Cartmell’s talk, as we drove
back, was calculated to give her an almost overwhelming
idea of her possessions and (if her temperament set
that way) of her responsibilities. Big commercial
buildings, blocks of shops, whole streets of small
houses, drew from the lawyer a point of the finger
and a brief, “That’s yours” or
sometimes he would tell how her father had bought,
how built, and how profited by the venture. Every
time she would turn her head to look where his finger
pointed, and nod slightly, gravely, composedly.
She seemed to be reserving her opinion of it all.
The only time she spoke was when we were emerging from
the town and he showed her Hatcham Ford, saying, as
usual, “That’s yours,” but adding
that it was let furnished to Mr. Leonard Octon, who
was abroad just now. Then her nod of understanding
was accompanied by a low murmur, “It’s
very pretty.”
She said nothing when we drove into
the park of Breysgate Priory itself: yet I saw
her eyes fixed intently on the great house on the hill,
which comes into view directly the drive is entered,
and certainly looks imposing enough. After the
first formal greeting she did not speak to me, nor
I to her, until her reception at the house was over
and we had sat down to luncheon. But she had
smiled at me once when we were still standing
by the door, on the terrace at the top of the steps,
and Cartmell was showing her what he called “the
lie of the land.” The omnibus with its
pair of big horses and its pair of big men came trotting
up the hill, and on its big roof lay one small battered
trunk. Loft was waiting to give orders to his
footmen for the disposal of her luggage: when
he saw the solitary and diminutive article, he advanced
and, with pronounced graciousness, received it from
the omnibus himself. She watched, and then gave
me the smile that I have mentioned; evidently Loft or
Loft in conjunction with that humble box appealed
to her sense of humor.
Cartmell was soon at his ease with
her: he called her “My dear” twice
before we got to the sweets. The second time he
apologized for taking the liberty on the
first occasion, I suppose, the words slipped out unnoticed
by himself.
“But I like it,” she said.
“My father spoke so warmly about you in his
letter.”
Cartmell looked at me for a moment;
we neither of us knew of a letter.
“He told me never to part with
Mr. Cartmell because an honest lawyer was worth his
weight in gold.”
“I ride fourteen-seven,” said Cartmell
with a chuckle.
“And he said something about
you, too,” she added, looking at me, “but
perhaps I’d better not repeat that.”
“Shall I try to guess it?”
I asked. “Did he say I was a scholar?”
“Yes.”
“And a gentleman?”
“Yes.”
“But confoundedly conceited?”
“No well, not quite. Something
like it, Mr. Austin. How did you know?”
“It’s what he use to say to me himself
three times a week?”
Her face had lit up in merriment during
this little talk, but now she grew thoughtful again.
I might well have looked thoughtful, too; so far as
had appeared at present, there was no injunction against
parting with me no worth-his-weight-in-gold
appraisement of the secretary!
“I expect he liked the scholar-and-gentleman
part,” she reflected. “He wasn’t
at all a scholar himself, I suppose?”
“He’d had no time for that,” said
Cartmell.
“Nor a gentleman?”
It was an embarrassing question from
a daughter about her father addressed to
Cartmell who owed him much and to me who had eaten
his bread. Besides he was lying there
in his room upstairs. Cartmell faced the difficulty
with simple directness.
“He wasn’t polished in
manner; when he was opposed or got angry, he was rough.
But he was honest and straight, upright and just, kind
and ”
“Kind?” she interrupted,
a note of indignation plain to hear in her voice.
“Not to me!”
That was awkward again!
“My dear Miss Driver, for what
may have been amiss he’s made you the best amends
he could.” He waved his arm as though to
take in all the great house in which we sat.
“Handsome amends!”
“Yes,” she assented but
her assent did not sound very hearty.
A long silence followed an
uncomfortable silence. She was looking toward
the window, and I could watch her face unperceived.
From our first meeting I had been haunted by a sense
of having seen her before, but I soon convinced myself
that this was a delusion. I had not seen her,
nor anyone like her (she was not at all like her father),
in the flesh, but I had seen pictures that were like
her. Not modern pictures, but sixteenth- or seventeenth-century
portraits. Her hair was brown with ruddy tips,
her brows not arched but very straight, her nose fine-cut
and high, her mouth not large but her lips very red.
Her chin was rather long, and her face wore the smooth,
almost waxy, pallor which the pictures I was reminded
of are apt to exhibit. Her eyes were so pronounced
and bright a hazel that, seeing them on a canvas, one
might have suspected the painter of taking a liberty
with fact for the sake of his composition.
Cartmell broke the silence. “Since
he wrote you a letter, may I venture to ask ?”
He stopped and glanced at me. “Perhaps you
wouldn’t mind giving us five minutes to ourselves,
Austin?”
I thought the request not unnatural,
and rose promptly from my chair. But we had reckoned
without our host our new host.
“Why do you tell him to go?”
she demanded of Cartmell with a sudden sharpness.
“I don’t ask him to go. I don’t
want him to go. Sit down, please, Mr. Austin.”
Cartmell had his two elbows on the
table; he bit his thumb as he glanced up at her from
under raised brows. He was not often called to
book so sharply as that. I thought that she would
make apology, but she made none. As I obediently and,
I fear, hastily sat down again, she took
a letter from a little bag which hung at her waist.
“What did you want to ask?”
she said to Cartmell in a tone which was smooth but
by no means overconciliatory.
Cartmell’s manner said “Have
it if you want it!” as he inquired bluntly,
“Does your father say anything about your mother?”
She took the letter from its envelope
and unfolded it. “About my mother he says
this: ’It is necessary for me to say a few
words about your mother. Mr. Cartmell is in possession
of all proofs necessary to establish your position
as my daughter, and there is no need for you to trouble
your head about that, as not the smallest difficulty
can arise. The personal aspect of the case is
that on which I must touch. Three years after
your birth your mother left me under circumstances
which made it impossible for me to have any further
communication with her. She went to Australia,
and died five years later in Melbourne from an attack
of typhoid fever. I caused constant inquiry to
be made as to her position and took measures to secure
that she should suffer no hardship. The circumstances
to which I have referred made it imperative that I
should remove you from her charge. As she consented
to give up all claim on you, I did not go to the trouble
of obtaining a divorce which she did not
desire either, as matters had been kept quiet.
You will ask, and with reason, why I did not bring
you up myself, and why I have delayed publicly acknowledging
you as my daughter till the hour of my death.
I can give no reason good to the world. I can
give none good to my own conscience, unless it is
a good one to say that a man is what God made him
and that there are some things impossible to some men.
It will seem a hard saying, but I could not endure
to have you with me. I know myself, and I can
only assure you that, if your childhood has not been
a very happy one as it is, it would have been no happier
if spent under my roof. Now we have been only
strangers you would have been worse than
a stranger then.’”
Miss Driver, who had read in a low
but level and composed voice, paused here for a moment perhaps
in doubt whether to read more. Then she went
on: “’With that much excuse for
I have none other I must now, my daughter,
say good-by, for I am dying. Though of my own
choice I have not seen you since your infancy.
I have not been without thought for you. I hesitated
long before throwing on your shoulders all the burden
which I have created for my own and carried on them.
But in the end nature has seemed to say to me and
to speak more strongly as I grow weaker that
you are the person to whom it should belong and that,
if things go wrong, it will be nature’s fault,
not mine. Don’t spend more than two-thirds
of your income the other third should go
back to work and bring in more. Give handsomely
when you give, but don’t be always dribbling
out small sums; they mount up against you without aiding
the recipients. Go to church unless you really
dislike it. Be independent, but not eccentric.
You have a great position; make it greater. Be
a power in your world. About love and marriage,
remember always that being sensible in general matters
is no guarantee that you will act sensibly there.
So be doubly on your guard. Suspect and fear marriage,
even while you seek the best alliance you can find.
Be you man or woman, by marriage you give another
a power over you. Suspect it suspect
your lover suspect yourself. You need
fear no man except the man to whom you have given
yourself. With earnest wishes for your welfare,
I remain your affectionate father Nicholas
driver.’”
During the reading Cartmell’s
face had been disturbed and sad; once or twice he
fidgeted restively in his chair. I had listened
intently, seeming again to hear the measured full
voice, the hard clean-cut counsels, to which I had
listened almost daily for the last four years.
Fine sense! And a heart somewhere? I was
inclined to answer yes but how deep it
lay, and what a lot of digging to get there! He
had never given his daughter one chance of so much
as putting her hand to the spade.
She tucked the letter away in her
little bag; she was smiling again by now. I had
smiled myself my memories being so acutely
touched; but she must have smiled for discernment,
not for memory.
“Now I think I should like to go and see him.”
Cartmell excused himself, as I knew he would.
“I’ve never seen him, that I can remember,
you know,” she said.
The meeting of the Catsford Corporation
(the town had become a borough ten years before largely
owing to Mr. Driver’s efforts) could not wait.
But Cartmell had one thing to say before he went; it
was not on business, nor arising out of the letter;
he was to have a full business discussion with her
on the morrow. He took her hand in both of his
and pressed it forgetful apparently of
her sharp rebuke.
“You can’t live in this
great house all alone,” he said. “I
wonder your father said nothing about that!”
“Oh, that’s all right.
Chat’s coming in a week. She’d have
come with me, but Mrs. Simpson wouldn’t let
her go till a new governess could be got. Four
girls, you see, and Mrs. Simpson thinks she’s
an invalid. Besides, Chat wouldn’t come
without a new black silk dress. So I had to give
her most of that money and she’ll
be here in a week and I haven’t got
a new dress.”
I noticed that her black dress was
far from new. It was, in fact, rather rusty.
Her black straw hat, however, appeared to be new.
It was a large spreading sort of hat.
“Yes, Mr. Austin, the hat’s new,”
she remarked.
The girl seemed to have a knack of
noticing where one’s eyes happened to be.
“I can give you lots of money,”
Cartmell assured her. “And er ’Chat’
was governess at the Simpsons’, was she?”
“Yes, she’s been there
for years, but she’s very fond of me, and agreed
to come and be my companion. She taught me all
I know. I’m sure you’ll like Chat.”
“You can only try her,”
said he, rather doubtfully. I think that he would
have preferred, Miss Driver, to cut loose from the
old days altogether. “But, you know, we
can’t call her just ‘Chat.’
It must be short for something?”
“Short for Chatters Miss
Chatters. And she says Chatters is really or
was really Charteris. That’s
pronounced Charters, isn’t it?” She addressed
the last question to me, and I said that I believed
she was right. “I shall get on very well
by myself till she comes.” She questioned
me again. “Do you live in the house?”
“No, I live down at the Old
Priory. But I have my office in the house.”
“Oh, yes. Now, if Mr. Cartmell
must go, will you take me up?”
She stopped a moment, though, to look
at the pictures old Mr. Driver had bought
some good ones and so gave me one word with
Cartmell.
“Depend upon it,” he whispered.
“Chat’s a fool. People who keep telling
you their names ought to be spelt like better names,
when they aren’t, are always fools. Why
don’t they spell ’em that way, or else
let it alone?”
There seemed to be a good deal in that.
Cartmell gone, we went together up
the broad staircase which sprang from the center of
the hall. As we passed a chair, she took off her
hat and flung it down. The rich masses old brown
hair, coiled about her head, caught the sun of a bright
spring afternoon; she ran swiftly and lightly up the
stairs. “Nice, soft, thick, carpet!”
she remarked. I began to perceive that she would
enjoy the incidental luxuries of her new position and
that she did enjoy the one great luxury life.
I fancied that she enjoyed it enormously.
We trod another “nice, soft,
thick, carpet” for the length of a long passage
and came to his door. I opened it, let her pass
in, and was about to close it after her. But
as we reached his room, a sudden shadow of trouble
or of fear had fallen upon her grief it
could hardly be.
“No,” she said. “Come
in, too. Remember he’s a stranger.”
To be in the room with the dead seems
to be itself a partaking of death; it is at least,
for a moment, a suspension of life. Yet the still
welcome is not unfriendly.
She walked toward the bed alone, but
in an instant beckoned to me to follow her. She
bent down and moved the covering. His broad strong
face looked resolute and brave as ever. It looked to
speak truth as hard as ever also.
Her eyes were set on him; suddenly
she caught hold of my hand; “Don’t go.”
I pressed her hand, for I heard her breathing quickly.
I just caught her next words: “He might
have given me a chance!”
“I believe he was sorry about
that at the end.” She shook her head.
“He’s given you a big chance now.”
She nodded, but absently. “How
strange to to be his doing and
he there! And then all this!”
She let go my hand, took a step forward, bent and
kissed his brow quickly. “How cold!”
she murmured and grasped my hand tightly again.
To my fancy she seemed surprised and relieved that
the sleeper did not stir.
We were as I say out
of the world; we were just two creatures, living for
a little while, by the side of a third who lived no
more.
“You shouldn’t kiss him unless you forgive,”
I said.
She kissed him again and drew the sheet over his face.
“He must have been a fine man. I forgive.
Come, let’s go.”
Outside, the world was with us and
I wondering whether that was what I had really said.
At least she seemed to bear me no
ill-will. “Are you free to come for a walk?”
she asked. “I should like some fresh air.”
“Would you like to see the gardens?”
“No that means pottering. Take
me for a good spin.”
By a happy thought I remembered Tor
Hill and took her there. The hill lies at the
extremity of the Priory park, looking down on the road
which separates our dominions from the Fillingford
country; beyond the road the Manor itself can be seen
by glimpses through the woods which surround it.
Catsford lies in the valley to the left; away to the
right, but not in sight, lay Oxley Lodge, and Overington
Grange, the seat of Sir John Aspenick. Here she
could take a bird’s-eye view of her position
and that of her nearest neighbors.
“I’m glad to see Fillingford,”
she remarked. “My father mentioned it in
the earlier part of that letter. He said that
he had wanted to buy it, but Lord Fillingford couldn’t
or wouldn’t sell.”
“His son’s consent was
necessary that’s the present man and
he wouldn’t give it. Indeed the story runs
that he hated Mr. Driver for trying to buy.”
She seemed to take as careful a view
of Fillingford Manor as the distance and the trees
allowed.
“My father seems to have been
sorry he couldn’t buy it. He seemed to
think it might still be sold.”
“Surely you’ve got enough!
And, for my part, I should much prefer the Priory.
It’s muggy down there in the valley though
I believe it’s a very fine house.”
“You’ve not been there?”
“No. We of the Priory have
had small dealings with Fillingford lately. We’ve
kept up the forms of civility but it’s
been very distant. Underneath, there’s
been a kind of silent feud well, more or
less silent; but I daresay that’ll be all over
now.”
“My father wrote ’Possibly
you in your way may succeed better than I in mine.’”
“Fillingford wouldn’t
sell. He’s hard up, but he can get along.
And there’s always the chance of a rich marriage
for his son or even for himself.”
I really spoke without any thought
of a personal reference, but I perceived, directly
afterward, that I might well seem to have made one;
a marriage with Miss Driver would be undoubtedly rich.
She gave no sign, however, of taking my remark in
that sense, unless any inference can be drawn from
her saying, “Oh, he’s a widower?”
“He’s a widower of forty,
or a year or two more and he’s got
a son of about seventeen a very good-looking
lad. His sister, Lady Sarah Lacey, keeps house
for him, and according to local gossip is a bit of
a shrew.”
She began to laugh as she said with
a mock sigh, “One’s too old for me, and
the other’s too young they must look
somewhere else, I’m afraid! And then how
should I get on with the shrew? I’m rather
a shrew myself at least I’ve been
told so.”
“You’d better let them
alone,” I counseled her with a smile.
“Oh, no, I shan’t do that,”
she rejoined with a decisiveness which I began to
recognize as an occasional feature of her speech.
“It’ll be more amusing to see what they’re
like presently. And what of the Dormers?
My father mentioned them.”
“A very nice old couple but I fear
he’s failing.”
A slight grimace dismissed the Dormers
as not holding much interest for her.
“Oh, you won’t want for
neighbors. There are plenty of them, and they’ll
all be tremendously excited about you and will flock
to call as soon as you can receive them.”
“It must seem funny to them.
I suppose they’d never heard of me?”
“I don’t believe any of
them had. Your father had no intimates, unless
Mr. Cartmell can be called one. Besides well,
I’d never heard of you myself!”
“And here we are old friends!” she said
graciously.
“That’s very kind but
you mustn’t think yourself bound to take over
the secretary with the rest of the furniture.”
She looked steadily in my face for
several seconds, seeming to size me up if
I may be allowed the expression. Then she smiled not
gayly, yet again by no means sadly. It was the
smile which I came to call later her mystery smile;
and, as a general rule, it meant in plain
language mischief. Of course, on this
first day I did not attach these associations to it.
It struck me as merely rather curious; as a man talks
to himself, so she seemed to smile to herself, forgetting
her interlocutor.
“Oh, well stay and see how you like
me,” she said.