No life is the same to-day as it was
yesterday; and the passage of a year necessarily makes
many changes, though they may not be noticed by the
careless observer. Thus to all her friends Adriana
Filmer’s life appeared to be precisely what
it had been when Harry first brought her to their
pretty home near Central Park. But there were
many vital differences, though they were not readily
detected. Adriana herself had become still more
grave and tender. She had been down into the
Valley of the Shadow of Death for her first-born son;
and such a passage cannot be made without leaving
traces of its danger and suffering. Physically,
it had perfected her beauty; her face had some new
charm, her attitudes and manner were informed with
a superb dignity; and spiritually and mentally, it
had added to the serious strength of her fine character.
Harry was also changed. He yet
loved with a sincere devotion his beautiful wife and
child, and he loved none other with the same noble
affection. But Adriana knew that there were lesser
loves-flirtations with reputable ladies
who liked to drive with him-who enjoyed
his society on a pleasure yacht or a race course-who
thought it quite respectable to send him little messages,
to accept from him small services or such transitory
gifts as flowers or sweetmeats. And Harry liked
this kind of popularity. Without consciously wronging
Adriana, he loved to sun himself in some beauty’s
smile, to be seen with some young married siren, or
to escort a party of gay girls to a merry-making.
Usually he told Adriana of these affairs,
and she was too wise to show the pain the confidence
gave her. Her state of health, as well as her
principles, kept her from many social functions, and
if Harry did not feel compelled to respect her condition
and scruples, she knew that it would be impossible
to fret or scold or even reason him into sympathy.
She had been aware of the diversity of their tastes
when she married him; how, then, could she justly
complain of circumstances which she foresaw and accepted
by the very act of marriage? Only once had she
spoken, and it was to her wise father. She could
have gone to no more loving and prudent guide; and
Peter’s answer was but the echo of her own feelings.
“In marriage, Yanna,”
he said, “there is a tie besides love-it
is patience. There is a veil for faults better
than blind admiration-it is forgiveness.
There is a time for everything, so if you have patience
and forgiveness, your hour will come.”
Thus the first eighteen months of
her married life had passed not unhappily away; and
she lived, and loved, and hoped for the time when
Harry would put from him entirely the gay, dancing,
playing, flirting, immature existence, which was so
unbecoming to his domestic and civil honor as a husband
and a father. Indeed, he was himself beginning
to be aware of the incongruity; for he said to Adriana
one evening at the close of October:
“I saw Cousin Alida to-day.
She is in town for the winter.”
“What did she say, Harry? When is she coming
here?”
“She will call to-morrow.
She hoped I would not compel her to go into the gay
places of the world this year. I do believe the
old lady went out so much last season just to watch
me, just to make me wait upon her, and so keep me
out of temptation. Fancy Miss Alida as my chaperon!
It was very good of her-but fruitless.”
Adriana smilingly asked: “What
did you say about the gay places, Harry?”
“I told her I was going to have
my fling this year, and after this year you and I
would settle down to a sensible career. I told
her, indeed, that I intended to go into politics.”
“You have a great ability for
politics, Harry. Professor Snowdon says you are
a natural orator. How I should like to hear you
make a great political speech!”
“Well, pet, some day perhaps
you may have your desire. I think of taking lessons
in elocution this winter.”
“Do not, Harry. Your own
speech and gestures are better than acquired ones.
I am sure you will make a great debater.”
Harry was much pleased. He cleared
his throat, and straightened himself, and quite unconsciously
struck an attitude. Then he kissed his wife tenderly,
and said: “If I am a little late to-night,
do not mind, dear. I have to preside at a supper
given to our new opera stars. I will come home
as soon as I possibly can.” And she smiled
him out of sight, and was ready to give him the last
smile when he turned at the door of the lighted hall
for it. But he did not see her fly to her boy’s
cradle and lift the child to her breast, and with tears
welling into her eyes, comfort herself with its smiles
and caresses.
The season thus inaugurated proved
to be one of great temptation to Harry, and of much
sorrow to Adriana. Vague rumors reached her through
many sources, some friendly, and others unfriendly.
Miss Alida’s visits were suspiciously frequent;
and her manner was too protective and sympathetic,
and Adriana could not help wondering after every visit
what fresh wrong her cousin had come to comfort her
for. But hitherto the comfort had been inferred;
Miss Alida had never said one definite word against
Harry, and Adriana would have disdained under any
ordinary circumstances to complain of her husband.
One morning in December, however,
she was compelled to listen to a positive accusation.
Mrs. Henry Filmer called at a very early hour with
it. There had been an apparent reconciliation
between the two households; but neither on Mrs. Filmer’s
nor yet on Adriana’s side was it very real,
for Adriana had in truth some honest grievances against
her mother-in-law. She made constant demands on
Harry’s purse, and she was still more unreasonable
about his time. Often when Adriana’s state
of health particularly demanded a husband’s sympathy
and society, Harry had been compelled to leave her
in order to escort his mother to some dinner or opera
party. “Your father is so busy, and inefficient
in company, so, dearest Harry, you must give mother
just one hour to-night.” Such messages
were very frequent, and if Adriana thought Harry only
too ready to answer them, there are many desponding
women who will be able to pity her. Indeed, his
mother’s influence over Harry was great and
never used for a kindly end. Every occasion when
Harry was with her was also an occasion to drop an
evil thought against Harry’s wife; and such
a conversation as the following, varied slightly with
varying circumstances, was the usual trend of their
discourse:
“I suppose Adriana made a fuss
about your coming to me for an hour, Harry?”
“Indeed, she did not! She
is quite alone, and she let me off very cheerfully.”
“Ah! she does not appreciate
you as she ought to do! I grudge every minute
you are not with me. I only live the few-and-far-between
moments we are together.”
“My dear mother!”
“I dare say that old maid has
managed to put all kinds of ideas into her head about
your sinfulness-and you are your old mother’s
dear naughty boy after all. What is this that
I heard concerning pretty Cora Mitchin and Harry Filmer?”
“Hush, mother! I
hope you put a stop to any such rumors. I would
not have Yanna hear about Cora for the world.
Yanna is not very strong lately.”
“She will nurse her child, and
she goes on about it as if it were the only child
in the universe. People say all kinds of things
about her secluding herself because she has a baby.
Her behavior is a tacit reproach on every mother who
condescends to do her duty to society.”
“She is as foolish about little
Harry as you are about me.”
“She is quite incapable of feeling
as I feel. She is a mere marble woman. I
wish she could feel, for then she might understand
what I suffer in your desertion. Oh, dear!
If in anything she would act like other women!
Every one pities you!-you, that have always
been the very flower of courtesy and of all that is
socially charming!”
“No one need pity me, mother.
I consider myself the most fortunate husband in New
York. And you ought not to permit people to talk
in that way. It is a great wrong to me.”
“I do not, Harry. You may be sure I stand
up for you.”
And such conversations, even if Harry
did not repeat them, were divined, either from his
manner or from some unguarded remark he let fall.
It required all the strength of Adriana’s broad
character to prevent her divinations from finding
a voice-to bear patiently wrongs she could
not permit herself to right-and to wait
with unabated love for that justification sure to
come to those who leave it to the wisdom of their
angels behind them.
On this December morning Mrs. Filmer’s
visit was unexpectedly early. She met Adriana
with a worried face, and barely touching the fingers
of her outstretched hand, said, “I have a letter
this morning, and I think you ought to know about
it, Adriana. It concerns your brother. I
am sure it has been the most wretched thing for my
poor Rose that she ever met the man.”
“That statement would be hard
to prove,” answered Adriana.
“You need not draw yourself
up like a tragedy queen because I feel so bitterly
the mistake my daughter has made. Rose has been
a miserable wife from the first day of her marriage,
and there is no use in denying the fact. And
if her misery has led her to unwise ways of seeking
relief, she is hardly to be blamed. She says,
too, that she has never had a day’s health since
the birth of her baby. And you know what a stern,
unsympathetic man her husband is.”
“I know that Antony has a heart
of infinite love and forbearance. Few men would
have endured what he has borne without a complaint.
Rose is unreasonable, petulant, and, in fact, unmanageable.
Several people who saw her last summer have told me
about her caprices. They can only be accounted
for on the supposition that she had been ‘seeking
relief.’”
“I have no doubt Antony is as bad as she is.”
“Antony is absolutely temperate in all things.”
“Antony is, of course, an angel.”
“I think he is. Certainly
he has had more than mortal patience with and love
for a most ungrateful woman.”
“All the Van Hoosens are angels;
nevertheless, no one can live with them.”
“Mr. Filmer is a Van Hoosen,
and you have managed to live with him. Harry
is a Van Hoosen, and I find it very delightful to live
with Harry.”
“Oh, I can tell you that Harry
is no saint. I wish you could hear society laughing
at the way he deceives you.”
“There is nothing for society
to laugh at; consequently you are mistaken.”
“You blind woman! You poor
blind woman! Everybody knows that Harry never
stops with you one hour that he can help. He is
devoted to that lovely Cora Mitchin.”
“Madam! if you came here to
insult my husband, I will not listen to you.”
“I came here to enlighten the
stupidest woman in New York.”
“I know all I want to know;
and I know nothing wrong of my husband. There
is no happier wife in America than I am. I believe
in Harry Filmer. It is beyond your power to shake
my faith in him. Good morning, madam.”
“Stop one moment. Rose
is coming back. We must all, every one connected
with Rose, do our best to surround her with proper
influences. Miss Alida helped to make the unfortunate
marriage, and I shall expect her to countenance and
stand by Rose.”
“You must tell her so.
I am sure she will do all that she conceives to be
right for her to do.”
“I want you to tell her that
she ought, that she must, give a party to welcome
Rose back. Indeed, she could get Madame Zabriski
to be the hostess if she likes, and she should do
so.”
“Why should she do so?”
“Madame Zabriski’s favor
would silence all the false and ugly reports people
have brought from the other side. I look to you,
Adriana, to carry this point.”
“I prefer not to interfere with
Madame Zabriski’s entertainments.”
“You owe Rose something.”
“I owe Rose nothing but anger
for the way she has treated my good brother.
Poor Antony! My heart bleeds for him.”
“Poor Rose! It is Rose
that is to be pitied. But you are an immensely
cruel, selfish woman! It used to be Rose here,
and Rose there, until you had stolen Rose’s
brother. Now you will not even say a word for
Rose; though a few words from you might get her into
the best society.”
“I do not think society is the
best thing for Rose, at this time. Will you kindly
excuse me? I hear the nursery bell. My son
wants me.”
“My son! Yes! One
day some woman will take him from you.”
“When that day comes, I pray
God that I may have wisdom, and love, and justice
enough, not to treat that woman as you have treated
me.”
“Harry is my son yet.”
“Harry is my husband. And
a man shall leave his father and his mother, and shall
cleave to his wife. That is the Word of God.”
“I shall tell Harry of your
temper! I shall!”-but she found
herself talking to an empty room, and she picked up
her fallen gloves and went away.
It was evident, however, when Harry
returned to his home in the evening, that she had
told Harry many things that had annoyed him. He
was silent, unresponsive, and had an air of injury
or offence. Adriana was only too familiar with
this particular mood. Her first thought was to
defend herself; her second reminded her of the hopelessness
of the effort, or at least of its imprudence.
Mrs. Filmer was not above the common tactics of talebearers;
and she had before accused Adriana of being the informant,
when, on the contrary, she had been mercilessly subjugated
to information she had no desire either to hear or
to discuss.
Therefore, if she told Harry that
his mother had come to her with the tale of Cora Mitchin,
and Mrs. Filmer had already told him that Adriana
had been complaining to her on the same subject, whom
was Harry to believe? The presumption was in
his mother’s favor; but any rate, it put him
in the miserable position of deciding between his
mother and his wife. And she remembered that on
one occasion when she had proved her innocence beyond
a doubt, Harry did not appreciate the removal of the
doubt; he had worn an air of annoyance and depression
for some days afterwards, and had been specially attentive
to his mother, as if her conviction required his extra
sympathy to atone for it.
So they had a wretched dinner, the
only subject on which Harry was inclined to talk being
the illness and the return home of his sister.
He had caught the tone of Mrs. Filmer, and her commiseration
for Rose; and he spoke of her only as “the poor
dear girl” and “the sad little girl,”
while his silence with regard to Antony was one instinct
with disapproval and almost anger.
“Mother thinks I had better
look for a house,” he said. “Rose
asked mother to attend to the matter, but she seems
to be worn out, and unfit for the work.”
“Is it to be furnished or unfurnished?”
asked Adriana.
“Furnished, if possible.
And it must be very large and handsome. They
are going to build, but in the meantime they must rent.
Can you not look for what is required, Yanna?
Mother came to ask you to help her this morning, but
she appears to have had but scant welcome in my house.”
“I am not able to endure the
fatigue of house-hunting, Harry; and baby is very
poorly and cross. He has a high fever to-night.”
“Mother told me I would find
you unwilling to do anything.”
“She did not ask me.”
“She had no opportunity. You left the room.”
“If she told you so much, Harry,
I hope she was honest enough to tell you why
I left the room.”
“Well, Yanna, if you will listen
to idle reports, and then fret mother about them,
you cannot expect her to join you in complaints against
me and my conduct. She at least trusts me!”
Then Harry, with a magnificent air of being wrongly
accused, rose; and Adriana saw that he was about to
leave the room.
“Harry,” she cried, “was
that really what mother told you? How could she?
How could she?”
“I shall not return until late. Do not
wait for me.”
And so, with this evil impression-without
caring for her explanation-Harry was gone.
He had evidently been inspired with a sense of wrong,
and he showed it; he had been led to believe that
Adriana doubted and complained of him, and he was determined
to make her feel that he resented her complaining.
And oh! how bitter were the hours she sat alone, pondering
the cruel situation in which the wickedness of others
had placed her! Nor could she help a feeling of
resentment against Rose. In every crisis of her
life this girl had interfered to bring her sorrow.
“She is my evil genius,” she said angrily,
“and not only mine, but Antony’s also.
Poor Antony! He has to suffer like me every wrong
and injustice, and yet to hold his peace.”
And her heart was heavy, and she felt a dark despair
and a fretful anger striving with her prudence and
affection, and urging her at all risks to set herself
clear in Harry’s eyes. “But to what
purpose?” she asked. “He does not
believe-that is, he does not want to believe
me. My patience has brought me only injustice;
and in vain, in vain, have I washed my hands in innocency.”
But youth finds it possible to hope
that such dark hours must be followed by day, and
after a sleep Adriana thought, “Things will wear
themselves right by to-morrow.” They did
not. It was an unfortunate time for a dispute.
Harry was looking for a house for Rose, and was nearly
constantly with his mother, and all his sympathies
were enlisted for his “poor dear sister.”
He was working for her comfort, and therefore he loved
her; and nothing was in his heart or on his tongue
for the following week but Rose, and a house for Rose,
and when it was secured, the preparations necessary
to make it suitable for her habitation.
As the time approached for the arrival
of the steamer, it was a continual sending and looking
for telegrams. Mrs. Filmer was in a fever of
expectation. She spent the last day in doubting,
fearing and watching, until she was almost hysterical.
That she had a husband who ought at such times to
be her stay did not seem to enter her mind; and Harry
was kept at his mother’s side, or sent off to
the dock or the shipping office, continually.
“The steamer is expected to
be at her dock about ten o’clock, and you had
better be at Rose’s house to welcome her there,”
said Harry, as he took his early and hurried breakfast,
and kept every one fidgety by his haste.
“I cannot do that and do my
duty to my own house and child, Harry. The doctor
will not call to see baby until eleven.”
“The doctor and the nurse are
surely enough for one morning. I shall feel it
to be a great slight to Rose if you are not there to
welcome her.”
“Very well, if you wish it,
I will leave baby and go to Rose.”
“And do try and be kind and
sympathetic, and let the dear girl feel that she is
welcome home again.”
“I shall not fail, Harry.”
Then he came back and kissed her;
and she smiled with a sad pleasure as she took her
way to the nursery, and went over and over to the
woman in authority there the symptoms to be detailed
and the questions to be asked when the physician arrived.
Then she dressed herself with care,
and drove to the house which had been prepared for
Mrs. Antony Van Hoosen. It was large and in a
fashionable locality, and there were fires in all the
splendid rooms, and a full staff of servants in possession.
Adriana disturbed their elaborate breakfast, and they
were inclined at first to be impertinent and injured.
But her manner soon convinced them of her authority,
and she occupied the waiting hours in altering this
cushion, and that picture, and in trying to give an
air of home to mere upholstery and bric-a-brac.
She expected the travelers by noon,
but some delay occurred, and it was two o’clock
when they came up the silent Sabbath street, with
carriages and express wagons, and a certain clatter
and eclat which brought every one, far and
near, to their windows. Antony was the first
to alight, though Harry immediately followed.
Harry assisted his mother, Antony took Rose on his
arm and tenderly helped her up the low, broad steps.
They were both greatly changed; Antony looked ten
years older, and also as if grief, and not age, had
robbed him of his youth. Rose was still beautiful,
but her face had lost its childlikeness, and gained
something more dominant. She was thin and restless;
but quite the woman of the world. As soon as Antony
had placed her on a sofa he went back rapidly to a
third carriage, and took from the arms of a French
nurse within it a little bundle of white silk and
swan’s-down.
His gentleness and care, his encircling
arms, his face bent with such infinite love, made
Adriana’s eyes fill with tears. She went
to meet him, and, with inexpressible pride, he withdrew
the veil that covered the small face. “Oh,
what a lovely child!” This was the exclamation
from every one present. Indeed, the babe was exquisitely
beautiful, as it lay smiling in Antony’s arms,
dimpled and rosy, with large blue eyes full of heavenly
memories, and soft little rings of golden curls, lying
like sunshine on its brow. Mrs. Filmer cried over
the beauty of the infant, and Harry kissed it again
and again; and Adriana felt her heart swell with tenderness.
And while they were all doing homage to the infant,
Mr. Filmer came in; and he let slip all his acquired
restraints, and forgot every other consideration in
the child. He would have it in his arms.
He would kiss its tiny hands and its rosy mouth, and
he said it was “the loveliest image of humanity
he had ever seen!”
And in spite of herself, all this
enthusiasm depressed Adriana. Her own child had
never been much noticed, she thought even Harry had
given Rose’s baby more admiration than he had
given his own. To be sure, little Harry was not
lovely, as little Emma was lovely; but Harry was a
boy, and also he had in his sturdy, large-limbed babyhood
more resemblance to the Van Hoosens than to the more
refined Filmers. Being a mother and a woman,
she could not avoid feeling these things; but having
a nature thoroughly just and loving, she speedily put
down all thoughts that were not unselfish and worthy
to be entertained.
Rose’s attitude also pained
her. She was indifferent and even proud, and
she seemed to take a pleasure in snubbing Antony before
her family. So Adriana made her adieus as quickly
as possible, and hastened back to her child; for he
was just then cutting his teeth at the peril of his
life. Never had the little one been so precious
to her. She did not permit her lips to utter
a complaint, but there was a great unspoken sense
of injustice at her heart; and she was hardly comforted
by Harry’s return to dinner in high good temper;
for he could talk of nothing but Rose, and Rose’s
baby, and the beautiful presents she had brought for
every one.
This was but the beginning of a life
which did not promise anything but a constant trial
of patience to Adriana; for Rose had that power which
some women possess of engaging every man they know
to do them service. “There is only Harry
that can help me in arranging my social affairs,”
she said. “Antony employs his whole time
in nursing me and the baby. Sometimes I wish
for a reasonable husband, such as you are, Harry.
How Yanna must enjoy being left to herself sometimes!”
she cried; and then, with a cunning little laugh,
“Mamma tells me you are just as naughty as ever!
For shame, sir!” And Harry laughed back, not
unpleasantly; and then he offered to help his sister
in any way he could.
“Mamma says that Yanna refused
to ask that old maid to get me into her set, but I
would not be in her set for anything. It is too
stupid, and it is proper beyond endurance. We
want something Frenchy and funny, and just a little
rapid; nothing wrong, of course, Harry, the proper
road; only a gallop, and not a crawl, on it.”
On these lines dinner followed dinner,
and dance followed dance; and pretty Mrs. Van Hoosen
became the leader in the set her ambitions leaned
towards. The giddiest girls, the young sporting
men equally frivolous, who lived only to have what
they called “a good time,” gathered round
her. To such entertainments it was the merest
form to ask Adriana, and as her health was delicate,
she had a suitable excuse without bringing her principles
forward to be made a matter of mirth. But with
Antony it was different.
“It is a long watch, and a weary
one, for I am on guard day and night, Yanna,”
he said to his sister one afternoon. They had
met in a fashionable store, where Rose was shopping;
and standing a little apart, it had been possible
to answer thus Adriana’s query, “Why do
you not come to see me, Antony?”
“Why do you permit -”
“Ask me no questions, Yanna.
A doctor cannot prevent symptoms, he can only watch
for them, and be ready to fight danger when he sees
it. I am in that position, hour after hour.
That is all.”
“But it is misery for you.”
“Yes; but I am watching for
the soul of one I love better than myself.”
“How long is it to last?”
“God knows; to the end of my life, if needs
be.”
Then Rose called Yanna sharply, and
both went to her side. “I am coming to
see you to-morrow, Yanna,” she said. “I
have something to tell you, dear,” and she spoke
with the old bewitching smile; and Yanna answered:
“Do come, Rose. You have never yet seen
my baby.”
Then at a word Rose turned to her
purchases, and apparently forgot both her husband
and her sister-in-law. Adriana had no heart to
buy what she had come to buy. She passed out
into the cold, dirty street, and drove back at once
to her home.
It was fully two weeks before Rose
remembered her promise; then she came suddenly one
morning when Harry had gone away “queer”
and the baby was suffering and cross, and the whole
house a little affected by the tone of the heads of
it. Rose was also cross, though she was sumptuously
clothed in green velvet and golden beaver. She
looked rather contemptuously round Adriana’s
parlor. “I wonder you put up with this
house, Yanna,” she said. “Harry ought
to be ashamed of himself.”
“I am very well pleased with
my house, Rose; and very happy in it. You have
grown used to palaces abroad. And Antony is so
much richer than Harry.”
“Harry could do better than
he does. I do not understand how you endure his
behavior.”
“Rose, if you love me, say nothing wrong of
Harry.”
“He behaves too badly for anything.
Mamma says the money he spends is dreadful! How
do you bear it? I am sorry for you!”
“I am not the only one who has
to bear. Constantly, I feel sorry for Antony.”
“What do you mean? What
has Antony told you? At least Antony is true
as gold to me. I would not suffer a husband like
Harry. I would divorce him. Why, Cora -”
“Rose! You must cease at
once, or I must leave you. You have nothing to
do with my husband.”
“He is my brother, and the whole town talks
of him.”
Then Yanna left her sister-in-law,
and in a few minutes she heard her carriage go clattering
up the street; but she sat still and tearless in the
little low chair which stood by the nursery fire.
Her boy was taking a drive with his nurse, and she
was quite alone in the room sacred to his innocent
life. She kept the anger in her heart behind
her closed lips, but she reflected that patience might
cease to be a virtue; and that the time had come to
demand from Harry some explanation of the rumors and
accusations that had reached her.
“Mr. Van Hoosen is here, ma’am,
and wishes to see you,” said a servant.
Adriana thought of her brother with
a sense of comfort. She felt that she could open
her heart to him. But it was not Antony, it was
Antony’s father who came towards her with outstretched
hands, and a blessing that fell like rain upon her
hot heart.
“God has sent you, father,”
she said solemnly; “for I am in a strait, in
such a strait as no one but you can help me out of.”
Then she told him all her sorrow; and it was evident
to Peter that the sting of her grief was her husband’s
frailty. “If Harry were only good!”
she cried despairingly. “I could bear the
loss of his love.”
“But, Yanna, my dearest one!
what man is good? Was any one ever exempt from
sin but the Son of the Virgin?”
“Oh, father!” she cried
passionately, “will you be like the rest of
the world, and take a man’s view of this question,
just because you are a man?”
“My dear one, neither must you
take a woman’s view just because you are a woman.
The common law and the social law may regard sex; the
commands of God are issued to man and woman alike;
though our merciful Creator, no doubt, will judge
us according to our circumstances and our temptations.”
“If Harry wrongs me, or I wrong
Harry, the sin is the same against God.”
“It is. But it is not the
same against each other. Harry could never wrong
you as you could wrong Harry.”
“Oh, father! How can you say such a thing?”
“Think a moment. The infidelity
of a husband injures a wife’s good name far
less than the infidelity of a wife injures her husband’s
good name. In one case the wife is only visited
by the pity of her acquaintances, in the other case
the husband is an object of derision; yes; in every
age the world has thought the deceived husband worthy
to be derided and sneered at. Socially then your
sin would hurt Harry worse than his sin could hurt
you. Between a man and his Maker, and a woman
and her Maker, the cases are to judge; but between
a man and his wife infidelity to marriage vows is
not as hard on the wife as it is on the husband.
I am speaking now, Yanna, as the sin affects daily
life.”
“Oh, what must I do? What must I do?”
“You must be patient and forgiving.
If the Holy One, in whose sight heaven itself is impure,
can bear with Harry, can you not also bear? Have
you fulfilled the seventy-and-seven times given for
a brother’s forbearance, and was there any limit
given for a wife’s forbearance? Has Harry
yet done a wrong that your pardon cannot reach?
Are you more strict to mark his offences than his
Maker is? To be sure, you are blameless where
Harry is guilty, but, oh, Yanna! is chastity the only
conjugal virtue? Where are charity, patience,
sweet temper, cheerfulness? In these pleasant
home virtues have you never failed? My dear one,
there is an egotism of wifely sorrow that drives a
man to sin. Your mother made me unhappy very
often with just such jealous affection.”
“You are very hard, father.
I thought you would stand by me.”
“Not yet, not yet, Yanna!
You must stand for yourself; stand on your own merits,
your beauty, your rights; stand on Harry’s love
for you, and your great, patient love for him; stand
on your faith in God, your desires for the happiness
of others, and your measureless charity for all.
Oh, Adriana, when a wife cannot lean on her husband,
she must stand alone until she can! Interferers
only bring sorrow.”
“It is all so dark and void and lonely, father.”
“Put your hand out into the
darkness, and you will find The Hand that you
can safely clasp; that will lead you and Harry into
confident and satisfied affection. There is much
good in Harry; there are many years of great love
and happiness in store for you both, if you, Yanna,
do not get weary in well-doing. Is there any sin
for which a man may not be pardoned? Is not the
Gospel built on unlimited forgiveness?”
As Peter was speaking Miss Alida entered.
She looked at him, and then at Yanna, and shrugged
her shoulders with an understanding glance at the
pale, troubled woman. “Well, Cousin Peter,”
she said, “I am glad to see you; but I doubt
if you are the best adviser for Yanna, at this time.
Suppose you leave us a little. I have some words
for my girl that I do not want you to contradict until
she has had time to think them over.” Then
Peter went out, and Miss Alida set her chair down
with a vigorous little thump close to Yanna’s
side. “I called on Rose this morning,”
she said, “and I heard from Antony that she had
come here, so I guessed what she had come to say.
Now, Yanna, we are going to have some straight, sensible
talk, and then, if you make a little fool of yourself
afterwards, it will not be Alida Van Hoosen’s
fault. Rose told you about Harry’s fondness
for certain society?”
“Yes.”
“And made more of her information
than there was need to-that of course.
What have you been telling Cousin Peter?”
“I said to father that Harry
would make a great complaint if I behaved with certain
gay men as he behaves with certain gay women.
I told him I thought the sin in both cases just alike,
and that I was tired of bearing wrongs which would
send Harry to the divorce court.”
“Hum-m-m! What did
your father say?”
“He said Harry’s sin towards
God was the same as my sin would be in like circumstances;
but that Harry’s sin to me was less than the
same sin on my part would be towards him. And
he told me to pray, and forgive, and hope, and wait,
and so on,” she added with a weary sigh.
“Good, as far as it goes.
We are going further, and we must not look in a one-eyed
manner at the question. To begin at the beginning,
none of us supposed, not you, nor I, not yet your
father, that Harry was before his marriage to you,
a model of morality. Before your marriage, antecedent
purity was not pretended on Harry’s side; and
your family never inquired after it, I dare say.
Unfortunately, though early marriage is rare, early
depravity is not rare; and I will venture to doubt
if one youth in one hundred struggles unpolluted out
of the temptations that assail youth. Whatever
future obligations were imposed on Harry by his marriage,
nobody thought of blaming him for the past.”
“I do not permit myself to consider
Harry’s past. In our marriage he was bound
by the same vows and obligations as I was. When
he breaks them he is precisely as guilty as I would
be if I should break them.”
“Not quite so. The offence
of a married woman changes purity to impurity; the
offence of a married man usually only makes what was
impure a little more so. That is one difference.
Your father pointed out the social difference-pity
for the woman, scorn and derision for the man.
I will go still further, and remind you that society
in blaming the woman so much more than the man acts
on a great physiological truth, affecting not only
racial and family characteristics, but the proper
heirship of large properties and the successions to
vast estates. The infidelity of the husband inflicts
no spurious children on his wife. If a woman has
no other married privilege, she has that of knowing
her own children.”
“That is not the whole of the
question. A bad man may not be able to impose
spurious children on his wife; but that does not prevent
him from imposing them on his friend and neighbor.”
“That is a case between man
and man, not between a man and his wife; and we have
nothing to do with it. I am only trying to convince
you that Harry is not as bad as you think he is.”
“And I say that it is wrong
to expect purity from wives and not also from their
husbands.”
“My dear Yanna, we shall have
to call justice to our aid. There are certain
virtues that belong peculiarly to men, and others which
belong peculiarly to women. For instance, bravery
is to a man all that chastity is to a woman.
The want of courage that disgraces a man is no slur
to a woman. If a ship is going to pieces, men
postpone their own deliverance until all the women
have been saved; and if they did not, they would be
infamous forever in the eyes of their fellow men.
In the hour of death or danger, women faint and cry
out, and it is no shame to them, it is only womanly,
and they are loved the more for it; but if men were
to so far forget themselves, what a measure of contempt
would be justly given them! Yet men do not complain
of this apparent unfairness; they know that being
men, they must suffer as men, and not claim the privilege
of a woman’s immunity.”
“One sin cannot excuse another, Cousin Alida.”
“It is not only one, there are
many other points, which are just as remarkable; for
instance, there is the dishonor of being found out
cheating at cards. Men laugh at the fault in women;
they call them ‘pretty little frauds,’
and go on with the game. But if a man is caught
in the same act, he is quickly sent to Coventry, or
to Halifax, or to some other shameful limbo.”
“Women are proverbially weak,
and men assume to be their superiors in strength of
character. They ought to prove it.”
“Come, come, Mrs. Filmer!
If a woman’s weakness is an excuse, then the
vigor, the strength, and the temptations of men are
a much larger one. Their very excess of life
makes them powerful to do, and impotent to
resist. It is clearly unreasonable to expect men
to be both as they are and as they are not. Simple
justice demands that we should be more tolerant with
men than with women on the score of those offences,
which are the death-blow to a woman’s good name.
You see, then, that each sex has a right to plead
certain exténuations not permissible to the other
sex.”
“I see that it is the privilege
of the male sex to wound and to injure the female
sex; and the privilege of the latter to bear and to
forgive.”
“Well, then, Yanna, to forgive
is a noble privilege, a safe and blessed generosity.
And I can tell you, that I have known many pure, chaste
wives who were just as bad wives as you could possibly
find-cruel, selfish, spiritually-proud,
intolerant women, filling their husband’s days
with the bitterness of their tempers, or else giving
way to an egotism of despair and weeping worse than
all the wrongs they complain of.”
“My dear cousin, I do hope that
you do not include me in that list.”
“I hope not, Yanna. I hope
not. There are certain things that can only be
got by renouncing them-your own way, your
own desire is usually one of these things.”
“What am I to do then?
I cannot bear things as they are.”
“If you cannot bear your troubles,
you may be able to bear their remedies. You ought
to have for Harry such a love as masters Time, and
the infelicities of Time. Have you this love?”
“Yes, I have.”
“You can bear to think of loving Harry and living
with him eternally?”
“I should be miserable if I thought death would
separate us.”
“Good gracious, child!
And yet you have suffered the word ‘divorce’
to pass your lips. Just remember that men do
not marry women because they are very beautiful, or
very clever, or very good, indeed; they generally
marry them because there is ‘something nice about
them.’ Now, let Harry always find there
is ‘something nice about you.’ You
do not complain of Harry to any one, do you?”
“I have not, until this morning;
nor have I listened to any report about him.”
“Quite right. To talk of
matrimonial troubles is to burn the dirtiest chimney
ever set on fire. But there are sins of omission
as well as of commission. You have stayed at
home too much. You ought to go out with Harry
while his mood is to go out.”
“I cannot go with the set that Rose and he prefer.”
“You can go with my set.
Harry must really be forgetting how you look in anything
but tweed and China silk. Put away every appearance
of being an injured wife. Be a happy wife.
Let him always come into an atmosphere of good humor.
No man can resist that.”
“Rose and Mrs. Filmer drop so
many unkind words about me.”
“Drop kind ones about them.
The incongruity will eventually strike him.”
“His family have always tried to make sorrow
for me.”
“Of course. A wife’s
foes are to be found in her husband’s family.
Let them plot and plan, and you be sincere. Whatever
is sincere invariably conquers. A week to-day
we are going to have a grand dinner-party. Wear
your wedding dress, and I have brought you my sapphires
and diamonds. Dress your hair high. Dress
to the utmost of your conception of what is splendid.
Then march on Harry, and take him anew by storm.
One-half of men’s passion for pretty actresses
is grounded on their picturesque dressing. If
they saw the same girls in a housemaid’s cotton
gown and apron, they would not look at them.”
“Such a low side to touch Harry on!”
“Oh, dear me! Can you build
a marble palace without the rough wood scaffolding?
Do but be bright and cheerful and handsome and patient,
and my word for it! you will see how swiftly Harry
will tire of meaner women. For the rapid transformation
whereby carnal love is turned into carnal hatred is
one of the most wonderful things to consider.
Now mind, you are to conquer all before you next Thursday
night!”
So the invitation was formally sent,
and Adriana announced her intention of accepting it.
Harry was a trifle annoyed. He had grown accustomed
to going out alone, and feeling a kind of safe repose
in the idea of the wife watching on his hearthstone.
“Do you think you had better
go, dear?” he asked. “Is little Harry
well enough to leave? And there is your dress!
I suppose it will be a very fine affair.”
“Cousin Alida made a point of
my being present. I must go for dinner.
I need not stay long after.”
“I have an engagement at the
Union Club that very night-rather an important
one-I wonder how I can manage?”
“You can take me to the Zabriski
house, and make your apologies in person to Cousin
Alida. After your dinner at the club, you can
call for me. I dare say I shall be ready to go
home.”
“Those Zabriski affairs are so very stupid.”
“Still, we like to have the invitations.”
“If you do go, Yanna, dress as Mrs. Harry Filmer
ought to dress.”
“Certainly, Harry, I will.”
And then with renewed hope she made her preparations.
They were so successful that her face was radiant with
delight when she pressed her cousin’s large,
capable hand and whispered:
“Harry said I was the most beautiful
creature he had seen this season.”
“You are,” answered Miss
Alida, looking with pride at the stately woman robed
in white satin and lace, and sparkling with jewels.
Fortunately, she had Professor Snowdon for a companion;
and he brought out the brightest and sweetest traits
of her nature, so that she recaptured all that old
charm of presence which had once made her irresistible.
So swiftly grew her confidence in her own powers again
that she was easily persuaded to take a share in the
music that followed the dinner; and when Harry came
to escort her home he found her standing by the piano,
and singing to its wandering, penetrating melody,
with a delightful voice:
“Love in her sunny eyes doth basking
play;
Love walks the pleasant mazes of her hair;
Love does on both her lips forever stray,
And sows and reaps a thousand kisses there.”
And as she sang, she caught Harry’s
beaming glance; and so she sang to him, thrilling
his heart with the passionate melody till a love like
that of his first betrothal swayed it.
When she went away, Miss Alida put
her face under the pretty pink hood, and whispered:
“Good night, Yanna! You have done everything
I wished and hoped. Harry is saved!”
But Miss Alida knew only the probable
ways of men and women. This exquisite Adriana
clothed in satin, and gemmed with sapphires, seemed
to her the proper angel of the recreant husband.
But the wisdom of The All Wise had ordained a very
different woman; even one of those poor souls expected
by theologians to be damned, but intended by God to
be an inheritor of the kingdom of heaven.