When the curtain had fallen on the
little-heeded play and the gay crowd began to disperse,
I, perceiving that no more was to be seen or learnt,
went home to my lodging alone. After our conversation
Darrell had left me abruptly, and I saw him no more.
But my own thoughts gave me occupation enough; for
even to a dull mind, and one unversed in Court intrigues,
it seemed plain that more hung on this expedition to
Dover than the meeting of the King’s sister
with her brother. So far all men were of the
same opinion; beyond, their variance began. I
had not thought to trouble my head about it, but,
not having learnt yet that a small man lives most
comfortably with the great by opening his eyes and
ears only when bidden and keeping them tight locked
for the rest, I was inspired with eagerness to know
the full meaning of the scene in which I was now to
play a part, however humble. Of one thing at least
I was glad here I touched on a matter more
suitable to my condition and this was that
since Barbara Quinton was to go to Dover, I was to
go also. But, alas, neither here did perplexity
lag far behind! It is easy to know that you are
glad to be with a lady; your very blood tells you;
but to say why is often difficult. I told myself
that my sole cause for pleasure lay in the services
I might be able to render to my old friend’s
daughter; she would want me to run her errands and
do her bidding; an attentive cavalier, however lowly,
seldom comes amiss; these pleas I muttered to myself,
but swelling pride refused them, and for once reason
came as pride’s ally, urging that in such company
as would assemble at Dover a girl might well need
protection, no less than compliments. It was
true; my new master’s bearing to her shewed how
true. And Carford was not, it seemed, a jealous
lover. I was no lover my life was
vowed to another most unhappy love but I
was a gentleman, and (sweet thought!) the hour might
come when the face which had looked so mockingly at
me to-night should turn again in appeal to the wit
and arm of Simon Dale. I grew taller as I thought
of that, and, coming just then to my own door, rapped
with my cane as loudly and defiantly as though I had
been the Duke of Monmouth himself, and not a gentleman
in his suite.
Loud as my rapping was, it brought
no immediate answer. Again I knocked; then feet
came shuffling along the passage. I had aroused
my sleepy wretch; doubtless he would come groaning
(for Jonah might not curse save in the way of religion),
and rubbing his eyes, to let me in. The door
opened and Jonah appeared; his eyes were not dull with
sleep but seemed to blaze with some strong excitement;
he had not been to his bed, for his dress was not
disordered, and a light burnt bright in my parlour.
To crown all, from the same parlour came the sound
of a psalm most shrilly and villainously chanted through
the nose in a voice familiar to my ears. I, unlike
my servant, had not bound myself against an oath where
the case called, and with a round one that sent Jonah’s
eyes in agony up to the ceiling I pushed by him and
ran into the parlour. A sonorous “Amen”
came pat with my entrance; Phineas Tate stood before
me, lean and pale, but calm and placid.
“What in the devil’s name brings you here?”
I cried.
“The service of God,” he answered solemnly.
“What, does it forbid sleep at nights?”
“Have you been sleeping, young
man?” he asked, pertinently enough, as I must
allow.
“I have been paying my respects to His Majesty,”
said I.
“God forgive him and you,” was the retort.
“Perhaps, sir, perhaps not,”
I replied, for I was growing angry. “But
I have asked your intercession no more than has the
King. If Jonah brought you here, it was without
my leave; I beg you to take your departure. Jonah,
hold the door there for Mr Tate.”
The man raised his hand impressively.
“Hear my message first,”
he said. “I am sent unto you, that you may
turn from sin. For the Lord has appointed you
to be his instrument. Even now the plot is laid,
even now men conspire to bring this kingdom again into
the bondage of Rome. Have you no ears, have you
no eyes, are you blind and deaf? Turn to me,
and I will make you see and hear. For it is given
to me to show you the way.”
I was utterly weary of the fellow,
and, in despair of getting quit of him, flung myself
into a chair. But his next words caught my attention.
“The man who lives here with
you what of him? Is he not an enemy
of God?”
“Mr Darrell is of the Romish
faith,” said I, smiling in spite of myself,
for a kinder soul than Darrell I had never met.
Phineas came close to me, leaning
over me with an admonishing forefinger and a mysterious
air.
“What did he want with you?”
he asked. “Yet cleave to him. Be where
he is, go where he goes.”
“If it comforts you, I am going
where he goes,” said I, yawning. “For
we are both going to Dover when the King goes.”
“It is God’s finger and
God’s will!” cried Phineas, catching me
by the shoulder.
“Enough!” I shouted, leaping
up. “Keep your hands off me, man, if you
can’t keep your tongue. What is it to you
that we go to Dover?”
“Aye, what?” came suddenly
in Darrell’s voice. He stood in the doorway
with a fierce and angry frown on his face. A moment
later he was across the room and laid his hand on
Phineas. “Do you want another cropping of
your ears?” he asked.
“Do your will on me,”
cried the fanatic. And sweeping away his lanky
hair he showed his ears; to my horror they had been
cropped level across their tops by the shears.
“Do your will,” he shrieked, “I am
ready. But your hour comes also, yea, your cup
shall soon be full.”
Darrell spoke to him in low stern tones.
“It may be more than ears, if
you will not bridle your tongue. It’s not
for you to question why the King comes or goes.”
I saw Jonah’s face at the door,
pale with fright as he looked at the two men.
The interest of the scene grew on me; the talk of Dover
seemed to pursue me strangely.
“But this young man,”
pursued Phineas, utterly unmoved by Darrell’s
threat, “is not of you; he shall be snatched
from the burning, and by his hand the Lord will work
a great deliverance.”
Darrell turned to me and said stiffly:
“This room is yours, sir, not
mine. Do you suffer the presence of this mischievous
knave?”
“I suffer what I can’t
help,” I answered. “Mr Tate doesn’t
ask my pleasure in his coming and going any more than
the King asks Mr Tate’s in his.”
“It would do you no good, sir,
to have it known that he was here,” Darrell
reminded me with a significant nod of his head.
Darrell had been a good friend to
me and had won my regard, but, from an infirmity of
temper that I have touched on before, his present tone
set me against him. I take reproof badly, and
age has hardly tamed me to it.
“No good with whom?” I
asked, smiling. “The Duke of York?
My Lord Arlington? Or do you mean the Duke of
Monmouth? It is he whom I have to please now.”
“None of them love Ranters,”
answered Darrell, keeping his face stiff and inscrutable.
“But one of them may prefer
a Ranter to a Papist,” laughed I.
The thrust told, Darrell grew red.
To myself I seemed to have hit suddenly on the key
of a mystery. Was I then a pawn in the great game
of the Churches, and Darrell another, and (to speak
it with all due respect), these grand dukes little
better? Had Phineas Tate also his place on the
board where souls made the stakes? In such a game
none is too low for value, none too high for use.
Surely my finger was on the spring! At least
I had confounded Darrell; his enemy, taking my help
readily enough, glared on him in most unchristian exultation,
and then, turning to me, cried in a species of fierce
ecstasy,
“Think not that because you
are unworthy you shall not serve God. The work
sanctifies the instrument, yea, it makes clean that
which is foul. Verily, at His hour, God may work
through a woman of sin.” And he fixed his
eyes intently on me.
I read a special meaning in his words;
my thoughts flew readily to the Cock and Pie in Drury
Lane.
“Yea, through a woman of sin,”
he repeated slowly and solemnly; then he faced round,
swift as the wind, on Darrell, and, minding my friend’s
sullen scowl not a whit, cried to him, “Repent,
repent, vengeance is near!” and so at last was
out of the room before either of us could hinder him,
had we wished, or could question him further.
I heard the house-door shut behind him, and I rose,
looking at Darrell with an easy smile.
“Madness and moonshine, good
friend,” said I. “Don’t let
it disturb you. If Jonah admits the fellow again
he shall answer for it.”
“Indeed, Mr Dale, when I prayed
you to share my lodging, I did not foresee the nature
of your company.”
“Fate more than choice makes
a man’s company,” said I. “Now
it’s you, now Phineas, now my lord the Secretary,
and now his Grace the Duke. Indeed, seeing how
destiny or, if you will, chance rules,
a man may well be thought a fool who makes a plan
or chooses a companion. For my own part, I am
fate’s child and fate shall guide me.”
He was still stiff and cold with me,
but my friendly air and my evident determination to
have no quarrel won him to civility if to no warmer
demonstration of regard.
“Fate’s child?”
he asked with a little scorn, but seating himself and
smoothing his brow. “You’re fate’s
child? Isn’t that an arrogant speech, Simon?”
“If it weren’t true, most
arrogant,” I answered. “Come, I’ll
tell you; it’s too soon for bed and too late
to go abroad. Jonah, bring us some wine, and
if it be good, you shall be forgiven for admitting
Master Tate.”
Jonah went off and presently returned
with a bottle, which we drank, while I, with the candour
I had promised, told my friend of Betty Nasroth and
her prophecy. He heard me with an attention which
belied the contempt he asserted; I have noticed that
men pay heed to these things however much they laugh
at them. At the end, growing excited not only
with the wine but with the fumes of life which had
been mounting into my young brain all the day, I leapt
up, crying aloud:
“And isn’t it true?
Shan’t I know what he hides? Shan’t
I drink of his cup? For isn’t it true?
Don’t I already, to my infinite misery, love
where he loves?” For the picture of Nell had
come suddenly across me in renewed strength and sweetness;
when I had spoken I dropped again into my chair and
laid my head down on my arms.
Silence followed; Darrell had no words
of consolation for my woes and left my love-lorn cry
unheeded; presently then (for neglected sorrows do
not thrive) I looked furtively at him between the fingers
of my hand. He sat moody, thoughtful, and frowning.
I raised my head and met his eyes. He leant across
the table, saying in a sneering tone, “A fine
witch, on my life! You should know what he hides?”
“Aye.”
“And drink of his cup?”
“Aye, so she said.”
He sat sunk in troubled thought, but
I, being all this night torn to and fro by changing
and warring moods, sprang up again and cried in boisterous
scorn, “What, you believe these fables?
Does God reveal hidden things to old crones?
I thought you at Court were not the fools of such
fancies! Aren’t they fitter for rustic churls,
Mr Darrell? God save us, do we live in the days
of King James?”
He answered me shortly and sternly,
as though I had spoken of things not to be named lightly.
“It is devil’s work, all of it.”
“Then the devil is busier than
he seems, even after a night at Court,” I said.
“But be it whose work it will, I’ll do
it. I’ll find what he hides. I’ll
drink of his cup. Come, you’re glum!
Drink, friend Darrell! Darrell, what’s
in his cup, what does he hide? Darrell, what does
the King hide?”
I had caught him by the shoulder and
was staring in his face. I was all aglow, and
my eyes, no doubt, shone bright with excitement and
the exhilaration of the wine. The look of me,
or the hour of the night, or the working of his own
superstition, got hold of him, for he sprang up, crying
madly:
“My God, do you know?”
and glared into my face as though I had been the very
devil of whom I spoke.
We stood thus for a full minute.
But I grew cool before my companion, wonder working
the change in me sooner than confusion could in him.
For my random ravings had most marvellously struck
on something more than my sober speculations could
discern. The man before me was mad or
he had a secret. And friend Darrell was no madman.
“Do I know?” I asked.
“Do I know what? What could I, Simon Dale,
know? What in Heaven’s name is there to
know?” And I smiled cunningly, as though I sought
to hide knowledge by a parade of ignorance.
“Nothing, nothing,” he
muttered uneasily. “The wine’s got
into my head.”
“Yet you’ve drunk but
two glasses; I had the rest,” said I.
“That damned Ranter has upset
me,” he growled. “That, and the talk
of your cursed witch.”
“Can Ranters and witches make
secrets where there are none?” said I with a
laugh.
“They can make fools think there
are secrets where there are none,” said he rudely.
“And other fools ask if they’re
known,” I retorted, but with a laugh; and I
added, “I’m not for a quarrel, secret or
no secret, so if that’s your purpose in sitting
the night through, to bed with you, my friend.”
Whether from prudence, or whether
my good humour rebuked his temper, he grew more gentle;
he looked at me kindly enough and sighed, as he said:
“I was to be your guide in London,
Simon; but you take your own path.”
“The path you shewed me was
closed in my face,” said I, “and I took
the first that was opened to me.”
“By the Duke of Monmouth?”
“Yes or by another, if it had chanced
to be another.”
“But why take any, Simon?”
he urged persuasively. “Why not live in
peace and leave these great folk alone?”
“With all my heart,” I
cried. “Is it a bargain? Whither shall
we fly from the turmoil?”
“We!” he exclaimed with a start.
“Aren’t you sick of the
same disease? Isn’t the same medicine best
for you? Come, shall we both go to-morrow to
Hatchstead a pretty village, Mr Darrell and
let the great folk go alone to Dover?”
“You know I cannot. I serve my Lord Arlington.”
“And I the Duke of Monmouth.”
“But my Lord is the King’s servant.”
“And his Grace the King’s son.”
“Oh, if you’re obstinate ”
he began, frowning.
“As fate, as prophecy, as witch,
as Ranter, as devil, or as yourself!” I said,
laughing and throwing myself into a chair as he rose
and moved towards the door.
“No good will come of it to you,” he said,
passing me on his way.
“What loyal servant looks to
make a profit of his service?” I asked, smiling.
“I wish you could be warned.”
“I’m warned, but not turned, Darrell.
Come, we part friends?”
“Why, yes, we are friends,” he answered,
but with a touch of hesitation.
“Saving our duty to the King?”
“If need should come for that reservation, yes,”
said he gravely.
“And saving,” said I,
“the liberties of the Kingdom and the safety
of the Reformed Religion if need should
come for these reservations, Mr Darrell,” and
I laughed to see the frown gather again on his brow.
But he made no reply, being unable to trust his self-control
or answer my light banter in its own kind. He
left me with no more than a shake of his head and
a wave of his hand; and although we parted thus in
amity and with no feelings save of kindness for one
another, I knew that henceforth there must be a difference
in our relations; the days of confidence were gone.
The recognition of my loss weighed
little with me. The diffidence born of inexperience
and of strangeness to London and the Court was wearing
away; the desire for another’s arm to lean on
and another’s eyes to see with gave way before
a young man’s pride in his own arm’s strength
and the keenness of his own vision. There was
sport afoot; aye, for me in those days all things
were sport, even the high disputes of Churches or
of Kingdoms. We look at the world through our
own glasses; little as it recks of us, it is to us
material and opportunity; there in the dead of night
I wove a dream wherein the part of hero was played
by Simon Dale, with Kings and Dukes to bow him on
and off the stage and Christendom to make an audience.
These dream-doings are brave things: I pity the
man who performs none of them; for in them you may
achieve without labour, enjoy without expense, triumph
without cruelty, aye, and sin mightily and grandly
with never a reckoning for it. Yet do not be a
mean villain even in your dreaming, for that sticks
to you when you awake.
I had supposed myself alone to be
out of bed and Jonah Wall to have slunk off in fear
of my anger. But now my meditations were interrupted
by his entrance. He crept up to me in an uneasy
fashion, but seemed to take courage when I did not
break into abuse, but asked him mildly why he had
not sought rest and what he wanted with me. His
first answer was to implore me to protect him from
Mr Darrell’s wrath; through Phineas Tate, he
told me timidly, he had found grace, and he could deny
him nothing; yet, if I bade him, he would not admit
him again.
“Let him come,” said I
carelessly. “Besides, we shall not be long
here. For you and I are going on a journey, Jonah.”
“A journey, sir?”
“Ay, I go with the Duke of Monmouth,
and you go with me, to Dover when the King goes.”
Now, either Dover was on everybody’s
brain, or was very sadly on my brain, for I swear
even this fellow’s eye seemed to brighten as
I named the place.
“To Dover, sir?”
“No less. You shall see all the gaiety
there is to be seen, Jonah.”
The flush of interest had died away;
he was dolefully tranquil and submissive again.
“Well, what do you want with
me?” I asked, for I did not wish him to suspect
that I detected any change in his manner.
“A lady came here to-day, sir,
in a very fine coach with Flemish horses, and asked
for you. Hearing you were from home, she called
to me and bade me take a message for you. I prayed
her to write it, but she laughed, and said she spoke
more easily than she wrote; and she bade me say that
she wished to see you.”
“What sort of lady was she, Jonah?”
“She sat all the while in the
coach, sir, but she seemed not tall; she was very
merry, sir.” Jonah sighed deeply; with him
merriment stood high among the vices of our nature.
“She didn’t say for what
purpose she wanted me?” I asked as carelessly
as I could.
“No, sir. She said you
would know the purpose, and that she would look for
you at noon to-morrow.”
“But where, Jonah?”
“At a house called Burford House, sir, in Chelsea.”
“She gave you no name?”
“I asked her name, and she gave me one.”
“What was it?”
“It was a strange heathenish
name, and she laughed as she gave it; indeed she laughed
all the time.”
“There’s no sin in laughter,”
said I dryly. “You may leave me, I need
no help in undressing.”
“But the name ”
“By Heaven, man, I know the name! Be off
with you!”
He shuffled off, his whole manner
expressing reprobation, whether most of my oath, or
of the heathenish name, or of the lady who gave it,
I know not.
Well, if he were so horror-stricken
at these things, what would he say at learning with
whom he had talked? Perhaps he would have preached
to her, as had Phineas Tate, his master in religion.
For, beyond doubt, that heathenish name was Cydaria,
and that fine coach with Flemish horses I
left the question of that coach unanswered.
The moment the door was shut behind
my servant I sprang to my feet, crying in a low but
very vehement voice, “Never!” I would not
go. Had she not wounded me enough? Must
I tear away the bandage from the gash? She had
tortured me, and asked me now, with a laugh, to be
so good as stretch myself on the rack again.
I would not go. That laugh was cruel insolence.
I knew that laugh. Ah, why so I did I
knew it well how it rose and rippled and
fell, losing itself in echoes scarcely audible, but
rich with enticing mirth. Surely she was cunningly
fashioned for the undoing of men; yes, and of herself,
poor soul. What were her coaches, and the Flemish
horses, and the house called Burford House in Chelsea?
A wave of memory swept over me, and I saw her simple well
then, more simple! though always merry,
in the sweet-smelling fields at home, playing with
my boy’s heart as with a toy that she knew little
of, but yet by instinct handled deftly. It pleased
her mightily, that toy, and she seemed to wonder when
she found that it felt. She did not feel; joy
was hers, nothing deeper. Yet could she not, might
she not, would she not? I knew what she was;
who knew what she might be? The picture of her
rose again before my eyes, inviting a desperate venture,
spurring me on to an enterprise in which the effort
seemed absurdity, and success would have been in the
eyes of the world calamity. Yet an exaltation
of spirit was on me, and I wove another dream that
drove the first away; now I did not go to Dover to
play my part in great affairs and jostle for higher
place in a world where in God’s eyes all places
are equal and all low, but away back to the country
I had loved, and not alone. She should be with
me, love should dress penitence in glowing robes, and
purity be decked more gloriously than all the pomps
of sin. Could it be? If it could, it seemed
a prize for which all else might be willingly forgone an
achievement rare and great, though the page of no history
recorded it.
Phineas Tate had preached to her,
and gone away, empty and scorned. I would preach
too, in different tones and with a different gospel.
Yet my words should have a sweetness his had not,
my gospel a power that should draw where his repelled.
For my love, shaken not yet shattered, wounded not
dead, springing again to full life and force, should
breathe its vital energy into her soul and impart
of its endless abundance till her heart was full.
Entranced by this golden vision, I rose and looked
from the window at the dawning day, praying that mine
might be the task, the achievement, the reward.
Bright dawned that day as I, with
brighter brightness in my heart, climbed the stairs
that led to my bedroom. But as I reached the door
of it, I paused. There came a sound from the
little closet beyond, where Jonah stretched his weary
legs, and, as I hoped, had forgotten in harmless sleep
the soul that he himself tormented worse than would
the hell he feared. No, he did not rest.
From his closet came low, fervent, earnest prayers.
Listening a minute, half in scorn, half in pity, and
in no unkindness, I heard him.
“Praise be to God,” he
said, “Who maketh the crooked places straight,
and openeth a path through the wilderness, and setteth
in the hand of His servant a sword wherewith to smite
the ungodly even in high places.”
What crooked places were made straight,
what path opened, what sword set in Jonah’s
hand? Of the ungodly in high places there was
no lack in the days of King Charles. But was
Jonah Wall to smite them? I opened my door with
a laugh. We were all mad that night, and my madness
lasted till the morning. Yes, till the morning
grew full my second dream was with me.