It was extraordinary how wide awake
Fred Starratt felt next morning. He was full
of tingling reactions to the sharp chill of disillusionment.
At the breakfast table he met his wife’s advances
with an air of tolerant aloofness. In the past,
the first moves toward adjusting a misunderstanding
had come usually from him. He had an aptitude
for kindling the fires of domestic harmony, but he
had discovered overnight the futility of fanning a
hearthstone blaze when the flue was choked so completely.
Before him lay the task of first correcting the draught.
Temporary genialities had no place in his sudden,
bleak speculations. Helen shirred his eggs to
a turn, pressed the second cup of coffee on him, browned
him a fresh slice of toast ... he suffered her favors,
but he was unmoved by them. They did not even
annoy him. When he kissed her good-by he felt
the relaxation of her body against his, as she stood
for a moment languishing in provocative surrender.
He put her aside sharply. Her caress had a new
quality which irritated him.
Outside, the morning spread its blue-gold
tail in wanton splendor. February in San Francisco!
Fred Starratt drew in a deep breath and wondered where
else in the whole world one could have bettered that
morning at any season of the year. Like most San
Franciscans, he had never flown very far afield, but
he was passionate in his belief that his native city
“had it on any of them,” to use his precise
term. And he was resentful to a degree at any
who dared in his presence to establish other claims
or to even suggest another preference. He looked
forward to New York as an experience, but never as
a goal. No, San Francisco was good enough for
him!
He felt the same conviction this morning,
but a vague gypsying stirred his blood also, and a
wayfaring urge swept him. The sky was indescribably
blue, washed clean by a moist January that had drenched
the hills to lush-green life. The bay lay in a
sapphire drowse, flecked by idle-winged argosies,
unfolding their storm-soaked sails to the caressing
sunlight. Soaring high above the placid gulls,
an airplane circled and dipped like a huge dragon
fly in nuptial flight. Through the Golden Gate,
shrouded in the delicate mists evoked by the cool
night, an ocean liner glided with arrogant assurance.
From the last vantage point, before
he slipped townward to his monotonous duties, Starratt
stood, shading his eyes, watching the stately exit
of this maritime giant. This was a morning for
starting adventure...for setting out upon a quest!...
He had been stirred before to such Homeric longings
... spring sunshine could always prick his blood with
sharp-pointed desire. But to-day there was a poignant
melancholy in his flair for a wider horizon. He
was touched by weariness as well as longing.
He was like a pocket hunter whose previous borrowings
had beguiled him with flashing grains that proved
valueless. He would not abandon his search, but
he must pack up and move on to new, uncertain, unproved
ground. And he felt all the weight of hidden
and heartbreaking perils with which his spiritual faring
forth must of necessity be hedged.
At the corner of California and Montgomery
streets he met the tide of nine-o’clock commuters
surging toward the insurance offices and banks.
His widened vision suddenly contracted. Middle
class! The phrase leaped forward from the flock
mind which this standardized concourse diffused.
In many of the faces he read the potentialities of
infinite variety, smothered by a dull mask of conformity.
What a relief if but one in that vast flood would
go suddenly mad! He tried fantastically to picture
the effect upon the others the momentary
cowardice and braveries that such an event would call
into life. For a few brief moments certain personalities
and acts would stand out sharply glorified, like grains
of dust dancing in the slanting rays of the sun.
Then, the angle of yellow light restored to white normality,
the whirling particles would drift back into their
colorless oblivion.
For a moment he had a taste of desire
for unspringing power. If he could but be the
wind to shake these dry reeds of custom into a semblance
of life!... One by one they passed him with an
air of growing preoccupation ... each step was carrying
them nearer to the day’s pallid slavery, and
an unconscious sense of their genteel serfdom seemed
gradually to settle on them. There were no bent
nor broken nor careworn toilers among this drab mass...the
stamp of long service here was a withered, soul-quenched
gentility that came of accepting life instead of struggling
against it.
Gradually the temper of the crowd
communicated itself to him. It was time to descend
from his speculative heights and face the problems
of his workday world. He turned sharply toward
his office. Young Brauer was just mounting the
steps.
“Well, what’s new?” Brauer threw
out, genially.
“Not a thing in the world!” escaped Starratt.
They went into the office together.
Old Wetherbee was carrying his cash
book out of the safe. The old man smiled.
He was usually in good humor early in the morning.
“Well, what’s new?” he inquired,
gayly.
“Not a thing in the world!” they chimed,
almost in chorus.
At the rear of the office they slipped
on their office coats. Brauer took a comb from
his pocket and began carefully to define the part in
his already slick hair. Starratt went forward.
In the center of the room the chief
stenographer stood, putting her formidable array of
pencils through the sharpener. She glanced up
at Starratt with a complacent smile.
“Oh, good morning, Mr. Starratt!”
she purred, archly. “What’s new with
you?”
“Not a thing in the world,”
he answered, ironically, and he began to arrange some
memoranda in one of the wire baskets on his desk...
At nine thirty the boy brought him his share of the
mail from the back office, and in ten minutes he was
deeply absorbed in sorting the “daily reports”
from the various agencies. He worked steadily,
interrupted by an occasional phone call, an order from
the chief clerk, the arrival and departure of business
associates and clients. Above the hum of subdued
office conversation the click of typewriting machines
and the incessant buzzing of the desk telephones, he
was conscious of hearing the same question repeated
with monotonous fidelity:
“Hello! What’s new with you?”
And as surely, either through his
own lips or the lips of another, the identical reply
always came:
“Not a thing in the world!”
At half past eleven he stopped deliberately
and stood for a moment, nervously fingering his tie.
He was thinking about the course of action that he
had decided upon in that long, unusual vigil of the
night before. His uncertainty lasted until the
remembrance of his wife’s scornful question
swept over him:
“Why aren’t you doing something?...
Everybody else is!”
But it was the answer he had made
that committed him irrevocably to his future course:
“Perhaps I am. You don’t know everything.”
He had felt a sense of fatality bound
up in these words of defiant pretense, once they had
escaped him...a fatality which the blazing contempt
of his wife’s retort had emphasized. Even
now his cheeks burned with the memory of that unleashed
insult:
“What can you do?”
No, there was no turning back now.
His own self-esteem could not deny so clear-cut a
challenge.
He called his assistant. “I
wish you’d go into the private office and see
if Mr. Ford is at leisure,” he ordered.
“I want to have a talk with him.”
The youth came back promptly.
“He says for you to come,” was his brief
announcement.
Fred Starratt stared a moment and,
recovering himself, walked swiftly in upon his employer.
Mr. Ford was signing insurance policies.
“Well, Starratt,” he said,
looking up smilingly, “what’s the good
word?... What’s new with you?”
Starratt squared himself desperately.
“Nothing...except I find it impossible to live
upon my salary.”
Mr. Ford laid aside his pen.
“Oh, that’s unfortunate!... Suppose
you sit down and we’ll talk it over.”
Starratt dropped into the nearest seat.
Mr. Ford let his eyeglasses dangle
from their cord. He was not in the least disturbed.
Indeed, he seemed to be approaching the issue with
unqualified pleasure.
“Now, Starratt, let’s
get at the root of the trouble... Of course you’re
a reasonable man otherwise...”
Starratt smiled ironically. A
vivid remembrance of Hilmer’s words flashed
over him. His lip-curling disdain must have communicated
itself to Mr. Ford, because that gentleman hesitated,
cleared his throat, and began all over again.
“You’re a reasonable man,
Starratt, and I know that you have the interest of
the firm at heart.”
Starratt leaned back in his seat and
listened, but he might have spared himself the pains.
Somehow he anticipated every word, every argument,
before Mr. Ford had a chance to voice them. Business
conditions were uncertain, overhead charges extraordinarily
increased, the loss ratio large and bidding fair to
cut their bonus down to nothing. Therefore ...
well, of course, next year things might be different.
The firm was hoping that by next year they would be
in a position to deal handsomely with those of their
force who had been patient... Mr. Ford did not
stop there, he did not expect Starratt to take his
word for anything. He reached for a pencil and
pad and he went into a mathematic demonstration to
show just how near the edge of financial disaster
the firm of Ford, Wetherbee & Co. had been pushed.
Starratt could not doubt the figures, and yet his eyes
traveled instinctively to the bag of golf sticks in
a convenient corner. Somehow, nothing in either
Ford’s argument or his sleek presence irritated
Starratt so much as these golf sticks. For, in
this particular instance, they became the symbol of
a self-sufficient prosperity whose first moves toward
economy were directed at those who serve... If
all this were so, why didn’t Ford begin by cutting
down his own allowance, by trimming his own expenses
to the bone? Golf, as Mr. Ford played it, was
an expensive luxury. No doubt the exercise was
beneficial, but puttering about a garden would have
done equally. Starratt might have let all this
pass. He was by heart and nature and training
a conservative and he had sympathy for the genial vanities
of life. It was Ford’s final summary, the
unconscious patronage, the quiet, assured insolence
of his words, which gave Starratt his irrevocable
cue.
“We rather look to men like
you, Starratt,” Mr. Ford was saying, his voice
suave to the point of insincerity, “to tide us
over a crisis. Just now, when the laboring element
is running amuck, it’s good to feel that the
country has a large percentage of people who can be
reasonable and understand another viewpoint except
their own... After everything is said and done,
in business a man’s first loyalty is to the
firm he works for.”
“Why?” Starratt threw out sharply.
Ford’s pallid eyes widened briefly.
“I think the answer is obvious, Starratt.
Don’t you? The hand that feeds a man is...”
“Feeds? That may work both ways.”
“I don’t quite understand.”
Starratt’s glance traveled toward
the golf sticks. “Well, it seems to me
it’s a case of one man cutting down on necessities
to provide another with luxuries.” He hated
himself once he had said it. It outraged his
own sense of breeding.
Mr. Ford shoved the pencil and pad
to one side. “A parlor radical, eh?...
Well, this from you is surprising!... If
there was one man in my employ whom I counted on,
it was you. You’ve been with me over fifteen
years ... began as office boy, as I remember.
And in all that time you’ve never even asked
for a privilege... I’m sorry to see such
a fine record broken!”
Yesterday Starratt would have agreed
with him, but now he felt moved to indignation and
shame at Ford’s summary of his negative virtues.
He had been born with a voice and he had never lifted
it to ask for his rights, much less a favor.
No wonder Hilmer could sneer and Helen Starratt cut
him with the fine knife of her scorn! The words
began to tumble to his lips. They came in swirling
flood. He lost count of what he was saying, but
the angry white face of his employer foreshadowed
the inevitable end of this interview. He gave
his rancor its full scope ... protests, defiance,
insults, even, heaping up in a formidable pile.
“You ask me to be patient,”
he flared, “because you think I’m a reasonable,
rational, considerate beast that can be broken to any
harness!” He recognized Hilmer’s words,
but he swept on. “If you were in a real
flesh-and-blood business you’d have felt the
force of things ... you’d have had men with
guts to deal with ... you’d have had a brick
or two heaved into your plate-glass window. A
friend of mine said last night that potting clerks
was as sickening as a rabbit drive. He was right,
it is sickening!”
Mr. Ford raised his hand. Starratt obeyed with
silence.
“I’m sorry, Starratt,
to see you bitten with this radical disease...
Of course, you can’t stay on here, after this.
Your confidence in us seems to have been destroyed
and it goes without saying that my confidence in you
has been seriously undermined. We’ll give
you a good recommendation and a month’s salary...
But you had better leave at once. A man in your
frame of mind isn’t a good investment for Ford,
Wetherbee & Co.”
Starratt was still quivering with
unleashed heroics. “The recommendation
is coming to me,” he returned, coldly. “The
month’s salary isn’t. I’ll
take what I’ve earned and not a penny more.”
“Very well; suit yourself there.”
Mr. Ford reached for his pen and began
where he had left off at Starratt’s entrance
... signing insurance policies... Starratt rose
and left without a word. The interview was over.
Already, in that mysterious way with
which secrets flash through an office with lightninglike
rapidity, a hint of Starratt’s brush with Ford
was illuminating the dull routine.
“I think he’s going into
business for himself, or something,” Starratt
heard the chief stenographer say in a stage whisper
to her assistant, as he passed.
And at his desk he found Brauer waiting
to waylay him with a bid for lunch, his little ferret
eyes attempting to confirm the general gossip flying
about.
Starratt had an impulse to refuse,
but instead he said, as evenly as he could:
“All right ... sure! Let’s go now!”
Brauer felt like eating oysters, so
they decided to go up to one of the stalls in the
California Market for lunch. He was in an expansive
mood.
“Let’s have beer, too,”
he insisted, as they seated themselves. “After
the first of July they’ll slap on war-time prohibition
and it won’t be so easy.”
Starratt acquiesced. He usually
didn’t drink anything stronger than tea with
the noonday meal, because anything even mildly alcoholic
made him loggy and unfit for work, but the thought
that to-day he was free intrigued him.
The waiter brought the usual plate
of shrimps that it was customary to serve with an
oyster order, and Starratt and Brauer fell to.
A glass of beer foamed with enticing amber coolness
before each plate. Brauer reached over and lifted
his glass.
“Well, here’s success
to crime!” he said, with pointed facetiousness.
Starratt ignored the lead. He
had never liked Brauer and he did not find this sharp-nosed
inquisitiveness to his taste. He began to wonder
why he had come with him. Lunching with Brauer
had never been a habit. Occasionally, quite by
accident, they managed to achieve the same restaurant
and the same table, but it was not a matter of prearrangement.
Indeed, Starratt had always prided himself at his
ability to keep Brauer at arm’s length.
A subtle change had occurred. Was it possible
that a borrowed five-dollar bill could so reshape a
relationship? Well, he would pay him back once
he received his monthly salary, and get over with
the obligation. His monthly salary?... Suddenly
it broke over him that he had received the last full
month’s salary that he would ever get from Ford,
Wetherbee & Co. It was the 20th of February,
which meant, roughly, that about two thirds of his
one hundred and fifty dollars would be coming to him
if he still held to his haughty resolve to take no
more than he had earned. Two thirds of one hundred
and fifty, less sixty-odd dollars overdrawn...
He was recalled from his occupation by Brauer’s
voice rising above the clatter of carelessly flung
crockery and tableware.
“Is it true you’re leaving the first of
the month?”
He liked Brauer better for this direct
question, although the man’s presumption still
rankled.
“I’m leaving to-day,”
he announced, dryly, not without a feeling of pride.
“What are you going to do?”
“I haven’t decided...
Perhaps...I don’t know ... I may
become an insurance broker.”
Brauer picked through the mess in
his plate for an unshelled shrimp. “That
takes money,” he ventured, dubiously.
“Oh, not a great deal,”
Starratt returned, ruffling a trifle. “Office
rent for two or three months before the premiums begin
to come in ... a little capital to furnish up a room.
I might even get some one to give me a desk in his
office until I got started. It’s done, you
know.”
Brauer neatly extracted a succulent
morsel from its scaly sheath. “Don’t
you think it’s better to put up a front?”
he inquired. “If you’ve got a decent
office and your own phone and a good stenographer
it makes an impression when you’re going after
business... Why don’t you go in with somebody?...
There ought to be plenty of fellows ready to put up
their money against your time.”
“Who, for instance?” escaped Starratt,
involuntarily.
Brauer shoved his plate of husked
shrimps to one side. “Take me. I’ve
saved up quite a bit, and...”
The waiter broke in upon them with the oysters.
Starratt knitted his brows. “Well,
why not?” was his mental calculation.
Brauer ordered two more pints of beer.
Starratt had leaned at first toward
keeping his business venture a secret from Helen.
But in the end a boyish eagerness to sun himself in
the warmth of her surprise unlocked his reserve.
“I’ve quit Ford-Wetherbee,”
he said, quietly, that night, as she was seating herself
after bringing on the dessert.
He had never seen such a startled
look flash across her face.
“What! Did you have trouble?”
He decided swiftly not to give her
the details. He didn’t want her to think
that any outside influence had pushed him into action.
“Oh no!...” he drawled,
lightly. “I’ve been thinking of leaving
for some time. Working for another person doesn’t
get you anywhere.”
He could see that she was puzzled,
perhaps a little annoyed. Last night in a malicious
moment she had been quite ready to sneer at her husband’s
inactivity, but now, with the situation a matter of
practice rather than theory, Starratt felt that she
was having her misgivings. A suggestion of a
frown hovered above her black eyebrows.
“You can’t mean that you’re
going into business!” she returned, as she passed
him a dish of steaming pudding.
There was a suggestion of last night’s
scorn in her incredulity.
“No?... And why not?”
She cast a sidelong glance at him. “That
takes money,” she objected.
He knew now, from her tone, what was
behind the veil of her intimations and he found a
curious new pleasure in watching her squirm.
“Oh, well,” he half mused,
“I guess we’ll struggle through somehow.
We’ve always managed to.”
She leaned one elbow heavily on the
table. “More economies, I suppose!”
He had trapped her too easily!
It was his turn to be cutting. “Don’t
worry!... I sha’n’t ask you to do
without any more than you’ve done without so
far. If you can stand it as it is awhile longer,
why ...” He broke off with a shrug.
Her eyes swam in a sudden mist.
“You’re not fair!” she sniffed.
“I’m thinking as much of you as I am of
myself. Going into business isn’t only
a question of money. There are anxieties and worry
... and ... and ...” She recovered herself
swiftly and looked at him with clear, though reproachful,
eyes. “I’m always willing to help
... you know that!”
He melted at once. There was
a moment of silence, and then he told her everything
... about Brauer, and what they purposed.
“He’s to keep on at Ford-Wetherbee’s
until things are running smoothly. Of course,
I’d rather not have it that way, but he holds
the purse strings, so I’ve got to make concessions.
We can get an office for twenty-five a month.
It will be the salary of the stenographer that will
count up.”
“When do you start?”
“To-morrow. And do you
know who I’m going after first thing?...
Hilmer. He told me last night to come around and
talk over insuring that car of his... I don’t
know that I’ll land that. But I might line
him up for something else. He must have a lot
of insurance to place one way or another.”
She smiled dubiously. “Well,
I wouldn’t count too much upon Hilmer,”
she said, with a superior air.
“I’m not counting on anything
or anybody,” he returned, easily. “Hilmer
isn’t the only fish in the sea.”