Robert Johnson was an essentially
commonplace man, with no feature to distinguish him
from a million others. He was pale of face, ordinary
in looks, neutral in opinions, thirty years of age,
and a married man. By trade he was a gentleman’s
outfitter in the New North Road, and the competition
of business squeezed out of him the little character
that was left. In his hope of conciliating customers
he had become cringing and pliable, until working
ever in the same routine from day to day he seemed
to have sunk into a soulless machine rather than a
man. No great question had ever stirred him.
At the end of this snug century, self-contained in
his own narrow circle, it seemed impossible that any
of the mighty, primitive passions of mankind could
ever reach him. Yet birth, and lust, and illness,
and death are changeless things, and when one of these
harsh facts springs out upon a man at some sudden turn
of the path of life, it dashes off for the moment
his mask of civilisation and gives a glimpse of the
stranger and stronger face below.
Johnson’s wife was a quiet little
woman, with brown hair and gentle ways. His
affection for her was the one positive trait in his
character. Together they would lay out the shop
window every Monday morning, the spotless shirts in
their green cardboard boxes below, the neckties above
hung in rows over the brass rails, the cheap studs
glistening from the white cards at either side, while
in the background were the rows of cloth caps and
the bank of boxes in which the more valuable hats
were screened from the sunlight. She kept the
books and sent out the bills. No one but she
knew the joys and sorrows which crept into his small
life. She had shared his exultations when
the gentleman who was going to India had bought ten
dozen shirts and an incredible number of collars,
and she had been as stricken as he when, after the
goods had gone, the bill was returned from the hotel
address with the intimation that no such person had
lodged there. For five years they had worked,
building up the business, thrown together all the
more closely because their marriage had been a childless
one. Now, however, there were signs that a change
was at hand, and that speedily. She was unable
to come downstairs, and her mother, Mrs. Peyton, came
over from Camberwell to nurse her and to welcome her
grandchild.
Little qualms of anxiety came over
Johnson as his wife’s time approached.
However, after all, it was a natural process.
Other men’s wives went through it unharmed,
and why should not his? He was himself one of
a family of fourteen, and yet his mother was alive
and hearty. It was quite the exception for anything
to go wrong. And yet in spite of his reasonings
the remembrance of his wife’s condition was always
like a sombre background to all his other thoughts.
Dr. Miles of Bridport Place, the best
man in the neighbourhood, was retained five months
in advance, and, as time stole on, many little packets
of absurdly small white garments with frill work and
ribbons began to arrive among the big consignments
of male necessities. And then one evening, as
Johnson was ticketing the scarfs in the shop, he heard
a bustle upstairs, and Mrs. Peyton came running down
to say that Lucy was bad and that she thought the
doctor ought to be there without delay.
It was not Robert Johnson’s
nature to hurry. He was prim and staid and liked
to do things in an orderly fashion. It was a
quarter of a mile from the corner of the New North
Road where his shop stood to the doctor’s house
in Bridport Place. There were no cabs in sight
so he set off upon foot, leaving the lad to mind the
shop. At Bridport Place he was told that the
doctor had just gone to Harman Street to attend a
man in a fit. Johnson started off for Harman
Street, losing a little of his primness as he became
more anxious. Two full cabs but no empty ones
passed him on the way. At Harman Street he learned
that the doctor had gone on to a case of measles,
fortunately he had left the address 69
Dunstan Road, at the other side of the Regent’s
Canal. Robert’s primness had vanished now
as he thought of the women waiting at home, and he
began to run as hard as he could down the Kingsland
Road. Some way along he sprang into a cab which
stood by the curb and drove to Dunstan Road.
The doctor had just left, and Robert Johnson felt
inclined to sit down upon the steps in despair.
Fortunately he had not sent the cab
away, and he was soon back at Bridport Place.
Dr. Miles had not returned yet, but they were expecting
him every instant. Johnson waited, drumming his
fingers on his knees, in a high, dim lit room, the
air of which was charged with a faint, sickly smell
of ether. The furniture was massive, and the
books in the shelves were sombre, and a squat black
clock ticked mournfully on the mantelpiece.
It told him that it was half-past seven, and that
he had been gone an hour and a quarter. Whatever
would the women think of him! Every time that
a distant door slammed he sprang from his chair in
a quiver of eagerness. His ears strained to catch
the deep notes of the doctor’s voice.
And then, suddenly, with a gush of joy he heard a
quick step outside, and the sharp click of the key
in the lock. In an instant he was out in the
hall, before the doctor’s foot was over the
threshold.
“If you please, doctor, I’ve
come for you,” he cried; “the wife was
taken bad at six o’clock.”
He hardly knew what he expected the
doctor to do. Something very energetic, certainly to
seize some drugs, perhaps, and rush excitedly with
him through the gaslit streets. Instead of that
Dr. Miles threw his umbrella into the rack, jerked
off his hat with a somewhat peevish gesture, and pushed
Johnson back into the room.
“Let’s see! You
did engage me, didn’t you?” he asked
in no very cordial voice.
“Oh, yes, doctor, last November.
Johnson the outfitter, you know, in the New North
Road.”
“Yes, yes. It’s
a bit overdue,” said the doctor, glancing at
a list of names in a note-book with a very shiny cover.
“Well, how is she?”
“I don’t ”
“Ah, of course, it’s your first.
You’ll know more about it next time.”
“Mrs. Peyton said it was time you were there,
sir.”
“My dear sir, there can be no
very pressing hurry in a first case. We shall
have an all-night affair, I fancy. You can’t
get an engine to go without coals, Mr. Johnson, and
I have had nothing but a light lunch.”
“We could have something cooked
for you something hot and a cup of tea.”
“Thank you, but I fancy my dinner
is actually on the table. I can do no good in
the earlier stages. Go home and say that I am
coming, and I will be round immediately afterwards.”
A sort of horror filled Robert Johnson
as he gazed at this man who could think about his
dinner at such a moment. He had not imagination
enough to realise that the experience which seemed
so appallingly important to him, was the merest everyday
matter of business to the medical man who could not
have lived for a year had he not, amid the rush of
work, remembered what was due to his own health.
To Johnson he seemed little better than a monster.
His thoughts were bitter as he sped back to his shop.
“You’ve taken your time,”
said his mother-in-law reproachfully, looking down
the stairs as he entered.
“I couldn’t help it!” he gasped.
“Is it over?”
“Over! She’s got
to be worse, poor dear, before she can be better.
Where’s Dr. Miles!”
“He’s coming after he’s
had dinner.” The old woman was about to
make some reply, when, from the half-opened door behind
a high whinnying voice cried out for her. She
ran back and closed the door, while Johnson, sick
at heart, turned into the shop. There he sent
the lad home and busied himself frantically in putting
up shutters and turning out boxes. When all
was closed and finished he seated himself in the parlour
behind the shop. But he could not sit still.
He rose incessantly to walk a few paces and then
fell back into a chair once more. Suddenly the
clatter of china fell upon his ear, and he saw the
maid pass the door with a cup on a tray and a smoking
teapot.
“Who is that for, Jane?” he asked.
“For the mistress, Mr. Johnson. She says
she would fancy it.”
There was immeasurable consolation
to him in that homely cup of tea. It wasn’t
so very bad after all if his wife could think of such
things. So light-hearted was he that he asked
for a cup also. He had just finished it when
the doctor arrived, with a small black leather bag
in his hand.
“Well, how is she?” he asked genially.
“Oh, she’s very much better,” said
Johnson, with enthusiasm.
“Dear me, that’s bad!”
said the doctor. “Perhaps it will do if
I look in on my morning round?”
“No, no,” cried Johnson,
clutching at his thick frieze overcoat. “We
are so glad that you have come. And, doctor,
please come down soon and let me know what you think
about it.”
The doctor passed upstairs, his firm,
heavy steps resounding through the house. Johnson
could hear his boots creaking as he walked about the
floor above him, and the sound was a consolation to
him. It was crisp and decided, the tread of
a man who had plenty of self-confidence. Presently,
still straining his ears to catch what was going on,
he heard the scraping of a chair as it was drawn along
the floor, and a moment later he heard the door fly
open and someone come rushing downstairs. Johnson
sprang up with his hair bristling, thinking that some
dreadful thing had occurred, but it was only his mother-in-law,
incoherent with excitement and searching for scissors
and some tape. She vanished again and Jane passed
up the stairs with a pile of newly aired linen.
Then, after an interval of silence, Johnson heard
the heavy, creaking tread and the doctor came down
into the parlour.
“That’s better,”
said he, pausing with his hand upon the door.
“You look pale, Mr. Johnson.”
“Oh no, sir, not at all,”
he answered deprecatingly, mopping his brow with his
handkerchief.
“There is no immediate cause
for alarm,” said Dr. Miles. “The
case is not all that we could wish it. Still
we will hope for the best.”
“Is there danger, sir?” gasped Johnson.
“Well, there is always danger,
of course. It is not altogether a favourable
case, but still it might be much worse. I have
given her a draught. I saw as I passed that
they have been doing a little building opposite to
you. It’s an improving quarter. The
rents go higher and higher. You have a lease
of your own little place, eh?”
“Yes, sir, yes!” cried
Johnson, whose ears were straining for every sound
from above, and who felt none the less that it was
very soothing that the doctor should be able to chat
so easily at such a time. “That’s
to say no, sir, I am a yearly tenant.”
“Ah, I should get a lease if
I were you. There’s Marshall, the watchmaker,
down the street. I attended his wife twice and
saw him through the typhoid when they took up the
drains in Prince Street. I assure you his landlord
sprung his rent nearly forty a year and he had to
pay or clear out.”
“Did his wife get through it, doctor?”
“Oh yes, she did very well. Hullo! hullo!”
He slanted his ear to the ceiling
with a questioning face, and then darted swiftly from
the room.
It was March and the evenings were
chill, so Jane had lit the fire, but the wind drove
the smoke downwards and the air was full of its acrid
taint. Johnson felt chilled to the bone, though
rather by his apprehensions than by the weather.
He crouched over the fire with his thin white hands
held out to the blaze. At ten o’clock Jane
brought in the joint of cold meat and laid his place
for supper, but he could not bring himself to touch
it. He drank a glass of the beer, however, and
felt the better for it. The tension of his nerves
seemed to have reacted upon his hearing, and he was
able to follow the most trivial things in the room
above. Once, when the beer was still heartening
him, he nerved himself to creep on tiptoe up the stair
and to listen to what was going on. The bedroom
door was half an inch open, and through the slit he
could catch a glimpse of the clean-shaven face of the
doctor, looking wearier and more anxious than before.
Then he rushed downstairs like a lunatic, and running
to the door he tried to distract his thoughts by watching
what; was going on in the street. The shops
were all shut, and some rollicking boon companions
came shouting along from the public-house. He
stayed at the door until the stragglers had thinned
down, and then came back to his seat by the fire.
In his dim brain he was asking himself questions
which had never intruded themselves before.
Where was the justice of it? What had his sweet,
innocent little wife done that she should be used so?
Why was nature so cruel? He was frightened
at his own thoughts, and yet wondered that they had
never occurred to him before.
As the early morning drew in, Johnson,
sick at heart and shivering in every limb, sat with
his great coat huddled round him, staring at the grey
ashes and waiting hopelessly for some relief.
His face was white and clammy, and his nerves had
been numbed into a half conscious state by the long
monotony of misery. But suddenly all his feelings
leapt into keen life again as he heard the bedroom
door open and the doctor’s steps upon the stair.
Robert Johnson was precise and unemotional in everyday
life, but he almost shrieked now as he rushed forward
to know if it were over.
One glance at the stern, drawn face
which met him showed that it was no pleasant news
which had sent the doctor downstairs. His appearance
had altered as much as Johnson’s during the
last few hours. His hair was on end, his face
flushed, his forehead dotted with beads of perspiration.
There was a peculiar fierceness in his eye, and about
the lines of his mouth, a fighting look as befitted
a man who for hours on end had been striving with
the hungriest of foes for the most precious of prizes.
But there was a sadness too, as though his grim opponent
had been overmastering him. He sat down and leaned
his head upon his hand like a man who is fagged out.
“I thought it my duty to see
you, Mr. Johnson, and to tell you that it is a very
nasty case. Your wife’s heart is not strong,
and she has some symptoms which I do not like.
What I wanted to say is that if you would like to
have a second opinion I shall be very glad to meet
anyone whom you might suggest.”
Johnson was so dazed by his want of
sleep and the evil news that he could hardly grasp
the doctor’s meaning. The other, seeing
him hesitate, thought that he was considering the
expense.
“Smith or Hawley would come
for two guineas,” said he. “But I
think Pritchard of the City Road is the best man.”
“Oh, yes, bring the best man,” cried Johnson.
“Pritchard would want three guineas. He
is a senior man, you see.”
“I’d give him all I have
if he would pull her through. Shall I run for
him?”
“Yes. Go to my house first
and ask for the green baize bag. The assistant
will give it to you. Tell him I want the A. C.
E. mixture. Her heart is too weak for chloroform.
Then go for Pritchard and bring him back with you.”
It was heavenly for Johnson to have
something to do and to feel that he was of some use
to his wife. He ran swiftly to Bridport Place,
his footfalls clattering through the silent streets
and the big dark policemen turning their yellow funnels
of light on him as he passed. Two tugs at the
night-bell brought down a sleepy, half-clad assistant,
who handed him a stoppered glass bottle and a cloth
bag which contained something which clinked when you
moved it. Johnson thrust the bottle into his
pocket, seized the green bag, and pressing his hat
firmly down ran as hard as he could set foot to ground
until he was in the City Road and saw the name of
Pritchard engraved in white upon a red ground.
He bounded in triumph up the three steps which led
to the door, and as he did so there was a crash behind
him. His precious bottle was in fragments upon
the pavement.
For a moment he felt as if it were
his wife’s body that was lying there.
But the run had freshened his wits and he saw that
the mischief might be repaired. He pulled vigorously
at the night-bell.
“Well, what’s the matter?”
asked a gruff voice at his elbow. He started
back and looked up at the windows, but there was no
sign of life. He was approaching the bell again
with the intention of pulling it, when a perfect roar
burst from the wall.
“I can’t stand shivering
here all night,” cried the voice. “Say
who you are and what you want or I shut the tube.”
Then for the first time Johnson saw
that the end of a speaking-tube hung out of the wall
just above the bell. He shouted up it,
“I want you to come with me
to meet Dr. Miles at a confinement at once.”
“How far?” shrieked the irascible voice.
“The New North Road, Hoxton.”
“My consultation fee is three guineas, payable
at the time.”
“All right,” shouted Johnson.
“You are to bring a bottle of A. C. E. mixture
with you.”
“All right! Wait a bit!”
Five minutes later an elderly, hard-faced
man, with grizzled hair, flung open the door.
As he emerged a voice from somewhere in the shadows
cried,
“Mind you take your cravat,
John,” and he impatiently growled something
over his shoulder in reply.
The consultant was a man who had been
hardened by a life of ceaseless labour, and who had
been driven, as so many others have been, by the needs
of his own increasing family to set the commercial
before the philanthropic side of his profession.
Yet beneath his rough crust he was a man with a kindly
heart.
“We don’t want to break
a record,” said he, pulling up and panting after
attempting to keep up with Johnson for five minutes.
“I would go quicker if I could, my dear sir,
and I quite sympathise with your anxiety, but really
I can’t manage it.”
So Johnson, on fire with impatience,
had to slow down until they reached the New North
Road, when he ran ahead and had the door open for
the doctor when he came. He heard the two meet
outside the bed-room, and caught scraps of their conversation.
“Sorry to knock you up nasty case decent
people.” Then it sank into a mumble and
the door closed behind them.
Johnson sat up in his chair now, listening
keenly, for he knew that a crisis must be at hand.
He heard the two doctors moving about, and was able
to distinguish the step of Pritchard, which had a drag
in it, from the clean, crisp sound of the other’s
footfall. There was silence for a few minutes
and then a curious drunken, mumbling sing-song voice
came quavering up, very unlike anything which he had
heard hitherto. At the same time a sweetish,
insidious scent, imperceptible perhaps to any nerves
less strained than his, crept down the stairs and penetrated
into the room. The voice dwindled into a mere
drone and finally sank away into silence, and Johnson
gave a long sigh of relief, for he knew that the drug
had done its work and that, come what might, there
should be no more pain for the sufferer.
But soon the silence became even more
trying to him than the cries had been. He had
no clue now as to what was going on, and his mind swarmed
with horrible possibilities. He rose and went
to the bottom of the stairs again. He heard
the clink of metal against metal, and the subdued
murmur of the doctors’ voices. Then he
heard Mrs. Peyton say something, in a tone as of fear
or expostulation, and again the doctors murmured together.
For twenty minutes he stood there leaning against
the wall, listening to the occasional rumbles of talk
without being able to catch a word of it. And
then of a sudden there rose out of the silence the
strangest little piping cry, and Mrs. Peyton screamed
out in her delight and the man ran into the parlour
and flung himself down upon the horse-hair sofa, drumming
his heels on it in his ecstasy.
But often the great cat Fate lets
us go only to clutch us again in a fiercer grip.
As minute after minute passed and still no sound came
from above save those thin, glutinous cries, Johnson
cooled from his frenzy of joy, and lay breathless
with his ears straining. They were moving slowly
about. They were talking in subdued tones.
Still minute after minute passing, and no word from
the voice for which he listened. His nerves were
dulled by his night of trouble, and he waited in limp
wretchedness upon his sofa. There he still sat
when the doctors came down to him a bedraggled,
miserable figure with his face grimy and his hair
unkempt from his long vigil. He rose as they
entered, bracing himself against the mantelpiece.
“Is she dead?” he asked.
“Doing well,” answered the doctor.
And at the words that little conventional
spirit which had never known until that night the
capacity for fierce agony which lay within it, learned
for the second time that there were springs of joy
also which it had never tapped before. His impulse
was to fall upon his knees, but he was shy before
the doctors.
“Can I go up?”
“In a few minutes.”
“I’m sure, doctor, I’m
very I’m very ”
he grew inarticulate. “Here are your three
guineas, Dr. Pritchard. I wish they were three
hundred.”
“So do I,” said the senior man, and they
laughed as they shook hands.
Johnson opened the shop door for them
and heard their talk as they stood for an instant
outside.
“Looked nasty at one time.”
“Very glad to have your help.”
“Delighted, I’m sure. Won’t
you step round and have a cup of coffee?”
“No, thanks. I’m expecting another
case.”
The firm step and the dragging one
passed away to the right and the left. Johnson
turned from the door still with that turmoil of joy
in his heart. He seemed to be making a new start
in life. He felt that he was a stronger and
a deeper man. Perhaps all this suffering had
an object then. It might prove to be a blessing
both to his wife and to him. The very thought
was one which he would have been incapable of conceiving
twelve hours before. He was full of new emotions.
If there had been a harrowing there had been a planting
too.
“Can I come up?” he cried,
and then, without waiting for an answer, he took the
steps three at a time.
Mrs. Peyton was standing by a soapy
bath with a bundle in her hands. From under the
curve of a brown shawl there looked out at him the
strangest little red face with crumpled features, moist,
loose lips, and eyelids which quivered like a rabbit’s
nostrils. The weak neck had let the head topple
over, and it rested upon the shoulder.
“Kiss it, Robert!” cried
the grandmother. “Kiss your son!”
But he felt a resentment to the little,
red, blinking creature. He could not forgive
it yet for that long night of misery. He caught
sight of a white face in the bed and he ran towards
it with such love and pity as his speech could find
no words for.
“Thank God it is over! Lucy, dear, it
was dreadful!”
“But I’m so happy now. I never was
so happy in my life.”
Her eyes were fixed upon the brown bundle.
“You mustn’t talk,” said Mrs. Peyton.
“But don’t leave me,” whispered
his wife.
So he sat in silence with his hand
in hers. The lamp was burning dim and the first
cold light of dawn was breaking through the window.
The night had been long and dark but the day was
the sweeter and the purer in consequence. London
was waking up. The roar began to rise from the
street. Lives had come and lives had gone, but
the great machine was still working out its dim and
tragic destiny.