Therefore, arm thee for the strife
All throughout this mortal life,
Soldier now and servant true,
Earth behind, and heaven in view. 

                                          REV.  I. WILLIAMS.

The first impression on arriving at Northwold was, that the danger had been magnified.  Mrs. Frost’s buoyant spirits had risen at the first respite; and though there was a weight on Mary’s brow, she spoke cheerfully, and as if able to attend to other interests, telling Louis of her father’s wish for some good workmen to superintend the mines, and asking him to consult his friends at Illershall on the subject.

Lord Ormersfield came down encouraged by his visit to the invalid, whom he had found dressed and able to converse nearly as usual.  She begged him to come to dinner the next day, and spend the evening with her, promising with a smile that if he would bring Louis, their aunt should chaperon Mary.

When the Earl went upstairs after dinner, the other three closed round the fire, and talked in a tranquil, subdued strain, on various topics, sometimes grave, sometimes enlivened by the playfulness inherent in two of the party.  Aunt Kitty spoke of her earlier days, and Louis and Mary ventured questions that they would have ordinarily deemed intrusive.  Yet it was less the matter than the manner of their dialogue ­the deep, unavowed fellow-feeling and mutual reliance ­which rendered it so refreshing and full of a kind of repose.  Louis felt it like the strange bright stillness, when birds sing their clearest, fullest notes, and the horizon reach of sky beams with the softest, brightest radiance, just ere it be closed out by the thunder-cloud, whose first drops are pausing to descend; and to Mary it was peace ­peace which she was willing gratefully to taste to the utmost, from the instinctive perception that the call had come for her to brace all her powers of self-control and fortitude; while to the dear old aunt, besides her enjoyment of her darling’s presence, each hour was a boon that she could believe the patient or the daughter, relieved and happy.

Louis was admitted for a few minutes’ visit to the sick-chamber, and went up believing that he ought to be playful and cheerful; but he was nearly overcome by Mrs. Ponsonby’s own brightness, as she hoped that her daughter and aunt had made themselves agreeable.

‘Thank you, I never was so comfortable, not even when my foot was bad.’

‘I believe you consider that a great compliment.’

‘Yes, I never was so much off my own mind, nor on other people’s:’  and the recollection of all he owed to Mrs. Ponsonby’s kindness rushing over him, he looked so much affected, that Mary was afraid of his giving way, and spoke of other matters; her mother responded, and he came away quite reassured, and believing Mrs. Frost’s augury that at the next call, the invalid would be in the drawing-room.

On the way home, however, his father overthrew such hopes, and made him aware of the true state of the case, ­namely, that this was but the lull before another attack, which, whether it came within weeks or days, would probably be the last.

‘Does Mary know?’

‘She does.  She bears up nobly.’

‘And what is to become of her?’

The Earl sighed deeply.  ’Lima is her destiny.  Her mother is bent on it, and says that she wishes it herself; but on one thing I am resolved:  she shall not go alone!  I have told her mother that I will go with her, and not leave her without seeing what kind of home that man has for her.  Mary ­the mother, I mean ­persists in declaring that he has real affection for his child, and that her presence will save him.’

‘If anything could ­’ broke out Louis.

’It should! it ought; but I do not trust him.  I know Robert Ponsonby as his wife has never chosen to know him.  This was not a time for disguise, and I told her plainly what I thought of risking her daughter out there.  But she called it Mary’s duty ­said that he was fully to be trusted where his child was concerned, and that Mary was no stranger at Lima, but could take care of herself, and had many friends besides Oliver Dynevor there.  But I told her that go with her I would!’

‘You to take the voyage!  Was not she glad?’

’I think she was relieved; but she was over-grateful and distressed, and entreating me to be patient with him.  She need not fear.  I never was a hasty man; and I shall only remember that she bears his name, and that he is Mary’s father ­provided always that it is fit Mary should remain with him.  Miserable!  I can understand that death may well come as a friend ­But her daughter!’ he exclaimed, giving way more than he might have done anywhere but in the dark; ’how can she endure to leave her to such a father ­to such prospects!’

‘She knows it is not only to such a father that she leaves her,’ murmured Louis.

‘Her words ­almost her words,’ said the Earl, between earnestness and impatience; ’but when these things come to pressing realities, it is past me how such sayings are a consolation.’

‘Not if they were no more than sayings.’

There was silence.  Louis heard an occasional groaning sigh from his father, and sat still, with feelings strongly moved, and impelled to one of his sudden and impetuous resolutions.

The next morning, he ordered his horse, saying he would bring the last report from the Terrace.

That afternoon, Mrs. Ponsonby observed a tremulousneas in Mary’s hand, and a willingness to keep her face turned away; and, on more minute glances, a swelling of the eyelids was detected.

‘My dear,’ said Mrs. Ponsonby, ’you should take a walk to-day.  Pray go out with the Conways.’

‘Oh no, thank you, mamma.’

’If the cousins come in from Ormersfield, I shall tell Louis to take you to look at his farm.  It would be very good for you ­My dear, what is it?’ for Mary’s ears and neck, all that she could see, were crimson.

’Oh, mamma! he has been doing it again.  I did not mean to have told you ­’ said Mary, the strong will to be calm forcing back the tears and even the flush.

’Nay, dear child, nothing can hurt me now.  You must let me share all with you to the last.  What did you say to him?’

‘I told him that I could not think of such things now,’ said Mary, almost indignantly.

‘And he?’

’He begged my pardon, and said he only did it because he thought it might be a relief to you.’

’Only; did he say ‘only?’

‘I am not sure.  At least,’ she added, with a deep sigh, ’I thought he meant only ­’

‘And you, my dearest, if you had not thought he meant only?’

‘Don’t ask me, mamma; I cannot think about it!’

‘Mary, dearest, I do wish to understand you.’

‘Is it of any use for me to ask myself?’ said Mary.

’I think it is.  I do not say that there might not be insuperable obstacles; but I believe we ought to know whether you are still indifferent to Louis.’

‘Oh, that I never was!  Nobody could be!’

‘You know what I mean,’ said her mother, slightly smiling.

‘Mamma, I don’t know what to say,’ replied Mary, after a pause.  ’I had thought it wrong to let my thoughts take that course; but when he spoke in his own soft, gentle voice, I felt, and I can’t help it, that ­he ­could ­comfort ­me ­better ­than ­any one.’

Not hesitating, but slowly, almost inaudibly, she brought out the words; and, as the tears gushed out irrepressibly with the last, she hastened from the room, and was seen no more till she had recovered composure, and seemed to have dismissed the subject.

Louis kept this second attempt a secret; he was not quite sure how he felt, and did not wish to discuss his rejection.  At breakfast, he received a note from Mrs. Ponsonby, begging him to come to the Terrace at three o’clock; and the hope thus revived made him more conversational than he had been all the former day.

He found that Mary was out walking, and he was at once conducted to Mrs. Ponsonby’s room, where he looked exceedingly rosy and confused, till she began by holding out her hand, and saying, ’I wish to thank you.’

‘I am afraid I vexed Mary,’ said Louis, with more than his usual simplicity; ’but do you think there is no hope?  I knew it was a bad time, but I thought it might make you more at ease on her account.’

‘You meant all that was most kind.’

‘I thought I might just try,’ pursued he, disconsolately, ’whether she did think me any steadier.  I hope she did not think me very troublesome.  I tried not to harass her much.’

’My dear Louis, it is not a question of what you call steadiness.  It is the old story of last summer, when you thought us old ones so much more romantic than yourself.’

‘You are thinking of Miss Conway,’ said Louis, blushing, but with curious naïveté.  ’Well, I have been thinking of that, and I really do not believe there was anything in it.  I did make myself rather a fool at Beauchastel, and Jem would have made me a greater one; but you know my father put a stop to it.  Thinking her handsomer than other people can’t be love, can it?’

‘Not alone, certainly.’

‘And actually,’ he pursued, ’I don’t believe I ever think of her when I am out of the way of her!  No, indeed! if I had not believed that was all over, do you think I could have said what I did yesterday?’

‘Not unless you believed so.’

’Well, but really you don’t consider how little I have seen of her.  I was in awe of her at first, and since, I have kept away on purpose.  I never got on with her at all till the other evening.  I don’t believe I care for her one bit.  Then,’ suddenly pausing, and changing his tone, ‘you don’t trust me after all.’

’I do.  I trust your principle and kindness implicitly, but I think the very innocence of your heart prevents you from knowing what you are about.’

‘It is very hard,’ said Louis; ’every one will have it that I must be in love, till I shall have to believe so myself, and when I know it cannot come to good.’

‘You are making yourself more simple than you really are,’ said Mra.  Ponsonby, half provoked.

Louis shut his eyes, and seemed to be rousing his faculties; then, taking a new turn, he earnestly said, ’You know that the promises must settle the question, and keep my affections fast.’

’Ah, Louis! there is the point.  Others, true and sincere as yourself, have broken their own hearts, and those of others, from having made vows in wilful ignorance of latent feelings.  It would be a sin in me to allow you to bind yourself to Mary, with so little comprehension as you have of your own sentiments.’

‘Then I have done wrong in proposing it.’

’What would have been wrong in some cases, was more of blindness ­ay, and kindness ­in you.  Louis, I cannot tell you my gratitude for your wish to take care of my dear girl,’ she said, with tears in her eyes.  ‘I hope you fully understand me.’

’I see I have made a fool of myself again, and that you have a right to be very angry with me.’

‘Not quite,’ said Mrs. Ponsonby, smiling, ’but I am going to give you some advice.  Settle your mind as to Miss Conway.  Your father is beginning to perceive that his distrust was undeserved; he has promised me not to object in case it should be for your true happiness; and I do believe, for my own part, that, in some respects, she is better fitted for his daughter-in-law than my poor Mary.’

‘No one ever was half as good as Mary!’ cried Louis.  ’And this is what you tell me!’

’Mind, I don’t tell you to propose to her, nor to commit yourself in any way:  I only tell you to put yourself in a position to form a reasonable judgment of your own feelings.  That is due to her, to yourself, and to your wife, be she who she may.’

Louis sighed, and presently added, smiling, ’I am not going to rave about preferences for another; but I do want to know whether anything can be done for poor Jem Frost.’

‘Ha! has he anything of this kind on his mind?’

’He does it in grand style ­disconsolate, frantic, and frosty; but he puzzles me completely by disclosing nothing but that he has no hope, and thinks me his rival.  Can nothing be done?’

‘No, Louis,’ said Mrs. Ponsonby, decidedly; ’I have no idea that there is anything in that quarter.  What may be on his mind, I cannot tell:  I am sure that he is not on Mary’s.’

Louis rose.  ‘I have tired you,’ he said, ’and you are very patient with my fooleries.’

‘You have been very patient with many a lecture of mine, Louis.’

‘There are very few who would have thought me worth lecturing.’

’Ah, Louis! if I did not like you so well for what you are, I should still feel the right to lecture you, when I remember the night I carried you to your father, and tried to make him believe that you would be his comfort and blessing.  I think you have taught him the lesson at last!’

‘You have done it all,’ said Louis, with deep feeling.

’And now, may I say what more I want to see in you?  If you could acquire more resolution, more manliness ­will you pardon my saying so?’

’Ah!  I have always found myself the identical weak man that all books give up as a hopeless case,’ said Louis, accepting the imputation more easily than she could have supposed possible.

‘No,’ she said, vigorously, ’you have not come to your time of life without openings to evil that you could not have resisted if you had been really weak.’

‘Distaste ­and rather a taste for being quizzed,’ said Louis.

’Those are not weakness.  Your will is indolent, and you take refuge in fancying that you want strength.  Rouse yourself, not to be drifted about ­make a line for yourself.’

‘My father will have me walk in no line but his own.’

’You have sense not to make duty to him an excuse for indolence and dislike of responsibility.  You have often disappointed yourself by acting precipitately; and now you are throwing yourself prone upon him, in a way that is unwise for you both.’

‘I don’t know what to do!’ said Louis.  ’When I thought the aim of my life was to be to devote myself to his wishes, you ­ay, and he too ­tell me to stand alone.’

’It will be a disappointment to him, if you do not act and decide for yourself ­yes, and worse than disappointment.  He knows what your devotional habits are; and if he sees you wanting in firmness or energy, he will set down all the rest as belonging to the softer parts of your nature.’

‘On the contrary,’ exclaimed Louia, indignantly, ’all the resolution I ever showed came from nothing else!’

’I know it.  Let him see that these things make a man of you; and, Louis ­you feel what a difference it might make!’

Louis bowed his head thoughtfully.

’You, who are both son and daughter to him, may give up schemes and pleasures for his sake, and may undertake work for which you have no natural turn; but, however you may cross your inclinations, never be led contrary to your judgment.  Then, and with perseverance, I think you will be safe.’

‘Perseverance ­your old lesson.’

’Yes; you must learn to work over the moment when novelty is gone and failure begins, even though your father should treat the matter as a crotchet of your own.  If you know it is worth doing, go on, and he will esteem you and it.’

’My poor private judgment! you work it hard! when it has generally only run me full-drive into some egregious blunder!’

’Not your true deliberate judgment, exercised with a sense of responsibility.  Humility must not cover your laziness.  You have such qualities and such talents as must be intended to do good to others, not to be trifled away in fitful exertions.  Make it your great effort to see clearly, and then to proceed steadfastly, without slackening either from weariness or the persuasions of others.’

’And you won’t let me have the one person who can see clearly, and keep me steady?’

’To be your husband, instead of your wife!  No, Louis; you must learn to take yourself on your own hands, and lean neither on your father, nor on any one else on earth, before you can be fit for Mary, or ­’

‘And if I did?’ began Louis.

‘You would make a man of yourself,’ she said, interrupting him.  ’That is the first thing ­not a reed shaken with the wind.  You can do it; there is nothing that Grace cannot do.’

‘I know there is not,’ said Louis, reverently.

’And, oh! the blessing that you would so bring on yourself and on your dear father!  You have already learnt to make him happier than I ever looked to see him; and you must be energetic and consistent, that so he may respect, not you, but the Power which can give you the strength.’

Louis’s heart was too full to make any answer.  Mrs. Ponsonby lay back in her chair, as though exhausted by the energy with which she had spoken the last words; and there was a long silence.  He thought he ought to go, and yet could not resolve to move.  At last she spoke ­’Good-bye, Louis.  Come what may, I know Mary will find in you the ­all that I have found your father.’

‘Thank you, at least, for saying that,’ said Louis.  ’If you would only hold out a hope ­I wish it more than ever now!  I do not believe that I should ever do as well with any one else!  Will you not give me any prospect?’

‘Be certain of your own heart, Louis!  Nay,’ as she saw his face brighten, ’do not take that as a promise.  Let me give you a few parting words, as the motto I should like to leave with you ­’Quit yourselves like men; be strong.’  And so, Louis, whatever be your fixed and resolute purpose, so it be accordant with the Will of Heaven, you would surely, I believe, attain it, and well do you know how I should rejoice to see’ ­She broke off, and said, more feebly, ’I must not go on any longer.  Let me wish you good-bye, Louis:  I have loved you only less than my own child!’

Louis knelt on one knee beside her, held her hand, and bowed down his face to hide the shower of tears that fell, while a mother’s kiss and a mother’s blessing were on his brow.

He went down stairs, and out of the house, and took his horse from the inn stables, without one word to any one.  The ostlers said to each other that the young Lord was in great trouble about the lady at the Terrace.

Mary came home; and if she knew why that long walk had been urged on her, she gave no sign.  She saw her mother worn and tired, and she restrained all perception that she was conscious that there had been agitation.  She spoke quietly of the spring flowers that she had seen, and of the people whom she had met; she gave her mother her tea, and moved about with almost an increase of the studied quietness of the sick-room.  Only, when Mrs. Frost came in for an hour, Mary drew back into a corner with her knitting, and did not speak.

‘Mary,’ said her mother, when she came back from lighting her aunt down stairs, ‘come to me, my child.’

Mary came, and her mother took both her hands.  They were chilly; and there was a little pulse on Mary’s temple that visibly throbbed, and almost seemed to leap, with fearful rapidity.

’Dear child, I had no power to talk before, or I would not have kept you in suspense.  I am afraid it will not do.’

‘I was sure of it,’ said Mary, almost in a whisper.  ’Dear mamma, you should not have vexed and tired yourself.’

‘I comforted myself,’ said Mrs. Ponsonby; ’I said things to him that I had longed to say, and how beautifully he took them!  But I could not feel that he knew what he was about much better than he did the first time.’

‘It would not be right,’ said Mary, in her old tone.

’I think your father might have been persuaded.  I would have written, and done my utmost ­’

‘Oh, mamma, anything rather than you should have that worry!’

’And I think things will be different ­he is softened, and will be more so.  But it is foolish to talk in this way, and it may be well that the trial should not be made; though that was not the reason I answered Louis as I did.’

‘I suppose it will be Miss Conway,’ said Mary, trying to smile.

’At least, it ought to be no one else till he has seen enough of her to form a judgment without the charm of prohibition; and this he may do without committing himself, as they are so nearly connected.  I must ask his father to give him distinct permission, and then I shall have done with these things.’

Mary would not break the silence, nor recall her to earthly interests; but she returned to the subject, saying, wistfully, ’Can you tell me that you are content, dear child?’

‘Quite content, thank you, mamma ­I am certain it is right,’ said Mary.  ’It would be taking a wrong advantage of his compassion.  I fall too far short of what would be wanted to make him happy.’

She spoke firmly, but her eyes were full of tears.  Her mother felt as if no one could fail of happiness with Mary, but, controlling the impulse, said, ’It is best, dearest; for you could not bear to feel yourself unable to make him happy, or to fancy he might have more peace without you.  My dear, your prospect is not all I could have wished or planned, but this would be too cruel.’

‘It is my duty to go to papa,’ said Mary.  ’What would be selfish could not turn out well.’

’If you could be sure of his feelings ­if he were only less strangely youthful ­No,’ she added, breaking off, as if rebuking herself, ’it is not to be thought of, but I do not wonder at you, my poor Mary ­I never saw any one so engaging, nor in whom I could place such confidence.’

‘I am so glad!’ said Mary, gratefully.  ’You used not to have that confidence.’

’I feared his being led.  Now I feel as sure as any one can dare of his goodness.  But I have been talking to him about self-reliance and consistency.  He is so devoid of ambition, and so inert and diffident when not in an impetuous fit, that I dread his doing no good as well as no evil.’

Mary shook her head.  Did she repress the expression of the sense that her arm had sometimes given him steadiness and fixed his aim?’

‘The resemblance to his mother struck me more than ever,’ continued Mrs. Ponsonby.  ’There is far more mind and soul, but almost the same nature ­all bright, indolent sweetness, craving for something to lean on, but he shows what she might have been with the same principles.  Dear boy! may he do well!’

‘He will be very happy with Miss Conway,’ said Mary.  ’She will learn to appreciate all he says and does ­her enthusiasm will spur him on.  I shall hear of them.’

The unbreathed sigh seemed to be added to the weight of oppression on Mary’s patient breast; but she kept her eye steady, her brow unruffled.

All the joys did indeed appear to be passing from her with her mother, and she felt as if she should never know another hour of gladness, nor of rest in full free open-hearted confidence, but she could not dwell either on herself or on the future, and each hour that her mother was spared to her was too precious to be wasted or profaned by aught that was personal.

Mrs. Ponsonby herself realized the weary soon to be at rest, the harassed well nigh beyond the reach of troubling.  She treated each earthly care and interest as though there were peace in laying it down for the last time.  At intervals, as she was able, she wrote a long letter to her husband, to accompany the tidings of her death; and she held several conversations with Mary on her conduct for the future.  She hoped much from Mary’s influence, for Mr. Ponsonby was fond of his daughter, and would not willingly display himself in his worst colours before her; and Mary’s steadiness of spirits and nerves might succeed, where her own liability to tears and trembling had always been a provocation.  Her want of judgment in openly preferring her own relations to his uncongenial sister had sown seeds of estrangement and discord which had given Mrs. Ponsonby some cause for self-reproach, and she felt great hope that her daughter would prevail where she had failed.  There was little danger that he would not show Mary affection enough to make her home-duties labours of love; and at her age, and with her disposition, she could both take care of herself, and be an unconscious restraint on her father.  The trust and hope that she would be the means of weaning her father from evil, and bringing him home a changed man, was Mrs. Ponsonby’s last bright vision.

As to scruples on Lord Ormersfield becoming Mary’s escort on the voyage, Mrs. Ponsonby perceived his determination to be fixed beyond remonstrance.  Perhaps she could neither regret that her daughter should have such a protector, nor bear to reject his last kindness; and she might have lingering hopes of the consequences of his meeting her husband, at a time when the hearts of both would be softened.

These matters arranged, she closed out the world.  Louis saw her but once again, when other words than their own were spoken, and when the scene brought back to him a like one which had seemed his own farewell to this earth.  His thread of life was lengthened ­here was the moment to pray that it might be strengthened.  Firm purpose was wakening within him, and the battle-cry rang again in his ears ­’Quit yourselves like men; be strong!’

His eye sought Mary.  She looked, indeed, like one who could ’suffer and be strong.’  Her brow was calm, though as if a load sat on her, borne too patiently to mar her peace.  The end shone upon her, though the path might be hid in gloom:  one step at a time was enough, and she was blest above all in her mother’s good hope.

A hush was on them all, as though they were watching while a tired, overtasked child sank to rest.

There was a space of suffering, when Mary and Miss Mercy did all that love could do, and kept Mrs. Frost from the sight of what she could neither cheer nor alleviate, and when all she could do was to talk over the past with Lord Ormersfield.

Then came a brief interval of relief and consciousness, precious for ever to Mary’s recollection.  The last words of aught beneath were ­’My dearest love to your father.  Tell him I know now how much he has to forgive.’

The tender, impulsive, overhasty spirit had wrought for itself some of the trials that had chastened and perfected it, even while breaking down the earthly tabernacle, so as to set free the weary soul, to enter into Rest!