“Thou broad-billowed sea,
Never sundered from thee,
May I wander the welkin below;
May the plash and the roar
Of the waves on the shore
Beat the march to my feet as I go;
Ever strong, ever free,
When the breath of the sea,
Like the fan of an angel, I know;
Ever rising with power,
To the call of the hour,
Like the swell of the tides as they flow.”
-Blackie.
The gravitation of character is naturally
toward its weakest point. Margaret’s weakest
point was an intense, though unconscious, selfishness.
Jan’s restless craving for change and excitement
made him dissatisfied with the daily routine of life,
lazy, and often unreasonable. His very blessings
became offenses to him. His clean, well-ordered
house, made him fly to the noisy freedom of Ragon Torr’s
kitchen. Margaret’s never-ceasing industry,
her calmness, neatness and deliberation, exasperated
him as a red cloth does a bull.
Suneva Torr had married Paul Glumm,
and Jan often watched her as he sat drinking his ale
in Torr’s kitchen. At home, it is true,
she tormented Glumm with her contrary, provoking moods;
but then, again, she met him with smiles and endearments
that atoned for every thing. Jan thought it would
be a great relief if Margaret were only angry sometimes.
For he wearied of her constant serenity, as people
weary of sunshine without cloud or shadow.
And Margaret suffered. No one
could doubt that who watched her face from day to
day. She made no complaint, not even to her mother.
Thora, however, perceived it all. She had foreseen
and foretold the trouble, but she was too noble a
woman to point out the fulfillment of her prophecy.
As she went about her daily work, she considered, and
not unkindly, the best means for bringing Jan back
to his wife and home, and his first pride in them.
She believed that the sea only could
do it. After all, her heart was with the men
who loved it. She felt that Jan was as much out
of place counting eggs, as a red stag would be if
harnessed to a plow. She, at least, understood
the rebellious, unhappy look on his handsome face.
When the ling fishing was near at hand, she said to
Peter: “There is one thing that is thy
duty, and that is to give Jan the charge of a boat.
He is for the sea, and it is not well that so good
a sailor should go out of the family.”
“I have no mind to do that.
Jan will do well one day, and he will do as ill as
can be the next. I will not trust a boat with
him.”
“It seems to me that where thou
could trust Margaret, thou might well trust nineteen
feet of keel, and fifty fathom of long lines.”
Peter answered her not, and Thora
kept silence also. But at the end, when he had
smoked his pipe, and was lifting the Bible for the
evening exercise, he said: “Thou shalt
have thy way, wife; Jan shall have a boat, but thou
wilt see evil will come of it.”
“Thou wert always good, Peter,
and in this thing I am thinking of more than fish.
There is sorrow in Margaret’s house. A mother
can feel that.”
“Now, then, meddle thou not
in the matter. Every man loves in his own way.
Whatever there is between Jan and Margaret is a thing
by itself. But I will speak about the boat in
the morning.”
Peter kept his word, and kept it without
smallness or grudging. He still liked Jan.
If there were trouble between him and Margaret he
regarded it as the natural initiation to married life.
Norse women were all high-spirited and wished to rule;
and he would have despised Jan if he had suspected
him of giving way to Margaret’s stubborn self-will.
Though she was his own daughter, he did not wish to
see her setting an example of wifely supremacy.
So he called Jan pleasantly and said,
“I have saved for thee ’The Fair Margaret.’
Wilt thou sail her this season, Jan? She is the
best boat I have, as thou well knows. Fourteen
hundred hooks she is to carry, and thou can hire six
men to go with thee.”
It made Peter’s eyes feel misty
to see the instantaneous change in Jan’s face.
He could not speak his thanks, but he looked them;
and Peter felt troubled, and said, almost querulously,
“There, that will do, son Jan; go now, and hire
the men thou wants.”
“First of all, I should like Snorro.”
Peter hesitated, but he would not
tithe his kindness, and he frankly answered, “Well,
then, thou shalt have Snorro-though it will
go hard with me, wanting him.”
“But we will make it go well
with thee on the sea, father.”
“As for that, it will be as
God pleases. A man’s duty is all my claim
on thee. Margaret will be glad to see thee so
happy.” He dropped his eyes as he spoke
of Margaret. He would not seem to watch Jan, although
he was conscious of doing so.
“A woman has many minds, father.
Who knows if a thing will make her happy or angry?”
“That is a foolish saying, Jan.
A wife must find her pleasure in the thing that pleases
her husband. But now thou wilt have but little
time; the boat is to be tried, and the hooks and lines
are to go over, and the crew to hire. I have
left all to thee.”
This pleased Jan most of all.
Only a bird building its first nest could have been
as happy as he was. When at night he opened the
door of his house, and went in with a gay smile, it
was like a resurrection. The pale rose-color
on Margaret’s cheek grew vivid and deep when
he took her in his arms, and kissed her in the old
happy way. She smiled involuntarily, and Jan
thought, “How beautiful she is!” He told
her all Peter had said and done. He was full of
gratitude and enthusiasm. He did not notice for
a few moments that Margaret was silent, and chillingly
unresponsive. He was amazed to find that the
whole affair displeased her.
“So, then, I have married a
common fisherman after all,” she said bitterly;
“why, Suneva Torr’s husband has a bigger
boat than thine.”
It was an unfortunate remark, and
touched Jan on a very raw place. He could not
refrain from answering, “He hath had better luck
than I. Ragon Torr gave Glumm Suneva’s tocher,
and he has bought his own boat with it.”
“Why not? Every one knows
that Glumm is a prudent man. He never gets on
his feet for nothing.”
Jan was inexpressibly pained and disappointed.
For a moment a feeling of utter despair came over
him. The boat lay upon his heart like a wreck.
He drank his tea gloomily, and the delicately-browned
fish, the young mutton, and the hot wheat cakes, all
tasted like ashes in his mouth. Perhaps, then,
Margaret’s heart smote her, for she began to
talk, and to press upon Jan’s acceptance the
viands which had somehow lost all their savor to him.
Her conversation was in like case. She would
not speak of the boat, since they could not agree about
it; and no other subject interested Jan. But,
like all perfectly selfish people, she imagined, as
a matter of course, that whatever interested her was
the supreme interest. In her calm, even voice,
she spoke of the spring house-cleaning, and the growth
of her pansies and tulip bulbs, and did not know that
all the time Jan was thinking of his boat, heaving
on the tide-top, or coming into harbor so heavy with
fish that she would be-in Shetland phrase-lippering
with the water.
But, after all, the week of preparation
was a very happy week to Jan and Snorro; and on the
sixteenth of May they were the foremost of the sixty
boats that sailed out of Lerwick for the ling ground.
There was a great crowd on the pier to see them off-mothers,
and wives, and sweethearts; boys, sick and sad with
longing and envy; and old men, with the glamor of
their own past in their faces. Among them was
Suneva, in a bright blue dress, with blue ribbons fluttering
in her yellow hair. She stood at the pier-head
and as they passed poured a cup of ale into the sea,
to forespeak good luck for the fleet. Jan would
have dearly liked to see his wife’s handsome
face watching him, as he stood by the main-mast and
lifted his cap to Peter. Margaret was not there.
She really felt very much humiliated
in Jan’s position. She had always held
herself a little apart from the Lerwick women.
She had been to Edinburgh, she had been educated far
above them, and she was quite aware that she would
have a very large fortune. Her hope had been to
see Jan take his place among the merchants and bailies
of Lerwick. She had dreams of the fine mansion
that they would build, and of the fine furniture which
would come from Edinburgh for it. Margaret was
one of those women to whom a house can become a kingdom,
and its careful ordering an affair of more importance
than the administration of a great nation. When
she chose Jan, and raised him from his humble position,
she had no idea that he would drift back again to the
fishing nets.
For the first time she carried her
complaint home. But Thora in this matter had
not much sympathy with her. “The sea is
his mother,” she said; “he loved her before
he loved thee; when she calls him, he will always
go back to her.”
“No man in Shetland hath a better
business to his hand; and how can he like to live
in a boat, he, that hath a home so quiet, and clean,
and comfortable?”
Thora sighed. “Thou wilt
not understand then, that what the cradle rocks the
spade buries. The sea spoke to Jan before he lay
on his mother’s breast. His father hath
a grave in it. Neither gold nor the love of woman
will ever keep them far apart; make up thy mind to
that.”
All this might be true, but yet it
humiliated Margaret. Besides, she imagined that
every wife in Lerwick was saying, “Not much hold
has Margaret Vedder on her husband. He is off
to sea again, and that with the first boat that sails.”
Yet if success could have reconciled her, Jan’s
was wonderful. Not unfrequently “The Fair
Margaret” took twenty score ling at a haul,
and every one was talking of her good luck.
During these days Jan and Snorro drew
very close to each other. When the baits were
set most of the men went to sleep for three hours;
but Snorro always watched, and very often Jan sat
with him. And oh, the grand solemnity and serenity
of these summer nights, when through belts of calm
the boats drifted and the islands in a charmed circle
filled the pale purple horizon before them. Most
fair then was the treeless land, and very far off
seemed the sin and sorrow of life. The men lay
upon the deck, with a pile of nets or their folded
arms for a pillow, and surely under such a sky, like
Jacob of old, they dreamed of angels.
Snorro and Jan, sitting in the soft,
mystical light, talked together, dropping their voices
involuntarily, and speaking slowly, with thoughtful
pauses between the sentences. When they were not
talking, Snorro read, and the book was ever the same,
the book of the Four Gospels. Jan often watched
him when he thought Jan asleep. In that enchanted
midnight glow, which was often a blending of four
lights-moonlight and twilight, the aurora
and the dawning-the gigantic figure and
white face, bending over the little book, had a weird
and almost supernatural interest. Then this man,
poor, ugly, and despised, had an incomparable nobility,
and he fascinated Jan.
One night he said to him, “Art
thou never weary of reading that same book, Snorro?”
“Am I then ever weary of thee,
my Jan? And these are the words of One who was
the first who loved me. Accordingly, how well
I know his voice.” Then, in a fervor of
adoring affection, he talked to Jan of his dear Lord
Christ, “who had stretched out his arms upon
the cross that he might embrace the world.”
And as he talked the men, one by one, raised themselves
on their elbows and listened; and the theme transfigured
Snorro, and he stood erect with uplifted face, and
looked, in spite of his fisher’s suit, so royal
that Jan felt humbled in his presence. And when
he had told, in his own simple, grand way, the story
of him who had often toiled at midnight with the fishers
on the Galilean sea, as they toiled upon the Shetland
waters, there was a great silence, until Jan said,
in a voice that seemed almost strange to them:
“Well, then, mates, now we will look to the lines.”
All summer, and until the middle of
October, Jan continued at sea; and all summer, whether
fishing for ling, cod, or herring, “The Fair
Margaret” had exceptionally good fortune.
There were many other fishers who woke, and watched,
and toiled in their fishing, who did not have half
her “takes.” “It is all Jan’s
luck,” said Glumm, “for it is well known
that he flings his nets and goes to sleep while they
fill.”
“Well, then, ‘it is the
net of the sleeping fisherman takes:’ that
is the wise saying of old times”-and
though Snorro did not think of it, the Shetland proverb
was but the Norse form of the Hebrew faith: “He
giveth his beloved in their sleep.”
Still, in spite of his success, Jan
was not happy. A married man’s happiness
is in the hands of his wife, and Margaret felt too
injured to be generous. She was not happy, and
she thought it only just that Jan should be made to
feel it. He had disappointed all her hopes and
aspirations; she was not magnanimous enough to rejoice
in the success of his labors and aims. Besides,
his situation as the hired skipper of a boat was contemptible
in her eyes; her servant was engaged to a man in the
same position. Another aggravating circumstance
was that her old schoolmate, the minister’s
niece (a girl who had not a penny piece to her fortune)
was going to marry a rich merchant from Kirkwall.
How she would exult over “Margaret Vedder who
had married a common fisherman.” The exultation
was entirely imaginary, but perhaps it hurt as much
as if it had been actually made.
Success, too, had made Jan more independent:
or perhaps he had grown indifferent to Margaret’s
anger, since he found it impossible to please her.
At any rate, he asked his friends to his house without
fear or apology. They left their footmarks on
her floors, and their fingermarks upon her walls and
cushions, and Jan only laughed and said, “There
was, as every one knew, plenty of water in Shetland
to make them clean again.” Numberless other
little things grieved and offended her, so little
that, taken separately, they might have raised a smile,
but in the aggregate they attained the magnitude of
real wrongs.
But, happy or miserable, time goes
on, and about the middle of October even the herring
fishing is over. Peter was beginning to count
up his expenses and his gains. Jan and Snorro
were saying to one another, “In two days we
must go back to the store.” That is, they
were trying to say it, but the air was so full of
shrieks that no human voice could be heard. For
all around the boat the sea was boiling with herring
fry, and over them hung tens of thousands of gulls
and terns. Marmots and guillemots were
packed in great black masses on the white foam, and
only a mad human mob of screaming women and children
could have made a noise comparable. Even that
would have wanted the piercing metallic ring of the
wild birds’ shriek.
Suddenly Snorro leaped to his feet.
“I see a storm, Jan. Lower and lash down
the mast. We shall have bare time.”
Jan saw that the birds had risen and
were making for the rocks. In a few minutes down
came the wind from the north-east, and a streak of
white rain flying across the black sea was on top of
“The Fair Margaret” before the mast was
well secured. As for the nets, Snorro was cutting
them loose, and in a few moments the boat was tearing
down before the wind. It was a wild squall; some
of the fishing fleet went to the bottom with all their
crews. “The Fair Margaret,” at much
risk of loss, saved Glumm’s crew, and then had
all she could manage to raise her mizzen, and with
small canvas edge away to windward for the entrance
of Lerwick bay.
Jan was greatly distressed. “Hard
to bear is this thing, Snorro,” he said; “at
the last to have such bad fortune.”
“It is a better ending than
might have been. Think only of that, Jan.”
“But Peter will count his lost
nets; there is nothing else he will think of.”
“Between nets and men’s
lives, there is only one choice.”
Peter said that also, but he was nevertheless
very angry. The loss took possession of his mind,
and excluded all memory of his gains. “It
was just like Jan and Snorro,” he muttered, “to
be troubling themselves with other boats. In
a sudden storm, a boat’s crew should mind only
its own safety.” These thoughts were in
his heart, though he did not dare to form them into
any clear shape. But just as a drop or two of
ink will diffuse itself through a glass of pure water
and defile the whole, so they poisoned every feeling
of kindness which he had to Jan.
“What did I tell thee?”
he said to Thora, bitterly. “Jan does nothing
well but he spoils it. Here, at the end of the
season, for a little gust of wind, he loses both nets
and tackle.”
“He did well when he saved life, Peter.”
“Every man should mind his own
affairs. Glumm would have done that thing first.”
“Then Glumm would have been
little of a man. And thou, Peter Fae, would have
been the first to tell Glumm so. Thou art saying
evil, and dost not mean it.”
“Speak no more. It is little
a woman understands. Her words are always like
a contrary wind.”
Peter was very sulky for some days,
and when at last he was ready to settle with Jan,
there was a decided quarrel. Jan believed himself
to be unfairly dealt with, and bitter words were spoken
on both sides. In reality, Peter knew that he
had been hard with his son, harder by far than he
had ever intended to be; but in his heart there had
sprung up one of those sudden and unreasonable dislikes
which we have all experienced, and for which no explanation
is possible. It was not altogether the loss of
the nets-he did not know what it was-but
the man he liked, and praised, and was proud of one
week, he could hardly endure to see or speak to the
next.
“That ends all between thee
and me,” said Peter, pushing a little pile of
gold toward Jan. It was a third less than Jan
expected. He gave it to Margaret, and bade her
“use it carefully, as he might be able to make
little more until the next fishing season.”
“But thou wilt work in the store this winter?”
“That I will not. I will
work for no man who cheats me of a third of my hire.”
“It is of my father thou art
speaking, Jan Vedder; remember that. And Peter
Fae’s daughter is thy wife, though little thou
deservest her.”
“It is like enough that I am
unworthy of thee; but if I had chosen a wife less
excellent than thou it had perhaps been better for
me.”
“And for me also.”
That was the beginning of a sad end;
for Jan, though right enough at first, soon put himself
in the wrong, as a man who is idle, and has a grievance,
is almost sure to do. He continually talked about
it. On the contrary, Peter held his tongue, and
in any quarrel the man who can be silent in the end
has the popular sympathy. Then, in some way or
other, Peter Fae touched nearly every body in Lerwick.
He gave them work, or he bought their produce.
They owed him money, or they expected a favor from
him. However much they sympathized with Jan,
they could not afford to quarrel with Peter.
Only Michael Snorro was absolutely
and purely true to him; but oh, what truth there was
in Michael! Jan’s wrongs were his wrongs;
Jan’s anger was but the reflection of his own.
He watched over him, he sympathized
with him, he loved him entirely, with a love “wonderful,
passing the love of woman.”