When the clouds hung low, or chimneys
refused to draw, or the bread soured over night, a
pessimistic public, turning for relief to the local
drama, said that Amelia Titcomb had married a tramp.
But as soon as the heavens smiled again, it was conceded
that she must have been getting lonely in her middle
age, and that she had taken the way of wisdom so to
furbish up mansions for the coming years. Whatever
was set down on either side of the page, Amelia did
not care. She was whole-heartedly content with
her husband and their farm.
It had happened, one autumn day, that
she was trying, all alone, to clean out the cistern.
This was while she was still Amelia Titcomb, innocent
that there lived a man in the world who could set his
foot upon her maiden state, and flourish there.
She was an impatient creature. She never could
delay for a fostering time to put her plants into the
ground, and her fall cleaning was done long before
the flies were gone. So, to-day, while other
house mistresses sat cosily by the fire, awaiting
a milder season, she was toiling up and down the ladder
set in the cistern, dipping pails of sediment from
the bottom, and, hardy as she was, almost repenting
her of a too-fierce desire. Her thick brown hair
was roughened and blown about her face, her cheeks
bloomed out in a frosty pink, and the plaid kerchief,
tied in a hard knot under her chin, seemed foolishly
ineffectual against the cold. Her hands ached,
holding the pail, and she rebelled inwardly against
the inclemency of the time. It never occurred
to her that she could have put off this exacting job.
She would sooner have expected Heaven to put off the
weather. Just as she reached the top of the cistern,
and lifted her pail of refuse over the edge, a man
appeared from the other side of the house, and stood
confronting her. He was tall and gaunt, and his
deeply graven face was framed by grizzled hair.
Amelia had a rapid thought that he was not so old
as he looked; experience, rather than years, must have
wrought its trace upon him. He was leading a
little girl, dressed with a very patent regard for
warmth, and none for beauty. Amelia, with a quick,
feminine glance, noted that the child’s bungled
skirt and hideous waist had been made from an old
army overcoat. The little maid’s brown eyes
were sweet and seeking; they seemed to petition for
something. Amelia’s heart did not respond
at that time, she had no reason for thinking she was
fond of children. Yet she felt a curious disturbance
at sight of the pair. She afterwards explained
it adequately to the man, by asserting that they looked
as odd as Dick’s hatband.
“Want any farmwork done?”
asked he. “Enough to pay for a night’s
lodgin’?” His voice sounded strangely soft
from one so large and rugged. It hinted at unused
possibilities. But though Amelia felt impressed,
she was conscious of little more than her own cold
and stiffness, and she answered sharply, -
“No, I don’t. I don’t
calculate to hire, except in hayin’ time, an’
then I don’t take tramps.”
The man dropped the child’s
hand, and pushed her gently to one side.
“Stan’ there, Rosie,”
said he. Then he went forward, and drew the pail
from Amelia’s unwilling grasp. “Where
do you empt’ it?” he asked. “There?
It ought to be carried further. You don’t
want to let it gully down into that beet bed.
Here, I’ll see to it.”
Perhaps this was the very first time
in Amelia’s life that a man had offered her
an unpaid service for chivalry alone. And somehow,
though she might have scoffed, knowing what the tramp
had to gain, she believed in him and in his kindliness.
The little girl stood by, as if she were long used
to doing as she had been told, with no expectation
of difficult reasons; and the man, as soberly, went
about his task. He emptied the cistern, and cleansed
it, with plentiful washings. Then, as if guessing
by instinct what he should find, he went into the kitchen,
where were two tubs full of the water which Amelia
had pumped up at the start. It had to be carried
back again to the cistern; and when the job was quite
finished, he opened the bulkhead, set the tubs in the
cellar, and then, covering the cistern and cellar-case,
rubbed his cold hands on his trousers, and turned
to the child.
“Come, Rosie,” said he, “we’ll
be goin’.”
It was a very effective finale, but
still Amelia suspected no trickery. The situation
seemed to her, just as the two new actors did, entirely
simple, like the course of nature. Only, the day
was a little warmer because they had appeared.
She had a new sensation of welcome company. So
it was that, quite to her own surprise, she answered
as quickly as he spoke, and her reply also seemed
an inevitable part of the drama: -
“Walk right in. It’s
‘most dinner-time, an’ I’ll put on
the pot.” The two stepped in before her,
and they did not go away.
Amelia herself never quite knew how
it happened; but, like all the other natural things
of life, this had no need to be explained. At
first, there were excellent reasons for delay.
The man, whose name proved to be Enoch Willis, was
a marvelous hand at a blow, and she kept him a week,
splitting some pine knots that defied her and the boy
who ordinarily chopped her wood. At the end of
the week, Amelia confessed that she was “terrible
tired seein’ Rosie round in that gormin’
kind of a dress;” so she cut and fitted her
a neat little gown from her own red cashmere.
That was the second reason. Then the neighbors
heard of the mysterious guest, and dropped in, to
place and label him. At first, following the
lead of undiscouraged fancy, they declared that he
must be some of cousin Silas’s connections from
Omaha; but even before Amelia had time to deny that,
his ignorance of local tradition denied it for him.
He must have heard of this or that, by way of cousin
Silas; but he owned to nothing defining place or time,
save that he had been in the war - “all
through it.” He seemed to be a man quite
weary of the past and indifferent to the future.
After a half hour’s talk with him, unseasonable
callers were likely to withdraw, perhaps into the pantry,
whither Amelia had retreated to escape catechism, and
remark jovially, “Well, ’Melia, you ain’t
told us who your company is!”
“Mr. Willis,” said Amelia.
She was emulating his habit of reserve. It made
a part of her new loyalty.
Even to her, Enoch had told no tales;
and strangely enough, she was quite satisfied.
She trusted him. He did say that Rosie’s
mother was dead; for the last five years, he said,
she had been out of her mind. At that, Amelia’s
heart gave a fierce, amazing leap. It struck a
note she never knew, and wakened her to life and longing.
She was glad Rosie’s mother had not made him
too content. He went on a step or two into the
story of his life. His wife’s last illness
had eaten up the little place, and after she went,
he got no work. So, he tramped. He must go
again. Amelia’s voice sounded sharp and
thin, even to her, as she answered, -
“Go! I dunno what you want
to do that for. Rosie’s terrible contented
here.”
His brown eyes turned upon her in a kindly glance.
“I’ve got to make a start
somewhere,” said he. “I’ve been
thinkin’ a machine shop’s the best thing.
I shall have to depend on somethin’ better’n
days’ works.”
Amelia flushed the painful red of emotion without
beauty.
“I dunno what we’re all comin’ to,”
said she brokenly.
Then the tramp knew. He put his
gnarled hand over one of hers. Rosie looked up
curiously from the speckled beans she was counting
into a bag, and then went on singing to herself an
unformed, baby song. “Folks’ll talk,”
said Enoch gently. “They do now. A
man an’ woman ain’t never too old to be
hauled up, an’ made to answer for livin’.
If I was younger, an’ had suthin’ to depend
on, you’d see; but I’m no good now.
The better part o’ my life’s gone.”
Amelia flashed at him a pathetic look,
half agony over her own lost pride, and all a longing
of maternal love.
“I don’t want you should
be younger,” said she. And next week they
were married.
Comment ran races with itself, and
brought up nowhere. The treasuries of local speech
were all too poor to clothe so wild a venture.
It was agreed that there’s no fool like an old
fool, and that folks who ride to market may come home
afoot. Everybody forgot that Amelia had had no
previous romance, and dismally pictured her as going
through the woods, and getting a crooked stick at
last. Even the milder among her judges were not
content with prophesying the betrayal of her trust
alone. They argued from the tramp nature to inevitable
results, and declared it would be a mercy if she were
not murdered in her bed. According to the popular
mind, a tramp is a distinct species, with latent tendencies
toward crime. It was recalled that a white woman
had, in the old days, married a comely Indian, whose
first drink of fire-water, after six months of blameless
happiness, had sent him raging home, to kill her “in
her tracks.” Could a tramp, pledged to the
traditions of an awful brotherhood, do less?
No, even in honor, no! Amelia never knew how the
tide of public apprehension surged about her, nor how
her next-door neighbor looked anxiously out, the first
thing on rising, to exclaim, with a sigh of relief,
and possibly a dramatic pang, “There! her smoke’s
a-goin’.”
Meantime, the tramp fell into all
the usages of life indoors; and without, he worked
revolution. He took his natural place at the head
of affairs, and Amelia stood by, rejoicing. Her
besetting error of doing things at the wrong moment
had disarranged great combinations as well as small.
Her impetuosity was constantly misleading her, bidding
her try, this one time, whether harvest might not
follow faster on the steps of spring. Enoch’s
mind was of another cast. For him, tradition reigned,
and law was ever laying out the way. Some months
after their marriage, Amelia had urged him to take
away the winter banking about the house, for no reason
save that the Mardens clung to theirs; but he only
replied that he’d known of cold snaps way on
into May, and he guessed there was no particular hurry.
The very next day brought a bitter air, laden with
sleet, and Amelia, shivering at the open door, exulted
in her feminine soul at finding him triumphant on
his own ground. Enoch seemed, as usual, unconscious
of victory. His immobility had no personal flavor.
He merely acted from an inevitable devotion to the
laws of life; and however often they might prove him
right, he never seemed to reason that Amelia was consequently
wrong. Perhaps that was what made it so pleasant
to live with him.
It was “easy sleddin’”
now. Amelia grew very young. Her cheeks gained
a bloom, her eyes brightened. She even, as the
matrons noticed, took to crimping her hair. They
looked on with a pitying awe. It seemed a fearsome
thing, to do so much for a tramp who would only kill
you in the end. Amelia stepped deftly about the
house. She was a large woman, whose ways had
been devoid of grace; but now the richness of her spiritual
condition informed her with a charm. She crooned
a little about her work. Singing voice she had
none, but she grew into a way of putting words together,
sometimes a line from the psalms, sometimes a name
she loved, and chanting the sounds, in unrecorded
melody. Meanwhile, little Rosie, always irreproachably
dressed, with a jealous care lest she fall below the
popular standard, roamed in and out of the house, and
lightened its dull intervals. She, like the others,
grew at once very happy, because, like them, she accepted
her place without a qualm, as if it had been hers
from the beginning. They were simple natures,
and when their joy came, they knew how to meet it.
But if Enoch was content to follow
the beaten ways of life, there was one window through
which he looked into the upper heaven of all:
thereby he saw what it is to create. He was a
born mechanician. A revolving wheel would set
him to dreaming, and still him to that lethargy of
mind which is an involuntary sharing in the things
that are. He could lose himself in the life of
rhythmic motion; and when he discovered rusted springs,
or cogs unprepared to fulfill their purpose, he fell
upon them with the ardor of a worshiper, and tried
to set them right. Amelia thought he should have
invented something, and he confessed that he had invented
many things, but somehow failed in getting them on
the market. That process he mentioned with the
indifference of a man to whom a practical outcome
is vague, and who finds in the ideal a bright reality.
Even Amelia could see that to be a maker was his joy;
to reap rewards of making was another and a lower
task.
One cold day in the early spring,
he went “up garret” to hunt out an old
saddle, gathering mildew there, and came upon a greater
treasure, a disabled clock. He stepped heavily
down, bearing it aloft in both hands.
“See here, ’Melia,” asked he, “why
don’t this go?”
Amelia was scouring tins on the kitchen
table. There was a teasing wind outside, with
a flurry of snow, and she had acknowledged that the
irritating weather made her as nervous as a witch.
So she had taken to a job to quiet herself.
“That clock?” she replied.
“That was gran’ther Eli’s. It
give up strikin’, an’ then the hands stuck,
an’ I lost all patience with it. So I bought
this nickel one, an’ carted t’ other off
into the attic. ’T ain’t worth fixin’.”
“Worth it!” repeated Enoch.
“Well, I guess I’ll give it a chance.”
He drew a chair to the stove, and
there hesitated. “Say, ’Melia,”
said he, “should you jest as soon I’d
bring in that old shoemaker’s bench out o’
the shed? It’s low, an’ I could reach
my tools off’n the floor.”
Amelia lacked the discipline of contact
with her kind, but she was nevertheless smooth as
silk in her new wifehood.
“Law, yes, bring it along,”
said she. “It’s a good day to clutter
up. The’ won’t be nobody in.”
So, while Enoch laid apart the clock
with a delicacy of touch known only to square, mechanical
fingers, and Rosie played with the button-box on the
floor, assorting colors and matching white with white,
Amelia scoured the tins. Her energy kept pace
with the wind; it whirled in gusts and snatches, yet
her precision never failed.
“Made up your mind which cow
to sell?” she asked, opening a discussion still
unsettled, after days of animated talk.
“Ain’t much to choose,”
said Enoch. He had frankly set Amelia right on
the subject of livestock; and she smilingly acquiesced
in his larger knowledge. “Elbridge True’s
got a mighty nice Alderney, an’ if he’s
goin’ to sell milk another year, he’ll
be glad to get two good milkers like these. What
he wants is ten quarts apiece, no matter if it’s
bluer’n a whetstone. I guess I can swap
off with him; but I don’t want to run arter
him. I put the case last Thursday. Mebbe
he’ll drop round.”
“Well,” concluded Amelia,
“I guess you’re pretty sure to do what’s
right.”
The forenoon galloped fast, and it
was half past eleven before she thought of dinner.
“Why,” said she, “ain’t
it butcher day? I’ve been lottin’
on a piece o’ liver.”
“Butcher day is Thursday,”
said Enoch. “You’ve lost count.”
“My land!” responded Amelia.
“Well, I guess we can put up with some fried
pork an’ apples.” There came a long,
insistent knock at the outer door. “Good
heavens! Who’s there! Rosie, you run
to the side-light, an’ peek. It can’t
be a neighbor. They’d come right in.
I hope my soul it ain’t company, a day like
this.”
Rosie got on her fat legs with difficulty.
She held her pinafore full of buttons, but disaster
lies in doing too many things at once; there came
a slip, a despairing clutch, and the buttons fell over
the floor. There were a great many round ones,
and they rolled very fast. Amelia washed the
sand from her parboiled fingers, and drew a nervous
breath. She had a presentiment of coming ill,
painfully heightened by her consciousness that the
kitchen was “riding out,” and that she
and her family rode with it. Rosie came running
back from her peephole, husky with importance.
The errant buttons did not trouble her. She had
an eternity of time wherein to pick them up; and,
indeed, the chances were that some tall, benevolent
being would do it for her.
“It’s a man,” she
said. “He’s got on a light coat with
bright buttons, and a fuzzy hat. He’s got
a big nose.”
Now, indeed, despair entered into
Amelia, and sat enthroned. She sank down on a
straight-backed chair, and put her hands on her knees,
while the knock came again, a little querulously.
“Enoch,” said she, “do
you know what’s happened? That’s cousin
Josiah Pease out there.” Her voice bore
the tragedy of a thousand past encounters; but that
Enoch could not know.
“Is it?” asked he, with
but a mild appearance of interest. “Want
me to go to the door?”
“Go to the door!” echoed
Amelia, so stridently that he looked up at her again.
“No; I don’t want anybody should go to
the door till this room’s cleared up. If
‘t w’an’t so everlastin’ cold,
I’d take him right into the clock-room, an’
blaze a fire; but he’d see right through that.
You gether up them tools an’ things, an’
I’ll help carry out the bench.”
If Enoch had not just then been absorbed
in a delicate combination of brass, he might have
spoken more sympathetically. As it was, he seemed
kindly, but remote.
“Look out!” said he, “you’ll
joggle. No, I guess I won’t move. If
he’s any kind of a man, he’ll know what
’t is to clean a clock.”
Amelia was not a crying woman, but
the hot tears stood in her eyes. She was experiencing,
for the first time, that helpless pang born from the
wounding of pride in what we love.
“Don’t you see, Enoch?”
she insisted. “This room looks like the
Old Boy - an’ so do you - an’
he’ll go home an’ tell all the folks at
the Ridge. Why, he’s heard we’re
married, an’ come over here to spy out the land.
He hates the cold. He never stirs till ‘way
on into June; an’ now he’s come to find
out.”
“Find out what?” inquired
Enoch absorbedly. “Well, if you’re
anyways put to ’t, you send him to me.”
That manly utterance enunciated from a “best-room”
sofa, by an Enoch clad in his Sunday suit, would have
filled Amelia with rapture; she could have leaned on
it as on the Tables of the Law. But, alas! the
scene-setting was meagre, and though Enoch was very
clean, he had no good clothes. He had pointedly
refused to buy them with his wife’s money until
he should have worked on the farm to a corresponding
amount. She had loved him for it; but every day
his outer poverty hurt her pride. “I guess
you better ask him in,” concluded Enoch.
“Don’t you let him bother you.”
Amelia turned about with the grand
air of a woman repulsed.
“He don’t bother
me,” said she, “an’ I will
let him in.” She walked to the door, stepping
on buttons as she went, and conscious, when she broke
them, of a bitter pleasure. It added to her martyrdom.
She flung open the door, and called
herself a fool in the doing; for the little old man
outside was in the act of turning away. In another
instant, she might have escaped. But he was only
too eager to come back again, and it seemed to Amelia
as if he would run over her, in his desire to get
in.
“There! there! ’Melia,”
said he, pushing past her, “can’t stop
to talk till I git near the fire. Guess you were
settin’ in the kitchen, wa’n’t ye?
Don’t make no stranger o’ me. That
your man?”
She had shut the door, and entered,
exasperated anew by the rising wind. “That’s
my husband,” said she coldly. “Enoch,
here’s cousin Josiah Pease.”
Enoch looked up benevolently over
his spectacles, and put out a horny left hand, the
while the other guarded his heap of treasures.
“Pleased to meet you, sir,” said he.
“You see I’m tinkerin’ a clock.”
To Enoch, the explanation was enough.
All the simple conventions of his life might well
wait upon a reason potent as this. Josiah Pease
went to the stove, and stood holding his tremulous
hands over a cover. He was a little man, eclipsed
in a butternut coat of many capes, and his parchment
face shaded gradually up from it, as if into a harder
medium. His eyes were light, and they had an
exceedingly uncomfortable way of darting from one
thing to another, like some insect born to spear and
sting. His head was entirely bald, all save a
thin fringe of hair not worth mentioning, since it
disappeared so effectually beneath his collar; and
his general antiquity was grotesquely emphasized by
two sets of aggressive teeth, displaying their falsity
from every crown.
Amelia took out the broom, and began
sweeping up buttons. She had an acrid consciousness
that by sacrificing them she was somehow completing
the tragedy of her day. Rosie gave a little cry;
but Amelia pointed to the corner where stood the child’s
chair, exhumed from the attic, after forty years of
rest. “You set there,” she said, in
an undertone, “an’ keep still.”
Rosie obeyed without a word.
Such an atmosphere had not enveloped her since she
entered this wonderful house. Remembering vaguely
the days when her own mother had “spells,”
and she and her father effaced themselves until times
should change, she folded her little hands, and lapsed
back into a condition of mental servitude.
Meanwhile, Amelia followed nervously
in the track of Enoch’s talk with cousin Josiah,
though her mind kept its undercurrent of foolish musing.
Like all of us, snatched up by the wheels of great
emergencies, she caught at trifles while they whirled
her round. Here were “soldier-buttons.”
All the other girls had collected them, though she,
having no lover in the war, had traded for her few.
Here were the gold-stones that held her changeable
silk, there the little clouded pearls from her sister’s
raglan. Annie had died in youth; its glamour
still enwrapped her. Poor Annie! But Rosie
had seemed to bring her back. Amelia swept litter,
buttons and all, into the dustpan, and marched to
the stove to throw her booty in. Nobody marked
her save Rosie, whose playthings were endangered;
but Enoch’s very obtuseness to the situation
was what stayed her hand. She carried the dustpan
away into a closet, and came back, to gather up her
tins. A cold rage of nervousness beset her, so
overpowering that she herself was amazed at it.
Meantime, Josiah Pease had divested
himself of his coat, and drawn the grandfather chair
into a space behind the stove.
“You a clock-mender by trade?” he asked
of Enoch.
“No,” said Enoch absently, “I ain’t
got any reg’lar trade.”
“Jest goin’ round the
country?” amended cousin Josiah, with the preliminary
insinuation Amelia knew so well. He was, it had
been said, in the habit of inventing lies, and challenging
other folks to stick to ’em. But Enoch
made no reply. He went soberly on with his work.
“Law, ‘Melia, to think
o’ your bein’ married,” continued
Josiah, turning to her. “I never should
ha’ thought that o’ you.”
“I never thought it of myself,”
said Amelia tartly. “You don’t know
what you’ll do till you’re tried.”
“No! no!” said Josiah
Pease. “Never in the world. You remember
Sally Flint, how plain-spoken she is? Well, Betsy
Marden’s darter Ann rode down to the poor-house
t’ other day with some sweet trade, an’
took a young sprig with her. He turned his back
a minute, to look out o’ winder, an’ Sally
spoke right up, as ye might say, afore him. ’That
your beau?’ says she. Well, o’ course
Ann couldn’t own it, an’ him right there,
so to speak. So she shook her head. ’Well,
I’m glad on ‘t,’ says Sally.
‘If I couldn’t have anything to eat, I’d
have suthin’ to look at!’ He was the most
unsignifyin’est creatur’ you ever put your
eyes on. But they say Ann’s started in
on her clo’es.”
Amelia’s face had grown scarlet.
“I dunno’s any such speech is called for
here,” said she, in a furious self-betrayal.
Josiah Pease had always been able to storm her reserves.
“Law, no,” answered he
comfortably. “It come into my mind, - that’s
all.”
She looked at Enoch with a passionate
sympathy, knowing too well how the hidden sting was
intended to work. But Enoch had not heard.
He was absorbed in a finer problem of brass and iron;
and though Amelia had wished to save him from hurt,
in that instant she scorned him for his blindness.
“I guess I shall have to ask you to move,”
she said to her husband coldly. “I’ve
got to git to that stove, if we’re goin’
to have any dinner to-day.”
It seemed to her that even Enoch might
take the hint, and clear away his rubbish. Her
feelings might have been assuaged by a clean hearth
and some acquiescence in her own mood. But he
only moved back a little, and went on fitting and
musing. He was not thinking of her in the least,
nor even of Josiah Pease. His mind had entered
its brighter, more alluring world. She began
to fry her pork and apples, with a perfunctory attempt
at conversation. “You don’t often
git round so early in the spring,” said she.
“No,” returned cousin
Josiah. “I kind o’ got started out,
this time, I don’t rightly know why. I
guess I’ve had you in mind more of late, for
some Tiverton folks come over our way, tradin’,
an’ they brought all the news. It sort
o’ stirred me up to come.”
Amelia turned her apples vigorously,
well aware that the slices were breaking. That
made a part of her bitter day.
“Folks needn’t take the
trouble to carry news about me,” she said.
There was an angry gleam in her eyes. “If
anybody wants to know anything, let ‘em come
right here, an’ I’ll settle ’em.”
The ring of her voice penetrated even to Enoch’s
perception, and he looked up in mild surprise.
She seemed to have thrown open, for an instant, a little
window into a part of her nature he had never seen.
“How good them apples smell!”
said Josiah innocently. “Last time I had
‘em was down to cousin Amasa True’s, he
that married his third wife, an’ she run through
all he had. I went down to see ’em arter
the vandoo, - you know they got red o’
most everything, - an’ they had fried
pork an’ apples for dinner. Old Bashaby
dropped in. ‘Law!’ says she.
‘Fried pork an’ apples! Well, I call
that livin’ pretty nigh the wind!’”
Josiah chuckled. He was very warm now, and the
savory smell of the dish he decried was mounting to
what served him for fancy. “’Melia, you
ain’t never had your teeth out, have ye?”
he asked, as one who spoke from richer memories.
“I guess my teeth’ll last
me as long as I want ’em,” said Amelia
curtly.
“Well, I didn’t know.
They looked real white an’ firm last time I see
’em, but you never can tell how they be underneath.
I knew the folks would ask me when I got home.
I thought I’d speak.”
“Dinner’s ready,”
said Amelia. She turned an alien look upon her
husband. “You want to wash your hands?”
Enoch rose cheerfully. He had
got to a hopeful place with the clock.
“Set ri’ down,”
said he. “Don’t wait a minute.
I’ll be along.”
So Amelia and the guest began their
meal, while little Rosie climbed, rather soberly,
into her higher chair, and held out her plate.
“You wait,” said Amelia
harshly. “Can’t you let other folks
eat a mouthful before you have to have yours?”
Yet as she said it, she remembered, with a remorseful
pang, that she had always helped the child first;
it had been so sweet to see her pleased and satisfied.
Josiah was never talkative during
meals. Not being absolute master of his teeth,
his mind dwelt with them. Amelia remembered that,
with a malicious satisfaction. But he could not
be altogether dumb. That, people said, would
never happen to Josiah Pease while he was above ground.
“That his girl?” he asked,
indicating Rosie with his knife, in a gustatory pause.
“Whose?” inquired Amelia willfully.
“His.” He pointed
again, this time to the back room, where Enoch was
still washing his hands.
“Yes.”
“Mother dead?”
Amelia sprang from her chair, while
Rosie looked at her with the frightened glance of
a child to whom some half-forgotten grief has suddenly
returned.
“Josiah Pease!” said Amelia.
“I never thought a poor, insignificant creatur’
like you could rile me so, - when I know what
you’re doin’ it for, too. But you’ve
brought it about. Her mother dead? Ain’t
I been an’ married her father?”
“Law, Amelia, do se’
down!” said Josiah indulgently. There was
a mince-pie warming on the back of the stove.
He saw it there. “I didn’t mean nuthin’.
I’ll be bound you thought she’s dead, or
you wouldn’t ha’ took such a step.
I only meant, did ye see her death in the paper, for
example, or anything like that?”
“’Melia,” called
Enoch, from the doorway, “I won’t come
in to dinner jest now. Elbridge True’s
drove into the yard. I guess he’s got it
in mind to talk it over about them cows. I don’t
want to lose the chance.”
“All right,” answered
Amelia. She took her seat again, while Enoch’s
footsteps went briskly out through the shed. With
the clanging of the door, she felt secure. If
she had to deal with Josiah Pease, she could do it
better alone, clutching at the certainty that was with
her from of old, that, if you could only keep your
temper with cousin Josiah, you had one chance of victory.
Flame out at him, and you were lost. “Some
more potatoes?” asked she, with a deceptive calm.
“Don’t care if I do,”
returned Josiah, selecting greedily, his fork hovering
in air. “Little mite watery, ain’t
they? Dig ’em yourself?”
“We dug ’em,” said Amelia coldly.
Rosie stepped down from her chair,
unnoticed. To Amelia, she was then no bigger
than some little winged thing flitting about the room
in time of tragedy. Our greatest emotions sometimes
stay unnamed. At that moment, Amelia was swayed
by as tumultuous a love as ever animated damsel of
verse or story; but it merely seemed to her that she
was an ill-used woman, married to a man for whom she
was called on to be ashamed. Rosie tiptoed into
the entry, put on her little shawl and hood, and stole
out to play in the corn-house. When domestic
squalls were gathering, she knew where to go.
The great outdoors was safer. Her past had taught
her that.
“Don’t like to eat with
folks, does he? Well, it’s all in what you’re
brought up to.”
Amelia was ready with her counter-charge.
“Have some tea?”
She poured it as if it were poison,
and Josiah became conscious of her tragic self-control.
“You ain’t eat a thing,”
said he, with an ostentatious kindliness. He
bent forward a little, with the air of inviting a confidence.
“Got suthin’ on your mind, ain’t
you, ‘Melia?” he whispered. “Kind
o’ worried? Find he’s a drinkin’
man?”
Amelia was not to be beguiled, even
by that anger which veils itself as justice.
She looked at him steadily, with scorching eyes.
“You ain’t took any sugar,”
said she. “There ‘t is, settin’
by you. Help yourself.”
Josiah addressed himself to his tea,
and then Amelia poured him another cup. She had
some fierce satisfaction in making it good and strong.
It seemed to her that she was heartening her adversary
for the fray, and she took pleasure in doing it effectually.
So great was the spirit within her that she knew he
could not be too valiant, for her keener joy in laying
him low. Then they rose from the table, and Josiah
took his old place by the stove, while Amelia began
carrying the dishes to the sink. Her mind was
a little hazy now; her next move must depend on his,
and cousin Josiah, somewhat drowsy from his good dinner,
was not at once inclined to talk. Suddenly he
raised his head snakily from those sunken shoulders,
and pointed a lean finger to the window.
“’Melia!” cried
he sharply. “I’ll be buttered if he
ain’t been and traded off both your cows.
My Lord! be you goin’ to stan’ there an’
let them two cows go?”
Amelia gave one swift glance from
the window, following the path marked out by that
insinuating index. It was true. Elbridge
was driving her two cows out of the yard, and her
husband stood by, watching him. She walked quietly
into the entry, and Josiah laid his old hands together
in the rapturous certainty that she was going to open
the door, and send her anger forth. But Amelia
only took down his butternut coat from the nail, and
returned with it, holding it ready for him to insert
his arms.
“Here’s your coat,”
said she, with that strange, deceptive calmness.
“Stan’ up, an’ I’ll help you
put it on.”
Josiah looked at her with helplessly
open mouth, and eyes so vacuous that Amelia felt,
even at that moment, the grim humor of his plight.
“I was in hopes he’d harness
up” - he began, but she ruthlessly cut
him short.
“Stan’ up! Here,
put t’ other arm in fust. This han’kercher
yours? Goes round your neck? There ’t
is. Here’s your hat. Got any mittens?
There they be, in your pocket. This way.
This is the door you come in, an’ this is the
door you’ll go out of.” She preceded
him, her head thrown up, her shoulders back.
Amelia had no idea of dramatic values, but she was
playing an effective part. She reached the door
and flung it open, but Josiah, a poor figure in its
huddled capes, still stood abjectly in the middle
of the kitchen. “Come!” she called
peremptorily. “Come, Josiah Pease!
Out you go.” And Josiah went, though, contrary
to his usual habit, he did not talk. He quavered
uncertainly down the steps, and Amelia called a halt.
“Josiah Pease!”
He turned, and looked up at her.
His mouth had dropped, and he was nothing but a very
helpless old child. Vicious as he was, Amelia
realized the mental poverty of her adversary, and despised
herself for despising him. “Josiah Pease!”
she repeated. “This is the end. Don’t
you darken my doors ag’in. I’ve done
with you, - egg an’ bird!” She
closed the door, shutting out Josiah and the keen
spring wind, and went back to the window, to watch
him down the drive. His back looked poor and mean.
It emphasized the pettiness of her victory. Even
at that moment, she realized that it was the poorer
part of her which had resented attack on a citadel
which should be impregnable as time itself. Just
then Enoch stepped into the kitchen behind her, and
his voice jarred upon her tingling nerves.
“Well,” said he, more
jovially than he was wont to speak, “I guess
I’ve made a good trade for ye. Company
gone? Come here an’ se’ down
while I eat, an’ I’ll tell ye all about
it.”
Amelia turned about and walked slowly
up to him, by no volition of her conscious self.
Again love, that august creature, veiled itself in
an unjust anger, because it was love and nothing else.
“You’ve made a good bargain,
have you?” she repeated. “You’ve
sold my cows, an’ had ’em drove off the
place without if or but. That’s what you
call a good bargain!” Her voice frightened her.
It amazed the man who heard. These two middle-aged
people were waking up to passions neither had felt
in youth. Life was strong in them because love
was there.
“Why, ’Melia!” said the man.
“Why, ’Melia!”
Amelia was hurried on before the wind
of her destiny. Her voice grew sharper.
Little white stripes, like the lashes from a whip,
showed themselves on her cheeks. She seemed to
be speaking from a dream, which left her no will save
that of speaking.
“It’s been so ever sence
you set foot in this house. Have I had my say
once? Have I been mistress on my own farm?
No! You took the head o’ things, an’
you’ve kep’ it. What’s mine
is yours.”
Her triumph over Josiah seemed to
be strangely repeated; the scene was almost identical.
The man before her stood with his hands hanging by
his sides, the fingers limp, in an attitude of the
profoundest patience. He was thinking things
out. She knew that. Her hurrying mind anticipated
all he might have said, and would not. And because
he had too abiding a gentleness to say it, the insanity
of her anger rose anew. “I’m the
laughin’-stock o’ the town,” she
went on bitterly. “There ain’t a man
or woman in it that don’t say I’ve married
a tramp.”
Enoch winced, with a sharp, brief
quiver of the lips; but before she could dwell upon
the sight, to the resurrection of her tenderness, he
turned away from her, and went over to the bench.
“I guess I’ll move this
back where’t was,” he said, in a very still
voice, and Amelia stood watching him, conscious of
a new and bitterer pang: a fierce contempt that
he could go on with his poor, methodical way of living,
when greater issues waited at the door. He moved
the bench into its old place, gathered up the clock,
with its dismantled machinery, and carried it into
the attic. She heard his step on the stairs,
regular and unhalting, and despised him again; but
in all those moments, the meaning of his movements
had not struck her. When he came back, he brought
in the broom; and while he swept up the fragments of
his work, Amelia stood and watched him. He carried
the dustpan and broom away to their places, but he
did not reenter the room. He spoke to her from
the doorway, and she could not see his face.
“I guess you won’t mind
if I leave the clock as ’t is. It needs
some new cogs, an’ if anybody should come along,
he wouldn’t find it any the worse for what I’ve
done. I’ve jest thought it over about the
cows, an’ I guess I’ll leave that, too,
jest as it is. I made you a good bargain, an’
when you come to think it over, I guess you’d
ruther it’d stan’ so than run the resk
of havin’ folks make a handle of it. Good-by,
’Melia. You’ve been good to me, - better’n
anybody ever was in the world.”
She heard his step, swift and steady,
through the shed and out at the door. He was
gone. Amelia turned to the window, to look after
him, and then, finding he had not taken the driveway,
she ran into the bedroom, to gaze across the fields.
There he was, a lonely figure, striking vigorously
out. He seemed glad to go; and seeing his haste,
her heart hardened against him. She gave a little
disdainful laugh.
“Well,” said Amelia, “that’s
over. I’ll wash my dishes now.”
Coming back into the kitchen, with
an assured step, she moved calmly about her work,
as if the world were there to see. Her pride enveloped
her like a garment. She handled the dishes as
if she scorned them, yet her method and care were
exquisite. Presently there came a little imperative
pounding at the side door. It was Rosie.
She had forgotten the cloudy atmosphere of the house,
and being cold, had come, in all her old, imperious
certainty of love and warmth, to be let in. Amelia
stopped short in her work, and an ugly frown roughened
her brow. Josiah Pease, with all his evil imaginings,
seemed to be at her side, his lean forefinger pointing
out the baseness of mankind. In that instant,
she realized where Enoch had gone. He meant to
take the three o’clock train where it halted,
down at the Crossing, and he had left the child behind.
Tearing off her apron, she threw it over her head.
She ran to the door, and, opening it, almost knocked
the child down, in her haste to be out and away.
Rosie had lifted her frosty face in a smile of welcome,
but Amelia did not see it. She gathered the child
in her arms, and hurried down the steps, through the
bars, and along the narrow path toward the pine woods.
The sharp brown stubble of the field merged into the
thin grasses of the greener lowland, and she heard
the trickling of the little dark brook, where gentians
lived in the fall, and where, still earlier, the cardinal
flower and forget-me-not crowded in lavish color.
She knew every inch of the way; her feet had an intelligence
of their own. The farm was a part of her inherited
life; but at that moment, she prized it as nothing
beside that newly discovered wealth which she was
rushing to cast away. Rosie had not striven in
the least against her capture. She knew too much
of life, in some patient fashion, to resist it, in
any of its phases. She put her arms about Amelia’s
neck, to cling the closer, and Amelia, turning her
face while she staggered on, set her lips passionately
to the little sleeve.
“You cold?” asked she - “dear?”
But she told herself it was a kiss of farewell.
She stepped deftly over the low stone
wall into the Marden woods, and took the slippery
downward path, over pine needles. Sometimes a
rounded root lay above the surface, and she stumbled
on it; but the child only tightened her grasp.
Amelia walked and ran with the prescience of those
without fear; for her eyes were unseeing, and her thoughts
hurrying forward, she depicted to herself the little
drama at its close. She would be at the Crossing
and away again, before the train came in; nobody need
guess her trouble. Enoch must be there, waiting.
She would drop the child at his side, - the
child he had deserted, - and before he could
say a word, turn back to her desolate home. And
at the thought, she kissed the little sleeve again,
and thought how good it would be if she could only
be there again, though alone, in the shielding walls
of her house, and the parting were over and done.
She felt her breath come chokingly.
“You’ll have to walk a
minute,” she whispered, setting the child down
at her side. “There’s time enough.
I can’t hurry.”
At that instant, she felt the slight
warning of the ground beneath her feet, shaken by
another step, and saw, through the pines, her husband
running toward her. Rosie started to meet him,
with a little cry, but Amelia thrust her aside, and
hurried swiftly on in advance, her eyes feeding upon
his face. It had miraculously changed. Sorrow,
the great despair of life, had eaten into it, and
aged it more than years of patient want. His
eyes were like lamps burned low, and the wrinkles
under them had guttered into misery. But to Amelia,
his look had all the sweet familiarity of faces we
shall see in Paradise. She did not stop to interpret
his meeting glance, nor ask him to read hers.
Coming upon him like a whirlwind, she put both her
shaking hands on his shoulders, and laid her wet face
to his.
“Enoch! Enoch!” she
cried sharply, “in the name of God, come home
with me!”
She felt him trembling under her hands,
but he only put up his own, and very gently loosed
the passionate grasp. “There! there!”
he said, in a whisper. “Don’t feel
so bad. It’s all right. I jest turned
back for Rosie. Mebbe you won’t believe
it, but I forgot all about her.”
He lowered his voice, for Rosie had
gone close to him, and laid her hands clingingly upon
his coat. She did not understand, but she could
wait. A branch had almost barred the path, and
Amelia, her dull gaze fallen, noted idly how bright
the moss had kept, and how the scarlet cups enriched
it. Her strength would not sustain her, void of
his, and she sank down on the wood, her hands laid
limply in her lap. “Enoch,” she said,
from her new sense of the awe of life, “don’t
lay up anything ag’inst me. You couldn’t
if you knew.”
“Knew what?” asked Enoch
gently. He did not forget that circumstance had
laid a blow at the roots of his being; but he could
not turn away while she still suffered.
Amelia began, stumblingly, -
“He talked about you. I couldn’t
stan’ it.”
“Did you believe it?” he queried sternly.
“There wa’n’t anything
to believe. That’s neither here nor there.
But - Enoch, if anybody should cut my right
hand off - Enoch” - Her voice
fell brokenly. She was a New England woman, accustomed
neither to analyze nor talk. She could only suffer
in the elemental way of dumb things who sometimes
need a language of the heart. One thing she knew.
The man was hers; and if she reft herself away from
him, then she must die.
He had taken Rosie’s hand, and Amelia was aware
that he turned away.
“I don’t want to bring
up anything,” he said hesitatingly, “but
I couldn’t stan’ bein’ any less’n
other men would, jest because the woman had the money,
an’ I hadn’t. I dunno’s ’t
was exactly fair about the cows, but somehow you kind
o’ set me at the head o’ things, in the
beginnin’, an’ it never come into my mind” -
Amelia sat looking wanly past him.
She began to see how slightly argument would serve.
Suddenly the conventions of life fell away from her
and left her young.
“Enoch,” she said vigorously,
“you’ve got to take me. Somehow, you’ve
got to. Talkin’ won’t make you see
that what I said never meant no more than the wind
that blows. But you’ve got to keep me, or
remember, all your life, how you murdered me by goin’
away. The farm’s come between us.
Le’s leave it! It’s ’most time
for the cars. You take me with you now.
If you tramp, I’ll tramp. If you work out,
so ’ll I. But where you go, I’ve got to
go, too.”
Some understanding of her began to
creep upon him; he dropped the child’s hand,
and came a step nearer. Enoch, in these latter
days of his life, had forgotten how to smile; but
now a sudden, mirthful gleam struck upon his face,
and lighted it with the candles of hope. He stood
beside her, and Amelia did not look at him.
“Would you go with me, ’Melia?”
he asked.
“I’m goin’,”
said she doggedly. Her case had been lost, but
she could not abandon it. She seemed to be holding
to it in the face of righteous judgment.
“S’pose I don’t ask you?”
“I’ll foller on behind.”
“Don’t ye want to go home, an’ lock
up, an’ git a bunnit?”
She put one trembling hand to the calico apron about
her head.
“No.”
“Don’t ye want to leave the key with some
o’ the neighbors?”
“I don’t want anything in the world but
you,” owned Amelia shamelessly.
Enoch bent suddenly, and drew her
to her feet. “’Melia,” said he, “you
look up here.”
She raised her drawn face and looked
at him, not because she wished, but because she must.
In her abasement, there was no obedience which she
would deny him. But she could only see that he
was strangely happy, and so the more removed from
her own despair. Enoch swiftly passed his arm
about her, and turned her homeward. He laughed
a little. Being a man, he must laugh when that
bitter ache in the throat presaged more bitter tears.
“Come, ‘Melia,”
said he, “come along home, an’ I’ll
tell you all about the cows. I made a real good
bargain. Come, Rosie.”
Amelia could not answer. It seemed
to her as if love had dealt with her as she had not
deserved; and she went on, exalted, afraid of breaking
the moment, and knowing only that he was hers again.
But just before they left the shadow of the woods,
he stopped, holding her still, and their hearts beat
together.
“’Melia,” said he
brokenly, “I guess I never told you in so many
words, but it’s the truth: if God Almighty
was to make me a woman, I’d have her you, not
a hair altered. I never cared a straw for any
other. I know that now. You’re all
there is in the world.”
When they walked up over the brown
field, the sun lay very warmly there with a promise
of spring fulfilled. The wind had miraculously
died, and soft clouds ran over the sky in flocks.
Rosie danced on ahead, singing her queer little song,
and Enoch struggled with himself to speak the word
his wife might wish.
“’Melia,” said he
at last, “there ain’t anything in my life
I couldn’t tell you. I jest ain’t
dwelt on it, that’s all. If you want to
have me go over it - ”
“I don’t want anything,”
said Amelia firmly. Her eyes were suffused, and
yet lambent. The light in them seemed to be drinking
up their tears. Her steps, she knew, were set
within a shining way. At the door only she paused
and fixed him with a glance. “Enoch,”
said she threateningly, “whose cows were them
you sold to-day?”
He opened his lips, but she looked
him down. One word he rejected, and then another.
His cheeks wrinkled up into obstinate smiling, and
he made the grimace of a child over its bitter draught.
“’Melia, it ain’t
fair,” he complained. “No, it ain’t.
I’ll take one of ‘em, if you say so, or
I’ll own it don’t make a mite o’
difference whose they be. But as to lyin’ - ”
“Say it!” commanded Amelia. “Whose
were they?”
“Mine!” said Enoch.
They broke into laughter, like children, and held
each other’s hands.
“I ain’t had a mite o’
dinner,” said Amelia happily, as they stepped
together into the kitchen. “Nor you!
An’ Rosie didn’t eat her pie. You
blaze up the fire, an’ I’ll fry some eggs.”