Mrs. Dill and her husband, Myron,
grown middle-aged together, and yet, even through
the attrition of the years, no more according in temperament
than at the start, sat on opposite sides of the hearth
and looked at each other, he with calmness, from his
invincible authority, and she fluttering a little,
yet making no question but of a dutiful concurrence.
She had bright blue eyes behind gold-rimmed glasses,
a thin face with a nose slightly aquiline, and reddish
hair that was her cross, because it curled by nature
and she constrained it. Sometimes, when it kinked
unusually, either in moist weather or because she had
forgotten to smooth it, and when the pupils of her
eyes enlarged under cumulative excitement, she looked
young and impetuously willful; but the times were
rare, and perhaps her husband had never, since their
courting days, noted any such exhilaration. He
was a large, imperious-looking man, with a cascade
of silvery beard which he affected to tolerate because
the expenditure of time in shaving might be turned
with profit into the channel of business or of worship;
but his wife, noting how he stroked the beard at intervals
of meditation, judged that he was moved by something
like pride in its luxuriance. Then she chided
herself for the thought.
It was balmy spring weather, but they
had taken their places at the hearthstone from old
habit when a matter of importance had to be considered.
Their two chairs were the seats of authority in the
domestic realm.
Mrs. Dill stooped, took up the turkey-wing,
and gave the clean hearth a perfunctory flick.
Then she returned the wing to its place and leaned
back in her chair, gazing absently at the shining andirons.
“Well,” she said, “Henrietta
Parkman was in this mornin’, and she told me
you’d bought the medder; but I didn’t hardly
believe it.”
“Yes,” said Myron.
He spoke in rather a consequential voice, and cleared
his throat frequently in the course of talking, as
if to accord his organs a good working chance.
“The deeds were passed last week, and it’s
bein’ recorded.”
“What you goin’ to do with it?”
“I bought it because it lays
next to the Turnbull place, and when that come into
my hands last fall, I knew ‘twas only a matter
o’ time till I got the medder, too.”
“Well, what you goin’ to do with it?”
A tinge of anxiety was apparent in
her voice, a wistful suggestiveness, as if she could
conceive of uses that would be almost too fortunate
to be hoped for. Myron hesitated. It often
looked as if he judged it unwise to answer in any
haste questions concerning the domestic polity, and
Mrs. Dill was used to these periods of incubation.
She had even thought once, in a moment of illuminative
comparison, that her husband seemed to submit a bill
before one branch of his mental legislature before
carrying it on to the next.
“I’m goin’ to pasture
my cows in it,” he responded. “I shall
buy in some more stock this spring, and I expect to
set up a milk-route.”
“How under the sun you goin’
to manage that?” She seldom questioned her lawful
head, but the surprise of the moment spurred her into
a query more expressive of her own mood than a probing
of his. “You can’t keep any more
cows’n you’ve got now. The barn ain’t
big enough.”
“The Turnbull barn is.
I’ve seen the day when there was forty head o’
cattle tied up there from fall to spring.”
“The Turnbull barn’s twenty
minutes’ walk from here. You can’t
go over there mornin’ and evenin’, milkin’
and feedin’ the critters. You’d be
all the time on the road.”
“Yes,” said Myron, “’tis
a good stretch. So I’ve made up my mind
we’d move over there.”
A significant note had come into his
voice. It indicated a complexity of understanding:
chiefly that she would by nature resist what he had
to say, and then resume her customary acquiescence.
But for a moment she forgot that he was Mr. Dill,
and that she had promised to obey him.
“Why, Myron,” she said,
with a mild passion, warmed by her incredulity, “we’ve
lived on this place thirty year.”
“Yes, yes,” said her husband.
“I know that. What’s the use o’
goin’ back over the ground, and tellin’
me things I know as well as you do? What if ’tis
thirty year? Time we got into better quarters.”
“But they ain’t better. Only it’s
more work.”
Myron got up and moved back his chair.
“I don’t think o’
movin’ till long about the middle o’ May,”
he rejoined. “You can kinder keep your
mind on it and, when you get round to your spring
cleanin’, pick up as you go. Some things
you can fold right into chists, blankets and winter
clo’es, and then you won’t have to handle
’em over twice. If Herman comes back from
gettin’ the horse shod, you tell him to take
an axe, and come down where I be in the long lot,
fencin’. I want him.”
He paused for a hearty draught from
the dipper at the pump, pulled his hat on tightly,
and went out through the shed to his forenoon’s
work. Mrs. Dill rose from her seat, and stepped
quickly to the window to watch him away. She
often did it when he had most puzzled her and roused
in her a resistance which was inevitable, she knew
by long experience, but also, as her dutiful nature
agreed, the result in her of an unconquerable old
Adam which had never yet felt the transforming touch
of grace. When his tall, powerful figure had disappeared
beyond the rise at the end of the lot, she gave a
great willful sigh, as if she depended on it to ease
her heart, put her apron to her eyes, and held it there,
pressing back the tears.
Herman drove into the yard, and she
did not hear him. She went to the fireplace now,
and leaned her head against the corner of the mantel,
looking down, with a bitter stolidity, at the hearth.
Herman unharnessed, and came in, a tall brown-haired
fellow with dark eyes full of softness, and a deep
simplicity of feeling. As his foot struck the
sill, his mother roused herself, and became at once
animated by a commonplace activity. She did not
face him, for fear he should find the tear-marks on
her cheeks; but when he had thrown his cap into a chair,
and gone to the sink to plunge his face in cold water,
and came out dripping, she did steal a look at him,
and at once softened into a smiling pleasure.
He was her handsome son always, but to-day he looked
brilliantly excited; eager, also, as if he had something
to share with her, and was timid about presenting
it.
“Mother!” said Herman.
He was standing before her now, smiling invitingly,
and she smiled back again and picked a bit of lint
from his collar for the excuse of coming near him,
and proving to herself her proud ownership. “I’ve
had a letter.”
“From Annie?”
He nodded.
“What’s she say?”
asked his mother. But before he could answer,
she threw in a caressing invitation. “You
want I should get you a piece o’ gingerbread
and a glass o’ milk?”
“No, I ain’t hungry.
She says she’s kep’ school about long enough,
and if I’m goin’ to farm it, she’ll
farm it, too. I guess she’d be married
the first o’ the summer, if we could fetch it.”
Mrs. Dill stepped over to the hearth
and sank into her chair. It seemed as if there
were to be another family council. Her silence
stirred him.
“I asked her,” he hastened
to say. “I coaxed her, mother. She
ain’t as forward as I make it out, the way I’ve
told it.”
“No,” said his mother
absently. She was resting her elbows on the chair-arm,
and, with hands lightly clasped, gazing thoughtfully
into space. Fine lines had sprung into her forehead,
and now she took off her glasses and wiped them carefully
on her apron, as if that would help her to an inner
vision. “No, I know that. Annie’s
a nice girl. There’s nothin’ forward
about Annie. But I was only wonderin’ where
you could live. This house is terrible small.”
“You know what I thought,”
Herman reminded her. He spoke impetuously as
if begging her to remember, and therefore throw the
weight of her expectation in with his. “When
father bought the Turnbull place I thought, as much
as ever I did anything in my life, he meant to make
it over to me.”
His mother’s eyes stayed persistently
downcast. A little flush rose to her cheeks.
“Well,” she temporized,
“you ain’t goin’ to count your chickens
before they’re hatched. It’s a poor
way. It never leads to anything but disappointment
in the end.”
“Why, mother,” said Herman
warmly, “you thought so too. We talked it
over only night before last, and you said you guessed
father’d put me on to that farm.”
“I said I didn’t know
what he’d bought it for, if ’twa’n’t
for that,” she amended. “Don’t
you build on anything I said. Don’t you
do it, Hermie.”
Her son stood there frowning in perplexity,
his hands deep in his pockets, and his feet apart.
“But you said so yourself, mother,”
he persisted. “I told you how I’d
always helped father out, long past my majority, and
never hinted for anything beyond my board and clothes.
And when I got engaged to Annie, I went to him and
said, ’Father, now’s the time to give me
a start, or let me cut loose from here.’
And he never answered me a word; but a couple of weeks
after that he bought the Turnbull place. And last
week it was, he said to me, kind of quick, as if he’d
made up his mind to somethin’, and wa’n’t
quite ready to talk it over, ’I’ve got
a sort of a new scheme afoot.’ And then
’twas I wrote to Annie and asked her how soon
she could be ready to come, if I was ready to have
her. You know all that, mother. What makes
you act as if you didn’t?”
The argument was too warm for Mrs.
Dill. She rose from her chair and began putting
up the table-leaf and setting out the necessary dishes
for a batch of cake.
“Your father wanted you should
take an axe and go down where he is in the long lot,”
she remarked. “And I wouldn’t open
your head to him about what we’ve been sayin’,
Hermie. You talk it over with mother. That’s
the best way.”
“Why, course I sha’n’t
speak of it till I have to.” He took up
his cap, and then with an air of aggrieved dignity
turned to the door. “But the time’ll
come when I’ve got to speak of it. Lot Collins
was tellin’ me only this mornin’ over
to the blacksmith’s, how his father’s took
him into partnership, and Lot’s only twenty-one
this spring. His father ain’t wasted a
day.”
“Well, that’s a real business,
blacksmithin’ is,” his mother hastened
to reply.
“So’s farmin’ a
real business. And father’s treated me from
the word ‘go’ like a hired man and nothin’
else. He’s bought and sold without openin’
his head to me. I wonder I’ve grown up at
all. I wonder I ain’t in tyers, makin’
mud-pies. If ’twa’n’t for you
and Annie, I shouldn’t think I was any kind
of a man.”
His angry passion was terribly appealing
to her. It made her heart ache, and she had much
ado to keep from taking him to her arms, big as he
was, and comforting him, as she used to, years ago,
when he came in with frostbitten fingers or the dire
array of cuts and bruises. But she judged it
best, in the interest of domestic government, to quell
emotion that could have, she knew, no hopeful issue,
and she began breaking eggs into her mixing bowl and
then beating them with a brisk hand.
“Father never was one to talk
over his business with anybody, even the nearest,”
she rejoined. “You know that, Hermie.
We’ve got to take folks as we find ’em.
Now you go ahead down to the long lot. He’ll
be wonderin’ where you be.”
Herman strode away, after one incredulous
look at her, a shaft she felt through her downcast
lids. It demanded whether father and mother had
equally forsaken him, and gave her a quick, sharp pang,
and a blinding flash of tears. But she went on
mixing cake, and battling arguments as she worked,
and when her tin was in the oven, washed her baking
dishes methodically and then sat down by the window
to read the weekly paper. But as she read, she
glanced up, now and then, at the familiar walls of
her kitchen, and through the window at the trees just
shimmering into green and the skyey intervals over
them. This was the pictured landscape she had
worked on, framed by these wide, low windows, for all
the years she had lived here, doing her wifely duties
soberly, and her motherly ones with a hidden and ecstatic
buoyancy.
The house, the bit of the world it
gave upon, seemed a part of her life, the containing
husk of all the fruitage born to her. It was incredible
that she was to give it up and undertake not only a
heavier load of work but a new scene for it, at a
time when she longed to fold her hands and sit musing
while young things filled the picture with beautiful
dancing motions, and the loves and fears she remembered
as a part of the warm reality of it, but not now so
intimately her own. It was as if the heaped-up
basket of earthly fruits had passed her by, to be given
into other hands; but she had eaten and was content,
if only she might see the banquet lamps and hear the
happy laughter. She began to feel light-headed
from the pain of it all, the pleasures and sadnesses
of memory, the fear of anticipation, and turned again
to her paper with the intent of giving her mind to
safe and homely things. But something caught
her eyes and held them. A window seemed to be
opened before her. She looked through it into
her tumultuous past. Or was this a weapon put
into her hand for the exacting future?
That night Myron Dill came into the
sitting-room after his chores were done, and lay down
on the lounge between the two front windows. He
composed himself on his back with his hands placidly
folded, and there his wife found him when she came
in after her own completed list of deeds. He
did not look up at her, and she was glad. She
did not know how her eyes gleamed behind the glittering
plane of their glasses, nor how deep the red was in
her cheeks; but she was conscious of an inward tumult
which must, she knew, somehow betray itself. For
an instant she stood and looked at her husband, in
what might have been relenting or anticipation of
the road she had to take. She knew so well what
mantle of repose was over him: how he liked the
peeping of the frogs through the open window, and
what measure of satisfaction there was for him in
the consciousness of full rest and the certainty that
next day would usher in a crowding horde of duties
he felt perfectly able to administer. Mrs. Dill
was a feminine creature, charged to the full with
the love of service and unerring intuition as to the
manner of it, and she did love to “see menfolks
comfortable.”
“Don’t you want I should pull your boots
off?”
This she said unwillingly, because
she was about to break the current of his peace, and
it seemed deceitful to offer him an alleviation that
would do him no good after all.
“No,” said Myron sleepily. “Let
’em be as they are.”
Mrs. Dill drew up a chair and sat
down in it at his side, as if she were the watcher
by a sick-bed or the partner in a cosy conversation.
“Myron,” said she.
Her voice frightened her. It sounded hoarse and
strange, and yet there was very little of it, deserted
by her failing breath.
“What say?” he answered from his drowse.
“I found a real interestin’
piece in the ‘Monitor’ this mornin’.
It was how some folks ain’t jest one person,
as we think, but they’re two and sometimes three.
And mebbe one of ’em’s good, and t’other
two are bad, and when they’re bad they can’t
help it. They can’t help it, Myron, the
bad ones can’t, no matter how hard they try.”
“Yes, I believe I come acrost
it,” said Myron. “Terrible foolish
it was. That’s one o’ the things
doctors get up to feather their own nest.”
“No, Myron, it ain’t foolish,”
said his wife. She moved her chair nearer, and
her glasses glittered at him. “It ain’t
foolish, for I’m one o’ that same kind,
and I know.”
His eyes came open, and he turned
his head to look at her.
“Ain’t you feelin’ well, Caddie?”
he asked kindly.
“Oh, yes, I’m well as
common,” she answered. “But it ain’t
foolish, Myron, and you’ve got to hear me.
‘Double Personality,’ that’s what
they call it. Well, I’ve got it. I’ve
got double personality.”
Myron Dill put his feet to the floor,
and sat upright. He was regarding his wife anxiously,
but he took pains to speak with a commonplace assurance.
“We might as well be gettin’
off to bed early, I guess. I’m tired, and
so be you.”
“I’ve felt it for quite
a long spell,” said his wife earnestly.
“I don’t know but I’ve always felt
it - leastways, all through my married life.
It’s somethin’ that makes me as mad as
tophet when you start me out to do anything I don’t
feel it’s no ways right to do, and it keeps
whisperin’ to me I’m a fool to do it.
That’s what it says, Myron. ‘You’re
a fool to do it!’”
Myron was touched at last, through his armor of esteem.
“I ain’t asked you to
do what ain’t right, Caddie,” he asseverated.
“What makes you tell me I have?”
“That’s what it says to
me,” she repeated fixedly. “’You’re
a fool to do it.’ That’s what it
says. It’s my double personality.”
It seemed best to Myron to humor this
inexplicable mood, until he could persuade her back
into a normal one.
“That wa’n’t the
way I understood it,” he told her, “when
I read the piece. The folks that were afflicted
seemed like different folks. Now, you ain’t
any different, rain or shine. You’re as
even as anybody I should wish to see. That’s
what I’ve liked about ye, Caddie.”
The softness of the implication she
swept aside, as if she hardly dared regard it lest
it weaken her resolve.
“Oh, I ain’t goin’
to be the same, day in, day out,” she declared
eagerly. “I feel I ain’t, Myron.
It’s gettin’ the best of me, the other
creatur’ that wants to have its own way.
It’s been growin’ and growin’, same
as a child grows up, and now it’s goin’
to take its course. Same ’s Hermie’s
growed up, you know. He’s old enough to
have his way, and lead his life same’s we’ve
led ours, and we’ve got to stand one side and
let him do it.”
Her husband gave her a sharp, sudden
glance, and then fell again to the contemplation of
his knotted brown hands that seemed, like all his
equipment, informed with specialized power.
“Well,” he said at length,
“I guess you need a kind of a change. You’ll
feel better when you get over to t’other house.
There’s a different outlook over there, and
you’ll have more to take up your mind.”
She answered instantly, in the haste
that dares not wait upon reflection. Her eyes
were brighter now, and her hands worked nervously.
“Oh, I ain’t goin’
to move, Myron. I might as well tell you that
now. I’m goin’ to stay right here
where I be. I don’t feel able to help it.
That’s my double personality. It won’t
let me.”
Her husband was looking at her now
in what seemed to her a very threatening way.
His shaggy eyebrows were drawn together and his eyes
had lightning in them. She continued staring at
him, held by the fascination of her terror. In
that instant she realized a great many things:
chiefly that she had never seen her husband angry with
her, because she had taken every path to avoid the
possibility, and that it was even more sickening than
she could have thought. But she knew also that
the battle was on, and suddenly, for no reason she
could formulate, she remembered one of her own fighting
ancestors who was said to have died hard in the Revolution.
“That was old Abner Kinsman,”
she broke out; and when her husband asked, out of
his amaze at her irrelevance, “What’s that
you said?” she only answered confusedly, “Nothin’,
I guess.”
At that the storm seemed to Myron
to be over, and his forehead cleared of anger.
He looked at her in much concern.
“I guess you better lay late
to-morrer mornin’,” he said, rising to
close the windows and wind the clock. “I’ll
ride over and get Sally Drew to come and stay a spell
and help you.”
Something tightened through her tense
body, and she answered instantly in a clear, loud
note, -
“I ain’t goin’ to
have Sally Drew. Last time I had her she washed
up the hearth with the dish-cloth. If I want
me a girl, I’ll get one; but mebbe I sha’n’t
want one till Hermie brings Annie into the neighborhood
to live.”
She stood still in her place for a
moment, trembling all over, and wondering what would
happen when Myron had wound the clock and closed the
windows and turned the wooden button of the door.
He did not look at her, nor did he speak again, and
when she heard his deep, regular breathing from the
bedroom she slipped in softly, made ready for bed,
and lay down beside him.
She slept very little that night.
He seemed to be a stranger, because there had been
outward division between them; and yet, curiously,
she felt nearer to him because she might have hurt
him, and the jealous partisanship within her kept
prompting her to a more tumultuous good-will, a warmer
service.
Next morning, when Hermie had left
them at the breakfast-table, and gone silently to
his tasks, his mother leaned across the table as if,
for some reason, she had to attract her husband’s
attention before speaking to him. He was just
taking the last swallow of coffee, and now he set
down his cup with decision, and moved away his plate.
She knew what the next step would be. He would
push back his chair, clear his throat, and then he
would be gone.
“Myron!” she said.
She spoke as something within Myron remembered the
school-teacher speaking, when she called him to the
board. The something within him responded to
it, and without knowing why, he straightened and looked
attentive. “You noticed Hermie, didn’t
you?” she adjured him. “You noticed
he didn’t have a word to say for himself, and
he wouldn’t look neither of us in the face?”
“What’s he been up to?”
Myron queried, with his ready frown. “He
done somethin’ out o’ the way?”
“No, he ain’t. I
should think you’d be ashamed to hint such a
thing, Myron Dill, your own boy, too! All he’s
done is to stay here, and work his fingers to the
bone, and no thanks for it, and he’s right down
discouraged. I know how the boy feels. Myron,
I want you should do somethin’. I want
you should do it now.”
Myron gave his chair the expected
push, but he still sat there.
“Well,” he said, “what
is it? I’ve got to be off down to the medderlands.”
“I want you should make over
the Turnbull place to Hermie, and have him fetch Annie
there as soon as ever she’ll come, and let him
farm it without if or but from you and me.”
Myron was on his feet. He looked
portentously large and masterful.
“You better not think o’
packin’ the chiny,” he said, in his ordinary
tone of generalship. “We can set it into
baskets with a mite o’ hay, and it’ll
get as fur as that without any breakages.”
His wife slipped out of her chair,
and went round the table to him. She laid a hand
on his arm. Myron wanted, in the irritation of
the moment, to shake it off, but he was a man of dignity,
and forbore. His wife was speaking in a very
gentle tone, but somehow different from the one he
was used to noting.
“Myron, ain’t you goin’ to hear
me?”
“I ain’t goin’ to
listen to any tomfoolery, and I ain’t goin’
to have anybody dictatin’ to me about my own
business.”
“It ain’t your business,
Myron, any more’n ’tis mine. Hermie’s
much my son as he is your’n, and what you bought
that place with is as much mine as ‘tis your’n.
I helped you earn it. Myron, it’s comin’
up in me. I can feel it.”
“What is?”
In spite of all his old dull certainties,
he felt the shock of wonder. He looked at her,
her scarlet cheeks and widening eyes. Even her
pretty hair seemed to have acquired a nervous life,
and stood out in a quivering aureole. Myron was
much bound to his Caddie in his way of being attached
to his own life and breath. A change in her was
horrible to him, like the disturbance of illness in
an ordered house.
“What is it?” he inquired again.
“What is it you feel?”
“It’s that,” she
said, with an added vehemence. “It’s
my double personality.”
Myron Dill could have wept from the
surprise of it all, the assault upon his wondering
nerves.
“You spread up the bed in the
bedroom, Caddie,” he bade her, “and go
lay down a spell.”
“No,” said his wife, “I
sha’n’t lay down, and I sha’n’t
give up to you. It’s riz up in me,
the one that’s goin’ to beat, no matter
what comes of it, same as old Abner Kinsman stood
up ag’inst the British. Mebbe it’ll
die fightin’, same’s he did, and I never’ll
hear no more from it, - and a good riddance.
But Myron, it’s goin’ to beat.”
Her husband was frowning, not harshly
now, but from the extremity of his distress.
He spoke in a tone of well-considered adjuration.
“Caddie, you know what you’re
doin’ of? You’re settin’ up
your will in place o’ mine.”
“Oh, no, I ain’t, Myron,”
she responded eagerly, with an earnest motion toward
him, as if she besought him to put faith in her.
“It ain’t me that’s doin’
it.”
“It ain’t you? Who is it, then?”
“Why, it’s my double personality.
Ain’t I just told you so?”
Myron stood gazing at her in the futility
of comprehension he had felt years ago, when Caddie,
who had been “a great reader,” as the neighbors
said, before the avalanche of household cares had overwhelmed
her, propounded to him, while he was drawing off his
boots for an hour of twilight somnolence before going
to bed, problems that, he knew, no man could answer.
Neither were they to be illumined by Holy Writ, for
he had offered that loophole of exit, and Caddie had
shaken her head at him disconsolately, and implied
that the prophets would not do. But when she
had seemed to forget that interrogative attitude toward
life, he had settled down to unquestioning content
in knowing he had the best housekeeper in the neighborhood.
Now here it was again, the spectre of her queerness
rising to distress him.
She looked at him with wide, affrighted eyes.
“You set here with me a spell,”
she adjured him. “I’ll lay down on
the sofy, and you take the big rocker. If you
see it comin’ up in me, you kinder say somethin’,
and mebbe it’ll go away.”
Myron, though in extreme unwillingness,
did as he was bidden. He wanted to bundle the
whole troop of her imaginings out of doors, and plod
off, like a sane man, to his fencing; but somehow
her earnestness itself forbade. When they were
established, she on the sofa, with her bright eyes
piercing him, and he seated at an angle where a nurse
might easiest wait upon a patient’s needs, the
absurdity of it all swept over him. The clock
was ticking irritatingly behind him. He looked
at his watch, and took assurance from the vision of
the flying day.
“Now, Caddie,” said he,
in that specious soothing we accord to children, “you
lay right still, and I’ll go out a spell and
do a few chores, and then mebbe I’ll come in
and see how you be.”
Caddie put out a hand, and fastened
it upon his in an inexorable clasp.
“No, Myron,” said she,
“you ain’t goin’. If I should
be left here to myself, and it come up in me, I dunno
what I might do.”
Myron felt himself yielding again,
and clutched at confidence as the spent swimmer reaches
for a plank.
“What do you think you’d
do, Caddie?” he demanded. “That’s
what I want to know.”
“I can’t tell, Myron,”
she returned solemnly. “True as I’m
a livin’ woman, I can’t tell you.
Mebbe I’d go over to the Turnbull house and set
it a-fire, so ’t I shouldn’t ever live
in it. Mebbe I’d take my bank-book, and
go up to the Street, and draw out that money aunt Susan
left me, and give it to Hermie, so ’s he could
run away, and take Annie with him. If that other
one come up in me, I dunno what I’d do.”
Myron gazed at her, aghast.
“Why, Caddie,” said he,
“you can’t go round settin’ houses
a-fire. That’s arson.”
“Is it?” she inquired.
“Well, I dunno what it’s called, but if
that other one gets the better o’ me, mebbe
that’s what I shall do.”
Myron held her hand now with an involuntary
fervor of his own, not so much because she bade him,
but with the purpose of restraining her. An hour
passed, and her blue eyes were fixed upon him with
the same imploring force. He fidgeted, and at
last longed childishly to see them wink.
“Don’t you want to see the doctor?”
he ventured.
“No,” said Caddie, in
the same tone of wild asseveration. “Doctors
won’t do me a mite o’ good. Besides,
doctors know all about it, and they’d see what
was to pay, and they’d send me off to some kind
of a hospital, and there’d be a pretty bill
o’ costs.”
“I don’t believe a word
of it,” Myron ventured, with a grasp at mental
liberty. He essayed, at the same time, to draw
away his hand, but Caddie seemed to fix him with a
sharper eye-gleam, and he forbore.
“There’s Hermie,”
she said. “I hear him in the shed, rattlin’
round amongst the tools. You call him in here,
and when he’s here, you tell him he’s
goin’ to have the Turnbull place, and have it
now. Myron, you tell him.”
Myron made a slight involuntary movement
in his chair, as if he were about to rise and carry
out her mandate; but he settled back again, and Herman,
having selected the tool he wanted, went off through
the shed and, as they both knew, down the garden-path.
The forenoon went on in a strange
silence, save for the sound of the birds, and an occasional
voice of neighbors calling to Herman as they passed.
Myron had still that sickening sense of illness in
the house. The breakfast dishes were, he knew,
untouched upon the table. The cat came in, looked
incidentally at the sofa as if she were accustomed
to occupy it at that particular hour, and walked out
again. Myron drew forth his watch, and looked
at it with a stealthiness he could not explain.
“Why,” said he, with a
simulated wonder, “it’s nigh half after
eleven. Hadn’t you better see about gettin’
dinner?”
“I ain’t a-goin’
to get any dinner,” his wife responded.
“I don’t know as I shall ever get dinners
any more. Myron, it’s comin’ up in
me. I feel it.” She dropped his hand
and rose to a sitting posture, and for a moment, yielding
to the physical relief of the broken clasp, he leaned
back in his chair and drew a hearty breath.
“Myron,” said his wife.
There was something mandatory in her voice, and he
came upright again. “Now I’m goin’
to do it. I don’t know what ’tis,
but it’s got the better o’ me and I’m
goin’ to do what it says. But ‘fore
I give way to it, I’m goin’ to tell you
this. You’ve got as good a home and as
good a son and as good a wife, if I do say it, as any
man in the State o’ New Hampshire. And
you can keep ’em, Myron, jest as they be, jest
as good as they always have been, if you’ll only
hear to reason and give other folks a chance.
You’ve got to give me a chance, and you’ve
got to give Herman a chance. I guess mebbe I’d
sell all my chances for the sake of turnin’
’em in with Hermie’s. But you’ve
got to do it, and you’ve got to do it now.
And if you don’t, somethin’ ‘s goin’
to happen. I don’t know what it is.
I don’t know no more’n the dead, for this
is the first time I ever really knew I had that terrible
creatur’ inside of me that’s goin’
to beat. But I do know it, and you’ve got
to stand from under.”
She turned about and walked to the
side window, looking on the garden. She was a
slight woman, but Myron, watching her in the fascination
of his dread, had momentary remembrance of her father,
who had been a man of majestic presence and unflinching
will.
“Herman,” his wife was
calling from the window. “Herman, you come
here.”
That new mysterious note in her voice
evidently affected the young man also. He came,
hurrying, and when he had entered stayed upon the
threshold, warm-hued with work and bringing with him
the odor of the soil. His brown eyes went from
one of them to the other, and questioned them.
“What is it?” he inquired. “What’s
happened?”
Myron got upon his feet. He had
a dazed feeling that the two were against him, and
he could face them better so. He hated the situation,
the abasement that came from a secret self within him
which was almost terribly moved by some of the things
his wife had spoken out of her long silence.
He was a proud man, and it seemed to him dreadful that
he should in any way have won such harsh appeal.
“Herman,” his wife was
beginning, “your father’s got somethin’
to say to you.”
Herman waited, but his father could
not speak. Myron was really seeing, as in a homely
vision, the peace of the garden where he might at this
moment have been expecting the call to dinner if he
had not been summoned to the bar of judgment.
“I guess he’s goin’
to let me say it,” his wife continued. “Father’s
goin’ to give you a deed o’ the Turnbull
place. It’s goin’ to be yours, same
as if you’d bought it, and you and Annie are
goin’ to live there all your days, same ‘s
we’re goin’ to live here.”
Herman turned impetuously upon his
father. There was a great rush of life to his
face, and his father saw it and understood, in the
amazement of it, things he had never stopped to consider
about the boy who had miraculously grown to be a man.
But Herman was finding something in his father’s
jaded mien. It stopped him on the tide of happiness,
and he spoke impetuously.
“She’s dragged it out
o’ you! Mother’s been tellin’
you! I don’t want it that way, father,
not unless it’s your own free will. I won’t
have it no other way.”
It was a man’s word to a man.
Myron straightened himself to his former bearing.
In a flash of memory he remembered the day when his
father, an old-fashioned man, had given him his freedom
suit and shaken hands with him and wished him well.
Involuntarily he put out his hand.
“It’s my own will, Hermie,”
he said, in a tone they had not heard from him since
the day, eighteen years behind them, when the boy Hermie
was rescued from the “old swimmin’-hole.”
“We’ll have the deeds drawed up to-morrer.”
They stood an instant, hands gripped,
regarding each other in the allegiance not of blood
alone. The clasp broke, and they remembered the
woman and turned to her. There she stood, trembling
a little, but apparently removed from all affairs
too large for her. She had taken a cover from
the stove, and was obviously reflecting on the next
step in her domestic progress.
“I guess you better bring me
in a handful o’ that fine kindlin’, Hermie,”
she remarked, in her wonted tone of brisk suggestion,
“so ’s ’t I can brash up the fire.
I sha’n’t have dinner on the stroke - not
’fore half-past one.”