Tiverton Hollow had occasionally an
evening meeting; this came about naturally whenever
religious zeal burned high, or when the congregation
felt, with some uneasiness, that it had remained too
long aloof from spiritual things. To-night, the
schoolhouse had been designated for an assembling
place, and the neighborhood trooped thither, animated
by an excited importance, and doing justice to the
greatness of the occasion by “dressing up.”
Farmers had laid aside their ordinary mood, with overalls
and jumpers, and donned an uncomfortable solemnity,
an enforced attitude of theological reflection, with
their stocks. Wives had urged their patient fingers
into cotton gloves, and in cashmere shawls, and bonnets
retrimmed with reference to this year’s style,
pressed into the uncomfortable chairs, and folded
their hands upon the desks before them in a sweet
seriousness not unmingled with the desire of thriftily
completing a duty no less exigent than pickle-making,
or the work of spring and fall. Last came the
boys, clattering with awkward haste over the dusty
floor which had known the touch of their bare feet
on other days. They looked about the room with
some awe and a puzzled acceptance of its being the
same, yet not the same. It was their own.
There were the maps of North and South America; the
yellowed evergreens, relic of “Last Day,”
still festooned the windows, and an intricate “sum,”
there explained to the uncomprehending admiration
of the village fathers, still adorned the blackboard.
Yet the room had strangely transformed itself into
an alien temple, invaded by theology and the breath
of an unknown world. But though sobered, they
were not cast down; for the occasion was enlivened,
in their case, by a heaven-defying profligacy of intent.
Every one of them knew that Sammy Forbes had in his
pocket a pack of cards, which he meant to drop, by
wicked but careless design, just when Deacon Pitts
led in prayer, and that Tom Drake was master of a
concealed pea-shooter, which he had sworn, with all
the asseverations held sacred by boys, to use at some
dramatic moment. All the band were aware that
neither of these daring deeds would be done. The
prospective actors themselves knew it; but it was
a darling joy to contemplate the remote possibility
thereof.
Deacon Pitts opened the meeting, reminding
his neighbors how precious a privilege it is for two
or three to be gathered together. His companion
had not been able to come. (The entire neighborhood
knew that Mrs. Pitts had been laid low by an attack
of erysipelas, and that she was, at the moment, in
a dark bedroom at home, helpless under elderblow.)
“She lays there on a bed of
pain,” said the deacon. “But she says
to me, ‘You go. Better the house o’
mournin’ than the house o’ feastin’,’
she says. Oh, my friends! what can be more blessed
than the counsel of an aged and feeble companion?”
The deacon sat down, and Tom Drake,
his finger on the pea-shooter, assured himself, in
acute mental triumph, that he had almost done it that
time.
Then followed certain incidents eminently
pleasing to the boys. To their unbounded relief,
Sarah Frances Giles rose to speak, weeping as she
began. She always wept at prayer meeting, though
at the very moment of asserting her joy that she cherished
a hope, and her gratitude that she was so nearly at
an end of this earthly pilgrimage and ready to take
her stand on the sea of glass mingled with fire.
The boys reveled in her testimony. They were
in a state of bitter uneasiness before she rose, and
gnawed with a consuming impatience until she began
to cry. Then they wondered if she could possibly
leave out the sea of glass; and when it duly came,
they gave a sigh of satiated bliss and sank into acquiescence
in whatever might happen. This was a rich occasion
to their souls, for Silas Marden, who was seldom moved
by the spirit, fell upon his knees to pray; but at
the same unlucky instant, his sister-in-law, for whom
he cherished an unbounded scorn, rose (being “nigh-eyed”
and ignorant of his priority) and began to speak.
For a moment, the two held on together, “neck
and neck,” as the happy boys afterward remembered,
and then Silas got up, dusted his knees, and sat down,
not to rise again at any spiritual call. “An’
a madder man you never see,” cried all the Hollow
next day, in shocked but gleeful memory.
Taking it all in all, the meeting
had thus far mirrored others of its class. If
the droning experiences were devoid of all human passion,
it was chiefly because they had to be expressed in
the phrases of strict theological usage. There
was an unspoken agreement that feelings of this sort
should be described in a certain way. They were
not the affairs of the hearth and market; they were
matters pertaining to that awful entity called the
soul, and must be dressed in the fine linen which she
had herself elected to wear.
Suddenly, in a wearisome pause, when
minds had begun to stray toward the hayfield and to-morrow’s
churning, the door was pushed open, and the Widow
Prime walked in. She was quite unused to seeking
her kind, and the little assembly at once awoke, under
the stimulus of surprise. They knew quite well
where she had been walking: to Sudleigh Jail,
to visit her only son, lying there for the third time,
not, as usual, for drunkenness, but for house-breaking.
She was a wiry woman, a mass of muscles animated by
an eager energy. Her very hands seemed knotted
with clenching themselves in nervous spasms.
Her eyes were black, seeking, and passionate, and
her face had been scored by fine wrinkles, the marks
of anxiety and grief. Her chocolate calico was
very clean, and her palm-leaf shawl and black bonnet
were decent in their poverty. The vague excitement
created by her coming continued in a rustling like
that of leaves. The troubles of Hannah Prime’s
life had been very bitter - so bitter that
she had, as Deacon Pitts once said, after undertaking
her conversion, turned from “me and the house
of God.” A quickening thought sprang up
now in the little assembly that she was “under
conviction,” and that it had become the present
duty of every professor to lead her to the throne
of grace. This was an exigency for which none
were prepared. At so strenuous a challenge, the
old conventional ways of speech fell down and collapsed
before them, like creatures filled with air.
Who should minister to one set outside their own comfortable
lives by bitter sorrow and wounded pride? What
could they offer a woman who had, in one way or another,
sworn to curse God and die? It was Deacon Pitts
who spoke, but in a tone hushed to the key of the unexpected.
“Has any one an experience to
offer? Will any brother or sister lead in prayer?”
The silence was growing into a thing
to be recognized and conquered, when, to the wonder
of her neighbors, Hannah Prime herself rose. She
looked slowly about the room, gazing into every face
as if to challenge an honest understanding. Then
she began speaking in a low voice thrilled by an emotion
not yet explained. Unused to expressing herself
in public, she seemed to be feeling her way.
The silence, pride, endurance, which had been her
armor for many years, were no longer apparent; she
had thrown down all her defenses with a grave composure,
as if life suddenly summoned her to higher issues.
“I dunno’s I’ve
got an experience to offer,” she said. “I
dunno’s it’s religion. I dunno what
’t is. Mebbe you’d say it don’t
belong to a meetin’. But when I come by
an’ see you all settin’ here, it come over
me I’d like to tell somebody. Two weeks
ago I was most crazy” - She paused
of necessity, for something broke in her voice.
“That’s the afternoon
Jim was took,” whispered a woman to her neighbor.
Hannah Prime went on.
“I jest as soon tell it now.
I can tell ye all together what I couldn’t say
to one on ye alone; an’ if anybody speaks to
me about it arterwards, they’ll wish they hadn’t.
I was all by myself in the house. I set down
in my clock-room, about three in the arternoon, an’
there I set. I didn’t git no supper.
I couldn’t. I set there an’ heard
the clock tick. Byme-by it struck seven, an’
that waked me up. I thought I’d gone crazy.
The figgers on the wall-paper provoked me most to death;
an’ that red-an’-white tidy I made, the
winter I was laid up, seemed to be talkin’ out
loud. I got up an’ run outdoor jest as fast
as I could go. I run out behind the house an’
down the cart-path to that pile o’ rocks that
overlooks the lake; an’ there I got out o’
breath an’ dropped down on a big rock.
An’ there I set, jest as still as I’d been
settin’ when I was in the house.”
Here a little girl stirred in her
seat, and her mother leaned forward and shook her,
with alarming energy. “I never was so hard
with Mary L. afore,” she explained the next
day, “but I was as nervous as a witch. I
thought, if I heard a pin drop, I should scream.”
“I dunno how long I set there,”
went on Hannah Prime, “but byme-by it begun
to come over me how still the lake was. ‘Twas
like glass; an’ way over where it runs in ’tween
them islands, it burnt like fire. Then I looked
up a little further, to see what kind of a sky there
was. ’T was light green, with clouds in
it, all fire, an’ it begun to seem to me as
if it was a kind o’ land an’ water up there - like
our’n, on’y not solid. I set there
an’ looked at it; an’ I picked out islands,
an’ ma’sh-land, an’ p’ints
running out into the yeller-green sea. An’
everything grew stiller an’ stiller. The
loons struck up, down on the lake, with that kind
of a lonesome whinner; but that on’y made the
rest of it seem quieter. An’ it begun to
grow dark all ’round me. I dunno’s
I ever noticed before jest how the dark comes.
It sifted down like snow, on’y you couldn’t
see it. Well, I set there, an’ I tried to
keep stiller an’ stiller, like everything else.
Seemed as if I must. An’ pretty soon I
knew suthin’ was walkin’ towards me over
the lot. I kep’ my eyes on the sky; for
I knew ‘twould break suthin’ if I turned
my head, an’ I felt as if I couldn’t bear
to. An’ It come walkin’, walkin’,
without takin’ any steps or makin’ any
noise, till It come right up ‘side o’ me
an’ stood still. I didn’t turn round.
I knew I mustn’t. I dunno whether It touched
me; I dunno whether It said anything - but
I know It made me a new creatur’. I knew
then I shouldn’t be afraid o’ things no
more - nor sorry. I found out ’t
was all right. ‘I’m glad I’m
alive,’ I said. ’I’m thankful!’
Seemed to me I’d been dead for the last twenty
year. I’d come alive.
“An’ so I set there an’
held my breath, for fear ’twould go. I dunno
how long, but the moon riz up over my left shoulder,
an’ the sky begun to fade. An’ then
it come over me ‘twas goin’. I knew
’twas terrible tender of me, an’ sorry,
an’ lovin’, an’ so I says, ’Don’t
you mind; I won’t forgit!’ An’ then
It went. But that broke suthin’, an’
I turned an’ see my own shadder on the grass;
an’ I thought I see another, ’side of it.
Somehow that scairt me, an’ I jumped up an’
whipped it home without lookin’ behind me.
Now that’s my experience,” said Hannah
Prime, looking her neighbors again in the face, with
dauntless eyes. “I dunno what ‘twas,
but it’s goin’ to last. I ain’t
afraid no more, an’ I ain’t goin’
to be. There ain’t nuthin’ to worry
about. Everything’s bigger’n we think.”
She folded her shawl more closely about her and moved
toward the door. There she again turned to her
neighbors.
“Good-night!” she said, and was gone.
They sat quite still until the tread
of her feet had ceased its beating on the dusty road.
Then, by one consent, they rose and moved slowly out.
There was no prayer that night, and “Lord dismiss
us” was not sung.