It is hard for the general practitioner
who sits among his patients both morning and evening,
and sees them in their homes between, to steal time
for one little daily breath of cleanly air. To
win it he must slip early from his bed and walk out
between shuttered shops when it is chill but very
clear, and all things are sharply outlined, as in
a frost. It is an hour that has a charm of its
own, when, but for a postman or a milkman, one has
the pavement to oneself, and even the most common
thing takes an ever-recurring freshness, as though
causeway, and lamp, and signboard had all wakened to
the new day. Then even an inland city may seem
beautiful, and bear virtue in its smoke-tainted air.
But it was by the sea that I lived,
in a town that was unlovely enough were it not for
its glorious neighbour. And who cares for the
town when one can sit on the bench at the headland,
and look out over the huge, blue bay, and the yellow
scimitar that curves before it. I loved it when
its great face was freckled with the fishing boats,
and I loved it when the big ships went past, far out,
a little hillock of white and no hull, with topsails
curved like a bodice, so stately and demure.
But most of all I loved it when no trace of man marred
the majesty of Nature, and when the sun-bursts slanted
down on it from between the drifting rainclouds.
Then I have seen the further edge draped in the gauze
of the driving rain, with its thin grey shading under
the slow clouds, while my headland was golden, and
the sun gleamed upon the breakers and struck deep
through the green waves beyond, showing up the purple
patches where the beds of seaweed are lying.
Such a morning as that, with the wind in his hair,
and the spray on his lips, and the cry of the eddying
gulls in his ear, may send a man back braced afresh
to the reek of a sick-room, and the dead, drab weariness
of practice.
It was on such another day that I
first saw my old man. He came to my bench just
as I was leaving it. My eye must have picked
him out even in a crowded street, for he was a man
of large frame and fine presence, with something of
distinction in the set of his lip and the poise of
his head. He limped up the winding path leaning
heavily upon his stick, as though those great shoulders
had become too much at last for the failing limbs
that bore them. As he approached, my eyes caught
Nature’s danger signal, that faint bluish tinge
in nose and lip which tells of a labouring heart.
“The brae is a little trying,
sir,” said I. “Speaking as a physician,
I should say that you would do well to rest here before
you go further.”
He inclined his head in a stately,
old-world fashion, and seated himself upon the bench.
Seeing that he had no wish to speak I was silent
also, but I could not help watching him out of the
corners of my eyes, for he was such a wonderful survival
of the early half of the century, with his low-crowned,
curly-brimmed hat, his black satin tie which fastened
with a buckle at the back, and, above all, his large,
fleshy, clean-shaven face shot with its mesh of wrinkles.
Those eyes, ere they had grown dim, had looked out
from the box-seat of mail coaches, and had seen the
knots of navvies as they toiled on the brown embankments.
Those lips had smiled over the first numbers of “Pickwick,”
and had gossiped of the promising young man who wrote
them. The face itself was a seventy-year almanack,
and every seam an entry upon it where public as well
as private sorrow left its trace. That pucker
on the forehead stood for the Mutiny, perhaps; that
line of care for the Crimean winter, it may be; and
that last little sheaf of wrinkles, as my fancy hoped,
for the death of Gordon. And so, as I dreamed
in my foolish way, the old gentleman with the shining
stock was gone, and it was seventy years of a great
nation’s life that took shape before me on the
headland in the morning.
But he soon brought me back to earth
again. As he recovered his breath he took a
letter out of his pocket, and, putting on a pair of
horn-rimmed eye-glasses, he read it through very carefully.
Without any design of playing the spy I could not
help observing that it was in a woman’s hand.
When he had finished it he read it again, and then
sat with the corners of his mouth drawn down and his
eyes staring vacantly out over the bay, the most forlorn-looking
old gentleman that ever I have seen. All that
is kindly within me was set stirring by that wistful
face, but I knew that he was in no humour for talk,
and so, at last, with my breakfast and my patients
calling me, I left him on the bench and started for
home.
I never gave him another thought until
the next morning, when, at the same hour, he turned
up upon the headland, and shared the bench which I
had been accustomed to look upon as my own. He
bowed again before sitting down, but was no more inclined
than formerly to enter into conversation. There
had been a change in him during the last twenty-four
hours, and all for the worse. The face seemed
more heavy and more wrinkled, while that ominous venous
tinge was more pronounced as he panted up the hill.
The clean lines of his cheek and chin were marred
by a day’s growth of grey stubble, and his large,
shapely head had lost something of the brave carriage
which had struck me when first I glanced at him.
He had a letter there, the same, or another, but
still in a woman’s hand, and over this he was
moping and mumbling in his senile fashion, with his
brow puckered, and the corners of his mouth drawn
down like those of a fretting child. So I left
him, with a vague wonder as to who he might be, and
why a single spring day should have wrought such a
change upon him.
So interested was I that next morning
I was on the look out for him. Sure enough, at
the same hour, I saw him coming up the hill; but very
slowly, with a bent back and a heavy head. It
was shocking to me to see the change in him as he
approached.
“I am afraid that our air does
not agree with you, sir,” I ventured to remark.
But it was as though he had no heart
for talk. He tried, as I thought, to make some
fitting reply, but it slurred off into a mumble and
silence. How bent and weak and old he seemed ten
years older at the least than when first I had seen
him! It went to my heart to see this fine old
fellow wasting away before my eyes. There was
the eternal letter which he unfolded with his shaking
fingers. Who was this woman whose words moved
him so? Some daughter, perhaps, or granddaughter,
who should have been the light of his home instead
of I smiled to find how bitter
I was growing, and how swiftly I was weaving a romance
round an unshaven old man and his correspondence.
Yet all day he lingered in my mind, and I had fitful
glimpses of those two trembling, blue-veined, knuckly
hands with the paper rustling between them.
I had hardly hoped to see him again.
Another day’s decline must, I thought, hold
him to his room, if not to his bed. Great, then,
was my surprise when, as I approached my bench, I
saw that he was already there. But as I came
up to him I could scarce be sure that it was indeed
the same man. There were the curly-brimmed hat,
and the shining stock, and the horn glasses, but where
were the stoop and the grey-stubbled, pitiable face?
He was clean-shaven and firm lipped, with a bright
eye and a head that poised itself upon his great shoulders
like an eagle on a rock. His back was as straight
and square as a grenadier’s, and he switched
at the pebbles with his stick in his exuberant vitality.
In the button-hole of his well-brushed black coat
there glinted a golden blossom, and the corner of a
dainty red silk handkerchief lapped over from his
breast pocket. He might have been the eldest
son of the weary creature who had sat there the morning
before.
“Good morning, Sir, good morning!”
he cried with a merry waggle of his cane.
“Good morning!” I answered,
“how beautiful the bay is looking.”
“Yes, Sir, but you should have
seen it just before the sun rose.”
“What, have you been here since then?”
“I was here when there was scarce light to see
the path.”
“You are a very early riser.”
“On occasion, sir; on occasion!”
He cocked his eye at me as if to gauge whether I
were worthy of his confidence. “The fact
is, sir, that my wife is coming back to me to day.”
I suppose that my face showed that
I did not quite see the force of the explanation.
My eyes, too, may have given him assurance of sympathy,
for he moved quite close to me and began speaking in
a low, confidential voice, as if the matter were of
such weight that even the sea-gulls must be kept out
of our councils.
“Are you a married man, Sir?”
“No, I am not.”
“Ah, then you cannot quite understand
it. My wife and I have been married for nearly
fifty years, and we have never been parted, never at
all, until now.”
“Was it for long?” I asked.
“Yes, sir. This is the
fourth day. She had to go to Scotland.
A matter of duty, you understand, and the doctors
would not let me go. Not that I would have allowed
them to stop me, but she was on their side.
Now, thank God! it is over, and she may be here at
any moment.”
“Here!”
“Yes, here. This headland
and bench were old friends of ours thirty years ago.
The people with whom we stay are not, to tell the
truth, very congenial, and we have, little privacy
among them. That is why we prefer to meet here.
I could not be sure which train would bring her,
but if she had come by the very earliest she would
have found me waiting.”
“In that case ” said
I, rising.
“No, sir, no,” he entreated,
“I beg that you will stay. It does not
weary you, this domestic talk of mine?”
“On the contrary.”
“I have been so driven inwards
during these few last days! Ah, what a nightmare
it has been! Perhaps it may seem strange to you
that an old fellow like me should feel like this.”
“It is charming.”
“No credit to me, sir!
There’s not a man on this planet but would feel
the same if he had the good fortune to be married to
such a woman. Perhaps, because you see me like
this, and hear me speak of our long life together,
you conceive that she is old, too.”
He laughed heartily, and his eyes twinkled at the
humour of the idea.
“She’s one of those women,
you know, who have youth in their hearts, and so it
can never be very far from their faces. To me
she’s just as she was when she first took my
hand in hers in ’45. A wee little bit
stouter, perhaps, but then, if she had a fault as a
girl, it was that she was a shade too slender.
She was above me in station, you know I
a clerk, and she the daughter of my employer.
Oh! it was quite a romance, I give you my word, and
I won her; and, somehow, I have never got over the
freshness and the wonder of it. To think that
that sweet, lovely girl has walked by my side all
through life, and that I have been able ”
He stopped suddenly, and I glanced
round at him in surprise. He was shaking all
over, in every fibre of his great body. His hands
were clawing at the woodwork, and his feet shuffling
on the gravel. I saw what it was. He was
trying to rise, but was so excited that he could not.
I half extended my hand, but a higher courtesy constrained
me to draw it back again and turn my face to the sea.
An instant afterwards he was up and hurrying down
the path.
A woman was coming towards us.
She was quite close before he had seen her thirty
yards at the utmost. I know not if she had ever
been as he described her, or whether it was but some
ideal which he carried in his brain. The person
upon whom I looked was tall, it is true, but she was
thick and shapeless, with a ruddy, full-blown face,
and a skirt grotesquely gathered up. There
was a green ribbon in her hat, which jarred upon my
eyes, and her blouse-like bodice was full and clumsy.
And this was the lovely girl, the ever youthful!
My heart sank as I thought how little such a woman
might appreciate him, how unworthy she might be of
his love.
She came up the path in her solid
way, while he staggered along to meet her. Then,
as they came together, looking discreetly out of the
furthest corner of my eye, I saw that he put out both
his hands, while she, shrinking from a public caress,
took one of them in hers and shook it. As she
did so I saw her face, and I was easy in my mind for
my old man. God grant that when this hand is
shaking, and when this back is bowed, a woman’s
eyes may look so into mine.