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Despite Sir Joseph’s very careful reservations in regard to the increase, which unsolicited he had thought fit to make in his chief secretary’s salary, Denis, who was perfectly well aware of his own efficiency, was inclined rather to discount every feature of his master’s generous behaviour, except the covert tribute which he believed it was intended to make to his invaluable services. He knew the business man’s instinctive reluctance to reveal his full appreciation of a subordinate’s worth, and felt he must allow for this. But, on the other hand, in view of Sir Joseph’s intimate relations with the Delarayne household, he was unable altogether to dispel a certain lurking anxiety concerning the baronet’s very precise allusions to the question of marriage, which it was hard to believe could have been altogether gratuitous. This thought was disquieting.

Denis Malster, without being exactly an incurable philanderer, was nevertheless insufficiently commonplace to contemplate marriage, in the Pauline sense, as a necessity. He was much more disposed, at least for the present, to regard it merely as a piquant possibility, towards which his very attitude of indecision lent him an extra weapon of power in his relations with the other sex.

His life, hitherto, had been enjoyable, he thought, simply because it had been an uninterrupted preparation for marriage without the dull certainty of a definite conclusion. To excite interest in the other sex and envy in his own had, ever since he had been a boy of eighteen, constituted the breath of his nostrils, the one spring from which he drew his love of life and his desire to live. Immaculate in his dress, adequately cultivated and intellectual in his speech, and carefully punctilious in the adoption of such amateur pursuits as would be likely to give him the stamp of artistic connoisseurship, he had until now employed his ample income principally in furnishing his extensive wardrobe, in collecting old books and prints, and in giving his chambers that appearance of outre refinement, which was calculated to force his friends to certain inevitable conclusions concerning both his means and the extent of his aesthetic development.

In the circumstances, therefore, it was difficult for him to regard the addition to his income, which Sir Joseph had suddenly thought fit to make, as anything more than a fresh means of indulging his various whims to an even greater degree than he had indulged them heretofore, those whims which had by now become almost driving passions to the exclusion of all else; and he was certainly not in the least disposed to take Sir Joseph at his word, and to embark upon that undertaking which he knew would put an abrupt end to all the careless dalliance in which his clothes, his fastidious speech, and his parade of artistic discrimination played so effective a part.

Such were the thoughts that occupied his mind as he made his way from Lombard Street to his rooms in Essex Court; and by the time he had dressed for dinner and was waiting for a cab in the Strand, a look of fixed determination had settled on his face which was indicative of the firm resolve he had made.

In any case Sir Joseph could not expect him to marry immediately. For a while yet, therefore, he would continue to enjoy the life so full of secret triumphs which he had succeeded in leading ever since he had entered the house of Bullion & Bullion, and from this day with the additional pleasures that his increased income would allow. Had he not been told by Mrs. Delarayne herself that a man should not marry until flappers had ceased to turn round to get a second look at him in the street? And was there not something profoundly wise in this advice, although it had been pronounced in one of the old lady’s most flippant moods? A smile of complacent well-being spread slowly over his features as he recalled this remark, and the last endorsement was mentally affixed to his private plans.

What would Cleopatra Delarayne do? Charitably, almost chivalrously, he imagined, he gave her a thought. Had he led her to hope? Undoubtedly he had. But then he had not resolved never to marry; he had merely determined to postpone the step sine die. Perhaps in a year or two he would come to a definite understanding with Cleopatra. After all, she was only twenty-five. She was an attractive girl, and she would be wealthy. He felt that marriage with her would not be an uninviting conclusion to another year or two of his present delightful existence. Thus he satisfied his conscience and gratified his deepest wishes into the bargain.

He dined alone at the Cafe Royal. It was a sultry evening, and London was still stifling after a sweltering day. One had the feeling that the roofs and masonry of the buildings all about were still burning, as probably they were, with the heat of the sun that had been pouring down upon them all day; and the big city seemed to breathe its hot dust into the face of its inhabitants.

Having nothing better to do, he thought how pleasant it would be to finish the day in Mrs. Delarayne’s cool garden in Kensington, and thither he betook himself after his meal, devoutly hoping that they would be at home.

Cleopatra had evidently been half expecting him, for she appeared in the drawing-room on the heels of the maid who had ushered him in, and gave him a friendly welcome. Mrs. Delarayne had ensconced herself upstairs and did not wish to be disturbed, and at that moment her penetrating voice could be heard conducting what appeared to be a most lively and acrimonious debate with someone unknown across the telephone. So on Denis’s suggestion they went into the garden and installed themselves there in Cleopatra’s favourite bower.

“Rather late for the Warrior to be upbraiding a tradesman,” Denis observed. “I wonder what she can be doing.”

He had nicknamed Mrs. Delarayne “the Warrior” himself. He was sensitive enough to apprehend the strong strain of courage in her character; he had on several occasions been impressed by the tenacious boldness of her claims to youth and by the energy she displayed in keeping up the difficult part, frequently entailing exertions out of all proportion to her bodily vigour; so he had nicknamed her “the Warrior.” But this sobriquet was used only when he and Cleopatra were alone together.

“The poor Warrior is peevish anyhow, you see,” Cleopatra explained. “Baby comes home to-morrow, and if there’s anything that annoys mother to exasperation, it is to have to cluck and fuss round her chick like an old hen. She loathes it, and Baby always makes her feel she must do it.”

Denis pretended to be interested only in a casual way. “What sort of a girl is Baby?” he asked. “Is she like you?”

“I suppose she is like me to the same extent that I am like the Warrior,” the girl replied. “But she’s most like the Warrior herself. Imagine my mother at the age of seventeen and you know my sister. Surely you have seen that old photograph of the Warrior as a girl in the drawing-room? It is simply Baby over again, or rather vice versa.”

“I must look at it,” said Denis thoughtfully.

“In fact they are so much alike,” Cleopatra proceeded, “that they know each other inside out, and annoy each other accordingly.”

“They don’t get on well then?” he enquired.

“Oh, yes, but Baby’s a little trying at times. You see, she will forget for instance that we call mother Edith, and have done ever since father died; and she will suddenly shout Mother! out loud on crowded railway platforms, or at the Academy, or worse still at garden parties, which always gives the Warrior one of those nervous attacks for which she has to go to Lord Henry.”

Denis started almost imperceptibly at the mention of Lord Henry’s name, and turned an interested face towards the girl. “Do you know Lord Henry?” he asked.

“No, I don’t. There are some men the Warrior knows whom she never introduces to me. I feel as if I knew Lord Henry very well indeed, but I have never met him.”

“You haven’t lost much,” Denis snapped.

“I beg your pardon?” Cleopatra exclaimed, smiling kindly but deprecatingly, and arching her neck a little, as she scented the injustice behind his remark.

“He dresses abominably,” Denis pursued, “and from what I can gather is benighted enough to believe in our beheaded sovereign Charles I.”

“He must be very able though,” the girl objected. “It isn’t often, is it, that our aristocracy distinguish themselves? And d’you know that he is a Fellow of the Royal Society entirely on the strength of his original research into the subject of modern nervous disorders?”

Denis pouted and smiled with an ostentatious show of incredulity. “He’s the son of the Marquis of Firle, remember!”

“Oh, but I don’t believe that’s got anything to do with it honestly!” she retorted.

Cleopatra knew her mother as well as any daughter has ever known her parent; she could have compiled a catalogue of Mrs. Delarayne’s foibles more exhaustive and elaborate than any that Mrs. Delarayne’s worst enemies could have produced; but, on the other hand, she had so often found her mother a safe guide where her fellow creatures were concerned, and had thus acquired so deep a faith in her mother’s judgment, that it was hard for her to believe that in the matter of Lord Henry the Warrior could be mistaken.

She regarded her companion for some moments in silence. He was cutting a cigar, and failed to notice that she was observing him.

Certainly he was very sleek and smart, and showed that perfect efficiency in all he did which betokens general ability. What was it then that gave her a little pang of doubt whenever she was moved by an impulse to look up to him? His voice, it is true, was thin and a trifle high-pitched, always a bad sign in a man, but she would have overlooked all his shortcomings if only her craving to revere where she loved had been sufficiently gratified. He was beyond all question the best type of man who had hitherto paid her attention. Others, perhaps, might have been more manly; but then they had been clumsy, heavy, and puerile, and had, above all, lacked that air of complete efficiency which was perhaps Denis’s greatest asset.

She thought herself foolish for expecting too much from life, and without any effort turned a kindly smiling face to her visitor.

“The Warrior!” he ejaculated suddenly, blowing sharp strong puffs from his cigar; and he was either annoyed or made a good pretence of it.

Yes, there, indeed, was Mrs. Delarayne, stalking majestically up the garden, and from the way she glanced rapidly from side to side, and grabbed at her frock, it was plain that she was in none too pleasant a mood.

Denis rose when she was about four yards from them.

She glanced quickly at Cleopatra, seemed to notice the perfect serenity of both young people with marked dissatisfaction, rapidly recorded the fact that her daughter’s hair was utterly undisturbed, and smiled grimly. “Evidently things have taken their usual course,” she mused. “He had not even attempted to kiss her!”

“Don’t you think you two people are rather silly to sit out here doing nothing?” she demanded irascibly.

“It’s so delightfully cool,” Denis protested.

“Yes, too cool!” snapped the old lady with a deliberate glance at her daughter, which was intended to convey the full meaning of her words.

Cleopatra moved impatiently. Her mother always made her feel so miserably defective, and this was hard to forgive.

Mrs. Delarayne settled herself elegantly in a wicker chair, took a cigarette from a case, and snapped the case to with a decisive click. She looked hot and a little tired, and as Denis proffered her a light he noticed the beads of perspiration amid the powder round her eyes.

“I’ve had the most tiresome evening imaginable,” she croaked.

“I thought so,” said her daughter. “We heard you.”

“Really men are most ridiculous cowards,” she cried, frowning hard at Denis. “There’s Sir Joseph, for instance. He’s failed ignominiously with Lord Henry; has been unable to induce him to give up his absurd mission to China, and instead of coming here to tell me all about it, he keeps me thirty-five minutes brawling at him over the ’phone in this heat, simply because he daren’t face me!”

Denis stretched out his legs before him and clasped his hands at the back of his head. This was a signal, well known to the women, that a long analytical speech was to follow, and Mrs. Delarayne looked wearily away, as if to imply before the start that she was not in the least interested.

“It’s all organisation nowadays,” Denis began. “If you can organise your machinery with the help of good subordinates, the trick is done. And since Sir Joseph simply exudes lubricants, everything works smoothly and successfully. He

“Don’t talk of exuding lubricants in this weather, please!” Mrs. Delarayne interrupted. “I suffer from the heat almost as badly as butter.”

It was becoming clear to Cleopatra that her mother was for some reason intent on chastising their visitor, and she watched the interesting woman before her with her filial feeling in almost complete abeyance. The children of remarkable parents frequently do this after they have turned a certain age. It is not disrespect, but merely absent-mindedness.

It was almost dark now, and Denis noticed Mrs. Delarayne’s fine profile outlined against the lighted rooms of the house. There was a sadness delineated on her handsome, aristocratic face, which, as he had observed before, was to be seen only when her features were quite still. Could this apparently gay widow still be mourning her husband? Denis was sufficiently romantic and ill-informed to imagine this just possible.

“So the interview between Sir Joseph and Lord Henry was a failure?” he enquired trying to be sympathetic.

“Yes, of course,” Mrs. Delarayne rejoined, flinging her cigarette into the bushes at her side. “And I do so hate the idea of going out to China.”

Cleopatra laughed. “But, Edith, surely you don’t really mean that you’ll go to China if Lord Henry goes?”

Denis glanced quickly at Cleopatra and in his eyes she read the supercilious message: “People of our generation could not be so foolish.”

“You don’t flatter yourself, Cleo, I hope,” Mrs. Delarayne retorted icily, “that I say these things to amuse you and Denis, do you?”

Cleopatra signified by a glance directed at Denis that she did not like the message in his eyes, and regretting the laugh with which she had opened her last remark, she turned conciliatingly to her mother.

“I’d go with you, Edith dear, if you wanted me to,” she said.

For the first time since he had made their acquaintance Denis began to have the shadow of an understanding of the depth of these two women’s attachment to each other, and he bowed his head.

“Thank you, Cleo,” Mrs. Delarayne replied after satisfying herself that there was not a trace of insincerity either in the voice or features of her daughter. “We’ll see.”

She rose, smoothed down the front of her frock with a few rapid gestures, and turned to the younger people.

“Come on!” she said. “You and I cannot afford to lose our beauty sleep, Cleo. Two hours before midnight, you know the time, and it’s now half-past nine.”

Evidently Mrs. Delarayne intended to be rude to Denis. Sir Joseph had told her something across the telephone, and she had expected a result which had not occurred.

The following morning after breakfast Mrs. Delarayne as usual retired to the bureau in the library where every day she devoted at least thirty minutes to her housekeeping duties.

Silently on this occasion Cleopatra followed in her wake, and pretending to be in search of a book, lingered in her mother’s company longer than was her wont after the morning meal. Book after book was taken down from the shelves, perfunctorily examined and returned to its place. Once or twice the girl looked towards her mother, possibly in the hope that the elder woman would provide the opening to the subject that was uppermost in both their minds. At last Cleopatra spoke.

“Baby comes home to-day,” she said, in a voice strained to appear cheerful.

Mrs. Delarayne looked up from a tradesman’s book. “Yes,” she sighed wearily. “One of Sir Joseph’s cars is coming to fetch us at half-past two. The train reaches King’s Cross at three. Will you come?”

“Of course, rather!” Cleopatra exclaimed, taking down another book and examining it cursorily.

There was silence again, and Cleopatra could be heard running quickly through the pages of the volume she held.

“What is Baby going to do?” she asked after a while.

“Don’t ask me!” exclaimed the mother.

“Haven’t you any plans?” the daughter enquired with studied indifference, her eyes wandering vacantly over the letter-press before them.

“Plans what plans?” ejaculated the old lady. “I suppose the poor child will have to put up with us now. You don’t suppose we can send her gadding about the Continent again?”

“I didn’t dream of any such thing!” Cleopatra protested a little guiltily.

“No, I promised her that she should come home for good after the School of Domesticity, and she expects it. You saw what she said in her last letter.”

“Naturally,” Cleopatra added, closing her book and replacing it hurriedly on the shelves.

“We’ll have to put up with it that’s all, my dear. I hope she won’t be too trying. But you must really help me a little by taking her off my hands, particularly on my Bridge and ‘Inner Light’ days.”

Cleopatra cast a glance full of meaning at her mother, and quietly left the room. She had heard all she wanted to hear.

Meanwhile, the subject of this conversation, ensconced comfortably in the corner of a first-class carriage, was speeding rapidly towards London.

Looking remarkably at her ease in a smart tailor-made frock of navy serge, silk stockings, suede shoes, and a perfect summer hat trimmed with bright cherries as red as her lips, she sat amid a farraginous medley of newspapers, small parcels, and shiny leather traps, and presented an attractive picture of a flourishing schoolgirl of seventeen, careless, mischievous, and keenly, though discreetly, interested in everything about her; but, perhaps a little too healthy, and certainly too beautiful, to be quite typical either of the class or of the kind of school from which she hailed.

Her large dark eyes, veiled by unusually long lashes, looked sharply at you and then quickly turned away, with that air of mystery and secrecy, and love of secrets at all costs even mock secrets peculiar to the young virgin of all climes. Occasionally in glancing away they would half close in a thoughtful smile, which, to the uninitiated, unaware of the irrepressible spirits of their owner, was as unaccountable as it was provoking.

There was an air of childhood still clinging, as if from habit alone, to the outward insignia of maturity, in this mercurial, magnetic, and undaunted young person; and in her malicious elfish eyes could be read the solemn determination to force every possible claim that her double advantage, as child and adult, could, according to the occasion, uphold.

Her thick dark hair did not hang down her back in the rich spiral curl which is now becoming so common among schoolgirls; for that it was too plentiful, too troublesomely luxuriant. It hung like heavy bronze in a thick stiff plait a badge both of her robust youth and the redundant richness of her blood, and at its extremity it was tied with a broad ribbon of black silk. Beneath her hat, bold festoons of hair reached down almost to her eyebrows, and to these portions of her coiffure she constantly applied her soft shapely sun-tanned fingers, as if to reassure herself that they were keeping their proper position.

The roguish expression of her face was partly due to pure health and partly to wanton spirits, and her features possessed that exceptional animation which, even in the simple process of eating a fondant, produced the impression of extreme mobility.

Having long previously examined her fellow-passengers and judged them uninteresting, she divided her attention between the fleeting landscape at her side, a box of fruit creams, which she was consuming with grave perseverance, and the contents of a pocket-portfolio, which she appeared to be slowly sorting and weeding out. To everything she did, however, to each one of her movements, she had the air of imparting so much mysteriousness, so much elaborate secrecy, that she soon found herself the object of the united attention of all her companions. And occasionally when her fresh full lips parted in a smile at the things she read, the old gentleman opposite her had to turn also to the fleeting landscape as a prophylactic against the infection of her high spirits.

She gave the impression of that aggressive vitality with which Nature seems deliberately to equip her more favoured female children at this age, as if to challenge the other sex to a definite attitude immediately. A quivering freshness the “bloom” of the poets gave a soft shimmer to her skin of which the powder of later years is such a palpably poor travesty; her limbs were nicely rounded and not too fragile; her teeth, like Cleopatra’s, were perfect, and although she was a trifle smaller than her sister, she was broad across the shoulders, and well developed.

Leonetta, as we have already seen, knew that she was attractive; but she did not know this fact as surely and unmistakably as say, a philosopher looking at her did. She probably knew that she was sunburnt, for instance; but she was not aware of the depth which the dark natural virginal pigmentation of her neck, eyes, and knuckles, lent to the warm tanning of her skin. She did not know how prone the philosopher is to associate the combination of these two rich colourings with the wicked, dusky denizens of a tropical jungle those creatures whose blood he suspects of being something deeper than red, who really look as if they were made from the earth and were going back to it, and who have nothing of that translucent pallor suggestive of heaven-sent and heaven-destined attributes.

She probably knew her dark eyes were fine and that their lashes were long; but she would have been surprised and perhaps even a little hurt if she had been told that their most striking feature was that, to every man, modest and shrewd enough to divine all that they could exact, they were terrifying. She knew her teeth were faultless; but she did not even suspect the thrill of pained joy that went through the philosopher’s frame when he saw the life-hunger they revealed, and, what was more, the full deep bite and fast hold they would take of Life’s entrails. A young girl’s canines are self-revelatory in this respect. Let them be big and prominent, as Leonetta’s were, and the fastness of her hold on Life, once she has bitten, promises to break all records. The sensitive philosopher has little patience with your fair delicate misses with small mouse-like canines. There are too many of them to begin with, and they are so instinctively ladylike.

Perhaps the most amusing thing in this world is to watch the antics of a large-canined virgin de bonne famille who is trying to be a lady, by “lady” is here meant someone who, among other parlour tricks, can perform the feat of “controlling” her feelings, who has, that is to say, on the one hand “control” and on the other hand “feelings,” and whose feelings are weaker than her control.

Leonetta’s highly pigmented and sunburnt fingers suddenly ceased their twofold activity with the box of fondants and the pocket-portfolio of secret papers, and held a letter long and steadily before her eyes. Again the old gentleman opposite turned to the landscape of fields on his right, and his loose lips worked ominously. The fixity of those keen eyes with their tell-tale slight inward squint, as she studied the letter, proved too much for him, particularly when she began to smile; and his glance wandered desperately to the country he was traversing, in the cool, pallid British greenness of which he found relief.

Evidently the letter was a piece of life, for Leonetta was now in deadly earnest, pinching her beautiful tawny neck thoughtfully here and there with her free hand, as she read, and breathing deeply. Her glance travelled rapidly, too, over certain passages, and would then stop dead, sometimes in order to allow a smile to dawn, sometimes to wander a moment to frown at the country-side. Evidently certain portions of the letter were quite uninteresting, or else she knew them by heart.

The letter she read was as follows:

“My own dearest Leo,

“Oh, how I miss you already! But I shan’t be the only one! That’s some comfort. Think of church now without your dreadful remarks about all the still more dreadful people. I know one or two who are not going to church any more now. Don’t you feel ashamed of yourself? Don’t you ever feel ashamed of yourself? And the river on Wednesdays, and the park on Saturday afternoons! The place will be dead. It will be a vast waste. You told me to make up to Dorothy Garforth. But she’s not you. She’ll never have the pluck to talk to strange young men about their motor bikes or their horses and things. You were a wonder! Still my own dear Leo, you promised to invite me up to London to meet your people, didn’t you, and don’t you dare to forget. I shall pine away here if you do.

“I must tell you something that happened last night. Well, I met Charlie as I was coming home from saying good-bye to you. He was desolate. You really have been a little cruel. He said you gave him back his match-box and gold pencil, and that that meant you did not want anything more to do with him. He said he had been waiting behind the usual shrubbery in the park for two hours, for a long last good-bye and that you never turned up. I know what you mean about him, that he isn’t smart and clean and all that, but he is rather nice all the same. Almost the best we knew. I think the hair on his hands, as you pointed out, made up for a heap of other shortcomings in him. But I know what you mean. He’s a little rough and there’s an end of it. I thought of telling him to write to you; but then it struck me you would not like him to. He said you were a flirt, and that you would only have a rich man. I said it wasn’t that a bit, that he had quite misunderstood you. I couldn’t tell him the truth, could I? that he wasn’t altogether ‘toothsome,’ as you call it. He said he had seen us talking to that motor-cyclist fellow in the park last Saturday, and that proved it. I said it proved nothing, because we did not know then that he was one of the wealthiest boys in the county. However he seemed very bitter.

“Did you really give him so much encouragement? Of course men do think it a lot if you let them kiss you. Aren’t they stupid? They can’t understand that even if one does not love them overmuch one wants to know what it’s like. And you did like pretending you were deeply in love, didn’t you now? all the time? I tell you who’ll be glad you’ve gone, Alice Dewlap. She was sweet on Charlie long before you met him, because Kitty told me so.

“Oh, Leo, you were a wicked creature, a regular godsend! What shall we do without you! Do ask me to come soon. That’s cool, isn’t it? Asking for an invitation. But you know what I mean. Think of me in church next Sunday. Good Lord deliver us! Tell me what to say to Charlie if he bothers me about you again. And don’t forget to tell me all that happens in London. Describe all the men you meet minutely, you know to the smallest detail as you used to here. You taught me to notice heaps of things I should never have thought of.

“Good-bye my dearest treasure-trove, with heaps of love and
kisses.

“Yours for ever and ever,

“Nessy.”

The old gentleman lost sight of Leonetta during the lunch interval; but when she returned from the restaurant car, slightly flushed, and her eyelids lazily drooping, he concluded that she had probably partaken heartily of the good fare provided, more particularly as a few stray crumbs still clung about the corners of her lips, betraying to his experienced eye the unconscious eagerness which healthy people habitually show over their meals. Wisely he did not infer from these evidences of a youthful and unimpaired appetite that she was slovenly in her table manners, because the unmistakable gentleness of her upbringing precluded any such possibility. The observation merely confirmed his general impression of her, and left him pondering over the relationship of daintiness to health.

Drowsily the girl re-opened the letter which she had been perusing before the luncheon hour, and re-read it once or twice; then dropping it listlessly upon her lap, she turned upon her fellow-passengers a look of such guileless interest that they might have been excused had they been moved by that compassion, so frequently unwarranted, for innocence on the threshold of Life’s great adventure.

The letter she held had been brought to her that morning by Vanessa’s maid. Leonetta and Vanessa had made friends the moment they first met, and when Vanessa, duly qualified, had left the School of Domesticity, about six months after Leonetta’s arrival there, they had continued to see each other outside its walls. There was a difference of only a year in their ages, Vanessa being the elder; but the younger girl with her greater keenness of vision, more exuberant health and spirits, and more resolute unscrupulosity, had so carried the heart of the other by storm that it was Vanessa, the provincial termagant, who looked up to and worshipped her sister dare-devil of the Metropolis, and who watched her for her every cue.

The train was nearing London; already the coquettish veil of smoke with which the “hub of the Universe” conceals the full horror of her ugliness from the eyes of critics, gave the summer sky a murky yellow tinge. Leonetta yawned, glanced across the vast city which she hoped would hence-forward be her home, and then suddenly recollecting that her mother and sister would probably be at King’s Cross to meet her, quickly folded the letter that was lying on her lap and relegated it to one of the interstices of her pocket-portfolio.