There is a song of parting, an intentionally
pathetic song, which contains the line, “All
the tomorrows shall be as to-day,” meaning equally
gloomy. Young singers, loving this line, take
care to pronounce the words with unusual distinctness:
the listener may feel that the performer has the capacity
for great and consistent suffering. It is not,
of course, that youth loves unhappiness, but the appearance
of it, its supposed picturesqueness. Youth runs
from what is pathetic, but hangs fondly upon pathos.
It is the idea of sorrow, not sorrow, which charms:
and so the young singer dwells upon those lingering
tomorrows, happy in the conception of a permanent
wretchedness incurred in the interest of sentiment.
For youth believes in permanence.
It is when we are young that we say,
“I shall never,” and “I shall always,”
not knowing that we are only time’s atoms in
a crucible of incredible change. An old man scarce
dares say, “I have never,” for he knows
that if he searches he will find, probably, that he
has. “All, all is change.”
It was an evening during the winter
holidays when Mrs. Lindley, coming to sit by the fire
in her son’s smoking-room, where Richard sat
glooming, narrated her legend of the Devil of Lisieux.
It must have been her legend: the people of Lisieux
know nothing of it; but this Richard the Guileless
took it for tradition, as she alleged it, and had
no suspicion that she had spent the afternoon inventing
it.
She did not begin the recital immediately
upon taking her chair, across the hearth from her
son; she led up to it. She was an ample, fresh-coloured,
lively woman; and like her son only in being a kind
soul: he got neither his mortal seriousness nor
his dreaminess from her. She was more than content
with Cora’s abandonment of him, though, as chivalrousness
was not demanded of her, she would have preferred
that he should have been the jilt. She thought
Richard well off in his release, even at the price
of all his savings. But there was something to
hope, even in that matter, Pryor wrote from Paris
encouragingly: he believed that Moliterno might
be frightened or forced into at least a partial restitution;
though Richard would not count upon it, and had “begun
at the beginning” again, as a small-salaried
clerk in a bank, trudging patiently to work in the
morning and home in the evening, a long-faced, tired
young man, more absent than ever, lifeless, and with
no interest in anything outside his own broodings.
His mother, pleased with his misfortune in love, was
of course troubled that it should cause him to suffer.
She knew she could not heal him; but she also knew
that everything is healed in time, and that sometimes
it is possible for people to help time a little.
Her first remark to her son, this
evening, was that to the best of her memory she had
never used the word “hellion.” And,
upon his saying gently, no, he thought it probable
that she never had, but seeking no farther and dropping
his eyes to the burning wood, apparently under the
impression that the subject was closed, she informed
him brusquely that it was her intention to say it now.
“What is it you want to say, mother?”
“If I can bring myself to use
the word `hellion’,” she returned, “I’m
going to say that of all the heaven-born, whole-souled
and consistent ones I ever knew Hedrick Madison is
the King.”
“In what new way?” he inquired.
“Egerton Villard. Egerton
used to be the neatest, best-mannered, best-dressed
boy in town; but he looks and behaves like a Digger
Indian since he’s taken to following Hedrick
around. Mrs. Villard says it’s the greatest
sorrow of her life, but she’s quite powerless:
the boy is Hedrick’s slave. The other day
she sent a servant after him, and just bringing him
home nearly ruined her limousine. He was solidly
covered with molasses, over his clothes and all, from
head to foot, and then he’d rolled in hay and
chicken feathers to be a gnu for Hedrick to
kodak in the African Wilds of the Madisons’
stable. Egerton didn’t know what a gnu was,
but Hedrick told him that was the way to be one, he
said. Then, when they’d got him scraped
and boiled, and most of his hair pulled out, a policemen
came to arrest him for stealing the jug of molasses
at a corner grocery.”
Richard nodded, and smiled faintly
for comment. They sat in silence for a while.
“I saw Mrs. Madison yesterday,”
said his mother. “She seemed very cheerful;
her husband is able to talk almost perfectly again,
though he doesn’t get downstairs. Laura
reads to him a great deal.”
He nodded again, his gaze not moving from the fire.
“Laura was with her mother,”
said Mrs. Lindley. “She looked very fetching
in a black cloth suit and a fur hat old
ones her sister left, I suspect, but very becoming,
for all that. Laura’s `going out’
more than usual this winter. She’s really
the belle of the holiday dances, I hear. Of course
she would be”, she added, thoughtfully “now.”
“Why should she be `now’ more than before?”
“Oh, Laura’s quite blossomed,”
Mrs. Lindley answered. “I think she’s
had some great anxieties relieved. Of course both
she and her mother must have worried about Cora as
much as they waited on her. It must be a great
burden lifted to have her comfortably settled, or,
at least, disposed of. I thought they both looked
better. But I have a special theory about Laura:
I suppose you’ll laugh at me ”
“Oh, no.”
“I wish you would sometimes,”
she said wistfully, “so only you laughed.
My idea is that Laura was in love with that poor little
Trumble, too.”
“What?” He looked up at that.
“Yes; girls fall in love with
anybody. I fancy she cared very deeply for him;
but I think she’s a strong, sane woman, now.
She’s about the steadiest, coolest person I
know and I know her better, lately, than
I used to. I think she made up her mind that she’d
not sit down and mope over her unhappiness, and that
she’d get over what caused it; and she took
the very best remedy: she began going about,
going everywhere, and she went gayly, too! And
I’m sure she’s cured; I’m sure she
doesn’t care the snap of her fingers for Wade
Trumble or any man alive. She’s having a
pretty good time, I imagine: she has everything
in the world except money, and she’s never cared
at all about that. She’s young, and
she dresses well these days and
she’s one of the handsomest girls in town; she
plays like a poet, and she dances well ”
“Yes,” said Richard; reflectively,
“she does dance well.”
“And from what I hear from Mrs.
Villard,” continued his mother, “I guess
she has enough young men in love with her to keep any
girl busy.”
He was interested enough to show some
surprise. “In love with Laura?”
“Four, I hear.” The
best of women are sometimes the readiest with impromptu
statistics.
“Well, well!” he said, mildly.
“You see, Laura has taken to
smiling on the world, and the world smiles back at
her. It’s not a bad world about that, Richard.”
“No,” he sighed. “I suppose
not.”
“But there’s more than that in this case,
my dear son.”
“Is there?”
The intelligent and gentle matron
laughed as though at some unexpected turn of memory
and said:
“Speaking of Hedrick, did you
ever hear the story of the Devil of Lisieux, Richard?”
“I think not; at least, I don’t remember
it.”
“Lisieux is a little town in
Normandy,” she said. “I was there
a few days with your father, one summer, long ago.
It’s a country full of old stories, folklore,
and traditions; and the people still believe in the
Old Scratch pretty literally. This legend was
of the time when he came to Lisieux. The people
knew he was coming because a wise woman had said that
he was on the way, and predicted that he would arrive
at the time of the great fair. Everybody was
in great distress, because they knew that whoever
looked at him would become bewitched, but, of course,
they had to go to the fair. The wise woman was
able to give them a little comfort; she said some
one was coming with the devil, and that the people
must not notice the devil, but keep their eyes fastened
on this other then they would be free of
the fiend’s influence. But, when the devil
arrived at the fair, nobody even looked to see who
his companion was, for the devil was so picturesque,
so vivid, all in flaming scarlet and orange, and he
capered and danced and sang so that nobody could help
looking at him and, after looking once,
they couldn’t look away until they were thoroughly
under his spell. So they were all bewitched,
and began to scream and howl and roll on the ground,
and turn on each other and brawl, and `commit all
manner of excesses.’ Then the wise woman
was able to exorcise the devil, and he sank into the
ground; but his companion stayed, and the people came
to their senses, and looked, and they saw that it
was an angel. The angel had been there all the
time that the fiend was, of course. So they have
a saying now, that there may be angels with us, but
we don’t notice them when the devil’s
about.”
She did not look at her son as she
finished, and she had hurried through the latter part
of her “legend” with increasing timidity.
The parallel was more severe, now that she put it to
him, than she intended; it sounded savage; and she
feared she had overshot her mark. Laura, of course,
was the other, the companion; she had been actually
a companion for the vivid sister, everywhere with her
at the fair, and never considered: now she emerged
from her overshadowed obscurity, and people were able
to see her as an individual heretofore
she had been merely the retinue of a flaming Cora.
But the “legend” was not very gallant to
Cora!
Mrs. Lindley knew that it hurt her
son; she felt it without looking at him, and before
he gave a sign. As it was, he did not speak,
but, after a few moments, rose and went quietly out
of the room: then she heard the front door open
and close. She sat by his fire a long, long time
and was sorry and wondered.
When Richard came home from his cold
night-prowl in the snowy streets, he found a sheet
of note paper upon his pillow:
“Dearest Richard, I didn’t
mean that anybody you ever cared for was a d –l.
I only meant that often the world finds out that there
are lovely people it hasn’t noticed.”
. . . He reproached himself,
then, for the reproach his leaving her had been; he
had a susceptible and annoying conscience, this unfortunate
Richard. He found it hard to get to sleep, that
night; and was kept awake long after he had planned
how he would make up to his mother for having received
her “legend” so freezingly. What
kept him awake, after that, was a dim, rhythmic sound
coming from the house next door, where a holiday dance
was in progress music far away and slender:
fiddle, ’cello, horn, bassoon, drums, all rollicking
away almost the night-long, seeping through the walls
to his restless pillow. Finally, when belated
drowsiness came, the throbbing tunes mingled with
his half-dreams, and he heard the light shuffling
of multitudinous feet over the dancing-floor, and
became certain that Laura’s were among them.
He saw her, gliding, swinging, laughing, and happy
and the picture did not please him: it seemed
to him that she would have been much better employed
sitting in black to write of a hopeless love.
Coquetting with four suitors was not only inconsistent;
it was unbecoming. It “suited Cora’s
style,” but in Laura it was outrageous.
When he woke, in the morning, he was dreaming of her:
dressed as Parthenia, beautiful, and throwing roses
to an acclaiming crowd through which she was borne
on a shield upon the shoulders of four Antinouses.
Richard thought it scandalous.
His indignation with her had not worn
off when he descended to breakfast, but he made up
to his mother for having troubled her. Then,
to cap his gallantry, he observed that several inches
of snow must have fallen during the night; it would
be well packed upon the streets by noon; he would
get a sleigh, after lunch, and take her driving.
It was a holiday.
She thanked him, but half-declined.
“I’m afraid it’s too cold for me,
but there are lots of nice girls in town, Richard,
who won’t mind weather.”
“But I asked you!”
It was finally left an open question for the afternoon
to settle; and, upon her urging, he went out for a
walk. She stood at the window to watch him, and,
when she saw that he turned northward, she sank into
a chair, instead of going to give Joe Varden his after-breakfast
instructions, and fell into a deep reverie.
Outdoors, it was a biting cold morning,
wind-swept and gray; and with air so frosty-pure no
one might breathe it and stay bilious: neither
in body nor bilious in spirit. It was a wind to
sweep the yellow from jaundiced cheeks and make them
rosy; a wind to clear dulled eyes; it was a wind to
lift foolish hearts, to lift them so high they might
touch heaven and go winging down the sky, the wildest
of wild-geese.
. . . When the bell rang, Laura
was kneeling before the library fire, which she had
just kindled, and she had not risen when Sarah brought
Richard to the doorway. She was shabby enough,
poor Cinderella! looking up, so frightened, when her
prince appeared.
She had not been to the dance.
She had not four suitors. She had none.
He came toward her. She rose
and stepped back a little. Ashes had blown upon
her, and, oh, the old, old thought of the woman born
to be a mother! she was afraid his clothes might get
dusty if he came too close.
But to Richard she looked very beautiful;
and a strange thing happened: trembling, he saw
that the firelight upon her face was brighter than
any firelight he had ever seen.