’A closed bud containeth
Possibilities infinite and unknown.’
Life went on very quietly with the
three who were left. Elfie was the sunshine
of the house; her ringing laugh and little snatches
of song, as she came in and out, cheered all who heard
her. And Clare, fitful and uncertain in her
bright moods, could not understand Elfie’s unfailing
good-humour.
‘You never will take life seriously,’
she said to her one morning after breakfast, as they
were waiting for the postman in the garden, and Elfie
had seated herself on the top bar of the gate, swinging
herself to and fro, and trilling out an old English
ditty as she did so.
‘I can’t make cares when
we have none,’ she responded laughingly; ’I
have never been so happy in my life as I am now.’
‘I wish I could be contented with so little.’
’Oh, you! You’re
always straining after shadows, and won’t live
in the present at all. Now tell me, what have
you to make you unhappy to-day? You’re
expecting a letter from Hugh, and Miss Villars is coming
to tea with us this afternoon. Those are two
pleasures for you. And then look at our weather!
This is an ideal summer.
“Strange that summer skies and sunshine
Never seem one half so fair,
As when winter’s snowy pinions
Shake the white down in the
air.”
Why don’t you live in the present?’
‘Don’t preach,’
said Clare carelessly; ’it’s too warm this
morning to argue. Here comes that lazy man at
last!’
Elfie sprang down and seized the letters
with a bright nod of welcome to the stolid-looking
postman.
’Here is one from Gwen!
Agatha will be pleased; and here is Hugh’s!
Now, Clare, be happy! And there is not one for
me, so I shall go to Agatha to hear how Gwen is getting
on.’
She darted into the house, and Clare,
sinking into a chair on the shady verandah, prepared
herself to enjoy one of Captain Knox’s periodical
epistles. They were always full of life and interest;
and Clare was beginning to feel a sick longing to
have him back with her again. Even as she read
she let the letter fall in her lap whilst she mused
upon the past. ’I used to be so cross
to him. I took all his love and attention so
coolly. If I only had him back again, how different
I would be! He was always so unselfish, and
I was so selfish and discontented. I can’t
think now how I could have been unhappy when I was
constantly seeing him. Oh, Hugh! if you could
come to me now, I would never grumble again!
One touch, one word, one look, if only I could have
it!’
And Clare’s blue eyes filled
with tears, and her sight was dim as she finished
reading her letter. She remained motionless for
some minutes then, and was rising slowly from her
seat to go and hear the news of Gwen, when a slip
of paper fluttered out of the envelope. It was
a postscript as follows: —
’Here is Mr. Lester’s
motto on the carved scroll. It was in Arabic,
as I thought, and the translation is something like
this: —
’A closed bud containeth
Possibilities infinite and unknown.’
Clare folded it up with a sigh.
’There is no clue there, that
I can see. I will have another look at the cupboard
this afternoon.’
She joined her sisters, and heard
a racy account of Gwen’s experiences on board
ship. She had fallen in with nice people — a
Mr. and Mrs. Montmorency, going out to California
for the third time to look after some property of
theirs.
‘We are great friends,’
Gwen wrote. ’Mr. Montmorency is a clever,
well-read man — can talk on any subject, and
has been in California for nearly thirty years.
His advice would be invaluable to Walter. I
am asking them to come and pay us a visit when they
are in our neighbourhood, which they hope to be before
long, and they have promised to do so. Mr. Montmorency
does not think farming pays in Walter’s locality.
He says there are many things more profitable; but
I will not tell you all our talk. I spend most
of my time with them. You may be interested in
hearing that Clement Arkwright is on board. But
I give him a wide berth. He asked some rather
impertinent questions the first time we spoke to each
other. I showed him it would not answer, and
now we pass each other with a bow!’
‘Who is Clement Arkwright?’ asked Elfie.
Clare laughed.
’One of Gwen’s old admirers.
He has too much of her self-will and dogged pride
to pull with her. Do you remember, Agatha, how
we used to enjoy their wordy combats? I always
thought that at the bottom of all her antagonism to
him she really liked him; but she never would allow
it.’
‘I dare say he wonders at her
going out alone,’ said Agatha musingly; ’she
does not say where he is going. I remember he
had a great idea of shielding women from the brunt
of life, as he used to call it, and that was one thing
that Gwen could not stand.’
‘What more does she say?’ asked Clare.
’Not much. She says she
means to study farming while she is away, and hopes
to get valuable hints from Mr. Montmorency, who seems
to be a perfect mine of information.’
‘One of Gwen’s sudden
friendships!’ observed Clare. ’I
only hope it will last out the voyage!’
She left the room and went to the
study, where she spent the rest of the morning in
trying to copy Mr. Lester’s carving on the cupboard.
She was very fond of this occupation, and had decorated
several little tables and stools. She found
Mr. Lester’s handiwork a great help to her,
and was ambitious of designing a cupboard herself,
very much after the pattern of the study one.
As she was tracing a part of the delicate
border edging the panels, she suddenly started, and
the thought flashed across her: —
’It must be one of these buds
that contains the secret of the lock or spring, and
that is the meaning of the words: —
’"A closed bud containeth
Possibilities infinite and unknown."’
She passed her fingers over some thick
buds that hung in festoons along the border, and then
with finger and thumb she tried to move each one in
succession. At last one began to revolve; she
turned it breathlessly, and after three or four revolutions,
a sharp click, and then the panel opened.
For one minute Clare stayed her hand — irresolute.
She had discovered the secret, and the contents of
the cupboard would be before her eyes.
Surprise, delight, and a little dismay
were mingled in the discovery. Stories that Jane
had told her of the mysterious cupboard that some
thought contained proofs of a crime, came to her mind.
The remembrance of the owner’s express wish
that it should remain locked, made her hesitate.
It was a battle between intense curiosity
and the sense of honour; but the latter prevailed.
Clare closed the panel hastily, turned round the
carved bud till it was closed, and then walked to the
window, turning her back on her temptation.
She heaved a sigh of relief.
’I am sure I deserve praise
for such virtue. No one can taunt me with a
woman’s curiosity after this! Now the question
is, shall I tell the others? I don’t think
I will. It wouldn’t do to let the maids
get wind of it. I shall write and tell Hugh,
of course. How interested he will be!
It was really rather clever of me to find it out, for
it is a wonderfully ingenious device. And I
suppose the old man never dreamt of women deciphering
his Arabic characters, much less following the ambiguous
hint given in his motto.’
And then sitting down at the writing-table,
Clare commenced a letter at once to Captain Knox.
Her discovery delighted her, and for the rest of
the day she was sunshine itself.
Miss Villars arrived in the afternoon,
bringing with her two shy, lanky girls of fourteen
and fifteen.
‘I knew you would let me bring
two of my visitors,’ she said aside to Agatha;
’they are recovering from influenza. Their
father is a curate in Liverpool, and I am trying to
feed them up, and get a little colour in their cheeks
before they go home again. They are rather shy,
but it is such a pleasure for them to be in the country.’
Elfie soon took possession of the
girls, and wandered round the garden with them, where
their tongues unloosed, and they poured forth such
a flood of chatter that she had no difficulty in entertaining
them.
‘We are having such a lovely
time. Miss Villars’ house is like one you
read of in books. We never thought we should
ever stay in one like it. We feel as if we are
in fairyland. You see, we are very poor, and
only keep one servant, and there are seven of us at
home, and our house is in a terrace, and smuts, and
soot, and dust fly in at the windows all day long.
Miss Villars is awfully nice, and she makes us enjoy
ourselves. At home one feels quite wicked if
one reads a storybook, because there are so many of
the boys’ stockings to be mended, and cooking,
and our own lessons in between, for we go to a day
school for three hours every morning. Now here,
Miss Villars takes us out in the garden after breakfast
under her shady trees, and puts one of us in a hammock,
and the other in an easy chair, and leaves us there
with some delicious books for a couple of hours.
And then we see a dainty lunch coming out to us about
eleven o’clock, and we drive and play tennis,
and she treats us just like she might her own sisters!’
Elfie, looking at the radiant faces
and sparkling eyes of the two delicate girls, envied
Miss Villars the privilege of being able to bring
such brightness and happiness into others’ lives.
Meanwhile Clare was having a private
talk with her friend, for after tea Agatha had sped
down to the village on one of her benevolent errands.
‘Have you found the true secret
of happiness yet?’ asked Miss Villars presently.
‘You look brighter than when I last saw you.’
’I may be brighter now, but
I shall have one of my black moods again soon.
No, Miss Villars, I don’t think I shall ever
be satisfied in this life. The more I have,
the more I want, and you couldn’t expect me
to be happy with Hugh in Africa!’
She laughed as she spoke, but her smile soon died
away.
’I want him back dreadfully,
Miss Villars. I never dreamt I would miss him
so much; and I have a horrible feeling that he will
not come back at all. I think I should die if
he did not! I long sometimes to go out to him.
But I can’t. I must just wait, and I hate
waiting! I never could wait for anything when
I was a child, and it drives me nearly wild!’
Clare spoke with such vehemence and
passion that for a moment Miss Villars thought it
best not to speak. Then she said slowly, —
’Poor child! you take life’s
lessons hardly. And I can’t help you except
by sympathy. There is only One who can, and you
will not go to Him for the patience and rest of soul
you need.’
Tears filled Clare’s blue eyes.
She gazed away out of the window up to the sweet
summer sky, and her face grew wistful and sad.
‘I am seeking Him,’ she
said in a low voice, ’but it all seems dark,
and the Bible seems no help, and prayer a weariness;
and then I give up trying, and try to amuse myself,
and make the time pass as best I can.’
Then Miss Villars did a thing which
Clare owned to herself that no one else but Miss Villars
could have done naturally. She took hold of
Clare’s hand, and with closed eyes and bent head
began to pray.
A very short and simple prayer, but
a strange thrill ran through Clare as she realized
this was indeed speaking to One who was close to them.
And nothing jarred her feelings. She only seemed
to be drawn into the very presence of her Saviour,
who with open arms was waiting to receive and bless
her.
When Miss Villars ceased speaking,
Clare’s head still remained lowered, and there
was perfect silence. It was broken by Elfie’s
return from the garden with the girls; and without
a word Clare crept softly away up to her own room,
and Miss Villars left without seeing her again.
But up in her room Clare was kneeling
by her bedside in a passion of tears.
’O God, help me, help me!
I want to be right with Thee, I want this rest of
soul; give it to me. Oh, if Thou art waiting
to bless, I am ready, I am willing. Forgive
me and save me for Christ’s sake. Amen.’
She had never prayed so earnestly before.