’Which king, Bezonian?’ ­Henry IV.

Sir Roland of Provence remained in suspense whether to be a novice or an irrevocably pledged Hospitalier.  The latter was most probable; and when Adeline’s feelings had been minutely analysed, Miss Conway discovered that she had better not show her morning’s work to her sisters.

Clara and Louis pronounced Jem to be as savage as a bear all through the journey.  Clara declared it was revenge for having been civil and amiable all through the vacation; and Louis uttered a theatrical aside, that even that could not have been maintained if he had not occasionally come to Ormersfield to relieve himself a little upon their two lordships.

Laugh as he might, Fitzjocelyn was much concerned and perplexed by his cousin’s ill-humour, when it appeared more permanent than could be puffed off in a few ébullitions.  Attempts to penetrate the gloom made it heavier, and Louis resolved to give it time to subside.  He waited some days before going near James, and when he next walked to his college found him engaged with pupils.  He was himself very busy, and had missed his cousin several times before he at length found him alone.

’Why, Jem, old fellow, what are you about?  You’ve not been near my rooms this term.  Are you renouncing me in anticipation of my plucking?’

’You won’t be plucked unless you go out of your senses for the occasion.’

’No thanks to your advice and assistance if I am not.  But it would conduce to my equanimity, Jem, to know whether we are quarrelling, as in that case I should know how to demean myself.’

‘I’ve no quarrel with you.  You have far more reason ­But,’ added Jem, catching himself up, ’don’t you know I have no leisure for trifling?  The Ordination is the second week in March.’

‘The Ordination!’

‘Ay ­you know it!  My fellowship depends on it.’

‘I never liked to contemplate it.’  He sat down and mused, while James continued his occupation.  Presently he said, ’Look here.  Sir Miles Oakstead asked me if I had any clever Oxford friend to recommend.  If he comes into office, he ­’

‘I’ll be no great man’s hanger-on.’

’This matter is not imminent.  You are barely four-and-twenty.  Wait a year or two; even a few months would ­’

‘You have tried my forbearance often enough,’ broke in James; ’my object is ­as you very well know ­to maintain myself and mine without being liable to obnoxious patronage.  If you think I should disgrace the office, speak out!’

Louis, without raising his eyes, only answered with a smile.

’Then, what do you mean?  As to your notions of a vocation, ninety-nine out of a hundred are in my case.  I have been bred up to this ­nothing else is open ­I mean to do my duty; and surely that is vocation ­no one has a right to object ­’

‘No one; I beg your pardon,’ meekly said Louis, taking up his stick to go; but both knew it was only a feint, and James, whose vehemence was exhausting itself, resumed, in an injured tone, ’What disturbs you? what is this scruple of yours! ­you, who sometimes fancy you would have been a curate yourself!’

’I have just inclination enough to be able to perceive that you have none.’

‘And is every one to follow his bent?’

’This is not a step to be taken against the grain, even for the best earthly motives.  Jem!  I only beg you to ask advice.  For the very reason that you are irreproachable, you will never have it offered.’

‘The present time, for instance?’ said James, laughing as best he might.

’That is nothing.  I have no faith in my own judgment, but, thinking as I do of the profession and of you, I cannot help believing that my distaste for seeing you in it must be an instinct.’

’Give me your true opinion and its grounds candidly, knowing that I would not ask another man living.’

‘Nor me, if I did not thrust it on you.’

‘Now for it!  Let us hear your objection.’

’Simply this.  I do not see that anything impels you to take Holy Orders immediately, except your wish to be independent, and irrevocably fixed before your uncle can come home.  This seems to me to have a savour of something inconsistent with what you profess.  It might be fine anywhere else, but will it not bear being brought into the light of the sanctuary?  No, I cannot like it.  I have no doubt many go up for ordination far less fit than you, but ­Jem, I wish you would not.  If you would but wait a year!’

’No, Fitzjocelyn, my mind is made up.  I own that I might have preferred another course, and Heaven knows it is not that I think myself worthy of this; but I have been brought up to this, and I will not waver.  It is marked out for me as plainly as your earldom for you, and I will do my duty in it as my appointed calling.  There lies my course of honest independence:  you call it pride ­see what those are who are devoid of it:  there lie my means of educating my sister, providing for my grandmother.  I can see no scruple that should deter me.’

Fitzjocelyn having said his say, it was his turn and his nature to be talked down.

‘In short,’ concluded James, walking about the room, ’there is no alternative.  Waiting for a College living is bad enough, but nothing else can make happiness even possible.’

‘One would think you meant one sort of happiness,’ said Louis, with a calm considering tone, and look of inquiry which James could not brook.

‘What else?’ he cried.  ’Fool and madman that I am to dwell on the hopeless ­’

‘Why should it be hopeless? ­’ began Louis.

‘Hush! you are the last person with whom I could discuss this subject,’ he said, trying to be fierce, but with more sorrow than anger.  ’I must bear my burthen alone.  Believe me, I struggled hard.  If you and I be destined to clash, one comfort is, that even I could never quarrel with you.’

‘I have not the remotest idea of your meaning.’

’So much the better.  No, so much the worse.  You are not capable of feeling what I do for her, or you would have hated me long ago.  Do not stay here!  I do not know that I can quite bear the sight of you ­But don’t let me lose you, Louis.’

James wrung the hand of his cousin; and no sooner was he alone, than he began to pace the room distractedly.

‘Poor Jem!’ soliloquized Fitzjocelyn.  ’At least, I am glad the trouble is love, not the Ordination.  But as to his meaning!  He gives me to understand that we are rivals ­It is the most absurd thing I ever knew ­I declare I don’t know whether he means Mary or Isabel.  I suppose he would consider Mary’s fortune a barrier ­No, she is too serene for his storms ­worthy, most worthy ­but she would hate to be worshipped in that wild way.  Besides, I am done for in that quarter.  No clashing there !  Nay, the other it can never be ­after all his efforts to lash me up at Christmas.  Yet, he was much with her, he made Clara sacrifice the clasp to her.  Hm!  She is an embodied romance, deserving to be raved about; while for poor dear Mary, it would be simply ridiculous.  I wish I could guess ­it is too absurd to doubt, and worse to ask; and, what’s more, he would not stand it.  If I did but know!  I’m not so far gone yet, but that I could leave the field to him, if that would do him any good.  Heigh ho! it would be en règle to begin to hate him, and be as jealous as Bluebeard; but there!  I don’t know which it is to be about, and one can’t be jealous for two ladies at once, luckily, for it would be immensely troublesome, unless a good, hearty quarrel would be wholesome to revive his spirits.  It is a bad time for it, though!  Well, I hope he does not mean Mary ­I could not bear for her to be tormented by him.  That other creature might reign over him like the full moon dispersing clouds.  Well! this is the queerest predicament I ever heard of!’ And on he wandered, almost as much diverted by the humour of the doubt, as annoyed by the dilemma.

He had no opportunity for farther investigation:  James removed himself so entirely from his society, that he was obliged to conclude that the prevailing mood was that of not being quite able to bear the sight of him.  His consolation was the hope of an opening for some generous proceeding, though how this should be accomplished was not visible, since it was quite as hard to be generous with other people’s hearts as to confer a benefit on a Pendragon.  At any rate, he was so confident of Jem’s superiority, as to have no fear of carrying off the affection of any one whom his cousin wished to win.

James was ordained, and shortly after went to some pupils for the Easter vacation, which was spent by Louis at Christchurch, in studying hard.  The preparation for going up for his degree ended by absorbing him entirely, as did every other pursuit to which he once fairly devoted himself, and for the first time he gave his abilities full scope in the field that ought long ago to have occupied them.  When, finally, a third class was awarded to him, he was conscious that it might have been a first, but for his past waste of time.

He was sorry to leave Oxford:  he had been happy there in his own desultory fashion; and the additional time that his illness had kept him an undergraduate, had been welcome as deferring the dreaded moment of considering what was to come next.  He had reached man’s estate almost against his will.

He was to go to join his father in London; and he carried thither humiliation for having, by his own fault, missed the honours that too late he had begun to value as a means of gratifying his father.

The Earl, however, could hardly have taken anything amiss from Louis.  After having for so many years withheld all the lassez-aller of paternal affection, when the right chord had once been touched, his fondness for his grown-up son had the fresh exulting pride, and almost blindness that would ordinarily have been lavished on his infancy.  Lord Ormersfield’s sentiments were few and slowly adopted, but they had all the permanence and force of his strong character, and his affection for Fitzjocelyn partook both of parental glory in a promising only son, and of that tenderness, at once protecting and dependent, that fathers feel for daughters.  This was owing partly to Louis’s gentle and assiduous attentions during the last vacation, and also to his long illness, and remarkable resemblance to his mother, which rendered fondness of him a sort of tribute to her, and restored to the Earl some of the transient happiness of his life.

It was a second youth of the affections, but it was purchased by a step towards age.  The anxiety, fatigue, and various emotions of the past year had told on the Earl, and though still strong, vigorous, and healthy, the first touch of autumn had fallen on him ­he did not find his solitary life so self-sufficing as formerly, and craved the home feeling of the past Christmas.  So the welcome was twice as warm as Louis had expected; and as he saw the melancholy chased away, the stern grey eyes lighted up, and the thin, compressed lips relaxed into a smile, he forgot his aversion to the well-appointed rooms in Jermyn Street, and sincerely apologized that he had not brought home more credit to satisfy his father.

‘Oakstead was talking it over with me,’ was the answer; ’and we reckoned up many more third-class men than first who have distinguished themselves.’

‘Many thanks to Sir Miles,’ said Louis, laughing.  ’My weak mind would never have devised such consolation.’

’Perhaps the exclusive devotion to study which attains higher honours may not be the beat introduction to practical life.’

‘It is doing the immediate work with the whole might.’

‘You do work with all your might.’

’Ay! but too many irons in the fire, and none of them red-hot through, have been my bane.’

’You do not set out in life without experience; I am glad your education is finished, Louis!’ said his father, turning to contemplate him, as if the sight filled up some void.

‘Are you?’ said Louis, wearily.  ’I don’t think I am.  It becomes my duty ­or yours, which is a relief ­to find out the next stage.’

‘Have you no wishes?’

’Not at the present speaking, thank you.  If I went out and talked to any one, I might have too many.’

‘No views for your future life?’

’Thus far:  to do as little harm as may be ­to be of some use at home ­and to make turnips grow in the upland at Inglewood, I have some vague fancy to see foreign parts, especially now they are all in such a row ­it would be such fun ­but I suppose you would not trust me there now.  Here I am for you to do as you please with me ­a gracious permission, considering that you did not want it.  Only the first practical question is how to get this money from Jem to Clara.  I should like to call on her, but I suppose that would hardly be according to the proprieties.’

’I would walk to the school with you, if you wish to see her.  My aunt will be glad to hear of her, if we go home to-morrow.’

‘Are you thinking of going home?’ exclaimed Louis, joyfully coming to life.

’Yes; but for a cause that will grieve you.  Mrs. Ponsonby is worse, and has written to ask me to come down.’

‘Materially worse?’

’I fear so.  I showed my aunt’s letter to Hastings, who said it was the natural course of the disease, but that he thought it would have been less speedy.  I fear it has been hastened by reports from Peru.  She had decided on going out again; but the agitation overthrew her, and she has been sinking ever since,’ said Lord Ormersfield, mournfully.

‘Poor Mary!’

’For her sake I must be on the spot, if for no other cause.  If I had but a home to offer her!’

Louis gave a deep sigh, and presently asked for more details of Mrs. Ponsonby’s state.

’I believe she is still able to sit up and employ herself at times, but she often suffers dreadfully.  They are both wonderfully cheerful.  She has little to regret.’

‘What a loss she will be!  Oh, father! what will you do without her?’

’I am glad that you have known her.  She has been more than a sister to me.  Things might have been very different, if that miserable marriage had not separated us for so many years.’

’How could it have happened?  How was it that she ­so good and wise ­did not see through the man?’

’She would, if she had been left to herself; but she was not.  My mother discovered, when too late, that there had been foolish, impertinent jokes of that unfortunate trifler, poor Henry Frost, that made her imagine herself suspected of designs on me.’

‘Mary would never have attended to such folly!’ cried Louis.

’Mary is older.  Besides, she loved the man, or thought she did.  I believe she thinks herself attached to him still.  But for Mary’s birth, there would have been a separation long ago.  There ought to have been; but, after my father’s death, there was no one to interfere!  What would I not have given to have been her brother!  Well!  I never could see why one like her was so visited !’ Then rousing himself, as though tender reminiscences were waste of time, he added, ’There you see the cause of the caution I gave you with regard to Clara Dynevor.  It is not fair to expose a young woman to misconstructions and idle comments, which may goad her to vindicate her dignity by acting in a manner fatal to her happiness.  Now,’ he added, having drawn his moral, ’if we are to call on Clara, this would be the fittest time.  I have engaged for us both to dine at Lady Conway’s this evening:  I thought you would not object.’

‘Thank you; but I am sure you cannot wish to go out after such news.’

’There is not sufficient excuse for refusing.  There is to be no party, and it would be a marked thing to avoid it.’

Louis hazarded a suggestion that the meeting with Clara would be to little purpose if they were all to sit in state in the drawing-room; and she was asked for on the plea of going to see the new Houses of Parliament.  The Earl of Ormersfield’s card and compliments went upstairs, and Miss Frost Dynevor appeared, with a demure and astonished countenance, which changed instantly to ecstasy when she saw that the Earl was not alone.  Not at all afraid of love, but only of misconstructions, he goodnaturedly kept aloof, while Clara, clinging to Louis’s arm, was guided through the streets, and in and out among the blocks of carved stone on the banks of the Thames, interspersing her notes of admiration and his notes on heraldry with more comfortable confidences than had fallen to their lot through the holidays.

His first hope was that Clara might reveal some fact to throw light on the object of her brother’s affections, but her remarks only added to his perplexity.  Once, when they had been talking of poor Mary, and lamenting her fate in having to return to her father, Louis hazarded the conjecture that she might find an English home.

‘There is her aunt in Bryanston Square,’ said Clara.  ’Or if she would only live with us!  You see I am growing wise, as you call it:  I like her now.’

‘That may be fortunate,’ said Louis.  ’You know her destination according to Northwold gossip.’

’Nonsense!  Jem would scorn an heiress if she were ten times prettier.  He will never have an escutcheon of pretence like the one on the old soup tureen that the Lady of Eschalott broke, and Jane was so sorry for because it was the last of the old Cheveleigh china.’

Louis made another experiment.  ’Have you repented yet of giving away your clasp?’

’No, indeed!  Miss Conway always wears it.  She should be richly welcome to anything I have in the world.’

‘You and Jem saw much more of them than I did.’

’Whose fault was that?  Jem was always raving about your stupidity in staying at home.’

He began to question whether his interview with James had been a dream.  As they were walking back towards the school, Clara went on to tell him that Lady Conway had called and taken her to a rehearsal of a concert of ancient music, and that Isabel had taken her for one or two drives into the country.

‘This must conduce to make school endurable,’ said Louis.

‘I think I hate it more because I hate it less.’

‘Translate, if you please.’

’The first half-year, I scorned them all, and they scorned me; and that was comfortable ­’

‘And consistent.  Well?’

’The next, you had disturbed me; I could not go on being savage with the same satisfaction, and their tuft-hunting temper began to discharge itself in such civility to me, that I could not give myself airs with any peace.’

‘Have you made no friends?’

One and a half.  The whole one is a good, rough, stupid girl, who comes to school because she can’t learn, and is worth all the rest put together.  The half is Caroline Salter, who is openly and honestly purse-proud, has no toad-eating in her nature, and straight-forwardly contemns high-blood and no money.  We fought ourselves into respect for one another; and now, I verily believe, we are fighting ourselves into friendship.  She is the only one that is proud, not vain; so we understand each other.  As to the rest, they adore Caroline Halter’s enamelled watch one day; and the next, I should be their ‘dearest’ if I would but tell them what we have for dinner at Ormersfield, and what colour your eyes are!’

’The encounters have made you so epigrammatic and satirical, that there is no coming near you.’

’Oh, Louis! if you knew all, you would despise me as I do myself!  I do sometimes get drawn into talking grandly about Ormersfield; and though I always say what I am to be, I know that I am as vain and proud as any of them:  I am proud of being poor, and of the Pendragons, and of not being silly!  I don’t know which is self-respect, and which is pride!’

’I have always had my doubts about that quality of self-respect.  I never could make out what one was to respect.’

‘Oh, dear! les voila!’ cried Clara, as, entering Hanover Square, they beheld about twenty damsels coming out of the garden in couples.  ’I would not have had it happen for the whole world!’ she added, abruptly withdrawing the arm that had clung to him so trustfully across many a perilous crossing.

She seemed to intend to slip into the ranks without any farewells, but the Earl, with politeness that almost confounded the little elderly governess, returned thanks for having been permitted the pleasure of her company, and Louis, between mischief and good-nature, would not submit to anything but a hearty, cousinly squeeze of the hand, nor relinquish it till he had forced her to utter articulately the message to grandmamma that she had been muttering with her head averted.  At last it was spoken sharply, and her hand drawn petulantly away, and, without looking back at him, her high, stiff head vanished into the house, towering above the bright rainbow of ribbons, veils, and parasols.

The evening would have been very happy, had not Lord Ormersfield looked imperturbably grave and inaccessible to his sister-in-law’s blandishments.  She did not use the most likely means of disarming him when she spoke of making a tour in the summer.  It had been a long promise that Isabel and Virginia should go to see their old governess at Paris; but if France still were in too disturbed a state, they might enjoy themselves in Belgium, and perhaps her dear Fitzjocelyn would accompany them as their escort.

His eyes had glittered at the proposal before he recollected the sorrow that threatened his father, and began to decline, protesting that he should be the worst escort in the world, since he always attracted accidents and adventures.  But his aunt, discovering that he had never been abroad, became doubly urgent, and even appealed to his father.

’As far as I am concerned, Fitzjocelyn may freely consult his own inclinations,’ said the Earl, so gravely, that Lady Conway could only turn aside the subject by a laugh, and assurance that she did not mean to give him up.  She began to talk of James Frost, and her wishes to secure him a second time as Walter’s tutor in the holidays.

‘You had better take him with you,’ said Louis; ’he would really be of use to you, and how he would enjoy the sight of foreign parts!’

Isabel raised her head with a look of approbation, such as encouraged him to come a little nearer, and apeak of the pleasure that her kindness had given to Clara.

’There is a high spirit and originality about Clara, which make her a most amusing companion.’

Isabel replied, ’I am very glad of an hour with her, especially now that I am without my sisters.’

’She must be such a riddle to her respectable school-fellows, that intercourse beyond them must be doubly valuable.’

‘Poor child!  Is there no hope for her but going out as a governess?’

’Unluckily, we have no Church patronage for her brother; the only likely escape ­unless, indeed, the uncle in Peru, whom I begin to regard as rather mythical, should send an unavoidable shower of gold on them.’

‘I hope not,’ said Isabel, ’I could almost call their noble poverty a sacred thing.  I never saw anything so beautiful as the reverent affection shown to Mrs. Dynevor on Walter’s birthday, when she was the Queen of the Night, and looked it, and her old pupils vied with each other in doing her honour.  I have remembered the scene so often in looking at our faded dowagers here.’

‘I would defy Midas to make my Aunt Catharine a faded dowager,’ said Louis.

‘No; but he could have robbed their homage of half ­nay, all its grace.’

They talked of Northwold, and Isabel mentioned various details of Mrs. Ponsonby, which she had learnt from Miss King, and talked of Mary with great feeling and affection.  Never had Louis had anything so like a conversation with Isabel, and he was more bewitched than ever by the enthusiasm and depth of sensibilities which she no longer concealed by coldness and reserve.  In fact, she had come to regard him as an accessory of Northwold, and was delighted to enjoy some exchange of sympathy upon Terrace subjects ­above all, when separated from the school-room party.  Time had brought her to perceive that the fantastic Viscount did not always wear motley, and it was almost as refreshing as meeting with Clara, to have some change from the two worlds in which she lived.  In her imaginary world, Adeline had just been rescued from the Corsairs by a knight hospitalier, with his vizor down, and was being conducted home by him, with equal probabilities of his dying at her feet of a concealed mortal wound, or conducting her to her convent gate, and going off to be killed by the Moors.  The world of gaiety was more hollow and wearisome than ever; and the summons was as unwelcome to her as to Fitzjocelyn, when Lord Ormersfield reminded him that the ladies were going to an evening party, and that it was time to take leave.

‘Come with us, Fitzjocelyn,’ said his aunt.  ’They would be charmed to have you;’ and she mentioned some lions, whose names made Louis look at his father.

‘I will send the carriage for you,’ said the Earl; but Louis had learnt to detect the tone of melancholy reluctance in that apparently unalterable voice, and at once refused.  Perhaps it was for that reason that Isabel let him put on her opera-cloak and hand her down stairs.  ‘I don’t wonder at you,’ she said; ‘I wish I could do the same.’

‘I wished it at first,’ he answered; ’but I could not have gone without a heavy heart.’

’Are you young enough to expect to go to any gaieties without a heavy heart?’

‘I am sorry for you,’ said he, in his peculiar tone:  ’I suppose I am your elder.’

‘I am almost twenty-four,’ she said, with emphasis.

’Indeed!  That must be the age for care, to judge by the change it has worked in Jem Frost.’

The words were prompted by a keen, sudden desire to mark their effect; but he failed to perceive any, for they were in a dark part of the entry, and her face was turned away.

‘Fitzjocelyn,’ said the Earl, on the way home, ’do not think it necessary to look at me whenever you receive an invitation.  It makes us both appear ridiculous, and you are in every respect your own master.’

‘I had rather not, thank you,’ said Louis, in an almost provokingly indifferent tone.

‘It is full time you should assume your own guidance.’

‘How little he knows how little that would suit him!’ thought Louis, sighing despondingly.  ’Am I called on to sacrifice myself in everything, and never even satisfy him?’