A woman sat sewing near my berth in
the state-room in which I found myself; a fan, lying
on a small table at her side, betokened in what manner
she had divided her attentions between her
needle and her helpless charge. I thought; indeed,
that I had felt its soft plumes glide gently across
my face in the very moment of my awakening in the
first amazement of which I but dimly comprehended the
circumstances that surrounded me.
“What brought this stranger
to my pillow! Who and what was she? Where
was I!” These were my mental queries at the first.
Then, as the truth gradually dawned over my sluggish
and bewildered brain, I lay quietly revolving matters,
and noticed my self-constituted nurse, and my surroundings,
with the close yet careless observation of a child.
The woman, on whom my gaze was earliest
fixed (while her own seemed riveted on the work upon
her knee), was of middle age or beyond it, of medium
size, of square and sturdy make, and homely to the
very verge of ugliness. She was dressed plainly
if not commonly in black, but there was a general
air of decency about her that seemed to place her beyond
the sphere of servitude. She wore spectacles set
in tortoise-shell frames, and she wore her iron-gray
hair straight back behind small, funnel-shaped ears,
and gathered into the tightest knot behind. Her
head was flat and narrow at the summit, though broad
at and above the base of the brain. Her forehead,
wide yet low, was ignoble in expression. The
mouth, shaped like a horseshoe, was curved down at
the corners, and was full of sullen resolution.
The nose, pinched, yet not pointed, showed scarcely
any nostril, and might as well have been made of wood,
for any meaning it betrayed. Her eyebrows were
short, wide, rugged, and irregular, though very black;
the cast-down eyes, of course, so far inscrutable.
She was shaping a flimsy, black-silk
dress, and doing it deftly, though it was a marvel
to me how hands so stiff and cramped as hers appeared
to be could handle a needle at all.
On one of these gnarled and unlovely
fingers she wore a ring which, in the idleness of
the mood that possessed me, I examined listlessly.
It was an old-fashioned and slender circle of gold,
so pale that it looked silvery, such as in times long
past had commonly been used either for troth-plight
or marriage-vows, surmounted by two small united hearts
of the same dull metal by way of ornament. Mrs.
Austin, I remembered, possessed one, the aversion
of my childhood, that seemed its counterpart.
My weary eyes wandered from her at
last, to take in the accessories of my chamber, tiny
as this was, and I saw that against the wall were
hanging a gentleman’s greatcoat and hand-satchel.
Cigars and books were piled on the same table which
held the spool and scissors of my companion, and a
pair of cloth slippers, embroidered with colored chenilles
and quilted lining, of masculine size and shape, reposed
upon the floor. A cane and umbrella were secured
neatly in a small corner rack. There were no
traces, I saw, of feminine occupancy beyond the transient
implements of industry alluded to.
Suddenly, in their languid, listless
roving, my eyes encountered those of my attendant
fixed full upon me, while a smile distorted the homely,
sallow face, disclosing a set of yellow teeth, sound,
short, and strong, like regular grains of corn.
In those eyes, in that mouth and saffron
teeth, lay the whole power and character of this repulsive
and disagreeable physiognomy.
Those feline orbs of mingled gray
and green, with their small, pointed pupils, were
keen, vigilant, and observing beyond all eyes it had
ever before or since been my lot to encounter.
After meeting their penetrating glance I was not surprised
to hear their possessor accost me in clear, metallic
tones, that seemed only the result of her gift of
insight, and consistent with it.
“You are awake and yourself
again, young lady, I am glad to see! You have
slept very quietly for the last few hours, and your
fever is wellnigh broken. Will you have some
food now? You need it; you must be weak.”
“Yes, very weak; but not hungry
at all. I do not want to eat. Just let me
lie quietly awhile. It is such enjoyment.”
She complied silently and judiciously with my request.
After a satisfactory pause, during
which I had gradually collected my ideas, I inquired,
suddenly:
“How long is it since we were
lifted from the raft, and where are the other survivors?”
“All safe, I believe, and onboard,
well cared for, like yourself. It has been nearly
two days since your raft was overhauled. This
was what the captain called it,” and she smiled.
“The baby where is he? I hope
he lived.”
“Yes, he is at last out of danger,
and we have obtained a nurse for him. He would
only trouble you now; but it is very natural you should
be anxious about him.”
“Yes, he was my principal care
on the raft, and I do not wish to lose sight of him.
When I am better, you must let him share my room until
we reach our friends.”
“Oh, certainly!” and again
she smiled her evil smile. “No one, so far
as I know of, has any right or wish to separate you;
but, for the present, you are better alone.”
“Yes, I am strangely weak confused,
even,” and I passed my hand over my blistered
face and dishevelled hair with something of the feeling
of the little woman in the story who doubted her own
identity. Alas! there was not even a familiar
dog to bark and determine the vexed question, “Is
this I?”
Helpless as an infant, flaccid as
the sea-weed when taken from its native element, feeble
in mind from recent suffering, broken in body, I was
cast on the mercies of strangers, ignorant, until they
saw me, of my existence, yet not indifferent to it,
as their care testified.
“You will take some food now,”
said the woman, kindly, “Your weakness is not
unfavorable, since it proves the fierce fever broken;
but you must hasten to gather strength for what lies
before you. We shall be in port to-morrow.”
I put away the spoon with an impatient
gesture. “I cannot; it nauseates me but
to see it, to think of it. Strength will come
of itself.”
“Oh, no; that is impossible.
Besides, the doctor has ordered panada, and I am responsible
to him for your safety. Come, now, be reasonable.
This is very nice, seasoned with madeira and nutmeg.”
Making a strong effort to overcome
my repugnance, I received one spoonful of the proffered
aliment, then sank back on my pillow, soothed and
comforted, not more by the unexpectedly good effects
of the compound, than the associations it conjured
up, of my sick childhood, of Mrs. Austin, and of Dr.
Pemberton.
“Ah! you smile; that is a good
sign,” said the woman; “favorable every
way. We shall have no more delirium now, I hope;
no more ’bears and serpents’ about the
berth; no more calls for ‘Bertie’ and ’Captain
Wentworth,’ and you will soon be able to tell
us all about yourself and your people all
we want to know.”
I must have lapsed again into reverie
rather than slumber, from which I was partly aroused
by whispering voices at the door, one of which seemed
familiar to me. Yet this fact or fancy made little
impression on me at the moment, feeble and wretched
as was my will, undiscriminating as were my faculties.
And when the door opened, and a lady
entered, I did not seek to inquire about her interlocutor.
Respectfully rising from her seat beside me, my companion
left it vacant for her, to whom she introduced me as
her mistress, and stood, work in hand, sewing beneath
the skylight, while the new-comer remained in the
state-room.
A handsome woman, tall and fashionably
attired, apparently between thirty and forty years
of age, square face, dark-eyed, rosy-cheeked, and
with curling hair, approached me with uplifted hands
and eyebrows as I lay gazing calmly upon her; for
my food and slumber together had strengthened and
revived me wonderfully in the last few hours, and my
senses were again collected.
“Awake, and herself again, as
I live, even if we cannot say yet truthfully ’clothed
and in her right mind.’ Eh, Clayton?”
with a sneering simper; “and what eyes, what
teeth, to be sure! Then the dreadful redness
is going away, though the skin will scale, of course;
but no matter for that; all the fairer in the end.
And what a special mercy that her hair is saved! You
have to thank me for that, young lady.
I would not let the ship’s doctor touch a strand
of it not a strand. ’One does
not grow a yard and a half of hair in a month, or a
year, doctor,’ I observed, ’and a woman
might as well be dead at once, or mad, or a man, as
have cropped hair during all the days of her youth.’
I had a fellow-feeling, you see! I have magnificent
hair myself, child, as Clayton well knows, for it
is her chief trouble on earth, and I would almost
as lief die as lose it.”
“Yes, indeed, Lady Anastasia’s
hair is one of her chief attractions,” observed
the sympathizing Clayton, behind her chair.
“So Sir Harry Raymond thought,
my dear “ addressing me “when
I married him, ten years ago; and so somebody else
thinks just now, for I am tired of my widowhood, and
intend taking on the conjugal yoke again as soon as
I reach ”
“New York,” interpolated
Mrs. Clayton, hastily and emphatically; clearing her
throat slightly, by way of apology, perhaps, for her
officiousness.
“And you shall stand bridesmaid,
my dear. Yes, I am determined on it; so never
make great eyes at me. There is a little bit of
romance about me that will strike out in spite of
all my worldliness; and it will be so pretty to have
an ’ocean-waif for an attendant it
will read so well in the papers! I suppose, when
you reach your friends, there will be no difficulty
about a dress, and all that sort of thing, meet for
the occasion a very splendid one, I assure
you conducted without regard to expense;
for my fiance is very rich, I hear, and my own
jointure was a liberal one.”
“You do me a great honor,”
I murmured, conventionally rebelling inwardly at the
suggestion.
“Oh, not at all!” was
the gracious rejoinder. “I see at a glance,
in spite of your misfortunes, that you are one of
us, which is not what I say to everybody. True
blood will show under all circumstances, though there
is such an improvement. Did any one ever see the
like before? Why, my dear, you were blistered
and black when we picked you up, and afterward sienna-colored;
now you are almost a beauty!”
“I am better much
better, and have a great deal to be thankful for, I
feel,” I contented myself with murmuring.
“Of course you have. It
was just a chance with you between our ship and death,
you know. By-the-by, what name shall we give our
‘treasure-trove?’”
“Miriam for the present, if
you please. This is no time nor place for ceremony.”
“Well, Miriam it shall be,”
she repeated with laughing eyes (hers were of that
sort which close and grow Chinese under the pressure
of merriment and high cheekbones combined). “Miriam,
I like the name there is something grand
about it.”
“But how shall we know where
to find your friends when we get to port?” asked
my first attendant. “We must know
more than your Christian name for such a purpose.
You must place confidence in us, you must indeed!”
“Be patient with me,”
I entreated. “I am much too feeble yet to
give you the details that may be necessary. When
we reach New York, you shall know every thing:
or is it, indeed, to that place this ship is bound?”
“I thought you knew all about
your destination by this time,” replied Lady
Anastasia Raymond. “Yes, yes, New York of
course!” and again she laughed. “Didn’t
you hear Clayton say so?”
Just then a sharp tap at the door
was answered by Lady Anastasia, who went quickly from
beneath the curtain hung across it (in consideration,
no doubt, of the privacy my illness enjoined), but
not before I had caught once, and this time clearly,
the tones of a voice that thrilled to my life, the
same that had haunted my delirious fancy, I now remembered,
through the last four-and-twenty hours.
I rose to my elbow impulsively, only
to fall back again utterly exhausted.
“Who was that speaking?”
I asked, feebly; “can it be possible ”
and I wrung my hands.
“It was the ship’s doctor,”
interrupted the woman I had heard called Clayton by
her mistress. “He had not time to do more
than inquire about you, I suppose, there are so many
ill in the steerage; but he has been very kind and
will probably return.”
“I hope so,” I rejoined;
“I should like to realize that voice as his.
It has haunted me very disagreeably in my dreams, and
the tones are those of an old, old acquaintance, one
I should be sorry to see here.”
“I do not believe you have an
acquaintance on the ship,” she said, simply.
“Under the circumstances any such person would
certainly have discovered himself; your situation
would have moved a heart of stone.”
“But it is sometimes wise for
the wicked to lie perdu,” I murmured,
and conjecture was busy in my brain. “I
should be glad, too, to see the captain of this vessel
at his earliest convenience,” I added, after
a pause. “Will you be so good as to apprise
him in person of my earnest wish? It would be
a real charity.”
“Oh, certainly; but I am afraid
he cannot come to-night. It is nearly evening
now, and he never leaves the deck at this hour, nor
until very late.”
“To-morrow, then, I must insist
on this interview, since I reflect about it, for several
reasons.”
“To-morrow he shall come,”
she said, sententiously; “and now try and sleep
again. It is very necessary you should gather
strength, for we shall be in port shortly, when all
will be confusion.”
I went to sleep, I remember, murmuring
to myself: “The hands were the hands of
Jacob, but the voice was the voice of Esau;”
and my bewildered faculties found rest until the morning’s
dawn.
After a hasty toilet made by the careful
hands of Mrs. Clayton, a matutinal visit made by Mrs.
or Lady Raymond, who always rose early as she informed
me, and a cup of tea, very soothing to my prostrated
nerves, the potentate of the Latona was duly announced.
Our ship’s master was a tall,
gaunt, sandy-haired man, with steady gray eyes, hard
features, and enormous hands and feet, the first freckled
and awkward, the last so long as very nearly to span
the space between his seat (a small Spanish-leather
trunk) and the berth I reposed in. He entered
without his hat; and the swoop of the head he made
to avoid the entanglement of the curtain was supposed
to do double duty, and serve as a bow to the inmate
of his state-room as well, for his I supposed it to
be at the time, and he did not contradict me.
“I hope you find yourself comfortable,
marm, on board of my ship.”
“And in your state-room, captain?”
I interrupted promptly.
“Wall, you see it all belongs
to me, kinder,” he said, after seating himself,
as he rubbed his huge, projecting knees, plainly indicated
through his nankeen trousers, with his capacious, horny
hands. “I’m not very particular,
though, where I sleep on shipboard, but at home there’s
few more so.”
“I thought a captain was more
at home on shipboard than anywhere else,” I
pursued mechanically; “such is the theory at
least.”
“Oh, not at all, not at all;
when he has a snug nest on land, with a wife and children
waiting to receive him. You might as well talk
of a man in the new settlements bein’ more at
home in his wagon than in his neat, hewn-log cabin.”
“A very good simile, captain,
and one that kills the ancient theory outright.
Let me thank you, however, before we proceed further,
for all the kindness and attention I have received
in this floating castle of yours, both from you and
others. I hope and believe that my companions
in misfortune have fared as well.”
“Wall, they have not wanted
for nothing as far as I knew the poor baby
in particular;” and, as he spoke, he roughed
his hair with one hand and smiled into my face a huge,
honest, gummy smile, inexpressibly reassuring.
“The man is hideous and repulsive,”
I thought; “but infinitely preferable, somehow,
to the specimen of English aristocracy and her maid
who have constituted themselves so far my guardian
angels” a twinge of ingratitude here,
which I resented instantly by settling my patriotic
prejudices to be at the root of the thing, and rebuking
my mistrust sternly though silently. “Yet
that voice how could I be mistaken?”
and again I addressed myself to the task before me,
having gotten through all preliminaries.
While I sat hesitating as to what
I should say, so as to both guard against and conceal
my suspicions from the captain’s scrutiny, if,
indeed, he might be supposed to possess such a quality,
I observed that he drew from his pocket a long slip
of newspaper, in which he appeared to bury himself
for a time, when not glancing furtively at me, as if
waiting impatiently for the coming revelation.
“I have sent for you, Captain
Van Dorne,” I said, at last, in very low and
even tones, not calculated to reach outside ears, however
vigilant, and yet not suppressed by any means to whispers “I
have sent for you,” and my heart beat quickly
as I spoke, “not merely to thank you for your
hospitable kindness, but because I wish, for reasons
that I cannot now explain, to place myself under your
especial care until I reach my friends.”
“Certainly, certainly; but you
air among your friends already if you could
only think so,” he answered, evasively, still
caressing his potato knees with large and outspread
hands.
“Do not for one moment deem
me unmindful of much kindness, or ungrateful to those
who have bestowed it,” I hastened to explain.
“Yet I cannot deny that a fear possesses me
that among your passengers may be found one whom I
esteem, not without sufficient cause, my greatest enemy.”
“Poor thing! poor thing! what
put such a strange fancy into your head? An enemy
in my ship! Why, there is not a man on board who
would not cut off his right hand rather than harm
one hair of your poor, witless, defenseless head!
There was not a dry eye on the deck when you and the
rest wuz lifted from the raft!”
“I understand this prevalence
of sympathy for misfortune perfectly, and honor it;
yet I have heard a voice since my immurement in this
cabin which must belong” and I whispered
the dreaded name “to Mr. Basil Bainrothe!”
As I spoke I eyed him steadily, and
I fancied that his cheek flushed and his eye wavered that
clear and honest eye which had given him a high place
in my consideration from the moment I met its’
gaze.
“You must have been delirious-like
when you conceited you heerd that strange voice,”
he said, presently.
“I’ll send you my passenger-list
if you choose, and you can read it over keerfully.
I don’t think you’ll find that name,
though, in its kolyums,” shaking his head sagaciously.
“Captain Van Dome, do you mean
to say there is no such passenger in your ship’s
list as Basil Bainrothe?” I asked, desperately.
“That’s what I mean to say.”
“Give me your honor on this point. It is
a vital one to me. Your honor!”
He hesitated and looked around.
Just at this moment of apparent uncertainty, a slight
tap was heard on the ground-glass eye above us that
threw a sullen and unwilling light upon the scene of
our interview. It seemed to nerve him strangely.
“On my word of honor, as an
American seaman, I assure you that the name of Basil
Bainrothe is not on the ship’s list at this present
speaking;” and, as he spoke, he held up his
right hand, adding, as he dropped it, doggedly, “Ef
the man’s on board I don’t know it!”
“It is enough I believe
you, Captain Van Dorne. And now I want to ask
you, as a parting grace, to convey me yourself to the
Astor House, and place my watch” (detaching
it from my neck as I spoke) “in the hands of
the proprietors as a proof of my honest intentions.
For yourself, I shall seek another opportunity.”
“Not at all not at
all!” he interrupted. “Keep your watch,
young lady. No such pledge will be required by
them proprietors; and, as to myself, if it had not
been for this paper,” drawing from his pocket,
and flattening on his knees as he spoke, the slip
I had before observed, then glancing at me sharply,
“I could never have believed that such a pretty-spoken,
pretty-behaved young creetur could have been non
com. But pshaw! what am I talking about?
This paper is as old as last year’s krout!
You don’t keer nothing about seeing of it, do
you, now?” and he crumpled it in his hand.
“Not unless it concerns me in
some way, Captain Van Dorne,” I said, coldly.
His manner had suddenly become offensive to me, and
I longed to see him depart, having ’transacted
my affairs, as far, at least, as I deemed it prudent
to insist on such transaction.
“It may be,” I added,
“that, on reaching the port of New York, a friend
or friends who expected me on the Kosciusko may be
in waiting to receive me; that is, if the fate of
that vessel be not already known. In that case,
I shall not be obliged to avail myself of your services,
and will acquaint you; but, otherwise, promise that
you will conduct me from the ship yourself, either
to the hotel or to your wife, as you prefer.”
“Wall, I promise you,”
he said, doggedly, as he prepared literally to undouble
his long frame before executing another dive beneath
my door-guarding drapery, and with this brief assurance
I was fain to rest content.
At all events, I was reassured on
one subject those honest eyes, that frank
if ugly mouth had no acquaintance with lies, or the
father of them, I saw at once; and the voice of the
ship’s doctor had for the nonce deceived my
practised ear, overstrung by suspicion enfeebled
by suffering.
So I rested calmly until the afternoon,
with Mrs. Clayton sewing silently by my side, when
with a little tap Lady Anastasia (or Mrs. Raymond,
as she declared she preferred to be called by “Americans”)
entered, bearing a basket in her hand, and wearing
on her head a Dunstable bonnet simply trimmed, which
she came, she said, to place, along with other articles
of dress, at my disposal.
It had not occurred to me before that,
in order to go on shore respectably clad, some attire
very different from a bed-gown would be essential,
and I could but feel grateful for such proofs of unselfish
consideration on the part of strangers, pitying both
my indigence and imbecility, and so expressed myself.
In accordance with their generous
intentions, I submitted myself to be arrayed by Mrs.
Clayton and her mistress: first, in the flimsy
black-silk gown now completed, on which I had seen
my attendant working when I first unclosed my eyes
after long unconsciousness, and the measure which
she had taken, while I lay in this condition, as coolly
in all probability as an undertaker measures a corpse
for its shroud; secondly, in a cardinal of the same
material, a wrapping cut in the shape in vogue at
that period; thirdly, in certain loosely-fitting boots
and gloves with which I was fain to cover up my naked
feet and blistered hands in forma pauperis
and, lastly, in the collarette and cuffs provided
by the economic and considerate Lady Anastasia, composed
of cotton lace! The Dunstable bonnet was hung
upon a peg in readiness, and I was kindly counseled
to lie still, “accoutred as I was,” and
exhausted by means of such accoutrement as I felt,
until evening should find us riding in our harbor.
Then there was a little, low consulting
at the door with the renowned “ship’s
doctor,” who positively refused to approach me
because he had just come from a case of ship-fever
in the steerage, which he feared to communicate to
one in my precarious state, but who sent in his imperative
orders that I should have soup and sherry-cobbler forthwith,
and try and build up my strength for the time of debarkation speaking
in a low, growling voice divested of its former clearness,
but still strangely resembling that of Basil Bainrothe!
“The poor man is so fagged out,”
said Mrs. Clayton, as she brought in my broth and
wine, “that his very voice is changed. He
is a good soul, and has shown you great interest.
Some day you must send him a present, that is, if
you are able; but just now all you have to think of
is getting safe ashore. Lady Anastasia will go
to her friends, probably, or to those of the gentleman
she is engaged to; but I do not mean to forsake you
until I see you better, and in good hands.”
I know not how it was that my heart
sank so strangely at this announcement. The woman
was kind tender, even and had
probably saved my life, and yet her presence to me
was a punishment worse than pain, a positive evil
greater than any other.
“I shall go to the Astor House,”
I faltered. “The captain has promised me
his escort thither.”
“Yes, yes, I know, he has told
me all about it; but your friends may not be in waiting,
and it is simply our duty to see you in their hands.
And now drink your sangaree. See, I have broken
a biscuit in the glass, and it is well seasoned with
lemon and nutmeg. There, now, that is right; a
few spoonfuls of soup, and you will feel strengthened
for your undertaking. I will sit quietly in the
corner until you have your rest.”
“No, I prefer to see Christian
Garth before I try to sleep the man who
steered our raft and the young girl he saved,
and the baby let them all come to me, and
we will go on shore together.”
I spoke these words with a sort of
desperation, as though they contained my last hope
of justice or protection from a fate which, however
obscurely, seemed to threaten me, as we feel the thunder-storm
brooding in the tranquil atmosphere of summer.
“Christian Garth!” she
repeated, looking at me over her tortoise-shell spectacles,
and, quietly drawing out a snuffbox of the same material,
she proceeded to fill her narrow nostrils therewith.
“Why, that shaggy-looking old sailor, and the
girl, and the old negro woman and child, went on shore
at daylight this morning. He hailed a Jersey craft,
and they all left together. It is perfectly understood,
though, that the child is to be returned to you if
you desire its company, but, if I were situated as
you are, and sure of its safety, I would never want
to see it again. It would be better off dead
than living anyhow, under the circumstances, poor,
deformed creature better for both of you.”
The words came to me distinctly, yet
as if from an immense distance, and I seemed to see
the small chamber lengthening as if it had been a
telescope unfolding, and the sallow woman with her
hateful smile and tightly-knotted, brindled hair seated
in diminished size and distinctness at its farthest
extremity.
So had I felt on that fearful night
when Evelyn had made her revelation and received mine,
and I did not doubt, even in my sinking state, that
I was under the influence of a powerful anodyne.
“Call the ship’s doctor I
am dying!” were the last words I remember to
have articulated; then all was dark, and hours went
by, of deep, unconscious sleep.
It was night when I felt myself drawn
to my feet, and roused to life by the repeated applications
of cold water to my face. “The anodyne was
over-powerful,” I heard Mrs. Raymond say.
“It is a shame to tamper with such strong medicines.”
“Oh, she has strength for any
thing!” was Clayton’s rejoinder. “I
never saw such a constitution and he knew
what he was doing.”
“No doubt of that. But,
dear Miss Miriam, do speak to me. I am so frightened
at your lethargic condition. I declare I
am sorry I ever consented to have any thing to do
with this matter! See how she stands. I
cannot think it was right, Clayton, I cannot, indeed;
I dislike the whole drama.”
“Do be quiet! She is coming
to herself fast, and what will she think of such expressions?
You never had any self-control in your life, and you
are playing for great stakes now.” These
last words in a hoarse whisper.
“Nonsense! mother.”
“Again! How often must I warn you?”
“Well, Clayton, then, now and forever.”
“Here! rouse up, little one!
We are fast anchored in port, and the captain is waiting
for us, for we go part of the way together, and our
escorts have all failed us yours and mine.
Nice fellows, are they not?”
I sat up and looked about me bewildered;
yet I had heard distinctly every word spoken in the
last few minutes, and remembered them for future observance,
without having had the power to move or articulate
a remonstrance.
“Now, drink this strong coffee,
and all will be well again,” said Clayton, putting
a cup of the smoking beverage to my lips, which I
swallowed eagerly, instinctively. The effect was
instantaneous, and I was able to speak and stand,
as well as hear and comprehend, while my bonnet was
being tied on, and my throat muffled in a veil, by
the dexterous fingers of Lady Anastasia.
When this process was completed, she
stooped down and kissed me, and I felt a hot tear
fall upon my cheek as she rose again. In the next
moment I was clinging to the captain’s arm,
with a spasmodic feeling of relief for which I could
ill account. We passed across the plank which
connected the ship with the shore in utter darkness,
guided by a twinkling light far ahead, borne by a
seaman, reached the dusky quay, with its few flaring
lamps, made dim by drizzling rain and summer mist,
and before many minutes we paused before one of a long
line of coaches.
The captain handed me in, then, standing
before the open door, seemed to await the coming of
some other person before taking his own place the
dreaded Clayton, I knew; but I could not remonstrate
against what seemed an ordinary courtesy, and perhaps
a step suggested by his innate notions of propriety.
At any other time I might have agreed
with him; but, feeble as I was, and still bewildered,
my whole object seemed to be to escape from the sphere
and power of those women, who had been most kind to
me, yet whom I instinctively dreaded and abhorred.
They came together, the mother and
daughter, in their travesty of mistress and maid enough
of itself to excite suspicion of foul play and
climbed up the rickety steps of the hackney-coach,
rejoicing over their victim. It mattered not;
the captain would make the fourth passenger, and in
his shadow I felt there were strength and security.
“What are you waiting for, Captain
Van Dorne?” I had just feebly asked, as the
door snapped-to, and the driver mounted his box.
A hand was thrust through the window for all reply,
and a card dropped upon my lap, which I hastened to
secure in the depths of my pocket. By the merest
chance, I found it there on the morrow, and later I
comprehended its import, so mysterious to me at the
moment of perusal.
“My poor young lady, you must
forgive me for disappointing you, and hidin’
the truth, for your own sake. May God bless and
restore you, and bring you to a proper sense of his
mercies, is the prayer of your servant to command,
JOSEPH VAN DORNE.”
My frame of mind was a very different
one when I read this scrawl, from that which bewildered
and oppressed me on that never-to-be-forgotten night
of suffering and distress, both mental and physical.
Formed of those elements which readily react, courage
and calmness had returned to me before I read the
oracle of our worthy shipmaster; for, in spite of
his disastrous dealing with me on that occasion, misguided
as he was by others, I have reason to so consider
him.
But now the influence of the drug
that had been given me so recently, doubtless through
want of judgment, by the ship’s doctor, was felt
in every nerve; and, as the carriage rolled up the
stony quay, I clung convulsively to Mrs. Raymond,
and buried my face and aching forehead in her shoulder,
with a strange revulsion of feeling.
“You dread the darkness,”
she said, kindly, putting her arm around me as she
spoke; “but it is only for a time; we shall soon
come out into the open lamp-light of ”
“Broadway, New York,”
interrupted Clayton, sententiously; “a very poor
sight to see, to one who has lived abroad. Have
you ever crossed the waters, Miss Miriam? But
I see you are quite faint and overcome. Here,
smell this ether, that the ship’s doctor put
up expressly for your use, and recommended highly
as a new restorative much in fashion in Paris.”
Had the ship’s doctor no name,
then, that they never mentioned it, and that he spoke
in a demon’s voice? His doses I had proved,
and was resolved to take no more of them, and I pushed
away the phial, whose cold glass nose was thrust obtrusively
against my own pushed it away with all
my strength, fast ebbing away as this was, even as
I made the effort.
The cruel potion had possession of
me, and entered into every fibre of my brain through
the avenues prepared for it by the treacherous anodyne;
so that, enervated and intoxicated, I yielded passively,
after a brief struggle, to the power of the then newly-invented
sedative, called chloroform.
When the carriage stopped, or whither
it transported me, or who lifted my insensible form
to the chamber prepared for me, I know not never
knew. There was a faint reviving, I remember;
a process of disrobing gone through by the aid of
foreign assistance (whose, I recognized not), then
I slumbered profoundly and securely through the entire
night, to recover no clearness of perception until
a late hour on the following morning.