The absorbing and disastrous adventure
of the Flying Scud was now quite ended; we
had dashed into these deep waters and we had escaped
again to starve; we had been ruined and were saved,
had quarrelled and made up; there remained nothing
but to sing Te Deum, draw a line, and begin
on a fresh page of my unwritten diary. I do not
pretend that I recovered all I had lost with Mamie,
it would have been more than I had merited; and I
had certainly been more uncommunicative than became
either the partner or the friend. But she accepted
the position handsomely; and during the week that
I now passed with them, both she and Jim had the grace
to spare me questions. It was to Calistoga that
we went; there was some rumour of a Napa land-boom
at the moment, the possibility of stir attracted Jim,
and he informed me he would find a certain joy in
looking on, much as Napoleon on St. Helena took a
pleasure to read military works. The field of
his ambition was quite closed; he was done with action,
and looked forward to a ranch in a mountain dingle,
a patch of corn, a pair of kine, a leisurely and contemplative
age in the green shade of forests. “Just
let me get down on my back in a hayfield,” said
he, “and you’ll find there’s no more
snap to me than that much putty.”
And for two days the perfervid being
actually rested. The third, he was observed in
consultation with the local editor, and owned he was
in two minds about purchasing the press and paper.
“It’s a kind of a hold for an idle man,”
he said pleadingly; “and if the section was to
open up the way it ought to, there might be dollars
in the thing.” On the fourth day he was
gone till dinner-time alone; on the fifth we made a
long picnic drive to the fresh field of enterprise;
and the sixth was passed entirely in the preparation
of prospectuses. The pioneer of M’Bride
City was already upright and self-reliant, as of yore;
the fire rekindled in his eye, the ring restored to
his voice; a charger sniffing battle and saying “ha-ha”
among the spears. On the seventh morning we signed
a deed of partnership, for Jim would not accept a
dollar of my money otherwise; and having once more
engaged myself or that mortal part of me,
my purse among the wheels of his machinery,
I returned alone to San Francisco and took quarters
in the Palace Hotel.
The same night I had Nares to dinner.
His sunburnt face, his queer and personal strain of
talk, recalled days that were scarce over and that
seemed already distant. Through the music of the
band outside, and the chink and clatter of the dining-room,
it seemed to me as if I heard the foaming of the surf
and the voices of the seabirds about Midway Island.
The bruises on our hands were not yet healed; and there
we sat, waited on by elaborate darkies, eating pompino
and drinking iced champagne.
“Think of our dinners on the
Norah, captain, and then oblige me by looking
round the room for contrast.”
He took the scene in slowly.
“Yes, it is like a dream,” he said:
“like as if the darkies were really about as
big as dimes; and a great big scuttle might open up
there, and Johnson stick in a great big head and shoulders,
and cry, ’Eight bells!’ and
the whole thing vanish.”
“Well, it’s the other
thing that has done that,” I replied. “It’s
all bygone now, all dead and buried. Amen! say
I.”
“I don’t know that, Mr.
Dodd; and to tell you the fact, I don’t believe
it,” said Nares. “There’s more
Flying Scud in the oven; and the baker’s
name, I take it, is Bellairs. He tackled me the
day we came in: sort of a razee of poor old humanity jury
clothes full new suit of pimples:
knew him at once from your description. I let
him pump me till I saw his game. He knows a good
deal that we don’t know, a good deal that we
do, and suspects the balance. There’s trouble
brewing for somebody.”
I was surprised I had not thought
of this before. Bellairs had been behind the
scenes; he had known Dickson; he knew the flight of
the crew; it was hardly possible but what he should
suspect; it was certain if he suspected that he would
seek to trade on the suspicion. And sure enough,
I was not yet dressed the next morning ere the lawyer
was knocking at my door. I let him in, for I
was curious; and he, after some ambiguous prolegomena,
roundly proposed I should go shares with him.
“Shares in what?” I inquired.
“If you will allow me to clothe
my idea in a somewhat vulgar form,” said he,
“I might ask you, did you go to Midway for your
health?”
“I don’t know that I did,” I replied.
“Similarly, Mr. Dodd, you may
be sure I would never have taken the present step
without influential grounds,” pursued the lawyer.
“Intrusion is foreign to my character. But
you and I, sir, are engaged on the same ends.
If we can continue to work the thing in company, I
place at your disposal my knowledge of the law and
a considerable practice in delicate negotiations similar
to this. Should you refuse to consent, you might
find in me a formidable and” he hesitated “and
to my own regret, perhaps a dangerous competitor.”
“Did you get this by heart?” I asked genially.
“I advise you to!”
he said, with a sudden sparkle of temper and menace,
instantly gone, instantly succeeded by fresh cringing.
“I assure you, sir, I arrive in the character
of a friend, and I believe you underestimate my information.
If I may instance an example, I am acquainted to the
last dime with what you made (or rather lost), and
I know you have since cashed a considerable draft
on London.”
“What do you infer?” I asked.
“I know where that draft came
from,” he cried, wincing back like one who has
greatly dared, and instantly regrets the venture.
“So?” said I.
“You forget I was Mr. Dickson’s
confidential agent,” he explained. “You
had his address, Mr. Dodd. We were the only two
that he communicated with in San Francisco. You
see my deductions are quite obvious; you see how open
and frank I deal with you, as I should wish to do with
any gentleman with whom I was conjoined in business.
You see how much I know; and it can scarcely escape
your strong common-sense how much better it would
be if I knew all. You cannot hope to get rid of
me at this time of day; I have my place in the affair,
I cannot be shaken off; I am, if you will excuse a
rather technical pleasantry, an encumbrance on the
estate. The actual harm I can do I leave you to
valuate for yourself. But without going so far,
Mr. Dodd, and without in any way inconveniencing myself,
I could make things very uncomfortable. For instance,
Mr. Pinkerton’s liquidation. You and I know,
sir and you better than I on
what a large fund you draw. Is Mr. Pinkerton in
the thing at all? It was you only who knew the
address, and you were concealing it. Suppose
I should communicate with Mr. Pinkerton ”
“Look here!” I interrupted,
“communicate with him (if you will permit me
to clothe my idea in a vulgar shape) till you are blue
in the face. There is only one person with whom
I refuse to allow you to communicate further, and
that is myself. Good-morning.”
He could not conceal his rage, disappointment,
and surprise; and in the passage (I have no doubt)
was shaken by St. Vitus.
I was disgusted by this interview;
it struck me hard to be suspected on all hands, and
to hear again from this trafficker what I had heard
already from Jim’s wife; and yet my strongest
impression was different, and might rather be described
as an impersonal fear. There was something against
nature in the man’s craven impudence; it was
as though a lamb had butted me; such daring at the
hands of such a dastard implied unchangeable resolve,
a great pressure of necessity, and powerful means.
I thought of the unknown Carthew, and it sickened me
to see this ferret on his trail.
Upon inquiry I found the lawyer was
but just disbarred for some malpractice, and the discovery
added excessively to my disquiet. Here was a
rascal without money or the means of making it, thrust
out of the doors of his own trade, publicly shamed,
and doubtless in a deuce of a bad temper with the
universe. Here, on the other hand, was a man with
a secret rich, terrified, practically in
hiding who had been willing to pay ten
thousand pounds for the bones of the Flying Scud.
I slipped insensibly into a mental alliance with the
victim. The business weighed on me all day long;
I was wondering how much the lawyer knew, how much
he guessed, and when he would open his attack.
Some of these problems are unsolved
to this day; others were soon made clear. Where
he got Carthew’s name is still a mystery; perhaps
some sailor on the Tempest, perhaps my own
sea-lawyer served him for a tool; but I was actually
at his elbow when he learned the address. It
fell so. One evening when I had an engagement,
and was killing time until the hour, I chanced to
walk in the court of the hotel while the band played.
The place was bright as day with the electric light,
and I recognised, at some distance among the loiterers,
the person of Bellairs in talk with a gentleman whose
face appeared familiar. It was certainly some
one I had seen, and seen recently; but who or where
I knew not. A porter standing hard by gave me
the necessary hint. The stranger was an English
navy man invalided home from Honolulu, where he had
left his ship; indeed, it was only from the change
of clothes and the effects of sickness that I had
not immediately recognised my friend and correspondent,
Lieutenant Sebright.
The conjunction of these planets seeming
ominous, I drew near; but it seemed Bellairs had done
his business; he vanished in the crowd, and I found
my officer alone.
“Do you know whom you have been
talking to, Mr. Sebright?” I began.
“No,” said he; “I
don’t know him from Adam. Anything wrong?”
“He is a disreputable lawyer,
recently disbarred,” said I. “I wish
I had seen you in time. I trust you told him
nothing about Carthew?”
He flushed to his ears. “I’m
awfully sorry,” he said. “He seemed
civil, and I wanted to get rid of him. It was
only the address he asked.”
“And you gave it?” I cried.
“I’m really awfully sorry,” said
Sebright. “I’m afraid I did.”
“God forgive you!” was
my only comment, and I turned my back upon the blunderer.
The fat was in the fire now:
Bellairs had the address, and I was the more deceived
or Carthew would have news of him. So strong was
this impression, and so painful, that the next morning
I had the curiosity to pay the lawyer’s den
a visit. An old woman was scrubbing the stair,
and the board was down.
“Lawyer Bellairs?” said
the old woman; “gone East this morning.
There’s Lawyer Dean next block up.”
I did not trouble Lawyer Dean, but
walked slowly back to my hotel, ruminating as I went.
The image of the old woman washing that desecrated
stair had struck my fancy; it seemed that all the water-supply
of the city and all the soap in the State would scarce
suffice to cleanse it, it had been so long a clearing-house
of dingy secrets and a factory of sordid fraud.
And now the corner was untenanted; some judge, like
a careful housewife, had knocked down the web; and
the bloated spider was scuttling elsewhere after new
victims. I had of late (as I have said) insensibly
taken sides with Carthew; now when his enemy was at
his heels, my interest grew more warm; and I began
to wonder if I could not help. The drama of the
Flying Scud was entering on a new phase.
It had been singular from the first: it promised
an extraordinary conclusion; and I, who had paid so
much to learn the beginning, might pay a little more
and see the end. I lingered in San Francisco,
indemnifying myself after the hardships of the cruise,
spending money, regretting it, continually promising
departure for the morrow. Why not go indeed, and
keep a watch upon Bellairs? If I missed him, there
was no harm done, I was the nearer Paris. If
I found and kept his trail, it was hard if I could
not put some stick in his machinery, and at the worst
I could promise myself interesting scenes and revelations.
In such a mixed humour, I made up
what it pleases me to call my mind, and once more
involved myself in the story of Carthew and the Flying
Scud. The same night I wrote a letter of farewell
to Jim, and one of anxious warning to Dr. Urquart,
begging him to set Carthew on his guard; the morrow
saw me in the ferry-boat; and ten days later, I was
walking the hurricane-deck on the City of Denver.
By that time my mind was pretty much made down again,
its natural condition: I told myself that I was
bound for Paris or Fontainebleau to resume the study
of the arts; and I thought no more of Carthew or Bellairs,
or only to smile at my own fondness. The one
I could not serve, even if I wanted; the other I had
no means of finding, even if I could have at all influenced
him after he was found.
And for all that, I was close on the
heels of an absurd adventure. My neighbour at
table that evening was a ’Frisco man whom I knew
slightly. I found he had crossed the plains two
days in front of me, and this was the first steamer
that had left New York for Europe since his arrival.
Two days before me meant a day before Bellairs; and
dinner was scarce done before I was closeted with
the purser.
“Bellairs?” he repeated.
“Not in the saloon, I am sure. He may be
in the second class. The lists are not made out,
but Hullo! ’Harry D. Bellairs?’
That’s the name? He’s there right
enough.”
And the next morning I saw him on
the forward deck, sitting in a chair, a book in his
hand, a shabby puma skin rug about his knees:
the picture of respectable decay. Off and on,
I kept him in my eye. He read a good deal, he
stood and looked upon the sea, he talked occasionally
with his neighbours, and once when a child fell he
picked it up and soothed it. I damned him in
my heart; the book, which I was sure he did not read the
sea, to which I was ready to take oath he was indifferent the
child, whom I was certain he would as leave have tossed
overboard all seemed to me elements in
a theatrical performance; and I made no doubt he was
already nosing after the secrets of his fellow-passengers.
I took no pains to conceal myself, my scorn for the
creature being as strong as my disgust. But he
never looked my way, and it was night before I learned
he had observed me.
I was smoking by the engine-room door,
for the air was a little sharp, when a voice rose
close beside me in the darkness.
“I beg your pardon, Mr. Dodd,” it said.
“That you, Bellairs?” I replied.
“A single word, sir. Your
presence on this ship has no connection with our interview?”
he asked. “You have no idea, Mr. Dodd, of
returning upon your determination?”
“None,” said I; and then,
seeing he still lingered, I was polite enough to add
“Good-evening”; at which he sighed and
went away.
The next day he was there again with
the chair and the puma skin; read his book and looked
at the sea with the same constancy; and though there
was no child to be picked up, I observed him to attend
repeatedly on a sick woman. Nothing fosters suspicion
like the act of watching; a man spied upon can hardly
blow his nose but we accuse him of designs; and I
took an early opportunity to go forward and see the
woman for myself. She was poor, elderly, and
painfully plain; I stood abashed at the sight, felt
I owed Bellairs amends for the injustice of my thoughts,
and, seeing him standing by the rail in his usual attitude
of contemplation, walked up and addressed him by name.
“You seem very fond of the sea,” said
I.
“I may really call it a passion,
Mr. Dodd,” he replied. “’And the
tall cataract haunted me like a passion,’”
he quoted. “I never weary of the sea, sir.
This is my first ocean voyage. I find it a glorious
experience.” And once more my disbarred
lawyer dropped into poetry: “Roll on,
thou deep and dark blue ocean, roll!’”
Though I had learned the piece in
my reading-book at school, I came into the world a
little too late on the one hand and I daresay
a little too early on the other to think
much of Byron; and the sonorous verse, prodigiously
well delivered, struck me with surprise.
“You are fond of poetry too?” I asked.
“I am a great reader,”
he replied. “At one time I had begun to
amass quite a small but well-selected library; and
when that was scattered, I still managed to preserve
a few volumes chiefly of pieces designed
for recitation which have been my travelling
companions.”
“Is that one of them?”
I asked, pointing to the volume in his hand.
“No, sir,” he replied,
showing me a translation of the “Sorrows of
Werther”; “that is a novel I picked up
some time ago. It has afforded me great pleasure,
though immoral.”
“O, immoral!” cried I,
indignant as usual at any complication of art and
ethics.
“Surely you cannot deny that,
sir, if you know the book,” he said. “The
passion is illicit, although certainly drawn with a
good deal of pathos. It is not a work one could
possibly put into the hands of a lady; which is to
be regretted on all accounts, for I do not know how
it may strike you; but it seems to me as
a depiction, if I make myself clear to rise
high above its compeers even famous compeers.
Even in Scott, Dickens, Thackeray, or Hawthorne, the
sentiment of love appears to me to be frequently done
less justice to.”
“You are expressing a very general opinion,”
said I.
“Is that so, indeed, sir?”
he exclaimed, with unmistakable excitement. “Is
the book well known? and who was Go-eath?
I am interested in that, because upon the title-page
the usual initials are omitted, and it runs simply
‘by Go-eath.’ Was he an author
of distinction? Has he written other works?”
Such was our first interview, the
first of many; and in all he showed the same attractive
qualities and defects. His taste for literature
was native and unaffected; his sentimentality, although
extreme and a thought ridiculous, was plainly genuine.
I wondered at my own innocent wonder. I knew
that Homer nodded, that Cæsar had compiled a jest-book,
that Turner lived by preference the life of Puggy Booth,
that Shelley made paper boats, and Wordsworth wore
green spectacles! and with all this mass of evidence
before me, I had expected Bellairs to be entirely
of one piece, subdued to what he worked in, a spy all
through. As I abominated the man’s trade,
so I had expected to detest the man himself; and behold,
I liked him. Poor devil! he was essentially a
man on wires, all sensibility and tremor, brimful
of a cheap poetry, not without parts, quite without
courage. His boldness was despair; the gulf behind
him thrust him on; he was one of those who might commit
a murder rather than confess the theft of a postage-stamp.
I was sure that his coming interview with Carthew
rode his imagination like a nightmare; when the thought
crossed his mind, I used to think I knew of it, and
that the qualm appeared in his face visibly.
Yet he would never flinch necessity stalking
at his back, famine (his old pursuer) talking in his
ear; and I used to wonder whether I more admired or
more despised this quivering heroism for evil.
The image that occurred to me after his visit was
just; I had been butted by a lamb, and the phase of
life that I was now studying might be called the Revolt
of a Sheep.
It could be said of him that he had
learned in sorrow what he taught in song or
wrong; and his life was that of one of his victims.
He was born in the back parts of the State of New
York; his father a farmer, who became subsequently
bankrupt and went West. The lawyer and money-lender
who had ruined this poor family seems to have conceived
in the end a feeling of remorse; he turned the father
out indeed, but he offered, in compensation, to charge
himself with one of the sons: and Harry, the
fifth child, and already sickly, was chosen to be left
behind. He made himself useful in the office:
picked up the scattered rudiments of an education;
read right and left; attended and debated at the Young
Men’s Christian Association and in all his early
years was the model for a good story-book. His
landlady’s daughter was his bane. He showed
me her photograph; she was a big, handsome, dashing,
dressy, vulgar hussy, without character, without tenderness,
without mind, and (as the result proved) without virtue.
The sickly and timid boy was in the house; he was
handy; when she was otherwise unoccupied, she used
and played with him Romeo and Cressida;
till in that dreary life of a poor boy in a country
town, she grew to be the light of his days and the
subject of his dreams. He worked hard, like Jacob,
for a wife; he surpassed his patron in sharp practice;
he was made head clerk; and the same night, encouraged
by a hundred freedoms, depressed by the sense of his
youth and his infirmities, he offered marriage and
was received with laughter. Not a year had passed,
before his master, conscious of growing infirmities,
took him for a partner. He proposed again; he
was accepted; led two years of troubled married life;
and awoke one morning to find his wife had run away
with a dashing drummer, and had left him heavily in
debt. The debt, and not the drummer, was supposed
to be the cause of this hegira; she had concealed
her liabilities, they were on the point of bursting
forth, she was weary of Bellairs; and she took the
drummer as she might have taken a cab. The blow
disabled her husband, his partner was dead; he was
now alone in the business, for which he was no longer
fit; the debts hampered him; bankruptcy followed; and
he fled from city to city, falling daily into lower
practice. It is to be considered that he had
been taught, and had learned as a delightful duty,
a kind of business whose highest merit is to escape
the commentaries of the bench: that of the usurious
lawyer in a county town. With this training,
he was now shot, a penniless stranger, into the deeper
gulfs of cities; and the result is scarce a thing to
be surprised at.
“Have you heard of your wife again?” I
asked.
He displayed a pitiful agitation.
“I am afraid you will think ill of me,”
he said.
“Have you taken her back?” I asked.
“No, sir. I trust I have
too much self-respect,” he answered, “and,
at least, I was never tempted. She won’t
come, she dislikes, she seems to have conceived a
positive distaste for me, and yet I was considered
an indulgent husband.”
“You are still in relations, then?” I
asked.
“I place myself in your hands,
Mr. Dodd,” he replied. “The world
is very hard; I have found it bitter hard myself bitter
hard to live. How much worse for a woman, and
one who has placed herself (by her own misconduct,
I am far from denying that) in so unfortunate a position!”
“In short, you support her?” I suggested.
“I cannot deny it. I practically
do,” he admitted. “It has been a
millstone round my neck. But I think she is grateful.
You can see for yourself.”
He handed me a letter in a sprawling,
ignorant hand, but written with violet ink on fine,
pink paper, with a monogram. It was very foolishly
expressed, and I thought (except for a few obvious
cajoleries) very heartless and greedy in meaning.
The writer said she had been sick, which I disbelieved;
declared the last remittance was all gone in doctor’s
bills, for which I took the liberty of substituting
dress, drink, and monograms; and prayed for an increase,
which I could only hope had been denied her.
“I think she is really grateful?”
he asked, with some eagerness, as I returned it.
“I daresay,” said I. “Has she
any claim on you?”
“O no, sir. I divorced
her,” he replied. “I have a very strong
sense of self-respect in such matters, and I divorced
her immediately.”
“What sort of life is she leading now?”
I asked.
“I will not deceive you, Mr.
Dodd. I do not know, I make a point of not knowing;
it appears more dignified. I have been very harshly
criticised,” he added, sighing.
It will be seen that I had fallen
into an ignominious intimacy with the man I had gone
out to thwart. My pity for the creature, his admiration
for myself, his pleasure in my society, which was clearly
unassumed, were the bonds with which I was fettered;
perhaps I should add, in honesty, my own ill-regulated
interest in the phases of life and human character.
The fact is (at least) that we spent hours together
daily, and that I was nearly as much on the forward
deck as in the saloon. Yet all the while I could
never forget he was a shabby trickster, embarked that
very moment in a dirty enterprise. I used to tell
myself at first that our acquaintance was a stroke
of art, and that I was somehow fortifying Carthew.
I told myself, I say; but I was no such fool as to
believe it, even then. In these circumstances
I displayed the two chief qualities of my character
on the largest scale my helplessness and
my instinctive love of procrastination and
fell upon a course of action so ridiculous that I
blush when I recall it.
We reached Liverpool one forenoon,
the rain falling thickly and insidiously on the filthy
town. I had no plans, beyond a sensible unwillingness
to let my rascal escape; and I ended by going to the
same inn with him, dining with him, walking with him
in the wet streets, and hearing with him in a penny
gaff that venerable piece, The Ticket-of-Leave
Man. It was one of his first visits to a theatre,
against which places of entertainment he had a strong
prejudice; and his innocent, pompous talk, innocent
old quotations, and innocent reverence for the character
of Hawkshaw delighted me beyond relief. In charity
to myself, I dwell upon and perhaps exaggerate my
pleasures. I have need of all conceivable excuses,
when I confess that I went to bed without one word
upon the matter of Carthew, but not without having
covenanted with my rascal for a visit to Chester the
next day. At Chester we did the Cathedral, walked
on the walls, discussed Shakespeare and the musical
glasses and made a fresh engagement for
the morrow. I do not know, and I am glad to have
forgotten, how long these travels were continued.
We visited at least, by singular zig-zags, Stratford,
Warwick, Coventry, Gloucester, Bristol, Bath, and
Wells. At each stage we spoke dutifully of the
scene and its associations; I sketched, the Shyster
spouted poetry and copied epitaphs. Who could
doubt we were the usual Americans, travelling with
a design of self-improvement? Who was to guess
that one was a black-mailer, trembling to approach
the scene of action the other a helpless,
amateur detective, waiting on events?
It is unnecessary to remark that none
occurred, or none the least suitable with my design
of protecting Carthew. Two trifles, indeed, completed
though they scarcely changed my conception of the Shyster.
The first was observed in Gloucester, where we spent
Sunday, and I proposed we should hear service in the
Cathedral. To my surprise, the creature had an
ism of his own, to which he was loyal; and he
left me to go alone to the Cathedral or
perhaps not to go at all and stole off down
a deserted alley to some Bethel or Ebenezer of the
proper shade. When we met again at lunch, I rallied
him, and he grew restive.
“You need employ no circumlocutions
with me, Mr. Dodd,” he said suddenly. “You
regard my behaviour from an unfavourable point of view:
you regard me, I much fear, as hypocritical.”
I was somewhat confused by the attack.
“You know what I think of your trade,”
I replied lamely and coarsely.
“Excuse me, if I seem to press
the subject,” he continued; “but if you
think my life erroneous, would you have me neglect
the means of grace? Because you consider me in
the wrong on one point, would you have me place myself
in the wrong in all? Surely, sir, the church is
for the sinner.”
“Did you ask a blessing on your
present enterprise?” I sneered.
He had a bad attack of St. Vitus,
his face was changed, and his eyes flashed. “I
will tell you what I did,” he cried. “I
prayed for an unfortunate man and a wretched woman
whom he tries to support.”
I cannot pretend that I found any repartee.
The second incident was at Bristol,
where I lost sight of my gentleman some hours.
From this eclipse he returned to me with thick speech,
wandering footsteps, and a back all whitened with plaster.
I had half expected, yet I could have wept to see
it. All disabilities were piled on that weak
back domestic misfortune, nervous disease,
a displeasing exterior, empty pockets, and the slavery
of vice.
I will never deny that our prolonged
conjunction was the result of double cowardice.
Each was afraid to leave the other, each was afraid
to speak, or knew not what to say. Save for my
ill-judged allusion at Gloucester, the subject uppermost
in both our minds was buried. Carthew, Stallbridge-lé-Carthew,
Stallbridge-Minster which we had long since
(and severally) identified to be the nearest station even
the name of Dorsetshire was studiously avoided.
And yet we were making progress all the time, tacking
across broad England like an unweatherly vessel on
a wind; approaching our destination, not openly, but
by a sort of flying sap. And at length, I can
scarce tell how, we were set down by a dilatory butt-end
of local train on the untenanted platform of Stallbridge-Minster.
The town was ancient and compact a
domino of tiled houses and walled gardens, dwarfed
by the disproportionate bigness of the church.
From the midst of the thoroughfare which divided it
in half, fields and trees were visible at either end;
and through the sally-port of every street there flowed
in from the country a silent invasion of green grass.
Bees and birds appeared to make the majority of the
inhabitants; every garden had its row of hives, the
eaves of every house were plastered with the nests
of swallows, and the pinnacles of the church were flickered
about all day long by a multitude of wings. The
town was of Roman foundation; and as I looked out
that afternoon from the low windows of the inn, I should
scarce have been surprised to see a centurion coming
up the street with a fatigue draft of legionaries.
In short, Stallbridge-Minster was one of those towns
which appear to be maintained by England for the instruction
and delight of the American rambler; to which he seems
guided by an instinct not less surprising than the
setter’s; and which he visits and quits with
equal enthusiasm.
I was not at all in the humour of
the tourist. I had wasted weeks of time and accomplished
nothing; we were on the eve of the engagement, and
I had neither plans nor allies. I had thrust myself
into the trade of private providence, and amateur
detective; I was spending money and I was reaping
disgrace. All the time I kept telling myself that
I must at least speak; that this ignominious silence
should have been broken long ago, and must be broken
now. I should have broken it when he first proposed
to come to Stallbridge-Minster; I should have broken
it in the train; I should break it there and then,
on the inn doorstep, as the omnibus rolled off.
I turned toward him at the thought; he seemed to wince,
the words died on my lips, and I proposed instead that
we should visit the Minster.
While we were engaged upon this duty,
it came on to rain in a manner worthy of the tropics.
The vault reverberated; every gargoyle instantly poured
its full discharge; we waded back to the inn, ankle-deep
in impromptu brooks; and the rest of the afternoon
sat weatherbound, hearkening to the sonorous deluge.
For two hours I talked of indifferent matters, laboriously
feeding the conversation; for two hours my mind was
quite made up to do my duty instantly and
at each particular instant I postponed it till the
next. To screw up my faltering courage, I called
at dinner for some sparkling wine. It proved,
when it came, to be detestable; I could not put it
to my lips; and Bellairs, who had as much palate as
a weevil, was left to finish it himself. Doubtless
the wine flushed him; doubtless he may have observed
my embarrassment of the afternoon; doubtless he was
conscious that we were approaching a crisis, and that
that evening, if I did not join with him, I must declare
myself an open enemy. At least he fled.
Dinner was done; this was the time when I had bound
myself to break my silence; no more delays were to
be allowed, no more excuses received. I went
upstairs after some tobacco, which I felt to be a
mere necessity in the circumstances and when I returned,
the man was gone. The waiter told me he had left
the house.
The rain still plumped, like a vast
shower-bath, over the deserted town. The night
was dark and windless: the street lit glimmeringly
from end to end, lamps, house-windows, and the reflections
in the rain-pools all contributing. From a public-house
on the other side of the way, I heard a harp twang
and a doleful voice upraised in the “Larboard
Watch,” “The Anchor’s Weighed,”
and other naval ditties. Where had my shyster
wandered? In all likelihood to that lyrical tavern;
there was no choice of diversion; in comparison with
Stallbridge-Minster on a rainy night a sheepfold would
seem gay.
Again I passed in review the points
of my interview, on which I was always constantly
resolved so long as my adversary was absent from the
scene, and again they struck me as inadequate.
From this dispiriting exercise I turned to the native
amusements of the inn coffee-room, and studied for
some time the mezzotints that frowned upon the wall.
The railway guide, after showing me how soon I could
leave Stallbridge and how quickly I could reach Paris,
failed to hold my attention. An illustrated advertisement-book
of hotels brought me very low indeed; and when it
came to the local paper, I could have wept. At
this point I found a passing solace in a copy of Whitaker’s
Almanack, and obtained in fifty minutes more information
than I have yet been able to use.
Then a fresh apprehension assailed
me. Suppose Bellairs had given me the slip?
Suppose he was now rolling on the road to Stallbridge-lé-Carthew?
or perhaps there already and laying before a very white-laced
auditor his threats and propositions? A hasty
person might have instantly pursued. Whatever
I am, I am not hasty, and I was aware of three grave
objections. In the first place, I could not be
certain that Bellairs was gone. In the second,
I had no taste whatever for a long drive at that hour
of the night and in so merciless a rain. In the
third, I had no idea how I was to get admitted if
I went, and no idea what I should say if I got admitted.
“In short,” I concluded, “the whole
situation is the merest farce. You have thrust
yourself in where you had no business and have no
power. You would be quite as useful in San Francisco;
far happier in Paris; and being (by the wrath of God)
at Stallbridge-Minster, the wisest thing is to go
quietly to bed.” On the way to my room I
saw (in a flash) that which I ought to have done long
ago, and which it was now too late to think of written
to Carthew, I mean, detailing the facts and describing
Bellairs, letting him defend himself if he were able,
and giving him time to flee if he were not. It
was the last blow to my self-respect; and I flung
myself into my bed with contumely.
I have no guess what hour it was when
I was wakened by the entrance of Bellairs carrying
a candle. He had been drunk, for he was bedaubed
with mire from head to foot; but he was now sober,
and under the empire of some violent emotion which
he controlled with difficulty. He trembled visibly;
and more than once, during the interview which followed,
tears suddenly and silently overflowed his cheeks.
“I have to ask your pardon,
sir, for this untimely visit,” he said.
“I make no defence, I have no excuse, I have
disgraced myself, I am properly punished; I appear
before you to appeal to you in mercy for the most
trifling aid, or, God help me! I fear I may go
mad.”
“What on earth is wrong?” I asked.
“I have been robbed,”
he said. “I have no defence to offer; it
was of my own fault, I am properly punished.”
“But, gracious goodness me!”
I cried, “who is there to rob you in a place
like this?”
“I can form no opinion,”
he replied. “I have no idea. I was
lying in a ditch inanimate. This is a degrading
confession, sir; I can only say in self-defence that
perhaps (in your good-nature) you have made yourself
partly responsible for my shame. I am not used
to these rich wines.”
“In what form was your money?
Perhaps it may be traced,” I suggested.
“It was in English sovereigns.
I changed it in New York; I got very good exchange,”
he said, and then, with a momentary outbreak, “God
in heaven, how I toiled for it!” he cried.
“That doesn’t sound encouraging,”
said I. “It may be worth while to apply
to the police, but it doesn’t sound a hopeful
case.”
“And I have no hope in that
direction,” said Bellairs. “My hopes,
Mr. Dodd, are all fixed upon yourself. I could
easily convince you that a small, a very small advance,
would be in the nature of an excellent investment;
but I prefer to rely on your humanity. Our acquaintance
began on an unusual footing; but you have now known
me for some time, we have been some time I
was going to say we had been almost intimate.
Under the impulse of instinctive sympathy, I have bared
my heart to you, Mr. Dodd, as I have done to few and
I believe I trust I may say that
I feel sure you heard me with a kindly sentiment.
This is what brings me to your side at this most inexcusable
hour. But put yourself in my place how
could I sleep how could I dream of sleeping,
in this blackness of remorse and despair? There
was a friend at hand so I ventured to think
of you; it was instinctive: I fled to your side,
as the drowning man clutches at a straw. These
expressions are not exaggerated, they scarcely serve
to express the agitation of my mind. And think,
sir, how easily you can restore me to hope and, I may
say, to reason. A small loan, which shall be
faithfully repaid. Five hundred dollars would
be ample.” He watched me with burning eyes.
“Four hundred would do. I believe, Mr.
Dodd, that I could manage with economy on two.”
“And then you will repay me
out of Carthew’s pocket?” I said.
“I am much obliged. But I will tell you
what I will do: I will see you on board a steamer,
pay your fare through to San Francisco, and place fifty
dollars in the purser’s hands, to be given you
in New York.”
He drank in my words; his face represented
an ecstasy of cunning thought. I could read there,
plain as print, that he but thought to overreach me.
“And what am I to do in ’Frisco?”
he asked. “I am disbarred, I have no trade,
I cannot dig, to beg ” he
paused in the citation. “And you know that
I am not alone,” he added, “others depend
upon me.”
“I will write to Pinkerton,”
I returned. “I feel sure he can help you
to some employment, and in the meantime, and for three
months after your arrival, he shall pay to yourself
personally, on the first and the fifteenth, twenty-five
dollars.”
“Mr. Dodd, I scarce believe
you can be serious in this offer,” he replied.
“Have you forgotten the circumstances of the
case? Do you know these people are the magnates
of the section? They were spoken of to-night
in the saloon; their wealth must amount to many millions
of dollars in real estate alone; their house is one
of the sights of the locality, and you offer me a
bribe of a few hundred!”
“I offer you no bribe, Mr. Bellairs;
I give you alms,” I returned. “I
will do nothing to forward you in your hateful business;
yet I would not willingly have you starve.”
“Give me a hundred dollars then,
and be done with it,” he cried.
“I will do what I have said,
and neither more nor less,” said I.
“Take care,” he cried.
“You are playing a fool’s game; you are
making an enemy for nothing; you will gain nothing
by this, I warn you of it!” And then with one
of his changes, “Seventy dollars only
seventy in mercy, Mr. Dodd, in common charity.
Don’t dash the bowl from my lips! You have
a kindly heart. Think of my position, remember
my unhappy wife.”
“You should have thought of
her before,” said I. “I have made
my offer, and I wish to sleep.”
“Is that your last word, sir?
Pray consider; pray weigh both sides: my misery,
your own danger. I warn you I beseech
you; measure it well before you answer,” so
he half pleaded, half threatened me, with clasped
hands.
“My first word, and my last,” said I.
The change upon the man was shocking.
In the storm of anger that now shook him, the lees
of his intoxication rose again to the surface; his
face was deformed, his words insane with fury; his
pantomime, excessive in itself, was distorted by an
access of St. Vitus.
“You will perhaps allow me to
inform you of my cold opinion,” he began, apparently
self-possessed, truly bursting with rage: “when
I am a glorified saint, I shall see you howling for
a drop of water, and exult to see you. That your
last word! Take it in your face, you spy, you
false friend, you fat hypocrite! I defy, I defy
and despise and spit upon you! I’m on the
trail, his trail or yours; I smell blood, I’ll
follow it on my hands and knees, I’ll starve
to follow it! I’ll hunt you down, hunt
you, hunt you down! If I were strong, I’d
tear your vitals out, here in this room tear
them out I’d tear them out! Damn,
damn, damn! You think me weak? I can bite,
bite to the blood, bite you, hurt you, disgrace you
...”
He was thus incoherently raging when
the scene was interrupted by the arrival of the landlord
and inn servants in various degrees of deshabille,
and to them I gave my temporary lunatic in charge.
“Take him to his room,” I said, “he’s
only drunk.”
These were my words; but I knew better.
After all my study of Mr. Bellairs, one discovery
had been reserved for the last moment that
of his latent and essential madness.