On the very spot which the railway
station has usurped, with its long slate roof, wooden
signal-box, and advertisements in blue and white enamel,
I can recall a still pool shining between beds of the
flowering rush; and to this day, as I wait for the
train, the whir of a vanished water-wheel comes up
the valley. Sometimes I have caught myself gazing
along the curve of the narrow-gauge in full expectation
to see a sagged and lichen-covered roof at the end
of it. And sometimes, of late, it has occurred
to me that there never was such a mill as I used to
know down yonder; and that the miller, whose coat
was always powdered so fragrantly, was but a white
ghost, after all. The station-master and porters
remember no such person.
But he was no ghost; for I have met
him again this week, and upon the station platform.
I had started at daybreak to fish up the stream that
runs down the valley in curves roughly parallel to
the railway embankment; and coming within sight of
the station, a little before noon, I put up my tackle
and strolled towards the booking-office. The
water was much too fine for sport, and it seemed worth
while to break off for a pipe and a look at the 12.26
train. Such are the simple pleasures of a country
life.
I leant my rod against the wall, and
was setting down my creel, when, glancing down the
platform, I saw an old man seated on the furthest
bench. Everybody knows how a passing event, or
impression, sometimes appears but a vain echo of previous
experience. Something in the lines of this old
man’s figure, as he leaned forward with both
hands clasped upon his staff, gave me the sensation.
“All this has happened before,” I told
myself. “He and I are playing over again
some small and futile scene in our past lives.
I wonder who he is, and what is the use of it?”
But there was something wanting in
the picture to complete its resemblance to the scene
for which I searched my memory.
The man had bent further forward,
and was resting his chin on his hands and staring
apathetically across the rails. Suddenly it dawned
on me that there ought to be another figure on the
bench - the figure of an old woman; and my
memory ran back to the day after this railway was
opened, when this man and his wife had sat together
on the platform waiting to see the train come in - that
fascinating monster whose advent had blotted out the
very foundations of the old mill and driven its tenants
to a strange home.
The mill had disappeared many months
before that, but the white dust still hung in the
creases of the miller’s clothes. He wore
his Sunday hat and the Sunday polish on his shoes;
and his wife was arrayed in her best Paisley shawl.
She carried also a bunch of cottage flowers, withering
in her large hot hand. It was clear they had never
seen a locomotive before, and wished to show it all
respect. They had taken a smaller house in the
next valley, where they attempted to live on their
savings; and had been trying vainly and pitifully to
struggle with all the little habits that had been
their life for thirty-five years, and to adapt them
to new quarters. Their faces were weary, but
flushed with expectation. The man kept looking
up the line, and declaring that he heard the rumble
of the engine in the distance; and whenever he said
this, his wife pulled the shawl more primly about her
shoulders, straightened her back, and nervously re-arranged
her posy.
When at length the whistle screamed
out, at the head of the vale, I thought they were
going to tumble off the bench. The woman went
white to the lips, and stole her disengaged hand into
her husband’s.
“Startlin’ at first, hey?”
he said, bravely winning back his composure:
“but ’tis wunnerful what control the driver
has, they tell me. They only employ the cleverest
men -
A rattle and roar drowned the rest
of his words, and he blinked and leant back, holding
the woman’s hand and tapping it softly as the
engine rushed down with a blast of white vapour hissing
under its fore wheels, and the carriages clanked upon
each other, and the whole train came to a standstill
before us.
The station-master and porter walked
down the line of carriages, bawling out the name of
the station. The driver leaned out over his rail,
and the guard, standing by the door of his van, with
a green flag under his arm, looked enquiringly at
me and at the old couple on the bench. But I
had only strolled up to have a look at the new train,
and meant to resume my fishing as soon as it had passed.
And the miller sat still, holding his wife’s
hand.
They were staring with all their eyes - not
resentfully, though face to face with the enemy that
had laid waste their habitation and swept all comfort
out of their lives; but with a simple awe. Manifestly,
too, they expected something more to happen.
I saw the old woman searching the incurious features
of the few passengers, and I thought her own features
expressed some disappointment.
“This,” observed the guard
scornfully, pulling out his watch as he spoke, “is
what you call traffic in these parts.”
The station-master was abashed, and
forced a deprecatory laugh. The guard - who
was an up-country man - treated this laugh
with contempt, and blew his whistle sharply.
The driver answered, and the train moved on.
I was gazing after it when a woeful
exclamation drew my attention back to the bench.
“Why, ’tis gone!”
“Gone?” echoed the miller’s
wife. “Of course ’tis gone; and of
all the dilly-dallyin’ men, I must say, John,
you’m the dilly-dalliest. Why didn’
you say we wanted to ride?”
“I thought, maybe, they’d
have axed us. ‘Twouldn’ ha’
been polite to thrust oursel’s forrard if they
didn’ want our company. Besides, I thought
they’d be here for a brave while -
“You was always a man of excuses.
You knew I’d set my heart ’pon this feat.”
I had left them to patch up their
little quarrel. But the scene stuck in my memory,
and now, as I walked down the platform towards the
single figure on the bench, I wondered, amusedly, if
the woman had at length taken the ride alone, and
if the procrastinating husband sat here to welcome
her back.
As I drew near, I took note of his
clothes for the first time. There was no white
dust in the creases to-day. In fact, he wore the
workhouse suit.
I sat down beside him, and asked if
he remembered a certain small boy who had used to
draw dace out of his mill-pond. With some difficulty
he recalled my features, and by decrees let out the
story of his life during the last ten years.
He and his wife had fought along in
their new house, hiding their discomfort from each
other, and abiding the slow degrees by which their
dwelling should change into a home. But before
that change was worked, the woman fell under a paralytic
stroke, and their savings, on which they had just
contrived to live, threatened to be swallowed up by
the doctor’s bill. After considering long,
the miller wrote off to his only son, a mechanic in
the Plymouth Dockyard, and explained the case.
This son was a man of forty or thereabouts, was married,
and had a long family. He could not afford to
take the invalid into his house for nothing; but his
daughters would look after their grandmother and she
should have good medical care as well, if she came
on a small allowance.
“So the only thing to be done,
sir, was for my old woman to go.”
“And you ?”
“Oh, I went into the ‘House.’
You see, there wasn’ enough for both, livin’
apart.”
I stared down the line to the spot
where the mill-wheel had hummed so pleasantly, and
the compassionate sentence I was about to utter withered
up and died on my lips.
“But to-day - Oh, to-day, sir -
“What’s happening to-day?”
“She’s comin’ down
to see me for an hour or two; an’ I’ve
got a holiday to meet her. ‘Tis our Golden
Weddin’, sir.”
“But why are you meeting her
at this station instead of Tregarrick? She can’t
walk, and you have no horse and trap; whereas there’s
always a ’bus at Tregarrick.”
“Well, you see, sir, there’s
a very tidy little cottage below where they sell ginger-beer,
an’ I’ve got a whack o’ vittles in
the basket here, besides what William is bringin’ - William
an’ his wife are comin’ down with her.
They’ll take her back by the last train up; an’
I thought, as ‘twas so little a while, an’
the benches here are so comfortable, we’d pass
our day ’pon the platform here. ’Tis
within sight o’ the old home, too, or ruther
o’ the spot where the old home used to be:
an’ though ‘tis little notice she seems
to take o’ things, one never can tell if poor
creatures in that state hain’t pleased
behind all their dazed looks. What do you think,
sir?”
The whistle sounded up the valley,
and mercifully prevented my answer. I saw the
woman for an instant as she was brought out of the
train and carried to the bench. She did not recognise
the man she had married fifty years before: but
as we moved out of the station, he was sitting beside
her, his face transfigured with a solemn joy.