I had never been into Sedgemoor before,
and so went straight on as I could, only turning aside
from swampy places while the light lasted. Then
I must wait for the moon to rise, and I sat me down
under an old thorn tree on a little rise where I could
see about me. I had come out of the woods, and
all the moor was open to the west and south so far
as I could see. I knew that the place was haunted
of evil spirits, and shunned at night time by all:
but now I was not afraid of them or indeed
of anything, save the wolves. The terror of the
man I had left had put that fear into my head, or
I think that, desperate as I was, only the sound of
a pack of them in full cry would have warned me.
Still, I had heard no more since that one howled an
hour ago.
Cold mists rose from the marsh, and
in them I could see lights flitting. A month
or two ago I should have feared them, thinking of Beowulf,
son of Hygelac, and what befell him and his comrades
from the marsh fiends, Grendel and his dam. Now
I watched them, and half longed for a fight like Beowulf’s.
[iv]
At last the moon rose behind me, and
I walked on. Once a vast shape rose up in the
mist and walked beside me, and I half drew my sword
on it. But that, too, drew sword, and I knew
it for my own shadow on the thick vapour. Then
a sheet of water stretched out almost under my feet,
and thousands of wildfowl rose and fled noisily, to
fall again into further pools with splash and mighty
clatter. I must skirt this pool, and so came
presently to a thicket of reeds, shoulder high, and
out of these rose, looking larger than natural in
the moonlight, a great wild boar that had his lair
there, and stood staring at me before he too made off,
grunting as he went.
So I went on aimless. The night
was full of sounds, but whether earthly; from wildfowl
and bittern and curlew, from fox, and badger, and otter;
or from the evil spirits of the marsh, I knew not nor
cared. For now the long imprisonment and the
day’s terrible doings, and the little food I
had had since we halted on the hill of Brent, all began
to get hold of me, and I stumbled on as a man in a
bad dream.
But nothing harmed or offered to harm
me. Only when some root or twisted tussock of
grass would catch my foot and hinder me I cursed it
for being in league with Matelgar, tearing my way
fiercely over or through it. And at last, I think,
my mind wandered.
Then I saw a red light that glowed
close under the edge of some thick woodland, where
the land rose, and that drew me. It was the hut
of a charcoal burner, and the light came from the
kiln close by, which was open, and the man himself
was standing at it, even now taking out a glowing
heap of the coal to cool, before he piled in fresh
wood and closed it for the night.
When I saw the hut, it suddenly came
on me that I was wearied out, and must sleep, and
so went thither. The collier heard the clank of
my armour, and turned round in the crimson light of
the glowing coals to see what came. As he saw
me standing he cried aloud in terror, and, throwing
up his hands, fled into the dark beyond the kiln, calling
on the saints to protect him.
For a moment I wondered that he should
thus fly me; but I staggered to his hut, and I remember
seeing his rush-made bed, and that is all.
When I woke again, at first I thought
myself back in the dungeon, and groaned, but would
not open my eyes. But I turned uneasily, and then
a small voice spoke, saying:
“Ho, Grendel! are you awake?”
I sat up and looked round. Then
I knew where I was but I had slept a great
sleep, for out of the open door I saw the Quantock
hills, blue across the moor, and the sun shone in
almost level. It was late afternoon.
I looked for him who had spoken, and
at first could see no one, for the sun shone in my
face: but something stirred in a corner, and I
looked there.
It was a small sturdy boy of some
ten years old, red haired, and freckled all over where
his woollen jerkin and leather hose did not cover
him. He sat on a stool and stared at me with round
eyes.
I stared back at him for a minute,
and then, from habit, for I would always play with
children, made a wry face at him, at which he smiled,
pleased enough, and said:
“Spit fire, good Grendel, I want to see.”
Now I was glad to be kept off my own
fierce thoughts for a little, and so answered him
back, wondering at the name he gave me, and at his
request.
“So I am Grendel, am I?”
“Aye,” said the urchin,
“Dudda Collier ran into village in the night,
saying that you had come out of the fen, all fire from
head to foot, and so he fled. But I came to see.”
“Where is the collier then?”
“He dare not come back, he says,
without the priest, and has gone to get the hermit.
So the other folk bided till he came too.”
“Were not you afraid of me?”
“Maybe I was feared at first but
I would see you spit fire before the holy man drives
you away. So I looked in through a crack, and
saw you asleep. Then I feared not, and bided
your waking for a little time.”
“What is your name, brave urchin?’
I asked, for I was pleased with the child and his
fearlessness.
“Turkil,” he said.
“Well, Turkil I am not Grendel.
He fled when I came in here.”
“Did you beat him?” asked the boy, with
a sort of disappointment.
“Nay; but he disappeared when
the hot coals went out,” I said. “And
now I am hungry, can you find me aught to eat?”
and, indeed, rested as I was with the long sleep,
I had waked sound in mind and body again, and longed
for food, and I think that finding this strange child
here to turn my thoughts into a wholesome channel,
when first they began to stir in me, was a mercy that
I must ever be thankful for.
Turkil got up solemnly and went to
the hearth. Thence he took an iron cauldron,
and hoisted it on the great round of tree trunk that
served as table in the midst of the hut.
“Dudda Collier left his supper
when he fled. Wherefore if we eat it he will
think Grendel got it and no blame to us,”
remarked the boy, chuckling.
And when I thought how I had not a
copper sceatta left me in the world, I stopped before
saying that I would pay him when he returned, and so
laughed back at the boy and fell to.
When we had finished, the cauldron,
which had been full of roe deer venison, was empty,
and Turkil and I laughed at one another over it.
“Grendel or no Grendel,”
said the urchin, “Dudda will ask nought of his
supper.”
“Why not?”
“By reason of what it was made of.”
Then I remembered that a thrall might
by no means slay the deer, and that he would surely
be in fear when he knew that one had found him out.
So I said to the boy:
“Grendel ate it, doubtless.
Nor you nor I know what was in the honest man’s
pot.”
Turkil was ready to meet me in this
matter, and looking roguishly at me, gathered up the
bones and put them into the kilns.
“Now must I go home,”
he said, when this was done, “or I shall be
beaten. But I would I had seen Grendel though
I love warriors armed like you.”
“Verily, Turkil, my friend,”
said I, “a stout warrior will you be if you
go on as you have begun.”
Thereupon something stirred within
me, as it were, and I took the urchin and kissed him,
for I had never thought to call one “friend”
again.
Then I feared to let him go from me,
lest the thoughts of yesterday should come back, as
I knew they would, did I give way to them. So
I told him to bide here with me till the village people
came to drive away Grendel, and that I would make
all right for him.
Then we went out of the little hut,
and sat on the logs of timber, and he told me tales
of the wood and stream and mères to which I must
answer now and then, while I pondered over what I
must do and where betake myself.
My outlawry would not be known till
the people had got home from Brent, and then but by
hearsay, till the sheriff’s men had proclaimed
me in the townships.
This place, too, where a man could
slay roe deer fearless of discovery, must be far from
notice, and I would bide here this next night, and
so make my plans well, and grow fully rested.
But always, whatever I thought, was revenge on Matelgar
uppermost.
Now Turkil would see my sword, and
then my seax, and try my helm on his head, laughing
when it covered his eyes, and I had almost bade him
come to my hall at Cannington and there try the little
weapons I had when I was his size, so much his ways
took from me the thought of my trouble. But that
slip brought it all back again, and for a time I waxed
moody, so that the child was silent, finding no answer
to his prattle, and at last leant against me and slept.
Presently, I leaned back and slept too, in the warm
sun.
I woke with the sound of chanting
in my ears, and the ringing of a little bell somewhere
in the wood; but Turkil slept on, and I would not
stir to wake him, sitting still and wondering.
Then out of the wood came towards
the hut a little procession, and when I saw it I knew
that I, as Grendel, was to be exorcised. But though
I thought not of it, exorcism there had been already,
and that of my evil spirit of yesterday, by the fearless
hand of a little child.
There came first an old priest, fully
vested, bearing a great service book in one hand,
and in the other a crucifix, and reading as he went,
but in Latin, so that I could not know what he read.
And on either side of him were two youths, also vested,
one bearing a great candle that flared and guttered
in the wind, and the other a bell, which now and then
he rang when the old priest ceased reading between
the verses.
After these came the villagers.
I saw the collier among the first, and his knees shook
as he walked. Then some of the men were armed
with bills and short swords, and a few with bows.
All, I think, had staves. After them came some
women, and I saw one who wept, looking about her eagerly.
They did not see me, for the timber
pile was next the kiln and a little behind it; so
that before they got near I was shut out from view
for a time.
While they were thus hidden from me,
they stopped and began to chant again, priest and
people in turn. After that had gone on for a little
time, Turkil woke and sat up, but I bade him in a whisper
to be silent, and putting his finger in his mouth
he obeyed, wide eyed.
Then the little bell gave a note or
two, and the reading began, so near that I could hear
the words, or seem to remember them as I know now what
they were.
“Adjuro te maleficum Grendel
vocatum diabolum ”
So far had the priest got when they
turned the corner of the house, and I stood up.
There came a shout from the men, and the exorcism went
no further, for the old priest saw at once, as it
seemed, that I was but a mortal. Not so some
of his train, for several turned to fly, sorely fearing
that the wrestle between the powers spiritual had begun,
and, as one might think, lacking faith in their own
side, for they showed little.
But Grendel or no Grendel, there was
one who thought not of her own safety. That woman
whom I had seen weeping gave a great cry and rushed
at me, seizing my little comrade from my arms, for
I had lifted him as I stood, and covering him with
kisses, chided him and petted at the same time.
It was his mother, who hearing that
her darling had wandered away from his playmates with
the intention of “seeing Grendel” as he
avowed, had dared to join the rest to learn what had
been his end.
The old priest looked on this with
something of a smile, and then turned to his people
saying:
“Doubtless the fiend has fled,
or this warrior and the child had not been here.
Search, my children, and see if there be traces left
of his presence, and I will speak to the stranger.”
They scattered about the place in
groups, for they yet feared to be alone, and the priest
came up to me, scanning my arms as he did so, to guess
my rank. My handsome sword and belt seemed to
decide him, for though the armour and helm were plain,
they were good enough for any thane who meant them
for hard wear and not for show.
“Sir,” he said, very courteously
but without any servility, “I see you are a
stranger, and you meet me on a strange errand.
I am the priest whom they call the hermit, Leofwine should
I name you thane?”
I was going to answer him as I would
have replied but yesterday morning so
hesitated a little, and then answered shortly.
“No thane, Father, but the next
thing to it a masterless man.”
“As you will, sir,” he
replied, thinking that I doubtless had my own reason
for withholding whatever rank I had. “We
meet few strangers in this wild.”
“I lost my way, Father,”
I said, “and wandered here in the night, and,
being sorely weary, slept in this empty hut till two
hours ago, waking to find yon child here.”
Now little Turkil, seeing that I looked
towards him, got free from his mother and ran to me,
saying that he must go home, and that I must speak
for him, as his mother was wroth with him for playing
truant.
The woman, who seemed to be the wife
of some well-to-do freeman, followed him, and I spoke
to her, begging her to forgive the boy, as he had
been a pleasant comrade to me, and that, indeed, I
had kept him, as he said some folk were coming from
the village.
Whereon she thanked me for tending
him, saying that she had feared the foul fiend whom
the collier had seen would surely have devoured him.
So I pleased her by saying that a boy who would face
such a monster now would surely grow up a valiant
man. Then Turkil must kiss me in going, bidding
me come and see him again, and I knew not how to escape
promising that, though it was a poor promise that could
not be kept, seeing that I must fly the kingdom of
Wessex as soon as I might. Then his mother took
him away, he looking back often at me. With them
went the most of the people, some wondering, but the
greater part laughing at Dudda Collier’s fright.
I asked the old priest where the village
might be, and he told me that it lay in a clearing
full two miles off, and that the father of Turkil
was the chief franklin there, though of little account
elsewhere. He had not yet come back from the
great Moot at Brent, and that was good hearing for
me, for though he must return next day, I should be
far by that time.
While we talked, the collier and two
or three men came to us, telling excitedly how that
the kiln was raked out, and that the cauldron was
empty doubtless the work of the fiend.
“Saw you aught of any fiend,
good sir?” asked the priest of me.
Now I remembered the roe deer in time,
and answered, “I saw nought worse than myself” but
I think that, had the collier known my thoughts, he
would have fled me as he fled that he took me for.
But that he was sore terrified I have no doubt, for
it seemed that he neither recognized me, nor remembered
what he was doing at the kiln when I came. Maybe,
as often happens, he had told some wild story to so
many that he believed it himself.
“Then, my sons,” said
the hermit, “the fiend finding Dudda no prey
of his, departed straightway, and he need fear no
more.”
However, they would have him sprinkle
all the place with holy water, repeating the proper
prayers the while, which he did willingly, knowing
the fears of his people, and gladly trying to put them
to rest.
Then the collier begged one after
another to bide with him that night, but all refused,
having other things to be done which they said might
not he foregone. It was plain that they dared
not stay; but this seemed to be my chance.
The men had many times looked hard
at me, but as I was speaking with the priest, dared
not question me as they would. So having seen
this, I said:
“I am a stranger from beyond
the Mendips, and lost my way last night coming back
from Brent. Glad should I be of lodging here tonight,
and guidance on the morrow, for it is over late for
me to be on my way now.”
That pleased the collier well enough,
and he said he would take me in, and guide me where
I would go next day. The other men wanted to ask
me news of the Moot, but I put them off, saying that
I had not sat thereon, but had passed there on my
way from Sherborne. So they were content, and
asking the hermit for his blessing, they went their
way.
Then the old priest took off the vestments
which were over his brown hermit garb, and giving
them to the youths who had acted as his acolytes bade
them depart also, having given them some directions,
and so we three, the hermit, collier, and myself,
were left alone by the hut.
The hermit bade the collier leave
us, and he, evidently holding the old man in high
veneration, bowed awkwardly, and went to fill and relight
his kiln fires.
And then the old priest spoke to me.
“Sir, I was brought here, as
you see, to drive away an evil spirit, which this
poor thrall said had appeared to him last night, and
from which he fled. Now all men know that these
fens are haunted by fiends, even as holy Guthlac found
in the land of the Gyrwa’s, being sorely
troubled by them. But I have seen none, though
I dwell in this fen much as he dwelt, though none
so worthy, or maybe worth troubling as he. Know
you what he saw? for I seem to see that your coming
has to do with this ” and the old
man smiled a little.
Then I told him how I had come unexpectedly
into the firelight, and that the man had fled, adding
that I was nigh worn out, and so, finding a resting
place, slept without heeding him; and then how little
Turkil had called me “Grendel”, bidding
me “spit fire for him to see”.
At that the old man laughed a hearty
laugh, looking sidewise to see that Dudda was at work
and unheeding.
“Verily,” he said, “it
is as I deemed, but with more reason for the collier
to fly than I had thought for truly mail-clad
men are never seen here, and thy face, my son, is
of the grimmest, for all you are so young. I
marvel Turkil feared you not but children
see below the outward mask of a man’s face.”
Now as he said that, the old man looked
kindly, but searchingly, at me, and I rebelled against
it: but he was so saintly looking that I might
not be angry, so tried to turn it off.
“Turkil the Valiant called me
Grendel, Father. Also I think you came out to
exorcise the same by name, for I heard it in the Latin.
But that was a heathen fiend.”
The hermit sighed a little and answered me.
“They sing the song of Beowulf
and love it, heathen though it be, better than aught
else, and will till one rises up who will turn Holy
Writ into their mother tongue, as Caedmon did for
Northumbria. Howbeit, doubtless those who were
fiends in the days of the false gods are fiends yet,
and if Grendel then, so also Grendel now, though he
may have many other names. And knowing that name
from their songs, small wonder that the terror that
came from the marsh must needs be he. And, no
doubt,” went on the good priest, though with
a little twinkle in his eye, “he knew well enough
whom I came to exorcise, even if the name were wrong,
had he indeed been visibly here.”
So he spoke: but my mind was
wandering away to my own trouble; and when I spoke
of Sherborne just now, the thought of Bishop Ealhstan
and his words had come to me, and I wondered if I
would tell my troubles to this old man as he bade
me. But, though to think of it showed that I was
again more myself, something of yesterday’s bitterness
rose up again as the scene at the Moot came back,
and I would not.
The priest was silent for a while,
and must have watched my face as these thoughts hardened
it again.
“Be not wroth with an old man,
my son,” he said, very gently; “but there
is some trouble on your mind, as one who has watched
the faces of men as long as I may well see. And
it is bitter trouble, I fear. Sometimes these
troubles pass a little, by being told.”
The kind words softened me somewhat,
and I answered him quietly:
“Aye, Father there
is trouble, but not to be told. I will take myself
and it away in the morning, and so bear it by myself.”
He looked wistfully at me as one who
fain would help another, saying:
“Other men’s troubles
press lightly on such as I, my son, save that they
add to my prayers.”
And I was half-minded to tell him
all and seek his counsel: but I would not.
Still, I would answer him, and so feigning cheerfulness,
said:
“One trouble, Father, I fear
you cannot help me in. I have nought wherewith
to reward this honest man for lodging and guidance nor
for playing Grendel on him, and eating his food to
boot.”
“Surely you have honest hands
by whom to send him somewhat? or he will lead you
to friends who will willingly lend to you?”
And I had neither. I, who but
a few weeks ago could have commanded both by scores and
now none might aid me. None might call me friend I
was alone. These words brought it home to me more
clearly than before, and the loneliness of it sank
into my heart, and my pride fled, and I told the good
man all, looking to see him shrink from me.
But he did not, hearing me patiently
to the end. I think if he had shrunk from me,
the telling had left me worse than when I kept it hid
from him.
When I ended, he laid his hand on
my shoulder even as the bishop had laid
his, and said:
“Vengeance is mine. I will repay, saith
the Lord.”
And I, who had never heard those words
before, thought them a promise sent by the mouth of
this prophet, as it were, to me, and wondered.
Then he went on:
“Surely, my son, I believe you
to be true, and that you suffer wrongfully, for never
one who would lie told the evil of himself as you
have told me. Foolish you have been, indeed, as
is the way of youth, but disloyal you were not.”
I was silent, and waited for him to
speak such words again. And he, too, was silent
for a little, looking out over the marsh, and rocking
himself to and fro as he sat on the tree trunk beside
me.
“Watching and praying and fasting
alone, there has been given me some little gift of
prophecy, my son; now and then it comes, but never
with light cause. And now I will say what is
given me to say. Cast out you are from the Wessex
land, but before long Wessex shall be beholden to
you. Not long shall Matelgar, the treacherous,
hold your place but you shall be in honour
again of all men. Only must you forego your vengeance
and leave that to the hand of the Lord, who repays.”
“What must I do now, Father?” I asked,
in a low voice.
“Go your own way, my son, and,
as you were bidden, depart from this kingdom as you
will and whither; and what shall be, shall be.
Fighting there is for you, both within and without:
but the battle within will be the sorest: for
I know that the longing for revenge will abide with
you, and that is hard to overcome. Yet remember
the message of forbearance.”
Then I cried out that I must surely
be revenged and the good man strove with me with many
and sweet words, till he had quieted the thought within
me again. Yet I longed for it.
So we talked till the sun sank, and
he must go ere darkness fell. But at last he
bade me kneel, and I knelt, who had thought in my pride
never to humble myself before mortal man again, till
one dealt me my death blow and I needs must fall before
him.
So he blessed me and departed, bidding
me remember that at sunrise and midday and sunset,
Leofwine, the priest, and Turkil, the child, should
remember me in their prayers. And, for he was
very thoughtful, he told me that he would take such
order with the collier that he would ask nought from
me, nor must I offer him anything, save thanks.
And he spoke to him in going.
I watched him go till I could see
him no more, and then, calling my host, supped with
him, and slept peacefully till the first morning light.