My mother never came to meet me at
Bursley station when I arrived in the Five Towns from
London; much less did she come as far as Knype station,
which is the great traffic centre of the district,
the point at which one changes from the express into
the local train. She had always other things
to do; she was ‘preparing’ for me.
So I had the little journey from Knype to Bursley,
and then the walk up Trafalgar Road, amid the familiar
high chimneys and the smoke and the clayey mud and
the football posts and the Midland accent, all by myself.
And there was leisure to consider anew how I should
break to my mother the tremendous news I had for her.
I had been considering that question ever since getting
into the train at Euston, where I had said goodbye
to Agnes; but in the atmosphere of the Five Towns it
seemed just slightly more difficult; though, of course,
it wasn’t difficult, really.
You see, I wrote to my mother regularly
every week, telling her most of my doings. She
knew all my friends by name. I dare say she formed
in her mind notions of what sort of people they were.
Thus I had frequently mentioned Agnes and her family
in my letters. But you can’t write even
to your mother and say in cold blood: ’I
think I am beginning to fall in love with Agnes,’
‘I think Agnes likes me,’ ’I am
mad on her,’ ‘I feel certain she likes
me,’ ’I shall propose to her on such a
day.’ You can’t do that. At least
I couldn’t. Hence it had come about that
on the 20th of December I had proposed to Agnes and
been accepted by Agnes, and my mother had no suspicion
that my happiness was so near. And on the 22nd,
by a previous and unalterable arrangement, I had come
to spend Christmas with my mother.
I was the only son of a widow; I was
all that my mother had. And lo! I had gone
and engaged myself to a girl she had never seen, and
I had kept her in the dark! She would certainly
be extremely surprised, and she might be a little
bit hurt-just at first. Anyhow, the
situation was the least in the world delicate.
I walked up the whitened front steps
of my mother’s little house, just opposite where
the electric cars stop, but before I could put my hand
on the bell my little plump mother, in her black silk
and her gold brooch and her auburn hair, opened to
me, having doubtless watched me down the road from
the bay-window, as usual, and she said, as usual kissing
me-
‘Well, Philip! How are you?’
And I said-
‘Oh! I’m all right, mother.
How are you?’
I perceived instantly that she was
more excited than my arrival ordinarily made her.
There were tears in her smiling eyes, and she was
as nervous as a young girl. She did indeed look
remarkably young for a woman of forty-five, with twenty-five
years of widowhood and a brief but too tempestuous
married life behind her.
The thought flashed across my mind:
’By some means or other she has got wind of
my engagement. But how?’
But I said nothing. I, too, was
naturally rather nervous. Mothers are kittle
cattle.
‘I’ll tell her at supper,’ I decided.
And she hovered round me, like a sea-gull
round a steamer, as I went upstairs.
There was a ring at the door.
She flew, instead of letting the servant go.
It was a porter with my bag.
Just as I was coming down-stairs again
there was another ring at the door. And my mother
appeared magically out of the kitchen, but I was beforehand
with her, and with a laugh I insisted on opening the
front door myself this time. A young woman stood
on the step.
’Please, Mrs Dawson wants to
know if Mrs Durance can kindly lend her half-a-dozen
knives and forks?’
‘Eh, with pleasure,’ said
my mother, behind me. ’Just wait a minute,
Lucy. Come inside on the mat.’
I followed my mother into the drawing-room,
where she kept her silver in a cabinet.
‘That’s Mrs Dawson’s
new servant,’ my mother whispered. ’But
she needn’t think I’m going to lend her
my best, because I’m not.’
‘I shouldn’t, if I were you,’ I
supported her.
And she went out with some second-best
in tissue paper, and beamed on Mrs Dawson’s
servant with an assumed benevolence.
‘There!’ she exclaimed.
’And the compliments of the season to your mistress,
Lucy.’
After that my mother disappeared into
the kitchen to worry an entirely capable servant.
And I roamed about, feeling happily excited, examining
the drawing-room, in which nothing was changed except
the incandescent light and the picture postcards on
the mantelpiece. Then I wandered into the dining-room,
a small room at the back of the house, and here an
immense surprise awaited me.
Supper was set for three!
‘Well,’ I reflected.
’Here’s a nice state of affairs! Supper
for three, and she hasn’t breathed a word!’
My mother was so clever in social
matters, and especially in the planning of delicious
surprises, that I believed her capable even of miracles.
In some way or other she must have discovered the state
of my desires towards Agnes. She had written,
or something. She and Agnes had been plotting
together by letter to startle me, and perhaps telegraphing.
Agnes had fibbed in telling me that she could not
possibly come to Bursley for Christmas; she had delightfully
fibbed. And my mother had got her concealed somewhere
in the house, or was momentarily expecting her.
That explained the tears, the nervousness, the rushes
to the door.
I crept out of the dining-room, determined
not to let my mother know that I had secretly viewed
the supper-table. And as I was crossing the lobby
to the drawing-room there was a third ring at the door,
and a third time my mother rushed out of the kitchen.
‘By Jove!’ I thought. ‘Suppose
it’s Agnes. What a scene!’
And trembling with expectation I opened the door.
It was Mr Nixon.
Now, Mr Nixon was an old friend of
the family’s, a man of forty-nine or fifty,
with a reputation for shrewdness and increasing wealth.
He owned a hundred and seventy-five cottages in the
town, having bought them gradually in half-dozens,
and in rows; he collected the rents himself, and attended
to the repairs himself, and was celebrated as a good
landlord, and as being almost the only man in Bursley
who had made cottage property pay. He lived alone
in Commerce Street, and, though not talkative, was
usually jolly, with one or two good stories tucked
away in the corners of his memory. He was my mother’s
trustee, and had morally aided her in the troublous
times before my father’s early death.
‘Well, young man,’ cried
he. ‘So you’re back in owd Bosley!’
It amused him to speak the dialect a little occasionally.
And he brought his burly, powerful form into the lobby.
I greeted him as jovially as I could,
and then he shook hands with my mother, neither of
them speaking.
‘Mr Nixon is come for supper, Philip,’
said my mother.
I liked Mr Nixon, but I was not too
well pleased by this information, for I wanted to
talk confidentially to my mother. I had a task
before me with my mother, and here Mr Nixon was plunging
into the supper. I could not break it gently
to my mother that I was engaged to a strange young
woman in the presence of Mr Nixon. Mr Nixon had
been in to supper several times during previous visits
of mine, but never on the first night.
However, I had to make the best of
it. And we sat down and began on the ham, the
sausages, the eggs, the crumpets, the toast, the jams,
the mince-tarts, the Stilton, and the celery.
But we none of us ate very much, despite my little
plump mother’s protestations.
My suspicion was that perhaps something
had gone slightly wrong with my mother’s affairs,
and that Mr Nixon was taking the first opportunity
to explain things to me. But such a possibility
did not interest me, for I could easily afford to
keep my mother and a wife too. I was still preoccupied
in my engagement-and surely there is nothing
astonishing in that-and I began to compose
the words in which, immediately on the departure of
Mr Nixon after supper, I would tackle my mother on
the subject.
When we had reached the Stilton and
celery, I intimated that I must walk down to the post-office,
as I had to dispatch a letter.
‘Won’t it do tomorrow, my pet?’
asked my mother.
‘It will not,’ I said.
Imagine leaving Agnes two days without
news of my safe arrival and without assurances of
my love! I had started writing the letter in the
train, near Willesden, and I finished it in the drawing-room.
‘A lady in the case?’ Mr Nixon called
out gaily.
‘Yes,’ I replied with firmness.
I went forth, bought a picture postcard
showing St Luke’s Square, Bursley, most untruthfully
picturesque, and posted the card and the letter to
my darling Agnes. I hoped that Mr Nixon would
have departed ere my return; he had made no reference
at all during supper to my mother’s affairs.
But he had not departed. I found him solitary
in the drawing-room, smoking a very fine cigar.
‘Where’s the mater?’ I demanded.
‘She’s just gone out of
the room,’ he said. ’Come and sit
down. Have a weed. I want a bit of a chat
with you, Philip.’
I obeyed, taking one of the very fine cigars.
‘Well, Uncle Nixon,’ I
encouraged him, wishing to get the chat over because
my mind was full of Agnes. I sometimes called
him uncle for fun.
‘Well, my boy,’ he began.
’It’s no use me beating about the bush.
What do you think of me as a stepfather?’
I was struck, as they say down there, all of a heap.
‘What?’ I stammered. ‘You don’t
mean to say-you and mother ?’
He nodded.
’Yes, I do, lad. Yesterday
she promised as she’d marry my unworthy self.
It’s been coming along for some time. But
I don’t expect she’s given you any hint
in her letters. In fact, I know she hasn’t.
It would have been rather difficult, wouldn’t
it? She couldn’t well have written, “My
dear Philip, an old friend, Mr Nixon, is falling in
love with me and I believe I’m falling in love
with him. One of these days he’ll be proposing
to me.” She couldn’t have written
like that, could she?’
I laughed. I could not help it.
‘Shake hands,’ I said warmly. ‘I’m
delighted.’
And soon afterwards my mother sidled in, shyly.
‘The lad’s delighted, Sarah,’ said
Mr Nixon shortly.
I said nothing about my own engagement
that night. I had never thought of my mother
as a woman with a future, I had never realized that
she was desirable, and that a man might desire her,
and that her lonely existence in that house was not
all that she had the right to demand from life.
And I was ashamed of my characteristic filial selfish
egoism. So I decided that I would not intrude
my joys on hers until the next morning. We live
and learn.