When the sea retreats after a storm
one finds on the beach all sorts of strange flotsam.
Bernard Clowes was a bit of human wreckage left on
the sands of society by the storm of the war.
When it broke out he was a second lieutenant in the
Winchester Regiment, a keen polo player and first
class batsman who rarely opened a book. He was
sent out with the First Division and carried himself
with his usual phlegmatic good humour through almost
four years of fighting from Mons to Cambrai.
In the March break-through he had
his wrist broken by a rifle-bullet and was invalided
home, where he took advantage of his leave to get
married, partly because most of the men he knew were
already married, and partly to please his sister.
There were no other brothers, and Mrs. Morrison, a
practical lady, but always a little regretful of her
own marriage with Morrison’s Boot and Shoe Company,
recommended him with the family bluntness to arrange
for an olive branch before the Huns got him.
Laura, a penniless woman two years
his senior and handicapped by her disreputable belongings,
was not the wife Gertrude Morrison would have chosen
for him: still it might have been worse, for
Laura was well-born and personally irreproachable,
while Clowes, hot-blooded and casual, was as likely
as not to have married a chorus-girl. If any
disappointment lingered, Gertrude soothed it by trying
over in her own mind the irritation that she would
be able to produce in Morrison circles: “Where
he met her? Oh, when she was staying with her
married sister at Castle Wharton . . . .Yvonne, the
elder Selincourt girl, married into the Bendish family.”
Bernard did not care a straw either
for the paternal handicap or for the glories of the
Wharton connection. He took his love-affair
as simply as his cricket and with the same bold confidence.
Laura was what he wanted; she would fit into her surroundings
at Wanhope as delicately as an old picture fits into
an old frame, and one could leave her about so
he put it to himself without fear of her
getting damaged. When Tom Morrison, shrewd business
man, dropped a hint about the rashness of marrying
the daughter of a scamp like Ferdinand Selincourt,
Bernard merely stared at him and let the indiscretion
go in silence. He can scarcely be said to have
loved his bride, for up to the time of the wedding
his nature was not much more developed than that of
a prize bull, but he considered her a very pretty
woman, and his faith in her was a religion.
So they were married, and went to
Eastbourne for their honeymoon: an average match,
not marked by passion on either side, but destined
apparently to an average amount of comfort and good
will. They had ten gay days before Laura was
left on a victoria platform, gallantly smiling
with pale lips and waving her handkerchief after the
train that carried Bernard back to the front.
Five months later on the eve of the
Armistice he was flung out of the service, a broken
man, paralysed below the waist, cursing every one
who came near him and chiefly the surgeons for not
letting him die. No one ever desired life more
passionately than Bernard desired death. For
some time he clung to the hope that his mind would
wear his body out. But his body was too young,
too strong, too tenacious of earth to be betrayed by
the renegade mind.
There came a day when Clowes felt
his youth welling up in him like sap in a fallen tree:
new energy throbbed in his veins, his heart beat strong
and even, it was hard to believe that he could not
get off his bed if he liked and go down to the playing
fields or throw his leg over a horse. This mood
fastened on him without warning in a Surbiton hospital
after a calm night without a sleeping draught, when
through his open window he could see green branches
waving in sunlight, and hear the cries of men playing
cricket and the smack of the driven ball: and
it was torture. Tears forced their way suddenly
into Bernard’s eyes. His nurse, who had
watched not a few reluctant recoveries, went out of
the room. Then his great chest heaved, and he
sobbed aloud, lying on his back with face unhidden,
his wide black eyes blinking at the sweet pale June
sky. No chance of death for him: he was
good for ten, twenty, fifty years more: he could
not bear it, but it had to be borne. He tried
to pull himself up: if he could only have reached
the window! But the arms that felt so strong
were as weak as an infant’s, while the dead
weight of his helpless legs dragged on him like lead.
The only result of his struggle was a dreadful access
of pain. Reaction followed, for he had learnt
in his A B C days not to whimper when he was hurt,
and by the time the nurse returned Clowes had scourged
himself back to his usual savage tranquillity.
“Can I have that window shut, please?”
he asked, cynically frank. “I used to play
cricket myself.”
Laura Clowes in this period went through
an experience almost equally formative. Two years
older than Bernard, she was also more mature for her
years and had developed more evenly, and from the
outset her engagement and marriage had meant more to
her then to Bernard, because her girlhood had been
unhappy and they provided a way of escape. Her
sister Yvonne had met Jack Bendish at a race-meeting
and he had fallen madly in love with her and married
her in a month in the teeth of opposition. That
was luck heaven-sent luck, for Yvonne on
the night before her marriage had broken down utterly
and confessed that if Jack had not saved her she would
have gone off with the first man who asked her on
any terms, because she was twenty-nine and sick to
death of wandering with her father on the outskirts
of society. Subsequently Yvonne had after a hard
fight won a footing at Wharton for herself and her
sister, and there Laura had met Clowes, not such a
social prize as Jack, but rich and able to give his
wife an assured position. She was shrewd and
realized that in himself he had little to offer beyond
a handsome and highly trained physique and a mind
that worked lucidly within the limits of a narrow
imagination but she was beyond all words grateful to
him, and he fascinated her more than she realized.
The ten days at Eastbourne opened
her eyes. Bernard enjoyed every minute of them
and was exceedingly pleased with himself and proud
of his wife, but for Laura they were a time of heavy
strain. Innocent and shy, she had feared her
husband, only to discover that she loved him better
than he was capable of loving her. Laura was
not blind. She understood Bernard and all his
limitations, the dangerous grip that his passions had
of him, his boyish impatience, his wild-bull courage,
and his inability to distinguish between a wife and
a mistress: she was happiest when he slept, always
holding her in his arms, exacting even in sleep, but
so naively youthful in the bloom of his four and twenty
summers, and, for the moment, all her own. She
loved him “because I am I because
you are you,” and her tenderness was edged with
the profound pity that women felt in those days for
the men who came to them under the shadow of death.
It was her hope that the strong half-developed nature
would grow to meet her need. It grew swiftly
enough: in the forcing-house of pain he soon
learned to think and to feel: but the change did
not lead him to his wife’s heart.
Laura had married a man of a class
and apparently normal to a fault: she found herself
united now to incarnate storm and tempest. The
first time she saw him at Surbiton, he drove her out
in five minutes with curses and insult. Why?
Laura, wandering about half-stunned in the visitors’
room, had no idea why. She stumbled against
the furniture: she looked at the photographs
of Windermere and King’s College Chapel and the
Nursing Staff on the walls: she took up Punch
and began to read it. Laura was no dreamer,
she had never doubted that her husband would rather
have the use of his legs again than all the feminine
devotion in the world, but she had hoped to soothe
him, perhaps for a little while to make him forget:
it had not crossed her mind that her anguish of love
and service would be rejected. Enlightenment
was like folding a sword to her breast.
By and by his nurse came down to her,
a young hard-looking woman with tired eyes.
She had little comfort to give, but what she gave
Laura never forgot, because it was the truth without
any conventional or sentimental gloss. “You’re
having a bad time with him, aren’t you?”
she said, coldly sympathetic. “It won’t
last. Nothing lasts. You mustn’t
think he’s left off caring for you. I
expect he was very fond of you, wasn’t he?
That’s the trouble. Some men take invalid
life nicely and let their wives fuss over them to
their hearts’ content, but Major Clowes is one
of those tremendously strong masculine men that always
want to be top dog. Besides, you’re young
and pretty, if you don’t mind my saying so,
and you remind him of what he’s done out of .
. . Twenty-four, isn’t he? Don’t
give way, Mrs. Clowes, you’ve a long road before
you; these paralysis cases are a frightful worry,
almost as bad for the friends as they are for the patient;
but if you play up it’ll get better instead of
worse. He’ll get used to it and so will
you. One gets used to anything.”
Even so: time goes on and storms
subside. Bernard Clowes came out of the hospital
and he and his wife settled down on friendly terms
after all. “It’s not what you bargained
for when you married me,” said the cripple with
his hard smile. “However, it’s no
good crying over spilt milk, and you must console yourself
with the fact that there’s still plenty of money
going. But I wish we’d had a little more
time together first.” He pierced her with
his black eyes, restless and fiery. “I
dare say you would have liked a boy. So should
I. Nevermind, my girl, you shan’t miss much
else.”
Wanhope, the family property, was
buried deep in Wiltshire, three or four miles from
a station. Laura liked the country: Wanhope
let it be, then: and Wanhope it was, with the
additional advantage that Yvonne was at Castle Wharton
within a stroll. Laura liked a wide house and
airy rooms, a wide garden, plenty of land, privacy
from her neighbours: all this Wanhope gave her,
no slight relief to a girl who had been brought up
between Brighton and Monte Carlo. The place was
too big to be run without an agent? No drawback,
the agent: on the contrary, Clowes looked out
for a fellow who would be useful to Laura, a gentleman,
an unmarried man, who would be available to ride with
her or make a fourth at bridge and there
by good luck was Val Stafford ready to hand.
Born and reared in the country, though young and
untrained, Val brought to his job a wide casual knowledge
of local conditions and a natural head for business,
and was only too glad to squire Laura in the hunting
field. For Laura must hunt: as Laura Selincourt
she had hunted whenever she was offered a mount, and
she was to go on doing as she had always done.
Laura would rather not have hunted, for the freshness
of her youth was gone and the strain of her life left
her permanently tired, and she pleaded first expense,
then propriety. “Don’t be a damned
fool,” replied Bernard Clowes. So Laura
went riding with Val Stafford.
“Come in,” said Major
Clowes in a rasping snarl, and Laura came into her
husband’s room and stumbled over a chair.
The windows were shuttered and the room was still
dark at eleven o’clock of a fine June morning.
Laura, irrepressibly annoyed, groped her way through
a disorder of furniture, which seemed, as furniture
always does in the dark, to be out of place and malevolently
full of corners, and without asking leave flung down
a shutter and flung up a window. In a field
across the river they were cutting hay, and the dry
summer smell of it breathed in, and with it the long
rolling whirr of a haymaking machine and its periodical
clash, most familiar of summer noises. And the
June daylight lit up the gaunt body of Bernard Clowes
stretched out on a water mattress, his silk jacket
unbuttoned over his strong, haggard throat.
“Really, Berns,” said Laura, flinging down
a second shutter, “I don’t wonder you
sleep badly. The room is positively stuffy!
I should have a racking headache if I slept in it.”
“Well, you don’t, you
see,” Bernard replied politely. “Stop
pulling those blinds about. Come over here.”
Laura came to him. “Kiss me,” said
Clowes, and she laid her cool lips on his cheek.
Clowes received her kiss passively: even Laura,
though she understood him pretty well, never was
sure whether he made her kiss him because he liked
it or because he thought she did not like it.
“Where are you off to now?”
asked Clowes, pushing her away: “you look
very smart. I like that cotton dress. It
is cotton, isn’t it?” he rubbed the fabric
gingerly between his finger and thumb. “Did
Catherine make it? That girl is a jewel.
I like that gipsy hat too, it’s a pretty shape
and it shades your eyes. I call that sensible,
which can’t often be said for a woman’s
clothes. You have good eyes, Laura, well worth
shading, though your figure is your trump card.
I like these fitting bodices that give a woman a
chance to show what shape she is. All you Selincourt
women score in evening gowns. Yvonne has a topping
figure, though she’s an ugly little devil.
She has an American complexion and her eyes aren’t
as good as yours. Where did you say you were
going?”
“To the station to meet Lawrence.
I promised to fetch him in the car.”
“Lawrence? So he’s
due today, is he? I’d forgotten all about
him. And you’re meeting him? Oh yes,
that explains the dress and hat, I thought you wouldn’t
have put them on for my benefit.”
“Dear, it’s only one of
the cotton frocks I wear every day, and I couldn’t
go driving without a hat, could I?”
“Can’t conceive why you
want to go at all.” Laura was silent.
“If Lawrence must be met, why can’t Miller
go alone?” Miller was the chauffeur. “Undignified,
I call it, the way you women run after a man nowadays.
You think men like it but they don’t.”
Laura wondered if she dared tell him
not to be silly. He might take it with a grin,
in which case he would probably relent and let her
go: or ? The field of alternative
conjecture was wide. In the end Laura, whose
knee was still aching from her adventure with the
chair, decided to chance it. But perhaps
because they were suffused with irritation the
words had no sooner left her lips than she regretted
them.
“I won’t have it.”
Bernard’s heavy jaw was clenched like a bloodhound’s.
“It’s not decent running after Hyde while
I’m tied here by the leg. I won’t
have you set all the village talking. There’s
the Times on my table. Stop. Where are you
going?”
“To ring the bell. It’s
time Miller started. You don’t want your
cousin to find no one there to meet him not
even a cart for his luggage.”
“He can walk. Do him good:
and Miller can fetch the luggage afterwards.
You do as I tell you. Take the Times.
Sit down in that chair with your face to the light
and read me the leading articles and the rest of the
news on Page 7. Don’t gabble: read
distinctly if you can you’re supposed
to be an educated woman, aren’t you?”
Poor Laura had been looking forward
to her drive. She had taken some innocent pleasure
in choosing the prettiest of her morning dresses,
a gingham that fell into soft folds the colour of a
periwinkle, and in rearranging the liberty scarf on
her drooping gipsy straw, and in putting on her long
fringed gauntlets and little country shoes.
Her husband’s compliments made her wince, Jack
Bendish had eyes only for his wife, Val Stafford’s
admiration was sweet but indiscriminate: but she
remembered Lawrence as a connoisseur. And worse
than the sting of her own small disappointment were
the breaking of her promise to Lawrence, the failure
in hospitality, in common courtesy.
And for the thousandth time Laura
wondered whether it would not have been better for
Bernard, in the long run, to defy his senseless tyranny.
He was at her mercy: it would have been easy
to defy him. Easy, but how cruel! A trained
nurse would have made short work of Bernard’s
whims, he would have been washed and brushed and fed
and exercised and disregarded till he died
under it? Perhaps. It was safer at all
events to let him go his own way. He could never
hope to command his regiment now: let him get
what satisfaction he could out of commanding his wife!
She would have preferred a form of sacrifice which
looked less like fear, but there was little sentiment
in Bernard, and love must not pick and choose.
For it was love still, the old inexplicable fascination:
in the middle of one of his tirades, when he was at
his most wayward, she would lose herself in the contemplation
of some small physical trait, the scar of a burn on
his wrist or the tiny trefoil-shaped birthmark on his
temple, as if that summed up for her the essence of
his personality, and were more truly Bernard Clowes
then his intemperate insignificance of speech. . .
. Even when others suffered for it she yielded
to Bernard, because she loved him and because he suffered
so infinitely worse than they.
For denial maddened him. He
raised himself on his arm, crimson with anger, his
chest heaving under the thin silken jacket which defined
his gaunt ribs “Sit down, will you,
damn you?” Because Laura believed that she and
she only stood between her husband and despair, she
yielded and began to read out the Times leader in
a voice that was perfectly gentle and placid.
Bernard sank back and watched her
like a cat after a mouse. He was under no delusion:
he knew she was not cowed or nervous, but that the
spring of her devotion was pity pity ever
fed anew by his dreadful helplessness: and it
was this knowledge that drove him into brutality.
The instincts of possession and domination were strong
in him, and but for the accident that wrenched his
mind awry he would probably have made himself a king
to Laura, for, once her master, he would have grown
more gentle and more tender as the years went by,
while Laura was one of those women who find happiness
in love and duty: not a weak woman, not a coward,
but a humble-minded woman with no great opinion of
her own judgment, who would have liked to look up
to father, brother, sister, husband, as better and
wiser than herself. But in his present avatar
he could not master her: and Clowes, feeling as
she felt, seeing himself as she saw him, came sometimes
as near madness as any man out of an asylum.
He was not far off it now, though he lay quiet enough,
with not one grain of expression in his cold black
eyes.
The 11:39 pulled up at Countisford
station, and Lawrence Hyde got out of a first class
smoking carriage and stood at ease, waiting for his
servant to come and look after him. “There’ll
be a car waiting from Wanhope, Gaston
“Zere no car ’ere, M’sieu ze
man say.”
“What, no one to meet me?”
Evidently no one: there were not half a dozen
people on the flower-bordered platform, and those few
were country folk with bundles and bags. Lawrence
strolled out into the yard, hoping that his servant’s
incorrigibly lame English might have led to a misunderstanding.
But there was no vehicle of any kind, and the station
master could not recommend a cab. Countisford
was a small village, smaller even than Chilmark, and
owed the distinction of the railway solely to its
being in the flat country under the Plain. “But
you don’t mean to say,” said Lawrence
incredulous, “that I shall have to walk?”
But it seemed there was no help for
it, unless he preferred to sit in the station while
a small boy on a bicycle was despatched to Chilmark
for the fly from the Prince of Wales’s Feathers;
and in the end Lawrence went afoot, though his expression
when faced with four miles of dusty road would have
moved pity in any heart but that of his little valet.
Hyde was one of those men who change their habits
when they change their clothes. He did not care
what happened to him when he was out of England, following
the Alaskan trail in eighty degrees of frost, or thrashing
round the Horn in a tramp steamer, but when he shaved
off his beard, and put on silk underclothing and the
tweeds of Sackville Street, he grew as lazy as
any flaneur of the pavement. Gaston however
was not sympathetic. He was always glad when anything
unpleasant happened to his master.
Leaving Gaston to sit on the luggage,
Lawrence swung off with his long even stride, flicking
with his stick at the bachelor’s buttons in
the hedge. He could not miss his way, said the
station master: straight down the main road for
a couple of miles, then the first turning on the left
and the first on the left again. Some half a
mile out of Countisford however Lawrence came on a
signpost and with the traveller’s instinct stopped
to read it:
So ran the clear lettering on the
southern arm. Eastwards a much more weatherbeaten
arm, pointing crookedly up a stony cart track, said
in dim brown characters: “Chilmark
2 M.” Plainly a short cut over the moor!
Better stones underfoot than padded dust: and
Lawrence struck uphill swiftly, glad to escape from
the traffic of the London road. But he knew
too much about short cuts to be surprised when, after
climbing five hundred feet in twice as many yards for
the gradients off the Plain are steep he
found himself adrift on the open moor, his track going
five ways at once in the light dry grass.
He halted, leaning on his stick.
He was on the edge of the Plain: below him stretched
away a great half-ring of cultivated country, its
saliencies the square tower of a church jutting over
a group of elms, or the glint of light on a stream,
or pale haystacks dotted round the disorderly yard
of a grange the tillage and the quiet dwellings
of close on a thousand years. On all this Lawrence
Hyde looked with the reflective smile of an alien.
It touched him, but to revolt. More than a child
of the soil he felt the charm of its tranquillity,
but he felt it also as an oppression, a limitation:
an ordered littleness from which world-interests were
excluded. He was a lover of art and a cosmopolitan,
and though the lowland landscape was itself a piece
of art, and perfect in its way, Hyde’s mind found
no home in it. Yet, he reflected with his tolerant
smile, he had fought for it, and was ready any day
to fight for it again for stability and
tradition, the Game Laws, the Established Church, and
the rotation of crops. He was the son of an
English mother and had received the training of an
Englishman. A rather cynical smile, now and
then, at the random and diffident ways of England was
the only freedom he allowed to the foreign strain
within him.
And when he looked the other way even
this faint feeling of irritation passed off, blown
away by the wind that always blows across a moor,
thin and sweet now, and sunlit as the light curled
clouds that it carried overhead through the profound
June blue. Acres upon acres of pale sward, sown
all over with the blue of scabious and the lemon-yellow
of hawkweed, stretched away in rolling undulations
like the plain of the sea; dense woods hung massed
on the far horizon, beech-woods, sapphire blue beyond
the pale silver and amber, of the middle distance,
and under them a puff of white smoke from a passing
train, or was it the white scar of a quarry?
He could not be sure across so many miles of sunlit
air, but it must have been smoke, for it dissolved
slowly away till there was no gleam left under the
brown hillside. Here too was stability, permanence:
the wind ruffling the grass as it had done when the
Normans crossed their not far distant Channel, or
rattling over hilltops through leather-coated oak groves
which had kept their symmetry since their progenitors
were planted by the Druids. Here was nothing
to cramp the mind: here was the England that
has absorbed Celt, Saxon, Fleming, Norman, generation
after generation, each with its passing form of political
faith: the England of traditional eld, the beloved
country.
In the meanwhile Lawrence had to find
Chilmark. He had neither map nor compass and
was unfamiliar with the lie of the land, but, mindful
of the station master’s directions to go south
and turn twice to the left, he shaped a course south-east
and looked for a shepherd to ask his way of.
At present there were no shepherds to be seen and
no houses; here and there a trail of smoke marked
some hidden hamlet, sunk deep in cup or cranny, but
which was Chilmark he could not tell. Down went
the track, plunging towards a stream that brawled
in a wild bottom: up over a rough hillside ruby-red
with willowherb: then down again to a pool shaded
by two willows and a silver birch, and lying so cool
and solitary in its own cloven nook, bounded in every
direction by half a furlong of chalky hillside, that
Lawrence was seized with a desire to strip and bathe,
and sun himself dry on the brilliant mossy lawn at
its brink. But out of regard for the Wanhope
lunch hour he walked on, following a trickle of water
between reeds and knotgrafis, till in the next winding
of the glen he came on a house: only a labourer’s
cot, two rooms below and one above, but inhabited,
for smoke was coming out of the chimney. Lawrence
turned up a worn thread of path and knocked with his
stick at the open door.
It was answered by a tall young girl
with a dirty face, wearing a serge skirt pinned up
under a dirty apron. The house was dirty too:
the smell of an unwashed, unswept interior came out
of it, together with the wailing of a fretful baby.
“I’ve missed my way on the moor,”
said Lawrence, inobtrusively holding his handkerchief
to his nose. “Can you direct me to Chilmark?”
“Do you mean Chilmark or Castle
Wharton? Oh Dorrie, don’t cry!”
She lifted the babe on her arm and stood gazing at
Lawrence in a leisured and friendly manner, as if
she wondered who he were. “It isn’t
far, but it’s a long rambling village and there
are any number of paths down. And if you want
the Bendishes ” Evidently she thought
he must want the Bendishes, and perhaps Lawrence’s
judgment was a little bribed by her artless compliment,
for at this point he began to think her pretty in
an undeveloped way: certainly she had lovely
eyes, dark blue under black lashes, which reminded
him of other eyes that he had seen long ago but
when? He could not remember those wistful eyes
in any other woman’s face.
“I’m making for Wanhope Major
Clowe’s house.”
“Oh, but then you must be Captain
Hyde,” exclaimed Miss Stafford: “aren’t
you? that Mrs. Clowes was expecting.”
“My name is Hyde. No one
met me at the station” in spite of himself Lawrence
could not keep his grievance out of his voice “so,
as there are no cabs at Countisford, I had to walk.”
“Oh! dear, how sad: and
on such a hot day too! You’ll be so tired.”
Was this satire? Pert little thing! Lawrence
was faintly amused not irritated, because
she was certainly very pretty: what a swan’s
throat she had under her holland blouse, and what
a smooth slope of neck! But for all that she
ought to have sirred him.
“So you know Mrs. Clowes, do
you?” He said with as much politeness as a little
girl deserves who has lovely eyes and a dirty face.
It had crossed his mind that she might be one of the
servants at Wanhope: he knew next to nothing of
the English labouring classes, but was not without
experience of lady’s maids.
“Yes, I know her,” said
Isabel. She hung on the brink of introducing
herself was not Captain Hyde coming to tea
with her that afternoon? but was deterred
by a very unusual feeling of constraint. She
was not accustomed to be watched as Hyde was watching
her, and she felt shy and restless, though she knew
not why. It never entered her head that he had
taken her for Dorrie Drury’s sister. She
was dressed like a servant, but what of that?
In Chilmark she would have remained “Miss Isabel”
if she had gone about in rags, and it would have wounded
her bitterly to learn that she owed the deference
of the parish rather to her rank as the vicar’s
daughter, who visited at Wanhope and Wharton, than
to any dignity of her own. In all her young life
no one had ever taken a liberty with Isabel.
And, for that matter, why should any one take a liberty
with Dorrie Drury’s sister? Isabel’s
father would not have done so, nor her brothers, nor
indeed Jack Bendish, and she was too ignorant of other
men to know what it was that made her so hot under
Hyde’s eyes. “But you’ll be
late for lunch. Wait half a minute and I’ll
run up with you to the top of the glen.”
Lawrence watched her wrap her charge
carefully in a shawl, and fetch milk from the dresser,
and coax till Dorrie turned her small head, heavy
with the cares of neglected babyhood, sideways on
the old plaid maud and began to suck. Apparently
he had interrupted the scrubbing of the kitchen floor,
for the tiles were wet three quarters of the way
over, and on a dry oasis stood a pail, a scrubbing
brush, and a morsel of soap. Among less honourable
odours he was glad to distinguish a good strong whiff
of carbolic.
Isabel meanwhile had recovered from
her little fit of shyness. She pulled off her
apron and pulled down her skirt (it had been kilted
to the knee), rinsed her hands under a tap, wiped her
face with a wet handkerchief, and came out into the
June sunshine bareheaded, her long pigtail swinging
between drilled and slender shoulders. “Yours
are London boots,” she remarked as she buttoned
her cuff. “Do you mind going over the marsh?”
“Not at all.”
“Not if you get your feet wet?”
Lawrence laughed outright. “But it’s
a real marsh!” said Isabel offended: “and
you’re not used to mud, are you? You don’t
look as if you were.” She pointed down
the glen, and Lawrence saw that some high spring, dammed
at its exit and turned back on itself, had filled
the wide bottom with a sponge of moss thickset with
flowering rush and silken fluff of cotton grass.
“There’s no danger in summertime, the
shepherds often cross it and so do I. Still if you’re
afraid
“I assure you I’m not
afraid,” said Lawrence, looking at her so oddly
that Isabel was not sure whether he was angry or amused.
Nor was Lawrence. She had struck out of his male
vanity a resentment so crude that he was ashamed of
it, ashamed or even shocked? He was not readily
shocked. A pure cynic, he let into his mind,
on an easy footing, primitive desires that the average
man admits only behind a screen. Yet when these
libertine fancies played over Isabel’s innocent
head they were distasteful to him: as he remembered
once, in a Barbizon studio, to have knocked a man
down for a Gallic jest on the Queen of Heaven although
Luke’s Evangel meant no more to him than the
legend of Eros and Psyche. But one can’t
knock oneself down more’s the pity!
“Oh, all right,” said
Isabel impatiently. He was watching her again!
“But do look where you’re going, this
isn’t Piccadilly. You had better hold my
hand.”
Lawrence was six and thirty.
At eighteen he would have snatched her up and carried
her over: at thirty-six he said: “Thanks
very much,” touched the tips of her fingers,
let them fall. . . . Unfortunately however he
weighed more than Isabel or the shepherds, and, half
way across, the green floor quietly gave way under
him: first one foot immersed itself with a gentle
splash and then the other “Oh dear”
said Isabel, seized with a great disposition to laugh.
Lawrence was not amused. His boots were full
of mud and water and he had an aching sense of injured
dignity. The bog was not even dangerous:
and ankle-deep, calf-deep, knee-deep he waded through
it and got out on the opposite bank, bringing up a
cloud of little marsh-bubbles on his heels.
Isabel would have given all the money she had in the
world about five shillings to go away and
laugh, but she had been well brought up and she remained
grave, though she grew very red.
“I am so sorry!” she faltered,
looking up at Lawrence with her beautiful sympathetic
eyes (one must never say I told you so). “I
never thought you really would go in. You must
be very heavy! Oh! dear, I’m afraid you’ve
spoilt your trousers, and it was all my fault.
Oh! dear, I hope you won’t catch cold.
Do you catch cold easily?”
“Oh no, thanks. Do you
mind showing me the way to Wanhope?”
Isabel without another word took the
steep hillside at a run. In her decalogue of
manners to refuse an apology was an unpardonable sin.
How differently Val would have behaved! Val
never lost his temper over trifles, and if anything
happened to make him look ridiculous he was the first
to laugh at himself. At this time in her life
Isabel compared Val with all the other men she met
and much to his advantage. She forgot that Lawrence
was not her brother and that no man cares to be made
ridiculous before a woman, or rather she never thought
of herself as a woman at all.
She pointed east by south across the
Plain. “Do you see that hawk hovering?
Carry your eye down to the patch of smoke right under
him, in the trees: those are the Wanhope chimneys.
If you go straight over there till you strike the
road, it will bring you into Chilmark High Street.
Go on past Chapman the draper’s shop, turn
sharp down a footpath opposite the Prince of Wales’s
Feathers, cross the stream by a footbridge, and you’ll
be in the grounds of Wanhope.”
“Thank you,” said Lawrence,
“your directions are most precise.”
He had one hand in his pocket feeling among his loose
silver: tips are more easily given than thanks,
especially when one is not feeling grateful, and he
was accustomed to pay his way through the world with
the facile profusion of a rich man. Still he
hesitated: if he had not the refined intuition
that would have made such a blunder impossible to
Val Stafford, he had at all events enough intelligence
to hesitate. There is a coinage that is safer
than silver, and Lawrence thought it might well pass
current (now that she had washed her face) with this
fair schoolgirl of sixteen, ruffled by sun and wind
and unaware of her beauty. He would not confess
to himself that the prospect of Isabel’s confusion
pleased him.
He bent his head, smiling into Isabel’s
eyes. “You’re a very kind little
girl. May I ?”
“No,” said Isabel.
The blood sprang to her cheek, but
she did not budge, not by a hair’s breadth.
“I beg your pardon,” said Lawrence, standing
erect. He had measured in that moment the extent
of his error, and he cursed, not for the first time,
his want of perception, which his ever-candid father
had once called a streak of vulgarity. Defrauded
of the pleasure he had promised himself from the contact
of Isabel’s smooth cheek, he grew suddenly very
tired of her. Young girls with their trick of
attaching importance to trifles are a nuisance!
He forced a smile. “I
beg your pardon, I had no idea I see
you’re ever so much older than I thought you
were. Some day I shall find my way up here again
and you must let me make my peace with a box of chocolates.”
He raised his hat he had not done so when
she opened the door and swung off across
the moor, leaving the vicar’s daughter to go
back and scrub Mrs. Drury’s floor as it had
never been scrubbed before in its life. The honours
of the day lay with Isabel, but she was not proud
of them, and her face flamed for the rest of the morning.
“You’re worse than Major Clowes!”
she said violently to the kitchen tap.