The school-master had judged the boy
correctly when he asked the priest to try whether
Oyvind could bear to stand number one. During
the three weeks which elapsed before the confirmation,
he was with the boy every day. It is one thing
for a young, tender soul to yield to an impression;
what through faith it shall attain is another thing.
Many dark hours fell upon Oyvind before he learned
to choose the goal of his future from something better
than ambition and defiance. Often in the midst
of his work he lost his interest and stopped short:
what was it all for, what would he gain by it? and
then presently he would remember the school-master,
his words and his kindness; and this human medium
forced him to rise up again every time he fell from
a comprehension of his higher duty.
In those days while they were preparing
at Pladsen for the confirmation, they were also preparing
for Oyvind’s departure for the agricultural
school, for this was to take place the following day.
Tailor and shoemaker were sitting in the family-room;
the mother was baking in the kitchen, the father working
at a chest. There was a great deal said about
what Oyvind would cost his parents in the next two
years; about his not being able to come home the first
Christmas, perhaps not the second either, and how
hard it would be to be parted so long. They
spoke also of the love Oyvind should bear his parents
who were willing to sacrifice themselves for their
child’s sake. Oyvind sat like one who
had tried sailing out into the world on his own responsibility,
but had been wrecked and was now picked up by kind
people.
Such is the feeling that humility
gives, and with it comes much more. As the great
day drew near he dared call himself prepared, and also
dared look forward with trustful resignation.
Whenever Marit’s image would present itself,
he cautiously thrust it aside, although he felt a
pang in so doing. He tried to gain practice in
this, but never made any progress in strength; on
the contrary, it was the pain that grew. Therefore
he was weary the last evening, when, after a long
self-examination, he prayed that the Lord would not
put him to the test in this matter.
The school-master came as the day
was drawing to a close. They all sat down together
in the family-room, after washing and dressing themselves
neat and clean, as was customary the evening before
going to communion, or morning service. The
mother was agitated, the father silent; parting was
to follow the morrow’s ceremony, and it was uncertain
when they could all sit down together again.
The school-master brought out the hymn-books, read
the service, sang with the family, and afterwards
said a short prayer, just as the words came into his
mind.
These four people now sat together
until late in the evening, the thoughts of each centering
within; then they parted with the best wishes for
the coming day and what it was to consecrate.
Oyvind was obliged to admit, as he laid himself down,
that he had never gone to bed so happy before; he
gave this an interpretation of his own, he
understood it to mean: I have never before gone
to bed feeling so resigned to God’s will and
so happy in it. Marit’s face at once rose
up before him again, and the last thing he was conscious
of was that he lay and examined himself: not
quite happy, not quite, and that he answered:
yes, quite; but again: not quite; yes, quite;
no, not quite.
When he awoke he at once remembered
the day, prayed, and felt strong, as one does in the
morning. Since the summer, he had slept alone
in the attic; now he rose, and put on his handsome
new clothes, very carefully, for he had never owned
such before. There was especially a round broadcloth
jacket, which he had to examine over and over again
before he became accustomed to it. He hung up
a little looking-glass when he had adjusted his collar,
and for the fourth time drew on his jacket.
At sight of his own contented face, with the unusually
light hair surrounding it, reflected and smiling in
the glass, it occurred to him that this must certainly
be vanity again. “Yes, but people must
be well-dressed and tidy,” he reasoned, drawing
his face away from the glass, as if it were a sin
to look in it. “To be sure, but not quite
so delighted with themselves, for the sake of the matter.”
“No, certainly not, but the Lord must also
like to have one care to look well.” “That
may be; but He would surely like it better to have
you do so without taking so much notice of it yourself.”
“That is true; but it happens now because everything
is so new.” “Yes, but you must gradually
lay the habit aside.” He caught himself
carrying on such a self-examining conversation, now
upon one theme, now upon another, so that not a sin
should fall on the day and stain it; but at the same
time he knew that he had other struggles to meet.
When he came down-stairs, his parents
sat all dressed, waiting breakfast for him.
He went up to them and taking their hands thanked
them for the clothes, and received in return a “wear-them-out-with-good-health."
They sat down to table, prayed silently, and ate.
The mother cleared the table, and carried in the
lunch-box for the journey to church. The father
put on his jacket, the mother fastened her kerchief;
they took their hymn-books, locked up the house, and
started. As soon as they had reached the upper
road they met the church-faring people, driving and
walking, the confirmation candidates scattered among
them, and in one group and another white-haired grand-parents,
who had felt moved to come out on this great occasion.
It was an autumn day without sunshine,
as when the weather is about to change. Clouds
gathered together and dispersed again; sometimes out
of one great mass were formed twenty smaller ones,
which sped across the sky with orders for a storm;
but below, on the earth, it was still calm, the foliage
hung lifeless, not a leaf stirring; the air was a
trifle sultry; people carried their outer wraps with
them but did not use them. An unusually large
multitude had assembled round the church, which stood
in an open space; but the confirmation children immediately
went into the church in order to be arranged in their
places before service began. Then it was that
the school-master, in a blue broadcloth suit, frock
coat, and knee-breeches, high shoes, stiff cravat,
and a pipe protruding from his back coat pocket, came
down towards them, nodded and smiled, tapped one on
the shoulder, spoke a few words to another about answering
loudly and distinctly, and meanwhile worked his way
along to the poor-box, where Oyvind stood answering
all the questions of his friend Hans in reference to
his journey.
“Good-day, Oyvind. How
fine you look to-day!” He took him by the jacket
collar as if he wished to speak to him. “Listen.
I believe everything good of you. I have been
talking with the priest; you will be allowed to keep
your place; go up to number one and answer distinctly!”
Oyvind looked up at him amazed; the
school-master nodded; the boy took a few steps, stopped,
a few steps more, stopped again: “Yes, it
surely is so; he has spoken to the priest for me,” and
the boy walked swiftly up to his place.
“You are to be number one, after
all,” some one whispered to him.
“Yes,” answered Oyvind,
in a low voice, but did not feel quite sure yet whether
he dared think so.
The assignment of places was over,
the priest had come, the bells were ringing, and the
people pouring into church. Then Oyvind saw Marit
Heidegards just in front of him; she saw him too; but
they were both so awed by the sacredness of the place
that they dared not greet each other. He only
noticed that she was dazzlingly beautiful and that
her hair was uncovered; more he did not see.
Oyvind, who for more than half a year had been building
such great plans about standing opposite her, forgot,
now that it had come to the point, both the place and
her, and that he had in any way thought of them.
After all was ended the relatives
and acquaintances came up to offer their congratulations;
next came Oyvind’s comrades to take leave of
him, as they had heard that he was to depart the next
day; then there came many little ones with whom he
had coasted on the hill-sides and whom he had assisted
at school, and who now could not help whimpering a
little at parting. Last came the school-master,
silently took Oyvind and his parents by the hands,
and made a sign to start for home; he wanted to accompany
them. The four were together once more, and this
was to be the last evening. On the way home they
met many others who took leave of Oyvind and wished
him good luck; but they had no other conversation
until they sat down together in the family-room.
The school-master tried to keep them
in good spirits; the fact was now that the time had
come they all shrank from the two long years of separation,
for up to this time they had never been parted a single
day; but none of them would acknowledge it. The
later it grew the more dejected Oyvind became; he
was forced to go out to recover his composure a little.
It was dusk now and there were strange
sounds in the air. Oyvind remained standing
on the door-step gazing upward. From the brow
of the cliff he then heard his own name called, quite
softly; it was no delusion, for it was repeated twice.
He looked up and faintly distinguished a female form
crouching between the trees and looking down.
“Who is it?” asked he.
“I hear you are going away,”
said a low voice, “so I had to come to you and
say good-by, as you would not come to me.”
“Dear me! Is that you, Marit? I
shall come up to you.”
“No, pray do not. I have
waited so long, and if you come I should have to wait
still longer; no one knows where I am and I must hurry
home.”
“It was kind of you to come,” said he.
“I could not bear to have you
leave so, Oyvind; we have known each other since we
were children.”
“Yes; we have.”
“And now we have not spoken to each other for
half a year.”
“No; we have not.”
“We parted so strangely, too, that time.”
“We did. I think I must come up to you!”
“Oh, no! do not come! But tell me:
you are not angry with me?”
“Goodness! how could you think so?”
“Good-by, then, Oyvind, and
my thanks for all the happy times we have had together!”
“Wait, Marit!”
“Indeed I must go; they will miss me.”
“Marit! Marit!”
“No, I dare not stay away any longer, Oyvind.
Good-by.”
“Good-by!”
Afterwards he moved about as in a
dream, and answered very absently when he was addressed.
This was ascribed to his journey, as was quite natural;
and indeed it occupied his whole mind at the moment
when the school-master took leave of him in the evening
and put something into his hand, which he afterwards
found to be a five-dollar bill. But later, when
he went to bed, he thought not of the journey, but
of the words which had come down from the brow of
the cliff, and those that had been sent up again.
As a child Marit was not allowed to come on the cliff,
because her grandfather feared she might fall down.
Perhaps she will come down some day, any way.