” said
the girl tenderly, “but I don’t see as
anything pleasant has happened to you.”
“Why,” said Sabrina, in
a voice so full and sweet that for the moment it seemed
not to be her own hesitating note, “I’ve
had more happiness than most folks have in their whole
life. I’ve had all there is.”