Nearly dead with terror and indignation,
I crept stealthily to my own chamber, in which I locked
myself up securely, resisting all friendly overtures
of the enemy, except one cup of tea, received from
the hand of a servant through the half-opened door
(which was instantly relocked) of my citadel.
My resolution was formed that night.
I would leave Monfort Hall, and even forsake Mabel,
until I could return and legally claim both. At
my majority, Mabel would be of age to select between
her guardians, by that time, according to law, and we
should see! As for poor Morton, I would write
to him and claim his prayers alone. Age like his
is so irresponsible. I dared not trust him farther!
It was all very brief and bitter!
As yet I had digested no plan of action.
I would go westward, I thought, but just as far away
as my money would carry me from these fiends, trusting
to God for the rest, just as a boat puts off from a
blazing ship.
Of course, I must adopt another name what
should it be? I should need clothing; and how
secure and convey away my trunk unseen by Evelyn?
My diamonds must be secreted or disposed of how
should this be done? Could I trust Mrs. Austin Mabel?
No, the suggestion was discarded at
once as unworthy of consideration.
One was too old, too self-indulged,
too selfish; and in age people usually worship expediency
alone. The other far too young not to be necessarily
indiscreet and impulsive. To have been otherwise
at her tender age would have been simply monstrous!
No, I must forego even the sweet satisfaction
of saying farewell to Mabel; we must part perhaps
forever, as we might meet again within an hour, and
all her distress and anxiety must pass unshared and
unheeded.
There was no one else I cared very
much about leaving, but the love of locality was a
strong feature in my disposition, and every room in
my father’s house was dear to me, as was every
book in his study, and every plant in our deep-green,
shadowed garden.
The very streets were sacred in my
sight, that I had trodden from childhood, but my liberty
was more precious to my heart than scenes of old associations,
and to gain one the other must be sacrificed.
There was no hesitating now: I was on the tread-mill
of fate, and must proceed, or fall and be crushed
beneath.
And here again I repeat, what I have
said so recently: “On what slight pivots
our destiny often turns! through what small
channels Providence works its wondrous ways!”
A pair of shoes had been sent home
for me that day, which still lay on the table, wrapped
and corded. In truth, they came very opportunely;
“I shall want these soon,” I thought,
as I examined the strong and elastic bootees, which
had been made for me in view of my morning walks, a
part of dear Dr. Pemberton’s regimen, which
I strenuously and advantageously carried out.
As I spoke, the paper in which they
had been enveloped rustled down on the floor by my
side. I stooped, languidly, to pick it up, merely
from a sense of order, and my eye fell on a long column,
headed “Wanted,” and, almost for lack
of resolution to withdraw it, wandered down its paragraphs,
step by step.
It was a Democratic paper, such as
was never patronized by Evelyn herself
a zealous conservative in politics, as our father had
been before us and, as I cared little for
newspaper-reading, I had never suggested a subscription
to any sheet that she did not fancy, although I inclined
to democracy.
I was somewhat amused by the quaintness
of some of the advertisements of this sheet for the
people, that style of literature being new to me; and
found myself smiling over the perfections set forth
as necessary, by the paragons of the earth, in both
wife and servant, when I came to a dead stand.
Here was the very thing I should have selected, could
I have chosen my own destination instead of depending
on chance (as if, indeed, there were such a
thing possible with God the predestinator
of the universe), or necessity (is the name a much
better one as applied to the all-seeing Deity?), or
fate (a more comprehensive but little less-abused
term, perhaps), to do this for me!
The advertisement ran thus, and quite
fascinated me with its eccentricity, as well as congeniality
to my condition:
“A gentleman and lady, now sojourning
for a short time at the Mansion House, wish to employ,
immediately, for the benefit of their children, an
instructress, who must be, imprimis, a lady and
young; secondly, soundly constituted and well educated;
thirdly, a good reader, and able to teach elocution,
and entertain a circle; fourthly, willing to reside
with cheerfulness on a Southern plantation; fifthly,
content with a moderate modicum as salary.
None other need apply no references given
or asked. Inquire for Somnus.”
I laid down the paper, and drew a
long, free breath; then rang a peal of merriment,
startling under the circumstances. It was the
first hearty laugh that had left my lips for many
days. “What an oddity, one or the other
of these people must be!” I thought, “the
man most probably yes, I am sure it is
he no woman ever was so independent of references,
or made youth a sine qua non, nor elocution
either. But am I soundly constituted? ay, there’s
the rub! suppose my terrible foe sees fit to interfere,
‘Epilepsy,’ as Evelyn called it, and perhaps
with reason God alone knows! what
then? Well, I will hazard it that is
all I will charge nothing for lost days,
and try to be zealous in the interval; besides, it
is a long time since one of these obliteration spells
occurred; for I shall ever believe Evelyn dosed me
for her own purposes on that last occasion! Fiend! fiend! and
yet my little sister must remain in such hands
for a season, protected by her guardian angel only.”
I passed a feverish night, employing
the first part of it in quilting my diamonds into
a belt which I placed about my waist; and the remainder
in putting together as many useful, as well as a few
handsome clothes, as my travelling-trunk would contain;
bonnets, evening-dresses, which require room to dispose
of, and the like vanities, I abandoned to Evelyn’s
tender mercies. I rose early and, as usual whenever
the weather permitted, sallied forth before breakfast,
but this time unaccompanied by my usual attendant,
Charity.
The “Mansion House” was
at no great distance from our own residence.
The beautiful home of the Bingham family, then converted
into an hotel, destroyed by fire at a later period,
like our own house, was situated in the ancient part
of the city, from which fashion had gradually emerged,
and shrank away to found new streets and dwellings.
I rang at the private door, and asked
the porter for “Somnus;” at the
same time sending up a card, on which was written:
“‘Miriam Harz,’ applicant for the
post of teacher.”
A few moments later a grave, copper-colored
servant, respectably clad, and with an air of responsibility
about him that was almost oppressive, invited me solemnly
to follow him up the winding marble stair so
often trodden by the feet of Washington and his court,
when a gracious assemblage filled the halls above and
ushered me into a small but lofty parlor at its head,
in which a gentleman sat reading the morning journal.
Very wide awake, indeed, seemed he
who affected the title of the god of sleep, as he
arose courteously from his chair, still holding his
paper in one hand, and waved me to a seat on the worn
horse-hair sofa between the windows.
He was a tall, thin, sallow, hooked-nosed
gentleman, of middle age, with a certain air of distinction
about him in contrast with his singular homeliness.
“Miss Harz?” he said,
interrogatively, glancing at the card over the mantel-shelf near
which he had been sitting above an unseasonable,
smouldering coal-fire.
I bowed affirmatively for all reply.
“And I,” he continued, “am Prosper
La Vigne, of the ‘Less durneer’
settlement” (for thus he pronounced this anglicized
French name) “Maurice County, Georgia,”
with an air that seemed to say, “You have heard
of me, of course!” and again I bowed, as my
only alternative.
“Lay off your bonnet, if you
please,” he said, coolly; “I would like
to see the shape of your head before proceeding further.
Mine, you see, is an ill-balanced affair,” smiling
quizzically in his effort to be condescending, perhaps.
“This is a mere business transaction, you know,”
seeing that I hesitated to comply, “and your
phrenological developments must atone for my deficiencies,
or all will go wrong at once but do as
you like. Now that you have thrown back your veil,
I can see that the brow is a good one. That will
suffice, I suppose. I will take the moral qualities
on trial for the nonce. My wife is wholly occupied
with her domestic and private affairs, you must understand,
when we are at home, and much will devolve on you;
that is, if we suit one another, which is dubious.
That reminds me! I have not heard the sound of
your voice yet; I am much governed by intonation in
my estimates of people, and usually form a perfect
opinion at first sight. Be good enough to read
this item,” and he handed me the morning paper,
formally indicating it with his long, lithe forefinger.
It was from one of Mr. Clay’s speeches.
I did as he requested, without hesitation.
“People trot out horses and
negroes when they wish to purchase; why not governesses?”
I questioned, dumbly. “He did well to ask
no references; his examination is thorough, I perceive,”
and I laid the paper down, half amused, half provoked,
when I had finished. He was gazing at me open-mouthed no
unusual thing with him, I found later and
was silent for a few moments.
“Splendid! admirable!”
he exclaimed, suddenly; “both, voice and elocution
perfect you possess the greatest of all
accomplishments, madam, next to conversational excellence,”
rising to his feet, and bowing low and seating himself
again, in a formal way of his own. “Music
is a mockery compared to such reading! as well set
a jew’s-harp against the winds of heaven!
You understand my meaning, of course; it is not precisely
that, however. Now let us converse a little.”
“The advertisement did not refer
to that, I believe, as a condition,” I said,
somewhat indignantly, and flushing hotly as I spoke.
“I really cannot converse to order. I am
a person of moods, and do not feel always like talking
at all,” and I rose and prepared to draw down
my veil, take up my parasol, and depart.
“I like you none the worse for
a proper exhibition of spirit,” he said, nodding
kindly, and settling himself once more to his paper
composedly. “Sit still, miss, and compose
yourself by the time Madame La Vigne comes in, or
she may think you high-tempered, and I am sure
you are nothing of the kind only very properly
proud. There, now, that is right! You seem
to be a very sensible, well-conditioned young person
indeed, and I think you will suit. You are the
tenth since yesterday morning,” smiling and
bowing blandly, “and the only one that could
read intelligibly. Elocution, you see, is my
hobby. I forgot to say,” looking up from
his paper, after a pause, “the salary is six
hundred dollars not enough, perhaps, for
a lady of your merit but quite as much as
we can afford to give. This I call a modicum.”
“It is not very important,”
I remarked, “what I receive in the shape of
money, so that I am at no expense beyond my clothing,
and other personal matters, and that I find myself
well situated. My engagement will, in no case,
extend beyond a year. You have your peculiarities,
I see, and I have mine. The question is, might
they not jar occasionally?”
“Oh, never, never! ‘noblesse
oblige,’ you know,” with a wave of
the hand, soft and urbane. “I hope I shall
know how to treat a lady and a teacher, both in one,
and a member of my household. Besides that, I
shall have very little to do with you, indeed.
Just now it is different we are coming
to terms; we have not made them yet, however.
I always save my wife this trouble, if possible. Ah!
there she comes, at last,” as a mild, lady-like
looking woman emerged from an adjoining chamber, somewhat
elaborately dressed for that early hour, and followed
by a stream of pale, pretty little girls. “Madame
La Vigne,” he said, rising ceremoniously, “permit
me to introduce to you Miss Miriam Harz,” reading
the name slowly from the card again, which he took
from the wall, “’a candidate for the position
of instructress at Beauseincourt.’ Say,
how do you like her looks?”
I had come to the conclusion by this
time that Mr. La Vigne was decidedly as eccentric
as his advertisement, and that his vagaries and personalities
were not worth minding or estimating in the consideration
in question.
So, when Madame La Vigne replied to
his abrupt query, “Oh, very, very much,
indeed!” and held out her kind hand to me, I
took it without misgiving, and the first glance we
interchanged contained freemasonry. From that
time Colonel Prosper La Vigne fell gracefully back
into his proper position, and I talked away fluently
enough with his lady, as he pompously called his wife.
In short, at the end of an hour it was settled that
I was to join them the same evening, at their hotel,
and proceed with them thence to New York, there to
take the packet for Savannah (their first destination)
on the same night. The plantation on which they
lived, they informed me, was nearly a day’s journey,
by carriage-conveyance, beyond that city, but eligibly
situated for health (though not for productiveness),
among a low range of hills known as the “Les
Dernier” Mountains, the name being anglicized
into “Less derneer,” with the accent on
the last syllable, so as to metamorphose it completely
to the ear, instead of translating it.
“It is a very lonely place though,
Miss Harz, in the winter-time mamma ought
to tell you that,” whispered Marion, the eldest
daughter, as she nestled so closely to me, and looked
so kindly in my face, that the intruding thought of
her unwillingness for my society was instantly banished.
“In the summer it is pleasant enough, so many
people come to their cottages in the hills; but, during
eight months of the year, we have but one near neighbor,
and not a very social one either.”
“From circumstances alone unsocial,
Marion,” said Madame La Vigne, flushing slightly
(her usual complexion was of a fair sallowness, common
to Southern ladies). “Cousin Celia is certainly
devoted at heart to every one of us, but she cannot,
you know, leave home often.”
“Oh, I know, mamma! I only
meant to keep Miss Harz from being disappointed.”
“Miss Harz has internal resources,
I have no doubt,” rejoined Madame La Vigne;
“and, even if she had not, I fear her duties
would preclude much longing for excitement. It
is a very onerous task you are undertaking, my dear
young lady, certainly,” turning kindly to me.
“Five ignorant little Southern girls, well disposed
but imperfectly trained, will fill your hands to positive
overflowing, I fear. You will find me exacting,
too, sometimes. I am sure I shall enjoy your society
whenever you choose to bestow it on me, and Colonel
La Vigne as well.”
To which declaration on the part of
his wife, that gentleman responded by laying his hand
on his breast, complacently, and bowing profoundly
from his chair, ending the ceremony by a flourish of
his delicate cambric handkerchief, and the exhibition
at the same time of a slender, sickly, and peculiarly-shaped
hand, decorated with an onyx seal-ring. He looked
the gentleman, however, unmistakably plain and peculiar
as his appearance was, and pompous and pretentious
as was his manner.
If words could do the work of the
photographer, I should like to show him to my readers,
as he appeared to me on that first interview; though
later his whole aspect underwent a change in my sight,
reflected from the cavernous depths within, so that,
what seemed somewhat ludicrous in the beginning, came
to be solemnly serious and even sophistically tragical
and awful on later acquaintance.
We have all more or less witnessed
this phenomenon of transformation in some familiar
aspect, either through love or hatred, respect or
contempt, fear or admiration, until we find ourselves
marveling at past impressions, received, in ignorance
of the truth, in the commencement of our observations.
I remember that Mr. La Vigne struck
me on that occasion as a superficial man in every
way, but kindly, courteous, and vivacious, though certainly
eccentric and somewhat absurd. One would have
supposed him even a flippant, whimsical person, seen
casually; but, on later examination, the droop of
his eyelids and under lip, and the depressed corners
of his mouth, gave to the close observer a surer indication
of his character.
The shape of his narrow, conical,
and somewhat elegantly-placed head, denoted an inclination
to fanaticism, which had been skillfully combated
by a perfectly skeptical education, so as to turn this
stream of character into strange channels.
Hobbyism was his infirmity, perhaps,
and he was essentially a man of one idea at a time.
The word “odd” applied to him peculiarly,
which is in itself a sort of social ostracism when
attached to any one, and raises a barrier at once
between a man and his fellow-bipeds that not even
superiority could surmount.
He was emphatically a tawny man as
to coloring hair, skin, and eyes, being
all pretty much of the same hue of “the ribbed
sea-sands.” Yet there were vestiges about
him of an originally fair complexion. His wrists
and temples were white as those of a woman. His
face was long, lank, and cadaverous; his eyes shone
with a clear, amber, and steady light, and had an
abstracted expression usually, accompanied with a not
unfrequent and most peculiar warp of the pupils.
His hair was singularly shaggy and
picturesque in its tawny grayness, and wavy, wiry
length. Above his eyes his heavy brows of the
same texture and color seemed to make a pent-house,
from which the high, pale brow receded gradually;
his profile was aquiline to absolute grotesqueness.
The idea of “Punchinello” presented itself
irresistibly at the sight of his parrot-like nose
and suddenly-upturned chin.
His gait was as peculiar as his countenance
and manner; he glided, in walking, carrying himself
erectly, with his arms closely pinioned to his sides.
He was altogether so extraordinary looking that I felt
myself staring almost rudely at him on our first interview;
yet his dress was in no way remarkable except for
an air of old-fashioned and speckless neatness.
Madame La Vigne was a pretty and well-preserved
woman, of about thirty-five, a fair brunette, originally,
to whom most of her daughters bore a close resemblance.
One alone, the plainest of the band, presenting a
resemblance, most unfortunately for her, of “Colonel
La Vigne,” as his wife called him, with scrupulous
punctilio.
One son, the eldest of their family,
they spoke of as the pride of their hearts even on
that first interview. He was in the navy, and,
consequently, much from home. They regretted this
for many reasons, they said, and, among others, on
my account. He was so genial, so companionable their
own dear Walter “such a delightful
fellow,” as his sister Madge declared exultingly the
second of this band of sisters and, as
far as I could observe, on first acquaintance, the
brightest. Marion, the elder, was extremely pretty
and gentle; and Bertie, the third, taciturn and unprepossessing,
yet evidently sensible. She it was who alone
resembled her father.
Fortunately, for the uninterrupted
success of my scheme, Evelyn had one of her sick turns
that day, and remained closely shut up in her room.
At one o’clock, I summoned Franklin to my chamber.
“There is a trunk,” I
said, “that I wish you would take to the Mansion
House to the care of a Mr. Somnus lodging
there here is the card attached, with his
name; place it with his baggage. It is to go to
New York, for a Miss Harz, a relation of mine a
teacher, I believe, who has applied to me for assistance;
but he understands all that, so you need not be at,
any trouble to explain. Be quiet, Franklin, in
removing it, as Evelyn is very nervous to-day, and
dislikes noise; and go with the drayman yourself to
insure its safe delivery.”
So passed my first lesson in deception,
but I schooled lip and eye to obedience, so that Franklin
suspected nothing, and, being a discreet servant,
who never let his right hand know what his left was
doing, especially when gold crossed the palm, I was
sure of silence on the subject, at least until after
my own departure.
Mabel and I dined tete-a-tete
at two; I had caused dinner to be served earlier than
usual for my own convenience, though indeed I found
it a mere form for how could I swallow
a morsel, choked as I was with grief, while the fair
child I worshipped, yet was forsaking, sat so calmly
and unconsciously in my sight!
After dinner I sought Mrs. Austin,
leading Mabel by the hand. I had been kissing
her, almost wildly, every foot of the way up-stairs,
and she gazed on me, I could not help perceiving,
with a sort of fond surprise, for it was not my habit
to lavish such passionate caresses, even on her, without
occasion.
“I am obliged to go out now,”
I said, in a broken voice, which I vainly tried to
command. “Take our darling, Mrs. Austin,
and keep her very safely until I come again.
Promise me this!” I added, eagerly seizing her
hand.
“La! Miss Miriam, what’s
the use of promising for one afternoon, when I have
taken the best of care of her all her life? You
act so singularly to-day!” she added, pettishly,
and she began to smooth Mabel’s hair, grumblingly.
I turned away without another word, murmuring blessings
in my heart on that dear head.
There was no time to be lost now!
The carriage was already at the door of the Mansion
House to convey us to the steamboat when I reached
it, and Colonel La Vigne standing, rather anxiously,
on the pavement, looking up and down.
“I was afraid you had rued your
promise and were not coming,” said Marion, springing
forth from the door-way eagerly, to greet me.
“And we had forgotten to ask
your address,” added Madame La Vigne, “or
we might have called for you, and saved you a long
walk, perhaps.”
“We should not have carried
off your trunk, even had you not appeared, Miss Harz,”
said Colonel La Vigne, blandly. “There it
is you see, distinctly labeled, on the baggage-wagon
in front, directed to the care of ’Mr. Somnus!’ a
good deal of waggery about you, I perceive, or had
you forgotten my name?”
“No, no! I had reasons but,
you remember, no questions were to be asked; you must
wait for voluntary communications.”
“I am so glad so
glad you are going with us!” said little Louey
La Vigne, pressing my hand, as she sat before me in
the carriage by Aunt Felicite, her nurse Colonel
La Vigne and three of his daughters having been consigned
to another hack Louey and her sable attendant,
stately with her large gold ear-hoops, and brilliant
cotton handkerchief, being inseparable accompaniments
of his wife.
“I have banished Mr. La Vigne,
I fear,” I said, in a broken voice; “it
would have been best for me, perhaps, to have gone
with the young ladies. Let me begin at once.”
“No, it is much best as it is,”
she answered, affectionately; “think of yourself
just now, and take no charge until we all get home.
You are our guest until then, remember. I know
it is a sad trial to go with strangers, but you will
find us friends, I hope;” and she clasped my
hand in hers, and so held it until we reached the wharf.
Tears rained down my face, beneath
the friendly shelter of my veil, but Madame La Vigne,
with the tact of good-breeding, affected not to remark
them. Once little Louey, a child of eight years
old, the youngest and prettiest of all, leaned forward,
as if to soothe or question me, but she was plucked
quickly back into her place by the decorous Aunt Felicite,
who had not lived so long with quality without acquiring
some delicacy of behavior, at least, even if it struck
no deeper root.
I had commanded myself, before the
carriage stopped beside the panting steamboat, and
soon we were gliding along the placid river toward
the point whence the railroad was to carry us on to
our goal. At New York, we found ourselves hurried
for time to reach the packet Magnolia, and went directly
from the depot to the quay, for embarkation.
By the pilot, who left us at the Narrows,
I sent back a few lines to Mabel, also enjoining him,
with the gift of a piece of gold, to mail my letters
on the following day, and receiving his promise to
do so.
In this brief communication, I promised
my dear child that we should meet at my majority,
and enjoined her to patience. “You will
hear from me again before long,” I said, in
conclusion; “and I will try and arrange some
plan of correspondence. Bad people have obliged
me to this step. Do not forget me, my darling,
nor my lessons and counsel, and believe ever in the
honor and devotion of your sister. Pray for me,
Mabel! MIRIAM.”
My letter to Evelyn Erie, without
date, written on the ship, and sent back by the pilot
to be mailed also at New York, revealed my acquaintance
with a portion of her duplicity, and Mr. Bainrothe’s
dark design.
I promised her my forgiveness on two
conditions alone: one was, that she should not
seek to trace me, since all effort to regain me would
be fruitless; another, that she would be kind to Mabel,
and my father’s ancient servants until my return,
and, of these last, especially Morton.
I uttered no threats nor reproaches asked
no favors, beyond those which I had a right to demand
at her hands as my father’s ward long
supported by him, and even cherished with paternal
tenderness and the guardian of his child.
I knew that the use of my house and furniture would
amply compensate her for all Mabel’s expenses,
among the principal of which would be that liberal
education which I demanded for her, as her right.
I was very nearly twenty, now; Mabel,
ten. There was still time to redeem the past,
and carry out all my frustrated intentions, after the
expiration of one year of abeyance and exile.
Yes! I would “stand and wait,” trusting
so “to serve.”