One morning in spring Aspatria stood
in a balcony overlooking the principal thoroughfare
of Rome,-the Rome of papal government,
mythical, mystical, mediaeval in its character.
A procession of friars had just passed; a handsome
boy was crying violets; some musical puppets were
performing in the shadow of the opposite palace; a
party of brigands were going to the Angelo prison;
the spirit of Cæsar was still abroad in the black-browed
men and women, lounging and laughing in their gaudy,
picturesque costumes; and the spirit of ecclesiasticism
lifted itself above every earthly object, and touched
proudly the bells of a thousand churches. Aspatria
was weary of all.
She had that morning an imperative
nostalgia. She could see nothing but the mountains
of Cumberland, and the white sheep wandering about
their green sides. Through the church-bells she
heard the sheep-bells. Above the boy crying violets
she heard the boy whistling in the fresh-ploughed
furrow. As for the violets, she knew how the wild
ones were blowing in Ambar wood, and how in the garden
the daffodil-beds were aglow, and the sweet thyme
humbling itself at their feet, because each bore a
chalice. Oh for a breath from the mountains and
the sea! The hot Roman streets, with their ever-changing
human elements of sorrow and mirth, sin and prayer,
riches and poverty, made her sad and weary.
Sarah came toward her with a letter
in her hand. “Ria,” she said, “this
is from Lady Redware. Your husband will be in
England very shortly.”
It was the first time Sarah had ever
called Ulfar Aspatria’s husband. In conversation
the two women had always spoken of him as “Ulfar.”
The change was significant. It implied that Sarah
thought the time had come for Aspatria to act decisively.
“I shall be delighted to go
back to England. We have been twenty months away,
Sarah. I was just feeling as if it were twenty
years.”
Sarah looked critically at the woman
who was going to cast her last die for love.
She was so entirely different from the girl who had
first won that love, how was it possible for her to
recapture the same sweet, faithless emotion?
She had a swift memory of the slim girl in the plain
black frock whom she had seen sitting under the whin-bushes.
And then she glanced at Aspatria standing under the
blue-and-red awning of the Roman palace. She was
now twenty-six years old, and in the very glory of
her womanhood, tall, superbly formed, graceful, calm,
and benignant. Her face was luminous with intellect
and feeling, her manner that of a woman high-bred and
familiar with the world. Culture had done all
for her that the lapidary does for the diamond; travel
and social advantages had added to the gem a golden
setting. She was so little like the sorrowful
child whom Ulfar had last seen in the vicar’s
meadow that Sarah felt instantaneous recognition to
be almost impossible.
After some hesitation, Aspatria agreed
to accept Sarah’s plan and wait in Richmond
the development of events. At first she had been
strongly in favour of a return to Seat-Ambar.
“If Ulfar really wants to see me,” she
said, “he will be most likely to seek me there.”
“But then, Ria, he may think
he does not want to see you. Men never know what
they really do want. You have to give them ‘leadings.’
If Ulfar can look on you now and have no curiosity
about your identity, I should say the man was not
worth a speculation from any point. See if you
have hold sufficient on his memory to pique his curiosity.
If you have, lead him wherever you wish.”
“But how? And where?”
“Do I carry a divining-cup,
Ria? Can I foresee the probabilities of a man
so impossible as Ulfar Fenwick? I only know that
Richmond is a good place to watch events from.”
And of course the Richmond house suited
Brune. His love had grown to the utmost of Sarah’s
expectations, and he was no longer to be put off with
smiles and pleasant words. Sarah had promised
him an answer when she returned, and he claimed it
with a passionate persistence that had finally something
imperative in it. To this mood Sarah succumbed;
though she declared that Brune had chosen the morning
of all others most inconvenient for her. She
was just leaving the house. She was going to
London about her jewels. Brune had arrested the
coachman by a peremptory movement, and he looked as
if he were quite prepared to lift Sarah out of the
carriage.
So Aspatria went alone. She was
glad of the swift movement in the fresh air, she was
glad that she could be quiet and let it blow passively
upon her. The restlessness of watching had made
her feverish. She had the “strait”
of a strong mind which longs to meet her destiny.
For her love for her husband had grown steadily with
her efforts to be worthy of that love, and she longed
to meet him face to face and try the power of her
personality over him. The trial did not frighten
her; she felt within her the ability to accomplish
it; her feet were on a level with her task; she was
the height of a woman above it.
Musing on this subject, letting her
mind shoot to and fro like a shuttle between the past
and the present, she reached Piccadilly, and entered
a large jeweller’s shop. The proprietor
was talking to a gentleman who was exhibiting a number
of uncut gems. Aspatria knew him instantly.
It was Ulfar Fenwick,-the same Ulfar, older,
and yet distinctly handsomer. For the dark hair
slightly whitened, and the thin, worn cheeks, had
an intensely human aspect. She saw that he had
suffered; that the sum of life was on his face,-toil,
difficulty, endurance, mind, and also that pathetic
sadness which tells of endurance without avail.
She went to the extreme end of the
counter, and began to examine the jewels which Sarah
had sent to be reset. Some were finished; others
were waiting for the selection of a particular style,
and Aspatria looked critically at the models shown
her. The occupation gave her an opportunity to
calm and consider herself; she could look at the jewels
a few moments without expressing an opinion.
Then she gave, in a clear, distinct
voice, some order regarding a pearl necklace; and
Ulfar turned like a flash, and looked at the woman
who had spoken. She had the pearls in one hand;
the other touched a satin cushion on which lay many
ornaments of diamonds, sapphires, and rubies.
The moonlight iridescence of the pearls, the sparkling
glory of the gems, seemed to be a part of her noble
beauty. He forgot his own treasures, and stood
looking at the woman whose voice had called to him
out of the past, had penetrated his heart like a bell
struck sharply in its innermost room. Who was
it? Where had they met before? He knew the
face. He knew, and yet he did not know, the whole
charming personality. As she turned, his eyes
met her eyes, and the pure pallor of her cheeks was
flooded with crimson.
She passed him within touch; the rustle
of her garments, their faint perfume, the simple sense
of her nearness, thrilled his being wondrously.
And, above all, that sense of familiarity! What
could it mean? He gave the stones into the jeweller’s
care, and hurriedly followed her steps.
“That is Sarah Sandys’s
carriage, my barony for it!” he exclaimed; “and
the men are in the Sandys livery. Sarah, then,
is in Richmond; and the woman who rides in her carriage
is very likely in her house; but who can it be?”
The face haunted him, the voice tormented
him like a melody that we continually try to catch.
He endeavoured to place both as he rode out to Richmond.
More than once the thought of Aspatria came to him,
but he could not make any memory of her fit that splendid
vision of the woman with uplifted hand and the string
of pearls dropping from it. Her exquisite face,
between the beauty of their reflection and the flashing
of the gems beneath, retained in his memory a kind
of glory. “Such loveliness is the proper
setting for pearls and diamonds,” he said.
“Many a beauty I have seen, but none that can
touch the heel of her shoe.”
For he really thought that it was
her personal charms which had so moved him. It
was the sense of familiarity; it was in a far deeper
and dimmer way a presentiment of right, of possession,
a feeling of personal touch in the emotion, which
perplexed and stimulated him as the mere mystery and
beauty of the flesh could never have done.
As soon as he reached the top of Richmond
Hill he saw Sarah. She was sauntering along that
loveliest of cliffs, with Brune. An orderly was
leading Brune’s horse; he himself was in the
first ecstasy of Sarah’s acknowledged love.
Ulfar went into the Star and Garter Inn and watched
Sarah. He had no claim upon her, and yet he felt
as if she had been false to him. “And for
a mere soldier!” Then he looked critically at
the soldier, and said, with some contempt: “I
am sorry for him! Sarah Sandys will have her
pastime, and then say, ‘Farewell, good sir!’”
As for the mere soldier being Brune Anneys, that was
a thought out of Ulfar’s horizon.
In a couple of hours he went to Sarah’s.
She met him with real delight.
“You are just five years lovelier, Sarah,”
he said.
“Admiration from Sir Ulfar Fenwick is admiration
indeed!”
“Yes; I say you are beautiful,
though I have just seen the most bewitching woman
that ever blessed my eyes,-in your carriage
too.” And then, swift as light or thought,
there flashed across his mind a conviction that the
Beauty and Aspatria were identical. It was a
momentary intelligence; he grasped it merely as a clew
that might lead him somewhere.
“In my carriage? I dare
say it was Ria. She went to Piccadilly this morning
about some jewels.”
“She reminded me of Aspatria.”
“Have you brought back with
you that old trouble? I have no mind to hear
more of it.”
“Who is the lady I saw this morning?”
“She is the sister of the man
I am going to marry. In four months she will
be my sister.”
“What is her name?”
“That is to tell you my secret, sir.”
“I saw you throwing your enchantments
over some soldier. I knew just how the poor fellow
felt.”
“Then you also have been in
Arcadia. Be thankful for your past blessings.
I do not expect you to rejoice with me; none of the
apostolic precepts are so hard as that which bids us
rejoice with those who do rejoice.”
“Neither Elizabeth nor you have
ever named Aspatria in your letters.”
“Did you expect us to change
guard over Ambar-Side? I dare say Aspatria has
grown into a buxom, rosy-cheeked woman and quite forgotten
you.”
“I must go and see her.”
“I think you ought. Also,
you should give her her freedom. I consider your
behaviour a dog-in-the-manger atrocity.”
“Can you not pick nicer words, Sarah?”
“I would not if I could.”
“Sarah, tell me truly, have I lost my good looks?”
She regarded him attentively a moment,
and answered: “Not quite. You have
some good points yet. You have grown thin and
gray, and lost something, and perhaps gained something;
but you are not very old, and then, you know, you
have your title, and your castle, and your very old,
old family, and I suppose a good deal of money.”
In reality, she was sure that he had never before
been so attractive; for he had now the magic of a
countenance informed by intellect and experience, eyes
brimming with light, lips neither loose nor coarse,
yet full of passion and the faculty of enjoyment.
He smiled grimly at Sarah’s
list of his charms, and said, “When will you
introduce me to your future sister?”
“This evening. Come about
nine. I have a few sober people who will be delighted
to hear your South American adventures. Ria goes
to Lady Chester’s ball soon after nine.
Do not miss your chance.”
“Could I see her now?”
“You could not.”
“What for?”
“Do you suppose she would leave a modiste
for-you?”
“I wonder where Aspatria is!”
“Go and find out.”
“Sarah, who is the young lady I saw in your
carriage?”
“She is the sister of the officer
you saw me with, the man I am going to marry.”
“Where did you meet him?”
“At a friend’s house.”
“Where did you meet her?”
“Her brother brought her to
my house. I asked her to stay with me, and finally
we went to Italy together.”
“She has a very aristocratic manner.”
“She ought to have. She
was educated at Mrs. St. Alban’s, and she visits
at the Earl of Arundel’s, the Duke of Norfolk’s,
and the very exclusive Boleyns’,-Lady
Mary Boleyn is her friend, and she has also had the
great advantage of my society for nearly two years.”
“Then of course she is not Aspatria,
and my heart is a liar, and my memory is a traitor,
and my eyes do not see correctly. I will call
about nine. I am at the Star and Garter.
If she should name me at all-”
“Do you imagine she noticed
you? and in such a public place as Howell’s?”
“I really do imagine she noticed me. Ask
her.”
“I see you are in love again.
After all that experience has done for you! It
is a Nemesis, Ulfar. I have often noticed that,
however faithless a man may be, there comes at last
one woman who avenges all the rest. Enter Nemesis
at nine to-night!”
“Sarah, you are an angel.”
“Thank you, Ulfar. I thought you classed
me with the other side.”
“As for Aspatria-”
“Life is too short to discuss
Aspatria. I remember one day at Redware being
sharply requested to keep silence on that subject.
The wheel of retribution has made a perfect circle
as regards Aspatria! I shall certainly tell Ria
that you have made her the heroine of your disagreeable
matrimonial romance.”
“No, no, Sarah! Do not
say a word to her. I must wait until nine, I
suppose? And I am so anxious and so fearful, Sarah.”
“You must wait until nine.
And as for the rest, I know very well that in the
present age a lover’s cares and fears have
Dwindled to the smallest span.
Do go to your hotel, and get clothed
and in your right mind. You are most unbecomingly
dressed. Good-by, old friend, good-by!”
And she left him with an elaborate courtesy.
Ulfar was now in a vortex. Things
went around and around in his consciousness; and whenever
he endeavoured to examine events with his reason,
then feeling advanced some unsupported conviction,
and threw him back into the same senseless whirl of
emotion.
He had failed to catch the point which
would have given him the clew to the whole mystery,-the
identity of Brune with the splendidly accoutred officer
Sarah avowed to be her intended husband. Without
taking special note of him, Ulfar had seen certain
signs of birth, breeding, and assured position.
In his mind there was a great gulf between the haughty-looking
soldier and the simple, handsome, but rather boorish-looking
young Squire of Ambar-Side. The two individualities
were as far apart in social claims as the north and
south poles are apart physically.
And if this beautiful woman were indeed
Aspatria, how could he reconcile the fact with her
education at St. Alban’s, her friendship with
such exalted families, her relationship to an officer
of evident birth and position? When he thought
thus, he acknowledged the impossibility; but then
no sooner had he acknowledged it than his heart passionately
denied the deduction, with the simple iteration, “It
is Aspatria! It is Aspatria!”
Aspatria or not, he told himself that
he was at last genuinely in love. Every affair
before was tame, pale, uninteresting. If it was
not Aspatria, then the first Aspatria was the shadow
of the second and real one; the preface to love’s
glorious tale; the prelude to his song; the gray,
sweet dawn to his perfect day. He could not eat,
nor sit still, nor think reasonably, nor yet stop
thinking. The sun stood still; the minutes were
hours; at four o’clock he wished to fling the
timepiece out of the window.
Aspatria had the immense strength
of certainty. She knew. Also, she had Sarah
to advise with. Still better, she had the conviction
that Ulfar loved her. Perhaps Sarah had exaggerated
Ulfar’s desperate condition; if so, she had
done it consciously, for she knew that as soon as
a woman is sure of her power she puts on an authority
which commands it. She was now only afraid that
Ulfar would not be kept in suspense long enough, that
Aspatria would forgive him too easily.
“Do make yourself as puzzling
as you can, for this one night, Aspatria,” she
urged. “Try to outvie and outdo and even
affront that dove-like simplicity he used to adore
in you, and into which you are still apt to relapse.
He told me once that you looked like a Quakeress when
he first saw you.”
“I was just home from Miss Gilpin’s
school in Kendal. It was a Quaker school.
I have always kept a black gown ready, like the one
he saw me first in.”
“No black gown to-night.
I have a mind to stay here and see that you turn the
Quakeress into a princess.”
“I will do all you wish.
To-night you shall have your way; but poor Ulfar must
have suffered, and-”
“Poor Ulfar, indeed! Be
merry; that is the best armour against love.
What ruins women? Revery and sentimentality.
A woman who does not laugh ought to be watched.”
But though she lectured and advised
Aspatria as to the ways of men and the ways of love,
Sarah had not much faith in her own counsels.
“No one can draw out a programme for a woman’s
happiness,” she mused; “she will not keep
to its lines. Now, I do wonder whether she will
dress gorgeously or not? What did Solomon in
all his glory wear? If Aspatria only knew how
dress catches a man’s eye, and then touches his
vanity, and then sets fire to his imagination, and
finally, somehow, someway, gets to his heart!
If she only knew,-
’All thoughts, all passions, all
delights,
Whatever stirs this mortal
frame,
Are but the ministers of Love,
And feed his sacred flame!’”
A little before nine, Ulfar entered
Sarah’s drawing-room. It was lighted with
wax candles. It was sweet with fresh violets,
and at the farther end Aspatria stood by her harp.
She was dressed for Lady Chester’s ball, and
was waiting her chaperon; but there had been a little
rebellion against her leaving without giving her admirers
one song. Every person was suggesting his or
her favourite; and she stood smiling, uncertain, listening,
watching, for one voice and face.
Her dazzling bodice was clasped with
emeralds; her draperies were of damasked gauze, shot
with gold and silver, and abloom with flowers.
Her fair neck sparkled with diamonds; and the long
white fingers which touched the strings so firmly
glinted with flashing gems. The moment Ulfar
entered, she saw him. His eyes, full of fiery
prescience, forced her to meet their inquiry; and
then it was that she sat down and filled the room
with tinkling notes, that made every one remember the
mountains, and the merry racing of the spring winds,
and the trickling of half-hidden fountains.
Sarah advanced with him. She
touched Aspatria slightly, and said: “Hush!
a moment. This is my friend Sir Ulfar Fenwick,
Ria.”
Ria lifted her eyes sweetly to his
eyes; she bowed with the grace and benignity of a
queen, and adroitly avoided speech by turning the
melody into song:-
“I never shall forget
The mountain maid that once I met
By the cold river’s side.
I met her on the mountain-side;
She watched her herds unnoticed there:
‘Trim-bodiced maiden, hail!’
I cried.
She answered, ’Whither, Wanderer?
For thou hast lost thy way.’”
Every word went to Ulfar’s heart,
and amid all the soft cries of delight he alone was
silent. She was beaming with smiles; she was
radiant as a goddess; the light seemed to vanish from
the room when she went away. Her adieu was a
general one, excepting to Ulfar. On him she turned
her bright eyes, and courtesied low with one upward
glance. It set his heart on fire. He knew
that glance. They might say this or that, they
might lie to him neck-deep, he knew it was Aspatria!
He was cross with Sarah. He accused her of downright
deception. He told her frankly that he believed
nothing about the soldier and his sister.
She bade him come in the morning and
talk to Ria; and he asked impetuously: “How
soon? Twelve, I suppose? How am I to pass
the time until twelve to-morrow?”
“Why this haste?”
“Why this deception?”
“After seven years’ indifference, are
you suddenly gone mad?”
“I feel as if I was being very badly used.”
“How does the real Aspatria feel? Go at
once to Ambar-Side.”
“The real Aspatria is here. I know it!
I feel it!”
“In a court of law, what evidence would feeling
be?”
“In a court of love-”
“Try it.”
“I will, to-morrow, at ten o’clock.”
His impetuosity pleased her.
She was disposed to leave him to Aspatria now.
And Aspatria was disposed on the following morning
to make his confession very easy to him. She
dressed herself in the simple black gown she had kept
ready for this event. It had the short elbow
sleeves, and the ruffle round the open throat, and
the daffodil against her snowy breast, that distinguished
the first costume he had ever seen her in. She
loosened her hair and let it fall in two long braids
behind her ears. She was, as far as dress could
make her so, the Aspatria who had held the light to
welcome him to Ambar-Side that stormy night ten years
ago.
He was standing in the middle of the
room, restless and expectant, when she opened the
door. He called her by name, and went to meet
her. She trembled and was silent.
“Aspatria, it is you! My Life! My
Soul! It is you!”
He took her hands; they were as cold
as ice. He drew her close to his side; he stooped
to see her eyes; he whispered word upon word of affection,-sweet-meaning
nouns and adjectives that caught a real physical heat
from the impatient heart and tongue that forged and
uttered them.
“Forgive me, my dearest!
Forgive me fully! Forgive me at once and altogether!
Aspatria, I love you! I love none but you!
I will adore you all my life! Speak one word
to me, one word, my love, one word: say only
‘Ulfar!’”
She forgot in a moment all that she
had suffered. She forgot all she had promised
Sarah, all her intents of coldness, all reproaches;
she forgot even to forgive him. She just put
her arms around his neck and kissed him. She
blotted out the past forever in that one whispered
word, “Ulfar.”
And then he took her to his heart;
he kissed her for very wonder; he kissed her for very
joy; but most of all he kissed her for fervent love.
Then once more life was an “Interlude in Heaven.”
Every hour held some sweet surprise, some accidental
joy. It was Brune, it was Sarah, it was some
eulogium of Ulfar in the great London weeklies.
He had fought in the good fight for freedom; he had
done great deeds of mercy as well as of valour; he
had crossed primeval forests, and brought back wonderful
medicines, and dyes, and many new specimens for the
botanist and the naturalist. The papers were never
weary in praising his pluck, his bravery, his generosity,
and his endurance; the Geographical Society sent him
its coveted blue ribbon. In his own way Ulfar
had made himself a fit mate for the new Aspatria.
And she was a constant wonder to him.
Nothing in all his strange experience touched his
heart like the thought of his simple, patient wife,
studying to please him, to be worthy of his love.
Every day revealed her in some new and charming light.
She was one hundred Aspatrias in a single, lovable,
lovely woman. On what ever subject Ulfar spoke,
she understood, supplemented, sympathized with, or
assisted him. She could talk in French and Italian;
she was not ignorant of botany and natural science,
and she was delighted to be his pupil.
In a single month they became all
the world to each other; and then they began to long
for the lonely old castle fronting the wild North
Sea, to plan for its restoration, and for a sweet home-life,
which alone could satisfy the thirst of their hearts
for each other’s presence. At the end of
June they went northward.
It was the month of the rose, and
the hedges were pink, and the garden was a garden
of roses. There were banks of roses, mazes of
roses, walks and standards of roses, masses of glorious
colour, and breezes scented with roses. Butterflies
were chasing one another among the flowers; nightingales,
languid with love, were singing softly above them.
And in the midst was a gray old castle, flying its
old border flags, and looking as happy as if it were
at a festival.
Aspatria was enraptured, spellbound
with delight. With Ulfar she wandered from one
beauty to another, until they finally reached a great
standard of pale-pink roses. Their loveliness
was beyond compare; their scent went to the brain
like some divine essence. It was a glory,-a
prayer,-a song of joy! Aspatria stood
beside it, and seemed to Ulfar but its mortal manifestation.
She was clothed in a gown of pale-pink brocade, with
a little mantle of the same, trimmed with white lace,
and a bonnet of white lace and pink roses. She
was a perfect rose of womanhood. She was the
glory of his life, his prayer, his song of joy!
“It is the loveliest place in
the world!” he said, “and you! you are
the loveliest woman! My sweet Aspatria!”
She smiled divinely. “And
yet,” she answered, “I remember, Ulfar,
a song of yours that said something very different.
Listen:-
’There is a rose of a hundred leaves,
But the wild rose is the sweetest!’”
And as she sang the words, Ulfar had
a vision of a young girl, fresh and pure as a mountain
bluebell, in her scrimp black frock. He saw the
wind blowing it tight over her virgin form; he saw
her fair, childish, troubled face as she kissed him
farewell in the vicar’s meadows; and then he
saw the glorious woman, nobly planned, perfect on every
side, that the child wife had grown to.
So, when she ceased, he pulled the
fairest rose on the tree; he took from it every thorn,
he put it in her breast, he kissed the rose, and he
kissed her rose-like face. Then he took up the
song where she dropped it; and hand in hand, keeping
time to its melody, they crossed the threshold of
their blessed home.
“The robin sang beneath the eaves:
’There is a rose of
a hundred leaves,
But the wild rose is the
sweetest!’
“The nightingale made answer clear:
’O darling rose!
more fair, more dear!
O rose of a hundred leaves!’”