With all the disquiet it had been
an unusually gay summer for Philadelphia, even after
the General and Mrs. Washington had bidden it adieu.
For in June there had been a great fête given by the
French minister in honor of the birth of the Dauphin,
the heir to the throne of France. M. de Luzerne’s
residence was brilliantly illuminated, and a great
open-air pavilion, with arches and colonnades, bowers,
and halls with nymphs and statues, even Mars leaning
on his shield, and Hebe holding Jove’s cup.
It was seldom indeed that the old Carpenter mansion
had seen such a sight.
There were elegant women and brave
men, though the Mischianza crowd had been widely scattered.
The girls had danced, and chatted in French as far
as they knew how, and enjoyed themselves to the full,
and the elders had sat down to an almost royal banquet.
Polly and Primrose had been among the belles.
Then there had been a grand Fourth
of July celebration. A civic banquet, with Morris,
Dickinson, Mifflin, and many another. Bells were
rung and cannons fired, the Schuylkill was gay with
pleasure parties and fluttering flags and picnic dinners
along its winding and pleasant banks. And then
in August they had most loyally kept the French King’s
birthday with banquets and balls. And though financial
ruin was largely talked of, a writer of the times
declares “No other city was so rich, so extravagant,
and so fashionable.”
And yet withal there was a serious
and sensible element. There had before the war
been many years of unexampled prosperity; and though
there might be a whirl, people soon came back to reasonable
living.
Truth to tell, Philemon Henry was
becoming quite captivated with the city of his birth
and his later adoption. And as he began to understand
Madam Wetherill’s views for his own future as
well as that of his cousin, he was amazed at her generosity.
“Nay, it is not simple generosity,” she
declared with great vigor. “There is no
reason why you two should not make a place for yourselves
in the new city, such as your father held in the old.
Perhaps wider, for your father would have nothing
to do with government, and a man ought to take some
interest in the civic prosperity of his city as well
as money-getting. Mr. Wetherill, whether wisely
or not, put much money in property, and it has been
a dead weight mostly. But now the time has come
to improve it, and with peace there will be many changes
and much work to do. I have grown too old, and
a woman cannot well attend to it. Younger blood
and strength must take it up. Then if
we make some mistakes, there is no one to suffer,
though I did not expect to give even two well-trained
colts their heads altogether.”
He smiled, but there was a soft mistiness in his eyes.
“I can never thank you,” he said unsteadily.
“I must trust someone, you see.
Mr. Northfield is too old, Mr. Morris has his hands
full; indeed, I can think of no one better. I
have some of the Wardour willfulness, and take my
own way about things. I do not often make mistakes.
This is no sudden notion of mine.”
“There is one thing, madam,
I must explain before we go farther. I am I
have” he paused and flushed in embarrassment “there
is an understanding between myself and Miss Polly
Wharton, not an engagement, for as yet I have had
no certainty to offer. But we care very much for
each other.”
Madam Wetherill gave a quick nod or
two and there was a smile in her bright eyes.
“Polly will make a good wife.
Thou couldst hardly have chosen better. I would
speak to Mr. Wharton and have the matter settled now.
If he had not been of a consenting mind, thou wouldst
hardly have found a welcome entrance for so long in
his home.”
“Madam I never dreamed of being so
happy.”
“Oh, no doubt thou wilt be much
happier on thy wedding day,” and she laughed
with a bright sparkle of amusement. “I am
fond of young people, though they do many foolish
things.”
“But my sister?” he said
suddenly. “We have forgotten about her.
All these years of thy kind care ”
“Well what of her?
I loved her mother. I never had a child of my
own, though a hen rarely runs after another hen’s
chicks. The little moppet stole into my heart,
and by just raising her eyes inveigled me into fighting
for her. Miss Primrose Henry has all the fortune
it is good for a girl to have, and she is a gay butterfly
to go dancing about for the next few years. Indeed,
I believe she has quite made up her mind to stay single,
to have many admirers, but no husband. It may
not be a good plan, but there have been some famous
old maids, Queen Elizabeth, for instance, while
poor Marie Stuart began with husbands early and lost
her head. We can dismiss Miss Primrose to her
pleasures.”
Then they talked long and earnestly.
Andrew Henry was coming home, and the matter would
be settled.
And settled it was speedily.
Andrew, having been consulted before, was not so much
taken by surprise, but his gratitude was none the less
fervent. And one Sunday morning Polly walked very
proudly up the aisle in Christ Church, with her brother
on one side, and her lover on the other, right behind
her parents, and when they were seated in Mr. Wharton’s
pew, Polly was in the middle with her lover beside
her, and he found the places in her prayer book and
made responses with her and sang joyfully in the hymns.
Coming out she took his arm, and blushed a good deal
as people smiled at her. It was a fashion then,
and everybody knew it was a sign of engagement.
“The young Englishman is very
good-looking,” said Miss Morris, “but I
shall set my cap for the Quaker cousin. What a
pity he gives up war and discards soldier clothes,
for there is scarcely such a fine-appearing general!”
The young Quaker, mature and manly
for his years, took hold of business as if it had
been his birthright. Perhaps it had come to him
with the resemblance to his uncle. And when Philemon
Nevitt decided to take back his father’s name,
Polly and Primrose rejoiced wildly.
Primrose threw her arms around his
neck and gave him many of the kisses she had used
to be so chary about.
“Now you are my own dear brother!”
she exclaimed, and the satisfaction rang through her
voice like a bell. “No king can ever claim
you again.”
“Unless we have a king.”
“But we are not going to have a king. We
are all born free and equal.”
“Julius and Joe and the old
Pepper Pot woman, and the Calamus boys?” with
a mischievous smile.
“The slaves are all going to
be free. We cannot do everything in a moment.
And the equality ” Primrose
was rather nonplused.
“Yes, the equality,” with
a triumphant lifting of the brows.
“I think the equality means
this: that everyone shall have a right to try
for the best places, and no one shall push him down.
To try for education and happiness, and if he is full
up to the brim and content, even if he has not as
much as the other, isn’t there a certain equalization?”
“Primrose, I fear thou wilt
be a sophist before thy hundred years are ended,”
said her brother with a soft pinch of her rosy cheek.
The Randolphs had considered the feasibility
of returning south, but Madam Wetherill begged them
not to try homelessness with winter coming on.
And at Cherry Farm there was one supremely happy woman,
Lois Henry.
“Madam Wetherill is more than
good to thee,” she said to her son with a thankfulness
that trembled in her voice. “How one can
be mistaken in souls under gay garbs. Indeed
it is as the child used to say, ’God made all
beautiful things, and nothing is to be called common
or unclean, or high and lofty and wasteful.’
I am more glad than I can say that thou hast returned
to the fashion of the Friends again, but thou art a
man to look well in nice attire, and truly one serveth
God with the heart and not with the clothes, except
that neatness should be observed. The Lord hath
given Madam Wetherill a large heart, and she holds
no rancor.”
“She is one in a thousand,” was the fervent
reply.
And then Andrew described one of several
cottages on Chestnut Street that belonged to the estate
of Miss Primrose Henry, and was to rent. There
was a small court in front, a grassy space at the side
with a cherry tree and a pear tree, and a garden at
the back for vegetables.
“For I must have thee in the
city near by,” he said, “so I can come
in to dinner at noon, and spend most of my evenings
with thee. Mr. Franklin’s old paper, the
Gazette, is to be brought out again, and we
shall know what is going on. And we will find
a meeting house near by, and take great comfort with
each other after our seasons of sorrow and separation.”
“My son, my dear son! I
bless the Lord for thee every day. He hath given
me the oil of joy for mourning.”
Andrew had greeted Rachel with great
cordiality. He was grateful that she had cared
so kindly for his mother, though Faith had been the
more tender. Penn was settled in part of his
new house and very content. Indeed his love for
Clarissa was something of a thorn in Rachel’s
side, but she paid small attention to it outwardly.
When Andrew laid his plan before her, however, her
very heart sank within her.
“She is to have her living here.
I am sure, Andrew, as God is my witness, that I have
been like a daughter to her. She hath said so
herself. My own mother is dead, let her remain
in the place. And thou thou wilt marry
sometime ”
“A long while yet. I am
her son and want her, and she is ready and pleased
to come. It is but right and natural. As
for the living, make no account of that. When
we want a holiday it may be pleasant to come out to
the farm.”
That was a straw and she caught quickly
at it. But in any event she saw that she could
not help nor hinder.
Primrose took Polly with her to see
what should be put in the cottage.
“There are many new things to
make work handy, and comforts. Andrew must have
a settle here in the living room and it shall be my
pleasure to make cushions for it. And oh, Polly,
he has learned to smoke while he was soldiering!
Of course Aunt Lois will want some of the old things,
and she has chests of bed and table linen. But
we can buy some plates and cups. Aunt Lois had
some pretty Delft ware that I used to dry on nice
soft towels when I was a little girl. We will
hunt the city over to find Delft.”
They were delightfully engrossed with
shopping. The stores were displaying tempting
aspects again and merchants were considering foreign
trade. But it was quite ridiculous, though no
one saw it in just that light then, that one should
take with them a thousand or so dollars to do a morning’s
buying. But when a frying pan cost sixty dollars
and three cups and saucers one hundred and fifty,
and a table two hundred, money soon went. There
was plenty of it, to be sure. Congress ordered
new issues when it fell short.
People still watched out for Quaker
sales: that is, Quakers who refused to pay certain
taxes had their belongings seized and sold, and women
were as ready for bargains then as now.
Faith took counsel of the trustees
who had been appointed for her, and found that she
could get away from her sister’s home. So
she begged Aunt Lois to take her, as they would need
some help. Andrew opposed this at first, fearing
it would lead to trouble, and Rachel was very angry.
But on second thought she decided it would be wiser.
For by this means she would still have some hold over
them all. On condition that Faith would come
home every fortnight for a little visit she consented,
and though Faith, trained long in repression, said
but little, her heart beat with great joy. Rachel
had kept a Swedish woman nearly all summer for out-of-door
work, and now engaged her for the winter. By spring,
certainly, she would know what lay before her.
William Frost, who had once been in
the habit of walking home with her, was married.
A well-to-do farmer living up the Wissahickon had called
a number of times, but he had four children, and Rachel
had no mind to give up her home for hard work and
little thanks. She was still young, and with
her good marriage portion would not go begging.
But the choice of her heart, the best love of her
heart all her life, would be Andrew Henry, and she
felt the child and the girl, Primrose, had always stood
in her way. If she would only marry!
But Primrose was having a lovely winter.
True, there were times when Allin Wharton grew a little
too tender, and she would tease him in her willful
fashion, or be very cool to him, or sometimes treat
him in an indifferent and sisterly fashion, so difficult
to surmount. There were so many others, though
Primrose adroitly evaded steady admirers. When
they grew too urgent she fled out to the farm and Betty.
There was great fun, too, in planning
for wedding gear. Polly’s sister, Margaret,
was grown up now, and Polly was to be married in the
late spring, and go out to the farm all summer, as
the Randolphs had fully decided to return to Virginia
in April. Mr. Randolph would go a month or two
earlier to see about a home to shelter them. For
although the treaty of peace had not been signed it
was an accepted fact, and everybody settled to it.
Old Philadelphia woke up to the fact
that she must make herself nearly all over. Low
places were drained, bridges built, new docks constructed,
and rows of houses went up. The wildernesses about,
that had grown to brushwood, were cleared away.
Hills were to be lowered, and there was a famous one
in Arch Street.
“Nay, I should not know the
place without it,” declared Madam Wetherill.
“It will answer for my time, and after that do
as you like.”
But she was to go out of Arch Street
years before her death, though she did not live to
be one hundred and two.
The taverns made themselves more decorous
and respectable, the coffee houses were really attractive,
the theater ventured to offer quite a variety of plays,
and the assemblies began in a very select fashion.
There was also a more general desire for intelligence,
and the days of “avoiding Papishers and learning
to knit” as the whole duty of women were at
an end.
There were grace and ease and refinement
and wit, and a peaceable sort of air since Congress
had gone to Princeton.
Midwinter brought out-of-door amusements,
though the season seemed short, for spring came early,
and in March parties were out hunting for trailing
arbutus and hardy spring flowers, exchanging tulip
bulbs and dividing rose bushes, as well as putting
out trees and fine shrubbery that was to make the
city a garden for many a long year.
Primrose danced and was merry, and
skated with Allin Wharton when Polly and Phil could
go, but she was very wary of confining herself to one.
She dropped in and cheered Aunt Lois and fascinated
Faith with her bright talk and her bright gowns and
the great bow under her chin, for even if it was gray
it seemed the softest and most bewildering color that
ever was worn. Then she rode out and spent two
or three days frolicking with Betty’s babies,
and came home more utterly fascinating than before.
“Oh, Primrose!” said Madam
Wetherill, “I cannot think what to do with thee.
Thou wilt presently be the talk of the town.”
“Oh, I think I will go to Virginia
with Betty and bury myself in a great southern forest
where no one can find me. And I will take along
pounds of silk and knit some long Quaker stockings
for Andrew, with beautiful clocks in them. Hast
thou not remarked, dear aunt, that he betrays a tendency
toward worldliness?”
“Thou art too naughty, Primrose.”
It was fortunate for women’s
purses that one did not need so many gowns as at the
present day, even if they did take out with them marvelous
sums. But thinking men were beginning to see the
evil of the old Continental money and trying to devise
something better, with that able financier, Robert
Morris, at their head.
The wedding finery was bought, and
the looms at Germantown supplied webs of cloth to
be made up in table napery and bedding. There
were old laces handed down, and some brocade petticoats,
and two trained gowns that had come from England long
before. Primrose and Margaret Wharton were bridesmaids,
and, oddly enough, Captain Vane, for he had arrived
at that dignity, came from Newburgh on a furlough
and stood with Margaret, so the foes and the friends
were all together. It was a very fine wedding,
and at three in the afternoon Mr. and Mrs. Philemon
Nevitt Henry were put in a coach, a great luxury then,
and went off in splendid state, with a supply of old
slippers thrown after them for good luck.
Captain Vane had lost his estate,
that was a foregone conclusion. The next of kin
had acted and proved the estates forfeited.
“And now I am a true buff-and-blue
American,” he said proudly to Madam Wetherill.
“I shall remain a military man, for the spirit
and stir of the life inspire me, and there seems nothing
else for me to do. Phil, I think, was only a
half-hearted soldier, and business suits him much
better. After all, one can see that he is at home
among his kinsfolk. Perhaps there was a little
of the old Quaker leaven in him that England could
not quite work out. He has a charming wife, and
a friend such as few men find;” bowing low and
kissing the lady’s hand.
A party of guests went out to the
farm to have a gay time with the young couple.
It was Primrose’s birthday, but it never rained
a drop. And it would have been hard to tell which
was the heroine of the occasion, Primrose or Polly.
And, oh, the verses that were made! some halting and
some having altogether too many feet. There were
dancing and jollity and every room was crowded.
They had coaxed Betty to stay and she was very charming;
quite too young, everybody said, to be a widow with
two babies.
Philemon Henry held his pretty sister
to his heart and gave her eighteen kisses for her
birthday.
“Dear, thou hast so many gifts
on all occasions,” he said, “that a brother’s
best love is all I can bestow upon thee now. When
I am a rich man it may be otherwise. Polly and
thee will always be the dearest of sisters, and I
hope to be a faithful son to Madam Wetherill.”
Primrose wiped some tears from her lovely eyes.
“That is the best any man can be,” she
made answer.
It was a very gay fortnight, and Allin
Wharton was so angry and so wretched that he scarce
knew how to live. Captain Vane was handsome and
fascinating, and a hero from having lost his estates,
and there were a full hundred reasons why he should
be attractive to a woman. He believed Andrew
Henry was no sort of rival beside him. Of course
Primrose would what a fool he had been
to take Polly’s advice and wait!
But Primrose had been very wise and
very careful for such a pretty, pleasure-loving girl.
There had been something in Gilbert Vane’s eyes
that told the story, and she understood now what it
was: the sweetest and noblest story a man can
tell a woman, but a woman may not always be ready
to hear it, and now some curious knowledge had come
to Primrose she would never be ready to
hear this.
She had threaded her way skillfully
through every turning, she had jested and parried
until she was amazed at her own resources. The
last morning Madam Wetherill was suddenly called down
to the office about the transfer of some property,
and she had not been gone ten minutes when Captain
Vane was announced.
He was very disappointed not to see
madam of course. Primrose was shy
and looked like a bird about to fly somewhere, but
so utterly bewitching that his whole heart went out
to her.
“Oh, you sweetest, dearest Primrose!”
he cried, and caught her hand in such a clasp that
she could not pull it away. “I love you,
love you! and yet I have no business to say it, a
soldier of fortune, who has nothing now but his sword,
and his patriotism for the country of his adoption all
his fortune yet to make. But it will not hurt
you, dear, to know that a man loves you with his whole
soul and hopes for nothing.”
But his wistful eyes told another story.
“Oh, why did you say it?” she cried, full
of regret.
“Because I could not help it.
Oh, I know it is useless, and yet I would give half
a lifetime nay, all of it for
a year or two of such bliss as Phil is having, to
hold you in my arms, to call you my wife, my dear
wife,” and his tone thrilled her with exquisite
pain, but something akin to pleasure as well.
“Primrose, you are the sweetest flower of the
world, but it could never be never; tell
me so, darling. Much as it pains you, say ‘no.’
For if you do not I shall always dream. And I
am a soldier and can meet my fate.”
He dropped her hand and stood before
her straight, strong, and proud; entreaty written
in every line of his face. She covered hers with
her hands to shut out the sight and tried vainly to
find her voice.
“Nay, dear,” he took the
hands down tenderly and saw tears and blushes, but
not the look he wanted. “That was cruel,
unmanly. If it were ‘yes’ there would
be no tears, and so I am answered. It is not your
fault. You have a grander, nobler lover than
I. But it has been sweet to love you. From almost
the first I have loved you, when you were a little
girl and I longed to have you for my sister.
It will not hurt you, as the years go on, to know
you won a soldier for your country and a lifelong
patriot. And I know Andrew Henry will not grudge
me one kiss. God give thee all happiness.
Good-by.”
He pressed his lips to her forehead and turned.
“God bless thee,” she
said, and he bowed reverently as he went out of the
room.
She stood quite still, never heeding
the tears that dropped on the front of her gown.
Andrew Henry! Her dear, dear cousin, who was like
a brother. Did he love her that way? Did
she love him? And if she did there was her solemn
promise to Rachel.
She ran upstairs and had a good cry.
“Whatever is the matter?”
asked Patty. “You are fuller of whims than
an egg is of meat, for the egg has a breathing space
if the chick wants it. Not an hour ago you were
laughing like a mocking bird. You had better
have a pitcher of sweet balm for your nerves.
You have dissipated too much, but thank Heaven there
are no more weddings near by.”
Primrose dried her eyes and laughed
again presently. It was noon when Madam Wetherill
returned. Attorney Chew had been in with some
new plans that were quite wonderful.
“And Captain Vane to say good-by.
What friends he and Phil are! But he is a soldier
born, if ever there was one. And he looked so
fine and spirited. He said he had been here.”
“For a few minutes, yes.
And now, dear madam, when you are rested, can we have
a better afternoon to ride out to the Pembertons’?
I have promised some books to Julia, and that new
sleeve pattern, and to-morrow Polly comes in.”
“Well, child yes,
after my nap. ’Tis a lovely day, and every
day is so busy. Yes, we will go.”
She hath escaped that danger, Madam
Wetherill thought. And in her heart she honored
the brave soldier; how brave, she was never quite to
know.
Was there ever a summer without diversions?
There was a new interest in plants and flowers.
Parties went out to John Bartram’s, the quaint
old house with its wide doorway and the great vines
that had climbed over it for years, until they had
grown thick as a man’s wrist, almost hiding
the names cut in the stone long ago, of John and Elizabeth
Bartram. The old garden of flowers and the ferns
were worth some study. And there were rambles
in the lanes, going after wild strawberries, and even
the venturesome ones went on the sly to Dunk’s
Ferry and had their fortune told by Old Alice.
There were many little shrieks and giggles, and joyous
or protesting confidences afterward.
And now Primrose thought, as she had
years before, that she was quite torn in two.
Did she love Andrew Henry with an absorbing love, such
as Polly had for her brother? Another face and
another voice haunted her. She dreamed of Allin
Wharton. This night they were sailing up the lovely
Schuylkill and pausing under the overhanging trees
to hear the birds who were saying, “Sweet, sweet,
I love you,” and then Allin would look up at
her.
Then they were at the farm. Betty
and the babies were gone now, and she missed them
sorely. But Allin came out with Phil, and Phil
walked off with Polly. Would they never get talked
out? Then Allin would draw her out in some fragrant
nook and look at her with upbraiding eyes. Or,
it was vivacious Peggy who would drag her in to tea,
and then some girl would come and she and Allin be
left alone again.
Then, by day and in real life, she
was cross and tormenting to him. Desperately
sorry afterward, for now she had no ambition to be
bad-tempered. Everything had come out to her satisfaction.
Phil was the dearest of brothers, and prospering,
and Madam Wetherill was elated with her successful
firm. The prestige of the elder Henry dropped
its mantle over them. And as for Polly, there
could not be a wiser, sweeter wife. Then Aunt
Lois was so tranquilly happy, and Faith growing brighter,
yes, prettier, and buying grays with a peachy or lavender
tint instead of that snuffy yellow, or dismally cold
stone color, and coaxing Andrew, sometimes, to go
to Christ Church to hear the singing or the tender
prayers where the people could all say “Amen.”
Oh, what was the matter that she was
not happy and satisfied!
Allin was studying hard and well,
and growing more manly every day. And at last
he made up his mind there should be no more shilly-shallying.
For when Primrose was tender and sweet he knew she
loved him. She was yes, a little bit
jealous when he wandered too far in a half angry,
half desperate moment.
So one evening he came upon her all
alone. Miss Jeffries had begged madam so to come
in to a little card party, for now her father was quite
lame and could not get out much, and rather deaf, and
altogether disheartened about England conquering America.
Therefore it was a charity to visit him.
“And lose my money now,”
she said with a good-natured laugh.
Now Primrose could not shelter herself
behind Polly nor Phil. She was sweet and startled,
and a dozen things that made her lovelier than ever,
with a betraying color coming and going in her charming
face. And the lover took sudden heart. How
many times he had planned the scene. There was
a lover in an old novel that won an obdurate lady,
and he had rehearsed the arguments numberless times,
they were so fine and convincing. Oh, how did
they begin?
He reached over suddenly and took
her in his arms and kissed the fragrant lips again
and again.
“Primrose,” just above
his breath, “you know I love you. You must
have seen it ages ago, that morning you came, do
you remember, when I had been wounded,
and how we talked and talked, and you sung. I
couldn’t bear to have you go. You were
the sweetest and dearest and most lovely thing in
the whole wide world. Polly had talked so much
about you. And ever since that you have been
a part of my very life. I’ve been jealous,
and angry when you smiled on others, and you do it
so much, Primrose; and when that handsome young Vane
was here I remembered how you loved soldiers and was well
I could have waylaid him and done anything to him,
but that wouldn’t have won you. I’ve
waited so long. And now, Primrose, you must give
me a little hope. Just say you will love me sometime.
Oh, no! I can’t wait, either. Primrose,
my darling, the sweetness and glory of my life, love
me now, now.”
The words came out like a torrent
and carried her along. The kisses had gone down
to her very soul. The clasp of his hands thrilled
her.
“Primrose, my sweetest darling ”
It seemed as if she was under a spell.
She tried to free herself, but she had no strength.
Other men had said silly things, but this was like
a swift rush of music, and she was sure no one had
ever uttered Primrose in such an exquisitely delicious
tone before.
“Oh, Allin!” in a half sigh.
All the answer was kisses.
“Allin, Allin! Oh, let me yes,
let me free. I must tell you ”
“You must tell me nothing, save
that you love me. I will listen to nothing else.
Primrose, sweetest, dearest ”
“Oh, hush, Allin, let me think ”
If she did not mean to love him he
would know it by some sure sign. The hesitation,
the half yielding tells its own story.
And the very foolishness of love went
to her heart. The vehemence, the ownership in
its fearlessness, the persuasive certainty. Of
course she had known it all along, she had feared
now on the side of distance, now that he might speak
too soon, then wondered if he would ever speak at
all, while she was all the while putting him off, strange
contradiction.
“Say that you love me.
Just say it once and I will live on it for weeks.”
“Oh, Allin, you would grow thin!”
She gave a little half-hysterical laugh. And
then something stole over her, an impression vague,
inexplicable, that she did not quite belong to herself.
Was there someone who had a better right than Allin?
Before she gave herself irrevocably to this delightful
young lover, she must be sure, quite sure.
“What is it, Primrose?”
for he had noted the change, the almost paleness that
drowned out the beautiful, radiant flush that was happiness,
satisfaction.
“Oh, Primrose, surely you did
not, do not love Captain Vane?”
There was a struggle in her soul,
in her pulses, an unseen power that grasped her and
for a moment almost rendered her breathless.
“No, I did not love him but
he ”
“Oh, I know. It is hard
winning what everyone wants,” he answered moodily.
“But tell me one good reason why you cannot love
me.”
As if there was no good reason she was silent.
“I really couldn’t stand
the uncertainty. I couldn’t study.
Oh, what would it all be worth life, fame,
fortune, or anything if I did not have you!”
“Do you love me as much as that.
Would it make a great difference?”
“It would ruin all my life.
It is in your hands. Oh, my darling!” For
it was so delightful to be necessary.
It was not foolish to the ears of
eighteen when the heart of eighteen had sometimes
longed for the words. Good, sound sense is much
amiss in lovemaking.
“And you do love me a little?”
If he could make her admit that he would coax a great
deal more.
“I I can’t tell in a moment.”
“But you know you do? Will you deny utterly
that you do?”
She could evade with pretty turnings
and windings, but this, so simple, so to the point.
“Oh, wait,” she cried.
“I must think. Allin it is a lifelong thing.
I want to be sure ”
“And then you will smile on
someone else, and walk with someone else and dance
and all that, and I shall be utterly miserable and
never sure until you do promise.”
She put her hand over his, her soft
dimpled hand that thrilled and comforted him, and
said in a beseeching tone, as if it was his to grant
or not:
“Give me a month, Allin.
I will not smile on anyone, since you think it so
dangerous,” with a touch of her old witchery.
“A month! As if you could
not tell in a moment whether you loved or hated!”
“But I don’t hate.
I like you ever so much. I want to think it over.
One must consider ”
“A week then. And after
that we can be engaged for ever so long. It shall
all be as you like then.”
It proved very difficult to settle
the point. He was so urgent, she so hesitating.
The big old English clock in the hall struck ten, and
gentlemen expected to keep good hours.
“Do not come in a whole week.
No, do not kiss me again,” and she held her
dainty head up haughtily. “It was all very
wrong. I should not have allowed such a thing
until I was quite sure. Allin, perhaps I am a
coquette.”
“You may be anything if you are only mine.”
“And then of course I should be steady and devoted,
and like Polly.”
That was a maddening picture to hold
out. But she would be a hundred times sweeter
than Polly, than anyone’s sister could possibly
be, he thought as he went his way.
Was there a ghost in the room?
Primrose shivered as she looked at her bed with the
white curtains and her dressing table that all the
girls were trimming up now with ruffling and bows.
She was so glad to hear the chaise stop and to have
the warm, ample presence in the room, to hear the
cheerful voice.
“Poor old Mr. Jeffries fails
fast,” said madam. “It would be a
sin to win his money now. And I grew so dull
and sleepy that I wished myself home twenty times.
Suppose one had an old husband like that? And
years ago, about fifteen, I think, Mr. Ralph Jeffries
asked for my hand.”
She laughed softly and began to take
out her pins and stick them carefully in the cushion.
Pins were very precious then.
There were two rainy days, an autumnal
storm. Then Sunday. Allin Wharton looked
at Primrose across the church and spoke coming out.
There were laces to mend and gowns to consider and
poor to visit. And all the time Primrose Henry
was thinking if if a man who was nobleness
and goodness and tenderness itself, loved her, and
would never love anyone else, what ought she to do?
Thursday noon Phil came in to dinner.
Polly was not very well and he was going out at three.
Wouldn’t Primrose come with him?
Primrose colored and looked oddly
embarrassed, and said, in a confused sort of way,
there was something she must do this afternoon, but
to-morrow she would come out and spend two or three
days with Polly. She sent her best and dearest
love.
Yes, she must know once for all.
If duty was demanded of her if she loved
Andrew less, or more, when it came to that. What
was this romance and mystery, and incomprehensible
thrill! She did experience it for Allin,
and alone by herself her face flushed and every pulse
trembled. His foolish words were so sweet.
His kisses ah, had she any right
to offer the cup of joy and delight to another when
someone had drained the first sweetness?
But if Andrew loved her with the best
and holiest love. Could she follow in her mother’s
steps? But her mother had singled Philemon Henry
out of a world of lovers.