This happened in what Dilly Joyce,
in deference to a form of speech, was accustomed to
call her young days; though really her spirit seemed
to renew itself with every step, and her body was
to the last a willing instrument. She lived in
a happy completeness which allowed her to carry on
the joys of youth into the maturity of years.
But things did happen to her from twenty to thirty-five
which could never happen again. When Dilly was
a girl, she fell in love, and was very heartily and
honestly loved back again. She had been born
into such willing harmony with natural laws, that
this in itself seemed to belong to her life. It
partook rather of the faithfulness of the seasons than
of human tragedy or strenuous overthrow. Even
so early she felt great delight in natural things;
and when her heart turned to Jethro Moore, she had
no doubt whatever of the straightness of its path.
She trusted all the primal instincts without knowing
she trusted them. She was thirsty; here was water,
and she drank. Jethro was a little older than
she, the son of a minister in a neighboring town.
His father had marked out his plan of life; but Jethro
had had enough to do with the church on hot summer
Sundays, when “fourthly” and “sixthly”
lulled him into a pleasing coma, and when even the
shimmer of Mrs. Chase’s shot silk failed to awaken
his deep eyes to their accustomed delight in fabric
and color. To him, the church was a concrete
and very dull institution: to his father, it was
a city set on a hill, whence a shining path led direct
to God’s New Jerusalem. Therefore it was
easy enough for the boy to say he preferred business,
and that he wanted uncle Silas to take him into his
upholstery shop; and he never, so long as he lived,
understood his father’s tragic silence over
the choice. He had broken the succession in a
line of priests; but it seemed to him that he had
simply told what he wanted to do for a living.
So he went away to the city, and news came flying back
of his wonderful fitness for the trade. He understood
colors, fabrics, design; he had been sent abroad for
ideas, and finally he was dispatched to the Chicago
house, to oversee the business there. Thus it
was many years before Dilly met him again; but they
remained honestly faithful, each from a lovely simplicity
of nature, but a simplicity quite different in kind.
Jethro did not grow rich very fast (uncle Silas saw
to that), but he did prosper; and he was ready to marry
his girl long before she owned herself ready to marry
him. She took care of a succession of aged relatives,
all afflicted by a strange and interesting diversity
of trying diseases; and then, after the last death,
she settled down, quite poor, in a little house on
the Tiverton Road, and “went out nussin’,”
the profession for which her previous life had fitted
her. With a careless generosity, she made over
to her brother the old farmhouse where they were born,
because he had a family and needed it. But he
died, and was soon followed by his wife and child;
and now Dilly was quite alone with the house and the
family debts. The time had come, wrote Jethro,
for them to marry. She was free, at last, and
he had enough. Would she take him, now?
Dilly answered quite frankly and from a serenity born
of faith in the path before her and a certainty that
no feet need slip. She was ready, she wrote.
She hoped he was willing she should sell the old place,
to pay Tom’s debts. That would leave her
without a cent; but since he was coming for her, and
she needn’t go to Chicago alone, she didn’t
know that there was anything to worry about.
He would buy her ticket. There was an ineffable
simplicity about Dilly. She had no respect whatever
for money, save as a puzzling means to a few necessary
ends. And now the place had been sold, and Jethro
was coming in a month. Meanwhile Dilly was to
pack up the few family effects she could afford to
keep, and the rest would go by auction.
Little as she was accustomed to dread
experiences which came in the inevitable order of
nature, she did think of the last day and night in
the old house as something of an ordeal. People
felt that the human meant very little to Dilly; but
that was not true. It was only true that she
held herself remote from personal intimacies; but all
the fine, invisible bonds of race and family took
hold of her like irresistible factors, and welded
her to the universe anew.
As she started out from her little
house, this summer morning, and began her three-mile
walk to the old homestead, she felt as if some solemn
event in her life were about to happen; her heart beat
higher, and brought about the suffocating feeling
of a hand laid upon the throat. She was a slight
creature, with a delicate face and fine black hair.
Her slender body seemed all made for action, and the
poise of an assured motion dwelt in it and wrapped
about its angularity like a gracious charm. She
was walking down a lane, her short skirts brushed by
the morning dew. She chose to go ’cross
lots, not because in this case it was nearer than
the road, but because it seemed impossible to go another
way. Yet never in her life had she seen less of
the outward garment of things than she was seeing
this morning. A flouting bobolink flew from stake
to stake in front of her, and bubbled out in melody.
She heard a scythe swishing in a neighboring field,
and the musical call of the mowing-machine afar, and
she did not look up. Dumb to the beautiful outer
world, she was broad awake to human souls: the
souls of the Joyces, alive so long before her and
stretching back into an unknown past. They had
lived, one after another, in the old house, since
colonial times; and now, after this quiet act of a
concluding drama, Dilly was going to lower the curtain,
and sweep them from the stage.
Her mind was peopled with figures.
She thought of Jethro, too. He seemed to be coming
ever nearer and nearer. She could hear his tread
marching into her life, and could see his face.
It was very moving, as she remembered it. A long
line of scholarly forbears had dowered him with a
refinement and grace quite startling in this unornamented
spot, and some old Acadian ancestor had lent him beauty.
His eyes were dark, and they held an unfathomable
melancholy. The line of his forehead and nose
ran haughtily and yet delicate; and even after years
of absence, Dilly sometimes caught her breath when
she thought of the way his head was set upon his shoulders.
She had never in her life seen a man or woman who
was entirely beautiful, and he saturated her longing
like a prodigal stream.
She was a little dazed when she climbed
the low stone wall, crossed the road, and came into
the grassy wilderness of the Joyce back yard.
Nature had triumphed riotously, as she will when niggardly
thrift is away. The grass lay rich and shining,
lodged by last night’s shower, and gate and
cellar-case were choked by it. The cinnamon roses
bloomed in a spicy hardiness of pink, and the gnarled
apple-trees had shed their broken branches, and were
covered with little green buttons of fruit. Dilly
stopped to look about her, and her eyes filled.
The tears were hot; they hurt her, and so recalled
her to the needs of life.
“There!” she said, “I
mustn’t do so!” - and she walked
straight forward through the open shed, and fitted
her key in the lock. The door sagged; but she
pushed it open and stepped in. The deserted kitchen
lay there in desolate order, and the old Willard clock
slept upon the wall. Dilly hastily pushed a chair
before it (this was the only chair old Daniel Joyce
would allow the children to climb in) and wound the
clock. It began ticking slowly, with the old,
remembered sound. Somehow it seemed beautiful
to Dilly that the clock should speak with the voice
of all those years agone; it was a kind of loyalty
which appealed to the soul like a piercing miracle.
Then she ran through to the sitting-room, and started
the old eight-day in the corner; and the house breathed
and was alive again. She threw open the windows,
all save those on the Dilloway side (lest kindly neighbors
should discover she was at home), and the soft rose-scented
air flooded the rooms like an invisible presence, and
bore out the smell of age upon gracious wings.
Now, Dilly worked fast and steadily, lest some human
thing should come upon her. She tied up bedclothes,
and opened long-closed cupboards. She made careful
piles of clothing from the attic; and finally, her
mind a little tired, she sat down on the floor and
began looking over papers and daguerreotypes from
her father’s desk. Just as she had lost
herself in the ancient history of which they were
the signs, there came a knock at the back door.
So assured had become her idea of a continued housekeeping,
that the summons did not seem in the least strange.
The house lived again; it had thrown open its arms
to human kind.
“Come in!” she called;
and a light step sounded in the kitchen and crossed
the sill. It was a man, dark-eyed and very handsome.
“Oh!” murmured Dilly, catching her breath
and holding both hands clasped upon the papers in
her lap. “Jethro!”
The stranger was much moved, and his
black eyes deepened. He looked at her kindly,
perhaps lovingly, too. “Yes,” he said,
at last. “So you’d know me?”
Dilly got lightly up, and the papers
fell about her in a shower; yet she made no motion
toward him. “Oh, yes,” she said softly,
“I should know you. You ain’t changed
at all.”
That was not true. He looked
ten years older than his real age; yet time had only
dowered him with a finer grace and charm. All
the lines in his face were those of gentleness and
truth. His mouth had the old delicate curves.
One meeting him that day might have said, with a throb
of involuntary homage, “How beautiful he must
have been when he was young!” But to Dilly he
bore even a more subtile distinction than in that
far-away time; he had ripened into something harmonizing
with her own years. He came forward a little,
and held out both hands; but Dilly did not take them,
and he dropped the left one. Then she laid her
fingers lightly in his, and they greeted each other
like old acquaintances. A flush rose in her smooth
brown cheek. Her eyes grew bright with that startled
questioning which is of the woods. He looked at
her the more intently, and his breath quickened.
She had none of the blossomy charm of more robust
womanhood; but he recognized the old gypsy element
which had once bewitched him, and felt he loved her
still.
“Well,” he said, and his
voice shook a little, “are you glad to see me?”
Dilly moved back, and sat down in
her mother’s little sewing-chair by the desk.
“I don’t know as I can tell,” she
answered. “This is a strange day.”
Jethro nodded. “I meant
to surprise you,” he said. “So I never
wrote I was coming on so soon. I was real disappointed
to find your house shut up; but the neighbors told
me where you’d gone, and what you’d gone
for. Then I walked over here.”
Dilly’s face brightened all
over with a responsive smile. “Did you come
through the woods?” she asked. “What
made you?”
“Why, I knew you’d go
that way,” he answered. “I thought
you’d get wool-gathering over some weed or another,
and maybe I’d overtake you.”
They both laughed, and the ice was
broken. Dilly got briskly up and gathered a drawer-full
of papers into her apron.
“I can’t stop workin’,”
she said. “I want to fix it so’s not
to stay here more’n one night. Now you
talk! I know what these are. I can run ‘em
over an’ listen too.”
“I think’t was real good
of you to turn in the place to Tom’s folks,”
said Jethro, also seating himself, and, as Dilly saw
with a start, as if it were an omen, in her father’s
great chair. “Not that you’ll ever
need it, Dilly. You won’t want for a thing.
I’ve done real well.”
Dilly’s long fingers assorted
papers and laid them at either side, with a neat precision.
She looked up at him then, and her eyes had again the
quick, inquiring glance of some wild creature in a
situation foreign to its habits.
“Well,” she said, “well!
I guess I don’t resk anything. An’
if I did - why, I’d resk it!”
Jethro bent forward a little.
He was smiling, and Dilly met the glance, half fascinated.
She wondered that she could forget his smile; and yet
she had forgotten it. Like running water, it was
never twice the same.
“Dilly,” said he, much
moved, “you’ll have a good time from this
out, if ever a woman did. You’ll keep house
in a brick block, where the cars run by your door,
and you can hire two girls.”
“Oh, my!” breathed Dilly.
A quick look of trouble darkened her face, as a shadow
sweeps across the field.
“What is it?” asked Jethro,
in some alarm. “Don’t you like what
I said?”
Dilly smiled, though her eyes were still apprehensive.
“It ain’t that,”
she answered slowly, striving in her turn to be kind.
“Only I guess I never happened to think before
just how’t would be. I never spec’lated
much on keepin’ house.”
“But somebody’d have to
keep it,” said Jethro good-naturedly, smiling
on her. “We can get good help. You’ll
like to have a real home table, and you can invite
company every day, if you say so. I never was
close, Dilly, - you know that. I sha’n’t
make you account for things.”
Dilly got up, and, still holding her
papers in her apron, walked swiftly to the window.
There she stood, a moment, looking out into the orchard,
where the grass lay tangled under the neglected, happy
trees. Her eyes traveled mechanically from one
to another. She knew them all. That was
the “sopsyvine,” its red fruitage fast
coming on; there was the Porter she had seen her father
graft; and down in the corner grew the August sweet.
Life out there looked so still and sane and homely.
She knew no city streets, - yet the thought
of them sounded like a pursuit. She turned about,
and came back to her chair.
“I guess I never dreamt how
you lived, Jethro,” she said gently. “But
it don’t make no matter. You’re contented
with it.”
“I ain’t a rich man,”
said Jethro, with some quiet pride; “but I’ve
got enough. Yes, I like my business; and city
life suits me. You’ll fall in with it,
too.”
Then silence settled between them;
but that never troubled Dilly. She was used to
long musings on her walks to and from her patients,
and in her watching beside their beds. Conversation
seemed to her a very spurious thing when there is
nothing to say.
“What you thinking about?” he asked suddenly.
Dilly looked up at him with her bright,
truth-telling glance. “I was thinkin’,”
she answered, with a clarity never ruthless, because
it was so sweet, - “I was thinkin’
you make me homesick, somehow or another.”
Jethro looked at her doubtfully, and
then, as she smiled at him, he smiled also.
“I don’t believe it’s
me,” he said, confidently. “It’s
because you’re going over things here.
It’s the old house.”
“Maybe,” said Dilly, nodding
and tying her last bundle of papers. “But
I don’t know. I never had quite such feelin’s
before. It’s the nearest to bein’
afraid of anything I’ve come acrost. I guess
I shall have to run out into the lot an’ take
my bearin’s.”
Jethro got up, put his hands in his
pockets, and walked about the room. He was very
gentle, but he did at heart cherish the masculine theory
that the unusual in woman is never to be judged by
rules.
“But it is a queer kind of a
day,” owned Dilly, pushing in the last drawer.
“Why, Jethro!” She faced him, and her voice
broke in excitement. “You don’t know,
I ain’t begun to tell you, how queer it seems
to me. Why, I’ve dreaded this day for weeks!
but when it come nigh, it begun to seem to me like
a joyful thing. I felt as if they all knew of
it: them that was gone. It seemed as if
they stood ’round me, ready to uphold me in
what I was doin’. I shouldn’t be surprised
if they were all here now. I don’t feel
a mite alone.”
Her voice shook with excitement; her
eyes were big and black. Jethro came up to her,
and laid a kindly hand on her shoulder. It was
a fine hand, long and shapely, and Dilly, looking
down at it, remembered, with a strange regretfulness,
how she had once loved its lines.
“There, poor girl!” he
said, “you’re tired thinking about it.
No wonder you’ve got fancies. I guess the
ghosts won’t trouble us. There’s nothing
here worse than ourselves.” And again, in
spite of the Joyces, Dilly felt homesick and alone.
There came a soft thudding sound upon
the kitchen floor, and she turned, alert, to listen.
This was Mrs. Eli Pike in her carpet slippers; she
had stood so much over soap-making that week that
her feet had taken to swelling. She was no older
than Dilly, but she had seemed matronly in her teens.
She looked very large, as she padded forward through
the doorway, and her pink face and double chin seemed
to exude kindliness as she came.
“There, Dilly Joyce! if this
ain’t jest like you!” she exclaimed.
“Creep in here an’ not let anybody know!
Why, Jethro, that you? Recognize you! Well,
I guess I should!”
She included them both in a neighborly
glance, and Dilly was very grateful. Yet it seemed
to her that now, at last, she might break down and
cry. The tone of olden friendliness was hard to
bear, when no other voices answered. She could
endure the silent house, but not the intercourse of
a life so sadly changed.
“There!” continued Mrs.
Pike, with a nod, “I guess I know! You’re
tired to pieces with this pickin’ and sortin’,
an’ you’re comin’ over to dinner,
both on ye. Eli’s dressed a hin. I
had to wring her neck. He wouldn’t ha’
done it; you know that, Dilly! An’ I’ve
been beatin’ up eggs. Now don’t you
say one word. You be there by twelve. Jethro,
you got a watch? You see ’t she starts,
now!” And Mrs. Pike marched away victorious,
her apron over her head, and waving one hand before
her as she went. She had once been stung by bees,
on just such a morning as this, and she had a set
theory that they infested all strange dooryards.
Dilly felt as if even the Joyces could
not save her day in its solemn significance unless,
indeed, they should appear in their proper persons.
She thought of her bread and butter and boiled eggs,
lying in her little bundle, and the simple meal seemed
as unattainable as if it were some banquet dreamed
of in delirium. It was of one piece with cars
going by the house, and two maid-servants to correct.
To Dilly, a car meant a shrieking monster propelled
by steam: yet not even that drove her to such
insanity of revulsion as the two servants. They
alone made her coming life seem like one eternal school,
with the committee ever on the platform, and no recess.
But she worked very meekly and soberly, and Jethro
took off his coat and helped her; then, just before
twelve, they washed their hands and went across the
orchard to Mrs. Pike’s.
The rest of the day seemed to Dilly
like a confused though not an unfamiliar dream.
She knew that the dinner was very good, and that it
choked her, so that Mrs. Pike, alert in her first pride
of housekeeping, was quite cordially harsh with her
for not eating more; and that Jethro talked about
Chicago; and Eli Pike, older than his wife and graver,
said “Do tell!” now and again, and seemed
to picture in his mind the outlines of city living.
She escaped from the table as soon as possible, under
pretext of the work to be done, and slipped back to
the empty house; and there Jethro found her, and began
helping her again.
The still afternoon settled down in
its grooves of beauty, and its very loveliness gave
Dilly a pain at the heart. She remembered that
this was the hour when her mother used to yawn over
her long seam, or her knitting, and fall asleep by
the window, while the bees droned outside in the jessamine,
and a humming-bird - there had always been
one, year after year, and Dilly could never get over
the impression that it was the same bird - hovered
on his invisible perch and thrilled his wings divinely.
Then the day slipped over an unseen height, and fell
into a sheltered calm. The work was not done,
and they had to go over to Mrs. Pike’s again
to supper, and to spend the night. Dilly longed
to stretch herself on the old kitchen lounge in her
own home; but Mrs. Pike told her plainly that she
was crazy, and Jethro, with a kindly authority, bade
her yield. And because words were like weapons
that returned upon her to hurt her anew, she did yield,
and talked patiently to one and another neighbor as
they came in to see Jethro, and to inquire when he
meant to be married.
“Soon,” said Jethro, with
assurance. “As soon as Dilly makes up her
mind.”
All that evening, Eli Pike sat on
the steps, where he could hear the talk in the sitting-room
without losing the whippoorwill’s song from the
Joyce orchard, and Dilly longed to slip out and sit
quietly beside him. He would know. But she
could only be civil and grateful, and when half past
eight came, take her lamp and go up to bed. Jethro
was given the best chamber, because he had succeeded
and came from Chicago; but Dilly had a little room
that looked straight out across the treetops down to
her own home.
At first, after closing the door behind
her, she felt only the great blessedness of being
alone. She put out the light and threw herself,
as she was, face downwards on the bed. There
she lay for long moments, suffering; and this was
one of the few times in her life when she was forced
to feel that human pain which is like a stab in the
heart. For she was one of those wise creatures
who give themselves long spaces of silence, and so
heal them quickly of their wounds, like the sage little
animals that slip away from combat, to cure their hurt
with leaves. Presently, a great sense of rest
enfolded her, a rest ineffably precious because it
was so soon to be over. It was like great riches
lent only for a time. Outside this familiar quiet
was the world, thrilled by a terrifying life pressing
upon her and calling. She longed to put her hands
before her eyes, and shut out the possibility of meeting
its garish glory; she did cover her ears, lest its
cry should pierce them and she could not resist.
And so she lay there shivering, until a strange inviting
that was peace and not commotion seemed to approach
her from another side, and her inner self became conscious
of unheard voices. They were not clamorous, but
sweet, and they drowned her will, and drew her to
themselves. She got softly up, and, going to the
darkened window, looked out across the orchard.
There, in the greenness, lay the old house. It
called on her to come. It seemed to Dilly that
she could not make haste enough to be there.
She slipped softly down the narrow stairway, and across
the kitchen, where the shadows of the moonlit windows
lay upon the floor. A great excitement thrilled
her blood; and though quite safe from discovery, she
was not wholly at ease until she had entered the orchard
path, and knew her feet were wet with dew, and heard
the whippoorwill, so near now that she might have
startled him from his neighboring tree. No other
bird note could have fitted her mood so well.
The wild melancholy of his tone, his home in the night,
and the omens blended with his song seemed to remove
him from the world as she herself was removed; and
she hastened on with a fine exaltation, fitted her
key again in the lock, and shut the door behind her.
As soon as Dilly had entered the sitting-room,
where the old desk stood in its place, and the clock
was ticking, she felt as if all her confusion and
trouble were over. She smiled to herself in the
darkness. She had come home, and it was very
good. They had begun with the attic, in their
rearranging, and this room remained unchanged.
It had been her wish to keep it, in its sweet familiarity,
unaltered till the last. She drew forward her
father’s chair, and sat down in it, with luxurious
abandonment, to rest. Her mother’s little
cricket was by her side, and she put her feet on it
and exhaled a long sigh of content. Her eyes
rested on the dark cavern which was the fireplace;
and there fell upon her a sweet sense of completed
bliss, as if it were alight and she could watch the
dancing flames. And suddenly Dilly was aware that
the Joyces were all about her.
She had been sure, in her coming through
the woods, that they knew and cared; now she was certain
that, in some fashion, they recognized their bondage
and loyalty to the place, as she recognized her own,
and that they upheld her to her task. She thought
them over, as she sat there, and saw their souls more
keenly than if she had met them, men and women, face
to face. There was the shoe-maker among them,
who, generations back, was sitting on his bench when
news came of the battle of Lexington, and who threw
down hammer and last, and ran wildly out into the
woods, where he stayed three days and nights, calling
with a loud voice upon Almighty God to save him from
ill-doing. Then he had drowned himself in a little
brook too shallow for the death of any but a desperate
man. He had been the disgrace of the Joyces; they
dared not think of him, and they know, even to this
day, that he is remembered among their townsmen as
the Joyce who was a coward, and killed himself rather
than go to war. But here he stood - was
it the man, or some secret intelligence of him? - and
Dilly, out of all his race, was the one to comprehend
him. She saw, with a thrill of passionate sympathy,
how he had believed with all his soul in the wickedness
of war, and how the wound to his country so roused
in him the desire of blood that he fled away and prayed
his God to save him from mortal guilt, - and
how, finding that he saw with an overwhelming delight
the red of anticipated slaughter, and knew his traitorous
feet were bearing him to the ranks, he chose the death
of the body rather than sin against the soul.
And Dilly was glad; the blood in her own veins ran
purer for his sake.
There was old Delilah Joyce, who went
into a decline for love, and wasted quite away.
She had been one of those tragic fugitives on the
island of being, driven out into the storm of public
sympathy to be beaten and undone; for she was left
on her wedding day by her lover, who vowed he loved
her no more. But now Dilly saw her without the
pathetic bravery of her silken gown which was never
worn, and knew her for a woman serene and glad.
That very day she had unfolded the gown in the attic,
where it had lain, year upon year, wrapped about by
the poignant sympathy of her kin, a perpetual reminder
of the hurts and faithlessness of life. It had
become a relic, set aside from modern use. She
felt now as if she could even wear it herself, though
silk was not for her, or deck some little child in
its shot and shimmering gayety. For it came to
her, with a glad rush of acquiescent joy, that all
his life, the man, though blinded by illusion, had
been true to her whom he had left; and that, instead
of being poor, she was very rich. It was from
that moment that Dilly began to understand that the
soul does not altogether weld its own bonds, but that
they lie in the secret core of things, as the planet
rushes on its appointed way.
There was Annette Joyce, who married
a Stackpole, and, to the disgust of her kin, clung
to him through one debauch after another, until the
world found out that Annette “couldn’t
have much sense of decency herself, or she wouldn’t
put up with such things.” But on this one
night Dilly found out that Annette’s life had
been a continual laying hold of Eternal Being, not
for herself, but for the creature she loved; that she
had shown the insolence and audacity of a thousand
spirits in one, besieging high heaven and crying in
the ear of God: “I demand of Thee this soul
that Thou hast made.” And somehow Dilly
knew now that she was of those who overcome.
So the line stretched on, until she
was aware of souls of which she had never heard; and
she knew that, faulty as their deeds might be, they
had striven, and the strife was not in vain.
She felt herself to be one drop in a mighty river,
flowing into the water which is the sum of life; and
she was content to be absorbed in that great stream.
There was human comfort in the moment, too; for all
about her were those whom she had seen with her bodily
eyes, and their presence brought an infinite cheer
and rest. Dilly felt the safety of the universe;
she smiled lovingly over the preciousness of all its
homely ways. She thought of the twilights when
she had sat on the doorstone, eating huckleberries
and milk, and seeing the sun drop down the west; she
remembered one night when her little cat came home,
after it had been lost, and felt the warm touch of
its fur against her hand. She saw how the great
chain of things is held by such slender links, and
how there is nothing that is not most sacred and most
good. The hum of summer life outside the window
seemed to her the life in her own veins, and she knew
that nothing dwells apart from anything else, and
that, whether we wot of it or not, we are of one blood.
The night went on to that solemn hush
that comes before the dawn. Dilly felt the presence
of the day, and what it would demand of her; but now
she did not fear. For Jethro, too, had been with
her; and at last she understood his power over her
and could lay it away like a jewel in a case, a precious
thing, and yet not to be worn. She saw him, also,
in his stream of being, as she was swept along through
hers, and knew how that old race had given him a beauty
which was not his, but theirs, - and how,
in the melancholy of his eyes, she loved a soul long
passed, and in the wonder of his hand the tender lines
of other hands, waving to fiery action. He was
an inheritor; and she had loved, not him, but his
inheritance.
Now it was the later dusk of night,
and the cocks crowed loudly in a clear diminuendo,
dying far away. Dilly pressed her hands upon her
eyes, and came awake to the outer world. She
looked about the room with a warm smile, and reviewed,
in feeling, her happy night. It was no longer
hard to dismantle the place. The room, the house,
the race were hers forever; she had learned the abidingness
of what is real. When she closed the door behind
her, she touched the casing as if she loved it, and,
crossing the orchard, she felt as if all the trees
could say: “We know, you and we!”
As she entered the Pike farmyard,
Eli was just going to milking, with clusters of shining
pails.
“You’re up early,”
said he. “Well, there’s nothin’
like the mornin’!”
“No,” answered Dilly,
smiling at him with the radiance of one who carries
good news, “except night-time! There’s
a good deal in that!” And while Eli went gravely
on, pondering according to his wont, she ran up to
smooth her tumbled bed.
After breakfast, while Mrs. Pike was
carrying away the dishes, Dilly called Jethro softly
to one side.
“You come out in the orchard. I want to
speak to you.”
Her voice thrilled with something
like the gladness of confidence, and Jethro’s
own face brightened. Dilly read that vivid anticipation,
and caught her breath. Though she knew it now,
the old charm would never be quite gone. She
took his hand and drew him forward. She seemed
like a child, unaffected and not afraid. Out
in the path, under the oldest tree of all, she dropped
his hand and faced him.
“Jethro,” she said, “we
can’t do it. We can’t get married.”
He looked at her amazed. She
seemed to be telling good news instead of bad.
She gazed up at him smilingly. He could not understand.
“Don’t you care about
me?” he asked at length, haltingly; and again
Dilly smiled at him in the same warm confidence.
“Oh, yes,” she said eagerly.
“I do care, ever and ever so much. But it’s
your folks I care about. It ain’t you.
I’ve found it all out, Jethro. Things don’t
al’ays belong to us. Sometimes they belong
to them that have gone before; an’ half the
time we don’t know it.”
Jethro laid a gentle hand upon her
arm. “You’re all tired out,”
he said soothingly. “Now you give up picking
over things, and let me hire somebody. I’ll
be glad to.”
But Dilly withdrew a little from his
touch. “You’re real good, Jethro,”
she answered steadily. She had put aside her exaltation,
and was her old self, full of common-sense and kindly
strength. “But I don’t feel tired,
an’ I ain’t a mite crazed. All you
can do is to ride over to town with Eli - he’s
goin’ after he feeds the pigs - an’
take the cars from there. It’s all over,
Jethro. It is, truly. I ain’t so sorry
as I might be; for it’s borne in on me you won’t
care this way long. An’ you needn’t,
dear; for nothin’ between us is changed a mite.
The only trouble is, it ain’t the kind of thing
we thought.”
She looked in his eyes with a long,
bright farewell glance, and turned away. She
had left behind her something which was very fine and
beautiful; but she could not mourn. And all that
morning, about the house, she sang little snatches
of song, and was content. The Joyces had done
their work, and she was doing hers.