Go not eastward, go not westward,
For a stranger whom we know not.
Like a fire upon the hearthstone,
Is a neighbour’s homely daughter;
Like the moonlight or the starlight,
Is the handsomest of strangers.
Legend
of Hiawatha.
’What a laboured production
had the letter been! How many copies had the
statesman written! how late had he sat over it at night!
how much more consideration had he spent on it than
on papers involving the success of his life!
A word too much or too little might precipitate the
catastrophe, and the bare notion of his son’s
marriage with a pupil of Lady Conway renewed and gave
fresh poignancy to the past.
At first his anxieties were past mention;
but he grew restless under them, and the instinct
of going to Mrs. Ponsonby prevailed. At least,
she would know what had transpired from James, or from
Fitzjocelyn to Mrs. Frost.
She had heard of ecstatic letters
from both the cousins, and Mary had been delighted
to identify Miss Conway with the Isabel of whom one
of her school friends spoke rapturously, but the last
letter had beenfrom James to his grandmother, declaring
that Lord Ormersfield was destroying the happiness
of the most dutiful of sons, who was obedient even
to tameness, and so absurd that there was no bearing
him. His lordship must hear reason, and learn
that he was rejecting the most admirable creature
in existence, her superiority of mind exceeding even
her loveliness of person. He had better beware
of tyranny; it was possible to abuse submission, and
who could answer for the consequences of thwarting
strong affections? All the ground Fitzjocelyn
had gained in the last six weeks had been lost; and
for the future, James would not predict.
‘An uncomfortable matter,’
said Mrs. Ponsonby, chiefly for the sake of reading
her daughter’s feelings. ’If it were
not in poor Louis’s mind already, his father
and James would plant it there by their contrary efforts.’
‘Oh! I hope it will come
right,’ said Mary. ’Louis is too
good, and his father too kind, for it not to end well.
And then, mamma, he will be able to prove, what nobody
will believe that he is constant.’
‘You think so, do you?’ said her mother,
smiling.
Mary blushed, but answered, ’where
he really cared, he would be constant. His fancy
might be taken, and he might rave, but he would never
really like what was not good. If he does
think about Miss Conway, we may trust she is worthy
of him. Oh! I should like to see her!’
Mary’s eyes lighted up with
an enthusiasm that used to be a stranger to them.
It was not the over-acted indifference nor the tender
generosity of disappointment: it seemed more
to partake of the fond, unselfish, elder-sisterly
affection that she had always shown towards Louis,
and it set her mother quite at ease.
Seeing Lord Ormersfield riding into
the terrace, Mary set out for a walk, that he might
have his tete-a-tete freely with her mother.
On coming home, she met him on the stairs; and he
spoke with a sad softness and tone of pardon that
alarmed her so much, that she hastened to ask her
mother whether Louis had really avowed an attachment.
‘Oh no,’ said Mrs. Ponsonby;
’he has written a very right-minded letter,
on the whole, poor boy! though he is sure the Conways
have only to be known to be appreciated. Rather
too true! It is in his Miss Fanny hand, stiff
and dispirited; and his father has worked himself
into such a state of uneasiness, that I think it will
end in his going to Ebbscreek at once.’
‘O mamma, you won’t let him go and torment
Louis?’
’Why, Mary, have you been learning
of James? Perhaps he would torment him more
from a distance; and besides, I doubt what sort of
counsellor James is likely to make in his present
mood.’
‘I never could see that James
made any difference to Louis,’ said Mary.
’I know people think he does, because Louis gives
up wishes and plans to him; but he is not led in opinions
or principles, as far as I can see.’
‘Not unless his own wishes went the same way.’
‘At least, Lord Ormersfield will see Miss Conway!’
’I am afraid that will do no
good. It will not be for the first time.
Lady Conway has been his dread from the time of his
own marriage; and if she should come to Northwold,
he will be in despair. I do think he must be
right; she must be making a dead set at Louis.’
‘Not Miss Conway,’ said
Mary. ’I know she must be good, or he would
not endure her for a moment.’
‘Mary, you do not know the power of beauty.’
‘I have heard of it,’
said Mary; ’I have seen how Dona Guadalupe was
followed. But those people were not like Louis.
No, mamma; I think James might be taken in, I don’t
think Louis could be unless he had a very
grand dream of his own before his eyes; and then it
would be his own dream, not the lady that he saw;
and by-and-by he would find it out, and be so vexed!’
‘And, I trust, before he had committed himself!’
’Mamma, I won’t have you
think Miss Conway anything but up to his dreams!
I know she is. Only think what Jane Drummond
says of her!’
When the idea of going to see how
matters stood had once occurred to the Earl, he could
not stay at home: the ankle and the affections
preyed on him by turns, and he wrote to Sir Miles Oakstead
to fix an earlier day for the promised visit, as well
as to his son, to announce his speedy arrival.
Then he forgot the tardiness of cross-country posts,
and outran his letter, so that he found no one to meet
him at Bickleypool; and on driving up to the gate
at Ebbscreek, found all looking deserted. After
much knocking, Priscilla appeared, round-eyed and
gasping, and verified his worst fears with ‘Gone
to Bochattle.’ However, she explained that
only one gentleman was gone to dine there; the other
was rowing him round the point, with grandfather; they
would soon be back indeed they ought, for
the tide was so low, they would have to land down
by the shingle bar.
She pointed out where the boat must
come in; and thither the Earl directed his steps,
feeling as if he were going to place himself under
a nutmeg-grater, as he thought how James Frost would
receive the implied distrust of his guardianship.
The sunset gleam was fading on the
sleepy waves that made but a feint of breaking, along
the shining expanse of moist uncovered sand, when
two figures were seen progressing from the projecting
rocks, casting long shadows before them. Lord
Ormersfield began to prepare a mollifying address but,
behold! Was it the effect of light so much to
lengthen Jem’s form? nay, was it making him walk
with a stick? A sudden, unlooked-for hope seized
the Earl. The next minute he had been recognised;
and in the grasping hands and meeting eyes, all was
forgotten, save the true, fond affection of father
and son.
‘I did not expect this pleasure.
They told me you were dining out.’
’Only rowing Jem to the landing-place.
I told him to make my excuses. It is a dinner
to half the neighbourhood, and my foot is always troublesome
if I do not lay it up in the evening.’
‘I am glad you are prudent,’
said his father, dismissing his fears in his gratification,
and proceeding to lay his coming to the score of his
foot.
Fitzjocelyn did not wish to see through
the plea he was much too happy in his father’s
unusual warmth and tenderness, and in the delights
of hospitality. Mrs. Hannaford was gone out,
and eatables were scarce; but a tea-dinner was prepared
merrily between Priscilla, the Captain, and Louis,
who gloried in displaying his school-fagging accomplishments
with toast, eggs, and rashers hobbled between
parlour and kitchen, helping Priscilla, joking with
the Captain, and waiting on his father so eagerly
and joyously as to awaken a sense of adventure and
enjoyment in the Earl himself. No meal, with
Frampton behind his chair, had ever equalled Fitzjocelyn’s
cookery or attendance; and Louis’s reminiscences
of the penalties he had suffered from his seniors for
burnt toast, awoke like recollections of schoolboy
days, hitherto in utter oblivion, and instead of the
intended delicate conversation, father and son found
themselves laughing over a ‘tirocinium or
review of schools.’
Still, the subject must be entered
on; and when Lord Ormersfield had mentioned the engagement
to go to Oakstead, he added, ’All is well, since
I have found you here. Let me tell you that I
never felt more grateful nor more relieved than by
this instance of regard for my wishes.’
Though knowing the fitful nature of
Louis’s colour, he would have been better satisfied
not to have called up such an intensity of red, and
to have had some other answer than, ‘I wish
you saw more of them.’
‘I see them every year in London.’
‘London gives so little scope
for real acquaintance,’ ventured Louis again,
with downcast eyes.
‘You forget that Lady Conway
is my sister-in-law.’ Louis would have
spoken, but his father added, ’Before you were
born, I had full experience of her. You must
take it on trust that her soft, prepossessing manners
belong to her as a woman of the world who cannot see
you without designs on you.’
‘Of course,’ said Louis,
’I yield to your expressed wishes; but my aunt
has been very kind to me: and,’ he added,
after trying to mould the words to their gentlest
form, ’you could not see my cousins without
being convinced that it is the utmost injustice ’
‘I do not censure them,’
said his father, as he hesitated between indignation
and respect, ’I only tell you, Louis, that nothing
could grieve me more than to see your happiness in
the keeping of a pupil of Lady Conway.’
He met a look full of consternation,
and of struggles between filial deference and the
sense of injustice. All Louis allowed himself
to say was, however, ’Surely, when I am her
own nephew! when our poverty is a flagrant fact she
may be acquitted of anything but caring for me for for
my mother’s sake.’
There was a silence that alarmed Louis,
who had never before named his mother to the Earl.
At last, Lord Ormersfield spoke clearly and sternly,
in characteristic succinct sentences, but taking breath
between each. ’You shall have no reason
to think me prejudiced. I will tell you facts.
There was a match which she desired for such causes
as lead her to seek you. The poverty was greater,
and she knew it. On one side there was strong
affection; on that which she influenced there was none
whatever. If there were scruples, she smothered
them. She worked on a young innocent mind to
act out her deceit, and without a misgiving on on
his part that his feelings wore not returned, the
marriage took place.’
‘It could not have been all
her own fault,’ cried Louis. ’It
must have been a willing instrument much
to blame ’
His father cut him short with sudden
severity, such as startled him. ’Never
say so, Louis. She was a mere child, educated
for that sole purpose, her most sweet and docile nature
wasted and perverted.’
‘And you know this of your own
knowledge?’ said Fitzjocelyn, still striving
to find some loophole to escape from such testimony.
The Earl paused, as if to collect
himself, then repeated the words, slowly and decidedly,
’Of my own knowledge. I could not have
spoken thus otherwise.’
‘May I ask how it ended?’
’As those who marry for beauty
alone have a right to expect. There was neither
confidence nor sympathy. She died early.
I we those who loved her as
their own life were thankful.’
Louis perceived the strong effort
and great distress with which these words were uttered,
and ventured no answer, glancing hastily through all
his connexions to guess whose history could thus deeply
affect his father; but he was entirely at a loss;
and Lord Ormersfield, recovering himself, added, ’Say
no more of this; but, believe me, it was to spare
you from her manoeuvres that I kept you apart from
that family.’
‘The Northwold baths have been
recommended for Louisa,’ said Fitzjocelyn.
’Before we knew of your objections, we mentioned
Miss Faithfull’s lodgings.’
What the Earl was about to utter, he suppressed.
‘You cannot look at those girls and name manoeuvring!’
cried Louis.
‘Poor things.’
After a silence, Lord Ormersfield
added, with more anxiety than prudence, ’Set
my mind at rest, Louis. There can have been no
harm done yet, in so short a time.’
‘I don’t know ’
said Louis, slowly. ’I have seldom spoken
to her, to be sure. She actually makes me shy!
I never saw anything half so lovely. I cannot
help her reigning over my thoughts. I shall never
believe a word against her, though I cannot dispute
what you say of my aunt. She is of another mould,
I wish you could let me hope that ’
A gesture of despair from his father cut him short.
‘I will do whatever you please,’ he concluded.
‘You will find that time conquers
the fancy,’ said the Earl, quickly. ’I
am relieved to find that you have at least not committed
yourself: it would be no compliment to Mary Ponsonby.’
Louis’s lip curled somewhat;
but he said no more, and made no objections to the
arrangements which his father proceeded to detail.
Doubtful of the accommodations of Ebbscreek, Lord Ormersfield
had prudently retained his fly, and though Louis,
intending to sleep on the floor, protested that there
was plenty of room, he chose to return to the inn
at Bickleypool. He would call for Louis to-morrow,
to take him for a formal call at Beauchastel; and
the day after they would go together to Oakstead,
leaving James to return home, about ten days sooner
than had been previously concerted.
Lord Ormersfield had not been gone
ten minutes, before James’s quick bounding tread
was heard far along the dry woodland paths. He
vaulted over the gate, and entered by the open window,
exclaiming, as he did so, ’Hurrah! The
deed is done; the letter is off to engage the House
Beautiful.’
‘Doom is doom!’ were the
first words that occurred to Louis. ’The
lion and the prince.’
‘What’s that?’
‘There was once a king,’
began Louis, as if the tale were the newest in the
world, ’whose son was predestined to be killed
by a lion. After much consideration, his majesty
enclosed his royal highness in a tower, warranted
wild-beast proof, and forbade the chase to be mentioned
in his hearing. The result was, that the locked-up
prince died of look-jaw in consequence of tearing
his hand with a nail in the picture of the lion.’
‘I shall send that apologue straight to Ormersfield.’
’You may spare that trouble.
My father has been with me all the evening.’
‘Oh! his double-ganger visits
you. That accounts for your freaks.’
‘Double-gangers seldom come in yellow-bodied
flys.’
‘His lordship in propria persona.
You don’t mean it.’
’He is sleeping at the ‘George’
at Bickleypool. There is a letter coming to-morrow
by the post, to say he is coming to-day, with every
imaginable civility to you; but I am to go to the rose-coloured
pastor’s with him on Wednesday.’
‘So there’s an end of our peace and comfort!’
‘I am afraid we have sadly discomposed his peace.’
‘Did you discover whether his warnings have
the slightest foundation?’
’He told me a history that somewhat
accounts for his distrust of my aunt. I think
there must be another side to it, and nothing can be
more unjust than to condemn all the family, but it
affected him so exceedingly that I do not wonder at
his doing so. He gave no names, but I am sure
it touched him very nearly. Can you tell who
it could have been?’ And he narrated enough
to make James exclaim, ’It ought to touch him
nearly. He was talking of himself.’
‘Impossible! my mother!’ cried
Louis, leaping up.
‘Yes his own version of his married
life.’
‘How do you know? You
cannot remember it,’ said Louis, though too well
convinced, as he recollected the suppressed anguish,
and the horror with which all blame of the young wife
had been silenced.
’I have heard of it again and
again. It was an unhappy, ill-assorted marriage:
she was gay, he was cold.’
‘My Aunt Catharine says so?’
’As far as she can blame anything.
Your mother was a sweet blossom in a cold wind.
She loved and pitied her with all her heart.
Your aunt was talking, this very evening, of your
father having carried her sister to Ormersfield, away
from all her family, and one reason of her desire
to go to Northwold is to see those who were with her
at last.’
Louis was confounded. ‘Yes!
I see,’ he said. ’How obtuse not
to read it in his own manner! How much it explains!’
and he silently rested his brow on his hands.
’Depend upon it, there are two
sides to the story. I would not be a pretty,
petted, admired girl in his keeping.’
‘Do you think it mends matters
with me to fasten blame on either?’ said Louis,
sadly. ’No; I was realizing the perception
of such a thread of misery woven into his life, and
thinking how little I have felt for him.’
‘Endowing him with your own
feelings, and then feeling for him!’
’No. I cannot estimate
his feeling. He is of harder, firmer stuff than
I; and for that very reason, I suspect, suffering is
a more terrific thing. I heard the doctors saying,
when I bore pain badly, that it would probably do
the less future harm: a bad moral, but I believe
it is true of the mental as of the physical constitution.’
Answering something between a look and a shrug of James,
he mused on, aloud ’I understand
better what the wreck of affection must have been.’
‘For my part,’ said James,
’I do not believe in the affection that can
tyrannize over and blight a woman.’
’Nay, James! I cannot doubt.
My very name my having been called by
it, are the more striking in one so fond of usage and
precedent. Things that passed between him and
Mrs. Ponsonby while I was ill much that
I little regarded and ill requited show
what force of love and grief there must have been.
The cold, grave manner, is the broken, inaccessible
edge of the cliff rent asunder.’
’If romance softens the rough
edge, you are welcome to it! I may as well go
to bed!’
’Not romance the
sad reality of my poor father’s history.
I trust I shall never treat his wishes so lightly ’
Impatient of one-sided sympathy, James
exclaimed, ’As if you did not give way to him
like a slave!’
‘Yes, like a slave,’ said
Louis, gravely. ’I wish to give way like
a son who would try to comfort him for what he has
undergone.’
’Now, I should have thought
your feeling would have been for your mother!’
‘If my mother could speak to
me,’ said Louis, with trembling lips, ’she
would surely bid me to try my utmost, as far as in
me lies, to bring peace and happiness to my father.
I cannot tell where the errors may have been, and
I will never ask. If she was as like to me as
they say, I could understand some of them! At
least, I know that I am doubly bound to give as little
vexation to him as possible, and I trust that you
will not make it harder to me. You lost your
father so early, that you can hardly estimate ’
‘The trial?’ said James,
willing to give what had passed the air of a joke.
‘Exactly so Good night.’