Of course Lady Isobel’s letter
had to be answered, and the wonderful news told of
Bobby’s change of home. His letter took
him a long time to write, and True helped him a great
deal. Mrs. Allonby sent it as it was, with all
the imperfections of spelling and many a blot and
erasure; but she added a little note herself, as Bobby’s
left much to be explained.
’MY DEAR LADY FREND —
’Me and Nobbles is kite wel,
so is True. Father came at last. He tuked
me in a motor home. I have a knew mother.
She is very nice. We saw sum reel wite gates,
but they was loked. We mène to find sum
more. Me and Nobbles runned away and hid under
the sete. We did not go back no more.
Plese come and see me in this house, and giv Master
Mort’mer my best luv. I warnt to see him
agen. I went in the rode to mete my father and
he comed, but I did not no him. Thank you verry
much for the piksher. I shall like it wen it
comes and so will True. She spells my leter
for me.
Your loving boy,
BOBBY.’
And when the letter was sent, Bobby
set himself to watch for his picture.
It came very soon, and to his eyes
was a miracle of beauty.
Mrs. Allonby had it framed for him
and hung up over his bed in the dressing-room.
He was never tired of looking at it, and what pleased
him most was a little boy about his own age just being
let inside the gates by a kind faced angel.
‘Look at his white dress; not
one tiny spot, Nobbles,’ he would exclaim.
’That’s me going in, and I shall walk
right up the street to God like that.’
There was a dark corner in the picture,
and two weeping people being turned away. In
fact it was as nearly like the original as it could
be, only it was much bigger, and the gates were lovely
in their gold and white paint.
True admired it as much as he did,
and would often come and stand and look at it with
delight and awe.
‘I wonder if I have a right
to go inside,’ she said. ’I love
having a right to do things, then no one can stop
me.’
‘It’s wearing a white robe gives you right,’
said Bobby.
‘Yes, and doing the Commandments,’
responded True quickly; ’that’s the differcult
part. But I mean to be inside, not outside, I
tell you that!’
Many delightful excursions did the
children have with their father, but the summer days
began to shorten and the sun appeared less often, and
Mrs. Allonby kept them more at home. She herself
did not get stronger. Her appetite failed.
Gradually she came downstairs less, and kept in bed
more. Mr. Allonby grew careworn and anxious,
the doctor appeared very often, and still Bobby and
True played together gleefully, with little idea of
the black shadow that was going to fall upon their
happy home.
Then one bright sunny morning True
asked Mr. Allonby if he would give them a ride in
his car.
He looked at her for an instant in
silence, then said slowly:
‘No, we must do without motor
drives now; I am going to sell it.’
‘Sell it! Oh, dad, you mustn’t!’
‘I must,’ he said; ’I
want to give your mother all the comfort and ease
I can, and we are poor people. Besides, I shall
have no heart for anything now.’
‘Why?’ questioned True.
‘Don’t ask so many questions,’
Mr. Allonby said sharply, and he was so seldom vexed
with them that the children looked at each other with
dismayed faces.
Later that morning Mr. Allonby was
wandering moodily up and down his strip of garden
smoking his pipe; his head was bent, his hands loosely
clasped behind him. Suddenly he felt a soft little
hand take hold of one of his.
’Father, dear, do tell me about
your sad finks. I know they’re sad from
your face.’
It was Bobby. His father looked
down upon him for a minute, then without a word led
him into a field which ran up at the back of their
garden. He paced the whole length of the field
with his little son before he spoke again, and then,
leaning against a five-barred gate, he said heavily:
’I can’t hold up against
it, sonny! I was a worthless creature till she
took me in hand, and now, when she is making something
of me, when we are going to peg away together at the
book which is going to make our fortune, she is going
to leave me. I can’t live without her!
I shall go to the dogs!’
’Is it mother you mean?
Oh, father, we won’t let her leave us!
Why does she want to go?’
’She doesn’t; it is cruel
fate. Bobby, my boy, life is an utter failure.
Oh! I don’t know what I am saying, or
why I am talking like this. Your mother is dying
fast, can’t you see it? I hoped she was
getting stronger, but the doctor says it has only been
her strong will that has got her downstairs at all.
Oh, Helen, you’re too young, too full of life
and spirit to be taken! I will not believe it!’
He folded his arms on the top bar
of the gate and dropped his head upon them with a
groan. Bobby stood perfectly still; the news
was so astounding, so bewildering, that he could hardly
take it in.
‘Is mother going through the golden gate now?’
he asked.
There was no answer. Then Bobby
climbed up on the gate with a longing desire to comfort
his father. He had never seen a grown-up person
in trouble before, and it was with the greatest effort
he prevented himself from bursting into tears.
’Father, dear, don’t cry!
It’s a lovely thing when God calls people.
Mother tolded us herself last Sunday it was.
And p’raps God will take her for a visit, and
then send her back again. Is she reely going
into heaven soon? Oh, wouldn’t it be nice
if we could all go with her! May I run and tell
True; and may we just ask mother about it a little?’
‘Leave me, child! Run
away!’ And when his pattering footsteps had
died away Bobby’s father said in bitterness of
spirit: ’Heartless little scamp!
He is enjoying the sensation of it!’
But he misunderstood Bobby.
The child had never seen death, and did not understand
it in the least; his vision was steadfastly fixed on
the life hereafter. What wonder that the glories
of it eclipsed the present shadow!
True received his news first incredulously,
then stamped and stormed in helpless passion.
’Mother shan’t die!
She shan’t be put in the ground! Bobby,
we’ll keep her from going. Oh, mother,
mother! we couldn’t live without you!’
A burst of tears followed, in which
Bobby joined her from very sympathy. Then softly
they stole up the steep narrow stairs to their mother’s
room. They met Margot at the door.
‘Oh dear!’ she sighed,
as she saw their faces, ’I s’ppose your
father has been and told you. The missis is
quite nicely this morning, and wants to see you.
Now if you go in, no tears, mind — nothing
to make her sad. You must make believe you’re
glad she’s going, same as I do.’
A husky sob broke in the faithful
servant’s voice. She signed to the children
to go in, and turned away abruptly herself.
Hand in hand, on tiptoe, they stole
to their mother’s bedside.
Surely she was better with such a
pink colour in her cheeks! She smiled brightly
at them, but her voice was weak and low.
’I haven’t seen you for
two days, darlings! Tell me what you’ve
been doing.’
‘I’ve been in the field
with father,’ said Bobby, taking one of Mrs.
Allonby’s hands in his, and very gently raising
it to his lips to kiss. ’We’ve comed
to tell you that we are very glad you’re going
through the gates, but we would like you to ask God
to let you come back to us very soon.’
Sudden tears came to Mrs. Allonby’s eyes.
‘I think you must come to me,’ she said
almost in a whisper.
’We should like to do that very
much, said Bobby bravely. ’True and me
are ready, we fink.’
‘But, darlings,’ went
on Mrs. Allonby, ’you must not feel impatient
if God does not send for you just yet. I want
my little daughter to grow up to be a comfort to her
father, to keep the house tidy, do his mending, have
comfortable little meals for him, and let him always
feel he has a home and a little daughter waiting for
him.’
‘And me?’ questioned Bobby
eagerly. ’What must I do for him?
I belongs to him besides True.’
’You belong to him more than
True does. I want you to be his little companion.
Go out with him, talk to him, tell him about your
lovely picture, let him feel he cannot get on without
you. Oh, Bobby, dear, you love your father with
all your heart and soul! Show it to him by your
life. I want you two to be inseparable.
I shall pray you may be.’
A glorious light dawned in Bobby’s
eyes. He caught Mrs. Allonby’s meaning.
‘I’ll die for him if I
can,’ he said fervently; and deep down in his
heart he meant what he said.
True stood looking at her mother with
sadly pathetic eyes.
’When are you going, mother?
Oh, I think God might do without you a little longer.
I won’t pretend I want you to go; I won’t.’
’My little girl, I know you
don’t want me to leave you; and at first I felt
just like you do. But I have been lying here
talking to God, and He has been talking to me, and
now I know that He makes no mistakes, and is doing
the very best for all of us by taking me now.
I shall look for you and father, and one day we shall
be all together again, I hope, in that beautiful country
that now seems so far away.’
There was a little silence in the
room; then Mrs. Allonby turned to Bobby.
’Bobby, dear, will you say me
that verse in that old Italian Bible of your grandmother’s?
Somehow, now I am so near the gates, it seems to
bring me more comfort than our English version.
I have so often broken God’s commandments.
But the other — is so simple — so
comforting!’
Bobby repeated his favourite verse with glad assurance.
’"Blessed are they that wash
their robes in the blood of the Lamb, that they may
have right to the tree of life, and enter in through
the gates into the City."’
‘Yes,’ said Mrs. Allonby
when he had finished, ’when we come near the
gates, Bobby, and all our life rises before us with
all our sins, it is the thought of the Lamb’s
precious blood that brings us peace and courage.
I like the verse about doing His commandments for
life; but for death your verse is far and away the
best.’
The children could hardly follow this.
True climbed upon the bed and sat close to her mother.
‘Is it a very nice thing to die, mother?’
she asked.
’My darling, it is nice to feel
that our dear Saviour is holding me tight. “Lo,
I am with you alway,” He says to me. And
so I am content.’
‘Oh,’ said Bobby, ’I
should like to see the gates open and let you in.
Will you walk up the street by those lovely trees?
And will you come to the gates to meet us when it’s
our time?’
Mrs. Allonby smiled her answer, and
Margot now crept softly in and told the children they
must go.
‘I must have a kiss from each
of them,’ Mrs. Allonby said feebly. ’I
don’t think — I never know, Margot,
whether I shall get through another night.’
So they kissed her, and reluctantly
left the room. That was a strange, long day
to them. Mr. Allonby came in and spent the rest
of the day in his wife’s room. The children
had to go to bed without wishing him good-night.
Bobby unhung his picture and placed it on the dressing-table
opposite his bed, where he could look at it.
In the early morning he lay gazing at it with fascinated
eyes. He followed in thought his mother’s
arrival there, her entrance through the gates, and
her triumphal march up to the shining, golden throne
in the distance. He seemed to hear the blast
of trumpets, the rapt singing of the angels attending
her, and he was completely lost in his vision when
he was suddenly roused by his father’s entrance.
He looked strangely untidy and wretched, his little
boy thought. Bobby was peculiarly susceptible
to outside appearances. His father was dressed
in his ordinary tweed suit, but his eyes were haggard,
his hair rough, his white collar crumpled, and his
face heated and tear-stained.
He came in impulsively and threw himself
on his knees by his child’s bed.
’Oh, Bobby, little chap, she
has gone, she has left me, and I’ve promised
to meet her again! We must help each other.
May God Himself teach me, for I’m not fit to
teach you. I don’t know how I shall get
through life without her. I always felt that
since her accident she has been too good to live.
She never made one murmur.’
Bobby opened his mouth to speak, then
stopped, and tears crowded into his eyes.
’Is she really gone, father?
Oh, how could God take her so quick? I did
want to say a proper good-bye. Look, father,
dear, at my picsher. Is she inside by this time,
do you think? How long does it take to go to
heaven?’
Mr. Allonby took up his little son’s
picture and gazed at it with keen interest, then he
put it down with a heavy sigh.
’Yes, she’s there right
enough, sonny. I don’t doubt that.
Shall we say a little prayer together — you
and I — for I feel quite unable for what
is before me.’
So the grown-up man knelt by the small
bed, and Bobby jumped up and knelt by his side, and
in very broken, faltering accents he prayed:
’Merciful God, have pity on
me and my children; be with us now she has left us.
Help me to do my duty; forgive my selfish life.
I want to be different; change me; set me right;
make me what she wanted me to be. Bless this
boy here, make him a better man than his father.
And the little motherless girl — how can
I take care of her? Have pity and help us all
for Christ’s sake. Amen.’
It was a prayer that Bobby never forgot
all his life, and he never spoke of it to anyone.
Childlike, he kept it wrapped up in his heart.
He was puzzled at his father’s distress; he thought
no grown-up person ever cried; but his whole being
quivered afresh with loving devotion to the father
who now had only himself and True to comfort him.