‘Father’s in a horrid
temper. Did anything go wrong?’ said Rose,
when Leonora reached Hillport.
‘No,’ Leonora replied. ‘Where
is he?’
‘In the drawing-room. He says he won’t
have any tea.’
’You must remember, my dear,
that your father has been through a great deal this
last day or two.’
‘So have all of us, as far as
that goes,’ Rose stated ruthlessly. ‘However ’
She turned away, shrugging her shoulders.
Leonora wondered by means of what
sad experience Rose would ultimately discover that,
whereas men have the right to cry out when they are
hurt, it is the whole business of a woman’s
life to suffer in cheerful silence. She sat with
the girls during tea, drinking a cup for the sake
of form, and giving them disconnected items of information
about the funeral, which at their own passionate request
they had been excused from attending. The talk
was carried on in low tones, so that the rattle of
a spoon in a saucer sounded loud and distinct.
And in the drawing-room John steadily perused the
‘Signal,’ column by column, from the announcement
of ‘Pink Dominoes’ at the Hanbridge Theatre
Royal on the first page, to the bait of a sporting
bookmaker in Holland at the end of the last.
The evening was desolating, but Leonora endured it
with philosophy, because she appreciated John’s
state of mind.
It was the disclosure of the legacy
of two hundred and fifty pounds to Fred Ryley, and
of the recent conditional revocation of that legacy,
which had galled her husband’s sensibilities
by bringing home to him what he had lost through Aunt
Hannah’s sudden death and through the senile
whim of Uncle Meshach to alter his will. He could
well have tolerated Meshach’s refusal to distribute
Aunt Hannah’s savings immediately (Leonora thought),
had the old man’s original testament remained
uncancelled. Once upon a time, Ryley, the despised
poor relation, the offspring of an outcast from the
family, was to have been put off with two hundred
and fifty pounds, and the bulk of the Myatt joint
fortune was to have passed in any case to John.
The withdrawal of the paltry legacy, as shown in the
codicil, was the outward and irritating sign that
Ryley had been lifted from his humble position to
the level of John himself. John, of course, had
known months ago that he and Ryley stood level in
the hazard of gaining the inheritance, but the history
of the legacy, revealed after the funeral, aroused
his disgusted imagination, as it had not been roused
before.
He was beaten; and, more important,
he knew it now; he had the incensed, futile, malevolent,
devil-may-care feeling of being beaten. He bitterly
invited Fate not to stop at half-measures but to come
on and do her worst. And Fate, with that mysterious
responsiveness which often distinguishes her movements,
came on. ’Of course! I might have expected
it!’ John exclaimed savagely, two days later,
when he received a circular to the effect that a small
and desperate minority of shareholders were trying
to put the famous brewery company into liquidation
under the supervision of the Court. The shares
fell another five in twenty-four hours. The Bursley
Conservative Club knew positively the same night that
John had ‘got out’ at a ruinous loss, and
this episode seemed to give vigorous life to certain
rumours, hitherto faint, that John and his uncle had
violently quarrelled at his aunt’s funeral,
and that when Meshach died Fred Ryley would be found
to be the heir. Other rumours, that Ethel Stanway
and Fred Ryley were about to be secretly married,
that Dain would have been the owner of Prince but for
the difference between guineas and pounds, and that
the real object of Arthur Twemlow’s presence
in the Five Towns was to buy up the concern of Twemlow
& Stanway, were received with reserve, though not entirely
discredited. The town, however, was more titillated
than perturbed, for every one said that old Meshach,
for the sake of the family’s good name, would
never under any circumstances permit a catastrophe
to occur. The town saw little of Meshach now he
had almost ceased to figure in the streets; it knew,
however, the Myatt pride in the Myatt respectability.
Leonora sympathised with John, but
her sympathy, weakened by his surliness, was also
limited by her ignorance of his real plight, and by
the secret preoccupation of her own existence.
From the evening of the funeral the desire to see
Arthur again, to study his features, to hear his voice,
definitely took the uppermost place in her mind.
She thought of him always, and she ceased to pretend
to herself that this was not so. She continually
expected him to call, or to meet some one who had
met him, or to receive a letter from him. She
forced her memory to reconstitute in detail his last
visit to Hillport, and all the exacerbating scene
of the funeral feast, in order that she might dwell
tenderly upon his gestures, his glances, his remarks,
the inflections of his voice. The eyes of her
soul were ever beholding his form. Even at breakfast,
after the disappointment of the post, she would indulge
in ridiculous hopes that he might be abroad very early
and would look in, and not until bedtime did she cease
to listen for his ring at the front door. No
chance of a meeting was too remote for her wild fancy.
But she dared not breathe his name, dared not even
adumbrate an inquiry; and her husband and daughters
appeared to have entered into a compact not to mention
him. She did not take counsel with herself, examine
herself, demand from herself what was the significance
of these symptoms; she could not; she could only live
from one moment to the next engrossed in an eternal
expectancy which instead of slackening became hourly
more intense and painful. Towards the close of
the afternoon of the third day, in the drawing-room,
she whispered that something decisive must happen
soon, soon.... The bell rang; her ears caught
the distant sound for which they had so long waited.
Shuddering, she thanked heaven that she was alone.
She could hear the opening and closing of the front
door. In three seconds Bessie would appear.
She heard the knob of the drawing-room door turn,
and to hide her agitation she glanced aside at the
clock. It was a quarter to six. ‘He
will stay the evening,’ she thought.
‘Mr. Dain,’ Bessie proclaimed.
‘Oh, how do you do, Mrs. Stanway?
Stanway not come in yet, eh?’ said the stout
lawyer, approaching her hurriedly with his fussy, awkward
gait.
She could have laughed; but the visit
was at any rate a distraction.
A few minutes later John arrived.
‘Dain will stay for tea, Nora. Eh, Dain?’
he said.
‘Well thanks,’ was Dain’s
reply.
She asked herself, with sudden misgiving, what new
thing was afoot.
After tea, the two men were left together at the table.
‘Mother,’ Ethel inquired
eagerly, coming into the drawing-room, ’why are
father and Mr. Dain measuring the dining-room?’
‘I don’t know,’ said Leonora.
‘Are they?’
‘Yes, Mr. Dain has got ever such a long tape.’
Leonora went into the kitchen and talked to the cook.
The next morning an idea occurred
to her. Since the funeral, the girls had been
down to see Uncle Meshach each afternoon, and Leonora
had called at Church Street in the forenoon, so that
the solitude of the old man might be broken at least
twice a day. When she had suggested the arrangement
to her husband, John had answered stiffly, with an
unimpeachable righteousness, that everything possible
must be done for his uncle. On this fourth day,
Leonora sent Ethel and Milly in the morning, with
a message that she herself would come in the afternoon,
by way of change. The phrase that sang in her
head was Arthur’s promise to Meshach: ‘I
shall call in a day or two.’ She knew that
he had not yet called. ‘Don’t wait
tea, if I should be late, dears,’ she said smilingly
to the girls; ‘I may stay with uncle a while.’
And she nearly ran out of the house.
When they had had tea, and when Leonora
had performed the delicate feat of arranging Uncle
Meshach’s domestic affairs without affronting
his servant, she sat down opposite to him before the
fire in the parlour.
‘You’re for stopping a
bit, eh?’ he said, as if surprised.
‘Well,’ she laughed, ‘wouldn’t
you like me to?’
‘Oh, ay!’ he admitted
readily, ’I’st like it well enough.
I don’t know but what you aren’t all on
ye very good you and th’ wenches,
and Fred as calls in of nights. But it’s
all one to me, I reckon. I take no pleasure i’
life. Nay,’ he went on, ’it isn’t
because of her. I’ve felt as I was
done for for months past. I mun just drag on.’
‘Don’t talk like that,
uncle.’ She tried conventionally to cheer
him. ‘You must rouse yourself.’
‘What for?’
She sought a good answer to this conundrum.
‘For all of us,’ she said lamely, at length.
‘Leonora, my lass,’ he
remarked drily, ’you’re no better than
the rest of ’em.’
And as she sat there in the age-worn
parlour, and thought of the distant days of his energy,
when with his own hands he had pulled down a wall
and replaced it by a glass partition, and of the night
when he lay like a corpse on Ethel’s bed at
the mercy of his nephew, and of Aunt Hannah resting
in the cold tomb just at the end of the street, her
heart was filled for a moment with an awful, ineffable,
devastating sadness. It seemed to her that every
grief, anxiety, apprehension was joy itself compared
to this supreme tragedy of natural decay.
‘Shall I light the gas?’
she suggested. The room was always obscure, and
that evening happened to be a sombre one.
‘Ay!’
‘There!’ she said brightly,
when the gas flared, ’that’s better, isn’t
it? Aren’t you going to smoke?’
‘Ay!’
In reaching a second spill from the
spill-jar on the mantelpiece she noticed the clock.
It was only a quarter past five. ‘He may
call yet,’ she dreamed, and then a more piquant
thought: ’He may be at home when I get
back.’
There was a perfunctory knock at the
house-door. She started.
‘It’s the “Signal”
lad,’ Meshach explained. ’He keeps
on bringing it, but I never look at it.’
She went into the lobby for the paper,
and then read aloud to Uncle Meshach the items of
local news. The clock showed a quarter to six.
Suddenly it struck her that Arthur Twemlow might have
called quite early in the afternoon and that Meshach
might have forgotten to tell her. If he had perchance
called, and perchance informed Meshach that he was
going on to Hillport, and if he had walked up by the
road while she came down by the fields! The idea
was too dreadful.
‘Has Mr. Twemlow been to see
you yet?’ she demanded, after a long silence,
pretending to be interested in the ‘Signal.’
‘No,’ said Meshach; ‘why dost ask?’
‘I remembered he said he should.’
‘He’ll come, he’ll
come,’ Meshach murmured confidently. ’Dain’s
been in,’ he added, ‘wi’ papers
to sign, probate o’ Hannah’s will.
Seemingly John’s not satisfied, from what Dain
hints.’
‘Not satisfied with what?’
Flushing a little, she dropped the paper; but she
was still busily employed in expecting Arthur to arrive.
‘Eh, I canna’ tell you,
lass.’ Meshach gave a grim sigh. ’You
know as I altered my will?’
‘Jack mentioned it.’
’Me and her, we thought it over.
It was her as first said that Fred was getting a nice
young chap, and very respectable, and why should he
be left out in the cold? And so I says to her,
I says, “Well, you can make your will i’
favour o’ Fred, if you’ve a mind.”
“Nay, Meshach,” her says, “never
ask me to cut out our John’s name.”
“Well,” I says to her, “if you won’t,
I will. It’ll give ’em both an even
chance. Us’n die pretty near together,
me and you, Hannah, it’ll be a toss-up,”
I says. Wasn’t that fair?’ Leonora
made no reply. ‘Wasn’t that fair?’
he repeated.
She could not be sure, even then,
whether Uncle Meshach had devised in perfect seriousness
this extraordinary arrangement for dealing justly
between the surviving members of the Myatt family,
or whether he had always had a private humorous appreciation
of the fantastic element in it.
‘I don’t know,’ she said.
‘Well, lass,’ he continued
persuasively, sitting up in his chair, ’us ignored
young Fred for more till twenty year. And it wasna’
right. Hannah said it wasna’ right as Fred
should suffer for his mother and his grandfeyther.
And then us give Fred and your John an equal chance,
and John’s lost, and now John isna’ satisfied,
by all accounts.’ She gazed at him with
a gentle smile. ‘Why dostna’ speak,
lass?’
‘What am I to say, uncle?’
’Wouldst like me to make a new
will, and halve it between John and Fred? It
wouldna’ be fair to Fred, not rightly fair, because
he’s run his risk for th’ lot. But
wouldst like it, lass?’
There was a trace of the old vitality
in his shrivelled features, as he laid this offering
on the altar of her feminine charm.
‘Oh, do, uncle!’ she was
about to say eagerly, but she thought in the same
instant of John standing over Meshach’s body,
with the ice-cold cloth in his hand, and something,
some dim instinct of a fundamental propriety, prevented
her from uttering those words. ’I would
like you to do whatever you think right,’ she
answered with calmness.
Meshach was evidently disappointed.
‘I shall see,’ he ejaculated.
And after a pause, ‘John’s i’ smooth
water again, isn’t he? I meant to ask Dain.’
‘I think so,’ said Leonora.
She had become restive. Soon
afterwards she bade him good-night and departed.
And all the way up to Hillport she speculated upon
the chances of finding Arthur in her drawing-room
when she got home.
As she passed through the hall she
knew at once that Arthur was not in the house and
had not been there; and the agitation of her heart
subsided suddenly into the melancholy stillness of
defeated hope. She sadly admitted that she no
longer knew herself, and that the Leonora of old had
been supplanted by a creature of incalculable moods,
a feeble victim of strange crises of secret folly.
Through the open door of the drawing-room she could
see Rose reading, and Millicent searching among a
pile of music on the piano. Bessie emerged from
the dining-room with a white cloth and the crumb-tray.
‘Master’s in there,’
said Bessie; ‘they didn’t wait tea, ma’am.’
Leonora went into the dining-room,
where John sat alone at the bare mahogany, smoking.
With her deep knowledge of him, she detected instantly
that he had been annoyed by her absence from tea.
The condition of the sharp end of his cigar showed
that he was perturbed, fretful, and perhaps in a state
of suspense. ‘Well,’ she thought with
resignation, ‘I may as well play the wife,’
and she sat down in a chair near him, put her purse
on the table, and smiled generously. Then she
raised her veil, loosed the buttons of her new black
coat, and began to draw off her gloves.
‘I’ve been waiting for
you,’ he said, and to her surprise his tone was
extremely pacific.
‘Have you?’ she answered,
intensifying all her alluring grace. ’I
hurried home.’
‘Yes, I wanted to ask you ’
He stopped, ostensibly to put the cigar into his meerschaum
holder.
She perceived that the desire to ingratiate
fought within him against his vexation, and she wondered,
with a touch of cynicism, what new scheme had got
possession of him, and how her assistance was necessary
to it.
‘Would you like to go and live
in the country, Nora?’ He looked at her audaciously
for a moment and then his eyes shifted.
‘For the summer, you mean?’
‘Yes,’ he said, ’for
the summer and the winter too. Somewhere out Sneyd
way.’
‘And leave here?’
‘Exactly.’
‘But what about the house, Jack?’
‘Sell it, if you like,’ said John lightly.
‘Oh, no! I shouldn’t
like that at all,’ she replied, nervously but
amiably. She wished to believe that his suggestion
about selling the house was merely an idle notion
thrown out on the spur of the moment, but she could
not.
‘You wouldn’t?’
She shook her head. ’What
has made you think of going to live in the country?’
she asked him, using a tone of gentle, mild curiosity.
’How should you get to the works in the morning?’
‘There’s a very good train
service from Sneyd to Knype,’ he said. ’But
look here, Nora, why wouldn’t you care to sell
the house?’
It was perfectly clear to her that,
having mortgaged her house, he had now made up his
mind to sell it. He must therefore still be in
financial difficulties, and she had unwittingly misled
Uncle Meshach.
‘I don’t know,’
she answered coldly. ’I can’t explain
to you why. But I shouldn’t.’
And she privately resolved that nothing should induce
her to assent to this monstrous proposal. Her
heart hardened to steel. She felt prepared to
suffer any unpleasantness, any indignity, rather than
give way.
‘It isn’t as if Hillport
wasn’t changing,’ he went on, politely
argumentative. ’It is changing. In
another ten years all the decent estates will have
been broken up, and we shall be left alone in the
middle of streets of villas rented at nineteen guineas
to escape the house duty. You know the sort of
thing.... And I’ve had a very fair offer
for the place.’
‘Whom from?’
’Well, Dain. I know he’s
wanted the house a long time. Of course, he’s
a hard nut to crack, is Dain. But he went up
to two thousand, and yesterday I got him to make it
guineas. That’s a good price, Nora.’
‘Is it?’ she exclaimed absently.
‘I should just imagine it was!’ said John.
So it was expected of her that she
should surrender her home, her domain, her kingdom,
the beautiful and mellow creation of her intelligence;
and that she should surrender it to David Dain, and
to the impossible Mrs. Dain, and to their impossible
niece. She remembered one of Milly’s wicked
tales about Mrs. Dain and the niece. Milly had
met Mrs. Dain in the street, and in response to an
inquiry about the health of the hypochondriacal niece,
Mrs. Dain, gorgeously attired, had replied: ‘Her
had but just rallied up off th’ squab as I come
out.’ These were the people who wanted
to evict her from her house. And they would cover
its walls with new papers, and its floors with new
carpets, in their own appalling taste; and they would
crowd the rooms with furniture as fat, clumsy, and
disgusting as themselves. And Mrs. Dain would
hold sewing meetings in the drawing-room, and would
stand chattering with tradesmen at the front door,
and would drive out to Sneyd to pay a call on Leonora
and tell her how pleased they all were with
the place!
‘Do you absolutely need the
money, John?’ She came to the point with a frank,
blunt directness which angered him.
‘I don’t absolutely need
anything,’ he retorted, controlling himself.
‘But Dain made the offer ’
‘Because if you do,’ she
proceeded, ‘I dare say Uncle Meshach ’
‘Look here, my girl,’
he interrupted in turn, ’I’ve had exactly
as much of Uncle Meshach as I can stand. I know
all about Uncle Meshach, what I wanted to know was
whether you cared to sell the house.’ And
then he added, after hesitating, and with a false
graciousness, ‘To oblige me.’
There was a marked pause.
‘I really shouldn’t like
to sell the house, John,’ she answered quietly.
‘It was aunt’s, and ’
‘Enough said! enough said!’
he cried. ’That finishes it. I suppose
you don’t mind my having asked you!’
He walked out of the room in a rage.
Tears came into her eyes, the tears
of a wounded and proud heart. Was it conceivable
that he expected her to be willing to sell her house?...
He must indeed be in serious straits. She would
consult Uncle Meshach.
The front door banged. And then Rose entered
the room.
Leonora drove back the tears.
’Your father has been suggesting
that we sell this house, and go and live at Sneyd,’
she said to the girl in a trembling voice. ’Aren’t
you surprised?’ She seldom talked about John
to her daughters, but at that moment a desire for
sympathy overwhelmed her.
‘I should never be surprised
at anything where father was concerned,’ said
Rose coldly, with a slight hint of aloofness and of
mental superiority. ‘Not at anything.’
Leonora got up, and, leaving the room,
went into the garden through the side door opposite
the stable. She could hear Millicent practising
the Jewel Song from Gounod’s Faust.
As she passed down the sombre garden the sound of
the piano and of Milly’s voice in the brilliant
ecstatic phrases of the song grew fainter. She
shook violently, like a child who is recovering from
a fit of sobs, and without thinking she fastened her
coat. ’What a shame it is that he should
want to sell my house! What a shame!’ she
murmured, full of an aggrieved resentment. At
the same time she was surprised to find herself so
suddenly and so deeply disturbed.
At the foot of the long garden was
a low fence separating it from the meadow, and in
the fence a wicket from which ran a faint track to
the main field-path. She leaned against the fence,
a few yards away from the wicket, at a spot where
a clump of bushes screened the house. No one
could possibly have seen her from the house, even had
the bushes not been there; but she wished to isolate
herself completely, and to find tranquillity in the
isolation. The calm spring night, chill but not
too cold, cloudy but not too dark, favoured her intention.
She gazed about her at the obscure nocturnal forms
of things, at the silent trees, and the mysterious
clouds gently rounded in their vast shape, and the
sharp slant of the meadow. Far below could be
seen the red signal of the railway, and, mapped in
points of light on the opposite slope, the streets
of Bursley. To the right the eternal conflagration
of the Cauldon Bar furnaces illumined the sky with
wavering amber. And on the keen air came to her
from the distance noises, soft but impressive, of
immense industrial activities.
She thought she could decipher a figure
moving from the field-path across the gloom of the
meadow, and as she strained her eyes the figure became
an indubitable fact. Presently she knew that it
was Arthur. ’At last!’ her heart
passionately exclaimed, and she was swept and drenched
with happiness as a ship by the ocean. She forgot
everything in the tremendous shock of joy. She
felt as though she could have waited no more, and
that now she might expire in a bliss intense and fatal,
in a sigh of supreme content. She could not stir
nor speak, and he was striding towards the wicket
unconscious of her nearness! She coughed, a delicate
feminine cough, and then he turned aside from the direction
of the wicket and approached the fence, peering.
‘Is that you?’ he asked.
‘Yes.’
Across the fence they clasped hands.
And in spite of her great wish not to do so she clutched
his hand tightly in her long fingers, and held it
for a moment. And as she felt the returning pressure
of his large, powerful, protective grasp, she covered but
in imagination only she covered his face,
which she could shadowily see, with brave and abandoned
kisses; and she whispered to him, but unheard:
’Admit that I am made for love.’
She feared, in those beautiful and shameless instants,
neither John, nor Ethel and Milly, nor even Rose.
She knew suddenly why men and women leave all honour,
duty, and affection and follow love.
Then her arm dropped, and there was silence.
‘What are you doing here?’
She was unable to speak in an ordinary tone, but she
spoke. Her voice exquisitely trembled, and its
vibrations said everything that the words did not
say.
‘Why,’ he answered, and
his voice too bore strange messages, ’I called
at Church Street and Mr. Myatt said you had only been
gone a few minutes, and so I came right away.
I guessed I should overtake you. I don’t
know what he would think.’ Arthur laughed
nervously.
She smiled at him, satisfied.
And how well she knew that her smiling face, caught
by him dimly in the obscurity of the night, troubled
him like an enchanting and enigmatic vision!
After they had looked at each other,
speechless, for a while, the strong influence of convention
forced them again into unnecessary, irrelevant talk.
‘What’s this about you
selling this place?’ he inquired in a low, mild
tone.
‘Have you heard?’
‘Yes,’ he said, ‘I did hear something.’
‘Ah!’ she murmured, wrinkling
her forehead in a pretty make-believe of woe the
question of the sale had ceased to be acute: ’I
just came out here to think about it.’
‘But you aren’t really going to ’
‘No, of course not.’
She had no desire to discuss the tedious
affair, because she was infallibly certain of his
entire sympathy. Explanations on her side, and
assurances on his, were equally superfluous.
‘But won’t you come into
the house?’ She invited him as a sort of afterthought.
‘Why?’ he demanded bluntly.
She hesitated before replying:
’It will look so queer, us staying here like
this.’ As soon as she had uttered the words
she suspected that she had said something decisive
and irretrievable.
He put his hands into the pockets
of his overcoat and walked several times to and fro
a few paces. Then he stopped in front of her.
’I guess we are bound to look
queer, you and I, some day. So it may as well
be now,’ he said.
It was in this exchange of sentences
that their mutual passion became at length articulate.
A single discreet word spoken quickly, and she might
even yet perhaps have withdrawn from the situation.
But she did not speak; she could not speak; and soon
she knew that her own silence had bound her.
She yielded herself with poignant and magnificent joy
to the profound drama which had been magically created
by this apparently commonplace dialogue. The
climax had been achieved, and she was conscious of
being lifted into a sublime exultation, and of being
cut off from all else in the world save him.
She looked at him intently with a sadness that was
the cloak of celestial rapture. ’How courageous
you are!’ her soft eyes said. ‘I
should never have dared. What a man!’
It seemed to her that her heart would break under
the strain of that ecstasy. She had not imagined
the possibility of such bliss.
‘Listen!’ he proceeded.
’I ought to be in New York I oughtn’t
to be here. I must tell you. Scarcely a
fortnight ago, one afternoon while I was working in
my office in Fourteenth Street, I had a feeling I would
be bound to come over. I said to myself the idea
was preposterous. But the next thing I knew I
was arranging to come. I couldn’t believe
I was coming. Not even when I had booked my berth
and boarded the steamer, not even when the steamer
was actually passing Sandy Hook, could I believe that
I was really coming. I said to myself I was mad.
I said to myself that no man in his senses could behave
as I was behaving. And when I got to Southampton
I said I would go right back. And yet I couldn’t
help getting into the special for London. And
when I got to London I said I would act sensible and
go back. But I met young Burgess, and the next
thing I knew I was at Euston. And here I am pretending
that it’s my new London branch that brings me
over, and doing business I don’t want to do
in Knype and Cauldon and Bursley. And I’m
killing myself yes, I am; I tell you I
couldn’t stand much more and I wouldn’t
be sure I wasn’t killing you. Some folks
would say the whole thing was perfectly dreadful,
but I don’t care so long as you so
long as you don’t. I’m not conceited
really, but it looks like conceit me talking
like this and assuming that you’re ready to
stand and listen. I assure you it isn’t
conceit. I only know that’s all.
It’s difficult for you to say anything I
can feel that but I’d like you just
to tell me you’re glad I came and glad I’ve
spoken. I’d just like to hear that.’
She gazed fondly at him, at the male
creature in whom she could find only perfection, and
she was filled with glorious pride that her image
should have drawn this strong, shrewd self-possessed
man across the Atlantic. It was incredible, but
it was true. ‘And,’ said the secret
feminine in her, ‘why not?’
He waited for her answer, facing her.
‘Oh, yes!’ she breathed. ‘Oh,
yes!... I’m glad I’m so
glad.’
‘I wish,’ he broke out,
’I wish I could explain to you what I think of
you, what I feel about you. You’re so quiet
and simple and direct and yet you don’t
know it, but you are. You’re absolutely
the most Oh! it’s no use.’
She saw that he was growing very excited,
and this, too, gave her deep pleasure.
‘We’re in a hell of a fix!’ he sighed.
Like many women, she took a fearful,
almost thrilling joy in hearing a man swear earnestly
and religiously.
‘That’s it,’ she said, ‘there’s
nothing to be done?’
‘Nothing to be done?’ he demanded, imperiously.
‘Nothing to be done?’
She examined his face, which was close
to hers, with a meditative, expectant smile.
She loved to see him out of repose, eager, masterful,
and daring. ‘What is there to be done?’
she asked.
‘I don’t know yet,’
he said firmly, ‘I must think.’ Then,
in a delicious surrender, she felt towards him as
though they were on the brink of a rushing river,
and he was about to pick her up in his arms, like a
trifle, and carry her safely through the flood; and
she had the illusion of pressing her face, which she
knew he adored, against his shoulder.
‘Oh, you innocent angel!’
he cried, seizing her hand (she let it lie inert),
’do you suppose I’m the sort of man to
sit down and cross my legs and say that fate, or whatever
you call it, hasn’t done me right? Do you
suppose that two sensible persons like you and me are
going to be beaten by a mere set of circumstances?
We aren’t children, and we aren’t fools.’
‘But ’
‘You’re not afraid, are you?’ He
drank in her charm.
‘What of?’
‘Anything.’
‘It’s when you aren’t
there,’ she murmured tenderly. She really
thought, then, that by some marvellous plan he would
perform the impossible feat of reconciling the duty
of fulfilling love with all the other duties.
‘I shall reckon it up,’ he said.
‘Ah!’
Silence fell. And with the feel
of the grass under her feet, and the soft clouds overhead,
and the patient trees, and the glare in the southern
smoke, and the lamps of Bursley, and the solitary red
signal in the valley, she breathed out her spirit
like an aerial essence, and merged into unity with
him. And the strange far-off noises of nocturnal
industry wandered faintly across the void and seemed
fraught with a mysterious significance. Everything,
in that unique hour, had the same mysterious significance.
‘Mother!’ Millicent’s
distant voice, fresh and strong and pure in the night,
chanted the word startlingly to the first notes of
a phrase from the Jewel Song. ‘Mother!
Aren’t you coming in?’ The girl finished
the phrase with inviting gaiety, holding the final
syllable. And the sound faded, went out, like
the flare of a rocket in the sky, and the dark stillness
was emphasised.
They did not move; they did not speak;
but Leonora pressed his hand. The passing thought
of the orderly, multifarious existence of the house
behind her, of the warmed and lighted rooms, of the
preoccupied lives, only increased the felicity of
her halcyon dream. And in the dreamy and brooding
silence all things retreated and gradually lapsed away,
and the pair were left sole amid the ineffable spaces
of the universe to listen to the irregular beatings
of their own hearts. Time itself had paused.
‘Mother!’ Millicent sang
again, nearer, more strongly and purely in the night.
‘We are waiting for you to come in!’ She
varied a little the phrase from the Jewel Song.
‘To come in!’ The long sustained notes
seemed to become a beautiful warning, and then the
sound expired.
Leonora withdrew her hand.
‘I shall think it out, and write
you to-morrow,’ Arthur whispered, and was gone.
The next day, after a futile morning
of hesitations, Leonora decided in the afternoon that
she would go out for a walk and return in some definite
state of mind. She loosed Bran, and the dog, when
he had finished his elephantine gambades,
followed her close at heel, with all stateliness,
to the wide marsh on the brow of the hill. Here
she began actively and seriously to cogitate.
John was sulking; and it was seldom
that he sulked. He had not spoken to her again,
neither on the previous evening nor at breakfast; he
had said nothing whatever to any one, except to tell
Bessie that he should not be at home for dinner; on
committee-meeting days, when he was engaged at the
Town Hall, John sometimes dined at the Tiger.
His attitude produced small effect on Leonora.
She was far too completely absorbed in herself to
be perturbed by the offensive symptoms of her husband’s
wrath. She had neglected even to call on Uncle
Meshach; and as she strolled about the marsh she thought
vaguely and perfunctorily that she must see Uncle
Meshach soon and acquaint him with John’s difficulties.
Pride as much as joy and alarm filled
her heart. She was proud of her perilous love;
she would have liked proudly to confide it to some
friend, some mature and brilliant woman who knew the
world and understood things, and who would talk rationally;
it seemed to her that this secret idyll, at once tender
and sincere and rather dashing, was worthy of pride.
She knew that many women, languishing in the greyness
of an impeccable and frigid domesticity, would be capable
of envying her; she remembered that, in reading the
newspapers, she had sometimes timidly envied the heroines
of the matrimonial court who had bought romance at
the price of esteem and of peace. Then suddenly
the whole matter slipped into unreality, and she could
not credit it. Was it possible that she, a respectable
matron, a known figure, the mother of adult daughters,
had fallen in love with a man not her husband, had
had a secret interview with her lover, and was anticipating,
not a retreat, but an advance? And she thought,
as every honest woman has thought in like case:
’This may happen to others; one hears of it,
one reads about it; but surely it cannot have happened
to me!’ And when she had admitted that
it had in fact happened to her, and had perceived with
a kind of shock that the heroines of the matrimonial
court were real persons, everyday creatures of flesh-and-blood,
she thought, again like the rest: ’Ah!
But my affair is different from all the others.
There is something in it, something indefinable and
precious, which makes it different.’
She said: ‘Can one help
falling in love? Can one be blamed for that?’
For John she had little compassion,
and the gay and feverish existence of New York spread
out invitingly before her in a vision full of piquant
contrasts with the death-in-life of the Five Towns!
But her beloved girls! They were an insuperable
barrier. She could not leave them; she could
not forfeit the right to look them in the eyes without
embarrassment ... And then the next moment somehow,
she did not know how the difficulty of
the girls was arranged. And she had departed.
She had left the Five Towns for ever. And she
was in the train, in the hotel, on the steamer; she
saw every detail of the escape. Oh! The
rapture! The tremors! The long sigh!
The surrender! The intense living! Surely
no price could be too great....
No! Common sense, the acquirement
of forty years, supervened, and informed her wild
heart, with all the cold arrogance of sagacity, that
these imaginings were vain. She felt that she
must write a brief and firm letter to Arthur and tell
him to desist. She saw with extraordinary clearness
that this course was inevitable. And lest her
resolution might slacken, she turned instantly towards
home and began to hurry. The dog glanced up questioningly,
and hurried too.
‘Why!’ she reflected.
’People would say: “And her husband’s
aunt scarcely cold in her grave!"’ She laughed
scornfully.
A carriage overtook her. It was
Mrs. Dain’s, coming from the direction of Oldcastle.
‘Good afternoon to you,’
Mrs. Dain shouted, without stopping, and then, when
she caught sight of Bran: ’Bless us!
The dog hasn’t brukken his leg after all!’
‘Broken his leg!’ Leonora
repeated, astonished. The carriage was now in
front of her.
’Our Polly come in this morning
and sat hersen down on a chair and told us as your
dog had brukken his leg. What tales one hears!’
Mrs. Dain had to twist her stout neck dangerously
in order to finish the sentence.
‘I should think so!’ was
Leonora’s private comment, her gaze fixed on
the scarlet of Mrs. Dain’s nodding bonnet.
In the little room off the dining-room
Leonora dipped pen in ink to write to Arthur.
She wrote the date, and she wrote the word ‘Dear.’
And she could not proceed. She knew that she
could not compose a letter which would be effective.
She went to the window and looked out, biting the
pen. ‘What am I to do?’ she whispered,
in terror. ‘What am I to do?’ Then
she saw Ethel running hard down the drive to the front
door.
‘Oh, mother!’ The pale
girl burst into the room. ’Father’s
done something to himself. Fred’s come
up. They’re bringing him.’
John Stanway had called at the chemist’s
in the Market Place and had given a circumstantial
description of an accident to Bran. It appeared
that while Carpenter was washing the waggonette, Bran
being loose in the stable-yard, the groom had suddenly
slipped the lever of the carriage-jack and the off
hind wheel had caught Bran’s hind leg and snapped
it like a piece of wood. The chemist had suggested
prussic acid, and John had laughingly answered that
perhaps the chemist would be good enough to come up
and show them how to administer prussic acid to a dog
of Bran’s size in great pain. John explained
that the animal was now fast by the collar, and he
had demanded a large dose of morphia, together with
a hypodermic instrument. Having obtained these,
and precise instructions for their use, John had hurried
away. It was not till three hours had elapsed
that a startling suspicion had disturbed the chemist’s
easy mind. By that time, his preparations completed,
John had dropped unconscious from the arm-chair in
his office at the works, and Bursley was provided
with one of those morbid sensations which more than
joy or triumph electrify the stagnant pulses of a provincial
town. Scores of persons followed the cab which
conveyed Stanway from the works to his house; and
on the route most of the inhabitants seemed to know
in advance, by some strange intuition, that the vehicle
was coming, and at their windows or at their gates
(according to social status) they stood ready to watch
it pass. And even after John had entered his home
and had been carried upstairs, and the cab and the
policeman had gone, and the doctor had gone, and Fred
Ryley and Mr. Mayer, the works manager, had gone,
a crowd still remained on the footpath, staring at
the gravelled drive and at the front door, silent,
patient, implacable.
The doctor had tried hot coffee, artificial
respiration, and other remedies, but without the least
success, and he had reluctantly departed, solemn for
once, leaving four women to understand that there
was nothing to do save to wait for the final sigh.
The inactivity was dreadful for them. They could
only look at each other and think, and move to and
fro aimlessly in the large bedroom, and light the gas
at dusk, and examine from moment to moment those contracted
pupils and that damp white brow, and listen for the
faint occasional breaths. They did not think
the thoughts which, could they have foreseen the situation,
they might have expected to think. It did not
occur to them to search for the causes of the disaster,
nor to speculate upon its results in regard to themselves:
they surrendered to the supreme fact. They were
all incapable of logical and ordered reflections, and
in the hushed torpor of their secret hearts there
wandered, loosely, little disconnected ideas and sensations;
as that the Stanway family was at length getting its
full share of vicissitude and misfortune, that John
was after all more important and more truly dominant
and more intimately a part of their lives than they
had imagined, that this affair was a thousand miles
removed from that of Uncle Meshach, that they were
fully supplied with mourning, and that suicide was
mysteriously different from their previous notion
of it. The impressive thoughts, the obvious thoughts that
if their creeds were sound, a soul was about to enter
into eternal torment, and that their lives would be
violently changed, and that they would be branded
before the world as the wife and the daughters of
a defaulter and a self-murderer did not
by any means absorb their minds in those first hours.
In the attitude of the girls towards
Leonora there was a sort of religious deference, as
of priestesses to one soon to be sacrificed.
‘She is the central figure of the tragedy,’
they had the air of saying to each other. ’We
feel the affliction, but it cannot be demanded from
us that we should feel it as she feels it. We
are only beginning to live; we have the future; but
she she will have nothing. She will
be the widow.’ And the significance of
that terrible word all that it implied
of social diminishment, of feeding on memory, and of
mere waiting for death seemed to cling
about Leonora as she stood restlessly observant by
the bed. And when Rose urged her to drink some
tea, she could not help drinking the tea humbly, from
a sense of the duty of doing what she was told.
It was not Rose’s fault that Rose was superior,
and that only twenty-four hours ago she had coldly
informed her mother that no act of her father’s
would surprise her. Leonora resigned herself
to humility.
‘Mamma,’ said Millicent,
creeping into the room after an absence, ’Uncle
Meshach is here with Mr. Twemlow, and he says he’s
coming in. Must he?’
‘Of course, darling,’
Leonora answered, without turning her head.
Uncle Meshach appeared, leaning on
his stick and on Arthur’s arm. He wore
his overcoat and even his hat, and a white knitted
muffler encircled his shrivelled neck in loose folds.
No one spoke as the old and feeble man, with short
uncertain steps, drew Arthur towards the bed and gazed
at his dying nephew. Meshach looked long, and
sighed. Suddenly he demanded of Leonora in a
whisper:
‘Is he unconscious?’
Leonora nodded.
Drawing a little nearer to the bed,
Meshach signed to Millicent to approach, and gave
her his stick. Then he unbuttoned his overcoat,
and his coat, and the flap-pocket of his trousers,
and after much searching found a box of matches.
He shook out a match clumsily, and struck it, and
came still nearer to the bed. All wondered apprehensively
what the old man was going to do, but none dared interfere
or protest because he was so old, and so precariously
attached to life, and because he was the head of the
family. With his thin, veined, trembling hand,
he passed the lighted match close across John’s
eyeballs; not a muscle twitched. Then he extinguished
the match, put it in the box, returned the box to his
pocket, and buttoned the pocket and his coats.
‘Ay!’ he breathed. ‘The lad’s
unconscious right enough. Let’s be going.’
Taking his stick from Milly, he clutched
Arthur’s arm again, and very slowly left the
room.
After a moment’s hesitation
Leonora followed and overtook them at the bottom of
the stairs; it was the first time she had forsaken
the bedside. She was surprised to see Fred Ryley
in the hall, self-conscious but apparently determined
to be quite at home. She remembered that he said
he should come up again as soon as he had arranged
matters at the works.
‘Just take Mr. Myatt to the
cab, will you?’ said Twemlow quietly to Fred.
‘I’ll follow.’
‘Certainly,’ Fred agreed,
pulling his moustache nervously. ’Now, Mr.
Myatt, let me help you.’
‘Ay!’ said Meshach.
‘Thou shalt help me if thou’n a mind.’
As he was feeling for the step with his stick he stopped
and looked round at Leonora. ‘Lass!’
he exclaimed, ‘thou toldst me John was i’
smooth water.’ Then he departed and they
could hear his shuffling steps on the gravel.
Twemlow glanced inquiringly at Leonora.
‘Come in here,’ she said
briefly, pointing to the drawing-room. They entered;
it was dark.
‘Your uncle made me drive up
with him,’ Arthur explained, as if in apology.
She ignored the remark. ‘You
must go back to New York at once,’
she told him, in a dry, curt voice.
‘Yes,’ he assented, ‘I suppose I’d
better.’
‘And don’t write to me until
after I have written.’
‘Oh, but ’ he began.
She thought wildly: ’This
man, with his reason and his judgment, has not the
slightest notion how I feel, not the slightest!’
‘I must write,’ he said in a persuasive
tone.
‘No!’ she cried passionately
and vehemently. ’You aren’t to write,
and you aren’t to see me. You must promise,
absolutely.’
‘For how long?’ he asked.
She shook her head. ‘I don’t know,
I can’t tell.’
‘But isn’t that rather ’
‘Will you promise?’ she
cried once more, quite loudly and almost fiercely.
And her accents were so full of entreaty, of command,
and of despair, that Arthur feared a nervous crisis
for her.
‘If you wish it,’ he said, forced to yield.
And even then she could not be content.
‘You give me your word to do nothing at all
until you hear from me?’
He paused, but he saw no alternative to submission.
‘Yes.’
She thanked him, and without shaking
hands or saying good-night she went upstairs and resumed
her place by the bedside. She could hear Uncle
Meshach’s cab drive away.
‘How came Mr. Twemlow to be here, mother?’
Rose demanded quietly.
‘I don’t know,’ Leonora replied.
‘He must have been at uncle’s.’
When the doctor had been again and
gone, and various neighbours and the ‘Signal’
reporter had called to inquire for news, and the hour
was growing late, Ethel said to her mother, ’Fred
thinks he had better stay all night.’
‘But why?’ Leonora asked.
‘Well, mother,’ said Milly,
’it’s just as well to have a man in the
house.’
‘He can rest on the Chesterfield
in the drawing-room,’ Ethel added. ‘Then
if he’s wanted ’
‘Yes, yes,’ Leonora agreed.
‘And tell him he’s very kind.’
At midnight, Fred was reading in the
drawing-room, the man in the house, the ultimate fount
of security for seven women. Bessie, having refused
positively to go to bed, slept in a chair in the kitchen,
her heels touching the scrap of hearthrug which lay
like a little island on the red tiles in front of
the range. Rose and Millicent had retired to bed
till three o’clock. Ethel, as the eldest,
stayed with her mother. When the hall-clock sounded
one, meaning half past twelve, Leonora glanced at
her daughter, who reclined on the sofa at the foot
of the beds; the girl had fallen into a doze.
John’s condition was unchanged;
the doctor had said that he might possibly survive
for many hours. He lay on his back, with open
eyes, and damp face and hair; his arms rested inert
on the sheet; and underneath that thin covering his
chest rose and fell from time to time, with a scarcely
perceptible movement. It seemed to Leonora that
she could realise now what had happened and what was
to happen. In the nocturnal solemnity of the
house filled with sleeping and quiescent youth, she
who was so mature and so satiate had the sensation
of being alone with her mate. Images of Arthur
Twemlow did not distract her. With the full strength
of her mind she had shut an iron door on the episode
in the garden; it was as though it had never existed.
And she gazed at John with calm and sad compassion.
‘I would not sell my home,’ she reflected,
‘and here is the consequence of refusal.’
She wished she had yielded and she could
perceive how unimportant, comparatively, bricks-and-mortar
might be but she did not blame herself for
not having yielded. She merely regretted her
sensitive obstinacy as a misfortune for both of them.
She had a vision of humanity in a hurried procession,
driven along by some force unseen and ruthless, a procession
in which the grotesque and the pitiable were always
occurring. She thought of John standing over
Meshach with the cold towel, and of Meshach passing
the flame across John’s dying eyes, and these
juxtapositions appeared to her intolerably mournful
in their ridiculous grimness.
Impelled by a physical curiosity,
she lifted the sheet and scrutinised John’s
breast, so pallid against the dark red of his neck,
and bent down to catch the last tired efforts of the
heart within. And the idea of her extraordinary
intimacy with this man, of the incessant familiarity
of more than twenty years, struck her and overwhelmed
her. She saw that nothing is so subtly influential
as constant uninterrupted familiarity, nothing so
binding, and perhaps nothing so sacred. It was
a trifle that they had not loved. They had lived.
Ah! she knew him so profoundly that words could not
describe her knowledge. He kept his own secrets,
hundreds of them; and he had, in a way, astounded and
shocked her by his suicide. Yet, in another way,
this miserable termination did not at all surprise
her; and his secrets were petty, factual things of
no essential import, which left her mystic omniscience
of him unimpaired.
She looked at his eyes, and thought
pitifully: ’These eyes cannot see that
I uncover him.’ Then she looked again at
his breast, which heaved in shallow respirations.
And at the moment he exhaled a sigh, so softly delicate
and gentle that it might have been the sigh of an infant
sinking to sleep. She put her ear quickly to the
still breast, as to a sea-shell, and listened intently,
and caught no rumour of life there. Startled,
she glanced at the jaw, which had dropped, and then
at Ethel dozing on the sofa.
The room was filled for her with the
majestic sound of trumpets, loud, sustained, and thrilling,
but heard only by the soul; a noble and triumphant
fanfare announcing the awful advent of those forces
which are beyond the earthly sense. John’s
body lay suddenly deserted and residual; that deceitful
brain, and that lying tongue, and that murderous hand
had already begun to decay; and the informing fragment
of eternal and universal energy was gone to its next
manifestation and its next task, unconscious, irresponsible,
and unchanged. The ineptitude of human judgments
had been once more emphasised, and the great excellence
of charity.
‘Ethel,’ said Leonora
timorously, waking with a touch the young and beautiful
girl whose flushed cheek was pressed against the cushion
of the sofa. ‘He’s gone....
Call Fred.’