Half a year later in the
autumn it was (the confirmation had been postponed
until then) the candidates for confirmation
of the main parish sat in the parsonage servant’s
hall, waiting examination, among them was Oyvind Pladsen
and Marit Heidegards. Marit had just come down
from the priest, from whom she had received a handsome
book and much praise; she laughed and chatted with
her girl friends on all sides and glanced around among
the boys. Marit was a full-grown girl, easy and
frank in her whole address, and the boys as well as
the girls knew that Jon Hatlen, the best match in
the parish, was courting her, well might
she be happy as she sat there. Down by the door
stood some girls and boys who had not passed; they
were crying, while Marit and her friends were laughing;
among them was a little boy in his father’s boots
and his mother’s Sunday kerchief.
“Oh, dear! oh, dear!”
sobbed he, “I dare not go home again.”
And this overcame those who had not
yet been up with the power of sympathy; there was
a universal silence. Anxiety filled their throats
and eyes; they could not see distinctly, neither could
they swallow; and this they felt a continual desire
to do.
One sat reckoning over how much he
knew; and although but a few hours before he had discovered
that he knew everything, now he found out just as
confidently that he knew nothing, not even how to read
in a book.
Another summed up the list of his
sins, from the time he was large enough to remember
until now, and he decided that it would not be at
all remarkable if the Lord decreed that he should be
rejected.
A third sat taking note of all things
about him: if the clock which was about to strike
did not make its first stroke before he could count
twenty, he would pass; if the person he heard in the
passage proved to be the gard-boy Lars, he would pass;
if the great rain-drop, working its way down over
the pane, came as far as the moulding of the window,
he would pass. The final and decisive proof was
to be if he succeeded in twisting his right foot about
the left, and this it was quite impossible
for him to do.
A fourth was convinced in his own
mind that if he was only questioned about Joseph in
Bible history and about baptism in the Catechism, or
about Saul, or about domestic duties, or about Jesus,
or about the Commandments, or he still
sat rehearsing when he was called.
A fifth had taken a special fancy
to the Sermon on the Mount; he had dreamed about the
Sermon on the Mount; he was sure of being questioned
on the Sermon on the Mount; he kept repeating the Sermon
on the Mount to himself; he had to go out doors and
read over the Sermon on the Mount when
he was called up to be examined on the great and the
small prophets.
A sixth thought of the priest who
was an excellent man and knew his father so well;
he thought, too, of the school-master, who had such
a kindly face, and of God who was all goodness and
mercy, and who had aided so many before both Jacob
and Joseph; and then he remembered that his mother
and brothers and sisters were at home praying for him,
which surely must help.
The seventh renounced all he had meant
to become in this world. Once he had thought
that he would like to push on as far as being a king,
once as far as general or priest; now that time was
over. But even to the moment of his coming here
he had thought of going to sea and becoming a captain;
perhaps a pirate, and acquiring enormous riches; now
he gave up first the riches, then the pirate, then
the captain, then the mate; he paused at sailor, at
the utmost boatswain; indeed, it was possible that
he would not go to sea at all, but would take a houseman’s
place on his father’s gard.
The eighth was more hopeful about
his case but not certain, for even the aptest scholar
was not certain. He thought of the clothes he
was to be confirmed in, wondering what they would
be used for if he did not pass. But if he passed
he was going to town to get a broadcloth suit, and
coming home again to dance at Christmas to the envy
of all the boys and the astonishment of all the girls.
The ninth reckoned otherwise:
he prepared a little account book with the Lord, in
which he set down on one side, as it were, “Debit:”
he must let me pass, and on the other “Credit:”
then I will never tell any more lies, never tittle-tattle
any more, always go to church, let the girls alone,
and break myself of swearing.
The tenth, however, thought that if
Ole Hansen had passed last year it would be more than
unjust if he who had always done better at school,
and, moreover, came of a better family, did not get
through this year.
By his side sat the eleventh, who
was wrestling with the most alarming plans of revenge
in the event of his not being passed: either to
burn down the school-house, or to run away from the
parish and come back again as the denouncing judge
of the priest and the whole school commission, but
magnanimously allow mercy to take the place of justice.
To begin with, he would take service at the house of
the priest of the neighboring parish, and there stand
number one next year, and answer so that the whole
church would marvel.
But the twelfth sat alone under the
clock, with both hands in his pockets, and looked
mournfully out over the assemblage. No one here
knew what a burden he bore, what a responsibility he
had assumed. At home there was one who knew, for
he was betrothed. A large, long-legged spider
was crawling over the floor and drew near his foot;
he was in the habit of treading on this loathsome insect,
but to-day he tenderly raised his foot that it might
go in peace whither it would. His voice was as
gentle as a collect, his eyes said incessantly that
all men were good, his hands made a humble movement
out of his pockets up to his hair to stroke it down
more smoothly. If he could only glide gently
through this dangerous needle’s eye, he would
doubtless grow out again on the other side, chew tobacco,
and announce his engagement.
And down on a low stool with his legs
drawn up under him, sat the anxious thirteenth; his
little flashing eyes sped round the room three times
each second, and through the passionate, obstinate
head stormed in motley confusion the combined thoughts
of the other twelve: from the mightiest hope
to the most crushing doubt, from the most humble resolves
to the most devastating plans of revenge; and, meanwhile,
he had eaten up all the loose flesh on his right thumb,
and was busied now with his nails, sending large pieces
across the floor.
Oyvind sat by the window, he had been
upstairs and had answered everything that had been
asked him; but the priest had not said anything, neither
had the school-master. For more than half a year
he had been considering what they both would say when
they came to know how hard he had toiled, and he felt
now deeply disappointed as well as wounded.
There sat Marit, who for far less exertion and knowledge
had received both encouragement and reward; it was
just in order to stand high in her eyes that he had
striven, and now she smilingly won what he had labored
with so much self-denial to attain. Her laughter
and joking burned into his soul, the freedom with
which she moved about pained him. He had carefully
avoided speaking with her since that evening, it would
take years, he thought; but the sight of her sitting
there so happy and superior, weighed him to the ground,
and all his proud determinations drooped like leaves
after a rain.
He strove gradually to shake off his
depression. Everything depended on whether he
became number one to-day, and for this he was waiting.
It was the school-master’s wont to linger a little
after the rest with the priest to arrange about the
order of the young people, and afterwards to go down
and report the result; it was, to be sure, not the
final decision, merely what the priest and he had for
the present agreed upon. The conversation became
livelier after a considerable number had been examined
and passed; but now the ambitious ones plainly distinguished
themselves from the happy ones; the latter left as
soon as they found company, in order to announce their
good fortune to their parents, or they waited for
the sake of others who were not yet ready; the former,
on the contrary, grew more and more silent and their
eyes were fixed in suspense on the door.
At length the children were all through,
the last had come down, and so the school-master must
now be talking with the priest. Oyvind glanced
at Marit; she was just as happy as before, but she
remained in her seat, whether waiting for her own
pleasure or for some one else, he knew not.
How pretty Marit had become! He had never seen
so dazzlingly lovely a complexion; her nose was slightly
turned up, and a dainty smile played about the mouth.
She kept her eyes partially closed when not looking
directly at any one, but for that reason her gaze
always had unsuspected power when it did come; and,
as though she wished herself to add that she meant
nothing by this, she half smiled at the same moment.
Her hair was rather dark than light, but it was wavy
and crept far over the brow on either side, so that,
together with the half closed eyes, it gave the face
a hidden expression that one could never weary of
studying. It never seemed quite sure whom it
was she was looking for when she was sitting alone
and among others, nor what she really had in mind
when she turned to speak to any one, for she took
back immediately, as it were, what she gave.
“Under all this Jon Hatlen is hidden, I suppose,”
thought Oyvind, but still stared constantly at her.
Now came the school-master.
All left their places and stormed about him.
“What number am I?” “And
I?” “And I I?”
“Hush! you overgrown young ones!
No uproar here! Be quiet and you shall hear
about it, children.” He looked slowly around.
“You are number two,” said he to a boy
with blue eyes, who was gazing up at him most beseechingly;
and the boy danced out of the circle. “You
are number three,” he tapped a red-haired, active
little fellow who stood tugging at his jacket.
“You are number five; you number eight,”
and so on. Here he caught sight of Marit.
“You are number one of the girls,” she
blushed crimson over face and neck, but tried to smile.
“You are number twelve; you have been lazy, you
rogue, and full of mischief; you number eleven, nothing
better to be expected, my boy; you, number thirteen,
must study hard and come to the next examination,
or it will go badly with you!”
Oyvind could bear it no longer; number
one, to be sure, had not been mentioned, but he had
been standing all the time so that the school-master
could see him.
“School-master!” He did
not hear. “School-master!” Oyvind
had to repeat this three times before it was heard.
At last the school-master looked at him.
“Number nine or ten, I do not
remember which,” said he, and turned to another.
“Who is number one, then?”
inquired Hans, who was Oyvind’s best friend.
“It is not you, curly-head!”
said the school-master, rapping him over the hand
with a roll of paper.
“Who is it, then?” asked
others. “Who is it? Yes; who is it?”
“He will find that out who has
the number,” replied the school-master, sternly.
He would have no more questions. “Now
go home nicely, children. Give thanks to your
God and gladden your parents. Thank your old
school-master too; you would have been in a pretty
fix if it had not been for him.”
They thanked him, laughed, and went
their way jubilantly, for at this moment when they
were about to go home to their parents they all felt
happy. Only one remained behind, who could not
at once find his books, and who when he had found
them sat down as if he must read them over again.
The school-master went up to him.
“Well, Oyvind, are you not going with the rest?”
There was no reply.
“Why do you open your books?”
“I want to find out what I answered wrong to-day.”
“You answered nothing wrong.”
Then Oyvind looked at him; tears filled
his eyes, but he gazed intently at the school-master,
while one by one trickled down his cheeks, and not
a word did he say. The school-master sat down
in front of him.
“Are you not glad that you passed?”
There was a quivering about the lips but no reply.
“Your mother and father will
be very glad,” said the school-master, and looked
at Oyvind.
The boy struggled hard to gain power of utterance, finally he
asked in low, broken tones,
“Is it because I am
a houseman’s son that I only stand number nine
or ten?”
“No doubt that was it,” replied the school-master.
“Then it is of no use for me
to work,” said Oyvind, drearily, and all his
bright dreams vanished. Suddenly he raised his
head, lifted his right hand, and bringing it down
on the table with all his might, flung himself forward
on his face and burst into passionate tears.
The school-master let him lie and
weep, weep as long as he would. It
lasted a long time, but the school-master waited until
the weeping grew more childlike. Then taking
Oyvind’s head in both hands, he raised it and
gazed into the tear-stained face.
“Do you believe that it is God
who has been with you now,” said he, drawing
the boy affectionately toward him.
Oyvind was still sobbing, but not
so violently as before; his tears flowed more calmly,
but he neither dared look at him who questioned nor
answer.
“This, Oyvind, has been a well-merited
recompense. You have not studied from love of
your religion, or of your parents; you have studied
from vanity.”
There was silence in the room after
every sentence the school-master uttered. Oyvind
felt his gaze resting on him, and he melted and grew
humble under it.
“With such wrath in your heart,
you could not have come forward to make a covenant
with your God. Do you think you could, Oyvind?”
“No,” the boy stammered, as well as he
was able.
“And if you stood there with
vain joy, over being number one, would you not be
coming forward with a sin?”
“Yes, I should,” whispered
Oyvind, and his lips quivered.
“You still love me, Oyvind?”
“Yes;” here he looked up for the first
time.
“Then I will tell you that it
was I who had you put down; for I am very fond of
you, Oyvind.”
The other looked at him, blinked several
times, and the tears rolled down in rapid succession.
“You are not displeased with me for that?”
“No;” he looked up full
in the school-master’s face, although his voice
was choked.
“My dear child, I will stand by you as long
as I live.”
The school-master waited for Oyvind
until the latter had gathered together his books,
then said that he would accompany him home. They
walked slowly along. At first Oyvind was silent
and his struggle went on, but gradually he gained
his self-control. He was convinced that what
had occurred was the best thing that in any way could
have happened to him; and before he reached home,
his belief in this had become so strong that he gave
thanks to his God, and told the school-master so.
“Yes, now we can think of accomplishing
something in life,” said the school-master,
“instead of playing blind-man’s buff, and
chasing after numbers. What do you say to the
seminary?”
“Why, I should like very much to go there.”
“Are you thinking of the agricultural school?”
“Yes.”
“That is, without doubt, the
best; it provides other openings than a school-master’s
position.”
“But how can I go there?
I earnestly desire it, but I have not the means.”
“Be industrious and good, and
I dare say the means will be found.”
Oyvind felt completely overwhelmed
with gratitude. His eyes sparkled, his breath
came lightly, he glowed with that infinite love that
bears us along when we experience some unexpected
kindness from a fellow-creature. At such a moment,
we fancy that our whole future will be like wandering
in the fresh mountain air; we are wafted along more
than we walk.
When they reached home both parents
were within, and had been sitting there in quiet expectation,
although it was during working hours of a busy time.
The school-master entered first, Oyvind followed;
both were smiling.
“Well?” said the father,
laying aside a hymn-book, in which he had just been
reading a “Prayer for a Confirmation Candidate.”
His mother stood by the hearth, not
daring to say anything; she was smiling, but her hand
was trembling. Evidently she was expecting good
news, but did not wish to betray herself.
“I merely had to come to gladden
you with the news, that he answered every question
put to him; and that the priest said, when Oyvind had
left him, that he had never had a more apt scholar.”
“Is it possible!” said the mother, much
affected.
“Well, that is good,” said his father,
clearing his throat unsteadily.
After it had been still for some time, the mother asked, softly,
“What number will he have?”
“Number nine or ten,” said the school-master,
calmly.
The mother looked at the father; he first at her, then at
Oyvind, and said,
“A houseman’s son can expect no more.”
Oyvind returned his gaze. Something
rose up in his throat once more, but he hastily forced
himself to think of things that he loved, one by one,
until it was choked down again.
“Now I had better go,”
said the school-master, and nodding, turned away.
Both parents followed him as usual out on the door-step; here
the school-master took a quid of tobacco, and smiling said,
“He will be number one, after
all; but it is not worth while that he should know
anything about it until the day comes.”
“No, no,” said the father, and nodded.
“No, no,” said the mother,
and she nodded too; after which she grasped the school-master’s
hand and added: “We thank you for all you
do for him.”
“Yes, you have our thanks,”
said the father, and the school-master moved away.
They long stood there gazing after him.