It is a strange thing that I should
be at a stick for a date the date, besides,
of an incident that changed the very nature of my life,
and sent us all into foreign lands. But the truth
is, I was stricken out of all my habitudes, and find
my journals very ill redd-up, the day not indicated
sometimes for a week or two together, and the whole
fashion of the thing like that of a man near desperate.
It was late in March at least, or early in April 1764.
I had slept heavily, and wakened with a premonition
of some evil to befall. So strong was this upon
my spirit that I hurried downstairs in my shirt and
breeches, and my hand (I remember) shook upon the
rail. It was a cold, sunny morning, with a thick
white frost; the blackbirds sang exceeding sweet and
loud about the house of Durrisdeer, and there was
a noise of the sea in all the chambers. As I
came by the doors of the hall, another sound arrested
me of voices talking. I drew nearer,
and stood like a man dreaming. Here was certainly
a human voice, and that in my own master’s house,
and yet I knew it not; certainly human speech, and
that in my native land; and yet, listen as I pleased,
I could not catch one syllable. An old tale started
up in my mind of a fairy wife (or perhaps only a wandering
stranger), that came to the place of my fathers some
generations back, and stayed the matter of a week,
talking often in a tongue that signified nothing to
the hearers; and went again, as she had come, under
cloud of night, leaving not so much as a name behind
her. A little fear I had, but more curiosity;
and I opened the hall-door, and entered.
The supper-things still lay upon the
table; the shutters were still closed, although day
peeped in the divisions; and the great room was lighted
only with a single taper and the shining of the fire.
Close in the chimney sat two men. The one that
was wrapped in a cloak and wore boots, I knew at once:
it was the bird of ill omen back again. Of the
other, who was set close to the red embers, and made
up into a bundle like a mummy, I could but see that
he was an alien, of a darker hue than any man of Europe,
very frailly built, with a singular tall forehead,
and a secret eye. Several packets and a small
valise were on the floor; and to judge by the smallness
of this luggage, and by the condition of the Master’s
boots, grossly patched by some unscrupulous country
cobbler, evil had not prospered.
He rose upon my entrance; our eyes
crossed; and I know not why it should have been, but
my courage rose like a lark on a May morning.
“Ha!” said I, “is
this you?” and I was pleased with
the unconcern of my own voice.
“It is even myself, worthy Mackellar,”
says the Master.
“This time you have brought
the black dog visibly upon your back,” I continued.
“Referring to Secundra Dass?”
asked the Master. “Let me present you.
He is a native gentleman of India.”
“Hum!” said I. “I
am no great lover either of you or your friends, Mr.
Bally. But I will let a little daylight in, and
have a look at you.” And so saying, I undid
the shutters of the eastern window.
By the light of the morning I could
perceive the man was changed. Later, when we
were all together, I was more struck to see how lightly
time had dealt with him; but the first glance was
otherwise.
“You are getting an old man,” said I.
A shade came upon his face. “If
you could see yourself,” said he, “you
would perhaps not dwell upon the topic.”
“Hut!” I returned, “old
age is nothing to me. I think I have been always
old; and I am now, I thank God, better known and more
respected. It is not every one that can say that,
Mr. Bally! The lines in your brow are
calamities; your life begins to close in upon you like
a prison; death will soon be rapping at the door;
and I see not from what source you are to draw your
consolations.”
Here the Master addressed himself
to Secundra Dass in Hindustanee, from which I gathered
(I freely confess, with a high degree of pleasure)
that my remarks annoyed him. All this while,
you may be sure, my mind had been busy upon other
matters, even while I rallied my enemy; and chiefly
as to how I should communicate secretly and quickly
with my lord. To this, in the breathing-space
now given me, I turned all the forces of my mind;
when, suddenly shifting my eyes, I was aware of the
man himself standing in the doorway, and, to all appearance,
quite composed. He had no sooner met my looks
than he stepped across the threshold. The Master
heard him coming, and advanced upon the other side;
about four feet apart, these brothers came to a full
pause, and stood exchanging steady looks, and then
my lord smiled, bowed a little forward, and turned
briskly away.
“Mackellar,” says he,
“we must see to breakfast for these travellers.”
It was plain the Master was a trifle
disconcerted; but he assumed the more impudence of
speech and manner. “I am as hungry as a
hawk,” says he. “Let it be something
good, Henry.”
My lord turned to him with the same
hard smile. “Lord Durrisdeer,” says
he.
“O! never in the family,” returned the
Master.
“Every one in this house renders
me my proper title,” says my lord. “If
it please you to make an exception, I will leave you
to consider what appearance it will bear to strangers,
and whether it may not be translated as an effect
of impotent jealousy.”
I could have clapped my hands together
with delight: the more so as my lord left no
time for any answer, but, bidding me with a sign to
follow him, went straight out of the hall.
“Come quick,” says he;
“we have to sweep vermin from the house.”
And he sped through the passages, with so swift a
step that I could scarce keep up with him, straight
to the door of John Paul, the which he opened without
summons and walked in. John was, to all appearance,
sound asleep, but my lord made no pretence of waking
him.
“John Paul,” said he,
speaking as quietly as ever I heard him, “you
served my father long, or I would pack you from the
house like a dog. If in half an hour’s
time I find you gone, you shall continue to receive
your wages in Edinburgh. If you linger here or
in St. Bride’s old man, old servant,
and altogether I shall find some very astonishing
way to make you smart for your disloyalty. Up
and begone. The door you let them in by will
serve for your departure. I do not choose my son
shall see your face again.”
“I am rejoiced to find you bear
the thing so quietly,” said I, when we were
forth again by ourselves.
“Quietly!” cries he, and
put my hand suddenly against his heart, which struck
upon his bosom like a sledge.
At this revelation I was filled with
wonder and fear. There was no constitution could
bear so violent a strain his least of all,
that was unhinged already; and I decided in my mind
that we must bring this monstrous situation to an
end.
“It would be well, I think,
if I took word to my lady,” said I. Indeed,
he should have gone himself, but I counted not
in vain on his indifference.
“Ay,” says he, “do.
I will hurry breakfast: we must all appear at
the table, even Alexander; it must appear we are untroubled.”
I ran to my lady’s room, and
with no preparatory cruelty disclosed my news.
“My mind was long ago made up,”
said she. “We must make our packets secretly
to-day, and leave secretly to-night. Thank Heaven,
we have another house! The first ship that sails
shall bear us to New York.”
“And what of him?” I asked.
“We leave him Durrisdeer,”
she cried. “Let him work his pleasure upon
that.”
“Not so, by your leave,”
said I. “There shall be a dog at his heels
that can hold fast. Bed he shall have, and board,
and a horse to ride upon, if he behave himself; but
the keys if you think well of it, my lady shall
be left in the hands of one Mackellar. There will
be good care taken; trust him for that.”
“Mr. Mackellar,” she cried,
“I thank you for that thought. All shall
be left in your hands. If we must go into a savage
country, I bequeath it to you to take our vengeance.
Send Macconochie to St. Bride’s to arrange privately
for horses and to call the lawyer. My lord must
leave procuration.”
At that moment my lord came to the
door, and we opened our plan to him.
“I will never hear of it,”
he cried; “he would think I feared him.
I will stay in my own house, please God, until I die.
There lives not the man can beard me out of it.
Once and for all, here I am, and here I stay, in spite
of all the devils in hell.” I can give no
idea of the vehemency of his words and utterance;
but we both stood aghast, and I in particular, who
had been a witness of his former self-restraint.
My lady looked at me with an appeal
that went to my heart and recalled me to my wits.
I made her a private sign to go, and when my lord and
I were alone, went up to him where he was racing to
and fro in one end of the room like a half-lunatic,
and set my hand firmly on his shoulder.
“My lord,” says I, “I
am going to be the plain-dealer once more; if for
the last time, so much the better, for I am grown weary
of the part.”
“Nothing will change me,”
he answered. “God forbid I should refuse
to hear you; but nothing will change me.”
This he said firmly, with no signal of the former
violence, which already raised my hopes.
“Very well,” said I.
“I can afford to waste my breath.”
I pointed to a chair, and he sat down and looked at
me. “I can remember a time when my lady
very much neglected you,” said I.
“I never spoke of it while it
lasted,” returned my lord, with a high flush
of colour; “and it is all changed now.”
“Do you know how much?”
I said. “Do you know how much it is all
changed? The tables are turned, my lord!
It is my lady that now courts you for a word, a look ay,
and courts you in vain. Do you know with whom
she passes her days while you are out gallivanting
in the policies? My lord, she is glad to pass
them with a certain dry old grieve of the name of
Ephraim Mackellar; and I think you may be able to remember
what that means, for I am the more in a mistake or
you were once driven to the same company yourself.”
“Mackellar!” cries my
lord, getting to his feet. “O my God, Mackellar!”
“It is neither the name of Mackellar
nor the name of God that can change the truth,”
said I; “and I am telling you the fact.
Now for you, that suffered so much, to deal out the
same suffering to another, is that the part of any
Christian? But you are so swallowed up in your
new friend that the old are all forgotten. They
are all clean vanished from your memory. And
yet they stood by you at the darkest; my lady not the
least. And does my lady ever cross your mind?
Does it ever cross your mind what she went through
that night? or what manner of a wife she
has been to you thenceforward? or in what
kind of a position she finds herself to-day?
Never. It is your pride to stay and face him out,
and she must stay along with you. O! my lord’s
pride that’s the great affair!
And yet she is the woman, and you are a great hulking
man! She is the woman that you swore to protect;
and, more betoken, the own mother of that son of yours!”
“You are speaking very bitterly,
Mackellar,” said he; “but, the Lord knows,
I fear you are speaking very true. I have not
proved worthy of my happiness. Bring my lady
back.”
My lady was waiting near at hand to
learn the issue. When I brought her in, my lord
took a hand of each of us, and laid them both upon
his bosom. “I have had two friends in my
life,” said he. “All the comfort
ever I had, it came from one or other. When you
two are in a mind, I think I would be an ungrateful
dog ” He shut his mouth very
hard, and looked on us with swimming eyes. “Do
what ye like with me,” says he, “only
don’t think ” He stopped
again. “Do what you please with me:
God knows I love and honour you.” And dropping
our two hands, he turned his back and went and gazed
out of the window. But my lady ran after, calling
his name, and threw herself upon his neck in a passion
of weeping.
I went out and shut the door behind
me, and stood and thanked God from the bottom of my
heart.
At the breakfast-board, according
to my lord’s design, we were all met. The
Master had by that time plucked off his patched boots
and made a toilet suitable to the hour; Secundra Dass
was no longer bundled up in wrappers, but wore a decent
plain black suit, which misbecame him strangely; and
the pair were at the great window, looking forth, when
the family entered. They turned; and the black
man (as they had already named him in the house) bowed
almost to his knees, but the Master was for running
forward like one of the family. My lady stopped
him, curtsying low from the far end of the hall, and
keeping her children at her back. My lord was
a little in front: so there were the three cousins
of Durrisdeer face to face. The hand of time was
very legible on all; I seemed to read in their changed
faces a memento mori; and what affected me
still more, it was the wicked man that bore his years
the handsomest. My lady was quite transfigured
into the matron, a becoming woman for the head of
a great tableful of children and dependants. My
lord was grown slack in his limbs; he stooped; he walked
with a running motion, as though he had learned again
from Mr. Alexander; his face was drawn; it seemed
a trifle longer than of old; and it wore at times a
smile very singularly mingled, and which (in my eyes)
appeared both bitter and pathetic. But the Master
still bore himself erect, although perhaps with effort;
his brow barred about the centre with imperious lines,
his mouth set as for command. He had all the gravity
and something of the splendour of Satan in the “Paradise
Lost.” I could not help but see the man
with admiration, and was only surprised that I saw
him with so little fear.
But indeed (as long as we were at
the table) it seemed as if his authority were quite
vanished and his teeth all drawn. We had known
him a magician that controlled the elements; and here
he was, transformed into an ordinary gentleman, chatting
like his neighbours at the breakfast-board. For
now the father was dead, and my lord and lady reconciled,
in what ear was he to pour his calumnies? It came
upon me in a kind of vision how hugely I had overrated
the man’s subtlety. He had his malice still;
he was false as ever; and, the occasion being gone
that made his strength, he sat there impotent; he was
still the viper, but now spent his venom on a file.
Two more thoughts occurred to me while yet we sat
at breakfast: the first, that he was abashed I
had almost said, distressed to find his
wickedness quite unavailing; the second, that perhaps
my lord was in the right, and we did amiss to fly
from our dismasted enemy. But my poor master’s
leaping heart came in my mind, and I remembered it
was for his life we played the coward.
When the meal was over, the Master
followed me to my room, and, taking a chair (which
I had never offered him), asked me what was to be done
with him.
“Why, Mr. Bally,” said
I, “the house will still be open to you for a
time.”
“For a time?” says he.
“I do not know if I quite take your meaning.”
“It is plain enough,”
said I. “We keep you for our reputation;
as soon as you shall have publicly disgraced yourself
by some of your misconduct, we shall pack you forth
again.”
“You are become an impudent
rogue,” said the Master, bending his brows at
me dangerously.
“I learned in a good school,”
I returned. “And you must have perceived
yourself that with my old lord’s death your power
is quite departed. I do not fear you now, Mr.
Bally; I think even God forgive me that
I take a certain pleasure in your company.”
He broke out in a burst of laughter,
which I clearly saw to be assumed.
“I have come with empty pockets,” says
he, after a pause.
“I do not think there will be
any money going,” I replied. “I would
advise you not to build on that.”
“I shall have something to say
on the point,” he returned.
“Indeed?” said I.
“I have not a guess what it will be, then.”
“O! you affect confidence,”
said the Master. “I have still one strong
position that you people fear a scandal,
and I enjoy it.”
“Pardon me, Mr. Bally,”
says I. “We do not in the least fear a scandal
against you.”
He laughed again. “You
have been studying repartee,” he said. “But
speech is very easy, and sometimes very deceptive.
I warn you fairly: you will find me vitriol in
the house. You would do wiser to pay money down
and see my back.” And with that he waved
his hand to me and left the room.
A little after, my lord came with
the lawyer, Mr. Carlyle; a bottle of old wine was
brought, and we all had a glass before we fell to business.
The necessary deeds were then prepared and executed,
and the Scots estates made over in trust to Mr. Carlyle
and myself.
“There is one point, Mr. Carlyle,”
said my lord, when these affairs had been adjusted,
“on which I wish that you would do us justice.
This sudden departure coinciding with my brother’s
return will be certainly commented on. I wish
you would discourage any conjunction of the two.”
“I will make a point of it,
my lord,” said Mr. Carlyle. “The Mas Mr.
Bally does not, then, accompany you?”
“It is a point I must approach,”
said my lord. “Mr. Bally remains at Durrisdeer,
under the care of Mr. Mackellar; and I do not mean
that he shall even know our destination.”
“Common report, however ”
began the lawyer.
“Ah! but, Mr. Carlyle, this
is to be a secret quite among ourselves,” interrupted
my lord. “None but you and Mackellar are
to be made acquainted with my movements.”
“And Mr. Bally stays here?
Quite so,” said Mr. Carlyle. “The
powers you leave ” Then he
broke off again. “Mr. Mackellar, we have
a rather heavy weight upon us.”
“No doubt, sir,” said I.
“No doubt,” said he. “Mr. Bally
will have no voice?”
“He will have no voice,”
said my lord; “and, I hope, no influence.
Mr. Bally is not a good adviser.”
“I see,” said the lawyer. “By
the way, has Mr. Bally means?”
“I understand him to have nothing,”
replied my lord. “I give him table, fire,
and candle in this house.”
“And in the matter of an allowance?
If I am to share the responsibility, you will see
how highly desirable it is that I should understand
your views,” said the lawyer. “On
the question of an allowance?”
“There will be no allowance,”
said my lord. “I wish Mr. Bally to live
very private. We have not always been gratified
with his behaviour.”
“And in the matter of money,”
I added, “he has shown himself an infamous bad
husband. Glance your eye upon that docket, Mr.
Carlyle, where I have brought together the different
sums the man has drawn from the estate in the last
fifteen or twenty years. The total is pretty.”
Mr. Carlyle made the motion of whistling.
“I had no guess of this,” said he.
“Excuse me once more, my lord, if I appear to
push you; but it is really desirable I should penetrate
your intentions. Mr. Mackellar might die, when
I should find myself alone upon this trust. Would
it not be rather your lordship’s preference
that Mr. Bally should ahem should
leave the country?”
My lord looked at Mr. Carlyle.
“Why do you ask that?” said he.
“I gather, my lord, that Mr.
Bally is not a comfort to his family,” says
the lawyer, with a smile.
My lord’s face became suddenly
knotted. “I wish he was in hell!”
cried he, and filled himself a glass of wine, but
with a hand so tottering that he spilled the half
into his bosom. This was the second time that,
in the midst of the most regular and wise behaviour,
his animosity had spurted out. It startled Mr.
Carlyle, who observed my lord thenceforth with covert
curiosity; and to me it restored the certainty that
we were acting for the best in view of my lord’s
health and reason.
Except for this explosion the interview
was very successfully conducted. No doubt Mr.
Carlyle would talk, as lawyers do, little by little.
We could thus feel we had laid the foundations of
a better feeling in the country, and the man’s
own misconduct would certainly complete what we had
begun. Indeed, before his departure, the lawyer
showed us there had already gone abroad some glimmerings
of the truth.
“I should perhaps explain to
you, my lord,” said he, pausing, with his hat
in his hand, “that I have not been altogether
surprised with your lordship’s dispositions
in the case of Mr. Bally. Something of this nature
oozed out when he was last in Durrisdeer. There
was some talk of a woman at St. Bride’s, to
whom you had behaved extremely handsome, and Mr. Bally
with no small degree of cruelty. There was the
entail, again, which was much controverted. In
short, there was no want of talk, back and forward;
and some of our wiseacres took up a strong opinion.
I remained in suspense, as became one of my cloth;
but Mr. Mackellar’s docket here has finally
opened my eyes I do not think, Mr. Mackellar,
that you and I will give him that much rope.”
The rest of that important day passed
prosperously through. It was our policy to keep
the enemy in view, and I took my turn to be his watchman
with the rest. I think his spirits rose as he
perceived us to be so attentive, and I know that mine
insensibly declined. What chiefly daunted me
was the man’s singular dexterity to worm himself
into our troubles. You may have felt (after a
horse accident) the hand of a bone-setter artfully
divide and interrogate the muscles, and settle strongly
on the injured place? It was so with the Master’s
tongue, that was so cunning to question; and his eyes,
that were so quick to observe. I seemed to have
said nothing, and yet to have let all out. Before
I knew where I was the man was condoling with me on
my lord’s neglect of my lady and myself, and
his hurtful indulgence to his son. On this last
point I perceived him (with panic fear) to return repeatedly.
The boy had displayed a certain shrinking from his
uncle; it was strong in my mind his father had been
fool enough to indoctrinate the same, which was no
wise beginning: and when I looked upon the man
before me, still so handsome, so apt a speaker, with
so great a variety of fortunes to relate, I saw he
was the very personage to captivate a boyish fancy.
John Paul had left only that morning; it was not to
be supposed he had been altogether dumb upon his favourite
subject: so that here would be Mr. Alexander
in the part of Dido, with a curiosity inflamed to hear;
and there would be the Master, like a diabolical Ãneas,
full of matter the most pleasing in the world to any
youthful ear, such as battles, sea-disasters, flights,
the forests of the West, and (since his later voyage)
the ancient cities of the Indies. How cunningly
these baits might be employed, and what an empire
might be so founded, little by little, in the mind
of any boy, stood obviously clear to me. There
was no inhibition, so long as the man was in the house,
that would be strong enough to hold these two apart;
for if it be hard to charm serpents, it is no very
difficult thing to cast a glamour on a little chip
of manhood not very long in breeches. I recalled
an ancient sailor-man who dwelt in a lone house beyond
the Figgate Whins (I believe, he called it after Portobello),
and how the boys would troop out of Leith on a Saturday,
and sit and listen to his swearing tales, as thick
as crows about a carrion: a thing I often remarked
as I went by, a young student, on my own more meditative
holiday diversion. Many of these boys went, no
doubt, in the face of an express command; many feared,
and even hated, the old brute of whom they made their
hero; and I have seen them flee from him when he was
tipsy, and stone him when he was drunk. And yet
there they came each Saturday! How much more easily
would a boy like Mr. Alexander fall under the influence
of a high-looking, high-spoken gentleman-adventurer,
who should conceive the fancy to entrap him; and the
influence gained, how easy to employ it for the child’s
perversion!
I doubt if our enemy had named Mr.
Alexander three times before I perceived which way
his mind was aiming all this train of thought
and memory passed in one pulsation through my own and
you may say I started back as though an open hole
had gaped across a pathway. Mr. Alexander:
there was the weak point, there was the Eve in our
perishable paradise; and the serpent was already hissing
on the trail.
I promise you, I went the more heartily
about the preparations; my last scruple gone, the
danger of delay written before me in huge characters.
From that moment forth I seem not to have sat down
or breathed. Now I would be at my post with the
Master and his Indian; now in the garret buckling
a valise; now sending forth Macconochie by the side
postern and the wood-path to bear it to the trysting-place;
and, again, snatching some words of counsel with my
lady. This was the verso of our life in
Durrisdeer that day; but on the recto all appeared
quite settled, as of a family at home in its paternal
seat; and what perturbation may have been observable,
the Master would set down to the blow of his unlooked-for
coming, and the fear he was accustomed to inspire.
Supper went creditably off, cold salutations
passed, and the company trooped to their respective
chambers. I attended the Master to the last.
We had put him next door to his Indian, in the north
wing; because that was the most distant and could
be severed from the body of the house with doors.
I saw he was a kind friend or a good master (whichever
it was) to his Secundra Dass seeing to
his comfort; mending the fire with his own hand, for
the Indian complained of cold; inquiring as to the
rice on which the stranger made his diet; talking with
him pleasantly in the Hindustanee, while I stood by,
my candle in my hand, and affected to be overcome
with slumber. At length the Master observed my
signals of distress. “I perceive,”
says he, “that you have all your ancient habits:
early to bed and early to rise. Yawn yourself
away!”
Once in my own room, I made the customary
motions of undressing, so that I might time myself;
and when the cycle was complete, set my tinder-box
ready, and blew out my taper. The matter of an
hour afterward I made a light again, put on my shoes
of list that I had worn by my lord’s sick-bed,
and set forth into the house to call the voyagers.
All were dressed and waiting my lord, my
lady, Miss Katharine, Mr. Alexander, my lady’s
woman Christie; and I observed the effect of secrecy
even upon quite innocent persons, that one after another
showed in the chink of the door a face as white as
paper. We slipped out of the side postern into
a night of darkness, scarce broken by a star or two;
so that at first we groped and stumbled and fell among
the bushes. A few hundred yards up the wood-path
Macconochie was waiting us with a great lantern; so
the rest of the way we went easy enough, but still
in a kind of guilty silence. A little beyond
the abbey the path debouched on the main road; and
some quarter of a mile farther, at the place called
Eagles, where the moors begin, we saw the lights of
the two carriages stand shining by the wayside.
Scarce a word or two was uttered at our parting, and
these regarded business: a silent grasping of
hands, a turning of faces aside, and the thing was
over; the horses broke into a trot, the lamplight
sped like Will-o’-the-Wisp upon the broken moorland,
it dipped beyond Stony Brae; and there were Macconochie
and I alone with our lantern on the road. There
was one thing more to wait for, and that was the reappearance
of the coach upon Cartmore. It seems they must
have pulled up upon the summit, looked back for a
last time, and seen our lantern not yet moved away
from the place of separation. For a lamp was
taken from a carriage, and waved three times up and
down by way of a farewell. And then they were
gone indeed, having looked their last on the kind
roof of Durrisdeer, their faces toward a barbarous
country. I never knew before the greatness of
that vault of night in which we two poor serving-men the
one old, and the one elderly stood for the
first time deserted; I had never felt before my own
dependency upon the countenance of others. The
sense of isolation burned in my bowels like a fire.
It seemed that we who remained at home were the true
exiles, and that Durrisdeer and Solwayside, and all
that made my country native, its air good to me, and
its language welcome, had gone forth and was far over
the sea with my old masters.
The remainder of that night I paced
to and fro on the smooth highway, reflecting on the
future and the past. My thoughts, which at first
dwelled tenderly on those who were just gone, took
a more manly temper as I considered what remained
for me to do. Day came upon the inland mountain-tops,
and the fowls began to cry, and the smoke of homesteads
to arise in the brown bosom of the moors, before I
turned my face homeward, and went down the path to
where the roof of Durrisdeer shone in the morning
by the sea.
At the customary hour I had the Master
called, and awaited his coming in the hall with a
quiet mind. He looked about him at the empty room
and the three covers set.
“We are a small party,” said he.
“How comes that?”
“This is the party to which we must grow accustomed,”
I replied.
He looked at me with a sudden sharpness. “What
is all this?” said he.
“You and I and your friend Mr.
Dass are now all the company,” I replied.
“My lord, my lady, and the children are gone
upon a voyage.”
“Upon my word!” said he.
“Can this be possible? I have indeed fluttered
your Volscians in Corioli! But this is no
reason why our breakfast should go cold. Sit
down, Mr. Mackellar, if you please” taking,
as he spoke, the head of the table, which I had designed
to occupy myself “and as we eat, you
can give me the details of this evasion.”
I could see he was more affected than
his language carried, and I determined to equal him
in coolness. “I was about to ask you to
take the head of the table,” said I; “for
though I am now thrust into the position of your host,
I could never forget that you were, after all, a member
of the family.”
For a while he played the part of
entertainer, giving directions to Macconochie, who
received them with an evil grace, and attending specially
upon Secundra. “And where has my good family
withdrawn to?” he asked carelessly.
“Ah! Mr. Bally, that is
another point,” said I. “I have no
orders to communicate their destination.”
“To me,” he corrected.
“To any one,” said I.
“It is the less pointed,”
said the Master; “c’est de bon ton:
my brother improves as he continues. And I, dear
Mr. Mackellar?”
“You will have bed and board,
Mr. Bally,” said I. “I am permitted
to give you the run of the cellar, which is pretty
reasonably stocked. You have only to keep well
with me, which is no very difficult matter, and you
shall want neither for wine nor a saddle-horse.”
He made an excuse to send Macconochie from the room.
“And for money?” he inquired.
“Have I to keep well with my good friend Mackellar
for my pocket-money also? This is a pleasing return
to the principles of boyhood.”
“There was no allowance made,”
said I; “but I will take it on myself to see
you are supplied in moderation.”
“In moderation?” he repeated.
“And you will take it on yourself?” He
drew himself up, and looked about the hall at the dark
rows of portraits. “In the name of my ancestors,
I thank you,” says he; and then, with a return
to irony, “But there must certainly be an allowance
for Secundra Dass?” he said. “It is
not possible they have omitted that?”
“I will make a note of it, and
ask instructions when I write,” said I.
And he, with a sudden change of manner,
and leaning forward with an elbow on the table “Do
you think this entirely wise?”
“I execute my orders, Mr. Bally,” said
I.
“Profoundly modest,” said
the Master; “perhaps not equally ingenuous.
You told me yesterday my power was fallen with my father’s
death. How comes it, then, that a peer of the
realm flees under cloud of night out of a house in
which his fathers have stood several sieges? that he
conceals his address, which must be a matter of concern
to his Gracious Majesty and to the whole republic?
and that he should leave me in possession, and under
the paternal charge of his invaluable Mackellar?
This smacks to me of a very considerable and genuine
apprehension.”
I sought to interrupt him with some
not very truthful denegation; but he waved me down,
and pursued his speech.
“I say, it smacks of it,”
he said; “but I will go beyond that, for I think
the apprehension grounded. I came to this house
with some reluctancy. In view of the manner of
my last departure, nothing but necessity could have
induced me to return. Money, however, is that
which I must have. You will not give with a good
grace; well, I have the power to force it from you.
Inside of a week, without leaving Durrisdeer, I will
find out where these fools are fled to. I will
follow; and when I have run my quarry down, I will
drive a wedge into that family that shall once more
burst it into shivers. I shall see then whether
my Lord Durrisdeer” (said with indescribable
scorn and rage) “will choose to buy my absence;
and you will all see whether, by that time, I decide
for profit or revenge.”
I was amazed to hear the man so open.
The truth is, he was consumed with anger at my lord’s
successful flight, felt himself to figure as a dupe,
and was in no humour to weigh language.
“Do you consider this
entirely wise?” said I, copying his words.
“These twenty years I have lived
by my poor wisdom,” he answered with a smile
that seemed almost foolish in its vanity.
“And come out a beggar in the
end,” said I, “if beggar be a strong enough
word for it.”
“I would have you to observe,
Mr. Mackellar,” cried he, with a sudden imperious
heat, in which I could not but admire him, “that
I am scrupulously civil; copy me in that, and we shall
be the better friends.”
Throughout this dialogue I had been
incommoded by the observation of Secundra Dass.
Not one of us, since the first word, had made a feint
of eating: our eyes were in each other’s
faces you might say, in each other’s
bosoms; and those of the Indian troubled me with a
certain changing brightness, as of comprehension.
But I brushed the fancy aside, telling myself once
more he understood no English; only, from the gravity
of both voices, and the occasional scorn and anger
in the Master’s, smelled out there was something
of import in the wind.
For the matter of three weeks we continued
to live together in the house of Durrisdeer:
the beginning of that most singular chapter of my
life what I must call my intimacy with the
Master. At first he was somewhat changeable in
his behaviour: now civil, now returning to his
old manner of flouting me to my face; and in both I
met him half-way. Thanks be to Providence, I
had now no measure to keep with the man; and I was
never afraid of black brows, only of naked swords.
So that I found a certain entertainment in these bouts
of incivility, and was not always ill inspired in
my rejoinders. At last (it was at supper) I had
a droll expression that entirely vanquished him.
He laughed again and again; and “Who would have
guessed,” he cried, “that this old wife
had any wit under his petticoats?”
“It is no wit, Mr. Bally,”
said I: “a dry Scots humour, and something
of the driest.” And, indeed, I never had
the least pretension to be thought a wit.
From that hour he was never rude with
me, but all passed between us in a manner of pleasantry.
One of our chief times of daffing was when he required
a horse, another bottle, or some money. He would
approach me then after the manner of a schoolboy,
and I would carry it on by way of being his father:
on both sides, with an infinity of mirth. I could
not but perceive that he thought more of me, which
tickled that poor part of mankind, the vanity.
He dropped, besides (I must suppose unconsciously),
into a manner that was not only familiar, but even
friendly; and this, on the part of one who had so
long detested me, I found the more insidious.
He went little abroad; sometimes even refusing invitations.
“No,” he would say, “what do I care
for these thick-headed bonnet-lairds?
I will stay at home, Mackellar; and we shall share
a bottle quietly, and have one of our good talks.”
And, indeed, meal-time at Durrisdeer must have been
a delight to any one, by reason of the brilliancy
of the discourse. He would often express wonder
at his former indifference to my society. “But,
you see,” he would add, “we were upon
opposite sides. And so we are to-day; but let
us never speak of that. I would think much less
of you if you were not staunch to your employer.”
You are to consider he seemed to me quite impotent
for any evil; and how it is a most engaging form of
flattery when (after many years) tardy justice is
done to a man’s character and parts. But
I have no thought to excuse myself. I was to
blame; I let him cajole me, and, in short, I think
the watch-dog was gone sound asleep, when he was suddenly
aroused.
I should say the Indian was continually
travelling to and fro in the house. He never
spoke, save in his own dialect and with the Master;
walked without sound; and was always turning up where
you would least expect him, fallen into a deep abstraction,
from which he would start (upon your coming) to mock
you with one of his grovelling obeisances. He
seemed so quiet, so frail, and so wrapped in his own
fancies, that I came to pass him over without much
regard, or even to pity him for a harmless exile from
his country. And yet without doubt the creature
was still eavesdropping; and without doubt it was
through his stealth and my security that our secret
reached the Master.
It was one very wild night, after
supper, and when we had been making more than usually
merry, that the blow fell on me.
“This is all very fine,”
says the Master, “but we should do better to
be buckling our valise.”
“Why so?” I cried. “Are you
leaving?”
“We are all leaving to-morrow
in the morning,” said he. “For the
port of Glascow first, thence for the province of
New York.”
I suppose I must have groaned aloud.
“Yes,” he continued, “I
boasted; I said a week, and it has taken me near twenty
days. But never mind; I shall make it up; I will
go the faster.”
“Have you the money for this voyage?”
I asked.
“Dear and ingenuous personage,
I have,” said he. “Blame me, if you
choose, for my duplicity; but while I have been wringing
shillings from my daddy, I had a stock of my own put
by against a rainy day. You will pay for your
own passage, if you choose to accompany us on our flank
march; I have enough for Secundra and myself, but not
more enough to be dangerous, not enough
to be generous. There is, however, an outside
seat upon the chaise which I will let you have upon
a moderate commutation; so that the whole menagerie
can go together the house-dog, the monkey,
and the tiger.”
“I go with you,” said I.
“I count upon it,” said
the Master. “You have seen me foiled; I
mean you shall see me victorious. To gain that
I will risk wetting you like a sop in this wild weather.”
“And at least,” I added,
“you know very well you could not throw me off.”
“Not easily,” said he.
“You put your finger on the point with your usual
excellent good sense. I never fight with the inevitable.”
“I suppose it is useless to appeal to you?”
said I.
“Believe me, perfectly,” said he.
“And yet, if you would give me time, I could
write ” I began.
“And what would be my Lord Durrisdeer’s
answer?” asks he.
“Ay,” said I, “that is the rub.”
“And, at any rate, how much
more expeditious that I should go myself!” says
he. “But all this is quite a waste of breath.
At seven to-morrow the chaise will be at the door.
For I start from the door, Mackellar; I do not skulk
through woods and take my chaise upon the wayside shall
we say, at Eagles?”
My mind was now thoroughly made up.
“Can you spare me quarter of an hour at St.
Bride’s?” said I. “I have a
little necessary business with Carlyle.”
“An hour, if you prefer,”
said he. “I do not seek to deny that the
money for your seat is an object to me; and you could
always get the first to Glascow with saddle-horses.”
“Well,” said I, “I never thought
to leave old Scotland.”
“It will brisken you up,” says he.
“This will be an ill journey
for someone,” I said. “I think, sir,
for you. Something speaks in my bosom; and so
much it says plain that this is an ill-omened
journey.”
“If you take to prophecy,” says he, “listen
to that.”
There came up a violent squall off
the open Solway, and the rain was dashed on the great
windows.
“Do ye ken what that bodes,
warlock?” said he, in a broad accent: “that
there’ll be a man Mackellar unco sick at sea.”
When I got to my chamber, I sat there
under a painful excitation, hearkening to the turmoil
of the gale, which struck full upon that gable of
the house. What with the pressure on my spirits,
the eldritch cries of the wind among the turret-tops,
and the perpetual trepidation of the masoned house,
sleep fled my eyelids utterly. I sat by my taper,
looking on the black panes of the window, where the
storm appeared continually on the point of bursting
in its entrance; and upon that empty field I beheld
a perspective of consequences that made the hair to
rise upon my scalp. The child corrupted, the
home broken up, my master dead, or worse than dead,
my mistress plunged in desolation all these
I saw before me painted brightly on the darkness;
and the outcry of the wind appeared to mock at my
inaction.