Lizzie Pezzack had put Joey to bed
and was smoothing his coverlet when she heard someone
knocking. She passed out into the front room
and opened to the visitor.
On the doorstep stood a lady in deep
black Honoria. Beyond the garden
wall the lamps of her carriage blazed in the late twilight.
The turf had muffled the sound of wheels, but now the
jingle of shaken bits came loud through the open door.
“Ah!” said Lizzie, drawing
her breath back through her teeth.
“I must speak to you, please.
May I come in? I have a question . . .”
Lizzie turned her back, struck a match,
and lit a candle. “What question?”
she asked with her back turned, her eyes on the flame
as it sank, warming the tallow, and grew bright again.
“It’s . . . it’s
a question,” Honoria began weakly; then shut
the door behind her and advanced into the room.
“Turn round and look at me. Ah, you hate
me, I know!”
“Yes,” Lizzie assented slowly, “I
hate you.”
“But you must answer me. You see, it isn’t
for me alone . . . it’s not a question of our
hating, in a way . . .
it concerns others. . . .”
“Yes?”
“But it’s cowardly of
me to put it so, because it concerns me too.
You don’t know ”
“Maybe I do.”
“But if you did ”
Honoria broke off and then plunged forward desperately.
“That child of yours his father alone
here by ourselves. . . . Think before
you refuse!”
Lizzie set down the candle and eyed her.
“And you,” she
answered at length, dragging out each word
“you can come here and ask me that question?”
For a moment silence fell between
them, and each could hear the other’s breathing.
Then Honoria drew herself up and faced her honestly,
casting out both hands.
“Yes; I had to.”
“You! a lady!”
“Ah, but be honest with me!
Lady or not, what has that to do with it? We
are two women that’s where it all
started, and we’re kept to that.”
Lizzie bent her brows. “Yes, you are right,”
she admitted.
“And,” Honoria pursued
eagerly, “if I come here to sue you for the
truth it is you who force me.”
“I?”
“By what you said that night,
when George when my husband was
drowned; when you cursed me. ‘A son’s
a son,’ you said, ’though he was your
man.’”
“Did I say that?” Lizzie
seemed to muse over the words. “You have
suffered?” she asked.
“Yes, I have suffered.”
“Ah, if I thought so! ...
But you have not. You are a hypocrite, Mrs.
Vyell; and you are trying to cheat me now. You
come here not to end that suffering, but to
force a word from me that’ll put joy and hope
into you; that you’ll go home hugging to your
heart. Oh, I know you!”
“You do not.”
“I do; because I know myself.
From a child I’ve been dirt to your pride,
an item to your money. For years I’ve lived
a shamed woman. But one thing I bought with it one
little thing. Think the price high for it I
dessay it is; but I bought and paid for it and
often when I turn it over in my mind I don’t
count the price too dear.”
“I don’t understand.”
“You may, if you try.
What I bought was the power over you, my proud lady.
While I keep tight lips I have you at the end of a
chain. You come here to-night to break it; one
little word and you’ll be free and glad.
But no, and no, and no! You may guess till you’re
tired you may be sure in your heart; but
it’s all no good without that little word you’ll
never get from me.”
“You shall speak!”
Lizzie shrugged her shoulders and picked up the candle.
“Simme,” she said, “you’d
best go back to your carriage and horses. My
li’l boy’s in the next room, tryin’
to sleep; and ‘tisn’ fit he heard much
of this.”
She passed resolutely into the bedroom,
leaving her visitor to darkness. But Honoria,
desperate now, pushed after her, scarcely knowing
what she did or meant to do.
“You shall speak!”
The house-door opened and light footsteps
came running through the outer room. It was
little George, and he pulled at her skirts.
“Mummy, the horses are taking cold!”
But Honoria still advanced. “You shall
speak!”
Joey, catching sight of her from the
bed, screamed and hid his face. To him she was
a thing of horror. From the night when, thrust
beneath her eyes, he had cowered by her carriage-step,
she had haunted his worst dreams. And now, black-robed
and terrible of face, she had come to lay hands on
him and carry him straight to hell.
“Mother! Take her away! take her away!”
His screams rang through the room.
“Hush, dear!” cried Lizzie, running to
him; and laid a hand on his shoulder.
But the child, far too terrified to
know whose hand it was, flung himself from her with
a wilder scream than any; flung himself all but free
of the bed-clothes. As Lizzie caught and tried
to hold him the thin night-shirt ripped in her fingers,
laying bare the small back from shoulder to buttock.
They were woman to woman now; cast
back into savagery and blindly groping for its primitive
weapons. Honoria crossed the floor not knowing
what she meant to do, or might do. Lizzie sprang
to defence against she knew not what. But when
her enemy advanced, towering, with a healthy boy dragging
at her skirts, she did the one thing she could turned
with a swift cry back upon her own crippled child and
caught at the bed-clothes to cover and hide his naked
deformity.
While she crouched and shielded him,
silence fell on the room. She had half expected
Honoria to strike her; but no blow came, nor any sound.
By-and-by she looked up. Honoria had come to
a standstill, with rigid eyes. They were fastened
on the bed. Then Lizzie understood.
She had covered the child’s
legs from sight; but not his back nor the
brown mole on it the large brown mole, ringed
like Saturn, set obliquely between the shoulder-blades.
She rose from the bed slowly.
Honoria turned on little George with a gesture as
if to fling off his velvet jacket. But Lizzie
stamped her foot.
“No,” she commanded hoarsely;
“let be. Mine is a cripple.”
“So it is true. . . .”
Honoria desisted; but her eyes were wide and still
fixed on the bed.
“Yes, it is true. You
have all the luck. Mine is a cripple.”
Still Honoria stared. Lizzie
gulped down something in her throat; but her voice,
when she found it again, was still hoarse and strained.
“And now go!
You have learnt what you came for. You have
won, because you stop at nothing. But go, before
I try to kill you for the joy in your heart!”
“Joy?” Honoria put out
a hand toward the bed’s foot, to steady herself.
It was her turn to be weak.
“Yes joy.”
Lizzie stepped between her and the door, pointed a
finger at her, and held it pointing. “In
your heart you are glad already. Wait, and in
a moment I shall see it in your eyes glad,
glad! Yes, your man was worthless, and you are
glad. But oh! You bitter fool!”
“Let me go, please.”
“Listen a bit; no hurry now.
Plenty of time to be glad ’twas only your husband,
not the man of your heart. Look at me, and answer
I don’t count for much now, do I? Not much
to hate in me, now you know the name of my child’s
father, and that ‘tisn’ Taffy Raymond!”
“Let me go.” But
seeing that Lizzie would not, she stopped and kissed
her boy. “Run out to the carriage, dear,
and say I’ll be coming in a minute or two.”
Little George clung to her wistfully, but her tone
meant obedience. Lizzie stepped aside to let
him pass out.
“Now,” said Honoria, “the
next room is best, I think. Lead me there, and
I will listen.”
“You may go if you like.”
“No; I will listen. Between us two there
is there is ”
“That.” Lizzie
nodded towards the child huddling low in the bed.
“That, and much more.
We cannot stop at the point you’ve reached.
Besides, I have a question to ask.”
Lizzie passed before her into the
front room, lit two candles and drew down the blind.
“Ask it,” she said.
“How did you know that I believed
the other Mr. Raymond to be ”
She came to a halt.
“I guessed.”
“What? From the beginning?”
“No; it was after a long while.
And then, all of a sudden, something seemed to make
me clever.”
“Did you know that, believing
it, I had done him a great wrong injured
his life beyond repair?”
“I knew something had happened:
that he’d given up being a gentleman and taken
to builder’s work. I thought maybe you
were at the bottom of it. Who was it told you
lies about en?”
“Must I answer that?”
“No; no need. George Vyell
was a nice fellow; but he was a liar. Couldn’t
help it, I b’lieve. But a dirty trick like
that well, well!”
Honoria stared at her, confounded.
“You never loved my husband?”
And Lizzie laughed actually
laughed; she was so weary. “No more than
you did, my dear. Perhaps a little less.
Eh, what two fools we are here, fending off the truth!
Fools from the start and now, simme, playing
foolish to the end; ay, when all’s said and naked
atween us. Lev’ us quit talkin’ of
George Vyell. We knawed George Vyell, you and
me too; and here we be, left to rear children by en.
But the man we hated over wasn’ George Vyell.”
“Yet if as you say you
loved him the other one why,
when you saw his life ruined and guessed the lie that
ruined it when a word could have righted
him if you loved him ”
“Why didn’t I speak?
Ladies are most dull, somehow; or else you don’t
try to see. Or else Wasn’t he
near me, passing my door ivery day? Oh, I’m
ignorant and selfish. But hadn’t I got
him near? And wouldn’t that word have lost
him, sent him God knows where to you
perhaps? You you’d had your
chance, and squandered it like a fool. I never
had no chance. I courted en, but he wouldn’
look at me. He’d have come to your whistle once.
Nothing to hinder but your money. And from
what I can see and guess, you piled up that money
in his face like a hedge. Oh, I could pity you,
now! for now you’ll never have en.”
“God pity us both!” said
Honoria, going; but she turned at the door. “And
after our marriage you took no more thought of my of
George?” The question was an afterthought; she
never thought to see it stab as it did. But
Lizzie caught at the table edge, held to it swaying
over a gulf of hysterics, and answered between a sob
and a passing bitter laugh.
“At the last just
to try en. No harm done, as it happened.
You needn’ mind. He was worthless anyway.”
Honoria stepped back, took her by
the elbow as she swayed, and seated her in a chair;
and so stood regarding her as a doctor might a patient.
After a while she said
“I think you will do me injustice,
but you must believe as you like. I am not glad.
I am very far from glad or happy. I doubt if
I shall ever be happy again. But I do not hate
you as I did.”
She went out, closing the door softly.