Christmas Eve, the large snowflakes
drifted slowly down out of a windless sky. The
dusk was cheerful with the sound of sleigh bells that
announced the arrival or departure of last-hour shoppers.
Terry, at his desk in the great living
room, surveyed the finished trophy happily. It
was an unusually black and lustrous pelt. He buried
his face in the silky mat a moment, then drew out paper
and pen, and wrote:
Deane-dear:
Some three years ago a mother fox suffered
that this one might be born: denied herself
food that he might satisfy his urgent little
appetite as he grew bigger and stronger. When
he was big enough he left her and forgot her she
may have suffered then, too.
He lived as foxes do. Things died
that he might eat; rabbits, pheasants, chickens,
field-mice. He stalked all things less strong
and clever than himself. A cruel cycle, but
it is the law of the wild, something that you and I
cannot alter.
He enjoyed the summers best, with their
longer days, fuller larders, sweet wood odors,
long naps in the cool shadows of the thicket.
But winter came, with its hardships and its cold,
a cold that little foxes feel the same as you and I.
But it was this cold that stimulated and silkened
his fur, made it this wondrous, prized thing.
Then I came, and he ceased to be what
he was a hunter of smaller, weaker
things and became what you see here:
a finer thing a token. Your kind
heart need find no cruelty in a merciful shot
that spelled no pain and that by stopping him
assured that gentler, weaker things will live on and
on.
And he will be
glad, too, as not only is he forever
freed from cold and
hunger and stark fear, but his is to be
a tender office.
Will you lay it at your bedside, that
each night it may cushion your last step at slumbertime,
and each morning soften the first contact between
the vistas of dreamland and the less yielding
surfaces of life to which we wake.
So even the things of
the wild are made to serve. To
serve is
that not the law of man?
My part in it? But little:
none other than I will have touched it till it
reaches your dear hands. I shaped it, wrought
to preserve its beauties that it might give you pleasure.
To give pleasure is
that not the law of love?
A very, very Merry Christmas!
Dick.
He sent his gift, at about nine o’clock.
In gay mood, he wandered about the great house:
entered the kitchen where Fanny was singeing the Christmas
turkey: returned to the living room to throw a
fresh log in the wide fireplace. His mood was
too expansive for indoors. He donned short coat
and thick cap, but as he passed out of the gate a
scared little lad, a foreigner, rushed up breathlessly
and begged him to come trouble was brewing
on the southside.
His questions elicited meager information.
Excited, the lad relapsed so often into his native
tongue that Terry could make nothing of his tale.
Hand in hand they hurried through
the village, crossed the dark bridge and approached
a ramshackle house from which a babble of voices rose
in strident argument. The excited chorus abated
at Terry’s sharp knock and the door was thrown
open to disclose the belligerent figure of Tony Ricorro,
the leader of the Italian colony. Recognizing
the reefered figure that smiled up at him through
the falling flakes, Tony’s dark scowl faded
as he reached out his powerful hands and with a joyous
shout fairly lifted Terry into the house.
Terry laughed as the gaudily dressed
occupants of the room crowded around him, and greeted
most of the score of swarthy men and women by name.
Tony masterfully stripped him of his overcoat and cap
and placed them in the kitchen from which emanated
odors of strange things cooking. The room was
stifling with heat and with smells beer,
garlic, tobacco, perfumes, kerosene.
Tony charged in from the kitchen with
a bottle of beer but Terry shook his head. Tony
was hospitably insistent, “What! No beer?”
“No thanks, Tony.”
“What’s matt’? Bad stomach?”
“Yes,” smiled Terry, “call it that.”
He plunged into the business in hand.
“Tony, what’s the trouble here to-night?”
Tony’s first word of explanation
was instantly submerged beneath a chorus of voices;
the excited crowd surged around Terry, as voluble of
gesture as of tongue. Pandemonium descended.
Terry finally silenced the din by
standing on his chair and pantomiming his desire to
be heard. “Now, listen to me,” he
began, after quiet was restored, “I’m
going to ask you all to keep silent, and to promise
me that no one will speak except those I call by name.”
They all promised each one not once but
in a series of lengthy assurances which he had to
raise his hand to cut short.
“Now, Tony, you first. What’s the
matter?”
Tony’s face registered his utter
disgust. “What’sa matt’?
What’sa matt’? Evra teeng ‘sa
matt’! Tommor’ we christen our bab’
and evra’ bod’ want a name heem!”
He glared at the restless circle which ringed them.
The odd wistful twist at the corner
of Terry’s mouth disappeared for a moment in
his slow smile; this was so like these people, who
bore big troubles stoically and reacted powerfully
to inconsequentials.
He called on several others.
All were relatives of Tony or of his wife; sisters,
brothers, several “in-laws,” Tony’s
father, two uncles. Each had his or her name
for the child, and sound reasons for the choice.
“Tony, where is Felice?”
he asked, noting that Tony’s wife was not in
the crowded dining room.
Tony took him into a dimly lighted
room, where his wife lay in bed; the guiltless cause
of all this dissension, obviously inured to clamor,
was asleep in her arm. She smiled up at Terry
as he sat down on the edge of the bed and took her
hand.
Tony stood looking down at Felice
and their first-born, his heart in his eyes.
“Tony, what does Felice wish
to name your son?” Terry asked suddenly.
Receiving no answer, he looked up
at Tony and read in the agonized contrition of Tony’s
dark face that she had not yet been consulted.
Tears glistened in the forgiving eyes Felice turned
on Tony, and as he flung himself down at the side
of the bed and buried his face in her pillow, Terry
tiptoed out of the room and softly closed the door.
In a few minutes Tony flung the door
open and strode into the room, unashamed of the tears
that shone on his rough cheeks.
“You all a go to hell-a with
your a-names! Felice, she name-a our boy and
to-morrow we go Padre Jenneeng. She a name heem” he
paused with true Latin sense of the value of suspense “She
a name heem Reechar Terree Ricorro!”
A moment of hesitation, of assimilation,
and then a hubbub of delighted acceptance and acclaim.
Terry stayed but a few minutes, realizing that much
as they liked him, there would be more spontaneity
at the fiesta if there were none but their own people
at the table.
He went in and thanked Felice gravely
for the honor she had conferred upon him, wished for
them all a merry Christmas, and passed out amid a
medley of thanks and benedictions.
The snowfall had ceased. He crossed
to the North Side and hastened up Main Street, and
though it lacked but an hour of midnight, he found
Judd’s jewelry store still open. He went
in and found young Judd about to close up.
Judd, hollow eyed with the fatigue
of the long day, studied his old friend’s beaming
face: “Hello, Sir Galahad!” he said.
Terry eyed him scornfully: “Hello,
Rut!” He drew himself up proudly. “Behold
in me a new dignity I am now a god-father!”
Having in mind the parents’
love for the elaborate, he gayly selected an ornate
silver cup for the infant.
“I’ll engrave it for you
after the holidays,” Judd offered.
“Good old boy, Judd! The initials will
be R T R.”
He buttoned his coat and went to the
door: Judd was musing over the monogram:
“Richard Terry what’s
the ‘R’ stand for, Dick?”
Terry grinned as he called back through the open door.
“Why, Romance, of course!”
He tramped far out the north road
through the new fallen snow, his whole being glowing.
The stars sparkled through the clear cold air in myriad
chorus of the message of hope that one in the East
had heralded to a sadder world on another Christmas
eve. The snow-flung star beams illuminated the
peaceful countryside: there was no moon, no light
save the great glow of the heavens, no shadows under
gaunt oaks or huddled evergreens.
He was in harmony with the night.
He followed the sleigh-rutted highway for several
miles, then swung back to town along a woodcutter’s
trail that edged the lakeshore, winding through the
new growths of pine and balsam whose night-black branches
were outlined by the white fall.
He loved the open: there was
no loneliness here.... Magic-wrought, Deane’s
phantom figure kept apace, matched step with step along
the shore trail through the hushed woods, across the
white sheen of open spaces. Ever, when summoned
thus, she came to share the hours and the places that
he loved best.
Love surged hot through his veins:
love of friends, of living, of youth, love of a woman
... probably his gift lay at her bedside now, as she
slept....
Unconsciously he slowed his pace and
lifted his fine, pale face upward: his low, clear
baritone flooded the broken woods, carried far out
across the silent frozen lake, unechoed; it was vibrant
with the very spirit of yuletide love of
man and woman.
Love, to share again those
winged scented days,
Those starry skies:
To see once more your joyous
face,
Your tender eyes:
Just to know that years so
fair might come again,
Awhile:
Oh! To thrill again to your dear voice
Your smile!
It was long past midnight when he
reached town, his mood chilling indefinably at sight
of its dark houses.
“You’re a queer old town,”
he muttered. “You go to bed on this night
of nights yes, and you batten your windows
tight against this glorious air and all
of the other glorious things.”
Passing the suspicious village constable,
he penetrated even his callous heart with the most
gladsome Christmas greeting he had heard in many a
year.
Home, he stirred the dying logs into
flame and sank into a deep cushioned chair drawn up
before the glowing embers. The long day had taken
no toll of his lithe frame: sleepless, he sat
long in pleasant retrospection of the day, which had
brought him opportunities to contribute to the sum
of peace on earth and to give pleasure to those whom
he loved.
His gift to Deane had approached even
his exacting criterion of what was fit for her.
He envied the skin its rapturous reception, the sparkle
of bright eyes its beauty would invoke. It was
characteristic that his vision did not carry him to
the daily contact of pink toes he had assigned as
its function. And it was characteristic of him,
too, that he did not think of the gifts which had
come for him.
He would see the elders, he mused,
and apologize for what must have seemed to them a
deliberate flaunting of their standards ... he had
been a little careless, lately ... he would remedy
that ... it was a good town his failure
to settle down had been a fault ... he would find
something to do, worth doing and do it....
Deane’s friendship might ripen into something
mellower, and then....
He reached into an inner pocket and
withdrew a telegram, bending nearer the fireplace
to read it.
Washington,
D. C.
Richard Terry, Crampville,
Vermont.
Wire will you accept commission second
lieutenant Philippine Constabulary period immediate
decision essential period if you accept wire
date you will be able to sail from San Francisco
Wilson
Insular Bureau
The glow from the fire which ruddied
his face revealed the struggle of the minute before
decision came. With an expression curiously mingled
of renunciation and relief he tossed the paper among
the glowing embers. He rose as the sheet took
fire and in the brief flash of light which marked
the consumption of the telegram he saw a familiar-looking
package on the library table in the shadow cast by
his big chair. He carried it to the now fainter
glow of the hearth and saw that it was addressed to
him in Deane’s trim hand. He opened it eagerly,
to see what form her remembrance had taken.
It was the fox-skin, returned.
Vague, trouble-eyed, he read the inclosed note.
Dear Dick:
I am sending you back
your present. Father insists, because
you secured it on Sunday.
It hurts me, Dick, dreadfully,
but you know how he feels
about such things.
It is the loveliest present I ever
received and it makes me want to cry,
sometimes, when I think of your doing such things
for me and thinking about me as you do. I AM
crying, now, Dick.
Though I can not have
it, your present will always be
mine I can
never forget that you were good enough to wish
me to have it.
And will you accept
my very best wishes that your Christmas
may be a very merry
one.
Deane.
He sank back into the chair again,
sickened.... “That your Christmas may be
a very merry one.”
Susan, first down in the morning,
raised the curtains to the brilliant Christmas morning,
and turned to find him sitting in the chilled room
before the dead fire. Shocked by the haggard face,
she hurried to him.
“Dick, are you sick?”
As she sank by the side of his chair her hand brushed
against the rich fur which lay across his knees, and
she understood. She placed a pitying arm about
his shoulders.
“I feared it, Dick I
feared it! You know how he is her father.
I’ll never speak to him again as long as ”
She burst into tears.
Gently he withdrew her arm and took her hand in his.
“It’s all right, Sue, it’s all right.”
Through her tears she read the pain
that lurked in his eyes, the agony that betrayed the
patient smile. She sobbed convulsively, heartsick
in her helplessness to ease this young brother to
whom she had been half mother.
“That’s what you always
say about everything: ’it will
be all right.’ When you were a boy it was
always the same ’it’s all right.’”
He comforted her with quiet words
till the storm abated. Then, “I’m
going to miss you, Sue-sister,” he said.
She stood up, comprehension dawning in her wide eyes.
“You’re going away!”
He nodded gravely.
Slowly, fearfully, she asked, “When?”
“To-night.”
“Way off to those Philippines?”
He nodded, then unable to bear longer
the hurt in her tremulous face, he sought refuge in
the ridiculous; he struck an attitude.
“I’m going in quest of
adventure riches romance!
I’m going to sail the Spanish Main seek
golden doubloons maids in distress the
Fountain of Youth! I’m going to cross strange
waters travel untraveled forest ... see
unseen peoples ... know unknown hills....”
An odd light flickered in his eyes,
as if he half believed what he spoke. Fanny appeared
at the kitchen door and with her cheery call of “Merry
Christmas,” the light faded from his face as
he turned in quick response.
He turned to his sister in mock reproof:
“Shure and it’s ye that has not yet wished
me aven a dacent top o’ the marnin’,
let alone the gratin’s of the sason! Shame
on ye ye heartless, thoughtless, loveless
He broke off, laughing at her bewilderment:
she never could keep apace with his quick moods.
Noting a tear still glistening he took her cheeks
between his hands and kissed the wet eyes, then asked
her to get word to Deane that he would be over some
time during the evening.
Surprised and pleased that he should
ask her to participate in his affair with Deane, she
hurried to the desk set in a deep bay window.
Ellis, sleepy-eyed, came down with
his hearty greetings of the day, and was surprised
to find Sue bent earnestly over her writing.
“Say,” he said, “can’t
you wait till after breakfast to thank everybody for
their presents? What’s the rush? Say,
Dick, did you hear yet what Bruce gave to the lady
of his heart? No? Well, he out-Bruced Bruce
this time! He gave her a patented, electric foot-warmer!”
Terry smiled his appreciation of Ellis’
chuckling loyalty and escaped upstairs to his room.
Ellis wandered aimlessly over to the Christmas table
and noted the number of unopened packages marked with
Terry’s name, then called up from the foot of
the stairs:
“Come right down here, you ungrateful
Non-christian, and see what Santa Claus brought you!
You got more than any of us and
He desisted as he suddenly became
aware of his wife’s frantic signals, and reading
the grievous trouble in her twitching face, he went
to her.
Susan, entering Terry’s room
at dusk, found him standing at the window staring
out into the evening, watching the shadows paint out
one by one the landmarks he had known from boyhood.
Two large leather bags, packed but still open, stood
at the side of the bed. The two frames which
had held the pictures of his father and mother lay
upon the table, empty, beside letters addressed to
Father Jennings, Doctor Mather, and Tony Ricorro.
He did not hear her but continued
at the window, his relaxed shoulders giving an unwonted
aspect of frailty to his body. She tiptoed out
of the room, crept back again to look through brimming
eyes at the lonely figure silhouetted against the
darkening window, then stumbled into her own room
and closed the door.
Terry returned to Deane in the sitting
room after bidding her father and mother a courteously
friendly farewell. Mr. Hunter, vaguely disturbed,
had followed his wife upstairs reluctantly; he was
not quite confident that his decision regarding the
fox skin had been justified, and would have been glad
had Terry given him opportunity to discuss it.
In a moment his voice sounded down to them as he defended
himself against his irate spouse.
“I don’t care what you
say, Marthy, he’s got to settle down and
Then their door closed.
For a long time Deane and Terry stood
voiceless, each leaden with a dull misery. The
shock of his announcement had paled her and she stared
hopelessly at him out of wide blue eyes, her full red
lips aquiver at the hurt she read in the gray eyes
and the queer wistful mouth.
She broke the pulsing silence:
“I never understand you, Dick, quite.
Is it because of the fox skin?”
He shook his head uncertainly, barely
conscious of her words in a last rapt gaze at her,
vaguely aware that this was the picture of her that
he would carry in his mind through the years to come.
Rounded, long of lines, apart from him she looked
as tall as he, though there was a two inch discrepancy;
the wide eyes and generous, curved mouth indicated
her infinite capacity for affection. The shadow
of a dimple flickered high on her left cheek:
the quickened beat of heart pulsed in the white column
of her throat.
“Is it because you hate the
town, Dick?” she asked tremulously.
Again he shook his head slowly:
“No, Deane, it is not that. The town is
all right it is not that.”
He paused, brooding, then went on:
“Last night I did not sleep much thinking
about it. It’s all my fault.... I do
not fit. So I am going away, going to try to
find my own place, somehow.”
Tortured by his patient smile, she
followed him out into the dim hall, half blinded by
her burning tears. She sobbed unrestrainedly as
he slipped into his overcoat.
He came to her, his hand outstretched, his voice husky.
“Good-by, Deane-girl,” he said.
Taking his hand she stepped close to him, misty-eyed,
atremble.
“Good-by, Di Oh,
Dick! Don’t go! Don’t go
way over to those awful Islands!”
He steadied her with an arm about
the shaking shoulders. She leaned full against
him and in the soft contact his pulses leaped.
He fought to resist the temptation to take advantage
of her mood, knew that for the moment she was his
if he but pressed his claim.
Suddenly she looked up at him, glorious
in her grief and surrender.
“Shall I do you want me to to wait?”
For a few moments it seemed that he had not heard
the low voice.
Then: “Don’t wait, Deane-girl, don’t
wait.”
Then the arm was gone from about her shoulder.
“But I will, Dick, I will!”
she sobbed, but as the words fell from her lips she
heard the door close and felt the gust of cold air
that chilled the hall.
She was still awake when the midnight
accommodation whistled its impending arrival from
the north. She listened, tense, as the train
came to a stop in the town. A brief halt, then
it sounded its underway, the pistons accelerated their
chugging beat and it passed out of Crampville into
the south.
She stood, still-breathed, dry-eyed,
till the last grinding rumble died out of the frosty
night, then as a full realization of her loss came
home, she dropped to the side of the bed and buried
her face in the coverlid.
The floor where she knelt seemed cold and hard.