She was sitting there rigid, cold
as a statue, when the rescuers brought them ashore
and helped them up the slope. A small crowd
surrounded the carriage. In the rays of their
moving lanterns her face altered nothing to all their
furtive glances of sympathy opposing the same white
mask. Some one said, “There’s only
two, then!” Another, with a nudge and a nod
at the carriage, told him to hold his peace.
She heard. Her lips hardened.
Lizzie Pezzack had rushed down to
the shore to meet the boat. She was bringing
her child along with a fond, wild babble of tender
names and sobs and cries of thankfulness. In
pauses, choked and overcome, she caught him to her,
felt his limbs, pressed his wet face against her neck
and bosom. Taffy, supported by strong arms and
hurried in her wake, had a hideous sense of being paraded
in her triumph. The men around him who had raised
a faint cheer sank their voices as they neared the
carriage; but the woman went forward, jubilant and
ruthless, flaunting her joy as it were a flag blown
in her eyes and blindfolding them to the grief she
insulted.
“Stay!”
It was Honoria’s voice, cold,
incisive, not to be disobeyed. He had prayed
in vain. The procession halted; Lizzie checked
her babble and stood staring, with an arm about Joey’s
neck.
“Let me see the child.”
Lizzie stared, broke into a silly,
triumphant laugh, and thrust the child forward against
the carriage step. The poor waif, drenched,
dazed, tottering without his crutch, caught at the
plated handle for support. Honoria gazed down
on him with eyes which took slow and pitiless account
of the deformed little body, the shrunken, puny limbs.
“Thank you. So this is
what my husband died for. Drive on, please.”
Her eyes, as she lifted them to give
the order, rested for a moment on Taffy with
how much scorn he cared not, could he have leapt and
intercepted Lizzie’s retort.
“And why not? A son’s
a son curse you! though he was
your man!”
It seemed she did not hear; or hearing,
did not understand. Her eyes hardened their
fire on Taffy, and he, lapped in their scorn, thanked
God she had not understood.
“Drive on, please.”
The coachman lowered his whip.
The horses moved forward at a slow walk; the carriage
rolled silently away into the darkness. She had
not understood. Taffy glanced at the faces about
him.
“Ah, poor lady!” said
someone. But no one had understood.
They found George’s body next
morning on the sands a little below the foot-bridge.
He lay there in the morning sunshine as though asleep,
with an arm flung above his head and on his face the
easy smile for which men and women had liked him throughout
his careless life.
The inquest was held next day, in
the library at Carwithiel. Sir Harry insisted
on being present, and sat beside the coroner.
During Taffy’s examination his lips were pursed
up as though whistling a silent tune. Once or
twice he nodded his head.
Taffy gave his evidence discreetly.
The child had been lost; had been found in a perilous
position. He and deceased had gone together
to the rescue. On reaching the child, deceased against
advice had attempted to return across the
sands and had fallen into difficulties. In these
his first thought had been for the child, whom he
had passed to witness to drag out of danger.
When it came to deceased’s turn the crutch,
on which all depended, had parted in two, and he had
been swept away by the tide.
At the conclusion of the story Sir
Harry took snuff and nodded twice. Taffy wondered
how much he knew. The jury, under the coroner’s
direction, brought in a verdict of “death by
misadventure,” and added a word or two in praise
of the dead man’s gallantry. The coroner
complimented Taffy warmly and promised to refer the
case to the Royal Humane Society for public recognition.
The jury nodded, and one or two said “Hear,
hear!” Taffy hoped fervently he would do nothing
of the sort.
The funeral took place on the fourth
day, at nine o’clock in the morning. Such in
the day I write of was the custom of the
country. Friends who lived at a distance rose
and shaved by candle-light, and daybreak found them
horsed and well on their way to the house of mourning,
their errand announced by the long black streamers
tied about their hats. The sad business over
and done with, these guests returned to the house,
where until noon a mighty breakfast lasted and all
were welcome. Their black habiliments and lowered
voices alone marked the difference between it and
a hunting-breakfast.
And indeed this morning Squire Willyams,
who had taken over the hounds after Squire Moyle’s
death, had given secret orders to his huntsmen; and
the pack was waiting at Three-barrow Turnpike, a couple
of miles inland from Carwithiel. At half-past
ten the mourners drained their glasses, shook the
crumbs off their riding-breeches, and took leave;
and after halting outside Carwithiel gates to unpin
and pocket their hat-bands, headed for the meet with
one accord.
A few minutes before noon Squire Willyams,
seated on his grey by the edge of Three-barrow Brake,
and listening to every sound within the covert, happened
to glance an eye across the valley, and let out a
low whistle.
“Well!” said one of a
near group of horsemen catching sight of the rider
pricking toward them down the farther slope, “I
knew en for unbeliever; but this beats all!”
“And his awnly son not three
hours under the mould! Brought up in France
as a youngster he was, and this I s’pose is what
comes of reading Voltaire. My lord for manners,
and no more heart than a wormed nut that’s
Sir Harry, and always was.”
Squire Willyams slewed himself round
in his saddle. He spoke quietly at fifteen yards’
distance, but each word reached the group of horsemen
as clear as a bell.
“Rablin,” he said, “as
a damned fool oblige me during the next few minutes
by keeping your mouth shut.”
With this he resumed his old attitude
and his business of watching the covert side; removing
his eyes for a moment to nod as Sir Harry rode up
and passed on to join the group behind him.
He had scarcely done so when deep
in the undergrowth of blackthorn a hound challenged.
“Spendigo for a fiver! and
well found, by the tune of it,” cried Sir Harry.
“See that patch of grey wall, Rablin there,
in a line beyond the Master’s elbow? I
lay you an even guinea that’s where my gentleman
comes over.”
But honest reprobation mottled the
face of Mr. Rablin, squireen; and as an honest man
he spoke out. Let it go to his credit, because
as a rule he was a snob and inclined to cringe.
“I did not expect” he
cleared his throat “to see you out
to-day, Sir Harry.”
Sir Harry winced, and turned on them
all a grey, woeful face.
“That’s it,” he
said. “I can’t bide home. I
can’t bide home.”
Honoria bided home with her child
and mourned for the dead. As a clever woman far
cleverer than her husband she had seen his
faults while he lived; yet had liked him enough to
forgive without difficulty. But now these faults
faded, and by degrees memory reared an altar to him
as a man little short of divine. At the worst
he had been amiable. A kinder husband never
lived. She reproached herself bitterly with
the half-heartedness of her response to his love; to
his love while it dwelt beside her, unvarying in cheerful
kindness. For (it was the truth, alas! and a
worm that gnawed continually) passionate love she
had never rendered him. She had been content;
but how poor a thing was contentment! She had
never divined his worth, had never given her worship.
And all the while he had been a hero, and in the
end had died as a hero. Ah, for one chance to
redeem the wrong! for one moment to bow herself at
his feet and acknowledge her blindness! Her
prayer was ancient as widowhood, and Heaven, folding
away the irreparable time, returned its first and
last and only solace a dream for the groping
arms; waking and darkness, and an empty pillow for
her tears.
From the first her child had been
dear to her; dearer (so her memory accused her now)
than his father; more demonstratively beloved, at
any rate. But in those miserable months she grew
to love him with a double strength. He bore
George’s name, and was (as Sir Harry proclaimed)
a very miniature of George; repeated his shapeliness
of limb, his firm shoulders, his long lean thighs the
thighs of a born horseman; learned to walk, and lo!
within a week walked with his father’s gait;
had smiles for the whole of his small world, and for
his mother a memory in each.
And yet this was the strange
part of it; a mystery she could not explain because
she dared not even acknowledge it though
she loved him for being like his father, she regarded
the likeness with a growing dread; nay, caught herself
correcting him stealthily when he developed some trivial
trait which she, and she alone, recognised as part
of his father’s legacy. It was what in
the old days she would have called “contradictions,”
but there it was, and she could not help it; the nearer
George in her memory approached to faultlessness,
the more obstinately her instinct fought against her
child’s imitation of him; and yet, because the
child was obstinately George’s, she loved him
with a double love.
There came a day when he told her
a childish falsehood. She did not whip him,
but stood him in front of her and began to reason with
him and explain the wickedness of an untruth.
By-and-by she broke off in the midst of a sentence,
appalled by the shrillness of her own voice.
From argument she had passed to furious scolding.
And the little fellow quailed before her, his contrition
beaten down under the storm of words that whistled
about his ears without meaning, his small faculties
disabled before this spectacle of wrath. Her
fingers were closing and unclosing. They wanted
a riding-switch; they wanted to grip this small body
they had served and fondled, and to cut out
what? The lie? Honoria hated a lie.
But while she paused and shook, a light flashed,
and her eyes were open and saw that it was
not the lie.
She turned and ran, ran upstairs to
her own room, flung herself on her knees beside the
bed, dragged a locket from her bosom and fell to kissing
George’s portrait, passionately crying it for
pardon. She was wicked, base; while he lived
she had misprised him; and this was her abiding punishment,
that not even repentance could purge her heart of
dishonouring thoughts, that her love for him now could
never be stainless though washed with daily tears.
“’He that is unjust, let him be unjust
still.’ Must that be true, Father
of all mercies? I misjudged him, and it is too
late for atonement. But I repent and am afflicted.
Though the dead know nothing though it
can never reach or avail him give me back
the power to be just!”
Late that afternoon Honoria passed
an hour piously in turning over the dead man’s
wardrobe, shaking out and brushing the treasured garments
and folding them, against moth and dust, in fresh tissue
paper. It was a morbid task, perhaps, but it
kept George’s image constantly before her, and
this was what her remorseful mood demanded.
Her nerves were unstrung and her limbs languid after
the recent tempest. By-and-by she locked the
doors of the wardrobe, and passing into her own bedroom,
flung herself on a couch with a bundle of papers old
bills, soiled and folded memoranda, sporting paragraphs
cut from the newspapers scraps found in
his pockets months ago and religiously tied by her
with a silken ribbon. They were mementoes of
a sort, and George had written few letters while wooing not
half a dozen first and last.
Two or three receipted bills lay together
in the middle of the packet one a saddler’s,
a second a nurseryman’s for pot-plants (kept
for the sake of its queer spelling), a third the reckoning
for an hotel luncheon. She was running over
them carelessly when the date at the head of this
last one caught her eye. “August 3rd “ it
fixed her attention because it happened to be the
day before her birthday.
August 3rd such and such
a year the August before his death; and
the hotel a well-known one in Plymouth the
hotel, in fact, at which he had usually put up. .
. . Without a prompting of suspicion she turned
back and ran her eye over the bill. A steak,
a pint of claret, vegetables, cheese, and attendance never
was a more innocent bill.
Suddenly her attention stiffened on
the date. George was in Plymouth the day before
her birthday. But no; as it happened, George
had been in Truro on that day. She remembered,
because he had brought her a diamond pendant, having
written beforehand to the Truro jeweller to get a
dozen down from London to choose from. Yes, she
remembered it clearly, and how he had described his
day in Truro. And the next morning her
birthday morning he had produced the pendant,
wrapped in silver paper. He had thrown away
the case; it was ugly, and he would get her another.
. . .
But the bill? She had stayed
once or twice at this hotel with George, and recognised
the handwriting. The bookkeeper, in compliment
perhaps to a customer of standing, had written “George
Vyell, Esq.” in full on the bill-head, a formality
omitted as a rule in luncheon-reckonings. And
if this scrap of paper told the truth
why, then George had lied!
But why? Ah, if he had done
this thing nothing else mattered, neither the how
nor the why! If George had lied? . . . And
the pendant had that been bought in Plymouth
and not (as he had asserted) in Truro? He had
thrown away the case. Jewellers print their
names inside such cases. The pendant was a handsome
one. Perhaps his cheque-book would tell.
She arose, stepped half-way to the
door, but came back and flung herself again upon the
couch. No; she could not . . . this was the
second time to-day . . . she could not face the torture
again.
Yet . . . if George had lied!
She sat up; sat up with both hands
pressed to her ears to shut out a sudden voice clamouring
through them
“And why not? A son’s
a son curse you! though he was
your man!”