On Monday, Hugh, Poss, and Binjie
had to go out to an outlying paddock to draft a lot
of station-sheep from a mob of travelling-sheep.
As this meant a long, hard job, the three breakfasted
by candlelight a good old fashion, this,
but rather forgotten lately and Blake also
turned out for early breakfast, as he wanted to get
his drive to Tarrong over while the weather was cool.
Of the women-folk, Ellen alone was up, boiling eggs,
and making tea on a spirit-lamp; laughing and chattering
meanwhile, and keeping them all amused; while outside
in the frosty dawn, the stable boy shivered as he
tightened the girths round the ribs of three very
touchy horses. Poss and Binjie were each riding
a station horse to “take the flashness out of
him,” and Binjie’s horse tried to buck
him off, but might as well have tried to shed his own
skin; so he bolted instead, and disappeared with a
snort and a rattle of hoofs over the hill. The
others followed, with their horses very much inclined
to go through the same performance.
After they had gone, Ellen Harriott
and Blake were left alone in the breakfast-room.
Outside, the heedless horse-boy was harnessing Blake’s
ponies; but inside no one but themselves was awake,
and as he finished his breakfast, Ellen stepped up
to the table and blew out the two candles, leaving
the room in semi-darkness. She caught his hand,
and he drew her to him. It was what she had been
waiting for all night. She had pictured a parting,
which was to be such sweet sorrow. Blake had also
pictured it to himself, but in quite a different way.
He was determined to make an end of
his engagement (or entanglement, whichever it could
be called), and yet when the chance came he almost
put it off; but the thought of what exposure and disgrace
would mean, if his affairs were investigated, drove
him on.
He stroked her hair for a while in
silence, and then, with a laugh, said, “We’ll
have to give up this sort of thing, you know; it’ll
be getting you talked about, and that’ll never
do.”
She hardly knew what he meant.
Having lived so long in a fool’s paradise, she
could not realise that her world was coming down about
her ears.
“We’ll have to be proper
in future,” he said. “I’ve had
the most fiendish run of bad luck lately, and it’s
just as well there never was any engagement between
us. It would have had to come to nothing.”
She drew back, and looked at him with
frightened eyes. He had great power over her this
big, masterful man, whom she had looked upon as her
lover; and she could not believe that a little trouble
about money could really make any difference to him.
She believed him able to overcome any such difficulty
as that of earning a living for her and himself.
“But, Gavan,” she said, “what have
I done?”
“Done, little girl? you’ve
done nothing. It’s all my fault. I’ve
lost heart over things lately, and it will only harm
you if we keep up this pretence of being engaged.
Nothing can come of it.”
“Why not? Why can’t we wait?”
“Wait! To be stuck in Tarrong
all my life among these people, and up to my neck
in debt! No, little woman, as soon as ever I can
get things squared up, I’m off out of this,
and I dare say we’ll never see each other again.
I’ve made a mess of things here, and I’m
off somewhere else.”
It seemed almost incredible to her
that a man could so throw up the fight; and then a
thought flashed into her mind.
“It is not because Miss Grant has come that
you do this?”
He laughed with a well-simulated indifference.
“Miss Grant!” he said,
“I have only seen her twice that day
on the coach and last night.”
She seemed to study the question,
still holding his hands, and looking up into his face.
The light in the room was stronger, and there were
sounds as if some of the household were stirring.
“So we must say ‘Good-bye!’”
she said, “just because you are short of money.
Gavan, I would have thought more of you, had you told
me you were tired of me and were going in for the
other girl. I think I could have respected you
at any rate; but to sneak out on the story of not being
able to afford it
His face darkened, and he began to
speak, but she stopped him, and went on in a passionless
sort of voice. “Some one is coming,”
she said, “and we must say good-bye; and since
you wish it, it is Good-bye.’ But I’m
not a child, to change my fancies in a day, so I won’t
promise to forget. And I think you have treated
me very badly, so neither will I promise to forgive.
I had set my heart on you, Gavan. You seemed to
me but there, it’s no use talking.
I suppose I should be meek and mild, and
“But, Ellen
“No, don’t interrupt me.
It is the last talk together we shall have. I
suppose I can go governessing, or nursing, to the end
of the chapter. It seems a dreary outlook, doesn’t
it? Now go, and remember that I do not forgive
easily. I had built such castles, Gavan, and now ”
She slipped quietly from the room, and was gone.
Gavan Blake drove home, feeling a
trifle uneasy. He had expected some sort of outburst,
but the curious way in which she had taken it rather
non-plussed him.
“She won’t stick a knife
in herself, I suppose,” he mused. “Just
like her to do something unusual. Anyway, she
has too much pride to talk about it and
the affair had to come to an end sooner or later.”
And feeling that if not “on
with the new love,” he was, at any rate, satisfactorily
“off with the old,” Blake drove his spanking
ponies off to Tarrong, while Ellen Harriott went about
her household work with a face as inscrutable and
calm as though no stone had ruffled the mill-pond
of her existence.