“I guess I shall fetch it,” said Newell
Bond.
He was sitting on the doorstep, in
the summer dusk, with Dorcas Lee. She knew just
how his gaunt, large-featured face looked, with its
hawk-like glance, and the color, as he spoke, mounting
to his forehead. There were two kinds of Bonds,
the red and the black. The red Bonds had the name
of carrying out their will in all undertakings, and
Newell was one. Dorcas was on the step above
him, her splendid shoulders disdaining the support
of the casing, and her head, with its heavy braids,
poised with an unconscious pride, no more spirited
by daylight than here in the dark where no one saw.
She answered in her full, rich voice: -
“Of course you will, if you want to bad enough.”
“If I want to?” repeated
Newell. “Ain’t I acted as if ’twas
the one thing I did want?”
Over and over they had dwelt upon
the great purpose of his life, sometimes to touch
it here and there with delicate implication, and often
to sit down, by an unspoken consent, for long, serious
talks. To-night Newell spoke from a reminiscent
mood. There were times when, in an ingenuous
egoism, he had to take down the book of his romance
and read a page. But only to Dorcas. She
was his one confidant; she understood.
“I don’t know ’s
Alida’s to blame,” he meditated. “She’s
made that way.”
Immediately Dorcas, in her sympathetic
mind, was regarding a picture of Alida Roe as she
saw her without illusion of passion or prejudice - a
delicate, pale girl with a sweet complexion, and slender
hands that were ever trembling upon fine work for
her own adornment. She had known Alida at school
and at home, in dull times and bright, and she had
a vision, when her name was mentioned, of something
as frail as cobwebs, with all their beauty. Whenever
Newell Bond had begun to sound the praises of his
chosen maid, she had set her mind seriously to considering
what he could see in Alida. But it was never
of any use. Alida always remained to her impalpable
and vain. Now she answered patiently, according
to her wont: -
“Of course she’s made that way.”
It was like a touch to keep the machinery going, and
he responded: -
“You see, I hadn’t asked
her to set the day. It was kind of understood
between us. An’ then Clayton Rand come along
an’ begun to shine up to her, spendin’
money like water, an’ her mother was bewitched
by it. So she orders Alida to throw me over an’
take up with t’other man. I don’t
know ’s Alida’s to blame.”
“Do you s’pose they’re engaged?”
asked Dorcas, for the hundredth time.
He was silent for a moment, brooding.
Then he answered, as he always did: -
“That’s more’n I
can make out. But if they are, I’ll break
it. Give me time enough, an’ I’ll
do it when they’re walkin’ into the meetin’-house,
if I don’t afore.”
Dorcas felt old and tired. All
her buoyant life seemed to settle to a level where
she must foster the youth of others and starve her
own.
“Well,” she said gently,
“you’ve done pretty well this year, sellin’
house-lots an’ all.”
“I’ve done well this year
an’ I’m goin’ to keep on,”
said Newell, in that dogged way he had. Often
it heartened her, but never when it touched upon his
weary chase. Then it seemed to her like some rushing
force that should be used to turn a mill, wandering
away into poor meadows, to be dried and lost.
But he was ending as he always did: “Clayton
Rand won’t marry so long ’s his mother’s
alive, no matter how much money he’s got.
An’ while Alida’s waitin’ for him,
I’ll lay up what I can, an’ I bet you
I get her yet.”
“You goin’ to pick peas in the mornin’?”
asked Dorcas.
She had heard the clock striking,
and it counseled her to remember how early their days
began.
Newell came out of his dream.
“Yes,” he said, “that patch down
the river road. I guess we can get off ten bushels
or more by the afternoon train.”
“All right,” said Dorcas. “I’ll
be there.”
“You mustn’t walk down.
I’m goin’ t’other way myself, but
I’ll hitch up Jim, an’ you can leave him
in the old barn till you come home.”
“No,” said Dorcas, rising.
“I’ll walk. I’d rather by half
than have the care of him. Maybe I’ll catch
a ride, too.”
They said good-night, and Newell was
walking down the path where clove-pinks were at their
sweetest, when he turned to speak again. Dorcas,
forgetful of him, had stretched her arms upward in
a yawn that seemed to envelop the whole of her.
As she stood there in the moonlight, her tall figure
loomed like that of a priestess offering worship.
She might have been chanting an invocation to the
night. The man, regarding her, was startled,
he did not know why. In that instant she seemed
to him something mysterious and grand, something belonging
to the night itself, and he went away with his question
unasked. Dorcas, her yawn finished, went in to
think of him, as she always did, in the few luxurious
moments before she slept. But her nights were
always dreamless. She had the laborer’s
tired muscles and acquiescent nerves.
It was two years now since she and
Newell had become, in a sense, partners. An affliction
had fallen upon each of them at about the same time,
and, through what seemed chance, they had stretched
out a hand each to steady the other, and gone on together.
It was then that Dorcas’s mother had had her
first paralytic stroke, and Dorcas had given up the
district school to be at home. But she was poor,
and when it became apparent that her mother might
live in helpless misery, it was also evident that
Dorcas must have something to do. At that time
Newell, under the first cloud of disappointed love,
had launched into market-gardening, and he gave Dorcas
little tasks, here and there, picking fruit and vegetables,
even weeding and hoeing, because that would leave
her within call of home, where a little girl sat daily
on guard. Newell lived alone, with old Kate to
do his work, and soon it became an established custom
for Dorcas to cook savory dishes for him, on the days
when Kate’s aching joints kept her smoking and
grumbling by the fire. In a thousand ways she
unconsciously slipped into his life, with his accounts,
his house purchases, and the work of his fields; and
the small sums he paid her kept bread in her mother’s
mouth.
And now her mother had died, but Dorcas
still kept on. She had no school yet, she told
herself excusingly; but a self she would not hear knew
how intently she was fighting Newell’s own particular
battle with him, how she watched here and there lest
a penny be spilled and his road be made the longer
to the goal he fixed. She was quite willing to
consider breaking up Alida’s intimacy with the
other man, because, to her dispassionate mind, Alida
was of no account in the world of feeling. She
might have her mild preferences, but if Newell could
give her muslin dresses and plated pins, he would
suit her excellently. And Newell wanted her.
As for Clayton Rand, he would be none the poorer, lacking
her. She had thought it all out, and she was sure
she knew.
The next morning, dressed in brown,
the color of the earth she worked in, Dorcas stepped
out into the dewy world and closed her door behind
her. It was a long walk to the field. For
some unguessed reason she had been heavy-hearted at
rising; but now the pure look of the early day refreshed
her and she went on cheerfully. Since her mother’s
death life had seemed to her all a maze where she
could find few certainties. She had no ties,
no duties, save the general ones to neighborhood and
church, and her loneliness now and then rose before
her like something inexorable and vast, and would
be looked at. Perhaps that was why she had thrown
herself whole-souled into Newell’s willful quest,
though at moments she longed to strangle it with passion
fiercer than its own; and why she wondered just what
she could do after the desire of his heart had flowered
and Alida was his wife.
As she walked along, she held her
head very high, and carried her hat in her hand, leaving
the sun to strike upon her shining braids and light
them to a gloss. For the moment she was unreasonably
happy, forgetful of the past, and aware only of the
sunlight on green fields. Then suddenly she found
that a light wagon had drawn up and Clayton Rand was
asking her to ride. She looked at him one quick
instant before she answered. She had known him
when they were both children and he came to spend the
summer a mile away, and sometimes, for fun, went to
the district school. Since then they had kept
up a recognized acquaintance, but this was the first
time in years that they had spoken together. He
was a heavy-faced young man, with rough-looking clothes
of a correct cut, and a suggested taste in dogs and
horses.
“Ride?” he asked again,
and Dorcas smiled at him out of many thoughts.
She could not have whispered them to herself perhaps;
but they all concerned Newell and his daily lack.
Clayton saw the pretty lifting of her red lip above
her small white teeth, and, being a young man ready
to leap at desired conclusions, instantly thought
of kissing.
“I can’t be mistaken,”
he said elaborately. “This is Miss Dorcas
Lee.”
Dorcas put her foot on the step and
seated herself beside him. Then, surprised at
his success, because she had looked to him like a proud
person, though in a working-gown, he began a wandering
apology for having failed to help her in. Meantime
he touched up the beautiful sorrel, and when they
began to fly along the road, and the sorrel’s
golden mane was tossing, Dorcas had a brief smiling
concurrence with Alida. To speed like that was
perhaps worth the company of Clayton Rand. He
was talking to her, and she answered him demurely,
with a dignity not reassuring from one of her large
type and regal air. But presently he began, by
some inner cleverness (for he had a way with him),
to tell her stories about horses, and Dorcas listened,
wide-eyed with pleasure. The way to the knoll
was very short, and there she had to stop in the midst
of a racing story that had the movement of the race
itself, and bid him leave her. This time he remembered
his manners, and leaped out to help her gallantly.
“Miss Dorcas,” he called
her back after her pretty thanks, “I suppose - I
don’t half dare to ask you - but you
like horses. Just let me take you over to the
Country Club to-morrow, and we can see the racing.”
For the space of a second, Dorcas
gazed at the toe of her patched working-boots.
She was thinking, in a confused tangle, of Alida and
Newell, and wondering if she had any clothes to wear.
Then she lifted her head quickly in a resolution that
looked like triumph.
“Thank you,” she said,
with a shyness very charming in one of her large type;
“I should be happy to.”
“Thank you,” said
Clayton, jumping into the wagon. “I’ll
be along about half-past one.”
All that day Dorcas bent over the
pea-vines and listened to her thoughts. There
were other pickers, but she had no words for them,
even when they sat down together for their luncheon,
nor for Newell himself, coming at night to take her
home.
“You’re real tired, I
guess,” he said, as he left her at the gate.
Dorcas flashed a sudden smile at him.
It was all mirth and mischief.
“No,” she said soberly, “I don’t
believe I’m tired.”
“I’m goin’ to Fairfax
to see about sellin’ the colt to-morrow,”
said Newell, from the wagon.
Dorcas nodded.
“Maybe I’ll take a day
off myself,” she said. “I’ll
be on hand next-day mornin’, if you want anything
picked. Good-night.”
That evening at ten Newell was driving
home from the village, and he marked her light in
the kitchen. He stopped, vaguely uneasy, and walked
up the path to the side door, and as he came he saw
the shades go down.
“Dorcas!” he called, at the door, “it’s
me, Newell.”
Then he heard her hurrying steps.
But instead of opening the door to him she pushed
the bolt softly, and he heard her voice in an inexplicable
mixture of laughter and confusion.
“I’m real sorry, Newell,
but I can’t let you in. I’m awful
sorry.”
“All right,” he said bluffly,
turning away, yet conscious of a tiny hurt of pained
surprise. “Nothin’ wrong, is there?”
“No,” came the laughing
voice again, “there’s nothin’ wrong.”
“That’s all I wanted to
know,” he explained, as he went down the path.
“Seein’ the light so late - ”
And again the voice followed him.
“Yes, Newell, I’m all right.”
Dorcas, an hour after, at her table
ironing the dotted muslin she had washed and dried
before the fire, laughed out again. She had a
new sense of triumph, like a bloom upon the purpose
of her life. At last she saw before her a path
quite distinct from the dull duties of every day.
When Clayton Rand drove up with his
pair of sleek horses and the shining rig that was
admired by all the town, she went out and down the
path very shyly, and with a blushing sedateness becoming
to her. Clayton saw it, and his heart leaped
with the vanity of knowing she was moved because of
him. But the cause was otherwise. Dorcas
knew her hair was beautiful, and that her skin, in
spite of its tan, was sweetly pink; but she also knew
that the fashion of her sleeves was two years old,
and that no earthly power could bring the gloss of
youth to her worn shoes again. So she blushed
and shrank a little, like a bride, and Clayton, who
saw only that her skirts fluttered airily and her hat
was trimmed with something soft and white, straightway
forgot all the girls he had ever seen, and wondered
if his mother could fail to approve such worth as
this. And then again he began to talk about horses,
and Dorcas began, in her rapt way, to listen, and
put in a keen word here and there. Alida, she
knew, had one idea of horses: that they were four-legged
creatures likely to run away, or to bite your fingers
if you gave them grass. It was easy to compete
with her there, and also because Dorcas really did
love animals and need not pretend.
It was a beautiful day at the races.
There were all sorts of magnificent turnouts, and
ladies dressed in raiment such as Dorcas had never
even imagined. She innocently fancied Clayton
must know any number of them, and grew very humbly
grateful to him for troubling himself about her.
When she suggested that he must have many friends among
them, he laughed with an amused candor, and told her
they were gentry, a cut above. Yet Dorcas continued
to believe he might have consorted with them, if he
chose, and her manner to him had a softer friendliness
because he was so kind. And when she could forget
her old-fashioned gown, she was quite childishly content.
At the gate that night he thanked her profusely for
the pleasure of her company, and added, boldly: -
“Won’t you go to ride a little ways to-morrow
night?”
A sudden shyness made her retreat
a step, as if in definite withdrawal. It was
like a flower’s closing.
“Maybe not to-morrow,”
she hesitated. It seemed to her the events she
had moved were rushing, of themselves, too fast.
“Next day, then,” he called.
“I’ll be along about seven. Good-night.”
And Dorcas went in to think over her
day and dream again, not so much of that as of the
desire she was fulfilling for another man.
At that time Newell was very busy
over questions of real estate. He had bought,
two years before, the whole slope of Sunset Hill, overlooking
three townships and the sea, and now city residents
had found out the spot and were trying to secure it.
That prospect of immediate riches drew his mind away
from his gardening. He forgot the patient things
that were growing silently to earn him his desire,
and only gave orders in the morning to his two men
before he drove away to talk about land. Even
Dorcas he forgot, save as a man remembers his accustomed
staff leaning against the wall till he shall need
it. But he has no anxiety about it, for he knows
it will be there.
Dorcas hardly missed him, for she,
too, had new ways to walk. Clayton Rand came
often now. He seemed to be fascinated, perhaps
by her beauty and the simplicity of her mien, and
perhaps by the dignity of her undefended state.
She never asked him into her house, though she would
drive and walk with him. Her strength, that summer,
seemed to her boundless. She could work all day
and sit up half the night sewing old finery or washing
and ironing it, and then she could sleep dreamlessly
for two or three hours, and wake to work again and
drive with Clayton Rand in the evening. It seemed
to her at times as if that life would go on breathlessly
forever, and then again she knew it would not go on;
for she had planned the end toward which it was tending,
and the end was almost there.
One afternoon, as she came home from
her work flushed and covered with dust, yet looking
like an earth-queen in her triumphant health, she had
to pass Alida’s house, and Alida’s mother
was waiting for her by the gate. As Dorcas came
on swiftly, she had a thought that Alida was not very
wise, or she would keep her lovers away from Mrs. Roe.
The mother and daughter were too much alike.
The older woman was a terrible prophecy. The
fairness of youth had faded in her into a soft ivory,
her hair was a yellow wisp tightly coiled, and her
mouth drooped in a meagre discontent. She regarded
Dorcas frowningly from sharp eyes, and Dorcas stepped
more proudly. She had fancied this onslaught might
await her.
“Dorcas Lee!” called the woman sharply.
“Dorcas Lee!”
Then, as Dorcas stopped, in a calm
inquiry, the woman went on rushingly, all the words
she had not meant to say tumbling forth as she had
thought them.
“Dorcas Lee, what are you carryin’
on for, the way you be, with Clayton Rand? There
ain’t a decent girl in town would step in an’
ketch anybody up like that. You’ll get
yourself talked about, if you ain’t now.
I was a friend to your mother an’ I’m
a friend to you, an’ now I’ve gone out
o’ my way to give you warnin’.”
Dorcas looked past her up the garden
walk and at the porch where Alida sat rocking back
and forth, her hands busy as ever with her delicate
work.
“Alida!” she called softly.
“’Lida, you come here a minute. I
want to speak to you.”
Alida laid down her work with care
and placed her thimble in the basket. Then she
came along the garden path, swaying and floating as
she always walked, her pretty head moving rhythmically.
“’Lida, you come a step
or two with me,” said Dorcas gently, when the
girl was at the gate. “I want to speak to
you.”
Alida opened the gate and, without
a glance at her mother, stepped out upon the dusty
path. People said Mrs. Roe talked so much that
everybody had long ago done listening to her, and
perhaps she had done expecting it.
“You’d ought to have suthin’
over your head,” she called to Alida. “You’ll
be ’s black as an Injun.”
Dorcas took a long stride into the
roadside tangle and broke off a branch of thick-leaved
elder. She gave it to Alida, and the girl gravely
shaded herself with it from the defacing sun.
They walked along together in silence for a moment,
and Dorcas frankly studied Alida’s face.
There was no sign of grief upon it, of loneliness,
of discontent. The skin was like a rose, a fainter,
pinker rose than Dorcas had ever seen. The soft
lips kept their lovely curve.
“‘Lida,” she breathed, “what
you goin’ to do to-night?”
“I don’t know,”
said Alida, in her even voice. “Sometimes
I sew, when it ain’t too hot. I’m
makin’ me a dotted muslin.”
Dorcas found her own heart beating
fast. The excitement of it all, of life itself,
the bliss, the pain and loss, came keenly on her.
She thought of the days that had gone to buying this
thing of prettiness, the strained muscles, the racing
blood and thrilling brain, the sweat and toil of it,
and something choked her to think that now the pretty
thing was almost won. Newell would have it, his
heart’s desire, and in thirty years perhaps
it would look like Alida’s mother with that shallow
mouth. Yet her simple faithfulness was a part
of her own blood, and she could not deny him what
was his.
“Alida,” she said, in
an eloquent throb, “do you - do you
like him?”
“Who?” asked Alida calmly, turning clear
eyes upon her.
Dorcas laughed shamefacedly.
“I don’t know hardly what
I’m talkin’ about,” she said.
“I’ve worked pretty hard to-day.
’Lida, if there was anybody you liked, anybody
you want to talk things over with - well” - she
paused to laugh a little - “well, if
I were you, I should just put on my blue dress, the
one with the pink rosebuds, an’ walk along this
road down to the pine grove an’ back again.”
“The idea!” said Alida,
from an unbroken calm. “I should think you
were crazy.”
Dorcas stopped in the road, decisively,
as if the moment had come for them to part.
“That’s what I should
do, ’Lida,” she said, “to-night,
every night along about eight, till it happens.
An’ I should wear my blue.”
Alida turned away, as if she felt
something unmaidenly in the suggestion and might well
remove herself; yet Dorcas knew she would remember.
They had separated, and when they were a dozen paces
apart, Dorcas called again: -
“’Lida!”
Alida turned. Again Dorcas spoke
shyly, from the weight of her great task.
“‘Lida, Newell Bond’s
sellin’ off Sunset Hill. He’s doin’
well for himself.”
“Is he?” returned Alida
primly. “I hadn’t heard of it.”
Then she turned and, keeping her feet carefully from
the dust, went on again.
It seemed to Dorcas that night as
if she could not wait to finish the bowl of bread
and milk that made her supper, and to put on her white
muslin and seat herself by the window. She felt
as if the world were rushing fast, the flowers in
the garden hurrying to open, the sun to get into the
sky and make it redder than ever it had been before,
and all happy people to be happier. Something
seemed sweeping after her, and she dared not turn
and look it in the face. But her heart told her
it was the moment that would come after her work had
been accomplished and Newell had found Alida.
As if she had known it would be so, she saw him coming
down the road and called to him. He was walking
very fast, his head up, and his hands, she presently
saw, clenched as they swung.
“Newell!” she cried, “come in.”
He strode up the path and she rose
to meet him. She remembered now that she had
many things to tell him, and the knowledge of them
choked her.
“Newell,” she began, “you
mustn’t go - I don’t know where
you’re goin’ - but down that
way, you mustn’t go till eight o’clock.
An’ then I guess you’ll see her.
It’ll be better than the house, because her
mother’s there. Why,” her voice faltered
and she ended breathlessly, “what makes you
look so?”
He looked like wrath. It was
upon his knotted brow, the iron lips, and in the blazing
of his eyes.
“What’s this I’ve
been told?” he said, in a voice she had never
heard from him, “about Clayton Rand?”
She laughed, relieved and pleased at her own cleverness.
“It’s all right, Newell,”
she called gleefully. “He hasn’t been
there for two weeks. He’s comin’
to-night to take me to ride, an’ I’ll make
him go the turnpike road, an’ she’ll be
down by Pine Hollow, an’ you can snap her up
under her mother’s nose - an’
she’s got on her blue.”
Newell put out his hands and grasped
her wrists. He held them tight and looked at
her. She gazed back in wonder. In all the
months of his repining she had not seen him so, full
of warm passion, of a steady purpose.
“Dorcas,” he said, “I won’t
have it!”
She answered in pure wonder and with great simplicity: -
“What, Newell? What won’t you have?”
He spoke slowly, leaving intervals between the words.
“I won’t have you ridin’
with him, nor walkin’ with him, nor with any
man. If I’d known it, I’d put a stop
to it before. Why, Dorcas, don’t you know
whose girl you are? You’re mine.”
Floods of color went over her face,
and she looked down. Then, as he was silent,
she had to speak.
“Newell,” she said, “I
only meant - I thought maybe I might help
you - ” There she had to look at him,
and found his eyes upon her in a grave sweetness she
could hardly understand. No such flower had bloomed
for her in her whole life.
“Why, Dorcas,” he said,
“think how we’ve worked together!
What do you s’pose we worked so for?”
Alida’s name rose to her lips,
but her tongue refused to speak. At that moment
it seemed too slight a word to say.
“’Twas so we could find
out where we stood,” the grave voice went on.
“That was it.”
She felt breathless, as if they had
together been pursuing some slight thing, a butterfly,
a bubble, and now, when it was under their hands,
they saw that the thing itself was not what mattered.
It was the race. They had kept step, and still
together now, they had run into a safe and happy place.
There was the beat of hoofs upon the road.
“Stay here,” she breathed. “I
can’t go with him. I’ll tell him so.”
She ran out and down the path, a swift
Atalanta, her white skirts floating. Clayton
Rand was at the gate. Even in the instant of his
smiling at her she realized that the smile was that
of one who is expectant of a pleasure, but only of
the pleasure itself, he does not care with whom.
Her eyes glowed upon him, her brown cheeks were red
with dancing blood.
“I can’t go,” she
said, in a full, ecstatic voice. “Thank
you ever so much. I can’t ever go again.
See!” she pointed down the road. “Don’t
she look pretty in among the trees? That’s
’Lida. She’s got on her blue.”
She turned and hastened up the path
again. At the door she paused to look once again
at the spot of blue through the vista of summer green.
It was moving. It was mounting into Clayton Rand’s
wagon. Then Dorcas went in where Newell was waiting
to kiss her.
“He’s drove along,”
she said, from her trance of happiness. “’Lida’s
gone to ride with him.”
Already the name meant no more to
them then the bubble they had chased.
“Come, Dorcas, come,”
said her lover, in that new voice. “Come
here to me.”