At length, after a lapse of some days,
there came another streak of fine bright hardy autumn
weather. It was a Saturday. The window
was open, and the children were gone. Not surprising,
this, for he had patiently watched and waited at the
corner until they were gone.
“Good-day,” he said to
the face; absolutely getting his hat clear off his
head this time.
“Good-day to you, sir.”
“I am glad you have a fine sky again to look
at.”
“Thank you, sir. It is kind if you.”
“You are an invalid, I fear?”
“No, sir. I have very good health.”
“But are you not always lying down?”
“Oh yes, I am always lying down,
because I cannot sit up! But I am not an invalid.”
The laughing eyes seemed highly to enjoy his great
mistake.
“Would you mind taking the trouble
to come in, sir? There is a beautiful view from
this window. And you would see that I am not
at all ill being so good as to care.”
It was said to help him, as he stood
irresolute, but evidently desiring to enter, with
his diffident hand on the latch of the garden-gate.
It did help him, and he went in.
The room upstairs was a very clean
white room with a low roof. Its only inmate
lay on a couch that brought her face to a level with
the window. The couch was white too; and her
simple dress or wrapper being light blue, like the
band around her hair, she had an ethereal look, and
a fanciful appearance of lying among clouds.
He felt that she instinctively perceived him to be
by habit a downcast taciturn man; it was another help
to him to have established that understanding so easily,
and got it over.
There was an awkward constraint upon
him, nevertheless, as he touched her hand, and took
a chair at the side of her couch.
“I see now,” he began,
not at all fluently, “how you occupy your hand.
Only seeing you from the path outside, I thought you
were playing upon something.”
She was engaged in very nimbly and
dexterously making lace. A lace-pillow lay upon
her breast; and the quick movements and changes of
her hands upon it, as she worked, had given them the
action he had misinterpreted.
“That is curious,” she
answered with a bright smile. “For I often
fancy, myself, that I play tunes while I am at work.”
“Have you any musical knowledge?”
She shook her head.
“I think I could pick out tunes,
if I had any instrument, which could be made as handy
to me as my lace-pillow. But I dare say I deceive
myself. At all events, I shall never know.”
“You have a musical voice. Excuse me;
I have heard you sing.”
“With the children?” she
answered, slightly colouring. “Oh yes.
I sing with the dear children, if it can be called
singing.”
Barbox Brothers glanced at the two
small forms in the room, and hazarded the speculation
that she was fond of children, and that she was learned
in new systems of teaching them?
“Very fond of them,” she
said, shaking her head again; “but I know nothing
of teaching, beyond the interest I have in it, and
the pleasure it gives me when they learn. Perhaps
your overhearing my little scholars sing some of their
lessons has led you so far astray as to think me a
grand teacher? Ah! I thought so!
No, I have only read and been told about that system.
It seemed so pretty and pleasant, and to treat them
so like the merry Robins they are, that I took up with
it in my little way. You don’t need to
be told what a very little way mine is, sir,”
she added with a glance at the small forms and round
the room.
All this time her hands were busy
at her lace-pillow. As they still continued
so, and as there was a kind of substitute for conversation
in the click and play of its pegs, Barbox Brothers
took the opportunity of observing her. He guessed
her to be thirty. The charm of her transparent
face and large bright brown eyes was, not that they
were passively resigned, but that they were actively
and thoroughly cheerful. Even her busy hands,
which of their own thinness alone might have besought
compassion, plied their task with a gay courage that
made mere compassion an unjustifiable assumption of
superiority, and an impertinence.
He saw her eyes in the act of rising
towards his, and he directed his towards the prospect,
saying: “Beautiful, indeed!”
“Most beautiful, sir.
I have sometimes had a fancy that I would like to
sit up, for once, only to try how it looks to an erect
head. But what a foolish fancy that would be
to encourage! It cannot look more lovely to
any one than it does to me.”
Her eyes were turned to it, as she
spoke, with most delighted admiration and enjoyment.
There was not a trace in it of any sense of deprivation.
“And those threads of railway,
with their puffs of smoke and steam changing places
so fast, make it so lively for me,” she went
on. “I think of the number of people who
can go where they wish, on their business, or their
pleasure; I remember that the puffs make signs to me
that they are actually going while I look; and that
enlivens the prospect with abundance of company, if
I want company. There is the great Junction,
too. I don’t see it under the foot of the
hill, but I can very often hear it, and I always know
it is there. It seems to join me, in a way,
to I don’t know how many places and things that
I shall never see.”
With an abashed kind of idea that
it might have already joined himself to something
he had never seen, he said constrainedly: “Just
so.”
“And so you see, sir,”
pursued Phoebe, “I am not the invalid you thought
me, and I am very well off indeed.”
“You have a happy disposition,”
said Barbox Brothers: perhaps with a slight excusatory
touch for his own disposition.
“Ah! But you should know
my father,” she replied. “His is
the happy disposition! Don’t mind,
sir!” For his reserve took the alarm at a step
upon the stairs, and he distrusted that he would be
set down for a troublesome intruder. “This
is my father coming.”
The door opened, and the father paused there.
“Why, Lamps!” exclaimed
Barbox Brothers, starting from his chair. “How
do you do, Lamps?”
To which Lamps responded: “The
gentleman for Nowhere! How do you do, sir?”
And they shook hands, to the greatest
admiration and surprise of Lamp’s daughter.
“I have looked you up half-a-dozen
times since that night,” said Barbox Brothers,
“but have never found you.”
“So I’ve heerd on, sir,
so I’ve heerd on,” returned Lamps.
“It’s your being noticed so often down
at the Junction, without taking any train, that has
begun to get you the name among us of the gentleman
for Nowhere. No offence in my having called you
by it when took by surprise, I hope, sir?”
“None at all. It’s
as good a name for me as any other you could call me
by. But may I ask you a question in the corner
here?”
Lamps suffered himself to be led aside
from his daughter’s couch by one of the buttons
of his velveteen jacket.
“Is this the bedside where you sing your songs?”
Lamps nodded.
The gentleman for Nowhere clapped
him on the shoulder, and they faced about again.
“Upon my word, my dear,”
said Lamps then to his daughter, looking from her
to her visitor, “it is such an amaze to me, to
find you brought acquainted with this gentleman, that
I must (if this gentleman will excuse me) take a rounder.”
Mr. Lamps demonstrated in action what
this meant, by pulling out his oily handkerchief rolled
up in the form of a ball, and giving himself an elaborate
smear, from behind the right ear, up the cheek, across
the forehead, and down the other cheek to behind his
left ear. After this operation he shone exceedingly.
“It’s according to my
custom when particular warmed up by any agitation,
sir,” he offered by way of apology. “And
really, I am throwed into that state of amaze by finding
you brought acquainted with Phoebe, that I that
I think I will, if you’ll excuse me, take another
rounder.” Which he did, seeming to be
greatly restored by it.
They were now both standing by the
side of her couch, and she was working at her lace-pillow.
“Your daughter tells me,” said Barbox
Brothers, still in a half-reluctant shamefaced way,
“that she never sits up.”
“No, sir, nor never has done.
You see, her mother (who died when she was a year
and two months old) was subject to very bad fits, and
as she had never mentioned to me that she was
subject to fits, they couldn’t be guarded against.
Consequently, she dropped the baby when took, and
this happened.”
“It was very wrong of her,”
said Barbox Brothers with a knitted brow, “to
marry you, making a secret of her infirmity.’
“Well, sir!” pleaded Lamps
in behalf of the long-deceased. “You see,
Phoebe and me, we have talked that over too.
And Lord bless us! Such a number on us has our
infirmities, what with fits, and what with misfits,
of one sort and another, that if we confessed to ’em
all before we got married, most of us might never
get married.”
“Might not that be for the better?”
“Not in this case, sir,” said Phoebe,
giving her hand to her father.
“No, not in this case, sir,” said her
father, patting it between his own.
“You correct me,” returned
Barbox Brothers with a blush; “and I must look
so like a Brute, that at all events it would be superfluous
in me to confess to that infirmity. I
wish you would tell me a little more about yourselves.
I hardly knew how to ask it of you, for I am conscious
that I have a bad stiff manner, a dull discouraging
way with me, but I wish you would.”
“With all our hearts, sir,”
returned Lamps gaily for both. “And first
of all, that you may know my name ”
“Stay!” interposed the
visitor with a slight flush. “What signifies
your name? Lamps is name enough for me.
I like it. It is bright and expressive.
What do I want more?”
“Why, to be sure, sir,”
returned Lamps. “I have in general no other
name down at the Junction; but I thought, on account
of your being here as a first-class single, in a private
character, that you might ”
The visitor waved the thought away
with his hand, and Lamps acknowledged the mark of
confidence by taking another rounder.
“You are hard-worked, I take
for granted?” said Barbox Brothers, when the
subject of the rounder came out of it much dirtier
than be went into it.
Lamps was beginning, “Not particular
so” when his daughter took him up.
“Oh yes, sir, he is very hard-worked.
Fourteen, fifteen, eighteen hours a day. Sometimes
twenty-four hours at a time.”
“And you,” said Barbox
Brothers, “what with your school, Phoebe, and
what with your lace-making ”
“But my school is a pleasure
to me,” she interrupted, opening her brown eyes
wider, as if surprised to find him so obtuse.
“I began it when I was but a child, because
it brought me and other children into company, don’t
you see? That was not work. I carry it
on still, because it keeps children about me. That
is not work. I do it as love, not as work.
Then my lace-pillow;” her busy hands had stopped,
as if her argument required all her cheerful earnestness,
but now went on again at the name; “it goes
with my thoughts when I think, and it goes with my
tunes when I hum any, and that’s not work.
Why, you yourself thought it was music, you know,
sir. And so it is to me.”
“Everything is!” cried
Lamps radiantly. “Everything is music to
her, sir.”
“My father is, at any rate,”
said Phoebe, exultingly pointing her thin forefinger
at him. “There is more music in my father
than there is in a brass band.”
“I say! My dear!
It’s very fillyillially done, you know; but
you are flattering your father,” he protested,
sparkling.
“No, I am not, sir, I assure
you. No, I am not. If you could hear my
father sing, you would know I am not. But you
never will hear him sing, because he never sings to
any one but me. However tired he is, he always
sings to me when he comes home. When I lay here
long ago, quite a poor little broken doll, he used
to sing to me. More than that, he used to make
songs, bringing in whatever little jokes we had between
us. More than that, he often does so to this
day. Oh! I’ll tell of you, father,
as the gentleman has asked about you. He is a
poet, sir.”
“I shouldn’t wish the
gentleman, my dear,” observed Lamps, for the
moment turning grave, “to carry away that opinion
of your father, because it might look as if I was
given to asking the stars in a molloncolly manner
what they was up to. Which I wouldn’t at
once waste the time, and take the liberty, my dear.”
“My father,” resumed Phoebe,
amending her text, “is always on the bright
side, and the good side. You told me, just now,
I had a happy disposition. How can I help it?”
“Well; but, my dear,”
returned Lamps argumentatively, “how can I help
it? Put it to yourself sir. Look at her.
Always as you see her now. Always working and
after all, sir, for but a very few shillings a week always
contented, always lively, always interested in others,
of all sorts. I said, this moment, she was always
as you see her now. So she is, with a difference
that comes to much the same. For, when it is
my Sunday off and the morning bells have done ringing,
I hear the prayers and thanks read in the touchingest
way, and I have the hymns sung to me so
soft, sir, that you couldn’t hear ’em
out of this room in notes that seem to
me, I am sure, to come from Heaven and go back to it.”
It might have been merely through
the association of these words with their sacredly
quiet time, or it might have been through the larger
association of the words with the Redeemer’s
presence beside the bedridden; but here her dexterous
fingers came to a stop on the lace-pillow, and clasped
themselves around his neck as he bent down. There
was great natural sensibility in both father and daughter,
the visitor could easily see; but each made it, for
the other’s sake, retiring, not demonstrative;
and perfect cheerfulness, intuitive or acquired, was
either the first or second nature of both. In
a very few moments Lamps was taking another rounder
with his comical features beaming, while Phoebe’s
laughing eyes (just a glistening speck or so upon
their lashes) were again directed by turns to him,
and to her work, and to Barbox Brothers.
“When my father, sir,”
she said brightly, “tells you about my being
interested in other people, even though they know nothing
about me which, by the bye, I told you
myself you ought to know how that comes
about. That’s my father’s doing.”
“No, it isn’t!” he protested.
“Don’t you believe him,
sir; yes, it is. He tells me of everything he
sees down at his work. You would be surprised
what a quantity he gets together for me every day.
He looks into the carriages, and tells me how the
ladies are dressed so that I know all the
fashions! He looks into the carriages, and tells
me what pairs of lovers he sees, and what new-married
couples on their wedding trip so that I
know all about that! He collects chance newspapers
and books so that I have plenty to read!
He tells me about the sick people who are travelling
to try to get better so that I know all
about them! In short, as I began by saying, he
tells me everything he sees and makes out down at
his work, and you can’t think what a quantity
he does see and make out.”
“As to collecting newspapers
and books, my dear,” said Lamps, “it’s
clear I can have no merit in that, because they’re
not my perquisites. You see, sir, it’s
this way: A Guard, he’ll say to me, ’Hallo,
here you are, Lamps. I’ve saved this paper
for your daughter. How is she a-going on?’
A Head-Porter, he’ll say to me, ’Here!
Catch hold, Lamps. Here’s a couple of
wollumes for your daughter. Is she pretty much
where she were?’ And that’s what makes
it double welcome, you see. If she had a thousand
pound in a box, they wouldn’t trouble themselves
about her; but being what she is that is,
you understand,” Lamps added, somewhat hurriedly,
“not having a thousand pound in a box they
take thought for her. And as concerning the
young pairs, married and unmarried, it’s only
natural I should bring home what little I can about
them, seeing that there’s not a Couple
of either sort in the neighbourhood that don’t
come of their own accord to confide in Phoebe.”
She raised her eyes triumphantly to
Barbox Brothers as she said:
“Indeed, sir, that is true.
If I could have got up and gone to church, I don’t
know how often I should have been a bridesmaid.
But, if I could have done that, some girls in love
might have been jealous of me, and, as it is, no girl
is jealous of me. And my pillow would not have
been half as ready to put the piece of cake under,
as I always find it,” she added, turning her
face on it with a light sigh, and a smile at her father.
The arrival of a little girl, the
biggest of the scholars, now led to an understanding
on the part of Barbox Brothers, that she was the domestic
of the cottage, and had come to take active measures
in it, attended by a pail that might have extinguished
her, and a broom three times her height. He
therefore rose to take his leave, and took it; saying
that, if Phoebe had no objection, he would come again.
He had muttered that he would come
“in the course of his walks.” The
course of his walks must have been highly favourable
to his return, for he returned after an interval of
a single day.
“You thought you would never
see me any more, I suppose?” he said to Phoebe
as he touched her hand, and sat down by her couch.
“Why should I think so?” was her surprised
rejoinder.
“I took it for granted you would mistrust me.”
“For granted, sir? Have you been so much
mistrusted?”
“I think I am justified in answering
yes. But I may have mistrusted, too, on my part.
No matter just now. We were speaking of the
Junction last time. I have passed hours there
since the day before yesterday.”
“Are you now the gentleman for Somewhere?”
she asked with a smile.
“Certainly for Somewhere; but
I don’t yet know Where. You would never
guess what I am travelling from. Shall I tell
you? I am travelling from my birthday.”
Her hands stopped in her work, and
she looked at him with incredulous astonishment.
“Yes,” said Barbox Brothers,
not quite easy in his chair, “from my birthday.
I am, to myself, an unintelligible book with the earlier
chapters all torn out, and thrown away. My childhood
had no grace of childhood, my youth had no charm of
youth, and what can be expected from such a lost beginning?”
His eyes meeting hers as they were addressed intently
to him, something seemed to stir within his breast,
whispering: “Was this bed a place for the
graces of childhood and the charms of youth to take
to kindly? Oh, shame, shame!”
“It is a disease with me,”
said Barbox Brothers, checking himself, and making
as though he had a difficulty in swallowing something,
“to go wrong about that. I don’t
know how I came to speak of that. I hope it
is because of an old misplaced confidence in one of
your sex involving an old bitter treachery.
I don’t know. I am all wrong together.”
Her hands quietly and slowly resumed
their work. Glancing at her, he saw that her
eyes were thoughtfully following them.
“I am travelling from my birthday,”
he resumed, “because it has always been a dreary
day to me. My first free birthday coming round
some five or six weeks hence, I am travelling to put
its predecessors far behind me, and to try to crush
the day or, at all events, put it out of
my sight by heaping new objects on it.”
As he paused, she looked at him; but
only shook her head as being quite at a loss.
“This is unintelligible to your
happy disposition,” he pursued, abiding by his
former phrase as if there were some lingering virtue
of self-defence in it. “I knew it would
be, and am glad it is. However, on this travel
of mine (in which I mean to pass the rest of my days,
having abandoned all thought of a fixed home), I stopped,
as you have heard from your father, at the Junction
here. The extent of its ramifications quite
confused me as to whither I should go, from
here. I have not yet settled, being still perplexed
among so many roads. What do you think I mean
to do? How many of the branching roads can you
see from your window?”
Looking out, full of interest, she answered, “Seven.”
“Seven,” said Barbox Brothers,
watching her with a grave smile. “Well!
I propose to myself at once to reduce the gross number
to those very seven, and gradually to fine them down
to one the most promising for me and
to take that.”
“But how will you know, sir,
which is the most promising?” she asked,
with her brightened eyes roving over the view.
“Ah!” said Barbox Brothers
with another grave smile, and considerably improving
in his ease of speech. “To be sure.
In this way. Where your father can pick up
so much every day for a good purpose, I may once and
again pick up a little for an indifferent purpose.
The gentleman for Nowhere must become still better
known at the Junction. He shall continue to
explore it, until he attaches something that he has
seen, heard, or found out, at the head of each of
the seven roads, to the road itself. And so
his choice of a road shall be determined by his choice
among his discoveries.”
Her hands still busy, she again glanced
at the prospect, as if it comprehended something that
had not been in it before, and laughed as if it yielded
her new pleasure.
“But I must not forget,”
said Barbox Brothers, “(having got so far) to
ask a favour. I want your help in this expedient
of mine. I want to bring you what I pick up
at the heads of the seven roads that you lie here
looking out at, and to compare notes with you about
it. May I? They say two heads are better
than one. I should say myself that probably
depends upon the heads concerned. But I am quite
sure, though we are so newly acquainted, that your
head and your father’s have found out better
things, Phoebe, than ever mine of itself discovered.”
She gave him her sympathetic right
hand, in perfect rapture with his proposal, and eagerly
and gratefully thanked him.
“That’s well!” said
Barbox Brothers. “Again I must not forget
(having got so far) to ask a favour. Will you
shut your eyes?”
Laughing playfully at the strange
nature of the request, she did so.
“Keep them shut,” said
Barbox Brothers, going softly to the door, and coming
back. “You are on your honour, mind, not
to open you eyes until I tell you that you may?”
“Yes! On my honour.”
“Good. May I take your lace-pillow from
you for a minute?”
Still laughing and wondering, she
removed her hands from it, and he put it aside.
“Tell me. Did you see
the puffs of smoke and steam made by the morning fast-train
yesterday on road number seven from here?”
“Behind the elm-trees and the spire?”
“That’s the road,” said Barbox Brothers,
directing his eyes towards it.
“Yes. I watched them melt away.”
“Anything unusual in what they expressed?”
“No!” she answered merrily.
“Not complimentary to me, for
I was in that train. I went don’t
open your eyes to fetch you this, from
the great ingenious town. It is not half so
large as your lace-pillow, and lies easily and lightly
in its place. These little keys are like the
keys of a miniature piano, and you supply the air
required with your left hand. May you pick out
delightful music from it, my dear! For the present you
can open your eyes now good-bye!”
In his embarrassed way, he closed
the door upon himself, and only saw, in doing so,
that she ecstatically took the present to her bosom
and caressed it. The glimpse gladdened his heart,
and yet saddened it; for so might she, if her youth
had flourished in its natural course, having taken
to her breast that day the slumbering music of her
own child’s voice.